Chapter 30 hallucinations three (1)

hallucinations three (1) I don't know if it was my intention or her intention, Ye Di and I will not see each other again.Can't see Kang Qiao either.I am used to walking alone on campus, walking between books and homework in a hurry, without giving myself any space. It was a quiet day.Accompanied by books, it is indeed boring, but it is reassuring.I told myself, don't be impetuous, don't complain.Everything is traceable.I have my own way, in fact, everything in life has its own arrangements. It feels like a brief lull, a momentary cooldown, after the high tide of European cinema has passed.The remaining lonely cello and Paganini's notes resonate for a long time.I have nothing but lots of time and solitude.

Occasionally I still feel irritable, so I play the violin, or plug in the headphones and listen to Elgar's Cello Concerto.In the middle of the night, the piano sounded like weeping. I was doing math problems under the desk lamp. When I was tired, I raised my head and took a rest. This light is too familiar. You and I used to do our homework under this light, and everything has not happened yet. It was a simple dream when I was young.I will still think of you. I wonder if you still have a lot of questions you can’t do, and if you still need my help. But I just think about you for a moment when I look up.I understand that such a heart is too thin and shallow, so it is not worthy of being together lightly.Ye Di, you have to understand that I actually cherish you very much.So I think you deserve a boy who has more heart for you than I do.

After a month, my birthday is here.I was preparing for a quiet and lonely birthday, but I didn't expect Ye Di and Kang Qiao to come to me that day. We've been separated for so long that we've almost become sedated.Ye Di insisted on celebrating my birthday.Kang Jo was there when she was talking to me.However, he obviously didn't know anything about our affairs. When Ye Di turned around to greet others, he hurriedly leaned into my ear and said happily, Ye Di is now my girlfriend—— When Ye Di turned around, he immediately said loudly—how, can we not celebrate!let's go!Don't hesitate.

I responded with an embarrassed smile and said nothing more.I agreed. Go to Kang Qiao's house that night.Both his parents went back to the north on a business trip, and we were the only ones at home.Kang Qiao's home is spacious, exquisite and luxurious.We played operas on the stereo, such as Wagner's "Ragnarok", and then brought out a lot of beer, which filled the room with foam and poured it like boiling water.Ye Di seemed to be in high spirits that night, and excitedly picked up the bow, Rapaganini's Concerto. When she played the piano, I sat in the corner of the room and watched her from a distance.

In the past we all sat together to learn the piano, too close.Thinking about it carefully, I have never looked at her so seriously.Not seen for a while, Ye Di is even more beautiful.It was a face that one couldn't help but want to reach out and touch it gently.When you smile, you are as gentle as a song, and when you don't smile, you bear the sadness, which is what I am familiar with.Her face was bright and straight, with a high and straight nose. Under the light, half of her face was immersed in darkness, while the other half was bright and pale.Eyes alert and innocent, birdlike. She played a well-tempered piece by Bach, and when it reached the nineteenth bar, I got up to pour water from a glass and walked to her, but she stopped suddenly, as if she was about to cry.I was a little surprised in my heart, looked down at her, and said, are you okay?

She smiled and said, nothing.Ye Di held my arm with a very complicated expression. She looked up at me and said, Yijun, I have something to tell you... Kang Qiao stood up sensitively, looked at her nervously, and then at me.I met Ye Di's eyes, and my heart felt cold immediately.I always feel that she has something to say, but can't bear to say it. The atmosphere was awkward for a while, Ye Di let go of my hand, and suddenly laughed as if discouraged, and said, happy birthday.I just wanted to say happy birthday to you... After the words fell, Kang Qiao laughed with relief. He said, I was shocked, even a sentence of happy birthday made such a mystery...

After all, Ye Di didn’t say what she wanted to say. She fell on me as if she lost her strength. I naturally wanted to hug her, but when I saw Kang Qiao, I pulled him over to help Ye Di, and said sanctimoniously, brother , you have to treat her well. I pulled the two of them together to sit down, and got up to leave. At the door, I saw the back of Kang Qiao holding Ye Di.She wrapped her arms around Kang Qiao's neck, but looked at me with weeping eyes. In fact, if she called me at that time, I would stay.But she didn't.She looked at me, then lowered her head and buried it in Kang Qiao's arms.I seem to have found a reason to leave with peace of mind.Turning around to leave, the door slammed shut.

For the next month, I didn't see them again.Everything seems to be without waves, moving smoothly like still water flowing deep.