Chapter 38 【Eighteen to send】

【Eighteen to send】 one On December 1st, I left Fengshutou and went to Jinhua. This time, besides Mr. Si, Mr. Fan also joined me. Row.There is Fu's family outside Jinhua City, Mrs. Fu Sijun they call her little lady, send me to her, or think of it Find a way. The master of the Fu family worked as a brigade commander in Hangzhou in the early years of the Republic of China, and died one after another with the master of the Si family.Mrs. Fu's family is Zhu Ji, who knew how to draw eyebrows since she was a child, was a boat wife at sixteen, but escaped to Hangzhou.At that time, the old lady of the Si family was still alive.

She was pampered and pitiful, and she was adopted as a foster daughter, so she drove Mrs. Si to call her elder brother and sister-in-law. She was so affectionate. My sister-in-law was not happy, so my brother married her to Master Fu to fill in the house.She was a child bride-in-law in the countryside with a humble background, but now she is a After leaving the brigade commander's wife, she has been walking around the Si family as her natal family.She was born beautiful, with the simplicity of a countryman, And with a little savagery, coupled with the prosperity of Hangzhou and the status of an official wife, it has become a kind of free and easy for her.her

Men like her as if she is their life.She was only 21 years old when the man died, and she moved back to Jinhua, several times a year. Going out to Hangzhou and Shanghai for fun, it is inevitable that there will be some romantic things.Eighteen years ago I met her at Si's house in Hangzhou and brought her A little girl, the only female guest of the Si family, who did not shy away from others, greeted and talked to me in front of the hall. At that time, her husband was not yet married, Wearing only a light blue bamboo cloth cheongsam, with a melon-seeded face and black eyes like spots of paint.Meeting now, of course she won't remember

me. This little lady has a wine shop in the countryside, and she added a soy sauce garden last year. She asked Si Jun to help her manage it, but Si Jun didn't like it. I used to go there, but now I think of recommending me to be an accountant, that is, to discuss with Aunt Si in the name of Aunt Si, she saw that it was entrusted by my sister-in-law, Always take care.But Mr. Fan voluntarily went with him because he thought it would be more convenient for women to talk to women. To go to Jinhua, we could have taken a bus from Zhuji County, but fearing that we might have to check at the stop, we would rather go

Long way to go.That day we set off from Maple Head.Hired someone to pick up the luggage, Si Jun rode a bicycle, and Mr. Fan and I walked, Take a road from ancient times, cross the ridge, cross the stream and cross the village.As soon as I arrived at the boundary of Dongyang, Yiwu, I saw young women all writing Green cloth long skirts are planted in the fields, the Dongyang woman in Xie Lingyun's poems, and the Yuqian woman in Su Fu's poems are both good Like they are today. Asphalt and sucrose are produced in Dongyang, Yiwu, the peddlers talk to each other in the kiosks, and the passers-by ask and answer questions on the road.

The price of something.It's only been three months since the victory, and the banknotes have plummeted again. Sellers often delay in evaluating the money After a day and a half, the market is different again.The outside world has become chaotic again, and it has affected the mountains and rivers here It's a windy day, but looking at the people in the village, the road in front of the village, and the pedestrians plowing people, the heart of the wanderer still feels that there is a kind of fear. Depend on. With Mr. Fan, I don't know why, but there always seems to be a boundary between men and women.Only Shi Sijun rode his bicycle all the way up

I went forward, and she and I fell behind. The two walked for a while and asked a little question and answer.I asked her if this road was ever passed by?She said that she walked by to go shopping in Suxi.At that time, there were Japanese soldiers in Zhuji County, and there were also Japanese soldiers in Yiwu City. After passing the Japanese soldiers, Suxi still returned to the rear.She has also been to Lanxi, Lanxi is where Jinfeng girl in Longfengsuo opens tofu The place where the shop is located, and Mr. Fan is a single gang, and it is generally for his livelihood.Shengxian Opera Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai,

After passing one mountain after another, I saw the woodcutter carrying firewood Why did he carry firewood for you to send down the mountain for that This load of firewood, opening a tofu shop, and running a single-handed business have the reality and stability of the world, and the scenery is ready to flow.And Nada word, He brought firewood for his wife and I sent me down the mountain for my good brother Just another correctness.Now that Mr. Fan sent me off, Si Wuxie is like this. On the first day, we walked sixty miles to the border of Yiwu, and we were already in the west mountain.

stay.The next day, I walked for seventy miles, and set off before dawn. I went to Suxi Street for fifteen miles, and had breakfast.noon I had dinner in Dongyang, and spent the night in Jinhua City in the evening.When going to a restaurant to eat and where to stay, the three of them stand Discussing at the end of the road, Mr. Fan bowed his head and remained silent. He listened to Mr. Si and me. With a heroic spirit, I think Si Jun also respects her very much. On the third day, we set off from Jinhua County, and it was only fifty miles to Fu Village.On the way I asked about this little lady

As a human being, Mr. Fan answered freely and without taboos, but her words were natural and concise.That little lady is the wind However, compared with the romance of Western noble ladies, she is as strong as a witch, but in fact she is licentious and weak, and the little empress's After all, there is the reality of the Chinese people, she is just stealing meat, and eats when she can.And man is what he makes himself, and man There is respect in the world, and the Si family and her are just respecting each other.Now when Mr. Fan talks about her, he has this kind of open-mindedness. , is just out of tune with her, but it does not hide its beauty, nor does it yearn for it, nor does it fall under the hatred of a gentleman of Weidao

, but talking about her, he smiled helplessly, and there was boundless scenery in the world in this smile.usually read Zhuang Zi, "Instead of being right and wrong, being good and being ignorant, it is better to forget the two and transform the way." From the perspective of thinking, it is Not as good as seeing it with my own eyes now. We went to the little lady's house in the middle of the afternoon.When Mr. Fan met the little lady, there was a lot of excitement at the moment.I Just look at that little lady, she is fifty years old this year, and she is not considered old, but once the limelight of her youth is over, Then she has nothing, she lives for the rest of her life, and she is just like her.There is no karma in life, But not without content.You can't have a job, how heavy a responsibility you have to bear, how much joys and sorrows you have experienced, and you still have to It's like there's no story on it.There must be no content, but there must be merit and virtue. Being a human being is one life of practice, and many of them are like small children. People like Niangniang have never practiced. She still moves swiftly, which was like a gust of wind when she was young when she walked past the painting hall, but now it seems that she has become A little messy, a little reckless, stupid and confident, and indeterminate.The little lady has not seen her for ten years, and she told me that the little lady Mother is really old, not as good as Aunt Si, Aunt Si is ten years older than her, and she still has the gorgeousness and beauty of a woman strong.The little lady was free and easy when she was young, but she has become rigid when she gets old, neither male nor female.Bodhisattva Sa looks like a man and a woman, but it is very bad if he is not a man or a woman.It's not that I hate her, but I just want to find out what's interesting about her. I admire it, but I can't. The little lady used to live in Jinhua City, but now that the Japanese soldiers have retreated, she is going to move back, so the house in the countryside A few days of chaos, part of the furniture has been moved, and some will be moved, the living room and the room have become empty. Content, people like her.We just stayed at her house for five days.She also visited the Sauce Garden Wine Shop, but due to debt The house has already been booked, and I want to get a perch, but I can't. The little empress also took us to the neighboring village to have fun and drink tea at a rich man's house.The rich man, the locals call him He is an outsider, and now he is over half a century old, and his family does not have many people, but he has a lot of land, and he can practice Chinese medicine, half of which The nature of giving medicine can be regarded as a duty-bound person.But he was often bullied. In the past, when Japanese soldiers passed by, hooligans beat him up. Ripped off, the third or fifth detachment of the Communist Party passed by and was ripped off again. Now that the Nationalist government is back, he was ripped off again The crime of bamboo sticks is now being litigated.I felt sulking when I heard it, but I didn't sympathize with him either. I sat in the living room and listened to the little lady talking to the waiter. I just wandered around to look at the big mansion, but didn't see it. Things can delight.I also went upstairs with them to see it. The floor was empty, and there were many piles of The red lacquered buckets and basins seemed to be for married women, but there was neither a daughter nor a wife in this house.I am Come to rejoice in this old-fashioned thing, but the ones in front of me are empty, and I can't bear to look at them.Chuang Tzu said , "He who is benevolent and righteous is also the Penglu of the former kings." Therefore, to praise benevolence and righteousness is not as good as to praise the former kings, and the beauty of the car and the utensils Well, it also needs someone. When I came back, I was walking on the rice paddies, the sun was setting, and the afterglow was shining on the clothes. The little lady's face was very beautiful for a moment , It reminds people that the world is like a dream, like the scenery in the afterglow.The same afterglow of the westerly wind, the mausoleum of the Han family is as majestic as mountains and rivers.But in this generation, there are many people like the little lady, people like Yuanwai, and even many Young and lively revolutionaries who are in full swing will turn into dust with the water.But I don't give birth to the impermanence of the world because of this feeling. I don't think she's good at doing housework or greeting guests, little lady, but Mr. Fan takes care of her everywhere. Take care of me, and I can't not see her for a moment.I can also be regarded as having experienced the world, but still like a fledgling, living In the world of men and women, even embarrassed to socialize, just young and obedient, this is only for Mr. Fan.she took me to At the end of the village, we went to watch the sugar cane being drained by bullock carts, and the brown sugar was smelted in a big stove.She also accompanied me for a walk in the fields until the village At the foot of the mountain across from the house, I saw white-skinned sugarcane planted even on the border. She said, "Jinhua is a good prospect. There is sugar cane in the village, and there are smokers in the village. She also stopped to look at the radishes planted in a field by the roadside, and said, "Next time I ask here to ask for some radish seeds, next year it will be July and a half so I won't have to buy them on the street." She looked at one thing. Xi, when I think about it, everyone is safe in this world, so I always feel that she is older than me, and I regard her as an older sister in my heart. I have a family member, and she is an elder sister, so she will put her mind to worrying things, and I can think nothing of myself consider.I even changed my clothes because she agreed to change them and wash them, so I changed them for her, and she went to the pool to do laundry, and I Also followed like a child. Later, when the little lady went to Jinhua City, we also went with her.Her house in the city was occupied by the Japanese during the war , and now it is taken back, there is an extra Japanese-style building next to it, which also belongs to her.Upstairs in the bungalow is the Blue Shirt Club The director of the Jinhua station lived there. I was shocked when I heard it, and lived in the downstairs room for three days in fear. I had a conversation with Mr. Si Quantity can only be said when going for a walk outside. There is a bridge outside Jinhua City, and Si Jun and I walked there.It reminds me of the Jiangqiao outside Guilin, but Guilin is too landscape-like, not as natural as here.I heard people say that there is a Qingzhao Pavilion in the smoke village on the other side of the mountain. The Song Dynasty Li Yi'an lived here to avoid the Jinbing Rebellion, but I don't want to see it.Ci poets are afraid of climbing high and looking far, and it is difficult to arrange the scene , I am not worried.Every time I go to the peak of the country, I don't feel any emotion. I would rather see myself and take care of myself. Ying was shocked, but felt that he could not be profaned.Li Qingzhao back then, that is, I am today, people are like lotus flowers, you can't play close to them. Si Jun remembered that he wanted me to go to Wenzhou.He discussed with Mr. Fan that there is Mr. Si's Yue family in Wenzhou, and there is Mr. Fan My natal family, my grandmother is still alive, and my mother and daughter have not seen each other for more than 20 years. I asked her if she could send me there, and waited. After the victory, I went back to my mother's house to meet my grandmother.I stayed silent while they were discussing, thinking in my heart that Mr. Fan might want to The men and women avoided suspicion, but Mr. Fan agreed immediately.She is so generous, but her true nature is so unbelievable. It is generous. two On December 6th, I set off early in the morning. I hired two rickshaws. It would take me three days to go to Lishui. It is also the first time for me to ride a rickshaw.We crossed the Jinhua Bridge outside the city, the genius was white, the thick frost was covered with wild, the wind blew Come to bite the bones.My car is in the front, and Mr. Fan's car is behind. I use a blanket to cover my knees to my feet. Fan The husband is stepping on the foot stove, and I always turn around and ask her if she is cold.I remember when I was in Hu Village when I was young, the bride Dong of the Hu Village family Woke up early in the morning, tried on Xiao makeup with hands, the gouache was as white as frost, and a green cloth apron was tied on the outside of the red padded jacket. He went downstairs to open the door, sweep the floor and cook breakfast.Now Mr. Fan is going out on the road, wearing a silver-purple silk flag Although there is no other dress in the gown, it also feels like a bride.Good men and good women in folk songs really need to practice thousands of years It takes only a few years to become a woman. After only seven or eight miles, the coachman stopped to change his straw sandals.I got out of the car and walked to Mr. Fan, and saw that her cheongsam was The hand stove scorched a piece as big as a finger and turned golden yellow. I was afraid that she would feel uncomfortable, but she was not very good.she should However, it is a pity, but because of the chaste mind, it is not romantic about gains and losses.It's all for me, but I don't say If I'm sorry, I just know my kindness from the bottom of my heart.She is like in the Yuefu of the Han Dynasty, "No matter how despised the body is at all costs." It doesn't have to be like this when you are in love, but it is the fierceness and decisiveness that every woman has in her life, which is also respectable, so in In front of Mr. Fan, I also became speechless. We got in the car and walked for a while before the sun came out.Frost Sky Crow (wood + mortar), accompanied by the sun and the moon, with red sleeves Support, these words are a bit heroic, in fact, I am just a prodigal son, and I am in harmony with the people in the villages beside the road. Then we went to a small town, and the driver went to have breakfast. Mr. Fan and I ate it when we left at the little lady's house. Now Just find a tea shop to rest.I took the bench and put it in front of the store across the street, where it can get the sun, please Mr. Fan After sitting down, I took a bowl of hot tea from the tea shop and brought it to Mr. Fan. I really respect my sister, and she also accepts me very much. Serving, thinking in my heart that I am a scholar. From then on, long pavilions and short pavilions, traveling at dawn and staying at night, arrived at Yongkang on the first day and Jinyun on the second day.Li Qingzhao was in Jin Hua lived there, and later avoided Wenzhou, which is also the way to go.Mr. Fan mentioned that during the war, Jin was seventeen or eighteen years old, Went to Biwu to study, Zhejiang University moved to Biwu, passed in Lishui, she and several male and female classmates carried umbrella bags on their shoulders Wrapping is also a long walk across the stream and across the ridge from here.Now that we are victorious, Yongkang and Jinyun counties still have the war of resistance against Japan. The merchant boom and the remnants of the deployment of the army are as new as new.And all of these have become the friendship between Mr. Fan and me today. From Jinyun to Zhouzhou, the fields are flat, with mountains on one side and streams on the other, and people are on the other side of the stream. This stream is the upper reaches of Lishui, leading to Chuzhou, so Chuzhou is also called Lishui.A ridge is meandering along the halfway up the mountain, There are always more than a hundred miles, and now the car road is being dug, and there are a few places where we have to get out of the rickshaw and walk, and it is to loosen the tendons bone.In the past, Mr. Si was with me, but I didn't realize it. Now that he is not together, I just realized it like a dream. There is a feeling in my heart. Secretly delighted.Mr. Fan and I walked together. This is Xishan and the people on the road have no doubts about us.condition again It is a long sunny day, the early winter in the south of the Yangtze River is like late autumn red and purple, only the sound of the stream can be heard, the sun and wind and shadow are all words, I am also Can't help but want to speak. Every time the two of them got out of the car and walked for a certain distance, I would talk about my childhood, get up and walk around, with Yufeng Ailing About Xiao Zhou, I told Mr. Fan one by one, and my life experience is just like the distant world in front of me, Changting Pavilion. The short pavilion is endless. I even told Mr. Fan about what happened to Li Wenyuan when I was in No. 1 Middle School in Guangxi. I don't think there is anything bad about it.It turns out that people have their own minds when they talk about the world. Cao Cao and Liu Bei cook wine and talk about the heroes of the world. Xiong is a matter in the book, it is not as good as Mr. Fan and I can have no taboos like this. But when it comes to Song De, she doesn't agree with Song De's revolutionary asceticism.And revolutionaries are many often because of a Such a transcendent spirit actually lacks respect for the world.She just sympathized with Song De, saying that Song De's thinking was stupid. After listening to it, I really felt that Song De's clarity, brilliance and integrity were serious, but he didn't know how to learn from things.Mr Fan said He is not smart, but it seems to be Aileen's criticism.Because I mentioned the past, Mr. Fan also said that he lived in Hangzhou in the past , the fourth son-in-law came, how did Aunt Si make fun of him, the fourth son-in-law was Chen Zemin, and later the reform government and the Nanjing government The chairman of Jiangsu Province in the early days of the government, and I should be regarded as colleagues, but I don't take such people seriously, but I heard The scene that Mr. Fan mentioned at that time, like Han Zhongli and Li Tieguai, can also be listed as the Eight Immortals. It was only me, the Nanjing government fell, and it was too late to escape, but I still had time to talk about it along the way. Mr. Fan told me that Mr. Li gambled all night in the first month of last year and lost a few stones of money, so he became restless. Well, Auntie Dess spoke, and she said, "You have lost money, you have never lost anyone, so you can rest." Really It's just an excuse, and now I just lost politics.At that time, Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva said to Sun Wukong, " You have reached a very poor place, I promise you to call the earth spirit every day. "I am walking with Mr. Fan now, sometimes Stop to look at the stream running straight down on the left side of Ling Road, and there is also a sound of mountains and valleys. And I'm also bad, luring Mr. Fan to tell me about her, because I want to make sure that the things in front of me are not related to her. This person is all real.For her, that is to say, Gewu, first of all, there must be no taboos before we can have a blind date.Between men and women At the same time, the mystery is endless, they are all just self-pity and self-shock, in fact, they have never seen the other party in person, and the mystery cannot be ignored after all. Poor, because illusions will eventually be disillusioned, but I was not frightened by Mr. Fan. I didn't care about anything, like You can touch her eyebrows and touch her eyes with your own hands, it's really inexhaustible love.And Mr. Fan did not hide his words. Concealed, at this moment her person is in the mountains and rivers of the sun and the moon. I listened to her talking about her at Si's house and at the silkworm farm, about her youth and now, and I felt her words It is beautiful and heavenly.Her human accumulation is bright and without loss, but she naturally has time to linger.Her subtlety, rather A kind of unreserved wantonness, but naturally inexhaustible, her life experience is like the endless spring flowers and spring willows. Chuan, I can't hear the cuckoo's singing, the red water is flowing, and the people's words are endless. The swing is deep in the courtyard, ah, the endless road outside the door The road, the twelve rails in front of the endless building. She mentioned that the Si family moved back to the countryside during the war, and the family situation was not difficult in the first three years. The relatives who had benefited from the Si family in the past My friend, there are a few of them that make a good living. Mr. Si once asked to borrow 200 yuan for a round trip of eighty or ninety miles. The money was only borrowed fifteen yuan, but Aunt Si didn't say a word of complaint.Now that they have won, the Si family Zhulang will follow the National Government After returning, this group of relatives, friends and neighbors came to Si's house to join in the fun, and Aunt Si treated them as usual.Blooming and blooming, old Not to mention the preface, there are so many vicissitudes, vicissitudes, grievances and grievances in the world, but Aunt Si is just like the world itself, and the country is always in harmony. Of course, there is no guessing about the wind and the day. Mr. Fan said, "That year when the fifth son went to Shanghai, he bought all the money given by Mr. Hu, and when he got home he paid for it. Packing, while talking about Mr. Hu.If the fifth brother wants to send this batch of goods to Chongqing, he can earn three times and five times the money. When he came, he stayed in Chongqing and started a farm.But a small part of them sold emergency supplies at Si Zhai and put them at the door of the house. All the neighbors came to watch, and the small items were all sold out in an instant, and the cloth and so on were all sold out in only three days.but said that day Before sunset, the money from the sale was used to buy rice and cook dinner at that time, and there was a lot of smoke from the cooking.I don't care about the people who come to buy things The people in the neighborhood would be offended when they heard this, and they would say that it was nothing to treat people in the past, but they will have to look at them in the future.Mr Hu Yes, if others don’t pay it back in the future, I will pay it back too! " Mr. Fan is really serious, telling me how to deserve it, but I was shocked by her fierceness, so I left the topic, just It is the person who respects her more and more in my heart. Her benefits, I seem to have discovered it for the first time every time, so her person I am always new.Seeing her being so righteous and confident, all grievances and grievances in the world will become good.The grace of the master and servant of the Westerners, The grievances of the enemy only make the feelings humble and dirty, so they can't be so generous and loud.China's is the straight understanding of ordinary people.sinus Chang'e's injustice to June Snow, everyone should not be deceived, for deception means that the world will mutate.And repaying kindness is like Han Xinqian Jin threw himself into the Huaihe River, his mother's will, just like the King of Han's acquaintance with him, has a generation of history. And I am secretly happy that Mr. Fan regards me as a relative, the only Chinese civilization in the world, grace is a confidant Resentment is love.Xiaobian's resentment is also about kissing, and when a man and a woman call each other enemies, they are actually very close in their hearts, so Han The resentment of Zhaojun from the nation, the resentment of Wang Changling's West Palace, and the resentment of Li Bai's jade steps are all examples of Western literature since Greece. Come nothing.And kindness is a confidant, and it is only because of relatives.That floating mother just treated Han Xin to dinner, not saved him. His life escaped his catastrophe, but the meaning of Piaomu's treatment of him, without exaggeration, has already impressed Han Xin. Exactly, as for the relationship between a man and a woman, the Chinese don't say it is a physical relationship, or contact with the Eucharist, or the madness of a great leap in life. Joy, but it is said that it is a skin-to-skin relationship, and the relationship is grateful. "One night, a husband and wife, a hundred years of kindness", this common saying is heard by Westerners. It is simply unimaginable.Westerners thank God, but have no relatives, so there is revenge but no repayment, no whiteness The great story of repaying gratitude like the story of the snake, and even the grievances are also relatives, and only the Chinese have them.And now I am in exile, that is Don't rely on comrades for help, nor do you rely on "good people" as the Buddhist scriptures say, but rely on relatives.I don't rely on The political deeds in life, or a revolutionary belief, keep one's ambitions from falling, but rely on the relatives in the world, So as not to fall into the sense of impermanence. three It has always been said that self-cultivation, family management, country and the world are in order, but with Mr. Fan in front of you, you have a country.East In the south, in the past there was a king Xie Fengliu, I don't care, what I like is Wuyue king Qian Miao, he was born in salt, When it comes to "The Righteous Man Returns His Brocade Clothes", the elders gather to watch him, thinking that he is one of his own, and his concubine has returned from her natal home , The flowers bloom on Yimo, and they are of the same generation as the women in the village.The proletarian revolution is actually lonely, not even heroes and beauties But there are other realms, but everyone can be Yao and Shun.Now Mr. Fan has such a worldly beauty, she and The people on the side of the road and the passers-by on the road seem to be acquainted. Her person shines on the mountains and rivers, and she is such a body in this world. This is self-cultivation.The Buddhist scriptures say, "The human body is hard to come by, and the great law is hard to hear." But they don't know that the body is the law.I see now I am her person in my heart, even the clothes on her body give me the feeling that they belong to her.I have been away all these years Head, compared to fighting in the arena, can also be a hero in the world, not as good as the world in front of her . In fact, Mr. Fan's status in the Si family is not easy. The last time I was in Fengshutou, I heard the nanny gossip about the past, When the master was there, the young master Song Deguan was only twelve or thirteen years old. He once looked down on Mr. Fan and called her a concubine. The woman has no character, so she was beaten up by the master, but Officer Songde grew up and understood the truth, so he was the first to lead her The siblings respect Mr. Fan.But the nanny is a maid's heart, and she still speaks to the wife's side in her speech, I don't admire Mr. Fan. In fact, my wife treats Mr. Fan like a guest and friend, and she doesn't need a nanny to protect him in everything.now on the road In the past, I heard from Mr. Fan that she had entered the sericulture school and that she had a serious illness when she first entered the sericulture farm. She actually has a kind of grievance in life.Lin Daiyu is at her grandmother's house, everyone treats her well, but she always thinks of this It was at their house, so I couldn't help being overwhelmed, and I was crying. Now Mr. Fan mentioned Aunt Si to me, also known as "he Mothers", she is not criticizing their mothers, or their brothers and sisters who are dissatisfied, but only for life For a hundred years, she is still her own, and her ambition is like spring breeze, so she can choose her own way. And I have seen many great principles of politics, but in the end it is better to listen to her talk about family affairs .During the war, Mr. Fan helped maintain the family, used her private savings as capital, and went to Lanxi and Zhuji counties to work alone to help students I like it, but I only do it a few times, and even the money and profits are used up, just because she is also a Si family, and it makes sense to be one. answer.A man's private savings is lack of ambition, but a woman's private savings has a woman's heart's joy, and she is willing to take it out, It's so free and easy, but everyone's money is spent with love and righteousness.Her generosity and magnanimity are nothing but chastity, Very realistic principles of life.However, private and public ownership in Western economics is really useless, even in Buddhist scriptures. The world of forgetting others and self is not as good as Mr. Fan's "There are people and me, and everyone and me are good." In the folk song, there is a saying "Send your husband to Yili Pavilion, and talk about your affair at Yili Pavilion". Cheng Youyou said intimately that it is not a good analogy to compare the situation of Mr. Fan and me on the road.but if Su Shi used puffer fish to describe lychee, it is better to be irrelevant than to be relevant, and it is better to be wrong than right. I also heard from Mr. Fan that the fourth child of the Si brothers was led by her since he was a child, and he said that he would be his son with her, so this When Jun Zhan got married, she helped her financially, and Xingpin asked her to borrow a gold bracelet, and she took it out and gave it to her. For the candles, the bride and groom should ask her to sit up and receive the gift.Even in difficult times, she still regards the gift of the world as such. so precious.In fact, being her daughter-in-law is just a word. Si Jun treats her very affectionately, but that daughter-in-law may not However, Mr. Fan can also take it easy, she is just doing her duty as an elder, there is money for the bride, and the eldest grandson is born , The full moon also has meeting money.As for the gold bracelet, it was later used for money, although Mr. Si said that in the future it will be lost My younger sister paid back when she got married, but in such a chaotic world, there is no way to calculate what will happen in the future.Mr. Fan is not sad either, because Because she always feels that the time in the world is long, even if she can't pay back in fact, everything is still credible.I sometimes There is a feeling of being in a hurry, and the emperor is at a loss. Now when I look at Mr. Fan, I like it very much. It turns out that the Chinese family is not only a social organization, but also a landscape of the world.The ancient poem has "Runan Xiong The rooster ascends the altar to call, and thousands of households and thousands of families live in the world." Although the imperial capital is royal, it is only in the streets and alleys that people have vitality. Su Shi's poem, "Flowers fade, red and green apricots are small. When swallows come, green water is surrounded by people." Every famous city is busy, and Zimo is red. , The scenery is all a joke.Even the mountains and rivers are like Liu Yuxi's Zhuzhi Ci, "The layers of peach and plum blossoms on the mountain , There are fireworks in the clouds. "And the words of someone in the Song Dynasty, "A touch of the Hengjiang River is flat sand, and there are thousands of houses on the sand." Victory is inseparable from others, so it is good to have such a reality.The people on the sand reminded me of the wind, sun and beauty of Parrot Island. .And the fireworks in the clouds, it seems that Xu Jingyang's family even the chickens and dogs are soaring in the daytime, so the Peach Blossom Land Wonderland is just Secular people. The scenery of the world is so present, and there is no calamity. In the Tang poem, "In the old days, the swallow before Wang Xietang flew into the ordinary Common people's home. "At present, there are common people and their families are still there. This means that the country is safe, and the rise and fall are just like flowers blooming. , and the year order is still quiet.Whose words, "Withered vines, old trees, dark crows, small bridges and flowing water houses, ancient roads, west winds and thin horses ,Sunset, heartbroken people in the horizon. "The end of the world is far away, but the small bridge and flowing water make people feel Everything is so close, this kind of distant meaning and short thinking, even the Neo Confucianists in the Southern Song Dynasty couldn't say it was so good, and Lichou is just With the daily renewal of family affection, the prodigal son will not lose his heart, and the world will never be erratic. My desire to do politics is just to make Yanli quiet and have people laughing.but my way of exile , How can we keep the family together.Even Mr. Fan cannot say that the Si family is her home.There was a Huo Qubing in the Han Dynasty who said, " The Xiongnu is not destroyed, why should the family do it? "In the old drama, there is also Fan Lihua, who is almost the same as the daughter-in-law of the Yang family and the daughter-in-law of the Xue family. Not suitable.These are not people.The family is like a pile of Xuan orchids born in front of the court, but the heroes and beauties are wonderful flowers Going out of the wall and attracting the eyes of passers-by seems to be a kind of destruction, but it is still born in that family.Lin Daiyu is not Rongguo People from the Rongguo Mansion, but if there is no family like the Rongguo Mansion, it is impossible to write about Lin Daiyu.the only one in the world Deep and stable, but there must also be people like Huo Qubing, Fan Lihua, Lin Daiyu who are not suitable for a family, who seem to be deviant, Only when it is deep and stable, there is still scenery and sprightly.Mr. Fan and I are just not as lucky as others, but we can fall Dang Zixi. Four Liang Shanbo Zhu Yingtai sent off eighteen friends, one caring, one confused.I am traveling with Mr. Fan today, only I feel that I respect her more and more, and the more realistic I am, the closer I feel to her.But I'm not like Zhu Yingtai who has already thought about it, but only Like Lu Dongbin's throwing money at Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva, he may not be ambitious, and he will be surprised for no reason, but if he wants to find out Get into trouble.I actually asked Mr. Fan, has he ever had a lover while he has been away for many years?Listen to her answer no, but yes A friend, I just asked, and she said everything.I can ask this question naturally, and her answer is also The answer is that there is danger in the plain. Mr. Fan's friend is a male colleague of the Silkworm Farm, surnamed Li, from Huangyan.Mr. Li is middle-aged In fact, do things with sincerity and sincerity, and wait for Mr. Fan to take care of him everywhere.The field dispatches technicians to the countryside of each county every year Instructing silkworm breeding, Mr. Li has done nothing to her for several years.She was also grateful for his kindness, and in the silkworm farm Turning out quilts and cooking side dishes for Mr. Li during the winter break, pity that he is a man who is not good at such things.later Mr. Li's wife in his hometown died.Leaving a child, he expressed his intention to Mr. Fan, but Mr. Fan did not agree with him. He deserves marriage. When I heard her talking about Mr. Li, I couldn't help feeling a little jealous, but I still liked to hear it.Since you are so petty, But all the beautiful things in the world, even if they are pungent to me, I am also happy, and I will just listen to her talk diligently go.And when I heard where she was going, I asked her why she didn't marry Mr. Li?Mr. Fan said, "I think he Not strong enough.A man must always be courageous. "I didn't say anything after hearing this, but I thought in my heart, I'm smarter than Mr. Na Li powerful.This is my stupidity again, it can't be cut to the point, and it's useless to cut it to the point, if it is compared to an article , My inheritance and transfer are legal, so I should hit the palm of my hand. Because of Mr. Fan's bold words, I want to look at her again. The person in front of me Mr. Fan, she really has the spirit of the people of the Republic of China.She cooks tea and rice for sewing at home, and she deals with people in front of the hall. Guests, wash clothes by the stream, draw water, grow wheat, harvest beans and pull vegetables in the field.She works as a technician in the silkworm farm, and all her colleagues admire her , was sent outside to guide silkworm rearing, and the villagers respected her as a husband and treated her like one of their own.Now she sends I, to some extent, want to avoid the suspicion of men and women, but just looking at her walk, it is so clean and tidy, I don't think there is anything feminine about it. The inconvenience is her personable atmosphere.And when the two of them were talking, I actually had to step up to her personal relationship step by step, She's not completely unconscious, but she thinks maybe you don't mean that. Men tend to talk about their girlfriends to others, mostly for the sake of being able, or because they are frivolous, while women put their girlfriends in their hearts. The matter is very precious, and it is not easy to say it. If the sister Taozhong has a close heart, you might as well disclose it to her. This also means that Sometimes the voice is full of emotions, like a pot of orchids, it is not suitable to bask in the sun too much, it can only be illuminated for a while.Fan now But Mr. Li said about her affair with Mr. Li in front of a man like me. He didn't know whether he was talking about her personal relationship with Mr. Li, or what? Unknowingly, it became just the scene of her and me at this time. There is a kind of ambiguity here, but it is really very As usual, writing a book can't be affectionate to readers like this, so I have never seen in books that there is such a thing as personal love. Mr. Fan said it well. But it is said that Mr. Fan and Mr. Na Li, as usual, they are good friends in their hearts, until the battle of silkworms. The planting farm stopped, everyone returned to their hometowns, and there were still letters, but only after a year or a half, there was only one letter. There are such long years.Mr. Li didn't know if he remarried later, it seemed that he hadn't, and then he got another marriage from someone else. Only people knew that Mr. Li had died of illness in his hometown, and that was the year before the victory. When Mr. Fan knew the news, it was our Already in Wenzhou, married for a long time.Of course she regretted it, but she didn't regret it, because neither of them owed each other. Whether Mr. Li married another person or not, and Mr. Fan married another person or not, one is a man's business, and the other is a woman's business. There will be no change or unnaturalness when meeting.Mr. Na Li, in the third year of the war, he came out due to an incident and returned to the Si residence. Bend a corner, just to look at Mr. Fan.Mr. Fan took out his private savings, sold wine and killed chickens, and received him for a lunch. Rice, this is also the enlightenment of the Si family.He arrived in the middle of the morning and left in the afternoon. Mr. Fan sent him across the stream in front of the village. On the main road, the Sizhai people didn't think it different when they saw it, they just said that your house has guests today. For Westerners, this kind of plot must be made either too heavy or too light, or too deep or too deep. Shallow, but Mr. Fan and Mr. Li did it naturally and fairly. The sages said the golden mean, but this is how they were born in China. folk.The same scenario as this, if it is in the Japanese, there must be a kind of Zen state, the Japanese are their Masculine beauty, feminine beauty, even garden trees and stones, all good things have a kind of Zen state, but Mr. Fan And Mr. Li is not in such a state.And there is liberation in the Buddhist scriptures, and the Chinese don't need liberation, but it stops at Etiquette, naturally not bound.Mr. Fan and Mr. Li, neither one has ever owed each other, neither has been wronged, Mr. Li was alive before his death, and the episode between him and Mr. Fan is comparable to the Spring Breeze Peony Garden, and although he is only a hundred flowers A flower in the sky, a grass among the herbs, the spring is selfless, and he has got what he wants.This is Zhuang Ziqi Physical scenery.Life can be so good that "from each according to his ability, from each according to his need", if this sentence is only economic Revolutionary ideals are nothing. Fives In the past, when people went to places with green mountains and green waters, they suddenly felt that they were free from the mundane world, but what Mr. Fan and I talked about was all mundane. The winter sun shines on the clothes of pedestrians, people live across the river, mountains are long and rivers are far away, and there is a world of majesty outside.our say The conversation turned to Shengxian opera, talking about Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, and then about jade dragonfly.Westerners are their reality The real life is also dramatized, while the Chinese folk drama is as true as the real life.And Fan Xian The students talked about Liang Zhu's ability, about the front and back tours of the nunnery, and only remembered the libretto and the blunt narration without any interspersed forms. Content or add explanations, but the natural meaning is unlimited.She said but did not write, just got the spirit of Shengxian opera, because Because that kind of drama was born from the folk, it is also described but not written.Western art and art theory have never been like this Such an invention, but it is said in the Buddhist scriptures that "the husband who speaks the law should speak according to the law", and it is not as good as such an ordinary practice without realizing it. .This Shengxian opera itself, and Mr. Fan's talk about Shengxian opera, is just a good thing, and both of them have become her present. .原來唱嵊縣戲的女子，如傅全香，姚水娟，袁雪芬她們，亦就是像范先生這樣 people. 將近處州，山迴溪轉，路在嶺半，人如到了高台上，下臨麗水，麗水跟我們 一路到此，已由溪水變成江水，有曠遠之勢，而人於此駐足，我稍稍眺望一番， 想像當年韓信的拜將壇，想像富春江上高高在半山中的嚴子陵釣台，想像劉備到 東吳招親，與孫權並騎上金山，指點江山形勝，二人各自有英雄心事。我亦生起 了大志，而且亦自然得沒有慷慨悲歌。古人有荊軻項羽魏徵，是出發之時，失敗 之時，未遇未達之時，慷慨悲歌。但漢高帝還鄉與曹孟德赤壁未敗前的慷慨悲歌 ，卻是在得志之時，轉覺天地之無窮。而當其屢敗之時，那漢高帝是敗亦可喜， 當其出發之時，那曹孟德是臨陣安閑，皆沒有慷慨悲歌。便是那韓信，他未遇未 達之時，亦是沒有慷慨悲歌時。這倒是合於我的現在，政治失敗到得亡命，亦對 世俗的現實多有謙遜喜愛，聽聽范先生的尋常言語，能喜愛那言有好言，語有好 language. 但是這樣的山川佳勝去處，我亦不過略略眺望了一番，不可以神魂飛越，或 情意陷溺。回頭看那兩個黃包車夫時，把著空車，隔一道山谷，落在我們後頭總 有里把路，我們就又步行，到前面再等。因是新鑿的汽車路，且喜得尚未通車， 只見雖在半山腰，卻平坦寬闊，舖的黃泥也鮮潔。我與范先生並肩走，一面只管 看她這個人，古時有趙匡胤千里送京娘，現在卻是她五百里送我，我心裡這樣想 ，口裡卻不說出來比擬。我單是說了趙匡胤與京娘之事。 有支電影流行歌、 柳葉，青又青，抹在馬上哥步行， 長途跋涉勞哥力，舉鞭策驥動妹心，哥呀...... 因說起這隻歌，忽我覺自己就好像那趙匡胤，而中華民國則是京娘，中華民國的 千里前程，路上有南京重慶延安的人，乃至番邦，意氣豪雄來相干，但仍我是她 的親人，唱到動妹心，便江山都驚。我覺悲壯激昂實不及這樣的只是情親，英雄 對江山而感慨奮發，不如江山因英雄而動心。 這支歌我要范先生唱來聽聽，她竟也高興。但她從來不曾學唱過，她纔發聲 ，我聽了一驚。她是唱得太高了下不來，第三句都還唱不全就停止，如彈琴忽然 絃絕，乃有英雄竊聽，兩人都笑了。中國東西是四平八穩裡，亦何時都有著跋扈 不馴，簡直不顧一切，大安似不安，大和似不調，大順似叛逆刺激，所以是活生 生的。 像我現在，即很不調和似的，憂患驚險如此切身，卻與范先生，好像文蕭華 山遇彩鸞。我還說范先生，你的生相與腰身，人家會看你只有二十幾歲。she said, 「前此斯宅有小貨郎擔來，我與誾誾去門口買絲線，那小貨郎還當我們是兩姊妹 .斯宅人也說，婉芬做新娘子還不及范先生後生。 」她這樣安詳大方，卻也喜歡 人家說她年青，這就依然是女兒性氣。事實上，後來她與我住在雁蕩山中學校裡 ，同事多想她是廿三四歲。 我們要算在路上說話最自由，但在路亭裡買飯，與到了宿夜店，就要少說話 為宜，怕涉及我的生平，旁邊有人聽見起疑。每在人前，范先生處處留心照應我 ，因此兩人只覺分外親熱。我們的盤纏錢只帶二萬元老法幣，那時一碗麵已要八 十元，一包大英牌香煙要五十元，但也老法幣總還值錢，而且交由范先生使用， 就有錢財銀子的可珍重。她是用手絹包了鈔票，藏在貼肉小衫袋裡，付錢時取出 解開來，有她身體的暖香，這也使我覺得親熱。 十二月八日到麗水，我們遂結為夫婦之好。這在我是因感激，男女感激，至 終是惟有以身相許。而她則是糊塗了，她道、「哎喲！這我可是說不出話了。」 翌日在往溫州的航船上，她道、「這我可是要蠻來了的呢！你到何處我都要跟牢 你了的呢！」她的蠻，亦像戲文裡樊梨花那樣番邦女子的不顧一切。 我問她做女兒時的名字，她喜孜孜的，仍稍稍躊躇，纔說出來是秀美。她道 、「我這個名字，是連誾誾亦不知，惟他們娘曉得，今是又聽見你叫了。」中國 民間舊時女子，在娘家的名字亦是私情，故定親又叫問名，新娘的名字是與年庚 八字用大紅帖子寫了，裝在禮擔盤子裡，交由媒人回過來，且到了夫家，等閑不 被人叫，而如玉鳳來我家，長輩對她稱名，則已經是新派。祕密惟是私情的喜歡 與貴氣，這樣的祕密就非常好。 我問秀美，昔年我在杭州金剛寺巷斯家作客，你住後院，惟出入經過堂前， 時一相見，那時你曾心裡有過意思麼？秀美道、「我肚裡想著你倒是一位好官人 ，但又想你是已經有了老婆的。」所以她只是好像春色惱人，卻沒有名目得不可 以是相思。女人矜持，恍若高花，但其實亦是可以被攀折的，惟也有拆穿了即不 值錢的，也有是折來了在手中，反覆看愈好的。現在秀美這樣說了出來，我只是 更加感激歡喜。而且現在她看我，亦依然如同昔年的是個好官人。 我說我今這樣，好像是對不住斯家，秀美卻道、「你與斯家，只是叫名好像 子侄，不算為犯上。我這人是我自己的。且他們娘是個明亮的。」她的理直氣壯 真是清潔。我因問她可會想著昔年老爺的情分？她道、「沒有甚麼可追想，那時 我是年紀太小。」年紀太小，是不曉得恩愛的，彼時過的好日子，亦只像春風春 水長養好花，其實花與風水兩無情，這亦是一種空闊光明。她是與我，纔有人世 夫婦之好，所以她這樣的喜愛不盡。我問她、「你喜歡我叫你姊姊，還是叫你妹 sister? 」她說妹妹。 six 船上過得兩夜，到上溫州。我們先是住在斯君的丈人家，慢慢尋訪秀美的娘 家住址。斯君的丈人家姓朱，我只說是斯君的表兄，改姓名為張嘉儀。嘉儀本是 秀美給她女友謝君的小孩，拜她為義母時取的名字，我一聽非常好，竟是捨不得 ，就把來自己用了，用老婆取的名字，天下人亦只有我。我對朱家是說斯君要我 先來，他隨後來，等他來了，商量到台灣去做生意。可是住在朱家，我與秀美要 避形跡，我仍叫她范先生，她則叫我張先生。 斯君的丈人當過稅局的課長，現在開著酒店。溫州城裡與蘇州城裡紹興城裡 一樣，多有這樣的門第，好像是書香世家，舊式房子，堂屋前後院，欄杆走廊， 假山花木，親友來住，人情場面都等樣。我在這樣的人家作客，真要做筋骨，住 得日子多了，我難為情是不消說得，連秀美為了我，亦只是厚臉皮。但她比我更 有大行不顧細謹的氣魄，她道、「他們麻煩，亦只好且麻煩他們了。論親戚亦不 在乎此，前年他們弟弟到斯宅來，也住不少日子。 」她是何時都有理直氣壯。I 的不安，大約還是因為我不喜這等世家。下午人靜，聽他家二小姐在堂前翻絲綿 ，反來覆去哼同一隻小調，只覺有個古老的中國，連同這斜陽庭院，要消逝湮滅 . 溫州話很難懂。喫食是海鮮多，餐餐有吹蝦。芥菜極大極嫩，燒起來青翠碧 綠，因地氣暖，應時甚長。芥菜有芥菜香，味厚，微辛。在朱家，飯桌上每芥菜 搬出來，主人總自讚好喫。後來我到日本，住在池田家半年，餐餐有秋魚。主婦 總自讚好喫，我想起溫州芥菜，不禁要笑。溫州人烹調不講究火候，小菜多是冷 的，好像是供神的，中午冷飯冷小菜，惟有一大碗芥菜現燒熱喫，所以特別動人 .城裡又飲水不佳，卻縱橫都是石砌的河溝，既涸又髒。但仍可想像過去太平時 世，是從城外引活水進來，家家門前有清流如鏡，可以洗菜洗衣。現代都市惟知 填平河溝，其實仍應當有，而且可以保持清潔的。 在朱家住了月餘，尋著秀美的娘家，今惟老母一人，窮苦無依，在竇婦橋徐 家台門裡賃一間側屋居住。秀美有個弟弟，從小尋到杭州，阿姊培植他學汽車司 機，已娶妻成家，戰時在江西運輸隊，被日本飛機轟炸，一門俱沒。如今我與秀 美就搬過去與外婆同住。 外婆已七十歲，一隻眼睛因哭兒子哭瞎，卻乾淨健朗，相貌身裁母女相像， 但她老年加上無知無識，變得像小孩，一張面孔笑嘻嘻，滑稽可笑，好比年畫裡 的和合二仙。她仍以為兒子未死。她對秀美的身世不覺得做爺娘的對兒女有何抱 歉。現在忽見秀美與我一道，她亦只是母女情親，毫不盤問。她是人世的事都是 OK連現在這樣時勢，生活下去要一天比一天艱難了，她亦不曉得憂念，你簡 直把她無法。 徐家台門原是三廳兩院的大宅，正廳被日本飛機炸成白地，主人今住在東院 ，那裡的花廳樓台尚完好。西院的花廳也被炸毀，但廂房後屋，假山池榭尚存， 分租給幾份人家，一家做裁縫，一家當小學校長，後屋住的打紙漿的人家。grandmother 住的一間，則原是一個柴間，長方形的平屋，又窄又是泥地，連一張桌子亦擺不 平，一排窗格子糊著舊報紙，小缸灶即擺在房門外簷下，亦是泥地。 那天下午辭了朱家，搬來外婆這裡，外婆已把房間收拾得爍清。她把大床讓 給我們，她自己另舖一張單人床，兩張床擠在這樣的一間瓦椽泥地的房裡，倒是 還舒齊。靠壁一隻大櫥，放衣裳針線筐等什物及碗盞，外婆的一隻大板箱與我們 的一隻手提箱，疊在大櫥的橫頭，底下擱塊板。床前脫履處也擱一塊板。瓶瓶罐 罐都列在床下。一張桌子靠窗下，在大床的橫頭，用幾塊磚墊平桌子腳，桌子底 下一隻盛米的酒罈。只得一把椅子、一隻長條凳。這桌子是梳粧桌，也是喫飯桌 ，好得我向來是不要書桌的。窗格紙已換過，雖仍是舊報紙，新糊上也有一種清 Light.泥地掃得淨，也人意幽靜閑遠。我與秀美坐下來，看看倒是落位。 秀美真是到了娘家了，她即刻心安理得。行裝初解，她就自去買小菜，自己 烹調。一時夜飯搬上桌來，點起油燈，外婆讓我們先喫，她尚在缸灶頭。小菜是 碟炒雞蛋、一碟豆芽、一碟吹蝦、一碟麻蛤。秀美滿心歡樂，捧起飯碗，拿筷子 指著麻蛤道、「這麻蛤。」無故發笑，又指著盛豆芽的碟子道、「這盤子。」又 laugh.真像崔鶯鶯說的「也教俺夫妻每共桌而食」。我見她這樣歡樂，只能是心裡 感激。及外婆隨後亦喫過飯，收拾好碗盞，就早早睡覺，這樣的瓦屋泥地，而且 好像正月初一，是只可以早睡的。我還有點怕不好意思，秀美卻已舖好被褥，坐 在床沿解衣，婦人是把人生看得這樣肯定，真實不虛。 我們打算連外婆三人的生活費，一兩金子用得一年，先把米甕裡的米買滿， 此外省喫儉用，因與秀美在一起，只覺世上人好物好。我問