Chapter 49 【Spring belt】

【Spring belt】 one In the morning Yizhi came into my room to clean up.I sat by the window, facing the freshly washed surfaces, with paper and The pen, the paper is like a pond lotus, and the pen is like a hazelnut. There is no words in the morning dew.I asked one to sit down, and she put down the towel and broom , sit on several sides for a while.I love such low window sills, the low ones, the people sitting low, the grapes on the eaves Ye Ye Xin Yang Li. Borrowing a room in a Japanese house, with board and lodging included, is like treating relatives and guests.I borrowed one There are six stacked rooms, near the backyard, but facing south.In addition to serving three meals a day, Yizhi also gives

Wash clothes, come in in the morning to clean up, come in at night before going to sleep, spread out the quilt, put down the curtain, and then go to cover the door .During the day, she is in the kitchen, or doing needlework, and when she has a short break, she remembers to bring tea and sometimes snacks .If a friend comes to see me, it goes without saying that she comes to serve tea and snacks. On the first day, I paid attention to her smiling and calm in front of people, and peeked at her holding tea trays and snack boxes. She was working, the seriousness on her face was awe-inspiring, as if she was before God, one was sweeping the floor and cooking, the other was doing laundry and sewing,

No matter what she does, she is single-minded.When she was free, she went to the sitting room and drank tea next to her grandma. She looked like a flower. The branches are slanted, but the little girl is just obedient. A Japanese young woman is more beautiful than a young girl, because her female heart is unknown all her life, and her married husband is like a pine tree , and she is Lan Hui, who was born in the shade of the pine tree, exhaling the fragrance faintly.Yizhi's family is a noble family, but her husband is a Married, and have children.The son-in-law of the Japanese family is probably unnatural, especially when there is a grandma on top, she is not a

Zhi's biological mother.The man's ruin, the grandma's domineering, even Yizhi's child is helped by the grandma, who dares to fight with the same Zhi Pingping.Therefore, a branch does not have the maturity to be a wife, and it does not even have the maturity to be a mother.And because her skin was white , and her walking posture looks like a little girl's pitiful appearance, and the strangers on the road still think she is an unmarried girl.one branch Her father died when she was still studying in a girls' school. Because she was the only daughter, when she was like a treasure, her father

If she was close, she would not find such a man for her. In Chinese paintings, there is a peony, and a stone next to it is painted to match the thorns. Is it possible to match men like this?She has been in war for the first half of the ten years since her marriage.beautiful When the Chinese planes came to bomb, the family fled to Kanazawa, and Yizhi carried a child on his back to sell persimmons along the street, taking advantage of the money to help the family. Yizhi told me about it later, and I couldn't help but feel distressed, it's a pity for her, I can imagine that she sells persimmons on the street like

Dealing with the guests in front of the hall, and the basket of persimmons was grown in her own yard, it's not that she really knows how to sell water. fruit. I know a famous family, the father is a modern figure in Japan, his young lady is married, and the son-in-law lives in the Yue family. In this way, she still had to be by her father's side.When I went to see her father, it was the young lady who came out to offer tea and wine.she passed When the guest is next to him, he leans his body and leans forward. He is so graceful that he was born in respect.And I was afraid that it would make her uneasy, so I didn't even dare to look closely at her.

she.After Cao Zijian saw Zhen in front of others, he only felt that she was "separating and reuniting, turning yin and yang", and because Cao Zijian himself was A man of courtesy and righteousness.The young lady of this family looks like her father, with slanted eyes, extremely handsome, and has become heroic. Yizhi is not as beautiful, but because her beauty is not standardized, it is more realistic in life.most realistic The existence of her is a family in the world, and I only wish to be born in a family of people in the world with her.The only Chinese love story in the world

, It is often the cause of fairies relegated to the mortal world, such as the White Snake Empress, she loves Xu Xian, and would rather love the world of mortals. . On the third day after I moved in, I invited Grandma and Yizhi to watch a movie in the evening.In the movie theater, a branch sits next to me, The short sleeves she wears in summer, I rest my fingers on her exposed arms, and I know it's bad.later a branch Speaking of it, she said, "Before I went to bed that night, I touched the place on my arm where your hand had been, and wanted to treat myself Talk, want to laugh. "

Every time Yizhi comes to my room to clean, I always ask her to sit on a few sides for a while.I can only speak two sentences in Japanese A sentence, written with a pen when talking, is no more than three or five sentences.First I asked about her man, she replied that he was cold to her desert.She answered honestly in front of strangers only because she respected me, and she was really innocent.now i I just feel awe-inspiring, everything is such a good way, even my bad thoughts are so bad. Also because of the grapes on the edge of the eaves, I asked Yizhi if she had ever had a lover, and she replied that she had.she just

When she graduated from the girls' school, a student from a medical university stayed at her house.But you can't hope to recruit him as your son-in-law. Later he got married, and he came here once after marriage, serving tea with one branch, he only talked with grandma, and one branch was in the kitchen. Now, the two never expressed their feelings, but Yizhi knew that his new wife was not what he wanted.she said, "It's been ten years since then, and I can't forget it." And she had never even held hands with that person.Yizhi people are good It's like the orchid buds at the root of the wall when the spring snow first comes, which has not yet opened to the wind.

Japan is really a country of gods, and Japanese delicacies are like worshiping gods.Ichigo reminds me of shrine maidens in Japan , white clothes like snow, a bright red skirt tied around the waist outside the clothes, very bright and clean color, the face is just Serene and dignified, and because she is a young woman, even though her face is plain, she still seems to be able to smell the fragrance of makeup.And the day Ben's man is a god.There is a dance in India. It is a woman who burns incense and worships in front of the god and then dances. When she dances to the middle, the statue The statue of the golden god also sat down and danced with it. The male god danced so violently that the female died.but I And a stick is far better than this. Yizhi and I have no long-term considerations, and we have not even had love, just like the old Chinese folk marriage, The flowers and candles in the bridal chamber are only happy but not excited.The old-fashioned bride and groom just met each other for the first time.On the day of the first day of the Japanese Going to worship a shrine is called Hatsusumi. I have only known Kazue for a few days, and we haven’t even found out who we are. It's like the first attainment. two I moved to Yizhi's house at the end of July in the Gregorian calendar.Until mid-August, give speeches at coal mines and paper mills around Hokkaido , Ikeda colleagues.When I first met Teru Miyazaki in Tomakomai, he invited me to visit Lake Toya. It was already evening when I arrived at Lake Toya, so I entered the hotel and was not in a hurry to look at it, although the sound of the lake was coming from the window. outside.I have never seen the emperor hanging down. I have only seen the bride hanging down. I don't look at things casually, because although the scenery is beautiful, her people are far more noble than the scenery.The sound of the lake outside the window Knowing that I have come, but I am still more difficult to meet than Hushan.The next morning, I went for a walk by the lake with Miyazaki and Ikeda. No idea to go boating.In the middle of the lake there is a small hill full of mangroves, but I did not go up. When I was in Lake Toya, Ikeda wrote a letter home, and I wrote a postcard and a branch, which was very simple and open, etc. So I just reported the schedule.I have known Yizhi for less than half a month. Arrive at Noboribetsu Onsen the next day.The scenery in Japan is so similar to the scenery that I want to live in a place immediately. I mean, but I don't want to live in the scenic area, the scenic area is too specialized like the industrial area, but hell I still It's the first time.The Japanese call the valley from the hot springs Hell, and Noboribetsu Hell is in the valley, where there is a white The fog is filled, the ground is covered with sulfur, not a single grass grows, there are holes everywhere, and the sulfur water is bubbling day and night. Be careful with every step.There are about 20 or 30 tourists, and they are vigilant and laughing while walking, just like a group of Bodhisattvas.remember the horse Yifu wrote to Ren, "Living in this troubled world is like walking among thorns and ruins, each with its own dignity." What's more, I live in Japan There is also the goodness of Luhe's family. This time I went to Hokkaido for half a month, but when I came back, I saw Yizhi lying on the bed with half of his cheek swollen. The disease is probably caused by children, which is called Shengduoji in my country.A postcard I sent her she held on her chest In the little clothes that fit the meat, count the days and wait for my return.I also thought about her when I went out, and I wrote to her. She thought it was her. is impossible. After getting sick this time, she felt that doing housework was a new idea.Japanese people are very quiet during the day, man Go to work, kids go to school.Yizhi was under the kitchen, and I followed her to the kitchen, writing articles and then looking for her forward.After breakfast, I can wash the dishes and dress up, and I will watch her from the side.Asked about the powder she bought yesterday, she smiled and said, "Yesterday afternoon, I tried it on. No one can learn from the mirror for a lifetime. To make you happy, say It's embarrassing to come. "I said, I want to marry you, but Yizhi said, "No, I am a wife, as long as I am like you now It's fine in this way. "My question was that I knew it was not sincere, and her answer was also, how could it be like this Don't plan!She combed her hair and smiled, "You said I was born good-looking, and I looked at myself in the mirror from now on, and I am really good-looking." like. " In the past, Huiwen's sister-in-law said that elder brother "doesn't matter what happens to women, I'm afraid I don't have a share", she probably agrees with her words laugh at me.I can settle down even in a back alley, and I often see women, no matter how ordinary they are, I It is conceivable that she is my wife.So in my heart, it is true that Yizhi is already my wife.One stick every time I go to buy a small When I come back from the vegetables, she always brings me a bunch of grapes, and she uses her own money. This relationship is worth a thousand dollars, and what's more Two people are together every day like this, it's not what a husband and wife are.At this moment, when I see her dressing up, I feel that although she is in the world The great troubles that come to her are like small lipsticks, compacts, combs, and hair pins, all of which are bad.I wrote I wrote a poem and gave a branch. The poem said, Defeated heroes destroy the country and destroy the king There are still good women who are polite and respectful Sweeping the courtyard to clear the sun is like washing It's unreasonable for innocent people to worry about this With Cointreau, thousands of mountains and thousands of waters three A branch of grapes grown at home is later than the ones on the market. In previous years, they were distributed to relatives, friends and neighbors. Get two or three baskets.There are also persimmons.This year, the fruits of these plants have become a branch of my heart.but i'm in a branch I have lived in the house for two years, but I have only been to the vestibule once or twice.Japanese people are very particular, they don’t grow flowers in the vestibule, only Mizuki Tsinghua University, facing it, makes people sit upright and relaxed, but it is not for you to go down and take a look.Ichie's The vestibule is not so particular. I remember that the persimmon trees are also planted there, and they are not very strong. (Dog+White) Jiangcun Zhongshan You's family, even the maize grown in his yard is not as good as other people's, because of poverty, but it is also Zhongshan You's spirit. Yizhi is not as good as others, so I think about it. She seems to be easily hurt, and the most important thing is her and me. Dangerous and pungent, she is so naive, but like Li Bai's poem, "Wei Qing is lucky to be undefeated". Because when it comes to persimmons, there is no sugar in Yizhi, and the skins peeled off from every family’s persimmons, neighbors come Ask to boil sugar.At that time, her family also grew persimmons in a bungalow near the girls' school. Zhi Zhi pointed out to me when she was walking nearby.Such a house was left by Yizhi's father to have five houses. After the defeat, the grandmother I sold the three houses and two bundles of the four houses, and sold one more kimono to the country people, in exchange for food.speak of All kinds of things, but there is no regret at all.She is just a tactful obedience to her grandma and to the chaotic situation. Be obedient, live life as if there is no long-term vision, such as "Chang'an Youth without a long-term vision", the spirit here is its own big Xin, almost domineering, that's why she and I can be so confused. I love to look at a suitcase on the side. She still has a few high-grade kimonos left by her father when she was a daughter. I made it for her personally, and it is still like new.The kimono can be kept in the suitcase for a lifetime, and it is still new when it is taken out to wear. The people of Yizhi are also somewhat like this.I asked Yizhi for something only once, it was to ask her for a burden, but She gave it to me, embroidered with golden phoenixes, which she used when she was a bride. Later, when I write about this life, I will use it To package the article manuscript. I love watching Ichiji in a kimono again.Yizhi usually wears suits, shirts and skirts, and kimonos when he has occasions.The beauty of the kimono is outside , Yan inside, especially when wearing and taking off, there is a fragrance of a female body.That lining is pink, I I can't tell her name, but she wears a gold-embroidered and silver-woven undergarment, with wide sleeves and a large belt, and every layer is the joy of a woman's heart.but one branch There is a kind of modesty towards modern things, and she looks good in suits and skirts.And a few times she danced for me to see, Specially wear a kimono. Yizhi dances jerky, but it's good to be jerky, because there are more people like her here.I have seen Noh and Kabuki , but there is another kind of dance, such as the dance of the preface and the dance of the middle, which wear ancient dresses and skirts, like those worn by swordsmen, Su Mian dances with a fan, her movements are simple, quiet and generous, she doesn't even think it's a dancing posture, but just her person.Yizhi's dance It's like this, between dance and everyday action. In the blink of an eye, October 24th, Yizhi's birthday, I went to see Kabuki with her.She also specially wears a kimono on this day. Being with her makes me have only good intentions for Tokyo, a modern metropolis.When Yizhi was studying in a girls' school, My father is still there, and she often goes to see Kabuki. It has been more than ten years since I came here, and today he came out with me again. Years can only be good intentions. Yi Zhi goes shopping in Ginza or visits relatives and friends somewhere, only once or twice a year, and usually stays at home and only does housework , grocery shopping is only nearby.With such simplicity and tranquility, the modern city can also be a leisurely world.I Not a sprig of vanity, what I bought her was just some homely clothes and supplies, and accompanied her to get glasses.sometimes i also I went to the small vegetable market to see a branch to buy things. The small vegetable market was busy twice a day before lunch and dinner, and a branch was mixed with people. Cong Zhong stood in front of the fish restaurant and vegetable stall, never chasing after him, waiting for the shopkeeper to be empty, before saying, "? Wish? ???," like the rules of a little girl who was just taught by her parents and husband.I can't help but think of Zeng Guofan's title in Yang The couplets of the 12 fairs in the state, After the two-point catastrophe of Jinjiao, Shanrong renews the old good The water in the boat of Wanjia Food seems to be in peace It was from Yizhi that I realized that small vegetable farms and department stores have people's affection for life and are precious, and I thought of it Taiping. The two passed the department store and stood and watched for a while.Yizhi didn't want anything, she said that just watching was good enough. She said, several times I bought side dishes, thinking that it was too early to go back to cook dinner, so I stopped by a few shops to browse, Grandma asked me how long I was waiting, but after hearing what I said, I didn't believe it, "You don't want to buy it, but there is something to look at?" She said again. Remembering that she was studying in a girls' school and went shopping with her classmates, she bought the most expensive one as soon as she bought it, and paid five yuan, and her classmates were amazed. He said, "I can't see a branch. I don't usually see her spend money, but she is so generous!" But one time my grandma asked Yizhi to go out to buy side dishes and bought a plate, but she bought two back. I walked around the room and said with a smile, "The plate is broken." I went to the sitting room, and Apoguo told me that a stick Knowing that the price is cheap, I don't know how to buy things.Yizhi was cooking and making tea in the kitchen, as if the little girl had done something wrong. Seeing adults talking about her, she didn't argue, and she didn't mind.I asked for that pair of plates to see, they are blue and white colored glaze It's good to have common people's ordinary life.Grandma went to post money on the next day and got a plate. One corner is missing, but I don't like the stylized elegance. I was writing an article in the room, and suddenly a branch came in, jumped behind me, squatted down, and said, "Okay, let's go eat." up. "I just looked back, but she was already sitting in front of a few side lights, with smiles in her eyes.She suddenly felt, "But I am not frivolous. Seeing that I believed her, I was happy again.I stood up and hugged her, and she called out, " My good man," looked at my face, "you are the best in the world!" and said, "If you call me dead, I will die.Really, if you say it, I will die at this moment. " I went to Qingshui City, Yizhi came to the room to help me pack my luggage, I stood up in the middle of the room, holding on to her hands hand.She raised her head slightly to look at my face, her body immediately withered like a blade of grass, and said, "You After I left, I was deserted. "I comforted her, "I'll be back in three or two days." This is how the two of them simply yearned. As the days passed, I became more and more honest. The two discussed about getting married, but Yizhi had to divorce first. I can't advise her on this one.I only think of the dissolution of engagement and divorce during the May 4th Movement, how the Japanese should He also came to a new event like this. Once in the Gaien of the Meiji Shrine, I watched the red leaves with Yizhi, and I took the Chinese During the May 4th era, the attitude of young people towards family elders was told to Zhizhi.But when I felt May Fourth for no reason The modern cleanliness is only China's. If there is something new like this in Japan, it will be different after all. In the winter of that year, I went to Hokkaido to give a speech again, and Ikeda went with me.Two days before the trip, I had an argument with Yizhi Xiaoyou.new Jin Yizhi seemed to be thinking of something, but she couldn't tell me clearly, she probably wanted to cut off from me.look at her like this Unhappy, for the first time I felt she was an adult.It was snowing heavily in Hokkaido, and I had no time on the train I don't think about what happened with Yizhi recently, but when I think about it, I sit upright, because of my deep sorrow, I feel as calm as water.but a branch Knowing my return date, they picked me up at the station again.The train goes to Ueno, and you have to change trains to get to the station near Ichi's house , Yizhi has been waiting there for two hours.She is wearing a kimono and a large scarf, like a summer sash, standing on the platform superior.The serenity of young Japanese women waiting for people at the station or on the street reminds people of Nobuoyuki.There are less Japanese The woman rides the tram, does not compete for a seat, but stands peacefully by the side of the screen, bows her head to the wall, does not even look at the scenery, like a bride Hanging down the Duanran.Yizhi is just such an ordinary woman.She met me on the station platform, and the afternoon brewed On a cloudy, snowy day, the two just feel close, but not in love, and they are not even a married couple, and they are not involved in success or failure.one branch but say When the letter was received, I also told her about the journey and told her that Ikeda had gone back to Qingshui City. Since then, Yizhi no longer has two hearts.And since then Yizhi has become like an adult, she doesn't do much to me anymore Sorry, and some places don't listen to me. In the blink of an eye for the new year, she dusted the doors and windows of the patio and prepared new year's goods, (m+ma)(m+z)red beans, fish and fresh vegetables Buy enough vegetables, arrange to worship gods and ancestors, and treat guests during the New Year.Human beings are all like this, how many sorrows and joys there are It's inside, but it's true. On New Year's Day, I grind ink and write, lay out the rice paper, and write a banner. The meaning of a waka she composed the day before yesterday was changed into a Chinese poem, and she wrote accordingly, Love is more bitter than others, meaning is more real than others Staying together, crossing the wind and waves, meeting Wuyangchun Four The Japanese New Year is not as prosperous as the Chinese New Year, and there are no firecrackers scattered into thousands of households.New Year's Eve in Japan Lively with relatives and friends.Westerners connect Christmas and New Year together, and gift giving must be a deliberate choice to commemorate For products, I always feel that they are not as good as the Chinese people's delivery box, just chicken and fish.Gifts between relatives and friends in Japan, meaning It is also similar to that of China, but more frugal.The Japanese Kadomatsu is very good, with a kind of cool and happy atmosphere. The women in the streets and trams are seen wearing kimonos, and it really feels like a spring outing at the beginning of the year.Japanese woman tie pawn with The belt on the back makes her look like a paper-cut silk tie.The white foot bag grass shoes under the feet, the so-called grass shoes, there is a kind of but It's not made of straw, the bottom is always two inches thick, and when the feet stand on it, the person is like being held on a plate, as if he is in the shape of a human being. .The Japanese only feel that there is nothing wrong with the world during the New Year. They go to worship the shrine on New Year's Day, just like coming from their ancestors. Even today, going out to fight the country is still at the beginning. Then came spring.There is a poem from the Six Dynasties, "Where does spring come from? When you blow the water, you will be surprised by the plum blossoms." The ancients decided that Lichun is spring At the beginning of the day, the grass was still yellow, but somehow it became green.Water color is more difficult to distinguish, but water Looking at the wind, it is already different. It is like what Jia Baoyu asked Lin Daiyu in Dream of the Red Chamber, "When did you accept the case of Liang Hong?" ? "It seems to be about me and Yizhi, when did the love start?So distinct and indistinguishable. On the Third Daughter's Day in March, every family in Japan offers dolls. One branch has been arranged the night before, and I will pay attention to it in the next morning. Look carefully.It is a niche shaped like an imperial court, with many small statues in it. The emperor and empress sit facing the south, and the front The left and right civil and military officials are divided into left and right, down to farm workers, men and women play music, the background is Gao Tianyuan, and the rising sun is like cherry blossoms color.This was originally the male view of the world, but it has become the joy of the little girl. Cherry blossom weather in April.Zhongshan Yu Ono Shinzo Furuta Tsuneji and others invited me to Murayama to see cherry blossoms, good flowers and good weather , People who come out to see flowers fill the mountains and fields, women compete for new makeup, men sing and dance with wine, just like the Chinese Han and Tang Dynasties.but I appreciate Liu Yuxi's bamboo branch poetry, On the spring river, the moon rises on the embankment, and the daughter walks hand in hand on the embankment Singing all the new words, happy to see the red clouds reflecting the trees, the partridges singing It feels that what is Japan is still Japan, and what is China is actually China.The cherry blossoms I prefer are tall flowers, but bloom everywhere in the lanes , driving along the side of the tram line, it seems that people's chickens and dogs are all in the clouds. Ichigo and I went to Shinjuku Gyoen to see the cherry blossoms, but the two of us were only talking, more important than watching the cherry blossoms.way home When we eat dim sum in Shinjuku Street, Kazue and I have long been inseparable, but when we sit down in a dim sum shop like this, we don’t know each other. There is a novelty."I also teach my husband and wife to eat at the same table" in "The West Chamber".From ancient times to the present, food It's really a big deal, and the husband and wife have to be confirmed here.Immediately, the two had snacks and walked towards the station.through the sword shop, I will stop and watch for a while.After passing the candy store, Yizhi bought some candies for the children. Carp flags flutter in May.When I went to Kyoto with Ikeda, by the rocks of the Arashiyama stream, I thought in my heart that I would always bring a branch Come here.But I don't like Erjo Castle. In the Romance of the Three Kingdoms in China, the heroes and civilians are very close, but Japan The samurai in Taiping Ji, and even the beauties in Genji are too specialized, and the power of the two castles is under heavy pressure. feel.I also don't like Todaiji Temple in Nara, it's too complicated.On the contrary, the big Buddha was built by Jia Dulai, a worker of the Tang Dynasty. As the moon shines, the wind sweeps the stone altar and stone steps without dust, making people feel that the past and present, the hometown and the country, are just a show. What I admire is the courtyard of Guili Palace. The pond is really well-built and looks like the ocean.Japanese carp banner , the advantage is that people only feel that Luhe is a family, and the sky in May is the atmosphere of the ocean. On the way home, I gave speeches at several chambers of commerce and industry in Osaka, (soil + world), and Nagoya.Visiting Textiles in (Soil + Boundary) The factory is on Saturday afternoon off. There are only two female workers cleaning the machine room. The sun shines in. Those female workers are good. It's like the long-term affection of sweeping in someone's house. Every time I go out, a branch cannot undress and undress for me, like a woman serving her husband, because of the environment .But I have never been served by my wife.Yizhi knows shiatsu, and I don't even want her to massage.I Even not used to being loved, but still like what I saw in Hu Village when I was young, men farm and women weave, they are husband and wife, and there is nothing wrong with them. It's called love or not. In June and July, in the long summer days, in a quiet house during the day, a branch is under the kitchen, and sometimes there are hawkers calling at the door Sell.Bon dance in August.The lingering summer is still like a summer night, and drum music can be heard from afar in the street. A stage is set up on the square in front of Yebisu Station. The top floor of the stage is like an Indian-style tower, and the middle and lower floors are surrounded by low-bar dance corridors. The diameter of the circle can be more than ten feet.There are layers of lanterns on the stage.Then a rope was stretched from the four corners of the square to the stage, and the lights were also hung in the air. cage.In early autumn, the days are long, and the sky is still early after dinner, and it has already begun.One person on the top floor beats the big drum, and the radio broadcasts the folk music. Ballad, dozens of boys and girls walked onto the ballroom, dancing to the syllables of the drum music, such as pushing, attracting, flying, a team A group of men danced between the women like a revolving lantern.Most of the women are local people from the age of eleven or twelve to seventeen or eighteen The daughters are all dressed in colorful clothes with long sleeves, and they are like cherry blossoms.Men also wear kimonos, but they are ordinary people's attire, with bare feet, straw sandals, and clothes Pull up the train and tuck it in the waist.This kind of common people, it seems that the world has been theirs since ancient times, and there is no gap between dynasties. .In this way, the middle and lower levels dance at the same time, dance past and dance back.At the third turn, dance back to the original place, the drum music stops, The dancers scattered, only the shining lanterns remained on the 40.After a few minutes, the drums played again, and they danced as before. over and over again.In the dance team, there are still people who pretend to be stories, such as the Chinese Lantern City Taige pretending to be the Eight Immortals Crossing the Sea, but they are pretending to be fishing firewood. Gradually the night is getting darker, and more and more people are watching from the audience. The stars and the moon in the sky, and the trams on the street, are all in the summer night. The whole world flows to the sound of lanterns and drums.This basin dance is also full of ocean atmosphere, with both dances and ballads Swing a bit. Yizhi and I watched among the crowd of lights and went home, the moonlight was all over the ground on the way.Yizhi said, "Just now you didn't Feeling, I stand beside you and look at you, your eyebrows and expressions make me timid, thinking that I am not worthy you. After walking a few more steps, she stopped under the moon, clinging to my hand, her height only reached my eyebrows. She raised her head slightly and looked at me face to face, feeling that the moon was so high in the sky and I was so close.she says," Don't you abandon me! I replied, when I can go back to China, I will go to Hu Village with you to visit the grave.And here is the day Ben, Yizhi's father's grave, I went there with Yizhi in autumn. Fives I didn't tell Ikeda about Ichie and I.The last time I asked about the surname Xiao, said Ikeda, he lived with his wife and broke up. bad for someone else's family.Ikeda is straightforward.But every time I see the Japanese going a little bit off the rails in the news paper Flat out.For You Xing.For evil love.A little bit of morality of people in modern society is also like their It's like paying a little bit of salary. If you want to feel proud, don't think about it. If you want to cause trouble and commit suicide, you will have a share.in a foreign country like me , there is no basis for worship, relying solely on mutual respect between friends, and you must be especially careful about such things between men and women.but otherwise.I'd like to be a strong man and try to see if everything is broken so easily. I lived in Yizhi's house for two years, and then I moved, and I can no longer be with Yizhi every day, sometimes it is unavoidable to be sad everywhere.Once it was cloudy and rainy, and Ikeda didn't hear from me for a long time, and I suddenly became ill.It's not about Yizhi, it's about me My daily affection is lost, as for whether I can't check things.It turns out that the thoughts of the mountains and rivers of the motherland, five hundred years must have the prosperity of the king, The credit is only in my good feelings towards people and things, but how could I suddenly feel short-sighted, Is it too unhappy for me? Ever since I was exiled on the Jinhua Road, I have often feared that the great faith in this world will be lost. At that time, the people in front of me were so beautiful.this In Japan, there is a branch of the same.But after I moved, Yizhi only came to see me every few days, which was often too much. Qingji, I have to think about anything.Although it is said that knowing the sky can make you not worry, and being able to express yourself can forget you, but sometimes I still I can't solve it.Because the sorrow is so great, because here it depends on your practice as a human being.i do now Human beings are really comparable to the prince of King Jingfan who entered the snow-capped mountains to cultivate. During a period of time, he lost thirty kinds of friends. Eighty kinds of solemnity make people feel distressed, not to mention that I am a worldly person than him, and how can I not be haggard from time to time . I was originally a child in the countryside, but so far weather changes and human accidents have not made me ill. Most of the illnesses are due to my own There are deficiencies in being a man.It's not that I did something wrong, but that I'm dissatisfied with myself in some very small places. Whenever this happens, nothing is useless, only when I figure it out, it is not repentance, I don’t know how , Immediately he was at ease again, and his illness got better.How can I not pay attention to the sorrows of this world.ancient game celestial beings At the moment, like Li Ling's bright and strong, Zhuge Liang's cautious, they would rather be a person with tears, but they don't Seeing that I was really crying.And when I write letters to my friends, I never sigh. It's not self-made, but just for face The pen and ink on the paper in front of me are so quiet.Relief of worries is not to solve the problem, or to do a thing well, but rather It is in a place that has nothing to do with the problem or the matter itself, such as the plants and trees outside the window, the table and chairs in the room, and only care about it. Feeling that I and all things are in the same place, I have a peace of mind right now.To solve the great worry is to investigate things. Spring rain tile house garden trees are all clean, I am alone in the room, sitting on the floor in front of the window short, minor illnesses worry like water .For no reason, I thought of Wang Changling's poem, The West Palace is quiet at night, the fragrance of hundreds of flowers is eager to roll the bead curtain, and the spring hate is long Embracing the clouds obliquely and seeing the moon in the depths, the trees are dim and the sun is hidden I have thought about it several times in my heart, and I just feel that I am writing about my yearning for the Republic of China, and about myself. Personally cherish it.There is a piece of Bai Qiulian in Liaozhai, the woman became ill because of longing for the lake water, and asked her man to recite it three times The Tang poem "Thousands of willows and willows all go to the west" is immediately sick, and I can understand this kind of irrelevance. Let's say that I moved this time, and I also borrowed a room from a Japanese family.There are three mothers and daughters in this family. Years of hard life all over Japan hardened the woman in her forties. Her two daughters, the eldest, I have recently joined the banking service, and the young ones are about to graduate from high school. They are all standardized and have no content. I and them Not a good match.After the defeat of the war, the heroes and beauties of Japan were wiped out. This also has a kind of sloppyness. It turns out that they can go to civilians. Tsinghua’s extravagance, but now is such a society, where seriousness can only become petty, and flirting can only be can become vile. I can't stand the barriers between people.If possible, I would cater to snobbish scammers, to barefoot The sedan chair caters to women who are hard and contentless, and to those who cannot speak to me, and always make the speech understandable. But I don't get along with some people after all.For this reason, my heart is very sad, like the cloud "sorrowful and sorrowful", but there is no sadness. , and I'm still my own.I am such a wanderer, so I am grateful to Kazue. I have lived in that house for two years, and Yizhi feels at ease.When she came to see me for the first time, and after that During the holidays, she bought a box of snacks to give to the landlord, because since I live in their house, I would rather be polite.a branch Bought me a quilt and a blanket.When she came, the two of them had lunch in the room. I was the one who picked her up just now. Bread, milk and fruit bought in front of the post.After washing the quilt, she also brought a needle and thread to turn it over for me. When the cherry blossoms bloom by the tram line in spring, I picked up a branch at the station, and the two of them walked to my residence.she She was wearing a light yellow and water green dress, sweating a little after walking, and her body exuded the sun and flowers, just like her person is spring. A flower from the suburbs, folded and brought into my room.Ichie's face, originally like the face of a Noh girl, has passed since the Heian Dynasty The appearance of a refined Japanese woman, except for the eyebrows that are not drawn on the half of the forehead, the other single eyelids, nose and dimple, the spirit There is nothing wrong with it, even with the mouth slightly open.But compared to this typical beauty, I would rather like her at the moment This kind of walking becomes hot, and the face is like the morning glow, which is very secular reality. I have been with Yizhifan for three years.I don't know how many times I have cried, and I don't know how many times I have been angry. Geng Geng is all for her.But then in the end can not.Yizhi couldn't marry me, and I later married another. I went to live in Longyun Temple in Qingshui City for half a year, and began to write this life and this life by hand.And I live so alone in a Buddhist temple , can also be regarded as the meaning of sharing suffering with her.A letter will arrive at that time, and biscuits will be sent, and I will write an article for me. I am hungry late at night It's a good time for snacks.The letter said that this should only be a poor person offering a lamp to Buddha.She is worried that I have difficulties in living expenses The reason.Her words about living expenses immediately gave weight to their friendship.She didn't complain at all, No doubts, no demands.The humility of a woman turns out to be open-minded. Yizhi is a wife, so you can't divorce and marry me, and you don't need to have hatred.Although the man is not outstanding, but also Be part of today's generation with heroes.I tasted one in the front hall doing needlework for the family, although it was a cut piece She also treasures cheap clothes.The afternoon sun is slanting in, the courtyard is quiet, and Tokyo is faintly outside The voice of the city, the whole world is born in this tailor's integrity and strictness, and her life is respectful. six For me, women are not so much love as knowledge.The Chinese are originally such a rational nation, In Dream of the Red Chamber, Lin Daiyu also said, "Golden taels are easy to get, but a confidant is hard to find." But she doesn't say it's true It's hard to find someone who loves me.There are changes in love, and there is an end to fate, but knowing each other can be like new, even though divorce is farewell The two of them also respect each other, and their love remains unchanged.The affairs of the world, in fact, are so short as a hundred years, and so short as an inch of shade. long.Once the man and woman in the Peach Blossom Fan wake up, they can never fall in love, and the two are good friends alone.This Buddhist feeling, In the Chinese folk, it is knowledge, and this rational knowledge can actually escape the vicissitudes of life and death.I was with Yizhi For three years, it was said that gambling was close to robbery, rape was close to murder, but we were lucky to be clean, but since then we have not communicated with her. Audio asked.Li Bai's poem "Keep a ruthless contract forever", I am such a ruthless person. Yizhi, I respect her as a Japanese woman. The greatness of the Japanese nation makes my coming to Japan equal to that of Xuanzang in the past. to India.Xuanzang studied Indian civilization, so it is really not allowed to fall in love, but I am really grateful to Japan .But when I saw good people and good things in Japan, it was all out of no intention. Let me just say that one spring, when I was wandering in Mizukawa, I happened to watch a lion dance at Mizukawa Shrine.music is just Drum and flute, the sound of the flute is very high, thin, but deafening.On the hard mud floor in the courtyard of the shrine, it is divided into four In the corner stood four young women, from head to neck, wearing something like a lantern to cover their faces, wearing spring belts in kimonos. , The kimono is made of cotton fabric, orange and yellow, with a cyan print on the hem.They each hold two sticks that are just a few feet away The bamboo tubes seem to be used for clappers, and the copper and tin pieces are probably filled in them.They followed the sound of the flute, leaning forward with the left Take one step forward and back again, step forward obliquely with the right side, and back again, every time the left and right feet are stretched out, the hands follow Stretch out the body, press the two bamboo tubes with the left hand on the right hand, hit once, press the right hand on the left hand, hit once , "Sarah! Sarah!" There is only one lion, dressed as a man, blue and black, dancing from the middle of the open space, dancing to 站四隅的女子身跟前，偎偎依依，一個又一個的舞過去，繞過去。 我從亦未見過有像這樣好的獅子舞，那一天真是好運氣，以後我還常常想起 ，但是沒有特意打聽什麼節日要再去看過。這就可比是我的對一枝。古人說不貪 夜識金銀氣，我是對於愛情亦不貪。 大約也是因為時勢的緣故，前此我與之有夫妻之好的女子，皆不過三年五年 ，要算與玉鳳最長、七年。但即或只是邂逅相見，亦已可比有人在南山松樹下看 見了金雞，或那個朝代出了真命天子，有福分取得了紫大山上的兵書寶劍，這樣 的難逢難值。