Chapter 5 How obstinate our hearts are - Chapter 5.1

How obstinate our hearts are - Chapter 5.1 In the days after this, I started to go bad.The saying that men turn bad when they have money started to work on me.I started to push forward, and looked forward to Shu, and it became more and more shameful day by day.At first Ah Yan just gave in a small step, but who knew it was this small step, and gradually lost control of me completely.It's so easy for a man to turn bad.If a man wants to go bad, it only takes a blink of an eye.Because of her own infertility, Ah Yan was so jealous of me and Ding Xiang that she had to turn a blind eye and take an indifferent attitude towards this matter.She soon realized that she couldn't restrain me anymore, as soon as Ah Yan let go, I was immediately out of her control like a kite with a broken string.I began to confidently

Fallen, becoming more and more unscrupulous. In fact, since I made some money in business, people have been giving me bad ideas, persuading me to find a woman outside and have a child secretly.This is equivalent to having a mistress now. There was no such saying at that time, and I was indeed moved more than once, but because of Lilac's lesson, I knew that Ah Yan would never accept it, and I never dared to take action.I knew that if I really did this, it would mean a complete break with Ah Yan.I know that Ah Yan is very concerned about this, she can tolerate me sleeping with other women, but she absolutely cannot accept my child born through adultery with other women.On the one hand, Ah Yan wants to have a child, but on the other hand, she sees me and other people's children as the end of the world.She could not bear the testimony of a husband who was unfaithful dangling before her eyes.She couldn't accept this, it was a matter of principle and there was no room for negotiation.Ah Yan only recognizes one death reason, if I want a child, the only way is to resolutely divorce.

There is no doubt that I cannot ruin this family for the sake of my children.Although I can completely hide it from Ayan and do it quietly without anyone knowing, a friend of mine promises that he can guarantee that this matter will be done in a watertight manner.My friend said, brother, if you don’t leave a descendant, who will you give the money to in the future?I was really tempted, but I would never do this, my fourth child is definitely not this kind of man.If this child Ah Yeon can't accept it, it doesn't mean anything to me.Between the child and Ah Yan, I will choose Ah Yan without hesitation.Anyway, I can't leave Ah Yeon.I still prefer Ah Yeon anyway.There is nothing more important than Ah-yeon, no woman can truly replace Ah-yeon.My love for her, despite some setbacks and accidents, has never weakened.We are a married couple, and we share weal and woe, which is far from being comparable to ordinary relationships between men and women.I love Ayan sincerely. For other women, it is more of a man's desire. Only for her, only for Ayan, is my real liking and unforgettable love.

Ah Yan is always the sun that never sets in my heart.She is the sunshine, and I am the grass and trees enjoying the sunshine.Ah Yan is the person who stands on the ridge and flies the kite, and I am the kite flying in the sky.Ah Yan was pulling the thread gently underneath, and I was doing a happy somersault high above the sky.To be honest, if she continued to stare at me and twitch the kite string from time to time, the ending might be completely different.If she continued to control me, I wouldn't have messed around in the future, I wouldn't have fallen so hopelessly, and I wouldn't have become an out-and-out scum.It was Ayan who indulged my nonsense, it was Ayan who gave me a chance, she easily let go of the rein that should be tightly held in her hand, and as a result, my wild horse ran farther and farther.

After returning from the hospital, Ah Yan didn't immediately chase Ding Xiang away.She graciously kept Lilac, as if nothing had happened.Obviously, after a fierce ideological struggle, Ayan wanted to behave differently from other women in handling this matter. Ah Yan said: "I won't drive away a sick woman, I don't care if she leaves or not." She suppressed her anger, but her face was still ugly, gloomy, like the sky before a storm.She neither forgives me nor does she not forgive me.I didn't know what Ah Yan was thinking at the time.In fact, you will never be able to fathom a woman's mind.

I said: "Since you still agree to let her stay, I promise that there will be no such thing in the future." Ah Yan glanced at me with resentment in her eyes. I hesitated, and said, "Forget it, let her go?" "I've already said it, I don't care if she goes or not!" Next, we are in a state of no war and no peace.Ah Yan said she was going to get a divorce, so she just said it, and there was nothing to say.Not long after this, my mother's condition worsened, and Ah Yan seemed to be focusing on taking care of her.She seemed to have temporarily forgotten about it, and stayed with my mother day and night.She was really working very hard.I know it's not over, I know the storm is still behind.After a while, my mother died, and a week after her death, Ah Yan suddenly talked to me in a serious manner, saying that she would use half of our savings to start a clothing business.I was taken aback, not knowing what kind of medicine she was selling in the gourd at her whim.

In fact, Ah Yan had thought about this matter long ago, and had already thought about it, and only waited for my mother to die before negotiating with me straight to the point.Rather than negotiating with me, it might as well be a notification, or an ultimatum.I was making a lot of money back then, almost the most money I've ever made in my life, and money was very useful at that time.I didn't expect Ah Yan to raise such a question suddenly, and I was quite caught off guard.At that time, all the financial power of the family was always in the hands of Ah Yan, and all the money she earned was paid to her.To be honest, I don't even know how much money we have in savings.I don't know how to answer her. With my fourth child's temper, I don't care about the money at all. What I can't understand is why Ayan has to restart the stove when her business is doing well.

Ah Yan has already made up her mind: "If you don't agree, I will just borrow money from others, and this business will be done." She has such a temper that she won't make a decision easily. Once she decides on a dead end, if she doesn't hit Nanshan and doesn't look back, you won't be able to pull her back even if you use nine scalpers. Ah Yan said again: "I hope you don't interfere with me, I don't care about your messy things, and you don't care about my business." Later I found out that she was planning to leave me, and wanted to start her own business and make some achievements.Ah Yan believes that only when a woman is independent can she become self-reliant.Only when a woman is self-improving can she live as a human being.She has made up her mind, but I can't hold her back, and I really can't find any reason to refuse, so I reluctantly agree.So Ah Yan rented a stall outside, became the female boss, and started selling clothes in a serious manner.It is definitely a misunderstanding to do business with her character. She is too honest and kind, but the misunderstanding can only make her misunderstand, and she has to suffer.There are many things that cannot be avoided. Ah Yan met a group of friends who were in the clothing business. At that time, the clothes they sold were all smuggled goods from Shishi, Fujian. In the first year, it went downhill, and after that, it dragged on for another two years, basically losing all the principal invested, including the money earned at the beginning.

During that time, we were always in a state of separation.Ah Yan moved back to her mother's house, and because she was in the clothing business, she also started to make up and dress up, trying to make herself as fashionable as possible.For a while, she wore leather clothes from head to toe, leather jacket, leather pants, and leather boots, just like a female killer in a movie.Not to mention, it was painted with grease and powder, covered with gold and hung with silver, and there was a big gold bracelet on her hand.Ah Yan soon became a full-fledged proprietress. At that time, all the stalls selling clothes in the mall looked like her.I also went to sit with her occasionally, and she, as if nothing happened between us, chatted and laughed for a while when she was happy, and asked me sourly when she was unhappy:

"Hey, how are you and your women?" Every time I was a little embarrassed by her question, I immediately quibbled and said: "What's the matter, I have nothing to do with them at all?" "It's nothing at all?" I made a little aggrieved look. "That Lilac, you are still not willing to drive her away." Ah Yan said leisurely again, "Since you are also playing with women, why don't you play with beautiful ones? Lilac looks really miserable, isn't she beautiful? You can't play with the woman?" Ah Yan has never been a sharp woman, and when she speaks sharp words, her voice is not hers at all.When this happened, I had no choice but to keep silent.

"Why don't you talk?" "You won't believe me when I tell you." "Why don't you believe it? Why don't I believe it?" "Of course you won't believe it." "Don't believe what, don't believe that you hooked up with another girl?" I then begged for mercy, hoping to end this conversation.Except for Ah Yan, my fourth child is not the kind of person who is willing to beg for mercy easily.I know that I did something wrong, that I did something wrong, and that I was sorry for her.I said Ah Yan, we can't keep holding our breath like this, we will suffocate to death if we keep holding it like this.In fact, I have repeated this sentence countless times.This sentence actually means admitting mistakes, which means that I am apologizing to her.I hope that Ah Yan and I can restore the normal relationship between husband and wife. When I say things between us, there must be a clear statement. Ah Yan said, "What kind of explanation do you want, do you want a divorce?" Ah Yan said aggressively: "If you want a divorce, I will accompany you. I am waiting for you. Go to the court, to the Civil Affairs Bureau, wherever you want. You just need to say a word, and I will go with you right away." It never occurred to me that I would divorce Ah Yan. If we were to divorce, we would have left a long time ago.I had already made up my mind not to get a divorce, and since the conversation couldn't go on, I had no choice but to leave in dismay and fled.The days when I was separated from Ah Yan also coincided with the time when my fourth child was rapidly degrading.Carrying Ah Yan on my back, without Ah Yan's restraint, I began to degenerate completely, becoming more and more outrageous.Maybe it was because of Ah Yan's words that sting me like a bee sting. At that time, I not only continued to maintain the relationship with Dingxiang, but also slept with the most beautiful girl named Wang Li in the store. up.I want to let Ah Yan know that as long as my fourth child is willing, my fourth child can also get beautiful girls. There will be no impenetrable walls in the world. Apparently, Ah Yan has heard about it too. I don’t know where she got the wind. She sneered and said: "Fourth, you can't always eat the grass by the side of the nest." To be honest, if you want to get a woman in those days, you can only look at the people around you, you can only get the moon first, and you can only pick up the people around you.Rabbits don't eat grass by the side of the nest, and there must be plenty of tender grass outside.At that time, the social atmosphere was relatively good. Although it was reformed, it was still not open enough. You couldn’t see a single prostitute outside, and there were no escorts. Unlike now, when you have some bad thoughts, you can just go to a shampoo room. Get it all sorted out right away. It was from Wang Li that I started to become unreasonable, like a big rock on the hillside, once it really rolls, you can't stop it even if you want to.In those ugly days, I started chasing every girl who worked in the store.No matter what they look like, no matter how old they are, I'll try my luck with everyone.I became very shameless, like a bear walking into a cornfield, breaking off jade sticks whenever I saw them, breaking all the way, and if anyone refused to have an affair with the fourth child, I would immediately find an opportunity to ask her to leave.As a result, many girls left blushing within a few days after arriving.They couldn't believe that there was such a shameless boss like me in the world, and such an unscrupulous man.I made those unreasonable demands nakedly and without shame.To be honest, I didn't have much trouble during those crazy days.You just have to have the guts to do a lot of things, although sometimes you do go too far. Some girls threatened to sue me and send me to prison, and some girls’ parents came to my door and asked me to lose money. Compensation for youth loss.Fortunately, all these things were settled in the end, and the ending was without exception. It was nothing more than spending some money and asking a few friends for help. At that time, there were people who wanted to stink me and ruin my reputation. I didn’t know that my fourth child had already reached this stage anyway, so what else could be done to stink and ruin my reputation.Everything is difficult at the beginning, as long as you take the first step, you will gradually gain experience.Gradually you will know how to deal with these things, and then you will understand everything.To be honest, sometimes my fourth child is really not a reasonable person. I have committed a lot of crimes, but when it comes to things like men and women, no matter how fucking shameless I am, no matter how fucking shameless I am, I am never rude. here.What kind of overlord pushes his bow hard, regardless of whether people agree or not, he does it hard, and he does it when he is pressed on the bed. That is definitely not my fourth child.My attitude has always been very clear, and I like to put this matter clearly on the table.I like to tell those girls straightforwardly, I tell them clearly that I am a bad man, and that this is the bad thing about me. I said to them unabashedly: "You hang around in front of me all day long, flying around like butterflies under my nose, you must know that this disturbs me too much and has already affected my work. You distract me, and it's your fault, so if you don't do it and let me achieve that goal, I can't work well. If I don't work well, everyone will have nothing to eat." Among all those women, Lilac is the one who suits my heart the most and understands my thoughts the most.Of course, this is not to say that there is much tacit understanding between us in doing that.In fact, Dingxiang is the same as Ayan, when doing that thing, it always makes you feel lost.In this regard, they are like a pair of twin sisters, they are absolutely indifferent.In bed, they never know what to do, as if it is always your business, you are working alone.In other words, they never reject you mentally, but even if the body has accepted you, they are always in a state of rejection.They always make you feel like it's no fun at all.Always makes you realize they're making a sacrifice.When you have sex with them, there is always a confusion of getting lost, not knowing where to go, not knowing whether to advance or retreat.You even feel like a rapist, because the place is dry and astringent like autumn grass, like a dry river bed, no matter how hard you dig, how deep you dig, you can't get any. water comes. The Ding Xiang I mentioned understands my mind best and is the most understanding, because she is a good helper by nature.In this regard, Ding Xiang is simply a genius, knowing exactly what to do by instinct.You can't get too much pleasure from her, and you can't find any great pleasure, but she will consciously look for this kind of fun and pleasure for you.At that time, Ding Xiang became my best housekeeper. She not only helped me take care of the big and small things in the store, and arranged this and that, but also knew what kind of girl was more suitable for me like an outstanding female union cadre.She knows how to make me happy. Every once in a while, when I start to get tired of the girls around me and need some new stimulation, I will go to the nanny market to find girls, accompanied by Lilac.In those years, the nanny market was my hunting ground, where there were too many opportunities and all kinds of prey.The way I did it at that time was comparable to Lin Biao’s son Lin Liguo’s selection of concubines during the Cultural Revolution. To be honest, it was even better than Lin Liguo’s. After all, he was chosen by others, but I did it myself. to pick.The feeling of picking by yourself is completely different. It’s like when you go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, you don’t just throw them into the basket and get the vegetables. Just pick up two turnips and pick three green vegetables and you’re done.The joy of grocery shopping lies in the choice. When choosing, you have already thought about how to make the dish when you go home, and how to make the best taste. There is really no need to teach to be bad, you will soon become a real hunter without a teacher.You can tell pretty quickly that the girls are having sex, and you'll soon see that there are things you just intuitively know what to do about.Of course, in order to do these things well, and to do them smoothly, it is inseparable from Ding Xiang's seamless cooperation.Ding Xiang is a very rare and good helper. She will ask the other party in the most straightforward words. In public, some questions are only more appropriate for a woman to ask.For Ding Xiang, it is not too much to ask any questions. She can frankly ask others about various situations, marriage, family, physical condition, how many children she has had, and even whether she has undergone vasectomy. Ding Xiang fulfilled her obligations very conscientiously. When conducting these questions, the people being questioned often mistakenly thought that we were husband and wife, so they answered these questions seriously and truthfully. The women who were questioned would say, "Miss Boss, you can rest assured that I will do anything." Ding Xiang and I never waste time on those girls who just came out of the countryside.The city is a big dye vat. If girls want to learn to be bad, they have to go through a slow training process. I am impatient and can't wait.At that time, I was already a man of forty years old.I would like to be able to skip these processes at once, omit these troubles, and prefer to be straightforward.To be honest, I don't like unmarried girls, or in other words, my fourth child doesn't like virgins.I have never been superstitious about lighting red candles, or opening buds. I know a friend who is very good at this. When the business situation is not good, and the business is losing money, he will do everything possible to find a little girl to do it. It is said that when you see red, you can turn bad luck into good luck. My fourth child hates this the most. I think it is too much work, too immoral, and it will cause a series of troubles.That friend of mine was later arrested for this matter and sentenced to several years in prison.I think it's not worth the gain, it's not worth it at all.You know, girls from the countryside care about this very much, and they regard this first time as a grand occasion.It is much easier for a girl who has had it for the first time. It is also a disaster. I would rather make other people’s stomachs bigger. You will make other people’s stomachs bigger. This will give you a sense of accomplishment, just like a farmer grows crops. Melon, sow beans and get beans, you have harvested what you planted, but if you break the hymen of others, what is that? You just destroyed an originally beautiful thing, you Broken a perfectly good vase. If you make someone else's belly bigger, you can just go for an abortion. You can't afford to pay for that layer of membrane. This is not something that can be done with money.Of course, now it is said that it is possible to make a fake hymen, and there are advertisements in the newspapers. For a little money, the thing can be sewn up and mended.What I want to say is, fake or fake, the film in your brain, no matter how great your skills are, you still can't make up for it.You said why did you go to this trouble, why did you bother.Are you sick?To be honest, as soon as you go to the nanny market, you will know everything and understand everything.You can tell at a glance that those of us who are small bosses are actually not good things.You will find that we small bosses look at women in the wrong way.These small bosses who were the first to become self-employed back then are now rich owners. Men must not be rich, especially men like us who are not of high quality. Men become bad when they have money, and the sign of being bad is nothing more than liking girls.I like girls who have a little bit of rotten experience, in other words, I don't care if they have been played by other guys.In those few years, the atmosphere changed as soon as it was said, and young girls flocked to the city one after another. A considerable part of them were completely different from the situation in previous years.In the past, they were all willing to work as babysitters, but now they all feel that being a babysitter is not good and not free, and they prefer to work in small restaurants like ours.Knowing that the little bosses are not good things, knowing that these people are perverts, each of them is vicious, and each of them is eyeing, but there are quite a few lambs who are not afraid of death, and they like to take risks and sneak into the wolf pack.Girls are easy to be deceived when they are innocent, and when they are deceived, they will become more courageous after being deceived.If you are courageous, you will change jobs at every turn. Once you are played by this small boss, you will be played by the next small boss. Since you have suffered a loss once, you don't care about the second time. I've never seen a woman who was more accessible to men than Jean.I have never seen a woman who is as unscrupulous as Jean, who doesn't care about men and women at all. The first minute I saw her, Jean winked at me unabashedly.This woman is really heartless by nature.Ding Xiang asked her what she would do, and she felt good and said that she would do everything and could do anything.When she said that she could do anything, she looked at me deliberately pretending to be embarrassed, and her face turned red.Ding Xiang continued to interrogate her, but Qin didn't hide anything, and answered whatever she asked, even telling about the quarrel with the proprietress of the last owner.I stood aside, folded my arms and listened, interjecting from time to time.Soon we all knew her life experience, not only knew, but almost clearly.This is a married woman, just twenty-six years old, with a five-year-old son.The man had an accident when he was working in Shanghai three years ago and was killed by a falling floor. After that, he left his son with his parents-in-law, and went out on his own. He changed jobs countless times in the past few years. Also changed several men. Needless to say, this type of woman suits my taste best.On the way back with the piano, she made me feel very excited.I wish I could get things done with her that night.She also seemed to have sensed the impatience of my boss. Along the way, she seemed a little restless, and even deliberately teased me.The figure of the qin is very beautiful, where it should be big, it should be big, where it should be small, it should be small, where it should be convex, it should be convex, and where it should be concave, it should be concave.Walking with the lame and ugly Lilac, Qin looks like a stunner, like a goblin.Her every move is to seduce you, she is wearing the cheapest dress, so thin and sheer, the briefs and bra inside are clearly visible. I walked behind them, daydreaming as I walked. Fortunately, I have such a friend as Laoju.Lao Ju is definitely a friendly enough friend, responsive to every request, I don’t know how much he has helped my fourth child.During those years, I have troubled him time and time again, asking him to help me with abortions, and asking him to help me with those accidents, not less than twenty times. Once, Lao Ju finally couldn't bear it anymore, and sighed: "Fourth, I don't like to inquire about other people's affairs. I don't understand why you always have these things?" I put on an innocent look: "I don't want to do this either, but I can't help it because they entrusted me." "What is someone entrusting you, fourth child, tell me the truth, what is going on?" "What's going on?" "What is the relationship between you and these women? Let me tell you, if it doesn't matter, don't come to me. I also don't understand, you are a big man, how can you have this kind of thing all day long. I really don't think so I understand, you can't always keep this kind of thing going, hey, are you tired? Let me tell you, it's the same sentence, it's not your fault in the future, don't bother me. " I deliberately said ambiguously: "You just think it was me who caused the trouble." "Why?" "It depends on our friendship for so many years." "This kind of thing doesn't talk about friendship." "How can you say that, friendship, or friendship." I really want to joke with Laoju, and I want to say that you, Laoju, have not suffered any disadvantages. You have seen almost all the women who have a relationship with me, and you have touched some of them. What a shame. , What kind of friendship is this, what else do you want.To be honest, becoming friends with Lao Ju was really awkward at the beginning.How did the fourth child happen to make such a friend.A man chooses to be a gynecologist. It sounds a bit harsh to say, how can a man be able to do such a job.But this job also has an advantage, that is, to enjoy the beauty of the world, what a fucking benefit, what a blessing.Of course I won't make such jokes with Lao Ju, I never like to joke about such things.Later, it was no longer Lao Ju who did it himself. He is now a very famous vice president. It is not necessary to trouble him for general minor operations, and I don’t need to accompany him in person. Often, it can be easily done with a phone call. Go, find the old house first, and then arrange a young doctor, and get rid of the matter easily. To be honest, making someone else's belly bigger will always give people a glorious sense of accomplishment.I know it sounds weird, but that's what the fourth child thinks, and that's what he does.People always have some weird ideas and do some inexplicable things.Although I can't have my own children, the facts have proved that my fourth child can have children, not only can have, but also many, many.I did everything possible to prove my ability.To say that this is also Ah Yan's fault, it is because of her, because she can no longer get pregnant, that makes me a little abnormal and a little unreasonable.It is indeed a pity that I cannot have a child. Since Ah Yan's field can't grow any crops, I go to other people's fields to farm wildly, and I never think about contraception.Not only did I not consider contraception, I even consciously made those girls' bellies bigger. I became a hard-working and brave farmer, and I became a good farmer. I only know how to work hard all day long, and I only know how to work, and I never ask about the harvest.I know what Ah Yan is most worried about is that my fourth child will make some kind of illegitimate child.This is something that Ah Yan can't accept, it's Ah Yan's heart disease, once this matter becomes a reality, the fate between me and Ah Yan will really come to an end, we will have to divorce if we don't want to.Ah Yan likes children very much, but she only likes those children who have nothing to do with me.So, in all those years of messing around, no matter how outrageous things were, I stuck to the rules of the game.No matter how nonsense, the rules of the game must be strictly enforced.No matter who made the belly bigger, the ending must be accompanied by Ding Xiang to the old house for an abortion.Ding Xiang herself has been to the hospital three times by setting an example. In this regard, she is already familiar with the way, and she knows that I will never make concessions, and that there is no room for negotiation. One day, I went shopping with Lilac and Qin.As a great chef, I always like to buy vegetables in person, because what kind of vegetables to buy is an important knowledge. Those who can cook must first learn to buy vegetables, and know how to pick and choose when buying vegetables. Also a pleasure.After the groceries were bought, let Qin hire a small tricycle to take them back. As for me, I went to the nanny's market with Ding Xiang. Of course, there is no kindness in going to that kind of place.I forgot to mention that just not far from my restaurant, there is a new nanny market, which is much larger than the original one on Changjiang Road.In addition to wandering around the vegetable market, I have always maintained a special passion for the nanny market. Sometimes I am not in a hurry to find someone. I just like to come and see if there is a girl I like.There were a lot of people that day, and there was a lot of chaos. It was probably a rest day, and I saw Xiaoyu at a glance.From a distance, I saw her standing there, her eyes looking towards me.Wandering around the babysitter's market, it's not surprising to see some familiar faces, though I wasn't expecting to run into little fish. I noticed her because this girl used to work in the restaurant next door to me for a while, and left a deep impression on me, but then disappeared for some reason, and I really miss her.I remember that for a while, Xiaoyu often sat at the door picking vegetables with other girls.At that time, on our narrow street, several restaurants opened one after another. Everyone was in the restaurant business, and the competition was fierce.One day I walked past them, and the girl picking vegetables with Xiaoyu said something about me. She listened, giggled, and stared at me while laughing.I noticed that she was smiling at me, and she also saw my eyes, still smiling brightly.At that time, she was wearing a red dress and sitting there, with her legs spread wildly. As soon as she saw my gaze, she immediately closed her legs, but even in a split second, I still saw the flowery underpants inside. At that time, many girls who had just come out of the countryside were wearing those kind of rustic shorts. I immediately thought of the scene when I jumped in the queue in the countryside, and immediately thought of some little girls in the countryside at that time, and I felt a little restless in my heart. .Xiaoyu looks a lot like the youngest daughter of Ah Yan's neighbor when she jumped in the queue. She is very similar in height, age and age.I remember that when I went to play in the collective household where Ayan lived, the neighbor’s house had a big yellow dog, and it would bark when it saw me.In order to please the big yellow dog, I often have to please the neighbor's little daughter first.The neighbor's youngest daughter also likes me very much. When I go to Ah Yan's place, she always finds excuses to come over to play and sit and listen to us. Xiaoyu has not yet turned eighteen this year.Normally, I wouldn't be tempted by a girl her age.I've already said that the fourth child doesn't like bratty brats.But I can't tell what moved me about this girl. In a word, she suddenly attracted me, so that I wanted to get her with all my heart.Obviously, we were one step late. When Ding Xiang and I got there, another couple who owned a restaurant were also selecting candidates. They had already selected Xiaoyu and were negotiating the price with her.I couldn't help but feel very sorry for this, my eyes couldn't help biting at her, staring at her and refusing to leave, Ding Xiang, who was standing by the side, saw my thoughts at a glance, Ding Xiang could understand me best, so she immediately used some tricks , and dug the little fish over. Ding Xiang pulled Xiao Yu aside, and gently asked her how much wages she wanted.Xiaoyu reported a number truthfully, and Ding Xiang said, I will add another five yuan to you, and you should hurry back to that house.Xiaoyu was a little skeptical. The five yuan at that time was equivalent to the current first-level salary, and he was immediately shaken.She still doesn't seem to believe that there will be such a good thing in the world. The couple who were negotiating the price with Xiaoyu didn't expect Ding Xiang to poach the wall blatantly, and his face immediately looked bad. The proprietress was not very satisfied with Xiaoyu. Seeing her Because someone backed her up, she refused to make the slightest concession on salary, so she sneered and said: "In these days, whoever has the most money is really the one who is ruthless, so forget it, you can go to those who have more money." The proprietress gave Ding Xiang a hard look, and deliberately set her eyes on Ding Xiang's lame leg, showing a look of disdain. The proprietress said again: "If you have money, you don't need to come here to fight fiercely!" I stood by without saying a word. The proprietress turned her head and glared at me angrily.To be honest, I really made her look a little embarrassed.This little woman looks petite, looks fierce, and has an unprovoked tone, obviously the kind of role that is unreasonable and unforgiving.She was cursing and talking to her man, and while talking, she still wanted to rush over, but fortunately, the man was a troublemaker, so he kept silent.I still didn't say a word, Ding Xiang didn't speak, and she let her go. Seeing that we didn't dare to answer her words, the proprietress finally had some face, and took the man to find someone else resentfully. I let out a long sigh, not because Lilac kept the little fish, but because I finally got rid of such an embarrassing situation.This matter was done really badly, and it was a bit embarrassing.To be honest, I'm not satisfied with Ding Xiang's actions, she has gone too far, she shouldn't poach people like this, and why add five yuan to Xiao Yu casually.Of course, I don't feel sorry for the five dollars. Five dollars is a trivial matter. I'm worried that other girls will be unhappy if they find out.More money is not necessarily a good thing.Girls are small-minded and not big-hearted, so I need a bowl of water to keep them calm. Ding Xiang also realized that this was a problem. On the way back, she repeatedly told Xiao Yu not to tell others about her salary.不用说，像小鱼这样的小女孩，一看就知道不能干，一看就知道不怎么会做事。在我们那条街上，女孩子来来去去，是很平常的事情。隔壁餐馆的老板知道我雇用了小鱼，就对我说这丫头笨得狠，而且绝对的没心没肺，对她再好也没有用的。小鱼果然是有些缺心眼，关照她不要说的话，第一个月工资还没有拿到手，已经毫无保留地把她加五块钱的事情全说出来了。店里几个女孩立刻有些不高兴，立刻搭起档来捉弄她。都欺负她是新来的，与那 些已经出来一段时间的女孩相比，小鱼要单纯得多，要容易哄容易骗得多。人家问她为什么要离开原来的地方，小鱼就说原来的那家老板和伙计不怀好意，都对动她动手动脚。 她的话还没说完，听的人哈哈大笑，琴一本正经地对她说： “对你动手动脚有什么可奇怪的，谁叫你长得那么标致？” 小鱼立刻脸红了。 琴接着又说：“丫头，你等着吧，你以为我们老板会放过你！” 其他的女孩都说：“我们老板比谁都流氓，他要是放过你才怪呢。” 那时候的小鱼出落得像朵鲜花似的。我当然不会放过她，要说当时我和畜生也没什么大区别。我那时候就是个畜生。在小鱼身上，我费了很多心思，用了不少手腕，一度甚至都想到了放弃，直到最后，才将她弄到手。 说老实话，把小鱼弄到手确实是花了些力气。由于其他的几个女孩捣乱，小鱼从一开始就对我心存恐惧，总是想方设法躲避我，尽可能不和我单独在一起。我对小鱼的态度，与对别的女孩也不一样。我当时的耐心好得连自己都不太相信。对别的女孩，我像个流氓，直来直去，对小鱼，我更像个谦谦君子。说老实话，按照我对女人的态度，换了别的女孩，我早就放弃了，偏偏对于小鱼，怎么都是有些舍不得。 那一段时候，我是根本没有什么羞耻之心，如今回想起来，说是十恶不赦绝不为过。不过，虽然我作恶多端，做了不少坏事，却从来不动粗的。我只是赤裸裸地对她们表明态度，在这干活，不让老四称心如意，是不可能干长久的。我总是这样赤裸裸地威胁她们。赤裸裸的最大好处就是，亲兄弟明算账，有什么都放在桌边上，愿打愿挨，绝不强求。正派的女孩很快便吓走了，能留下来的迟早都会成为我的掌中之物。我老四就有这个本事，我既然喜欢她们，也能让她们喜欢我。我们好得就跟一家人一样，我们像一家人那样生活在一起。 我其实也把她们一个个都宠坏了。当时电视机还不是很普及，我就给她们买了一台黑白的十二寸电视机，放在店堂里让那大家看。因为有了这台电视机，常常会耽误了做生意。那时候也没什么好节目，可是电视机成天开在那里，我手下的那些女孩，干活不可能不分心。记得演《上海滩》的时候，放到最后几集，差不多要结尾了，突然有个朋友要办两桌酒，替儿子过生日。提前一天就跑来预约，我的那些老客户都是预约好的，因为这样我可以事先配菜。结果朋友刚说明来意，我的那些女孩都急了，在一旁对我直使眼色。 我于是对朋友说：“你儿子这生日真不是时候，能不能改一天。” 朋友听了，眼睛发亮，说：“老四，你这是什么话，那有随随便便改生日的。” 我也知道自己说错了，便说怎么会这么凑巧，好事都撞到一起了。我告诉朋友，说我是从来不看的什么电视剧的，可是我的这些丫头，一个个都走火入魔，都快疯掉了，都跟要发作神经病一样，我就怕到时候会忙不过来。 那朋友听了我的话，笑了，回过头来，看了看姑娘们，很认真地说： “总不至于为了这些丫头，你连生意都不做了吧。不过，老四，这香港的《上海滩》确实好看，不瞒你说，我也是一集都不耽误。” “改在中午怎么样？” “中午？” 朋友很认真地琢磨着，那些女孩一个个瞪大着眼睛看着他。 我说：“就中午，为什么不能是中午？” 朋友说要回去和老婆商量一下，他似乎也觉得这是不错的想法，大家都不耽误。《上海滩》当时真的是很多人要看，朋友告诉我不仅是他要看这连续剧，他老婆也喜欢看，还有那些要请的亲戚熟人都要看。既然大家都要看，把时间挪到中午也不失为是个好主意。朋友一边离去，嘴里还在一边念念有辞地嘀咕。他前脚走，店里的这些女孩立刻就欢呼起来。 说老实话，我喜欢我的这些女孩，她们也喜欢我这个当老板的，因为我时时刻刻都像老大一样关照她们。在她们心目中，我是个挺不错的老板，虽然有些流氓好色，总的来说还算是通情达理。在她们的心目中，我这个人既像老板，又不像老板。那一阵我虽然挣钱不少，人却是很辛苦，每天都累得腰酸背痛，累得死去活来。要知道，我这个当老板干的活最多，因为店里就我一个男的，不仅要当大厨师，凡是要用些力气的活，都让我老四一个人包揽了。我这个老板的比谁的苦吃得都多，我这个老板就跟《红色娘子军》里的党代表一样。 人难免喜新厌旧，过一段时候，我就会产生换换口味的念头，这心里又开始蠢蠢欲动。我不会轻易赶那些女孩走，但是，通常情况下，在我餐馆里干活的女孩，如果人数太多了，我便会让她们自己在窝里斗，让她们争风吃醋，让她们吵得不可开交，让她们自己决定究竟是否应该离开。在这方面，我老四确实也有不地道的地方。在这时候，我老四也会玩点小小的滑头。我看中的都是些智商不高的女孩，我喜欢那些傻里傻气的丫头，对付她们你不用花什么力气，对付她们你肯定稳操胜券。和这些女孩打交道是很好玩的事情，对付她们我自有一套好办法。我让丁香出头露面管理她们，让丁香得罪她们，让丁香最终决定她们的去留。 过了一段时候，丁香就会把她们招集在一起开会，让她们讨论，让她们互相攻击，互相揭短。有时候，她们谁也不肯离开，都憋着一口气，最后只好用投票的方法，决定谁应该离去。丁香说我的这办法很坏，是借刀杀人，是随手扔一把枪在地上，让大家去抢这把枪，然后让她们拿着这把枪去打死别人。这些丫头很轻易地便落入我的圈套，她们斗得很厉害，斗得死去活来。这个游戏规则十分简单，简单而且有效。她们很快也找到了对付我的办法，同样是简单而有效，不久，丁香和琴再拉上了涉世不深的小鱼，结成了一个牢不可破的联盟，这三个人走到了一起，形成了一个铁三角，每次准备要淘汰谁的时候，她们都是惊人的一致。 过了差不多有三个月，我才第一次把小鱼带到我的住处。我把她骗到了我的那间小屋里，东扯西拉地说了会话，假装很关心她。我绕了半天圈子，终于露出庐山真面目。她虽然早有这方面的心理准备，仍然是吓得哇哇大叫。我那房间的后窗紧靠着大街，她一喊，外面的人听得一清二楚。我说你喊什么，要是不愿意，你就不应该来，来了，就说明你不应该不愿意。她一喊，我也乱了分寸。我说你放心，老四又不会硬来的，我说老四什么时候硬来过的，老四从来不喜欢那些不愿意的女孩，你有什么好害怕。 小鱼听我这么一说，总算不叫喊了，脸红得像块红布，眼睛里全是恐惧。她的皮肤很白，农村女孩中很少能见到像她这么白白净净的。我既然已经把她骗到自己的住处，自然不肯轻易失去机会。我告诉她，在我这干活，这其实是很自然的事情，要不然你干吗还要留在我这呢。我又说，要是我老四不喜欢你，怎么会把你留下来呢。小鱼很认真地听我说着，那表情好像是完全明白我的意思，好像是完全赞同我的观点，但是就是不肯就范。 我说：“如果你肯听我的话，绝对不会吃亏，绝对不会有什么事。” 我告诉她，我真的是很喜欢她。 我这人从来就不会甜言蜜语，对别的女孩子，没有这样好声好气过。我不得不用些好话哄她，说了半天，她很认真地听我说，最后仍然是不行，仍然是说要走，要离开我。 我于是有些来火，气鼓鼓地说，别以为你真有什么了不起，别以为我会跪下来求你，我告诉你，这件事就好比秃子头上的疤，是明摆着的，迟早就是这么回事，你搭什么狗屁的架子，充什么正经，说老实话，如果我放了你，对你有所例外，这不是自己坏了自己规矩吗。我要她想明白，老四身边并不缺女人。 她似乎是被我说服了，也明白她这么做是有些不对，已经惹我生气了，但是还是要离开。我黔驴技穷，很失态地喊她滚。她看我真的翻脸了，扭头就走，走出去一截路，我追了出去，让她把丁香喊来，然后又补了一句，让丁香和琴一起来，让她们两个人都过来。 不一会，丁香和琴赶来了，问我有什么事。我还在生气，板着脸，不愿意说话。丁香身上系着一条围裙，好像已经知道怎么回事，又好像什么都不知道。门还敞开在那，我让琴把门关上，把保险也上起来。她们不明白我准备干什么，大眼瞪小眼地看着我。 我说：“小鱼这丫头真气死我了，害得我他妈憋了一肚子邪火。” 她们不吭声。 我又说了一句：“我非收拾她不可！” 琴懒洋洋地说：“你要收拾她，也不用把我们两个人都喊来呀。” 这以后，我不止一次想过要解雇小鱼。既然她不愿意跟我有那种事，既然她更愿意做一个正经的女孩，我以为她会主动提出来要离开，可是她就跟没事一样，就跟什么也没发生过一样，继续干她的活，继续心安理得地拿她的那份工资。她继续在我的眼皮底下打转，我不愿意再在她身上花太多功夫，在女人的事情上，我一直就是这个态度，愿意就愿意，不愿意就拉倒。硬扭的瓜不甜，硬摘的柿子不熟，我承认自己对小鱼有些特别的心肠，但是，我再也不愿意在她身上花功夫了，我不愿意费那个事。老四绝对不是那种放长线钓大鱼的男人，我可是没有那个耐心，也没有那么好的脾气。 转眼就要过年了，小鱼母亲突然来接女儿，这女人冒冒失失来了，来了就开口问我再借三个月的工钱。她看上去已不年轻，土头土脑，是那种真正的农村妇女。我立刻说这怎么可能，我怎么知道你女儿还会不会来，再说，我也不想再雇佣她了，我早就不想要她。 小鱼母亲连声恳求我，这女人当过妇女队长，能说会道，说起好话来不怕你肉麻，不怕你起鸡皮疙瘩，好话一串连着一串，一口一个蔡老板，叫得十分亲热。我说你求我没用，也用不着给我灌米汤，你说一百句，还不如你女儿说一句，要是让小鱼求我，我可能还会考虑考虑。小鱼呆呆地站在一旁，眼泪汪汪很委屈的样子，听我这么一说，仍然是不吭声，她母亲于是就一个劲地责怪她，责怪她不懂事，责怪她不肯听蔡老板的话，又说她从小就任性，求我不要跟她计较，不要和一个小孩子顶真。然后她就继续罗索，像控诉万恶的旧社会一样，说她家里怎么急需要救命的钱，说小鱼大哥的儿子要念书，说小鱼的刚娶媳妇小哥哥要盖新房，反正说来说去，这三个月的工钱，蔡老板是非预付不可了。 当时我就想，除非小鱼开口求我，只要她认个错，服个软，什么还都可以商量。可是她坚决不吭声，最后，反倒是我有些忍不住了，对她母亲说： “你这女儿也太倔犟了，让她开口求人就这么困难。” 小鱼母亲于是破口大骂她女儿，骂了半天，小鱼仍然是不吭声。母女俩都流起眼泪来，母亲是愤怒，女儿是委屈。一个硬逼着，一个坚决不服从，小鱼母亲竟然要动手打女儿。 我说：“算了，算我倒霉。” 我神使鬼差地就预付了三个月的工钱给小鱼。这丫头真是够倔犟的，她母亲拿了钱千恩万谢，说蔡老板你真是好人，你良心真好，小鱼却连个笑脸都没肯给，头也不回地就走了。过了正月十五，除了丁香无处可去，留守在店里，没有回乡下过年之外，其他的女孩纷纷地都回来了。只有小鱼迟迟没到，大家都知道已预付了三个月的工钱给她，都在暗笑我上当受骗，竟然会让小鱼这样的傻丫头给耍了。 “小鱼怎么还不来呀，估计是不会来了，”她们故意在聊天时这么说。 小鱼临走，她母亲信誓旦旦地说好，一过了年初五，肯定让小鱼出来，不出来也要赶她出来。说老实话，我当时就心存疑惑，根本不相信这个鬼话。初五刚过，我就在想，小鱼是不会来的。等过了正月十五，我基本上死心了，很显然，她才不会来呢，换了谁都不会来，只有傻子才会来，显然那三个月的工钱算是白白地扔到水里去了。 春节期间，冯瑞拉着我一起喝酒，他当时也下海了，刚开始做生意，开一个什么贸易公司，开了没多久，便赚了不少钱。人真是不能有钱，一有钱就跟原来不一样，他顿时不把我这个小老板放在眼里。士别三日，刮目相看，要说他做生意比我迟了好多年，可是人家是起点高，一下子就赚了很多钱，一下子就有了今天大款才具备的那种神气。我知道他是有能耐的人，让他帮我出些点子，问他在新的一年里，我应该出些什么新招。 冯瑞想了一会，首先想到的就是让我店里的女孩统一着装： “你得把门面弄漂亮一些，弄几个漂亮的女孩，不漂亮也打扮得漂亮一些。我知道你老四的菜烧得好，可是现在风气已经变了，很多人上馆子，不是冲你的菜好吃，而是你那里的姑娘水灵。” 冯瑞一本正经地开导我，说我的思想过于保守，已经跟不上飞速发展的形势。这道理搁在今天，谁都已经知道，谁都这么做，在当时却还有几分新鲜，当时根本就没有这种风气。那时候，我总是以自己的厨艺精湛自豪，觉得好厨师就是好厨师，开餐馆怎么说都得靠厨艺吃饭，毕竟我是李延龄师傅的关门弟子，毕竟我有一手绝活，我老四根本用不着搞那些邪门歪道。说老实话，我的那些老客户他们也都认这个，他们嘴馋了，就会惦记我了，他们都知道我的手艺货真价实。那时候，我的生意依然还算是火爆，并没有意识到潜在的危机。我不可能一下子会想那么远，不过冯瑞的话还是起了作用，我在去看阿妍的时候，也算是照顾她的生意吧，从她那里为我的姑娘们一人订了一套工作服。 服装统一了，店里的气氛果然就不一样，顿时焕然一新。谁也没有想到，春节过后两个多月，我已经把小鱼忘得差不多，这丫头突然出现了。大家都吃了一惊，都没想到她会突然冒出来，她羞答答地站在店门口，好像知道自己是犯了错误一样，有些不好意思走进来。由于人人都换上统一的新服装，小鱼来了以后，首先有一种走错地方的感觉，她傻头傻脑地站在那，不动弹，两个大眼睛的溜溜地乱转，我店里的女孩都是属于那种没什么心眼的人，她们在背后叽叽咕咕，一看到小鱼，一个个都很兴奋，盯着她问这问那。 我故意很严肃地说，你既然来了，还站在门口干什么。说完我就笑起来，因为小鱼来了，我心里十分高兴，其他的女孩都起哄，说小鱼你看，你来了，我们老板多高兴。小鱼被大家一说，也乐了，仍然站在门口傻笑。到晚上我掌勺做菜的时候，小鱼已换上了新的工作服，过来端菜，站在我边上看我忙乱。我忙里偷闲，回过头来看她，红红的炉火照在她的脸上，十分好看，于是我戏谑地说： “我还以为你不来了。” 小鱼不说话。 我又说：“你这不是羊落虎口吗。” 小鱼还是不说话，傻傻地笑，好像不明白我说什么。 一年以后，小鱼母亲突然出现在我面前，说是要在我这找份工作。在过去的一年里，她几次出现在我的店里，都是来看望女儿。小鱼再次出来不久，她也开始和女儿一样，离乡背井外出闯荡天下。先是在城市的另一端打工，在一家做熟菜生意的小老板手底下干活，不长的时间里，已经换了好几个东家。这一天，小鱼母亲突然跑来求我，说是蔡老板，我就在你这做了。屡似的恳求已经有过几次，我并不觉得事情太突然，仍然是一口拒绝了她。 小鱼的这个母亲和她女儿一样倔犟，一样缺心眼，一样对有些最简单的事情，总是弄不太明白。她死皮赖脸地缠着我，说蔡老板你人好，你良心最好了，你就收下我吧。 这女人口口声声说我人好，说我良心好，我于是板着脸说： “别跟我来这一套，说什么都没用，我这人的良心一点也不好。” 小鱼母亲说：“我知道，你是真的良心好。” 在一开始，我还担心她会拿我与她女儿的事来讹我。小鱼的年龄毕竟太小，还没有满十八岁。我知道这种事情迟早都会暴露，不如先透点风声给她，为以后可能会有的麻烦做些铺垫。我说我这人的毛病就是喜欢女人，看到女人我就忍不住，就会不怀好意，你怎么还会觉得我这人好呢，你应该觉得我坏才对。俗话说，好人没有肚脐眼，你要不要看看我有没有这玩意，说着，我假装要撩起衣服给她看： “我告诉你，我的肚脐眼比谁的都大。” 小鱼母亲以为我是在挑逗她，脸上顿时露出那种与年龄已不太符合的灿烂笑容： “男人吗，还有不喜欢女人的。” “你知道我喜欢女人就好。”