Chapter 24 Chapter 11

Mrs. Zhang received Wu Renmin's letter and came to see him early the next morning.She is very well dressed. Gao Zhiyuan didn't go home the night before.Wu Renmin was the only one in the room.When people are in love, most of them get up very early.So as soon as Mrs. Zhang entered the room, she saw him wearing a bow tie.He was about to go to her house, but not to find her, but to see Xiong Zhijun. But when Mrs. Zhang came, he had to stay.He had to gossip with her. The one-on-one meeting between the two was what he had been looking forward to, but now he felt embarrassed.He often avoided her eyes, wondering what to say to solve their problem.

"Did you get my letter?" he asked bravely. "Got it, I've read it several times." She paused, buried her head, and then continued in a pitiful voice, "But I don't understand what you mean. I don't understand why you are like that." Hate me. Your words seem to be full of sharp arrows. They are shot at my defenseless and fragile heart. I have been married for a few years. I have no one to take pity on me. I fully expect that you will Help me, who would think of you as an enemy." There seemed to be tears in her words. "You don't understand me at all," he defended himself nervously.He was a little disappointed and a little anxious. "I don't have any intention of hurting you. I know your unfortunate married life well. And I sympathize with you. But it's different now. You should also think about Zhijun. I can't abandon her. And You've got someone of your own choice, too." He paused, looking furtively at her.She sat on the sofa and turned her head to look out the window, as if she didn't want to listen to him.

He only saw her shoulders shrugging slightly.He thought she was crying.So his heart softened.He said gently: "Please forgive my difficulties, and you should also understand that it is the best way for us to be separated forever. Mrs. Zhang..." He wanted to call Yuwen, but he called out this name, which was accidental. It wasn't intentional, he really didn't have any intention of hurting her. "Mrs. Zhang? Why do you call me that?" She suddenly turned around and said half-hysterically.She looked at him with intense, troubled eyes.Both eyes seemed to be filled with blood. "I hate this word, I hate every word."

She suddenly put her head on the back of the sofa and covered her face with her hands. "What's the matter with you?" He quickly stood up, strode up to her, and asked concerned in panic.He was starting to forget his strategy. "Yuwen, will my words hurt you so much? You misunderstood, you completely misunderstood. I really don't have any intention of hurting you. I just plan for Zhijun's happiness." "Don't you think about my happiness at all?" She burst out the crying words suddenly, but she didn't let go of her hand, so that he still couldn't see her face.She added later: "I'm also someone who needs help."

He was very moved.He almost jumped over the invisible barrier between the two of them.He forgot many things.He sat on the armrest of the sofa, stroked her hair with his hand at first, and then pulled her hand that covered her face.It didn't comfort her, calm her down.But he suddenly had a terrible thought, as if Xiong Zhijun was standing in front of him, looking at him with her sad eyes.He stood up immediately. He thought, what if Zhijun came here?However, she will definitely come, so Yuwen must leave immediately.Thinking of this made him anxious. "Yuwen, maybe I shouldn't talk to you like this," he said to her apologetically, still reaching out to stroke her hair gently. "But I must say, you should go. Zhijun will come here soon. We shouldn't let her know about our previous relationship. She can't bear such a blow anymore. Even if you don't think about me, you have to Think of her. Besides, you're her good friend." He stopped, he couldn't find the right words.He paced the room anxiously.

Yuwen did not answer, still crying in a low voice.She was thinking too.She thought how he chased her and loved her in the past.A word from her can dictate his actions.But now she came to him with an empty heart, but he was going to drive her away.Thinking about it made her heart ache. "Of course what you say makes sense. I will never stand between the two of you to ruin your happiness. I can't bear the crime, and I don't want to. I don't have any ambitions now. It's just that I've come to this place now." Don't you feel pity for me at all? I was loved by you before. Look, won't my days be a hundred times more miserable than Zhijun's?" She said with tears.She paused for a while after a sentence, which showed her inner pain, and at last she couldn't speak any more.Although her head was raised, she covered it with a handkerchief in one hand, so that he could not see her face, which was good.

There was another struggle in his mind, as if two memories, two faces were pulling at his mind in opposite directions.At any moment he wanted to kill this struggle with a force of restraint.Hearing her last words, he took courage and said, "What has this to do with me? I didn't bring you to this point." But just at that moment he saw her look up at him.That face still looks beautiful now, and after being washed by tears, it also looks a little pure, pure enough to remind him of the goddess-like comrade from before.That face, that tear-stained face. ... His heart softened again.He seemed to see how his words pierced her heart, and he felt that he could not be so cruel.He quickly walked over, stood in front of her, apologized to her and said: "Forgive me, I didn't hurt your mind. I also know that you have been in a difficult situation in the past few years. I also sympathize with you, I I also want to help you. But what can I do? I only hate the beginning—" He stopped before finishing the sentence.He thought: What do you only hate at the beginning?Do you only hate that she shouldn't have abandoned him and walked into the arms of that bureaucrat?

I only hate that he should have neglected love for the sake of the revolution, separated from her for a year, did not send her a letter, and thus lost her?But there is no need to mention these here.Why does he still hate these things and mention them?The one crying in front of him now is the woman he once loved and admired.No matter how she abandoned him and how much pain she gave him, there was that kind of beautiful power that made people admire and move people in her body.And now, on her haggard face washed clean by tears, he seemed to have found the old girl again. So he bowed his head gently, and called softly in her ear: "Yuwen." This voice was very familiar to her, and it was also very familiar to him.The voice seemed to come back between the two of them through the past ages.

She immediately raised her face and gazed into his eyes.Apparently it was his voice that inspired her.This voice was what she longed for, but it came so suddenly that she couldn't believe it right away.So she grabbed his two hands and begged, "Renmin, give me a chance. You see, I am almost kneeling in front of you now, begging you to forgive me for my past mistakes. Are you just like this?" Is it cruel? Even a strange man would be tempted to see me like this, let alone you..." Her face flushed, and love made her face more beautiful. He looked at the face, and listened to the words, and he almost forgot himself completely.He picked her up immediately.But it wasn't a tight hug, he just put his eyes on hers, and suddenly let go of his hands again.He said slightly frightened: "Zhijun."

He took two steps back, then held his head and opened his eyes wide and said, "I can't. There can be no relationship between us anymore. I've handed myself over to Zhijun." "But I don't want to possess the whole of you." She took a step closer, looking at him in pursuit, her voice full of conviction that she wasn't joking with him. This surprised him. "What do you mean?" He looked at her a little embarrassed. "Can't we love each other like before?" Her face changed, and she no longer looked sad and helpless.She even looked at him menacingly.Her words cut his heart like a knife.He felt that after he had Xiong Zhijun, he and her would no longer be able to love each other like before.This is impossible.But he regretted it again.He is fighting with himself.He wanted to show a kind of strength to reject her.

"Of course not," he bit his lip in despair. "I have Zhijun, and you have your husband." "My husband," she sneered twice, raising her eyebrows, with a look of resentment on her face, "he has spoiled my happiness in life. I hate him, I hate him. I've had a lot of quarrels with him lately." .I want revenge. Do I still want to keep my chastity for him? He also has a lot of lovers outside." She opened her eyes wide: the eyes were red, the eyelids were a little swollen, and the light of revenge shot out from the eyes, tempting The light of love, the light of love, hovered over his face as if looking for a captive. "Yuwen, do you have such thoughts? Do you think I can have sex with you while falling in love with Zhijun?" He said in panic.He is very bold in other aspects, but he is very restrained when it comes to love, so restrained that he doesn't even feel it.In fact, he didn't know that he was a serious soul-body conformist. "Why not? It's possible for one person to love two people at the same time." She didn't let him go. "But Zhijun can't stand it. And I can't lie to her," he said, shaking his head.He wondered how she could have such an idea.But he couldn't take his eyes off her face. "Why do you say you cheated on her? Isn't that justified? You are just like other men in this regard. I thought you were a revolutionary, but I was wrong." She sat down on the sofa again, opened her handbag, Re-powdered face.She seemed much quieter on the surface, but inwardly she was not.She loves him now, and she wants to conquer him now as if she were fighting on a battlefield.Her thoughts did not necessarily agree with her words, and she said them half for the sake of conquering him. "Please explain to me why you loved me years ago and don't love me now. I'm not the same person." She smiled slightly. "You thought you were the same person?" he asked a little angrily. "You abandoned the revolution and ran into the arms of that bureaucrat. After following him for so many years, you still said that you have not changed. Your face alone has changed too much. I can find it in your current pink face. A trace of former purity and bravery? Think for yourself." Her eyes looked at him imploringly, as if to say, "Have pity on me, don't go on." Yet he did, feeling the satisfaction of vengeance. "But my love for you hasn't changed. I haven't forgotten you for many years. I was wrong at the time, but you were also wrong. You don't understand women's psychology. You left me for a year and didn't even believe me. Write a letter. Can you blame me for marrying someone else? He is very smart, and he took advantage of that opportunity to deceive me. Besides, I have another reason for marrying him, and I don’t have to tell you about it. I said it, and you won’t believe it. In short, you men now have a lot of convenience, and you can have sex with as many women as you like. But when we women marry a man, it seems that a seal has been stamped on us. There will be no freedom and rights." She said these words with all her might.There was fire in her eyes, her face was redder, and she looked more alive, younger. "Yuwen, take a break, I think you are going crazy. You don't know what you are talking about. Do you think, with Zhijun and your husband here, can we still love each other like before? You have It's not the girl I used to be. I don't love you anymore." His words also took a lot of effort to say.He is in pain at this time. Her face changed.She touched her forehead with one hand and buried her head silently.She was completely hopeless. He turned his face away, not daring to look at her again.He thought her heart was broken.Little did she know that in the meantime she had regained her courage and the strength to stand up and say to him: "You lied. I know you lied. You never told the truth. You haven't forgotten me. You can't say you don't love me now. I." Her voice was so powerful, it kept hitting his heart, and he turned his head immediately.He glanced at her glowing red face, and he was greatly taken aback.There was nothing wrong with her words.He cannot forget her.He still loves her now, and at the same time he loves Xiong Zhijun even more. "Renmin, don't be so stubborn, don't lie to yourself," she pleaded in a gentle voice as she stood up.She took his hand. "You see my life is so lonely and I need your love to warm my heart. I have had enough punishment for my past mistakes. Now I come to you with regret and I am ready to start a new one. life, but I need your love to heal my wounds and inspire my courage. You will not refuse this small request..." He couldn't bear it anymore.He hugged her.He just put his mouth on her red lips, and suddenly let go of his hand in horror, and took a step back.Xiong Zhijun...the bureaucrat surnamed Zhang...the pain of losing a relationship in the past...all of these are separated between them like a fence.He said forcefully, "It's over, Yuwen, our relationship is over." "It's over? Why are you so cruel? Do you still remember the past?" She stepped forward to hug him, begging bitterly. "How can I forget the past?" He blushed struggling to say. "The most important thing is that you have a husband of your choice, and I have my Zhijun." "A husband of my own choice? Yes, I was deceived by him at that time, and now I don't want him...I didn't expect you to have the same views as other men. I thought you were different from others." She saw hope gradually The ground went far away, but still endured the heartache to chase it. "My husband cannot interfere with me, and I can leave him at any time. As for Zhijun, she is no harm to us. You can love her too, and you can marry her." "And you?" he asked inexplicably. "I can be your lover. I can live independently without you helping me financially. Don't we have a good time like this? All I need is a part of your love, I don't want all of it. You can put the other Part of it is for Zhijun," she continued dreamily, as if she had hope in her hands. "Yuwen, you're crazy. How can you say such a thing?" he said in surprise and almost angrily. "My love has always been faithful. I can't give love to two women at the same time. I can't deceive Zhijun, and Zhijun can't let me do this. I know that many men are doing this now, But I can't. Let me say one last word: I don't love you.You need male love, you can find other men.A face like yours, a dress, and means can charm many men.But you can't charm me. ' He hit her with those words in a vengeful manner. He saw her look pained. "You—you said such things to me? Is this your truth?" She looked at him with the last of her courage, and said desperately. The door was ajar.Someone outside knocked on the door a few times and opened the door to come in. It was Xiong Zhijun who came. Mrs. Zhang sighed slightly, turned around and took two steps towards Xiong Zhijun, saying hello.Wu Renmin's face turned pale, and he quickly put on a smile. "Sister Yu, are you here?" Xiong Zhijun asked in surprise. Mrs. Zhang was stunned for a moment, and then she replied with a smile: "I have something to discuss with Mr. Wu. He was going to see you, but I stopped him. I delayed him for a long time...Zhijun, when will you invite me?" Shall I drink?" Although she smiled, there was sadness in her smile. Xiong Zhijun blushed when he heard the last sentence.She didn't answer, but looked at Wu Renmin tenderly, as if he should answer this sentence. "Come on, Mrs. Zhang, you won't have to wait long," he replied reluctantly, and he felt that he was smiling a little forcedly. "Okay, I'll go first, you two talk slowly, I won't bother you anymore," Mrs. Zhang hesitated and said with determination.There was something else in her words, but Wu Renmin still couldn't understand.He only knew that she was sad at this time, but he couldn't help her. The sound of Mrs. Zhang's high-heeled shoes gradually disappeared.She walked slowly, had already descended the stairs, and turned around again.Seeing Wu Renmin's shocked face, she pretended to be quiet and asked, "Mr. Wu, are you free tomorrow morning? I still have something to talk to you about." "Tomorrow? I have something to do tomorrow, and I have to go out early in the morning," Wu Renmin replied in a panic, obviously he didn't want to meet her alone again.He rejected her so mercilessly. "Okay, let's talk again when you are free in the future." Her eyes circled his face, and she turned around and left.This time she walked quickly.The crisp sound of high heels rang in the ears of the two people in the room for a while and then disappeared. Wu Renmin looked at her back and sighed slightly.He wanted to run out after her and call her back.But he never moved his foot a step. "Her situation is also very unfortunate. I don't know how she could endure it for so long," Xiong Zhijun whispered in his ear, his voice full of sympathy. He looked back at Xiong Zhijun as if awakened.He didn't answer her, just nodded silently.His mind was still oppressed with gloomy thoughts. "What did she ask you to discuss? She doesn't seem very happy," Xiong Zhijun asked gently. "It's a small and unimportant matter, but unfortunately I can't help her," he pondered for a moment in embarrassment, and then answered her with a pretended indifference. She stopped asking questions.She began to think.At this moment, doubt sneaked into her heart again.She suspected that he must have had some relationship with Mrs. Zhang in the past.She remembered the time when the two first met.She thought: "He must have known her before. But why are they trying to hide it like this?" She did not express her doubts to him. Gradually, both of them temporarily forgot about Mrs. Zhang.They sat on the edge of the bed hand in hand and intimately discussed the matter of marriage.Wu Renmin hoped that this matter could be done sooner, and Xiong Zhijun naturally agreed.But Gao Zhiyuan lives with him now, and will go to F soon. He has to wait until this friend leaves before he can get married.And he also wanted to take her to a quiet place for honeymoon.But this requires a sum of money.They talked for a while, and finally decided to publish the wedding announcement in the newspaper within half a month. Wu Renmin went out with Xiong Zhijun.They ate Russian dishes in a Russian restaurant next to the park, and spent most of the day in the park. When Wu Renmin returned home, it was just dark and the room was deserted.He is no longer afraid of being alone.His heart is full of hope.Visions of a future happy life comforted him.He thought: Rest in the arms of a woman for a while, and then go to work with full new energy. Around eleven o'clock, Gao Zhiyuan ran upstairs angrily, opened his mouth wide and said as soon as he entered the room, "I'm tired from running today." "What are you doing? You didn't come back to sleep last night." Wu Renmin asked with a smile. "I slept at Yadan's place last night. We boarded the boat the day after tomorrow," Gao Zhiyuan said solemnly, obviously he regarded it as a big event. "The day after tomorrow? So fast?" Wu Renmin asked regretfully. "Quick? You still say fast? We have been planning to go to F place very early, and we have been delayed for more than a month," Gao Zhiyuan said emphatically, as if he could not wait to leave immediately.At the same time he took out a stack of banknotes and counted them.They were all five-dollar bills, which seemed to be quite a lot. This stack of banknotes reminded Wu Renmin of his thoughts.After thinking about it, he said to Gao Zhiyuan, "Zhiyuan, can you lend me some money elsewhere?" He felt embarrassed. "Do you want money? How much? Is this enough?" Gao Zhiyuan handed him a five-yuan bill. He returned the banknote to Gao Zhiyuan and said, "It's not enough, at least fifty or sixty, and it would be best to borrow one hundred." His voice trembled slightly, and he felt that Gao Zhiyuan's answer could determine his happiness Or unfortunately. "Such a large amount? What do you want it for?" Gao Zhiyuan looked up at him in surprise. "I'm going to live with Xiong Zhijun, and I'm going to travel to H (H: refers to Hangzhou) with her," he said hesitantly, blushing and smiling. "It's a woman again," Gao Zhiyuan spat on the floor, waved a hand in front of his eyes, and said contemptuously. "If you want to live together, you can just live together. Traveling? You must treat, don't you? I can't borrow money. Even if there is a place to borrow, I won't borrow it for you. I can't help you play the tragicomedy of love," he said. As he spoke, he put all the stack of banknotes in front of him in his arms. Wu Renmin was criticized by Gao Zhiyuan, and he felt a little unhappy, so he said to him half angrily: "This is a little help, but you won't help me? You are all people who only care about themselves. Don't you have so much money around you?" ?" When Gao Zhiyuan got angry, his face turned red.He stared at Wu Renmin with wide eyes and complained, "You really don't have any reason for that. This lot of money was sent from F land, and it has many serious uses. We also need this money to go to F land. In your conscience, the two of us This one is running around every day to see who is acting for the public and who is acting for the private?" Wu Renmin was speechless after being robbed.He also blushed.He paced the room.He was a little disappointed, a little irritable, and a little ashamed.He has no reason to complain about Gao Zhiyuan.Others are fighting for their careers, but he is fighting for love alone, wasting all his time on love, and he is still worrying about a hundred dollars.This sum of money is not easy to raise at present.He was desperate for Gao Zhiyuan.I'm afraid there is no way to go to Li Jianhong, and I don't want to.Let's borrow money from XX Bookstore, he is not easy to ask, and he doesn't have one or a ready-made translation article at hand.I had to watch hope slowly fly away.He understood what a difficult situation he was in.He had worked so hard on such a small matter. He began to regret it.He had a lot of conversations with Gao Zhiyuan with a guilty mood.These words seem to be said to justify himself.Gao Zhiyuan persuaded him a bit, but concluded that he should throw away the woman. He vaguely agreed.But after they turned off the light and went to bed, he heard Gao Zhiyuan snoring, but he was tossing and turning on the bed, unable to close his eyes. He couldn't help thinking about Xiong Zhijun.The woman's face smiled at him in the dark. He decided to stay up for a few nights to translate two articles, in exchange for 80 or 90 yuan for the cost of honeymoon travel.