Chapter 28 Hallucination II (2)

Hallucination II (2) We all know something, but not all. I couldn't control myself for a while, I just said, Ye Di, you are so beautiful. She didn't speak, just stood motionless in front of me, clutching the towel tightly in her hand.I kept silent, gritted my teeth, and took off my shirt.I hesitated a little, then I reached out and hugged her decisively, trying to kiss and touch her.She resisted slightly, but quickly obeyed me. That day was the season of fire in July, and in the emerald green summer world, the cicadas were singing one wave after another.There was intense sunlight outside the window, and the bright light was like a river, flowing through the window lattice, flowing through the body, and thundering like lightning, illuminating the unfathomable black heaven.I seem to have fallen into the deep ocean.For a moment, I closed my eyes tightly, feeling the joy of spinning around.The gate of the black heaven closed slowly, I opened my eyes, the corner of the world is still full of evil under the sun.My mind quickly went blank.Sweat has soaked the whole body, dripping slowly along the breastbone.

It was almost dusk by then.We lay together, still breathing hard and fast.We did it twice, and she was so hot that her hair was covered with sweat, but she still hugged my hot chest.I hugged her and she wept in my arms.We were drenched all over, and we couldn't tell whether it was sweat or tears. Lying together motionless, they gradually calmed down.The sky is getting darker and darker, and even the singing of cicadas has become weak.The summer evening falls like death. She kept silent, wiped away her tears, got up quietly, turned her back to me, picked up the clothes beside the bed, and put them on silently.I looked at her back, feeling a little regretful in my heart.She looked back at me and said, brother, get up.

I got up and left the bed, stood in the corner of the small room, watched her silently open the closet, and took out clean sheets to change. There were a few drops of bright red blood on the old bed sheet, covered with sweat and sperm stains. She just glanced blankly, then rolled up and hugged me away without saying a word, and passed me by. I looked at her, never experienced such a complicated mood. That was when we had just turned fifteen. The night after the first time, I couldn't sleep at night, and I was still very disturbed.When they saw her the next day, they knew each other well, as if they felt that they looked at each other differently.She came to our house with her father.Ye Di still greeted our family, brother, aunt, uncle, I am here.

Father Ye also came over and patted my shoulder with a kind smile, and asked, Xiao Jun, did you practice the piano well. I think of what happened yesterday, and I feel ashamed for a moment. The second year of high school started to divide subjects, and she chose science in order to be with me.And Kang Qiao chose liberal arts.The schoolwork has obviously become heavier, and it is even more difficult for Ye Di to study science.Father Ye was very anxious, and often asked me to tutor Ye Di. I went to her house in such a name, and I felt a great sense of guilt in my heart.But I really can't control it.When the adults were away, we did it many times, and we were worried. Even if the door was locked, we were also afraid that the adults would come back suddenly and be caught.After finishing, I always feel that this is a wrong thing, and it is a waste of time, so I quickly get up and get dressed to do homework together.Very embarrassed.

I have concerns.I was afraid that she would be pregnant.He locked the door of his room in a panic, and dug out the previous physical and health textbooks, but he couldn't find anything useful.I went to the bookstore alone again, checking some books in a panic like a guilty conscience, hoping to find some more information. Such days have passed for nearly half a semester.We usually study by ourselves every night, and we still go home together. Finally one day, I held Ye Di's hand and felt that she was very reluctant, walking slower and slower.Eventually we all stopped and stood together in bewilderment.

She said, Yijun.If we are brother and sister, we seem to have something more.If we are a couple, we seem to be missing something. Yijun, I think I like you.But I really don't know if it's because you like me. I am speechless.She hits the nail on the head with this most dreaded question I've been avoiding for a long time. I often feel in my heart that birth is the beginning of life, and lust is the beginning of life.The day when a person really grows up must be after the first night—or like our "first day".We have all grown up, and I cherish her, so I can no longer deceive her, nor can I deceive myself.I have no heart, we can't go on like this...

I was sad, and after a long silence, I gritted my teeth and said, Ye Di, there is love between us, but it is not love.We can't go on like this, sorry... She looked at me quietly, then turned and ran away.