Chapter 6 Marble (excerpt)-3

Although Ma Bole had the purpose of escaping, he didn't feel lonely, but loneliness attacked him objectively. If it was just for the sake of fleeing, Ma Bole would have suffered even more than this, and he had made up his mind to endure it. He would not say a word A bitter sentence. What Ma Bole is suffering now is that his ideas cannot be spread, and only his doctrines are not believed by anyone.This is true Now is the greatest pain, when will the ignorance of human beings stop, every time Ma Bole advertises to people, the Japanese will call, there is no When someone accepts, he is like a savior, automatically arousing a feeling of compassion.in his mercy

While yelling: "Fucking Chinese, you ladies should live a peaceful life! Little Japan is about to call, I see you coming What to do then!You're going to be at a loss, you're going to run wild, you lake people ..." Ma Bole was cursing while walking on Nanjing Road. He didn't like anything, because everything was still Maintained the normal, there is no phenomenon that will change at all. Ma Bole was very angry. He thought the shirts from Xianshi Company were very cheap, but they cost eighty or ninety cents apiece. Of course it’s not good, if I buy one to wear in the future, I still have to buy it; but when I got angry, I didn’t buy it, he thought:

"What are you doing buying this, you're running away... are you still wearing clothes! A golden flower flew in front of Ma Bole's eyes, half of it was angry, and half was caused by the shaking of the electric light.right in between, next to A seller of water chestnuts came, the peeled skins were raw and white, and they were worn with bamboo sticks.Marble feels his throat is dry, three coppers He wanted to buy a bunch and eat it in his hand, but when he thought about it, he was fleeing, and when he was fleeing, the first thing to save money was to eat. One, so he didn't buy it.The water chestnut seller was still standing beside him, but he glared at him fiercely.

glance, and say: "What a fucking Chinese!" He thought, since you don’t want to buy it, why are you still standing here?He sees him as a child, much younger than he, He stretched out his foot and kicked him sideways. In the meantime, a foreigner walked by, and Ma Bole stepped on the heel of his shoe.He was just about to curse: "What a fucking Chinese!" Looking back, it was a foreigner, although it was his shoes that were trampled off, not his shoes. Because the shoes are foreigners, he quickly said: "Sorry, sorry!" The foreigner walked by with his neck straight and ignored him. Ma Bole saw that the foreigner was taller than him again.

, and older than him, there is nothing to do, so let him go. It's not that Ma Bole thinks highly of foreigners, but that he has nothing to do. Finally Marble saw a store that sold airline tickets. The shop is red and majestic, almost like Chinese New Year.The signboard with red paper is pasted, and the guise of red paper is hung.Oh yeah It's so lively! When Ma Bole scolded China this time, he was particularly angry.His eyes were almost on fire, his hands were almost The reason is that not only the whole of Shanghai is not about to flee, but people are preparing to get rich ,

"The country and the nation are gone, I think you will get rich!" Ma Bole didn't say a word, just Came back from Nanjing Road, As soon as I entered the door, I still kicked down a few bottles and jars, and fell asleep breathing the smell of garlic in the room as usual. night. When I woke up at six or seven o'clock the next morning, I felt that something was wrong, something bad happened, something bad happened. Why haven't the Japanese hit Qingdao yet?If you don't call Qingdao, your wife won't come out, if your wife doesn't come, no? No one brought any money. Ma Bole could only take out ten yuan from his pocket, and there was nothing more.

Some small change and copper plates are put together, but they are less than one piece. Marble became worried. "The Japanese want to fight China, but I didn't expect to fight so slowly..." He walked on the ground in despair Going, he thought: "If the Japanese don't... if they don't need much more, if they don't reach Qingdao in another 20 days, it will be over. .There are still ten yuan now, but by then it will be over. " The money that Ma Bole brought from home was frugal, and he used up all of it. It turned out that his plan was that within a week after the Marco Polo Bridge Incident, the Japanese would attack Qingdao, and within three or four weeks

hit Shanghai.As I said before, Ma Bole could not know when the Japanese came to attack China, when and at what time. where to fight.Since the Marco Polo Bridge Incident, he has gained a little self-confidence.It can't be said that he is confident, but he secretly Just guessing. Up to now, almost a month, there is no movement in Qingdao, and there is no movement in Shanghai. He believed he had guessed wrong.The Japanese may want to fight from the Marco Polo Bridge to the north, to the west, and to China. The Central Plains was defeated, but Qingdao and Shanghai were not attacked.This is also uncertain.

Ma Bole walked on the ground, kicking down several bottles and cans.Lift them up again as usual . If the Japanese do not reach Qingdao, my wife cannot come to Shanghai.If my wife doesn't come to Shanghai, what if I run out of money? manage?When Ma Bole left Qingdao, in his opinion, Qingdao was just a matter of time, so he predicted that his wife would soon Coming to Shanghai soon, when my wife comes, she must bring money.He has a way. "What will we do then? We have to go home again." When he thought of going home, his brain hurt like a small arrow.Going home again will be reduced to

more humiliating position. It would be unimaginable what his father, his wife, and little Jager would all do to him.From now on, I will It's over, I can't stand up anymore. Marble became sad. Since then, Ma Bole often thinks sadly of the poems he has read in the past, and they are all mixed up in his mind. with. Life is 36,000 days in a hundred years, it is not as good as half a day in a monk's house... There are many old monks in the depths of the white clouds... The young and the young leave home and the eldest returns, the local accent remains unchanged, and the mane hair declines.

When the children met each other, they laughed and asked where the guests came from. Hanshan Temple outside Gusu City, the bell rings to the passenger ship in the middle of the night... Go south and go north, come and rest, Bai Ping blows all the rivers and autumns of Chu, The Taoist is not a sad autumn guest, but also relative to the evening wind. After fishing, return without tying the boat... A thought suddenly returned to the cavity, still leaning on the bed with thin bones,... Raise a glass to dissipate sorrow, worry more, draw a knife to cut off the water, and the water will flow more... When is Spring Blossom and Autumn Moon... Love and be loved…… Life is like a big dream... It's so hard to get here... Drunken world is big... Life is unsatisfactory everywhere, and the Ming Dynasty spreads out boats. When Ma Bole was overwhelmed with grief, he lay on the bed, didn't bother to cook, and was not interested in anything. His socks were worn out, his hair grew long, and his clothes were dirty.You can't buy what you want to buy, you have to wash it Cannot be washed.There is nothing to wear after washing, because he only wears a shirt from home.So Marlborough messed up He looks like he has no family, like an unemployed person, like someone recovering from a serious illness. His face was pale yellow, his hair was grown very long, and his suit pants got a lot dirty when he fried eggs and fried rice. More oil.His shirt was without a tie, and the sleeves were rolled up so that his two sleeves were never seen. With a bony arm of strength.The shirt hadn't been washed for a long time, because it was soaked in sweat and the back Afterwards, there is a cloud-like pattern.Ma Bole's shirt, after being wet with sweat, he took it off and hung it on the bed to dry Yes, before it dries, he puts it on damp again when he is about to go out.Ma Bole's shoes also cast clouds, since Ever since he came to Shanghai, he has never had shoe polish on his shoes.Marlborough was almost like a drowned rat. Ma Bole's sorrow continued unabated. When he saw the sky was overcast, he said: "It's a gray world!" When he saw the sun come out, he said: "When the sun comes out, it will be sunny." The sky cleared and the road dried up in no time. " "When the road is dry, it's like it never rained." He thought generally along this format: "Life is meaningless if there is no money." "Escape first is the best way." "Little Japan is calling, it must come." "Little Japan hit Qingdao, and my wife must flee to Shanghai." "Once the wife escapes, she must bring money." "With money, everything is not a problem." "If Little Japan doesn't reach Qingdao, my wife won't be able to come." "My wife can't come, I have to go home again." As soon as he thought of going home, he sang a few big lines: Yang Yanhui sat in the palace courtyard, thinking and sighing... Recalling the past, it was so tragic... After all, Ma Bole finally became happy one day.His sad mood was completely swept away. That's when he saw the cars moving in an endless stream on Beisichuan Road. North Sichuan Road is extremely desolate, and once you cross the bridge over the Suzhou Creek and head north, there are fewer people.to the post office , further north, the trams are all empty.There were many Japanese policemen standing on the street, most of the shops were closed, and the streets were filled with The wind blows some messy papers.The moving cars came running towards the Suzhou Creek in groups.trucks, trolleys, manpower Cars...the pots and pans, cats, dogs...every car is full of pressure, full of loads, all on board It's sharp.Those cars that didn't go north all ran south along the river. Marble took a look: "Okay, escape." He went up to ask, and sure enough a woman was holding a child and said to him: "It's terrible, the Japanese are going to attack Zhabei...all of them have escaped, all of them have escaped." The woman pointed north and ran passed. When Ma Bole heard it, it was true.As soon as he was happy, he thought: "Why don't you take a good look at it? There are not many opportunities like this! If you don't read it today, you won't have it tomorrow." So Ma Bole walked north along the North Sichuan Road to see how to escape, so he He bravely walked in the opposite direction to many fleeing cars. After walking for a while, he saw a large group of Japanese policemen wearing black cloaks coming from north to south.looking at him Come, as if it were coming towards him. "It's not good, run away?" A bus happened to pass him, and he jumped on it and came back. Marble was very excited on this day.He went to all the places he advertised to his friends, Just ask people: "Northern Sichuan Road has escaped, don't you know?" There are three or two families who know a little bit, and the rest don't.Marble rushed to tell them the truth, From what he's seen, he's going to add a little more to it, deliberately speaking more seriously than what he's seeing, and he's It goes on in succession: "North Sichuan Road is closed and boarded up. North Sichuan Road is empty, and the Japanese police are armed with bayonets to attack people. Swinging around... Those fleeing refugees, running around on broken horses, full of bed boards, pots and pans, men and women Yes, old and young.Escape miserably, escape miserably..." At the end of his talk, he still looked at the other party secretly with his eyes, with infinite compassion, whether he believed it at all Really, if he wasn't quite convinced, he was going to say it again.If he believed it, he could stand up and leave immediately, so that he could hurry Go to another friend's place soon. There was really not enough time, and it was already eleven o'clock at night when he reported to the seventh house. When he returned to his lodging, he was tired, hungry, and exhausted of all his strength.sore legs Soft, dizzy, like the wheels of a train ringing in the head.He only unbuttoned his shirt, Before he even had time to take it off, he slept all night in his clothes and shoes and socks. I slept very comfortably that night, very peacefully.As if he had not slept, but left this troubled world all night.Because he didn't feel anything during the night, he didn't remember anything, he didn't dream, There is no thought of the future, nor of the past.Flies crawled across his face and he didn't know it. He didn't feel the surprisingly big cockroaches in Shanghai running around on his torn shirt chest for a while.he is tired To completely unconscious.He didn't turn over or move all night, and he still kept the same principle as when he was lying down. It seems that he is lying there to rest for a while, his legs are stretched out very straight, he does not seem to be sleeping, but as soon as he stands up It looks like you can go to the street at any time. This kind of comfortable sleeping method cannot happen several times in a person's life.Especially Marble, like his He is always willing to think far and thoroughly about life, and often thinks about his future at night, although not often Insomnia, there are many times when I don't sleep well.This is the second time in Marble's memory that he slept like this tonight . The last time was the night when he and his wife successfully held their engagement ceremony in love, and he slept the same as this night comfort.That's because he drank too much alcohol, and it was also an expression of his initial victory in life. Marble now slept as comfortably as he had on the night of his engagement. At eight o'clock in the morning, the sun was so high that Ma Bole was still asleep.Children in the alley, take A small stick, holding a piece of wood, scratched across the wall outside his house, making a very loud scratch.This little voice, Ma Bole couldn't hear it.The rest of the other voices could not reach Ma Bole's house at all.his house is like a It was isolated from the outside world like a small stone cave.No matter how high the sun rises, there is not a single hole in Marble's house Into the sun.Not only is there no window, there is not even a crack. Ma Bole slept completely out of the world. When he wakes up, he won't know what the world is like, his mind is sleepy, and he His legs were numb from sleep.He opened his eyes and looked, he didn't know where he was, he looked for a long time, and saw Electric lights surrounded him dimly.He closed his eyes, as if trying to understand something, but his brain couldn't control it .He still can't understand.After a long time of being in a daze like this, he finally stood up.stand up and look for his shoes .When he saw the leather shoes on his feet, he realized that he fell asleep without taking off his clothes last night. Then, the first thing he thought of was that he had fled on Beisichuan Road. "It's okay, I don't know how far I have escaped now!" So he hurriedly washed his face with the face water he had washed his face yesterday morning, and ran away without brushing his teeth. I went to the entrance of the alley to inspect it.Sure enough, it is true that he has escaped. He lives in the Fazu Jiefu Lili Road area.It's terrible, those who fled have even fled to this secluded place. Ma Bole saw that the messy appearance of those carrying the bed and the toilet was exactly as he expected That's right, so he whistled, and he walked triumphantly back to his house.As soon as I entered the door, I knocked down as usual. Several bottles, jars. He quickly lifted them up.He hurriedly started frying eggs and fried rice, and he planned to run to the street after dinner Check it out to see how much you escaped today compared to yesterday. He ate fried rice with five eggs for joy.Usually he only uses one egg, but today he used five.He said: "Damn it, eat it, if you don't eat it for nothing, Little Japan will... just call." He ate fried rice with five eggs and still didn't feel full. Then he remembered that he fell asleep before eating last night . After Ma Bole finished his meal, he closed the door, locked the smell of the scallion oil fumes in the house, and went to the street went. On the street he was skinny, but he walked briskly, with long strides.He raised his head and swore in his mouth from time to time. whistle.He is very sure, very conceited. With an appreciative eye, he appreciated the refugees who escaped from Beisichuan Road. In the evening, Fazu Realm became even more hectic.Refugees fleeing from South City via Lafayette Road, Saposay road...and moving things around.The oil shop, salt shop, and rice shop on the street are not crowded with people.Big Everyone is rushing to buy rice. It is said that once the war breaks out, you will not be able to buy anything.Nothing to eat, nothing to drink. Ma Bole went to patrol the streets all day, and he didn't come back until it was almost dark.As soon as he walked into the alley.first glance What I saw was that foreigners also bought a large basket of daily necessities (butter, bread, etc...).So he is more convinced Japan must open fire.At the same time, not only Japan wants to fight, but I heard that even the Chinese soldiers must fight.and The rumors are very powerful. It is said that China has already made preparations this time, and that the 88th Division has arrived overnight. On the edge of Hongkou.If the Japanese marines are launched, the Chinese army will not give in at all this time.Japan hits, China They must fight back and resist, saying that they will fire in a day or two. Ma Bole's sad emotions of the previous few days were all wiped away.Now he is very busy, besides going to the street to watch He also prepared his own food, buying soy sauce, vinegar, rice, and salt. After it was done, I bought another egg.Because Ma Bole is very tall, when he bought rice, although he He was a latecomer, but he bought rice first.When he squeezed to take the bag of rice, the voices of women scolding him, he said every sentence All heard.But he doesn't care about all that, he squeezes them, he bumps into them, he hugs them, he grabs them Go to the front.he thinks: "When is this, I can still control whether you are a woman or not!" He ran to his residence with the rice bag on his back.He seemed to have a scourge chasing him, he ignored Everything, he is not afraid of people laughing at him.He bought three buckets of rice by himself, which would be enough for about a month or two. He put the rice bag in the house, and he went out again, and ran to the bread shop.This time he didn't buy rice He was so refreshing at the time, he was standing behind a group of people, he wanted to take a few steps forward, but he saw that it was impossible .Because most of the people who buy bread are foreigners.Foreigners are the most annoying, follow the rules in everything, not at all Take a mess. Ma Bole stood behind the people for more than ten minutes, seeing that the bread on the shelf was about to be sold out. I'm afraid there will be no more here, and he can't see it well, so hurry up and go to the second house. When we arrived at the second shop, it was also full of people. Ma Bole stood there and squeezed for a while to see if there was any There is hope.He thought if they were next in order, when would it be his turn.Only from the back to the front Going is the best way.But most of the people who buy bread are foreigners, and foreigners are not allowed to rob.So he again Run to the third bakery. This bakery, named "Fuxing", is opened by people from Shandong. The store is very small and can only accommodate three or five people. host.As soon as Ma Bole opened the door, he heard the shopkeeper speak the words of Huang County, Shandong. Ma Bole was not from Huang County, but He was from Qingdao, but he immediately pretended to be from Huang County.The boss thought it was a fellow countryman when he heard it, so he followed what he pointed out. Just handed him a big round of bread. Fortunately for him, his tongue is very sensitive, and he can learn Huangxian's words very well. It's not easy.He picked up the four or five-pound loaf and was so happy that he forgot to ask the boss for a piece of bread. On a piece of paper, he hugged the big naked bread and walked on the street.If Shanghai is not in turmoil, if in normal times The people on the street must have thought that Marble's bread was stolen or picked up from somewhere. After Ma Bole finished buying the bread, it was getting dark. This was the second day when Beisichuan Road started to move. Although Ma Bole ate four or five eggs fried rice for dinner, he felt a little empty again. He thought: "Although the escape has already begun, it's only Shanghai. Why hasn't Qingdao escaped yet?" Marble traveled no less on this day than yesterday.Even if he is tired, he is not inferior to yesterday, but he sleeps He didn't sleep as well as last night, he almost looked like he had insomnia, he didn't seem to sleep much the whole night.One night he planned, Planning his own personal future, he thinks: "Although the escape has already begun, where will I escape to? Needless to say the end result, just say The first step is the first step. Where is the safest place to escape to?And in that new place, do you know anyone? , Is it possible to find a little job, otherwise, if the family does not give money, what will be done at that time?If the wife comes, If you escape in the future, you will escape together.The wife has some money herself.At the same time, it doesn't matter if the wife's money is spent, as long as there is too much Too, with little Jager and the others together, my father can't say no to giving money; even if he doesn't give me, he must give it to him grandchildren's.The problem now is how to get my wife to come out and come to Shanghai right away. " Just as Ma Bole was thinking of something important, he seemed to hear a sound, an unusual sound. This sound was not ordinary, but very far away, very much like the sound of a cannon, and he thought: "Has the North Sichuan Road been fired?" Although Ma Bole has predicted how many days and how many people have spent time publicizing the sound of cannons, It makes people believe that sooner or later there will be such a day.People thought that Ma Bole just liked the sound of the cannon very much.now he seems He heard it, but he didn't like it, but felt a little scared.He took his ear off the pillow and waited for the sound The sound came a second time, and after waiting for a while, finally there was no second sound, and then Ma Bole continued to think about his own affairs: "...What method can I use to make my wife come out as soon as possible? I said that I want to join the army and fight Japan. My wife usually knows that I am very nationalistic.Ever since I was a student, whenever there was a student riot, Not once without me.My wife knew it, and she was very scared. He saw that I was brave, and when I clashed with the police Wait for me to stand at the forefront.At that time, my wife was also a child. She was in a girls' school and I was in a boys' school. She had seen me of this behavior.Since she knows that my national concept is very deep, now that I say that I have joined the army to save the country, she You must be afraid, and your father will be terrified if he hears it.Then she must come to Shanghai immediately, just do this, call Send a telegram, as soon as you send a telegram, things will be more like it, and it will come immediately. " Ma Bole turned over, and he thought about it carefully for a while, and he felt that it was not good, it was not very appropriate, and he would see it at a glance. See, this is my nonsense.Shanghai has not opened fire yet, how can I vote for the army?Where to vote, who to vote for, This is simply a joke, if you tell it to a child, the child will not believe it, not to mention that my wife has made me deceive myself.she saw She knew it was me trying to ask for her money again.He thought of a second method: "This time, I said that I want to become a Communist Party. My father is most afraid of this, and my wife is also terribly afraid. They all believe I believe that the Communist Party went home to distribute the property of his parents and wife.As soon as they heard it, even if the wife might not come, she would send If you give me money, you must send me money. Give me money so that I can buy a boat ticket and go home quickly. " Although Ma Bole has thought of another plan, it is not good. It is not a good plan after all if his wife does not come. A little money, once spent, is over, and there is still nothing to do when it is over.It is best if the wife is with you, the surest, the most secure. "Then you don't need the above two plans. Use the third one. The third one is because my wife suspects me... If I say it, I have a girlfriend in Shanghai. Seeing if she is in a hurry, she must be so angry that she can't sleep all night. here.I don't want to speak too harshly. If I speak too harshly, she will become angry and really stop coming in a fit of anger.Tun Tun Talking about it, it seems like there is nothing, so that she can't really believe in it when she can't see the face, and can't really believe in the non-existence when she can't see the face. , Only in this way can she come quickly, besides, didn't I really have a girlfriend in Shanghai that year? " Just like this, Ma Bole made up his plan, and it was almost dawn. He didn't sleep almost all night.When I woke up the next day, I was dizzy, as if the sun was too high. The ball also has some spin.Some are light-headed and top-heavy, impatient. From this night onwards, Ma Bole became gloomy again, feeling very meaningless and empty, until Hongkou opened Cannon, he didn't get excited anymore. On the third day after Beisichuan Road moved, everyone in Shanghai believed the rumor that "the fire will be fired tonight" . The last train on North Sichuan Road that night was escaped by the British police. The big truck The car is very sad at night.There was no car, only this car ran a long road. The empty streets of the country, this is an international fleeing car, with White Russians, British, Jews, and others sitting on it. One or two Japanese.Originally, the special car sent by the British arrest house picked up their expatriates, and other people from other countries can also sit there On the car, that was the result of their begging. The cannon was about to go off, Beisichuan Road was silent, all the houses were empty, no one on the street could see not see.Normally, the streets are full of cars.Everything awaits war.Everything has been waiting for a long time.street Because of moving, papers were flying all over the street.If the streets are emptied, they will be much emptier than the wilderness.wilderness is nothing The side, bright, and unobstructed: the city streets are dark and furtive, and the houses seem to be Like a monster, the emptiness is more terrifying than the wilderness. All the Japanese living on Beisichuan Road went to the nearby Japanese elementary school that night.can also It is said that all Japanese living in Shanghai are concentrated in Japanese elementary schools.On the one hand, he is afraid that a conflict with China will damage the Their diaspora, on the other hand, they are afraid that the wholehearted diaspora will oppose this war, and may run to the Chinese side Come.So pre-control, no matter who they are, as long as they are Japanese, they have to obey orders and gather together. Let's start a war so that they can send troops to escort them back to Japan on warships. So North Sichuan Road is not breathing anymore.Occasionally there is a small team of Japanese policemen, and several batches of masters Escaping, the dog, thrown by its owner, walks the street. North Sichuan Road is fully prepared and fully awaiting the war.The British Concession and the French Concession are extremely lively, Every household is full of boxes and packages, and there are talks everywhere.For the new refugee tenants in this new environment, I couldn't get used to it for a while, so it was noisy, making everyone uneasy, and the night was hot, and rumors abounded. There are many, so it has been making trouble until dawn. It was dawn, and people had not heard the sound of the cannon. Maybe it was the next night that the cannon was fired!People think so. So I ate as usual, washed clothes, bought rice and firewood.Although people are panicked by the unknown, but But in Marble's view, it was really ordinary, as if nothing happened, and people still lived as usual look. "What is this, this is nothing." Ma Bole had no interest in the beginning of the real war.He doesn't look so ordinary anymore that's it.He didn't want to read it, he didn't want to listen to it, and he didn't go out to inspect anymore.Everything seems to be over with him Yes, it's all over. It was like a few years ago when the Japanese attacked China.The escape of Chinese people is also as old as it was a few years ago .Although the Japanese cannon that is in his mind every day has not fired until today, but emotionally he seems to have already Started playing for days or months so old. So if Ma Bole hears rumors again, saying that the Japanese are going to open fire tonight, he will fall asleep when he hears it the way you look.He showed an attitude of indifference, his brows were wrinkled, and his two already sad eyes Eyes, now even more sad. What he thought repeatedly in his mind was not that the Japanese were about to call, which he had tried his best to publicize a few days ago, but that Where should the Japanese flee to when they call. "Everything needs to be done and taken a step back." What he meant by taking a step back was where he should flee. "Little Japan must be prepared to call." His so-called preparation means to escape.It is by no means that when the Japanese call, everyone should fight together. Then why did he say "prepare" instead of "escape", because the word "prepare" sounds more like "escape" than the word "escape". It's almost pleasing to the ear. Ma Bole didn't even say the word "preparation" until now.Instead just say: "Everything has to be taken a step back." He felt that the period of preparation had passed, and he should act immediately.Otherwise, what will happen by then? What to do?What will happen when everyone flees?Vehicles and boats will not be enough.Once the war starts, the traffic will not be Sufficient, troop transporters, food loaders, is there still time to transport refugees?Don't flee early, escape late OK? Ma Bole was only planning the second step of his escape (although the first step was his escape from Qingdao to Shanghai), so for He was not at all interested in the fact that the Japanese were actually calling.When the cannons of Shanghai sounded, Ma Bole heard it, and it was extremely ordinary.It was as if he had heard it before, not for the first time.all up The people in the sea were all clamoring, but Ma Bole was the only one who was quiet and silent. He was smoking a cigarette, He lay on the bed, put his feet up on the bed frame, and stared at the evening electric light with half-sleeping eyes.cannon It has already sounded, and it has sounded since dusk. On the second day of "August 13th", Japanese planes and Chinese planes fought on the Huangpu River, half of the sky suddenly came It was like a cloud, smeared gray with airplane and gunpowder smoke.It seems that the world has found a strange An unstoppable whirlwind came with a sound, reckless, whining, and whistling, because the plane Machine guns were fired in the sky, and stray bullets hit the concession from time to time.The plane is flying closer and closer, as if it is about to reach the top It looked like the sea was coming from the top of its head.At this time, no one in Shanghai was not shocked. People from every household stood outside to watch, and when the plane got closer and closer, their faces turned pale with fright. Will the whole of Shanghai become a battlefield?Once the war started, people didn't know how far the war would go . On the third day of "August 13", it rained in Shanghai, and there was a strong wind, so the streets were full of leaves .The hospitals in the French Concession were full of wounded soldiers.These wounded fighters were carried in big cars covered with When I picked up the branch, I knew it came from the battlefield.Female ambulanceman with red cross on her arm, soldier Stained with red blood.Why did the soldiers bleed?In order to resist the massacre of imperialism.Wounded Soldier's Car When they arrived, people from far and near stood there solemnly watching with salute eyes. Only Marble looked at nothing, and walked gloomyly in the street.He stepped on the leaves, he bowed his head in silence, he Think carefully. "But where did the second step escape to?" he thinks: "Nanjing? Suzhou?" He has friends in Nanjing and Suzhou.Although it has been a long time since I have not communicated with each other, if it is impossible to escape, it may not be impossible. hospitality.It is impossible to go to Nanjing and Suzhou, but it is always possible to go to Hankou.Hankou has his father's friend there Here, there is nothing wrong with it.It's just that Qingdao hasn't opened fire yet, which is a big problem.If my wife doesn't come, nothing will be discussed It is true that there is nothing wrong with this old Chinese saying, "Poor is at home, rich is on the road". "Cars, boats, shops, Feet and yamen should be killed even if they are innocent. "It's true that these things are very bad. But every day from now on will not be on the road ? "This is escape, this is..." When Ma Bole thought of being in a trance, he almost shouted to himself: "Is it possible to escape without money? He saw a group of people standing at the intersection in front of him.A group of people surround a large truck that appears to be lifted from the vehicle what.When Ma Bole saw the signboard of the Red Cross at the entrance of the street, he realized that it was a hospital for temporary recovery of wounded soldiers. He didn't have the heart to look at these, so he turned a corner and went for a walk in another street. After walking a few steps, it was another car of a wounded soldier.How many wounded soldiers!He is a little strange.he turned around I walked back again, but it was too late, too late.After all, the wounded soldier's car passed him, and it passed him So the glorious soldiers of the Chinese nation whose car was covered with blood stains unknowingly let Ma Bole deeply Glared deeply. He was very surprised, why are there so many wounded soldiers?Could it be that the situation in China is not good? If the fighting situation on the Chinese side is not good, if you want to escape, you have to flee even faster. He felt that the street was very scary and desolate, and with the cloudy sky and drizzle falling, it was really gloomy. Forest feeling.The scavenger didn't seem to be sweeping the street for two days, and the sidewalks were covered with leaves.And some refugees, a string Holding the children in a row, walking in the rain with some odds and ends, some with disheveled hair, some with bare legs and feet, and some The inside of the gate was also full of refugees, and the rainwater filled the gate, and those people were lying in the wet water, sitting with. Ma Bole saw it, this is really tragic, how much more suffering the Chinese nation will suffer!can we not resist ? "Fight! Fight! We must fight." When he saw the second gate and the third gate full of refugees, he thought: "If my wife really doesn't come, won't I be like this if I go on fleeing in the future?" It's really scary.Although Ma Bole was not loved very much by his parents, he had enough food and warm clothes since he was a child of.A man could become like this, he never imagined, so he felt very scared, and he walked back to his house gone. As soon as he entered the door, he kicked down a few bottles and cans as usual, and after helping them up, he lay down on the bed , very tired, very boring, nothing interesting.Let's smoke a cigarette, after smoking one, let's smoke another one.one When a person is bored, it is the same as being sick; especially Marble, when he is discouraged, he becomes soft. It's like a puddle of mud.Worse than being sick, he would just smoke a few more cigarettes when he was sick; but Once he was bored, cigarettes were of no use.Because he always believes that illness is not the most important thing, the most important thing is to The most important thing is that once sorrow invades the human body, there is no way to resist it, and it is considered despair. "It's over." 马伯乐想：太太若是不来，一切都完了，一切谈不到。 他的香烟的火头是通红通红的，过不了两三秒钟他吹它一次，把烟灰吹满了一 枕头。反正这逃难的时候，什么还能干净得了？所以他毫无小心地弯着腿，用皮鞋 底踏床上的褥子。 “这算完，太太若不来一切都完了。” 一想到这里，他更不加小心地吹起烟灰来。一直吹到烟灰落下来迷了他的眼睛 ，他才停止的。 他把眼睛揉了一揉，用手指在眼边上刮了一刮。很奇怪的，迷进马伯乐眼睛里 的沙子因此一刮也常常就会出来了。 马伯乐近来似乎不怎样睡眠，只是照常地吃饭，蛋炒饭照常地吃。睡眠是会间 断了思想的，吃饭则不会，一边吃着一边思想着，且吃且想还很有意思。 马伯乐刮出来眼睛的烟灰后，就去燃起炭炉来烧饭去了。不一会工夫，炭火就 冒着火星着起来了。 照例马伯乐是脱去了全身的衣裳，连袜子也脱去，穿着木头板鞋。全身流着汗 ，很紧张，好像铁匠炉里的打铁的。 锅里的油冒烟了，马伯乐把葱花和调好的鸡蛋哇啦一声倒在油里。 马伯乐是青岛人，很喜欢吃大葱大蒜之类。他就总嫌这上海的葱太小。因上海 全是小葱，所以他切葱花的时候，也就特别多切上一些。在油里边这很多的葱，散 发着无比的香气。 蛋炒饭这东西实在好吃，不单是吃起来是可口的香，就是一闻也就值得了。Place 以马伯乐吃起蛋炒饭来是永久没有厌的，他永久吃不厌的，而且越吃越能吃。if not 是逃难的时候，他想他每顿应该吃五个蛋炒饭。而现在不能那样了，现在是省钱第 one. “这是什么时候？这是逃难的时候。” 每当他越吃越香很舍不得放下饭碗的时候，他就想了以上这句活。果然一想是 在逃难，虽然吃不甚饱也就算了。何况将来逃起难来的时候说不定还要挨饿的。 “没看见那弄堂口里的难民吗？他们还吃蛋炒饭呢！他们是什么也没有吃的呀 ! ”他想将来自己能够一定不挨饿的吗？所以少吃点也算不了什么，而且对于挨饿 也应该提早练习着点，不然，到那时候可怎么办哪！到那时候对于饥饿毫无经验， 可怎么能够忍受得了，应该提早饿一饿试试，到那时候也许就不怕了。 叫化子不是常常吃不饱的吗？为什么他受得住而别人受不住呢？就因为他是饿 惯了。小孩子吃不饱，他要哭。大人吃不饱他会想法子再补充上点，到冠生园去买 饼干啦，吃一点什么点心之类啦。只有叫化子，他吃不饱，他也不哭，他也不想法 子再吃。有人看见过叫化子上冠生园去买点心的吗？可见受过训练的饥饿和没受过 训练的饥饿是不同的。 马伯乐对于他自己没能够吃上五个蛋炒饭的理由有二，第一为着省钱；第二为 着训练。 今天的蛋炒饭炒得也是非常之香，满屋子都是油炸葱花的气味，马伯乐在这香 味中被引诱得仿佛全个的世界都是香的，任什么都可以吃，任什么都很好吃的样子 .当他一端起饭碗来，他便觉得他是很幸福的。 他刚要尝到这第一口，外边有打门的了。马伯乐很少有朋友来拜访他，大概只 有两三次，是很久以前。最近简直是没有过，一次也没有。 “这来的人是谁呢？” 马伯乐只这么想了一下，并没有动。蛋炒饭也仍抱在手里。 “老张吗？小陈吗？还是……” 马伯乐觉得很受惊。他的习惯与人不同，普通人若听到有人敲门，一定是立刻 走过去开了门一看使知分晓了；可是他不同，因为他是很聪明的，很机警的，是凡 什么事情在发生以前他大概就会猜到的。即或猜错了，他也是很喜欢猜的。比方哪 位买了件新东西，他就愿意估一个价码，说这东西是三元买的，或是五元买的，若 都不对，他便表示出很惊讶的样子说： “很奇怪的，莫名其妙的，这东西就真的……真是很怪……” 他说了半天，不知他说了些什么。他仍是继续在猜着。有的时候，人家看着他 猜得很吃力就打算说了出来。而他则摆着手，不让人家说。他到底要试试自己的聪 明如何。对于他自己的那份天才，他是十分想要加以磨练的。 现在他对于那门外站着的究竟什么人，他有些猜不准。 “张大耳朵，还是小陈？还是……” 张大耳朵前几天在街上碰到的，小陈可是多少日子不见了。大概是小陈，小陈 敲门音总是慢吞吞的。张大耳朵很莽撞，若敲了这许多工夫他还不开门，就往里撞 ，他还会那么有耐心？ 马伯乐想了这么许多，他才走过去慢慢地把身子遮掩在门扇的后边，把门只开 了一道小缝。似乎那进来的人将是一个暴徒，他防备着当头要给他一棒。 他从门缝往外一看，果然是小陈。于是他大大地高兴起来： “我猜就是你，一点也没有猜错。” 过了一些工夫，小陈和他讲了许多关于战争的情形，他都似乎没有听见。他还 向小陈说: “你猜我怎么知道一定是你，而不是张大耳朵？张大耳朵那小子是和你不同的 ，他非常没有耐性，若是他来，他用脚踢开门进来，而你则不同。你是和大姑娘似 的，轻轻地，慢慢的……你不是这样吗？你自己想想，我说得对不对？ 马伯乐说着就得意洋洋地拿起蛋炒饭开始吃。差不多要吃饱了他才想起问他的 客人： “小陈，可是你吃了饭吗？” 他不等小陈回答，他便接下去说： “可是我这里也没有什么好吃的，只是每天吃蛋炒饭……一开起战来，你晓得 鸡蛋多少钱一个，昨天是七分，今天我又一打听是八分。真是贵得吃不起了。Here 所吃的还是打仗的前一天买的，是一角钱三个。可是现在也快吃完了。吃完也不打 算买了。我们的肠胃并不是怎么十分高贵的，非吃什么鸡蛋不可。我说小陈，你没 看见吗？满街都是难民，他们吃什么呢？他们是什么也怕没有吃。……我吃完了这 几个蛋，我绝不再买了。可是小陈你到底吃过饭没？若没吃就自己动手，切上些葱 花，打上两个蛋，就自己动手炒吧！蛋炒饭是很香的。难道你吃过了吗？你怎么不 出声？ " 小陈说吃过了，用不着了。并问马伯乐： “黄浦江上大空战你看见了吗？” 小陈是马伯乐在大学里旁听时的同学，他和马很好，所以说话也就不大客气。 他是马伯乐的穷朋友之一，同时也是马伯乐过去书店里的会计。那天马伯乐在街上 走着，帽子被抓掉了，也就是他。他的眼睛很大，脸色很黄，因长期的胃病所致。 他这个人的营养不良是无可否认的事实。脸色黄得透明，他的耳朵迎着太阳会透亮 的，好像医药室里的用玻璃瓶子装着、浸在酒精里的胎儿的标本似的。马伯乐说不 上和他怎样要好，而是他上赶着愿意和马伯乐做一个朋友。马伯乐也就没有拒绝他 ，反正穷朋友好对付，多几个少几个也没多大关系。马伯乐和他相谈也谈不出多大 道理来，他们两个人之间没有什么思想，没有什么事业在中间联系着。也不过两 方面都是个市民的资格，又加上两方面也都没有钱。小陈是没有钱的，马伯乐虽然 有钱，可是都在父亲那里，他也拿不到的，所以也就等于没有钱。 可是小陈今天来到这里，打算向马伯乐借几块钱。他转了好几个弯而没有开口 .他一看马伯乐生活这样子，怕是他也没有钱。可是又一想，马伯乐的脾气他是知 道的，有钱和没有钱是看不大出来的，没有钱，他必是很颓丧的，有了钱，他也还 是颓丧的，因为他想： “钱有了，一花可不就是没有吗？” 小陈认识他很久了，对于他的心理过程很有研究。于是乎直截了当地就问马伯 乐： “老马，有钱没有？我要用两块？” 马伯乐一言未发，到床上去就拉自己的裤子来，当着小陈的面把裤袋里所有的 钱一齐拿出来展览一遍，并且说着：“老马我，不是说有钱不往外拿，是真的一点 办法没有了。快成为难民了。 " 他把零钱装到裤袋去，裤子往床上一丢时，裤袋里边的铜板叮当响着。马伯乐 说： “听吧，穷的叮当了，铜板在唱歌了。” 在外表上看来，马伯乐对于铜板是很鄙视的，很看不起的，那是他表示着他的 出身是很高贵的，虽然现在穷了，也不过是偶尔的穷一穷，可并非出身就是穷的。 不过当他把小陈一送走了，他赶快拾起裤子来，数一数到底是多少铜板。马伯 乐深知铜板虽然不值钱，可它到底是钱。就怕铜板太少，铜板多了，也一样可以成 为富翁的。 他记得青岛有一位老绅士，当初就是讨铜板的叫化子，他一个月讨两千多铜板 ，讨了十几年，后来就发财了。现在就是当地的绅士。 “铜板没用吗？那玩艺要一多也不得了。” 马伯乐正在聚精会神的数着，门外又有人敲他的门。 马伯乐的住处从来不来朋友，今天一来就是两个，他觉得有点奇怪。 “这又是谁呢？” he thinks. 他照着他的，完完全全地照着他的老规矩，慢慢地把身子掩在门后，仿佛他打 算遭遇不测。只把门开了一个小小的小小的缝。 原来不是什么人，而是女房东来找他谈话，问他下月房子还住不住，房子是涨 价的。 “找房子的人，交交关，交交关。” 女房东穿着发亮的黑拷绸的裤褂，拖着上海普遍的，老板娘所穿的油渍渍的， 然而还绣着花的拖鞋。她哇啦哇啦他说了一大堆上海话。 马伯乐等房东太太上楼去了，关了门一想：“这算完！” 房子也涨了价了，吃的也都贵得不得了。That's not counting.最可怕是战争还不知道演 变到什么地步。 “这算完，这算完……” 马伯乐一连说了几个“这算完”之后，他便颓然地躺在床上去了。他一点力量 也没有了。 大炮一连串的，好像大石头似的在地面上滚着，轰轰的。马伯乐的房子虽然是 一点声音不透，但这大炮轰隆轰隆的声音是从地底下来的，一直来到马伯乐的床底 Down. 马伯乐也自然难免不听到这大炮的响声。这声音讨厌得很，仿佛有块大石头在 他脑子中滚着似的。他头昏脑乱了，他烦躁得很。 “这算完，这算完。” 他越想越没有办法。 马伯乐几天前已给太太写了信去。虽然预测那信还未到，可是在马伯乐他已经 觉得那算绝望了。 “太太不会来的，她不会来的，她那个人是一块死木头……她绝不能来。”他 既然知道她绝不能来，那他还要写信给她？其实太太来与不来，马伯乐是把握不着 的，他心上何曾以为她绝对不能来？不过都因为事情太关乎他自己了。越是单独的 关乎他自己的事情，他就越容易往悲观方面去想。因为他爱自己甚于爱一切人。 他的小雅格，他是很喜欢的，可是若到了极高度的危险，有生命危险的时候， 他也没有办法，也只得自己逃走了事。他以为那是他的能力所不及的，他并没有罪 Pass. 假若马伯乐的手上在什么地方擦破了一块皮，他抹了红药水，他用布把它包上 .而且皱着眉头很久很久地惋惜着他这已经受了伤的无辜的手。 受了伤，擦一点红药水，并不算是恶习，可是当他健康的脚，一脚出去踏了别 人包着药布的患病的脚，他连对不起的话也不讲。他也不以为那是恶习。（只有外 国人不在此例，他若是碰撞了人家，他连忙说Sorry。并不是他怕外国人，因为外 国人太厉害。 ) 总之，越是马伯乐自己的事情，他就越容易往悲观方面去想。也不管是真正乐 观的，或有几分乐观的，这他都不管。哪怕一根鱼刺若一被横到他的喉咙里，那鱼 刺也一定比横在别人喉咙里的要大，因为他实实在在地感着那鱼刺的确是横在他的 喉咙了。一点也不差，的的确确的，每一呼吸那东西还会上下地刺痛着。 房东这一加房价，马伯乐立刻便暗无天日起来，一切算是完了。人生一点意思 也没有，一天到晚的白活，白吃，白喝，白睡觉，实在是没有意思。这样一天一天 地活下去，到什么时候算个了事。 马伯乐等房东太太上了楼，他就关了门，急急忙忙地躺到床上去，他的两个眼 睛不住地看着电灯，一直看到眼睛冒了花。他想： “电灯比太阳更黄，电灯不是太阳啊！” “大炮毕竟是大炮，是与众不同的。” “国家多难之期，人活着是要没有意思的。” “人在悲哀的时候，是要悲哀的。” 马伯乐照着他的规程想了很多，他依然想下去： “电灯一开，屋子就亮了。” “国家一打仗，人民就要逃难的。” “有了钱，逃难是舒服的。” “日本人不打青岛，太太是不能来的。” “太太不来，逃难是要受罪的。” “没有钱，一切谈不到。” “没有钱，就算完了。” “没有钱，咫尺天涯。” “没有钱，寸步难行。” “没有钱，又得回家了。” 马伯乐一想到回家，他不敢再想了。那样的家怎么回得？冷酷的，无情的，从 父亲、母亲、太太说起，一直到小雅格，没有一个人会给他一个好颜色。 哪怕是猫狗也怕受不了，何况是一个人呢！ 马伯乐的眼睛里上下转了好几次眼泪。“人活着有什么意思！” 他的眼泪几乎就要流出来了。 马伯乐赶快地抽了几口烟，总算把眼泪压下去了。 经过这一番悲哀的高潮，他的内心似乎舒展了一些。他从床上起来，用冷水洗 着脸，他打算到街上去散散步。 无奈他推门一看，天仍落着雨，雨虽然不很大，是讨厌得很。 马伯乐想，衣服脏了也没有人给他洗，要买新的又没有钱，还是不去吧。 马伯乐刚忘下了的没有钱的那回事，现在又想起来了。 “没有钱，就算完。” “人若没有钱，就不算人了。” 马伯乐气得擂了一下桌子。桌面上立时跳起了许多饭粒。因为他从来不擦桌子 ，所以那饭粒之中有昨天的有前天的，也或许有好几天前就落在桌子上的。有许多 饭粒本来是藏在桌子缝里边，经他打了这一拳，通通都跳出来了。好像活东西似的 ，和小虫似的。 马伯乐赶快伸出手掌来把它们扫到地上去了。他是扫得很快的，仿佛慢了一点 ，他怕那些饭粒就要跑掉似的。而后他用两只手掌拍着，他在打扫着自己的手掌， 他想： “这他妈的叫什么世界呵！满身枷锁，没有一个自由的人。这算完，现在又加 上了小日本这一层枷锁。血腥的世界，野兽的世界，有强权，无公理，现在需要火 山爆发，需要天崩地裂，世界的未日，他妈的快快来到吧！若完大家就一块完，快 点完。别他妈的费事，别他妈的费事。这样的活着干什么，不死不活的，活受罪。 " 马伯乐想了一大堆，结果又想到他自己的身上去了： “这年头，真是大难的年头，父母妻子会变成不相识的人，奇怪的，变成不相 干的了。还不如兽类，麻雀当它的小雀从房檐落到地上，被猫狗包围上来的时候， 那大麻雀拼命地要保护它的小雀，它吱吱喳喳地要和狗开火，其实凭