Chapter 52 【The Story of Leisure and Sorrow】

【The Story of Leisure and Sorrow】 one But the last time Tang Junyi came to Japan to give lectures, during those ten days, Aizhen was facing a wrongful lawsuit again. The next day, I went to the detention center of the Lichuan Police Station to see her, and brought food and a change of clothes.But I didn't tell my friends start, unless the listener asks three times.I don't say it because of dignity, if I say it because of compassion. At noon that day, I sent President Mizuno back to Nagoya at Tokyo Station. After watching his train leave, I thought about Aizhen Feeling overwhelmed and angry, I suddenly thought of going to Ozaki Shiro's house.But when I arrived at Ozaki's house, I only thought about it.

The guests sat opposite each other for a while, and the weather in the front hall and the yard was sunny and fine.I'm still afraid to disturb his writing, eat Tea said goodbye.Passing Omori Station, I went into a bookstore and had a fight with the clerk, Ms. Morioka. I went to Ozaki's house for the first time on New Year's Eve last year, and she led the way and walked me all the way there.I remember when she wore red hair Sweater, trousers underneath, clogs, mother-of-pearl buttons on the clothes, hair pins with rhinestones on the head, powder on the face, 19 years old Looking at the girl's figure and eyes, I feel that her figure is as bright as the lights of New Year's Eve.Now I thank her, so gentle,

No one knows that I have troubles.Because mine is not the joy and anger of children, but the worries of adults. Ozaki Shirou's family hosted a banquet for Junyi, and Nishio Suehiro's family stayed with Junyi, and I was invited together.I also accompany Jun Yi Went to Xinwu's house in Mizuma, traveled around the sun with him, attended symposiums and farewell parties, without being disturbed by Aizhen's affairs .In this world, Aizhen is detained in the police station, and someone is giving lectures, and there are many friends, this kind of disharmony , It is really pungent, and it is more clear and clean.

At the banquet at Ozaki's house, I was still in the mood to admire Ozaki and Mizuno.Mizuno is Mizuno, that night he He was also invited to accompany him.I think Ozaki Shiro is the number one person in Japan for articles today, and under his reputation, he is very busy I look like a star, but I don't know how to criticize it.When I read his novel "Theatre of Life", I always have to live Comments were made, but they were automatically canceled immediately.I can't help but want to read books without opinions and see people without opinions. Rejoice yourself.Ozaki I saw him several times, and I think it was because he happened to be writing all night, his body seemed to be transparent.

Ming is just a refreshing soul, flustered and calm, a kind of force, reminding me of visiting Ise Shrine, Amaterasu Dai The gods and souls and wild souls, but in him they are all happy.Now at the table, Ozaki is the host, but he just sits and doesn't drink, I asked him, and he replied, "Tou Shanman also liked to watch people drink, but he didn't drink himself." There are many ancient sayings about wine. , Sure enough, you don't need to drink wine, like you don't need to fold flowers. Shiruo Mizuno sat next to me and told me about Rao Shushi. In the past, he represented the Japanese Communist Party in Shanghai, and

acquaintance.In the past 20 years, dynasties have changed on both sides, and Mizuno has quit the Communist Party and became a member of the National Policy Society. The president, the CCP army went south, he saw in the newspaper that Rao was an important person in the East China Military Region, and he went home and told his wife about it. cheers.He said that Rao was a good man, but he didn't comment on the fact that he was recently purged together with Gao Gang.i am a success He is an advocate and attaches great importance to Mizuno's emerging strength in Japan's industrial and even political circles.He is one of the five largest banks in Japan

The presidents are all brothers with him, and the old forces even Yoshida Shigeru treats him like a child.Japan also has a lot of generosity and compassion The singers only talk about how Japan's financial circles are, and criticize the past prime ministers in recent years. Naruo's seldom commented and criticized, but actually changed Japan's power from the chaebols and political tyrants of the previous generation to the The hands of the warlords transferred and received them.The greater the talent, the fewer fights, and the history can also be It's so quiet. Japan today is like the Warring States Period, everyone can do whatever they want, and Naruo Mizuno is the modern Oda Nobunaga.he

I originally studied French literature.Now he is sitting next to me, reminding me for no reason of the song in the Shaoxing opera "Kicking Kui". Kuixing, Mizuno's appearance is really majestic, but he is wearing a kimono at the moment, as silent as water.there is him The guest was the publishing industry, who asked Tang Junyi questions, Junyi answered, Ikeda translated, and Mizuno just listened.and number of liquor stores Xun, Kobayashi from Asia Magazine, he is the youngest in the room, suddenly became agitated for some reason, talking loudly , Mizuno's agent faced him face to face, and generally listened calmly, probably not caring whether what he said was right or not, but

I just feel that the table is like, A good bird on a branch is a friend, a flower falls on the water and an article But Mizuno, you can see that he is so amicable, but even in a modern society organized by technology, he can generally kill snakes People who open paths. Because I remembered that a weekly magazine wrote about Mizuno Chengfu, he also kowtowed to the small role of the bank Those who came here thought it was really solemn.I heard from Jing Jia that he learned martial arts from his teacher for three years, but the teacher didn't teach him anything. But teach him to cut down trees and stones. If you cut down with one knife, all the force will go into the tree and rock, and nothing will bounce back.

, and then teach you knife skills.In this way, if you slash on the opponent's sword and gun, the opponent's mouth will be shattered immediately, and the outcome will be decisive. Let's see the result, there are still many solutions that don't need to be used.Often Ikeda and I scratch our heads and sigh, thinking in modern society Some heroic moves, such as cutting a stone with a knife, will be bounced back immediately, but this is still because of lack of effort. And Mizuno Chengfu has such a kung fu.In the past, there was Oda Nobunaga, who won the world in a battle in the barrel, and

Honnoji died in a rage.This is exactly the desolation of the Japanese, and even the Japan that has come to today since the Meiji era. The essence of this period of history.Oda Nobunaga seems to draw orchids and bamboos with a brush, success or failure is determined by one stroke, even if it is not Supplementary modification. Mizuno and Ozaki are friends of Yu Boya and Zhong Ziqi.It was night Ozaki was drunk, how did Jun Yi speak, the next day He asked Mizuno, and Mizuno said, "Pu Mao Danyuan." After Mizuno left the banquet at night, the banquet became messy for some reason. stand up.There is one in Yuanqu, "Hua Yan opens with a beautiful scenery".Ozaki thought he was intoxicated by the scenery.I don't know how He talked about Yu Zhengxin, Ozaki felt that the Japanese army killed and surrendered in the Philippines, he sadly, loudly, and seriously He replied, "If anyone wants to kill Hu Lancheng, I will die with him!" After the banquet, all the guests gave their speeches. Ozaki is still sitting there, only Mrs. Ozaki and his aunt see off the guests at the door.Jun Yi and Ikeda got into the car in front, I was already starting the engine, and I was about to get into the car behind when I saw Ozaki rush out, and he also got into the car In the house, it is necessary to take me home.In such a late night and a long road, he was drunk, and he was wearing a kimono worn indoors. The cold spring is still severe, so why not catch a cold!His wife and I coaxed him in every possible way but he refused to come down, so I had to come down by myself and say no. Only then did he coax him out of the car. Ozaki treats me, which makes me grateful, but I suppress myself, thinking that I should be grateful now, to make people my confidant, It's still too early.People in the world only know each other when they are doing great things, and become talented even if they are incapable. If you are good In the courtyard when the weather is good, all the miscellaneous trees become rare trees.Now I'd rather know Ozaki than Ozaki doesn't know me. Disturbed the Ozaki family and the Nishio family.Suehiro Nishio was born as a turntable worker at the Mitsubishi Machine Works in Osaka.and Now in the Japanese political circles, he is the most noble of Tsinghua University. He is a socialist, but he can compete with the liberal democrats. interval.His wife was also a female worker.One year during the New Year, Aizhen and I took our daughter Huiying and his wife When I went to Nishio's house to pay New Year's greetings, Mrs. Nishio and Miss came out to entertain them, all wearing kimonos. Later, Huiying repeatedly marveled at the beautiful Xian, said that Xiwei's family is really the prime minister's family, the wife is Mrs. Xiangguo, and the young lady is Miss Xiangfu!Huiying is a girl from Suzhou Son, she only sees the wealth and splendor of the world in old dramas, but now she sees it is so naturally born in the common people's spirit .But this time I asked Jun Yi to look at the good families in Japan, so I chose the Nishio family.Stay overnight at Nishio's house, face west the next day The Oo couple also do tea ceremony, please invite Jun Yi, Ikeda, and me. The best thing about Japan is the tea ceremony.When doing the tea ceremony, it is only about respect and respect, no love, no life. The sense of urgency or sense of life and so on.It cannot be joy, anger, sorrow or joy.It cannot be an opinion discussion.never conquer the world The most important thing is to come out from the tail end of feelings and opinions.Even walking ahead of the sky, come to a "congenital and "Tian Fu violates", so great heroes like Toyotomi Hideyoshi all pay attention to the tea ceremony.But Mrs. Nishio is still a new learner. She didn't understand the ceremony of the tea ceremony, and asked her husband. Of course, Mr. Nishio didn't know it. My wife discussed it and said that it was probably like this, which made me laugh at the moment.It turns out that Toyotomi Hideyoshi also came out in the past He was a commoner, but his tea ceremony was so famous in history, and now the tea ceremony is in the Nishio family, which is older than in the aristocratic family. Home seems more affordable. So I accompanied Jun Yi on a trip to the sun.There is Toshogu Shrine in Nikko, dedicated to Tokugawa Ieyasu, the first general.Tokugawa Ieyasu Open Day In the three hundred years of peaceful unification, it is difficult to describe his legacy, and he dare not be the first and the last.His Toshogu Shrine, three generations Built by Shogun Iemitsu, it is decorated with gold. It is originally a shrine style, but it is mostly influenced by the architecture of the Ming Dynasty in China. The scenery of the southern barbarians, but there is no problem, I only feel that the world of the Japanese is so big at that time.This kind, I don't know why Everything is very kind to me and makes me reflect. Although it is already March in the Gregorian calendar, the mountains are still covered with snow. In the car going up and down the mountains, I asked Jun Yi about the new year. Asia Academy.At the beginning, Qian Mu, Tang Junyi and others escaped from the mainland and opened Xinyashu in a rented building in Kowloon. They were not able to afford enough food and clothing, and then got the cooperation of Yale University in the United States to build a new school building, which is proud of them.And up Vice-principal Qian Mu came to Japan to give lectures, but he didn't say anything about it.So is Jun Yi.This time I asked him, and he said, "Ben In the future, we should turn around. If we can help others, we will have peace of mind. "This is a real scholar.so The scholar I respect, also in Japan, is Sadaharu Yabe, the president of Takushoku University. And Jun Yi, this time I also talked about the manuscript of "Mountains and Rivers".I was smuggled to Japan at that time.leave the manuscript At Jun Yi's place, I was afraid that if the mail was lost, I asked him to copy a copy and mail it.Some students copied Some of them were copied by Mrs. Jun Yi, and the typo was corrected by Jun Yi himself.I am very grateful to speak with Ikeda A person can entrust an orphan three feet away and send a life of a hundred miles, but it is only based on such a letter between friends.How do you know the king's determination, "Before you left, you left one hundred Hong Kong dollars for copying books. The truth is that the school was very poor at that time. I collected all the cigarette cans in the store, and there was a big basket, and I sold them for less than a dollar.My husband and I discussed, The one hundred yuan you left to copy the books is for others to take advantage of, so why not take advantage of it yourself.You're right, no Dare to be. After he mentioned it, I remembered that there was indeed that one hundred yuan.However, I think Jun Yi's behavior is better than mine. It is better to imagine, because this is more real. Jun Yi was passing through Japan and was going to give lectures in the United States. The farewell party was held at a Japanese restaurant in Ginza.Me at the table In his speech, he said, "To start a new dynasty, one needs to be sensible, but he must also be able to be unreasonable. Master Nichiren of Japan proposed to create The Lotus Sutra, however, says that the heavenly demons of Zen practice the Buddha's name continuously.How can Zen be a demon, and how can chanting Buddha's name be hell? His unreasonable?Gandhi of India, he was doing independence movement, but he needed a hand-cranked spinning wheel to spin Cotton, this is also unreasonable. "And why did I think of using such words as a counterpoint to the Japanese politicians and the Chinese? It is also unreasonable to place such deep responsibilities on the two of them based on the words of Chinese scholars. I was thinking otherwise.In the past, whenever there was chaos in the world, people like Zhang Liang, Ma Yuan and Li Jing would search for newcomers. There is a master of life, I think this is better than visiting a famous teacher thousands of miles away.Cao Cao and Liu Bei cook wine and talk about heroes, they are the ones who talk about it, not On the knowledge.I don't like the CCP, because his actions are too relevant, and his rationality is not reasonable.but me It is also because I have a deep feeling for today's troubled times by looking at people carefully and measuring people. After Jun Yi left, Shou Zhen remained at the Lichuan Police Station for a few days before being released and returned home.during that time of distress , My person has become unusually peaceful, even I feel it myself.And Aizhen also went through this last time. No more police accidents.Otherwise, there would not be such peace.I'm the one who went to their narcotics crackdown. After a serious negotiation, in front of the director, he reprimanded the anesthesia drug officer three to six, so he didn't dare to mess around anymore. . It turns out that the banning of narcotics must be strict, but it must not be mixed with religious concepts of sin and blessing or even moral good and evil. idea.Mencius talked about the heart of right and wrong, just to distinguish right from wrong, that is, it is cleaner than talking about sin, good and evil.and this is also The basic spirit of the law.Japan's narcotics banning officer acts like a spy.One of them was originally from Japan The translator who sent troops to China was the worst translator at that time, and he still treats the Chinese in Japan like this now. He has no common sense of law.The information on the narcotics class turned out to be done by bad guys, if twenty pieces like this Among the secrets, there was one thing that seemed to be a little tricky, and that was the big harvest.And as soon as he receives an informant, he will report to the Metropolitan Police Department. To search the house and arrest the person.It turned out that he regarded anyone who was denounced as a fact to be established. There he said so.Even the procurator read his note last time and asked him in front of Aizhen, "Isn't this It's strange! "Aizhen was only involved by Li Xiaobao once, and the narcotics banning officer would come to my house from time to time, Inquire about the actions of overseas Chinese.He told me that he went to other overseas Chinese, and they all said he was a good person.threatened me again , "The Chinese here are all under my control, no matter who he is, I have absolute power to deal with him!" He said Again, no legal knowledge.And he also lectured me on the dangers of narcotics. But I still talk kindly to him, I'm afraid I will suffer.I also think that if things change, forget it. I don't want to be sued by the law and go to court because I don't want to be equal to such a villain, and I'm not used to begging for help, Even begging for help from the law.I've been angry more than once.I have thought about it for a long time.I took Ikeda with me that day Negotiations are an act as decisive as a determination, yet seemingly accidental.The Drug Enforcement Officer is out there. The public office, if you see me entering the director's room, follow me in immediately, as if you can monitor my speech, if I don't prevent you from being in front of the director Face to face with him, testify against his actions and words one by one, and condemn him without forgiveness , and also let him know that the powerful evil spirit of the adult is like this, so that he has nothing to hide.he stands There, his face was like that of a jailer in a Chinese opera, with a white nose and eyes that were just two small black holes, and an upturned beard. beard. Although I have also served as the head of the Legal Affairs Bureau, I have always wanted to insult the judges and the police. What is regarded as dignity will be nothing more than a joke once it meets Mao Zedong or MacArthur, and I am even Both Mao Zedong and MacArthur saw that they could be wiped out.Last time I went to the Metropolitan Police Department to testify about Aizhen In the middle of speaking, I was sternly shouted at by the police officer several times. I was silent at the moment, but I couldn't help watching him and seeing him. Writing a statement, I took out a pack of Xinsheng brand cigarettes and put them on the table. sad.Majestic Lie could be good, even poor and humble, but not like him.when Of course I am not arrogant to him. Fortunately, Aizhen's troubles have finally been settled.Looking at the plum blossoms in front of the building by leaning on the railing today, it is still in the world that Tsinghua is precious gas.The exhibition of Huanghuang murals was held in Tokyo, and I went to see it with Aizhen.The Northern and Southern Dynasties were really a great era, Chi Vigorous, ignorant things from the Western Regions have become the torch of Chinese civilization.There are also Sui and Tang Dynasties, one of which is the Song Dynasty The picture of the lady returning to court, riding a horse, wearing two golden flowers on her hat, the rider holding a dowry, burning incense, an orchestra in front of the horse, women More than a dozen people are dancing, a bit like Yangko dance.I can't get tired of watching it, I think it's really beautiful, I also look at Ai Zhen, and don't It is forbidden to compare the present with the present, and compare the present with the past. two One autumn, I went to Odawara with Ikeda to give a speech, and the locals accompanied me to visit the Hakone Shrine the next day The sword presented by Hideyoshi was the one he wore before the battle in Odawara.There is also Tokugawa Ieyasu's saber. Today, there is a large copper lamp donated by Prime Minister Kishi Nobusuke, which hangs in front of the porch in gold, and it is still new. Miyazaki Wakiyama is a hero from the Kumamoto area. He treated me as the guest of honor, and he was a drumming shaman when I visited the shrine. dance.It is a chapter of two young witches dancing in front of the gods and singing a good year.After singing and dancing, one woman holds the pot and the other woman serves the lamp, Come to give the gods wine and food.Priests in ancient costumes held wats and led us to worship.After worshiping and prostrating, the priest pulled out the white paper on the frame like a big Whisk the dust off our heads, and then pull out the gold leaf umbrella in front of the gods and brush it on our heads a few times.The two locals are all He was overjoyed and said, "Usually, there is no gold leaf umbrella in front of the gods to get rid of it. Today is an odd number for Mr. Hu. It can be seen that the gods I like Mr Hu. "Being loved by Japanese gods is more like a guest-host than being loved by Japanese women and common people. It made me cherish myself in front of others. On the way home, I took a sightseeing bus, and the driver was a young woman. The mountain was winding, and she told the scenery along the way, "Once upon a time, Feng The battle of Chen Hideyoshi Odawara, Chen Bing here. "The bus turns, another place, "Old, Odawara battle, Toyotomi Hideyoshi stepped up to the slope immediately.Allied forces Tokugawa Ieyasu's army went down the Sanroku River on the right hand side. "is the place The weather is sunny, and the success or failure of things in this world is so clear, which is really bright. Speaking of Toyotomi Hideyoshi, when Ikeda and I gave a lecture in Osaka this time, we visited his old castle and climbed up the castle tower. The copper tile cornices of the Tianshou Pavilion are really amazing.I have seen prints of Thirty-Six Views of Fuji in street shops, among which One painting shows the rolling waves, and the boat rises from the valley bottom of the waves, as if riding a dragon to go to heaven.Copper of the castle tower The tile cornices can be compared to such sea waves, which go straight down.This is a unique idea of ​​the Japanese.In the castle tower there is The portrait of Toyotomi Hideyoshi is so good that I couldn't leave immediately after seeing it.I stood facing him for a while, and I felt a little Lower your head a little.Then I went to the window and looked at the mountains, rivers and cities, and I just felt that it was my own integrity. I don't know when I will be able to return to the mainland and start a new dynasty with a generation. Maybe it is like an oath with a beauty, and I finally misunderstood. It's a good time.I've seen things with less certainty these days than before.And I have so many sorrows and angers that my practice is not enough Like before. It turns out that only religious people can mature in practice, and those who are like Christ will sit at the right hand of God. Or, like Sakyamuni's attainment of perfect enlightenment, he will never waver and doubt in everything.But it is not the case with Confucius and Mencius.Mencius has one His student Wan Zhang saw that he seemed very unhappy.Because Wan Zhang asked him, Mencius said that there must be a king in five hundred years. Zhexing, now is the time, but listening to his tone, it is not judgment, but rather reflection. After Mencius, there was the unification of the Qin Dynasty, and then the Han Dynasty, and the communication with India, Persia and Rome, and the beginning of Create a new rule of ritual and music.But is Mencius right?And since the Han and Tang Dynasties, every time a new dynasty was opened, it really was Is it true that there must be a king after five hundred years?However, it is Yefeiye who is a clear sign of history, which is dubious It is the great faith of history.Even in previous years, if the Japanese War of Resistance was guaranteed to be won, it was actually dubious at that time.Will Belief and doubt is for lovers, but it can also be good enough for major events in the world. It turns out that uprising for the world is like painting and calligraphy. It is impossible to know whether there is a magical brush or not. Wu Qingyuan went down, he felt that he had no reason to win.Victory is luck.He said that his black fan is not as strong as before It seems that in the past, the black fans were almost certain to win, but now the black and white fans are both wavering and victorious.And that's where he comes Japan is strong after a glance.In this way, I am not as sure as I used to be when I see things today, or maybe I will be more confident in the future progress after this. A while ago I happened to read Zhuge Liang's List of Masters, and he said to Qiantu, "There is one thing that I don't understand." , "There are two things that this minister does not understand", "Three things that this minister does not understand", I have never read it like this time cordial.Poetry from the Tang Dynasty, "Being a teacher, a watch with a real name in the world", are really good.Zhuge Liang, between the number of days and human affairs, Such repeated reflections made me weep.And now I'm simply out of sorts.But the Communist Party must be defeated , he is absolutely sure of major events in the world if he is defeated. Suehiro Nishio is a right winger of the Socialist Party, known as the Nishio faction in the party. Some friends I know say that he should broke with the left.There are also suggestions that he should quit the Socialist Party at all and form a new party.But I use Su Shi to write all Prime Minister Ge's two lines of poems were presented to him.say, Rough things, temperance, forbearance and long-term indecision Nishio was very grateful to Huanxi and asked me to write calligraphy, but because my calligraphy is difficult to have confidence in, I agreed and have not written to him yet. I have also learned to recognize others now.For dissidents, Westerners talk about tolerance, but tolerance is actually arrogance For the wording, I would rather like to learn from the early PLA. I am in Japan, it seems that I am a guest at a relative's house, and it can be compared to the time when I stayed with Xiumei in the little lady of Jinhua In my village, when looking at people and things, there is always no reason to be irritable first.Japanese students are now mostly male Fei, female hooligans, Tokyo Metropolitan City, Ginza, Shimbashi, Shibuya, newly built coffee shops with three or four floors, each building can accommodate There were more than a thousand people, and most of them were high school female students and male students.The band plays jazz, following the elevator floor to floor The lift of the building.They are called the Sun Clan, which reminds me of the ancient Egyptians.That jazz, restlessness, impulsiveness, sex The screams of life, the uproar of life, the tropical scenery of Hawaii, but it is indeed the young generation of Japan people.Li Huaqing took me to such a place, and Jing Jia and two Singaporean students also took me there , and I can know its good because I am humble.Although I still don't like it. I went to Ginza with You Zhongshan, and he said that there are cars, subways, and concrete and steel buildings everywhere. , People simply walked into the wild forest swamp.He said that the underground railway is the practice of the Communist Party, and he only talked about arriving Destination, there is no scenery along the way.I also felt that what he said was good, but I never echoed what he said. Even the Hatoyama cabinet's proposal to restore diplomatic relations with the Soviet Union, and the Kishi cabinet's proposal to do business with the CCP, I have no objection or objection in my heart. He wanted to blame, but Ning thought about it.Because I and a generation want to recover the mainland and start a new dynasty, there is As Yu Rang said, "Whatever I do is extremely difficult." Based on what I have seen and known, I have to agree with one thing and oppose it. For one thing, there can never be any lies or frivolity.Every time in the Buddhist scriptures, "If the Buddha said that there is more meaning, Those who have omissions will go up in the sky and on the earth, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. "I just now realize the importance of the era that Sakyamuni lived in, so He is so cautious. Not only mentally, but also emotionally.I have no grief or indignation towards the Communist Party.I and a generation want To destroy him, it is the sky that wants to destroy him.I left my children on the mainland, and my life and death are unknown, maybe my niece Qingyun is already hungry and suffering Dead, but I am not tempted.Even Mao Zedong and the Communist Party have killed more than ten million people, I don't blink It turns out that not killing innocent people is humane, and killing more innocent people is the way of heaven. I can't be more merciful than Mao Zedong.i love fur Mao Zedong, and wants to praise Khrushchev as a character, but the Communist Party is still going to be destroyed.Of course I'm not Too proud of America. When Shi Kui came here once, he talked about the current situation in his hometown, how the Communist Party persecuted his wife, and saw him wiping his tears. The person I was sitting would also stand up, and was really angry, but he only let out an "uh" and didn't say anything else.I did it when I was young Poetry has mouth, Condor cast a blow to fall Zhen no longer look A man should do things like this, no one treats the enemy's scratching as fun, and lives by himself . Also, Ms. Ying praised the buses in Japan. She said, in Hong Kong, if you catch a bus, the person who bought the ticket clearly saw it. You were only a few steps away, and he rang the bell and drove away with a "Dang!", and you became ridiculous, but that's what you bought. The voter didn't smile, just a mean and green face, because all this is so tasteless.in the bus again Passengers trampling on other people's shoes and stockings, you think why he is so rude, you can't help but look at that person, you It’s okay if you don’t look at it, but when you look at it, the man asked your face straightly, “How much money do you deserve? Just take a private car instead of taking a bus! "Hong Kong people are like this. When you see someone, you first look at you from head to toe. Measure how much furniture you have, and then answer.You have to look at people's wealth or poverty, or pretend not to care, But Hong Kong people look straight at your face. After what Miss Ying said, I just feel ice in my heart, and it will be hard to get rid of it for many days.Later I relayed it to Ikeda and listened to it, Ikeda said angrily, "Ah!" But I didn't say a word of indignation.I would rather be civilized than degenerate in such a thing. For a down-to-earth duel, the first thing to do is to judge how powerful the corrupt and shameful atmosphere is.I have been all these years Cultivate such a habit, such as before the battle, only feel that the enemy should not be underestimated. Biography of the King of Huainan in Shiji, Wu Bei said that in the season of Qin, six out of ten people in the world want to rebel, and some people say that the emperor Gao Said, the time is right.Emperor Gao said, Weiye, the sage should be in the southeast.Now Poland and Hungary are rioting, and The Chinese people also tried a little bit, and felt that the time was not right, so they quickly accepted it.This tenderness, this tenderness , It's like the first sight of orchid buds in early spring, and the sound of warblers is still astringent.Laozi is really a book that conquers the world. He said that the life of vegetation is also weak. I am also a weak person today.When I was young, I was in the same class as my classmates in Hucun privately. After a few years, I went to Hangzhou Studying, returning from summer vacation, I saw that some of them have been apprentices in shops and have become teachers, and some have become primary school teachers. , and some of them are still studying in Hangzhou like me, but they went to Anding Middle School and Law and Politics School. See you now On the other hand, they all became old and young, no matter what they said, how they acted or how they looked.Only I am still naive and can't mature. Later, when I was teaching, running a newspaper, and being an official, I saw that people behaved the same way, talked and talked, and got old. It is not crispy.And I was simply unkind.I am still the old Ruisheng.Once I suddenly remembered Shendu in Zhongyong , perhaps this is how it is explained.Even now, the various actions of overseas Chinese have little to do with me.but there was a time ago Li Ruishuang, an international student, studied Indian Philosophy at Dongdae University. He can play the hole flute. I keep in touch.He and I brought the flute to Shinjuku Gyoen, and he invited me to Denen Chofu on a summer night. Went underground to the Tamagawa Bridge.After two years like this, he later transferred to the United States. This Li Ruishuang once took me to a Buddhist temple in Kamakura to meet Suzuki Dazhuo.Daizuo Suzuki is a master of Zen Teacher, in the past, he was friends with the novelist Koda Rohan and the philosopher Nishida Kitaro, and they were called the Three Masters. Now he is eighty years old. Yu, who often lectures in the United States and Europe, has a very high status.When he returns to China this time, he will stay for a month or two before leaving again. .He thought I was a student like Li Ruishuang, and told us that the West is the conquest of nature, and the East is the unity of man and nature .I only pay attention to the people who watch him, and I like his lively movements.He unwrapped a package of greedy treats and said twice, Rui Shuang and I refused to eat, but he got angry at that time, wrapped up the steamed buns and put them away, so he didn't say anything.I And Rui Shuang said goodbye.I think it's really good that I'm so weak and naive in front of people. In fact, I am not suitable to call anyone a confidant.If there are people who know themselves, they are only people in the neighborhood. I think about the time, personnel and affairs for thousands of years, but if I want to visit the exhibition of antiquities, I would rather like department stores in-season items.Also, my criticism of the modern West is the same as Sakyamuni's criticism of Egypt, Babylon, and Greece in the past. The criticisms of Greece and Persia are the same, and generally strict.But I can still forget about it.one day I never Gu took advantage of the express train to go to Yokohama. It was a new car. When the car drove, it played Beethoven's symphony. With the sound of steel wheels, Driving to the river field, I suddenly found that this symphony is related to the plateaus of ancient Persia, Bhutan, and Nepal. Music, such as Qinghai Bo, which was introduced into the Tang Dynasty, has something in common, so I listen to it today and think it is good. Also, one morning when I was walking in Matsubara-cho, an oncoming car came at the corner, and I avoided the side of the road , the Western woman driving the car smiled at me.Because I was young, and because it was morning, I thought she was very beautiful, It’s like I stopped for a pot of single-petalled pink Zhicao flowers on the top of the yellow mud wall. I know it's the beautiful weather, but I don't know it's my own good feelings. I used to be a body of worries. Whenever I travel with Ikeda, on the train or at the end of the banquet, he will fall asleep. Always sober, comparable to the sleepless practice of eminent monks, who have been sleepless for decades.And my sobriety is so tender weak.Confucianism in the Song Dynasty had the words of abstaining from drowsiness and restlessness. Naturally, it is like this. Jun Yi wrote a letter a while ago to teach me to restrain myself, and I finally lived up to my good friend’s advice. up. But I don't pay attention to Song Confucianism.I would rather like the Yoshitsune played in Noh to escape to Watanabe.Yoshitsune In the Yuanping War, the honor slightly covered the world, but it was not enough for his brother to rely on the court. The Japanese still love it. Wearing a saber and pretending to be a child, because of his frailty and kindness.I could cry, but it's true. three I got up early this morning, at five o'clock this morning, and went for a walk. People in Matsubara Town were still closed. Clearly, only a milkman passed by on a bicycle, and another garbage collector walked by pushing a cart, my heart All respect it.The street lamps were still bright, and there was a small sign nailed to the lamp post, which read, "Electricity is a national treasure, Please turn off during the day. "I read it and somehow felt a sense of peace.I just turn off the lights all the way through , I turned off about forty or fifty lights, and I became a light-off walker. Come back and light incense in front of the Guanyin statue.Avalokitesvara may be just a stranger to me, even if I think about it, it is just like a friend , and because I was born in Chinese civilization, maybe there is a place higher than her, but I still worship.Avalokitesvara Her true nature is from the Lotus Sutra, but when she came to China, she became another kind of worldly good.comparable to me To face Ai Zhen now is to face the people of the world. After breakfast, I stretched out my paper and pen to write something, but I saw Aizhen tidy up the kitchen and was pouring To eat tea, I said, "Ah, my wife is so capable, I have to make tea myself!" Ai Zhen scolded with a smile, " Thirteen o'clock! " I simply didn't write any articles and just looked at Aizhen.I said that Aizhen is a robber woman with pheasant feathers, Aizhen said, "Then why don't you call Xiao Zhou?" I said that Xiao Zhou had been working as a caregiver on the Korean battlefield around that time.she You won't come to see me, just like I won't look for Yizhi again, because of respect.Aizhen asked me again if I wanted to bring Ailing back? I said no to her.Ai Zhen said, "Maybe Ai Ling came to look for you?" I said she would not look for me.Ai Zhen smiled and said: "It can be seen that all the wives of yours have red eyes and green eyebrows. They are beautiful and kind-hearted, but she is also a pretty girl. It's not just me who is a robber woman. " Yanzhi recently received a postcard from Aileen, which was forwarded by Ikeda. There was nothing else in the letter, even The upper and lower paragraphs are not signed.just write, If you have books such as "Difficult Wars and Not Easy" and "Traditions of Civilization" (except "Mountains and Rivers") , Can you borrow it for a few months for reference?Please send (the bottom is in English, her address and name in the United States) . At that time, I took the letter in my hand, recognized the handwriting, and hardly believed it was written by her.She knew Ikeda's address, it was the former It was left when Ikeda went to Hong Kong in 1999.Before Ikeda's trip, I kept it in my heart for many days, and in the end I could only say one thing, "You can visit Eileen Chang when you come to Hong Kong." Besides, I have neither letter nor words.And Ikeda went and came back, I Don't ask, and he never mentions it.After several months, I asked calmly, and he said he hadn't seen it.I Also knew that Aileen would not see him.The two books she mentioned in this letter were published by me in the China Daily and Dachu Newspapers. collection of essays. I showed the letter to Aizhen. Aizhen was stunned first, but then she was happy for me. She always only regarded me as a Hers, at this moment, for some reason, she suddenly likes to see that I belong to the people of the world.She urged me to write a reply, several times, I wrote it, and enclosed my recent photographs.I wrote in the letter, Aileen: "War is Difficult and Not Easy" and "The Tradition of Civilization" are not at hand, but "This Life is Today" It will be ready for printing around the end of next month and will be sent to you after publication.This life and this life were written after coming to Japan.receive It has been ten days since your letter, I compared and read "Mountains and Rivers" and "Love in the Red Land" again , so the reply is late. Lan Cheng Love in Chidi and Yangge are both novels written by Aileen after she left the mainland and came to Hong Kong.When I read my own articles, I thought I was already better than her, but after reading her, I still felt unattainable.Mountains and Rivers is a Hong Kong tabloid once mentioned that there are When someone asked Zhang Ailing about this book, she didn't say anything, and I knew what she was thinking.But I can't always lose to her, That's why Aileen's letter made me grateful.I can also imagine that when Aileen saw my reply, she mentioned that her article Comparing it with mine, she must be a little flustered, and it's good to let her panic, because she is too powerful. But Aizhen was also funny, she just urged me to persuade me, and asked me to be careful with Ms. Zhang and reconcile.she She said she was going to write a letter and persuaded Miss Zhang, and she really wrote it. When I read the letter draft, I couldn't think of it. I will not allow her to send it.Aizhen used to be very hot-handed, and she never tolerated the matter between me and Yizhi.Ai Zhen He also objected to Xiao Zhou, saying that there was something wrong with her moral principles.She said, "If you still have the heart to see Xiao Zhou again, With Aizhen right now, I advise you to stop thinking about it! "Ai Zhen is the husband who has her, that is to say, he can't have anyone else.but Beauty is a different matter.她道、「秀美與你是患難交親，她若來時，我可以答應，但 是你也莫想再見我了。」可是這回愛玲一來信，我未糊塗，她倒先糊塗了。她這 樣的真心真意，我問你不喫醋？她道：「喫醋看地方，你與張小姐是應該在一起 的，兩人都會寫文章，多少好！ 」我說愛玲也不會來，她若來了，你怎樣呢？she 道、「那時我就與你莎喲那拉！」問她如此不心裏難受？她答也不難受。Chinese 真是個理知的民族，愛珍便是連感情都成為理性的乾淨。 今生今世付印了十個月，上卷纔得出版，我快快寄去美國，又寫了信去。but 是愛玲都無回信。想必是因為我不好，寄書就只寄書罷了，卻在信裏寫了夾七夾 八的話去撩她。原來我每到百貨公司看看日本婦人的和服，就會想著愛玲，對於 日本的海鮮也是，自從接到她的信之後，更還有折花贈遠之意，但是又不當真。 我信裏雖沒有多說什麼，可是很分明。原來有一種境界，是無用避忌，而亦著不 得算計圖謀的。 愛珍笑道、「你呀，是要愛玲這樣對付你。想起你對人家絕情絕義，不知有 幾何可惡！」但是她教我寫信寄書時用雙掛號，愛玲接到了總得在回單上簽字。 我惟說都不是為這些，因問你若換了她，也寫回信不寫呢？」愛珍道、「當然不 寫。其實呢？她想來想去，這封回信也難寫。 " 可是回信到底來了。寫的是、 蘭成： 你的信和書都收到了，非常感謝。我不想寫信，請你原諒。我因為實 在無法找到你的舊著作參考，所以冒失地向你借，如果使你誤會，我是 真的覺得抱歉。「今生今世」下卷出版的時候，你若是不感到不快，請 寄一本給我。我在這裏預先道謝，不另寫信了。 愛玲十二月廿七 我看了只覺一點法子亦沒有。馬上也給愛珍看了，受珍詫異道、「果然厲害 ! 」隨即笑起來，說、「該！該！她叫你不要誤會，以為她有心思朝著你了。她 告訴你信與書都收到的，今生今世下卷等出版了仍請你寄去。Hey!她就是不寫信 與你了。你這人本來是也理睬你不得！」她這樣的單是照信裏的話敘述一遍，也 不知是因為晌午好天氣之故，還是別的什麼之故，即刻那信裏的話都成了是忠厚 平正的了。 愛珍道、「但是你偏去撩她，寫信與她，你說我沒有誤會呀，你自己不要多 心，我們來做個學問上頭的朋友，你說好不好呀？」我接口道、「兩人寫文章可 以有進步呀！」愛珍道、「是呀，你就這樣撩她，你說我是要向你請教請教學問 呀，且看她如何說。」我道、「她也不如何說，單是我寫信去，她一概不看。」 愛珍道、「不會的」。我道、「怎麼不會，你做女兒時，人家寫來求愛信，你就 一概不看」。愛珍道、「你與愛玲的情形不同。」 我亦不辯，因道、「上次我寫去的信裏就有撩愛玲，我說她可比九天玄女娘 娘，我是從她得了無字天書，就自己會得用兵佈陣，寫文章好過她了。我這樣撩 she".愛珍道、「你還可以信裏請她來日本看櫻花。我教你一個法子，你只當沒 有收到這封信，越發寫信去撩她」。這簡直是無賴，我雖不依著做，可是真好。 我與愛玲的事，本來是可以這樣的沒有禁忌，不用鄭重認真到要來保存神聖 的記憶，亦不用害怕提起會碰痛傷口。後來隔了許多日子，一次愛珍問我、「你 到底有沒有寫信去給愛玲？」我道、「不寫。只等書下卷出版了寄去給她，總之 現在信是不寫。」愛珍正容道、「你這說得是。而你與愛玲，亦實在是兩人都好 . " 舊曆正月十五夜，在松原町，月明如晝，我倚樓窗口看月亮。生在這天下世 界，隨來的將是一個採取大決斷的時代，但今天的日子還是且來思省。前此還住 在一枝家裏的時候，一晚也是這樣的月亮好得不得了，我作了一首唱詞，當它是 山西大同女子配了絃索唱的。詞曰、 晴空萬里無雲，冰輪皎潔 人間此時，一似那高山大海無有碑碣 正多少平平淡淡的悲歡離合 這裏是天地之初，真切事轉覺惝怳難說 重耳奔狄，昭君出塞，當年亦只謙抑 他們各盡人事，憂喜自知 如此時人，如此時月 卻為何愛玲你呀，恁使我意氣感激 Four 王羲之有自誓文，新年我若亦有所誓，即是要做一個現代的文明人，不受委 Bend.共產國家為了要建設現代產業，真使人眼淚落到飯碗裏，委屈是不必說了。 美國的情形較好，但是亦如張愛玲的，他們畫報裏的小孩有蘋果與牛奶，你要就 只可選擇這個，我看了不知如何總覺得委屈。一次燈下我寫信給君毅，忽然想起 伯夷，覺得自己的心意竟是像他，可是無從說起。 共產革命算得什麼呢？它不過是在產業落後國，要把資本主義先進國兩三百 年以來於各階段所做的，使用奴隸勞動、犧牲農村為工業、及掠奪殖民地等等， 於三數十年的短期間內，壓縮的、綜合的、以強力來加速達成。而現在是共產國 家對民主國家的形勢已在走向核兵器的大戰。 西洋人對於世界的前途本來看得黯淡。中國人看歷史，是由小康之世到大同 之世，將來有朝一日是天下為公。日本人亦說歷史彌榮。可是西洋人說世界末日 .這就是西洋人對於核兵器戰爭的劫數，缺乏道德的力量。他們雖有達爾文的進 化論，但那只是一種知識，不像中國人的禮運與日本人的彌榮是生在情意裏。oo 洋人的情意是基督教的末日審判。 他們說要禁止核兵器，有如上帝的禁果決不可嚐，潘朵拉的禁箱決不可開， 然而那兩次都犯了禁，這一次看來也難保。托爾斯泰有說、一個騎腳踏車的生手 ，全副注意力對付前面的障礙物，念念於「闖不得的呀！闖不得的呀！」如此就 偏偏闖上了。西洋人原來是不能與物相忘。 人情不能因為核兵器戰爭的恐怖是無限的，而放棄了每天例行的有限的生活 .如今美國與蘇俄即如此不肯放棄外交的有限的爭點。他們隨時在說雖大戰亦在 所不辭。讀蘇俄國防部的核兵器戰爭操典，竟是和往常的步兵操典一樣的有確信 .現代人的營營，可比洋老鼠，你給它踏輪，它就踏得來有心有想，單單行為即 是生命的現實。 原來無明的東西畢竟是無常。前一晌我看了電影沛麗，沛麗是一隻小栗鼠， 洪荒世界裏雷火焚林，山洪暴發，大雪封山，生命只是個殘酷。它隨時隨地會遇 上敵人，被貂追逐，佯死得遁，而於春花春水春枝下，雌雄相向立起，以前腳相 戲擊為對舞，萬死餘生中得此一刻思無邪的戀愛，仍四面都是危險，叫人看著真 要傷心淚下。眾生無明，縱有好處，越見得它是委屈。文明是先要沒有委屈。 現在原子能時代的就是這樣的蠻荒世界，核兵器就是大自然界的風潮。I have got 時在電車上看看廣告畫，畫的紳士淑女，有的眼睛又大又圓，亮亮的，就像栗鼠 s eyes.又或是誇張細肢體，使人聯想到螳螂。我再看看車廂裏的乘客男女，忽 覺人相若如栗鼠螳螂，在美學上亦皆可以成立，寧是這兩足動物的自古以來被欣 賞讚美，幾乎要不可置信了。因記得往時住在杭州小客棧裏，臥看牆上水漬，皆 成車服美人，不像現在的看人反為皆成昆蟲禽獸之形。 以此我非常憂傷。有一部日本電影，是恐怖片子，廉價的花紙與木板搭的舞 場，粉紅肉體的酒吧女，在橋底下陰溝的黑流中跋涉。我看了回來趕快打水洗面 ，可比方纔是到園子裏走走，被蛛絲黏住了。現代世界是這樣的不樂意，或許核 兵器的戰爭也不過如同打水洗面，洗去了鉛華與蛛絲。可是現代人能像三國周郎 赤壁的風流人物，談笑不驚麼？ 愛因斯坦與羅素，都說核兵器的世界大戰是不可能防止，而且也來不及防止 up.羅素要英國人寧可降伏，像以色列人的在埃及為奴隸四百年，亦還可以有歷 history.他這意見人們當然是聽不進。他若把這回的戰爭人類有全滅的可能的話再說 ，也知聽的人怕煩，但是說說他自己總可以，他道、「一九六二年我九十歲，其 時世界上的報紙將登載，英國的數理哲學家羅素死亡的消息。」他是把大戰爆發 看得這樣近。 現代的人類縱有諸般不好，但若就此全滅了，到底是冤屈的。這一晌我久久 心裏解不開，原來也是為這件事自己對答不上來。我幾次甚至想到要自殺，因為 至今為止人類的歷史若被證明了竟是這樣的不莊嚴。而同時我亦冷靜地把一部放 射能的試寫電影都看完了。這部電影是記錄的日本幾個大學把放射能施於鳩與金 魚的試驗，與廣島長崎醫院裏放射能病人的容態對照，中山優與池田可是中途不 忍再看，離開戲院了。 以此我亦懂得釋迦與基督的哀痛，他們都是面對著人類的大劫數，一個悟得 了解脫，一個則懇求上帝拯救。可是現在的問題比他們那時候的更嚴重，核兵器 的戰爭把人類全滅了，那就無論涅樂或上帝乃至中國人的天亦一概沒有了。天亦 是因人而纔有的。歷史至今是無明的東西無常，文明則有常，這回可是一概全滅 ，從來的破無明，說文明，皆不過是一場笑話罷了。 呂仙學點金，聞說五百年後還為鉛錫，遂不欲學。若文明亦有朝一日頓成灰 塵，我亦寧可自始即不要這樣的文明了。所謂既有今日，何必當初。那呂仙，是 以此一念，故其道成，得與天地齊壽，日月同光。 釋迦於其所悟得，要人為此出家，好奉持不失，基督亦離去世俗，專為奉行 其所謂主的道，他們對於大法，得之則生，不得則死，認真鄭重到如此，乃至屈 原的問天問漁父，上下而求索，近來我都同情。但是我亦仍舊不喜，仍舊不服。 倒是孔子說的對、「未知生，焉知死。」世界上惟有中國人不把死當作一個問題 ，以宗教或哲學來解決，而只有喪禮與祭禮，喪禮與祭禮乃是生人的行事。turn out to be 核兵器時代的劫數亦不能作為一個問題的。現在是惟中國的事尚有得可以想，此 外印度亦大概可以避劫。日本危險，日本民族有一種悲，使人心裏解不開。 若把核兵器戰爭的毀滅當作一個問題，那是怎麼思省也不能有解決方法的。 可思省的只有是今天的生人的行事。事實上現在一般人都是只顧目前，羅素的警 告也無用，你儘管罵他們沒有出息。但若真有大辦法，亦只能從思省眼前現實生 活而來。漢朝的話講到人生如朝露，聖賢不能度，要求不死術，多為藥所誤，結 句是、 不如飲美酒被服紈與素 這就是知生為上，此外不但羅素的警告無用，乃至雖釋迦基督復出，亦是不能度 ，而裁軍會議與巨頭會談則多是亂用藥罷了。 世界各民族皆有死的問題，連日本亦有伊奘諾尊追亡妻入於黃泉之說，可是 中國文明能沒有死的問題。 近來我曾經費盡心力亦發見不出解決核兵器時代人類全滅的問題，但亦到底 忽然明白了根本不應把毀滅作為問題。我倒是「今日相聚，皆當喜歡」，知者與 短見者原來似是而非。 如此，我今且來逍遙遊，遊於日本。屈原的「飲余馬於咸池兮，總余轡乎扶 桑」，是將上下而求索，我可是亦不為求索解答。 一年暑天，我偕池田參拜伊勢神宮。那裏溪山迴環，及行至神宮入口處，則 豁然敞陽曠遠，如朝廷的開向萬國八荒，這就已氣派非凡。到得神宮柵門前，只 見柵門關著，裏邊地上舖的鵝卵石，如太古洪水初退落時，日本人的祖先是來到 此地做起人家。伊勢神宮每二十年拆掉重建，這種新意，便好像新做人家三年飯 米香。 那建築的形式好到不落宗教，外面山門與木柵關著，望進去二門也關著，但 沒有幽邃恐懼，使人只覺是天下世界正有許多大事要發生，卻可比茶道，好到不 落思想感情。日本人來到這裏，是子孫來到祖先的面前，分明有自身端然。Me and 池田參拜罷，轉過坡嶺，尚望見殿脊橫插著一排衝木，兩頭鍍金，煌煌的照耀在 海天雲日裏，原來當年他們的祖先在這裏做起人家，是有這樣的揚眉吐氣。 伊勢神宮是祀的天照大神，正殿的鄰近，山坡處尚有小神社二，一祀她的和 魂，一祀她的荒魂，池田讀了題額，驚異道、「天照大神也有荒魂？」山坡處