Chapter 33 hallucinations four (2)

hallucinations four (2) Good bye, the cool world, I am leaving you today. Good bye, good bye, good bye. Good bye, all the people, there is nothing you can say, to make me change my mind, good bye. Outside the dilapidated window lattices with mottled red paint are dark green creepers.I watched her silently.Her nostalgia about yesterday, the night falls.Like applause, one after another.It's like a deep lake. Sometimes I was so sleepy that I would fall asleep while listening to it, and when I woke up, I saw her still smoking by the window sill.She sits alone, like the blue sea in my memory, so blue that it makes people feel distressed, and it hurts all the way to the bottom of my heart.The world often lacks poetry and beauty in our eyes.But we have to deceive ourselves and make ourselves content so that we can live happily.

Ye Di often cannot sleep for several days in a row.His eyes were bloodshot.When she felt that she couldn't go on, she woke me up in the middle of the night and said, Seven, I can't sleep. I got up and went to her bed and chatted with her.Talk about boring topics on purpose, let her listen for a long time, or let her talk for a long time.Words are the most tiring thing in the world.She will eventually fall asleep in exhaustion. I knew that once she fell asleep, the sleep would be long again.So I got out of bed gently, unplugged the phone line for her, turned off the phone, and closed the window.The room was very still.I love to sit on the edge of her bed and look at her sweet baby face as she sleeps.

I seem to feel the resilience of life. We all thought that we could not go on.But in the end, we can actually all come through.For example, for Ye Di, after this blissful sleep, she can put on a smile and continue walking. She fell asleep for a long time, and when she woke up it was sunny in the morning.She stretched her waist happily, like a lazy cat.I have never seen such a naive Ye Di.Maybe Yijun saw her before there were no waves in her life. I brought her the milk, and she held my hand and said that she hadn't had such a good sleep in many years. Concho disappeared.The people in the band didn't know where he was going.Ye Di was sick, and I stayed in the apartment to take care of her.Do some housework every day, and the rest are almost idle.

Yijun knew that I was with Ye Di, but he didn't come, even if he took advantage of me to see her.I'm almost completely disappointed in him. Ye Di improved a lot, and I went home the next day.I saw Yijun in MILK, I asked him, why don't you come and see us? He said, I'm afraid she doesn't want to see me. I said, you dare not see her. Two days later, Ye Di suddenly called me.She said, Seven, I want to go back to the south, to my former city. I asked, if you are in such a hurry to leave, won't you come back? She said, Kang Qiao called me, he was all right and went back to his mother.He asked me to go back too.

Ye Di asked me again, would you like to go back with me, seven. Before I could answer, she continued to say, I spent all my money to buy two tickets for the train at 10 o'clock tomorrow morning.I can wait for you. Yijun asked in a low voice behind my back, what happened?Who is leaving?Have you found Kang Qiao? I turned around and saw his innocent appearance, suddenly I couldn't bear it.I have been with him for three years.He is a peaceful and clean person.Blind because we live peacefully, I don't experience his weakness firsthand, but he is still very good to me.I love him too.

I couldn't sleep very much that night. At 5 o'clock in the morning, Yijun called.I held the receiver, but there was no sound from the other party.We were silent for ten minutes without saying a word.Only hear each other's breathing.Finally, he said vaguely, Qi, please don't leave me. I put down the phone, got up and walked in, took a shower with cold water, the cold water was stabbing like countless knives.Excited to the extreme.I can't breathe at all, I think my head is going to split. Went out the door in the early morning.I went back to MILK, took off the Lancang knives on the wall one by one, and put them in my bag.Walking on the street, it is still quiet and the pedestrians are sparse.It was daylight, and I walked through a street, and the street lights went out one by one.I watched and thought, We are going to live a noisy life in this tired and indifferent world.From everything, to nothing.We are interlaced warp and weft, woven into a brocade by the years, closely related to the ending of nothingness.

Somehow, I walked all the way to the train station. I called her and she walked towards me from a distance.When she saw me, she was pleasantly surprised at first, but she was a smart person, so her expression darkened in an instant.