Chapter 41 【Writing practice】

【Writing practice】 This time I went back to Si's house and lived in an upstairs room of Si's house.The door was locked and the neighbors didn't know.I This is equivalent to being a monk, but if I should be imprisoned, I would rather be imprisoned by myself than fall into the hands of others.Aunt Smith For the sake of prudence, we don't hire maids, and all the food and drinks are delivered upstairs in person or by Xiumei.I started handwriting Wuhan Diary . Aunt Si must know about me and Xiumei in her heart, but she didn't say anything.And Mr. Si, he is heartbroken Linin was in favor.Xiumei has something wrong with her body, so she had to go to Shanghai for medical treatment alone, and Qingyun greeted her there.

, She is helpless for everything that my uncle does, but it is all good.She waits for beauty and lust, Xiumei also feels that she is a member of the Hu family, and meeting this niece is a relative.Ten days later, Xiumei returned to the Si residence , as soon as I got home, I went upstairs to meet me. It was a sunny day in May in the old calendar. She was wearing wicker pink shirts and pants, and her hair was cut short. , with a fat face, like a country girl picking tea.She's full of satisfaction, show me she's all right came back.She said that when she returned to the hotel after the hospital operation, she had a stomachache and fever that night.

Seeing her husband again, Qingyun came to accompany her to the hospital the next day, so she was optimistic.I teased her, "When you first met Qingyun, how did you explain it?Not afraid of embarrassment? "She pretended to be annoyed, "Does this need to be explained? I just put you I handed the note to Qingyun, I saw that she read the note and wanted to laugh, but immediately received me upright, I could see that she really I love you uncle. " From then on, Xiumei still only came to my room when serving tea and rice for three meals and when removing dishes and tea utensils, and never lingered.I am alone

Upstairs, I only heard her downstairs, heard her go to the door, and heard her come back from the farm.once She came to deliver the food, and I went up to pick it up. She put the rice cooker and vegetables on the floor first, so that she could unlock the door and lock the door. When it opened, her person was still standing at the door of the room, and she didn't come in, and she didn't pick up the rice pots and dishes, but leaned over to me. Laughter is even more beautiful than the pretty maids in the opera, which really surprised me.I have only seen such beauty twice, the other time

That is, when Ailing brought tea to me on the balcony the summer before last, she leaned her waist and looked at my face with smiles in her eyes , although only twice, but it is not too little, because once or twice, has won but countless singing and dancing.Although I have had it twice, and I don’t think it’s too serious, because it’s like the flowers every year, and it’s like the expressions of Buddhas and Bodhisattvas. Similar, but every time I see it, I feel that there is nothing right in the world, and every moment is worthless. I avoided correspondence with Aileen, and Wei Sijun asked him to pass a note when he went to Shanghai.I was originally a non-confidential person

, but it's okay to be careful, and everything can be thrown away.Aileen brought foreign cigarettes and safety razor blades, made me imagine How she lived a new post-war life with everyone in Shanghai.She felt sorry for me being in the country, and said in her letter that Wang Baochuan, The days spent in a broken kiln are like a river of precious stones.I smoked that cigarette, I was reluctant to use the blade, a small Baolian didn't remove the sealing paper, just put it in the bottom of the box, as if in my heart.In addition, Qingyun also brought Bring some daily necessities. I live in a building like a fairy, and the downstairs is the world. In the Book of Songs, it is said that the crane crows in Jiugao, and the sound is heard in the sky.

It is indeed so shocking to the sky.I heard dim sum being burned in the stove downstairs, and a neighbor's wife came to borrow something in the hall.Then one In the past few days, the brothers and sisters of the Si family have all returned from Chongqing one after another.Among them, the second child brought the wife who married in Chongqing during the war Wife, when we got home, there was a lot of fun visiting the shrine and offering sacrifices to our ancestors. The fifth child also made an engagement by himself. Miss of the great industrialist of the sea.Yashan brought her nephew to stay for a few days, and when she saw her mother, she couldn't help crying.

No matter how strong a young woman loses her husband, she sheds tears.Also, Ruo Ru is engaged, she is studying at university and chooses her own I haven't met any of them. Of course they knew I was upstairs.I am a fish that slipped through the net of the Nanjing government, they are the upstarts from Chongqing, In politics, there were originally two ways, and the matter between Mr. Fan and me was so clear, Aunt Si probably didn't mention it to them. But Yashan and Mou may know it. They are brothers and sisters, and the world of young people has different opinions. It doesn't matter if the mother is in charge of everything.They only stayed for a few days when they came back this time, just to see their mother and relatives.

Neighbors, there is still a kind of unrestrained beauty in the human feelings of Xishan in my hometown.And I am someone who sympathizes with what I do, why do I want to I feel embarrassed, but if they blame me, I will not admit it. Now they have nothing to say, I just frankly Of course, between embarrassment and disobedience.The same is true for Xiumei, she is a little bit guilty, but she is generous and fine. Aunt Si sees that her children have been formed, those who are married are married, those who are engaged are engaged, and she has reached her own age. Now they are all in front of them. One day she opened the box and took out the clothes and distributed them. The son had a share of the son, and the daughter

There is a daughter's share, all of which are fox fur, green sheep jacket, etc. In the past, when the father was there, the mother was young, and she wore it. , still brand new and valuable, in the end it is the officials who are profound, after the chaos of the world, they think they are so poor that they have nothing, but Yes there are still. A few days later, their brothers and sisters went out to take up their posts again, and the house became quiet again.So came the yellow Mei Tian.After Huangmeitian, there will be a long and hot day.Downstairs I heard Aunt Smith calling to neighbors who passed by on the road.

The woman speaks.The neighbor woman said that the weather was very hot, and Mrs. Si agreed, "Really! Why is it like this this summer?" hot? When she said that, she laughed in surprise, and said, "But after a while, it will cool down very quickly. Woolen cloth. "These words are really immediate relief, and they have such a gorgeous voice. I was upstairs, only to know that the new season came to plate the meal.Sure enough, after the summer heat faded, the autumn rain was pattering, and I went to the county town. Several places on the road are flooded, cutting off pedestrians, mountain winds and streams, and the desolate water is approaching the window.I don't know how much A few days, and then the autumn colors are right, and the night is bright and the moon is bright.In the letter I wrote to Aileen, I said, "Sometimes there is no moonlight before the window Sound, I only feel the vastness of yin and yang shifting, there is no sequence of years, just like the wonderful year of Yanying. " I write about three thousand words in Wuhan every day. This time I actually relearned characters, and found that what I wrote often affected myself. I don't know my heart.At that time, most of the things I did were just done on the ground, and I never had any thoughts of relying on others. But when I write after the fact, I always use the types of thoughts and feelings of the characters in the book to set it up.Emperor Wu of Liang asked Bodhidharma, "What is the first meaning of the holy truth?" Bodhidharma replied, "There is nothing holy." He asked again, "Who is it to me?" Bodhidharma Answer, "I don't know." I also have to go to the end of the holy truth and the obstacles of knowledge, so that I can see things and see their truth.And there are things in the world There is one side, there is one side that has nothing, some side is the logistics shape of goods, and the side of nothing is the secret of heaven, and the other side is goods. It should be an article woven in the secret. I have written 500,000 characters in the Wuhan diary, which is equivalent to learning archery, and I hit 10 out of 10 shots, even though I wrote it with sincerity After writing it, it is still seventy-eight out of ten lies. The university said that the study of things is still before the sincerity. It is really good. If you fail to pass the test Although sincere, it is nothing more than dramatic seriousness.This Wuhan Diary is not written as a book, but from a Introspecting every word, I gradually understood that those were true colors, and those were blunt and polite. In this way, I also know how to read other people's articles.Aileen brought me a thick volume of English books, nearly two Fifteen years of European drama selections, I have read all of them, and they turned out to be strange things that are not familiar to me.fall It is a six-dynasties text found on the pavilion board. Among them, Yu Xin's mountain inscription and mirror Fu lamp Fu, I read every word. into the heart.There is also the marriage of Tang Bohu's three smiles, which I thought was unattainable after reading it.Another ditty, such as , "Seven fans with purple bamboo roots, one side is a rabbit and the other is an eagle. One side is a shrimp playing in the water, and one side is a rabbit chasing an eagle "The cleanliness, liveliness and joy simply amazed me. I hid upstairs for a full eight months. This is not the end after all, and I have to take care of Aunt Smith's heart, Wen The state has also passed the household registration check, so it is better to go there.So I decided to leave Si Zhai again on a fixed day.Sijun this time Send me off via Shanghai.Xiumei didn't hesitate to say goodbye, she just told me to be careful in everything before I left, and she would be happy when the time came. When I went to Wenzhou to see me, she adjusted my collar with her own hands. That day I left the house of Si, on the way to Zhuji County, I saw the early sun in Tianfanli and Maozhushanli. Snow. "When I went there in the past, the willows were Yiyi, but now I come to think about it, it is raining and snowing." It is a poem about recruiting people, but I have no regrets Touching and thinking, this scene is just like a student who suddenly sees Mr., but is fascinated.This dream is actually far more than the Buddhist scriptures The "feeling" mentioned in the book is good.On the way, I told Mr. Si about my future origin, and all kinds of schemes and plans, but I would rather be wrong. Unintentional words.But Mr. Si treats me like a brother like a brother. When I arrived in Shanghai, I stayed overnight at Aileen's, because the boat to Wenzhou would leave the next day.I arrived at noon, Qing Yunyi When people come to see me, they don’t bring their siblings with them.She also just met with me, and then went back.Xu Bukui has good words, "Give back the green to the grass, and the tender yellow to the chicks." Qingyun also gave me this uncle, and I also gave Qingyun and The sons and daughters come and give back to heaven and earth, and return the present and the future to the years.Worry only makes people closer, not love, love has There are many sorrows and fears, which are overwhelming, but my dear is plain and honest, without that kind of wordiness. Afterwards, Ailing and I were the only ones left in the room, but I blamed her, saying that she couldn't entertain relatives and friends, and Si Jun did it for her. My business, he sent me here just now, but you didn't even leave him for lunch.Aileen was very sad to hear that, because I never He didn't say that about her, and Si Jun had Qingyun to entertain him at home.Aileen said, "I can't entertain guests. Man, you would have forgiven me, but I don't think there was anything wrong with that. I was also surprised to see her excited, For the first time she defended herself against me. I'm angry for a reason.The last time Aileen stayed at Sijun’s relative’s house in Zhuji County and lived in Si’s house for a few days. To avoid offending the living habits of the country people, for example, the washbasin she uses is also used to wash her feet, regardless of the upper and lower. Even Mr. Si is not used to these practices. Hearing what he said, I am not happy anyway. On the other hand, my nephew sent me off last time. After arriving in Zhuji, he reported to Ai Ling how we were together after he returned to Shanghai, and later, Si Jun went to Shanghai several times to report to Ai Ling Speaking of me, I must have said too much.My nephew's vulgarity is second to none, but he has the old man from Shaoxing city. Si Jun is naive, Aileen said he is a young master in a small city, he always Not bad at all, how can these two talk?And my Ai Ling, her Lan Cheng, is too precious for others to touch. But after touching it, it is said that Ai Ling is not like Ai Ling, and Lan Cheng is not like Lan Cheng, of course he is annoyed.but i blame aileen of course Unreasonable. Ai Ling said, "Sijun told me that you learned that Miss Zhou was arrested in Hankou, and you want to go out, just ask Excuse her, I was very angry.There are many unimportant things that he said about you, I wish he would not say anything, But he still doesn't know.This Mr. Si is ignorant. For your sake, I have treated him enough. After that, I will do it again. Can't anymore. "I distinguish good people from bad people, and Aileen doesn't like people who are not smart.I heard what she said, He also briefly explained a few words at the moment, but the explanation was inappropriate, as if he was absent-minded. Husband and wife in the world are supposed to bite each other, sometimes like a dog biting, but this is the difference between me and Aileen. should.The way I look today is of course my fault.This is not necessarily because I have been living in seclusion in the Si mansion for a long time, and I have become a little Nervous, but because she is my relative and loveless person, we met in such an inappropriate environment, and I didn't feel it for a while. Appropriate feelings, so unreasonable alone is the outbreak.And only then did I understand why Liu Bang cursed people when he opened his mouth , otherwise it would be insulting, because he was overwhelmed with emotions for a while. After dinner, the two of us sat side by side under the lamp. I shouldn't have told Ailing the truth about me and Xiumei. I was speechless, and I asked her if she had read the manuscript of Wuhan Ji, and she replied, "I can't read it anymore." However, because there are stories about Xiao Zhou written everywhere in it.And I was stunned, because I never thought she would be jealous, I just felt that she would be jealous. It is impossible for the two of us to be envied by the world or envied by the world, I am for everything I do and write Received from Ai Ling, like Tang Monk learning scriptures, reimbursed to Guanyin Bodhisattva one by one, but she didn't read it, it's so hateful, when Then I couldn't help hitting her on the back of the hand, and she said angrily, "Ah!" My beating was half of pretending to be alive. Angry, half at a loss and mischievous, but being called out by her, I feel that it is really shocking.but i still A little wood skin. It's night, Aileen and I don't sleep together.I feel it in my heart, but I still don't care.It was still late in the morning, and I got up to In the next room where Aileen slept, I leaned down in front of the bed to kiss her. She stretched out her arms from under the quilt to hug me, and burst into tears. In front of him, he only shouted "Lan Cheng!" This is the sound of throwing the ground and making gold and stones in life.I'm shocked, but I still don't go Think about something else.I had to go back to my bed and sleep again.Woke up at dawn, hurriedly made it to noon, and went outside The boat on the beach went to Wenzhou. When I arrived in Wenzhou, I was still staying at my grandmother's house. Sure enough, the city of Wenzhou had passed the surprise household registration check, and my neighbor's wife was happy Mammy and the others never questioned me when I said goodbye to Xiumei last time. They are also happy to give them some hand towels and soaps brought from Shanghai.The relationship between people is originally like This is good, there is no need to study more suspicious things.Aileen is still sending letters and money.Wei Xiumei did not come this time, but My grandmother and I also know how to prepare firewood, rice, oil and salt.