Chapter 12 Chapter Six

Chapter Six Assuming that I am a person who has lost his memory, starting from that night in the summer of 1974, and trying to recover his memory bit by bit, then what Wang Er saw at that time was a woman with light brown skin, about twenty-three years old, completely naked, Lying on a brown stretched bed.Like an Indian woman, she had two big braids, and her hair was parted in half in the middle.Later, Wang Er often went to her home and found that every time she washed her hair, she must use a comb to carefully part the hair on both sides, and make the hair sewed in the middle of the top of the head, as if to leave a mark to ensure that the hair from here If you split the body with a sharp knife, the left and right sides are exactly the same weight.When combing my hair, I always face a full-length mirror naked, and align the front hairline with the middle of my legs, and the back hairline with the middle of my buttocks.Later, Wang Er approached her under the dim light, and found that her hair was dark brown, her eyebrows were curved upwards, her eyes were slightly yellow, and her pupils were not round, but vertical oval.Her nipples were a bit darker, but she wouldn't allow him to look at them, so she pulled the sheet over her chest.This woman had full lips, high cheekbones, and rather large hands with bare veins on the backs of her hands.She is X Haiying.I think she's pretty much made of copper.For a few minutes before that, the two of them were at the head of the bed and the other at the foot of the bed, each undressed, not saying a word, but she was giggling.When she took off her coat, there was a burst of blue sparks crackling on her body, and when Wang Eryi touched her, he was shocked by electricity.Then they both fucked.He felt no excitement when he touched her, not as strong as the electric shock; but he had a lot of energy during intercourse-or it could be said that he was never tired.But that no longer makes sense.

When Wang Er and X Haiying did that, they felt a jerky feeling in their hearts, as if this was not the first time, but already the thousandth or ten thousandth time.At this time, her underwear was hanging on the head of the bed, which was a pair of bright red knitted briefs.There is only one small north window in this house, which is opened at a high place, and iron bars are installed on the window.The house smelled of damp, dust, and mildew.There are a few small woodworms crawling on the ground.There are several boxes tied with grass ropes on the ground, as if they have just been transported from other places.I also lit a dim yellow electric lamp, about fifteen watts in size, with a red filament in a W shape.

Before Wang Er and X Haiying did that, they sniffed her.She has a slight smell of mutton soup on her.This may be due to eating too many fried pimples.Because the small restaurant in front of the tofu factory is halal.Sheep oil is often used when cooking.But the smell is not bad, because it is a fresh smell, and it is very slight.It was dimly lit that night because there was only one fifteen-watt electric light in the house.She has a slightly fuller chin and a small mole under her right ear. X Haiying always looks silly.What I'm saying has a little weight beyond words.Tall and tall, with her hair sewn in the middle, two big braids, and an old military uniform, she could be a cadre during the revolutionary period, no matter what she thought, whether she wanted to be or not. X Haiying said that she has been dressed like this since she was a child, and she has been a cadre since she was a child.No matter where she goes, people always find her as a cadre.With Wang Er's short stature, messy hair, and black leather clothes, he would definitely not be able to be a cadre.Later, Wang Er really never worked as a cadre.

Assuming that X Haiying is a person who has lost her memory, if she recovers her memory from that summer night in 1974, she will remember an ugly, hairy little man crawling away from her.That moment was like a wedge driven into memory, linking imagination with reality.Later, she often took his handle to look around, and was surprised that there was such a thing in the world-it looked like a long eggplant when it was soft, and it looked like a pestle when it was hard.It is so ugly, it looks like an open eye from the front, and it looks like a newborn mouse from the side.Since she was a child, she never thought of seeing such a thing, so she could only imagine that it grew on the evil devil.Since she was a child, she has never been beaten, nor starved, nor was she called a pig by the teacher.So she thinks these things are very miraculous.She felt that she had just been tortured and raped; that she had endured everything without betraying anyone.But the little man opposite said: There was no torture or rape at all.Nor did he want her to betray anyone.It was like pouring cold water on her head.

The face of this little man was axed, with black hair on the cheekbones under the eyes and fair skin.This man is Wang Er.He took off his clothes, revealing his black hair.This filled X Haiying with surprise.She told Wang Er that his appearance made it easy for her to think of him as bad and herself as good.She told Wang Er that he raped her.He doesn't like to hear it.She said he raped her again, and he said, if you insist, there is nothing wrong with saying that.She later went further, saying he had brutally raped her.He didn't like to hear that.She doesn't like to hear other words besides this, such as the two of us having an adulterous relationship, unmarried cohabitation and so on.What he meant was that if this matter was exposed and the leaders pursued it, everyone would be responsible.This kind of thinking is actually very philistine.

This incident is my story again, and this incident will develop like this, even I can't believe it.Don't I hate her so much that I don't even want to speak?Didn't she ask me about everything between me and the college student named Color, and then say "disgusting" after listening to it?If everything that happened before was true, there can only be one explanation for what I'm seeing: someone orchestrated it all and sent X Haiying to drive me crazy.And when I believed this explanation, I was already crazy.I have a sane human mind, that is to say, I know how to think is crazy.Still, I'm going to think about it.This incident can only be explained by the fact that I was born in a revolutionary period.

Before that, I remember she wanted to hit me, but forgot exactly why. When X Haiying was about to hit me, I grabbed her wrist, slipped under her armpit, twisted her hand behind her back, and pressed her to bow her waist.At this time, I saw that the skin on the back of her neck was red, and her whole body was shaking.When I let her go, she blushed again and jumped towards me with a smile.This fact was beyond my surprise, because I never thought that what was happening in front of me was ridiculous, let alone where it was ridiculous.So then I fended her off and said: Take a break.We sat down and rested for a while, but I still couldn't figure out what was going on, and felt that I had become a rotten piece of wood that could not be carved.Meanwhile, she kept laughing, but not out loud.But she looked like she was crying.

Then she took me to the hut and undressed herself.This move put an end to the doubts in my chest.I thought I knew what we were going to do at last, and I had some experience in it, and I went to help her, but she pushed me away, and said: I'll do it myself; and her tone was a little fierce.This made me step aside and commit two hundred and fifty.When she took off only a pair of red panties, she climbed onto the bed, lay down in a big X shape, closed her eyes, and said, "Come on, villain! Come on, scoundrel!" , like jigsaw text.And I have always been erratic.For a while she seemed to be in pain, so she hummed in her throat.But immediately raised his head again, pretending to be very strong, with his limbs tightly pressed against the brown stretch.All in all, it looked weird.This incident happened in the first few days of May, between a young man who was "helped and taught" and the Communist Youth League secretary.I don't think this is anything new. There are so many Party secretaries of women's leagues in China, and so many young men who have been helped and taught.As a person who has studied probability theory and mathematical statistics, I understand it very well.But as one of the parties involved in the above-mentioned incident, I have no idea why such a thing happened.

2 Another thing that happened that night in the summer of 1974: X Haiying wore a crumpled knit vest, took it off, and quickly stuffed it under the pillow.Wang Er also felt that her skin was a little green because she always wore that old military uniform.As for the fact that she wanted to beat him, she explained it like this: You keep playing stupid with me!But Wang Er can't remember that he ever pretended to be stupid.Things like this take a little bit to remember.Maybe he wasn't pretending to be stupid, but was originally stupid.On her bed, Wang Er always likes to sit cross-legged, half-kneeling, half-sit, put his feet under his buttocks, spread his knees apart, and put his hands on his knees. At this time, the whole person is like a pricked paper flower, or Cracked pine cone - from a base (Wang Er's ass), all kinds of things radiate: his upper body, his folded legs, his pubic hair and penis (they are a black nest) , everything stands firm.At that time, whether it's numbness or acting stupid, it's all over.This is what happens when the lottery is over.When I came home from outside when I was a child, I saw my father pounced on me with angry eyes, and my heart would inevitably stop beating.It would be fine when he was beaten, although it was inevitable to cry numbly a few times, but the main reason was to please him.I won't cry if you hit me, I'm afraid he will be too embarrassed.

A lot of black hairs grew on Wang Er's chest, tightly curled together, like some small balls, so his chest seemed to be covered with black rust.Pull one out and put it in the palm of your hand. It is still a small ball. If you grab the two ends and tear it apart, it will become a crooked thread, and it will retract when you let go.So there seems to be life in each hair.When Wang Er was lying on the bed at night, X Haiying pointed to his chest and asked: Is it okay?When he patted her chest, she put her head on it and put her big braid on Wang Er's stomach.If she brushed the spot with her fingertips, he'd get an erection, ready for intercourse.This thing doesn't seem to belong to Wang Er at all.The little room at her house was stuffy.She had pleasure during intercourse, when she covered her face with her hands and made a noise like blowing her nose, which passed after a while.

But this incident may be like this: when I leaned on X Haiying, her eyes were closed tightly, her teeth were clenched, and her face showed an extremely firm and unyielding look; her limbs were spread apart, but her body turned back again and again. Zhang; suppressed a scream in his throat.The look almost terrified me.So I also made myself into an X shape, pressed her wrists with my hands, and pressed her feet with my feet, as if I was bouncing her. X Haiying's body is cold and smooth, like polished metal.I don't know why this is the case when I'm done. X Haiying and I finished that thing, knelt on the bed and put our chests together, it looked a bit like a fighting cock. X Haiying knelt on the bed, still half a head taller than me.By this time her breasts had piled up between the two of us, and it was hard to tell who had grown them.That thing is a bit like the doornail on the gate of Beijing in the past.These things are normal.But how could something like this happen between the two of us, I still don't understand. When X Haiying and I were lying on the big brown bed in her house, I would often stretch out my right hand and clamp her nipples with my index and middle fingers.I have a lot of black hair on the back of my hand, even on the knuckles, so that from the back it looks like a claw. Seeing this situation, X Haiying straightened his body and remained silent, his face gradually flushed.I'd love to shave all the black hair off my body, but it should start with my hands—it's pointless to remove body hair if my hands aren't.It's easy to shave your left hand with your right hand, but hard to do the other way around.This is because my left hand is stupid.And if one of the two hands has hair and the other doesn't, it's better to keep them both.In fact, there are other ways to remove the hair on the hands.For example, I can use a part of rosin, add a part of paraffin to lower the melting point, and after melting it, stick the hair on the back of my hand to it, wait for it to condense, and then peel off my hand-this is the way slaughterhouses give Pig head plucked.But I don't think it's necessary to make life difficult for myself like this.These things show that my nature is quite gentle.Still, I felt an air of confession as I clamped her nipples.I really want to turn the atmosphere into fact, that is, to ask who sent her to play me.But I held back and didn't do it.Because if I did it, I would be crazy. X Haiying said that I look like a robber, not only because I am ugly and hairy, but also because I often scream strangely.Regardless of day shift or night shift, in or out of the factory or on the street, I would suddenly cry up to the sky; therefore, I have a feeling of whistling in the mountains and forests.In fact, this was a misunderstanding. I was not screaming, but singing, maybe I was singing "Aida", maybe I was singing, or even singing songs that were banned by the leaders.But of course others can't hear the difference. X Haiying fell in love with me because of this, which has nothing to do with the revolutionary period.Ladies and gentlemen throughout the ages have all fallen in love with robbers.There was a deep misunderstanding between the two of us: she liked me to be like a robber, and I didn't like to be like a robber.Because robbers will be punished by others.I feel sorry for my life. In fact, X Haiying didn't say that I was like a bandit, but that I was like a class enemy.But I thought the two words meant the same thing.I broke out in a cold sweat when I first heard her say that.Before that, I thought it was purely accidental that I met Lao Lu, X Haiying and me making troubles, and I never thought that I had come to the opposite side of the revolution.Later X Haiying comforted me and said, it doesn't matter.You are just like a class enemy, not a class enemy.After hearing such words, I always feel a little uncomfortable. If I understand correctly, to become a class enemy is to hit the jackpot in the revolutionary period.I know some examples in this regard. For example, one of our classmates broke a portrait of Chairman Mao in 1966. At that time, he was so frightened that he rolled all over the floor, screaming strangely.He was not shot later, but not too far off.Everyone who has come from the revolutionary period will admit that winning the jackpot was the most exciting thing at that time, an unparalleled excitement. When I was thirteen or fourteen, I used to go to the Summer Palace alone to play.I always go to the deserted back hill, which was in ruins at that time.When I got into the woods, I saw a man and a woman sitting opposite each other, like a pair of dumb geese.Check back in an hour or two, it's still the same pair of dumb geese.I can guarantee that during this period of time, they have not said a word, nor have they moved.I was very dissatisfied with this, so I climbed to the top of the mountain, found some big rocks and rolled them in their direction, and then lurked in place, waiting for them to come up the mountain to settle accounts with me.After waiting for a long time, they did not come.So I went down the mountain again, went to the original place to look, and found that they were not there anymore.They were not far away, still sitting blankly.In Beijing dialect, this kind of situation is called "seeping".Maybe I figured it out back then, that at some point, these two oozing people would start having stupid fucking, and that was something I couldn't stand.After so many years, I still wonder: What can I not stand for people's stupid sex.Perhaps, the sight was so lovely that it was unbearable.And I myself was dumbfounded when I started having sex with X Haiying. During the revolution, all people are "seeping", just like a drop of water falling on the soil, it immediately loses its shape and becomes thousands of soil particles and gaps between particles; fog.If a drop of water can think, water scattered in the soil or flying in the atmosphere certainly cannot.After a period of stupor, they drifted away.To ooze is to wait to win the lottery.All my life I have racked my brains wondering how to get rid of this oozing state.When I felt that there was a little penetration between me and X Haiying, I broke up with her (and the campaign to strengthen social security at that time was also over).What surprised me was that she didn't mean to pester me at all, and just blow it off.This too is purely suspicious. 3 When I was working in a tofu factory, there was a toilet at the entrance of the factory.My indelible impression of it is that it stinks.The four seasons have the smell of the four seasons, and spring is a fresh, vigorous, spicy smell that is overwhelming.Xia Tian is stinky and stinky, it kills the eyes very much, and the feeling of the nose takes second place.In autumn, the smell is suffocated, like solid ice, and the smell is ten miles away with the wind.In winter, the smell is sticky, like paste.The stench is a transparent fluid that permeates the entire factory.In winter, when I recruited myself, it was the time when the smell was serious; when I avoided Lao Lu's pursuit, I faintly felt its resistance.And when I went to X Haiying to receive help and education, it was already a period of new life and full of vigor.Sitting in X Haiying's room at this time and looking out, he could see the stench floating into the sky, like a spoonful of sugar poured into a glass of water.The stench is in the air like syrup in the water.On a windy day, the syrup just billows.Since not everyone can see UV light, I can't guarantee that everyone will see the phenomenon.After a period of wind blowing, the wind is sunny and the sun shines from the roof, casting a layer of golden light on the gray tiled roof. At this time, the stench hides in the corner.If there is no wind for a long time, it will be piled up very high, even with the ridge of the roof.At this time, looking at the sky through the stench, the sky is all yellow.Living in the stench, I gradually forgot about the college students with the last name of color.Not only did I forget the college student whose surname is color, but I also forgot that I was once frustrated.Gradually, like everyone else, I believed that bad smell was our destiny. When I was working on the tower, the stench was under my feet, and I could only faintly smell its presence.Once I got off the tower and was in it, I was immediately dizzy from the smoke, and soon I couldn't smell anything. But you can still see it if you can't smell it. You can see the streamline of the stench stretching in front of the walking person and forming a vortex behind him.People walking in the smell look like musical notes on staff.When a person is enveloped by the stench, his facial features are blurred, and it looks like a wet quilt cover from a distance.And once it becomes a wet quilt cover, it will be silly. There is one more thing to add about the sense of smell.When you walk into a stink, you only get one chance to smell it, and then never again.When you walk out of the stench, you will feel that the air is very fresh and refreshed.So if people can not smell the initial bad smell, only feel the fresh air later, a bad smell can become a perpetual motion machine that produces happiness.You just have to be happy running in and out of a big shityard.It would be even better if you yourself are full of stench, and you will feel fresh air no matter where you go.The air becomes thinner without the smell, and thicker with the smell. When the summer of 1974 came, X Haiying took me to her house.Her family lives in a compound in the west of Beijing, and she wanted me to ride a bicycle, but I have stopped riding a bicycle for a long time, and I always run to and from get off work.In the second year, I went to participate in the Spring Festival Ring Run in Beijing and won the fifth place.So I ran behind her bicycle for more than ten kilometers, and when I arrived at her home in the western suburbs, I didn't even sweat.The gate of that compound was square, like some kind of furniture, and there was a soldier's gate at the gate, and there was still a long way to go after entering.Her family lived in a row of bungalows at the end of the yard.There is a piece of land in front of the door, where sunflowers were planted last year, but nothing was planted this year.There are withered and yellow sunflower stalks standing in the ground, but their heads are gone, and green grass grows under their feet.There was no one in her house, and there was a wooden box tied with straw ropes on the plank bed, and the smell of dust was choking. It seemed that she hadn't gone back for a long time.She opened the door and went in and swept the floor. I stood by and thought to myself: If she asks me to sweep the floor, I will sweep the floor.But she didn't call me.Later, she took off the waste newspapers covering the furniture and cleaned up the waste paper.I thought to myself: If she asks me to help, I will help.But she didn't call me, so I didn't help either.When the room was cleaned up, I thought again: She asked me to sit down, so I sat down.But she didn't tell me to sit down, she sat in the chair and panted.I stood there and looked outside the house, and saw a poplar tree outside the sunflower field, and a magpie nest on the tree.Suddenly she jumped up and gave me a mouthful.Because I was too distracted, I was almost hit by her.Later she slapped me again, but this time she was on guard, and I grabbed her wrist and twisted her behind her back.If I followed the way I fought with people when I was a child, I should press my chin on her shoulder blades behind her, and she would feel terrible pain and fall forward.But I didn't do that, I just let her go.By this time she was flushed and out of breath.After a while, she came to grab my face again.This thing is killing my head.I finally twisted both her hands behind her back and was thinking about tying her up with a rope and then raping her - I thought I had won the jackpot, it was such a thrill. On the day X Haiying took me to her house, the sky was dark yellow, and it was darker at noon than at dusk.I ran behind her wheel on the road covered with loess - at that time, the road was always covered with the soil that fell from the earth truck on the subway construction site. The loess dug out of the ground was pure, soft and waxy. .This kind of soil is also falling in the sky.I thought there was going to be a strong wind blowing sand and rocks, but the sky cleared up after running, and there was no such wind.Wearing greasy overalls, I sang Western opera while running—everything here and there, and I sang whichever line came to mind.Now when I think back to how I was then, I feel that I am really shocking the world.Pedestrians on the road looked at me carefully when they saw me rushing past.But I didn't take those looks to heart.I don't know where X Haiying is going to take me, and I don't know what he is going to take me for.None of this was on my mind.I don't even think about it.Everything in that period can only be understood by the highest intelligence, and I have only the lowest intelligence.I didn't know I was cute.I didn't know I was a cruel devil.All I know is that there is a mystery about to be revealed.And after the mystery was revealed, everything became dull again. 4 In 1967, I saw a man being impaled by a spear in a tree. At that time, he was slowly spinning on the ground, opening and closing his mouth soundlessly, as if about to say something.As for what he wanted to say, I can't think of it.I didn't find out until I thought I hit the jackpot.This sentence is "no escape".At that time, I thought that when and where a person wins the jackpot is a matter of fate.When you miss it, it always feels like you can dodge it.When it falls on your head, you will know that it cannot be avoided.I was at X Haiying's house, holding X Haiying's wrist with both hands, and a murderous aura filled my whole body, the same murderous aura I felt when I beat Zhanba, electrocuted dragonflies, squatted behind the trebuchet and aimed at other people's chests.It has completely taken hold of me, giving me an erection and my hair standing on end.When I had no choice but to get the jackpot, I thought helplessly: This is fate.Then she suddenly said: Don't stay here, let's go to the back room.That said, I haven't hit the jackpot yet.I won another color.This fact is beyond my expectation. Later, when I was in X Haiying's hut, I saw the young red leaves on the poplar branches swaying in the strong wind, and the sky was yellow, just like every time there is a strong wind in Beijing in spring.All of this seems to be true, but I don't think it has to be true.Widescreen movies can do the same. Later, I went to the psychiatric department of Peking University Hospital, and wanted the doctor to see if I was sick.The doctor had a lot of hair growing in his nose and mouth. After picking his nails for a long time with a half-match, he said to me: If you want to issue a sick leave note, try another hospital.We don't use fake slips here.I took that to mean I wasn't sick, but I didn't ask further.I prefer to have doubts in this matter, it is better that way.Until now, there are many things I still don’t understand. I think, this either means that I am very smart or that I am very stupid, and it must be one of the two. After the revolutionary period passed, I went to college, and I was alone at that time, and I got up every morning to run around the campus.I meet a girl every morning.She followed me silently, and I ran ahead without looking back.I thought it wouldn't take me long to get rid of her, but she kept following me.Later she said to me: Wang Er, you are awesome!Candy or not?She is my wife.After a while, she said, let's get married!So they got married.She had been chewing gum the whole night of the wedding, and she hadn't said a word, let alone "you come on, bad guy".Later, she was extremely presumptuous to me, but she never said such a thing.This incident further proved that everything I encountered was purely random, because I was still me, my wife was the secretary of the Communist Youth League, and X Haiying was the secretary of the Communist Youth League.Why does one call me a bad guy, while the other keeps silent? Later, my wife and I went to the United States to study abroad and lived in an attic.We ignored others, and others ignored us, and it went on like this for a long time.Every morning she went to the sidewalk to practice skipping rope and asked me to jump with her.As far as I can see, she's a terrible jumper, two hundred and fifty times a minute.At that time, I was still lean and lean, and my body was very strong, but I couldn't jump so much—my heart couldn't take it.So I doubt she has a heart at all, but a turbo pump.In the middle of the night, I waited for her to fall asleep and got up to listen to it, and it seemed that she had a heart.But the jury is still out on that.This only proves that she has a heart, but not that she doesn't have a turbo pump.My First Valentine has a sweet, savory, creamy smell.That time I sniffed her carefully while she was asleep, but I didn't smell anything. My wife is petite, fair and clean, but her pubic hair and armpit hair are thick, black and shiny, and straight and straight. As far as I know, no one else is like this.She also likes to take chewing gum and give it to others to eat.When the two of us drove out to play in the United States, we camped in Yellowstone Park.She gave the candy to the young man next to her.People said "No, thank you" seven or eight times in a row, but she still begged for nothing.Later, when it was getting dark, the two young men set up a very small tent and got into it. It seemed that they got into a bed, and she yelled: Oh!I see!I didn't inquire about what she knew specifically.Because she is not interested in anything I say, so I am not interested in anything she says. My wife has all kinds of problems, one of the most annoying is hitting me on the head with her fist.If I get sleepy while driving on the freeway, a tap is just as well.But she often reached out and called unnecessarily.When you ask her to explain this kind of behavior, she will say with a smile on her face: I feel itchy when I see you in a daze.She also has a problem, that is, she wants to be bad anytime, anywhere.Walking into the big forest of Yellowstone Park, I opened my arms and shouted: What a beautiful scenery!Let's make a bad one!Walking to the road in the prairie, he shouted again: What a big piece of wheat!Let's make a bad one!I often get the police to knock on the windows in the parking lot on the side of the highway, which is extremely embarrassing.She found it quite amusing afterwards.The two of us drove around in the car during the holidays, and it broke down everywhere.When it was bad, she raised her legs to clamp my waist, chewing gum in her mouth, watching me very intently, and blowing bubbles wildly when she reached orgasm.The sight is not bad at all.But he was still not satisfied with what was in front of him.Everyone alive should have their own story.The story of me and my wife seems to have gone awry. As I said, my wife studied P·E.She also needs to learn some statistics, so she came to me for tutoring.I took out what my teacher said back then to scare her.Just think about it, only one out of ten students like us who study mathematics can learn it. Do people like her with a background in liberal arts still need to learn it?She listened indifferently, then chewed gum, and said only once: keep talking.Then I told her that there is a phenomenon called random, that is, it may be like this, or it may be like that, there is no certainty.She said it was right.Later I found out that she is really a genius in this area.With my teacher's ranking method, if I can rank in the top tenth, she can rank in the top one hundredth.I said it was a random phenomenon that we could exist, and she said it was right.She also said that what thoughts will appear in her mind in the next second is also a random phenomenon.So she didn't worry about what she would think in the future, what would happen to her, and so on.Unexpectedly, such a genius got a C in the exam.I felt that I was not good at counseling, and I felt awkward.But she said: Great, it didn't go down.Let’s celebrate that too – bad for bad.I'm so guilty of not being well tutored, it's almost impossible to get bad. This is how I understand random now—we came to this place in the world without knowing why, and we don’t know why we encountered the things in front of us, all of which are purely accidental.Before I was born, it was completely possible not to be born.Before I meet X Haiying, I don't have to meet X Haiying.Everything about me is rolled like a dice.This is a very profound truth for me, and it took me half my life to realize it, but if I told it to my wife, she simply replied: That's right!In her opinion, she married me by chance, when she could have married any man in the world.She is such a genius.It is such a pity that a genius like this is not learning mathematics, but is teaching people. My wife and I have a good relationship and a harmonious sex life, but this does not mean that I have no doubts about her at all.First of all, her reasons for marrying me are not sufficient; second, her physique is very suspicious.In the end, sometimes she acted like a genius, and sometimes she acted like an idiot; who knows if she is playing dumb with me on purpose.Behind all this, I feel that everything is suspicious.But I can restrain myself from thinking too much about it.