Chapter 8 game

game In the summer afternoon, go down the stairs from the second floor to the large kitchen opposite.The residents on the upper floor opposite the big yard are not very familiar with each other because the distance is not very close.Among them was a boy who was the same age as me. I remembered that he had dark skin and long eyelashes.My mother forbade me to play with children with long eyelashes. She felt that people with long eyelashes were very squeamish.They are easily irritable and have a bad temper. He saw me downstairs and said, go to my house to play.I said, good.Just follow him.We traversed a maze of corridors and stairs.His home is at the end of the corridor.He was different from the other partners I knew, who were sometimes afraid of messing up the house and being blamed by adults, so they held their heads back.This new partner is very generous. He took out all the toys and spread them on the bed, and we had a great time.Playing and playing, the attention is shifted from the toys to each other's bodies.The two entangled and fought with each other like little beasts.Grab the opponent's arm, hair, shoulder with your hands, and throw the opponent down.Thinking about it now, this gameplay is very close to two kittens fighting each other.So do we, muffled by each other, blustered, ravaged and violent.Eventually he got on my back and twisted my hands behind my back.That's it.

When I got home, I was sweating profusely and my braids were all loose.There are wounds on the neck from nails.My mother asked, and I said I had been jumping the rubber band.I was about five or six years old then. After a day or two, I went to find him alone again.Every time I walked through the big dark and humid kitchen and climbed up the tall wooden stairs, my heart beat extremely violently.Probably I also know that this is something that adults will be blamed for.Our games are too close to each other.But I love this closeness between people that completely undoes the distance.It carries danger and taboo, supporting a clear sense of presence.It is a kind of violence, a kind of subjugation.

After about a week or two, the violent games automatically stop.Start school soon.We both went to elementary school at the age of seven, and I hardly ever went to formal kindergarten.Before the relocation, I would meet him in the yard by chance. He grew taller, his skin was still dark, and his long eyelashes were cloudy and cloudy.When they saw each other, they never said a word. Children who are lively and naughty in appearance, their actions are frequent and predictable, so they lack strength and can be controlled.But children with a dull appearance sometimes catch their parents by surprise.The people around them don't know what's behind the silent and hidden child.Sometimes he himself is not sure where the flames come from.I only know that it will explode suddenly, or it has been planned for a long time, and it will do an extremely concealed thing that goes beyond the routine.That just requires a command from the heart.

I like to associate with people who can make me yearn for, and I am willing to take risks for my curiosity and taboos.That kind of natural adventure and excitement, sometimes, is really scary. Before the age of twenty-seven.The animal element in me plays a big role. If I don't do harm, destroy, and destroy, I don't have a clear sense of self-existence.If you try to analyze your own personality and go back to your childhood, the juxtaposed aspects of your personality may be born in an isolated village surrounded by high mountains, and you are constantly raised between the countryside and the city. There is no single firm value, and there is no follow-through code of conduct.Live around and be raised by different people.There are no stable relationships with people either.

The burdens I place on those around me, weird and weird, are not a problem.The rebellious period, all the things that have been done, resignation, running away from home, and dangerous relationships with people that come and go quickly.This kind of behavior connected with real life is the challenge to life itself.Appear ignorant and fearless.Now it seems that it is very necessary, because in the future people will be able to fear and obey fate.