Chapter 32 Thirty-two

After lunch, Mrs. Zhang and Zhou's three sisters-in-law continued their game of cards. Juexin sat by and watched them play two rounds of cards, and then went back to his room to rest.Qin sat in Shuhua's room for a while, when Juemin came to call her, she went out with Juemin. "Do you want to go to the club today?" Juemin asked. The word "she" stands for Liqun Weekly. "I think it's better not to go," Qin replied after thinking about it.She was also afraid that Juemin would not understand what she meant, so she explained: "Mom feels a little unhappy today. I can't find an excuse, so I can't go away." She also encouraged him: "You can go alone .You can represent me anyway.”

"No, I don't want to go either, and I don't have anything important to do today. But there are ten or twenty pages of proofs for the booklet. It doesn't matter if I don't go. Huiru and the others will read it for me," Juemin said in a low voice. They had reached the door of Juemin's room. "Why don't you go again? I can also play with my third and fourth cousins ​​here, and I can talk to my eldest cousin," Qin said softly.She added in a lower voice: "Are you afraid that I will be lonely here alone?" She smiled at him kindly, and said: "It doesn't matter, I can still read books to my third cousin."

Juemin remained silent, as if he was thinking about something.They were already in the room, and suddenly he said to Jean, "I want to talk to you. Let's go for a walk in the garden, shall we?" Qin glanced at Juemin in surprise, and replied with a smile: "Okay." Then she asked him with concern: "Second cousin, what's on your mind?" "No. It's rare for us to be alone these days. I want to walk around and have a casual conversation with you," Juemin replied slightly excitedly, casting his loving eyes on Qin's face. Qin answered his gaze with the same loving eyes.She whispered, "I would like to be alone with you, too."

The two walked along the stone steps into the aisle, and then through the outer gate of the garden. "I was worried about you today, and I was afraid that you would be wronged," Qin said with a smile as she looked at Juemin, remembering what happened today. "I didn't expect you to be so calm," she said with satisfaction. "You don't know how my heart was beating!" "I know, I know it when I see your face." A smile also appeared on Juemin's face. "I'm not afraid. They never dare to touch me. I haven't done anything wrong. But" he put away his smile and thought about it before continuing: "If my aunt also helps them, things will be a bit annoying, I don't want to make you sad."

"Actually, you don't have to always take care of me. As long as your reasons are justified, you should go forward. I don't care. No matter what mother treats you, I only have you in my heart," Qin comforted Juemin tenderly road , she also looked at him with grateful eyes. "I know," Juemin said emotionally.He smiled at her reassuringly.They had already passed the Moon Cave Gate, and Juemin walked slowly on the road on the left.He went on: "But I am more concerned about your affairs. I am not afraid of anything. I am only afraid that I will cause you trouble."

"You will bring me trouble?" Qin smiled kindly: "Nothing. I don't know how I can live without you these few years. Look how happy I am now." At this time they After entering the cave, she moved her body close to Juemin, and Juemin stretched out his left hand to pinch her right hand.She didn't shake off her hand, but called softly: "Second cousin." Juemin agreed and asked in a low voice, "Sister Qin, what do you want to say?" Qin hesitated for a moment before speaking: "I have something that I can't solve. You have already graduated, and I don't have a school in the provincial capital to get into. Why can't we go outside earlier? Stay here , I’m tired of it too. I’ve been a little worried recently. Of course our affairs will be fine, but our method is far from what Mom and Auntie hoped for. Mom doesn’t agree with canceling the old etiquette, and she doesn’t agree with your method. If we continue to live in the provincial capital, I'm afraid that our affairs will encounter obstacles one day. For example, if Mom gets into a fight with you today, what do you tell me to do?" A little bit of worry leaked out of her voice.

They walked out of the cave and walked towards Merlin.Juemin not only did not let go of Qin's hand, but squeezed it even tighter.He looked at her with love, and her troubles pricked his heart, and it caused him anxiety.He understood her words, and he felt the same way himself.But he felt that the most important thing was to encourage her first.He then said: "Sister Qin, there is no need to be afraid. You and I are so determined, what obstacles are we afraid of!..." "But today's incident made me even more..." Qin thought that Juemin didn't understand her words , she woke up again.

"Sister Qin, I understand what you mean, don't be afraid," Juemin interrupted quickly, "I believe that no one can destroy our love." He never answered Qin's question directly, and something happened in his heart. fight. They came out of Merlin and came to the shore of the lake.The pavilion in the middle of the lake and the zigzag stone bridge are drawn across the mirror-like lake.A patch of green wicker on the opposite slope formed the background of the picture, causing a green mist to rise gradually before their eyes.Qin looked at Juemin with a smile, she wanted to show with her eyes that she believed what he said.But there was something new and not new in her eyes, which was still worrying.Juemin is moved by love, pity and compassion.He had already let go of her hand, and now he took it again.His body is also close to Qin.

"Let's go to the pavilion," Qin turned her face quickly, and whispered to Juemin, pointing to the pavilion in the middle of the lake; the pavilion was also covered in a layer of fog, and the green and gray gradually mixed, staining both the bridge and the pavilion. Dark gray, making them recede step by step before their eyes. Juemin nodded, and accompanied her slowly up the winding stone bridge to the pavilion in the middle of the bridge. Juemin pushed open the door, and the two rows of carved lattice windows in the pavilion were all closed, and there was only a little dim light inside.He opened two windows.The light from outside came in at once, but it was already the light of evening that had lost its brilliance.People stood at the windows as if a soft net had covered their faces and touched them pleasantly.The surface of the water is covered with a layer of night, painted with thick and thin shadows.The water is moving slowly. "Second cousin, I think it's better for us to leave the provincial capital early," Qin stood beside Juemin, she tilted her head and whispered in his ear: "Of course I don't want to part with my mother, but if I live like this, I really don't like it." I'm a little worried." "Sister Qin," Juemin called softly.He turned around and stood face to face with Jean.He gazed lovingly at her face, all he could see were her big, bright eyes.He said frankly: "I think so too. I just want to go somewhere else with you. I can't bear the situation in our family. And I can't stand seeing our family going downhill day by day. … …Speaking of our affairs, Mom is also very willing to take you over earlier. Mom and elder brother talked about it with me yesterday. But they think that it is absolutely impossible to do without the old etiquette. In fact, I just need to agree to their conditions. You She has already come to my house to be a daughter-in-law..." Qin didn't make a sound, just looked at him and listened carefully to what he said.A blush gradually appeared on her face.He continued in a resolute voice: "But if you want you to wear a phoenix crown and Xiapei and sit on the flower bridge as a bride, and if you want me to kowtow to many people with golden flowers and red flowers, we can't do it. Even we bow to the old etiquette. At the end of the day, what face do we have to talk about reform, talk about socialism and meet with friends in the society?"

Qin suddenly interrupted in pain and said in a low voice: "The two of us should go to Shanghai earlier, the third cousin and the second cousin are waiting for us there." Her voice was trembling slightly.She felt a dark shadow pressing down on her head. "Sister Qin, don't be sad," Juemin said comfortingly.Passion seized him suddenly.He reached out, squeezed her hands tightly, and pulled them up.He said with a trembling voice: "These days, I only hope to be with you like this, even after a quarter of an hour. At this time, I feel that you are really mine." Jean felt the shadow suddenly be driven away.She was a little shy, but she still confessed to him bravely and tenderly: "Second cousin, I only have you in my heart. I will always be yours. I only hope to be with you forever to do those jobs."

"Then, we are preparing, one day we will leave here," Juemin said suddenly with a smile on his face.He let go of her hand, took a step closer, and leaned sideways. He was about to imprint the following words of encouragement on her forehead: "Sister Qin, have you forgotten what happened the year before last? Even grandpa couldn't hold me back that time .Why should I be afraid of them? I believe we can break down any barrier if we stand our ground." "Yes Luo, yes Luo!" Qin suddenly said happily. "Second cousin, thank you for enlightening me. You are so kind, you are so kind to me." Seeing him approaching him, she let her body snuggle up to his left side.She took his hand and said with love, "Look, the moon is out." They were leaning against the window, with their heads close together, and both pairs of eyes were looking at the scenery on the water.Juemin stretched out his left hand and put his arm around Qin's waist.Jean squeezed his hand slowly.The moon has risen.They couldn't see the moon here, but they saw its brilliance.The rockery, houses, and bushes are quietly hidden on both sides, revealing only thick black shadows.Bits of light are embedded among them like rare stars.There is also a smaller sky curtain at the bottom of the water, on which are also painted vague mountain shadows, tree shadows, and bright stars. "These trees, these rockeries, these houses, we don't know how many times we can see them again," Qin pointed to the sights that her eyes could see, as if she was looking at a picture in a dream, and gently addressed Juemin Say.She turned her eyes to look at him again.She felt great happiness, but it was also mixed with a little melancholy.Juemin hugged her a little tighter and whispered in her ear: "One day we will leave them, we will leave everything here. The two of us will be together forever. We are free to do what we want things. I will try my best to make you happy and make you smile forever.  …” "No, our cause is more important than mine," Jyn interjected, laughing. "You should take care of your career first." "I just want to say that I take care of you first," Juemin insisted deliberately, with the air of a stubborn and naughty lover, but the words were very pleasant whispers.He added, "Aren't you in our cause?" He added, "You've done a lot." He whispered admiringly in her ear, almost kissing her sideburns. "I don't allow you to praise me like this. After a while, people will laugh at me when they hear it," Qin complained affectionately.She paused, smiled at him, and went on: "Actually, it's easy to make me happy. I'm with you, and I feel happy. . . . Over the years, I've seen many people suffer. But you always bring me happiness. Do you remember? You rarely see my sad face." These words vibrated in Juemin's ears like music, and they brought him a strange feeling.He felt that happiness suddenly invaded his whole body, reaching every pore at once. "Why don't you tell me what you gave me?" Juemin whispered this sentence happily. "Something I gave you?" Jyn asked in surprise, looking up at her cousin again. "Courage, comfort, these are what you gave me," Juemin still said admiringly. "If it weren't for you, I would have left the provincial capital like the third brother. I couldn't bear it anymore. Without you, how do you think I can live in this mansion? I know many people hate me, They all hate me, and I hate them too!..." His voice gradually rose, and his irritability and anger sounded like a dissonance in music two or three times suddenly, making Qin look at him with a little surprise. "Second cousin, let's not mention the word 'hate' today, don't mention those things," Qin interrupted him with concern. "Love is more powerful than hate." She smiled at him full of pure love. "I am today because of you. Without you, I might be like my fourth cousin, or I might be like other ladies; without you, I wouldn't know Cunren and Huiru, and neither would I. Join us in our work..." Qin has to list them one by one.But Juemin suddenly laughed softly, interrupted and said: "You seem to come to show credit for me." His mouth was very close to her face, so he mustered up the courage to put his mouth on hers. A kiss was printed on the tender cheek (right cheek). This was the first time he kissed her, although his kiss was only printed on her cheek, she also felt a burst of excitement that she had never felt before, and there was naturally a little bit of shyness in it.Her heart beat faster and her cheeks burned.She didn't (and didn't think about) saying no.But she couldn't say a word, and looked at the water in silence.But her eyes were only a face inspired by love.A black figure sprang out from the lake, swept across the water and flew to the lotus leaves in front of the water pavilion with a sound.The face dissipates, then gathers again. "Sister Qin, you won't be angry with me?" Juemin saw that Qin was silent and was afraid that she would annoy him, so he suppressed his passion and whispered in her ear. Jean turned slowly to look at him.Love was burning in her big eyes.It was such soft, transparent eyes, in this dark pavilion, in front of the brightly shrouded window, her eyes were brighter than ever before, and they conveyed to him a kind of almost selfless joy.Her affectionate voice answered him softly: "Why would I be angry with you? Didn't I already give you my heart?" Her face was very close to his, and her breath had a little fragrance Gently floated up his nose.The half-light and half-dark environment, the same scenery as in the painting, and the surrounding environment with slight sounds in the silence slowly wove a dreamy and emotional net, enveloping the two young people.A young heart is easy to be a prisoner of emotion.Yet even at such times their affection is pure, and love as they know it is nothing but the joining of two hearts to one great ideal.But the big goal was embellished by them, and became something more dreamy and hazy.But what they feel more clearly is that the two hearts are attracted to each other, approaching, touching, and melting.This brings them into a state of ecstasy. "Then you don't blame me for kissing you?" Juemin asked, suppressing the ecstasy in his heart. "I believe in your love. I believe in everything about you. You make me proud. I feel the happiest I've ever been in my generation. What else can I have but to be with you and follow you in your work Hope?" She was inspired by emotion, she was inspired by this dreamy environment, she had nothing to hide Opened her heart to him.Naturally, this was not the first time in two years, but this time Juemin was more happy, he felt her voice was as beautiful as music.He listened intently.She smiled and said again: "I never thought that love is like this, love can change a person so much. I should be grateful to you." "You thank me?" Juemin protested with satisfaction, a happy smile spread across his face. "I should thank you. You have changed me a lot. Where would my courage come from without your love? You are everything to me. I have you before me, and I feel like I am more important than anyone else in the world." Happiness." As he spoke, he slowly raised his hands and put them lightly on her shoulders, looking into hers with his eyes.Her smile captured his heart.He bent his face slightly (he was taller than her), and suddenly his mouth was pressed against hers.They kissed.With her mouth closed, she quickly took a step back.Then she woke up and said: "Second cousin, don't do this, someone will come to see you." Juemin was taken aback, his hands fell down.He looked at the piano in surprise, not knowing what she was thinking. Qin was also looking at him, her right hand lightly pressed her lips, and she said with a little excitement: "I don't blame you. But if I show it to others here, won't it make me confused?" Juemin looked at her in shame, unable to speak.A smile appeared on Jean's face again.She approached him again, and said softly reproachfully: "You are always careful in doing things. Why are you careless again today?" "No one saw it," Juemin said in defense, and his heart calmed down.He understood her mind now. "But it sees it," said Jean, grinning, pointing to the moonlight on the ground, which came in through the closed window on the other side.Juemin laughed out loud.He was about to speak, but Qin preempted him.Qin took his hand and said in a low voice: "Let's go out, it won't be good if we are really seen later!" Juemin agreed with Qin's words, they closed the previously opened window, and walked out hand in hand. "Second cousin, how are you feeling now?" Qin asked Juemin with a smile, and looked at him tenderly. "I feel much more relaxed," Juemin replied with satisfaction. "Then, why don't you go to the club. Didn't you say that you still have 10 or 20 pages of booklet proofs that you should read?" Qin gently reminded Juemin.At this moment, she suddenly saw a mass of red light moving towards this direction in the middle of Merlin.She pointed to the red light and said, "Look, someone is here. I think it must be my third cousin who came to see us." The red light came out of the plum forest and came to the lakeside.Then they saw three black shadows.They can't see faces.But it can be guessed that Shuhua is among the three.Juemin didn't dislike her interrupting them. Instead, he said happily, "Sure enough, it's Third Sister. She's quite courageous. Let's go pick her up." They walked in that direction. Those who came also saw them.Shuhua's voice sounded: "Sister Qin! Second Brother! We're here to find you." Qin and Juemin agreed in unison.Among the three people who came, besides Shuhua, there were also Shuzhen and Cuihuan.Cuihuan held an oval red paper lantern in her hand.They met the three men at the bridgehead. Shuzhen quickly grabbed Qin's hand and complained, "Sister Qin, you didn't call me when you came to the garden." She leaned close to Qin's side. "Second cousin and I came here casually, and you were eating at that time," Qin Han replied with a smile.She asked again with concern: "Fourth cousin, how many bowls of rice did you eat today? Did you eat well?" "I only ate half a bowl of rice, and I don't want to eat it anymore," Shuzhen replied in a low voice. "You eat so little?" Jean asked in surprise. "I only eat half a bowl of rice recently, and I feel uncomfortable after eating too much," Shuzhen replied. "Fourth sister, you have to let go of your heart. It doesn't matter if the fifth aunt scolds you, or she quarrels with the fifth father, or with Miss Xi, these are small things. Don't take them to heart. You have to be careful of yourself body," Juemin interrupted pityingly to persuade Shuzhen. "I know," Shuzhen replied in a low voice with her head buried. "I won't talk anymore! It really pissed me off! Shuhua couldn't help shouting from the side. She asked Qin again: "Sister Qin, do you think it's okay? Let's go and ask my aunt to take my fourth sister to do your sister? " These were completely unexpected words that Shuzhen did not expect.But it stirred her stagnant mood greatly.This is a beautiful hope.She waited eagerly for Jean's answer. Qin felt very sad.She should have laughed at Suhua's strange idea.But this time there was a smile on her face.She deeply regrets that Shuhua's dream cannot become a reality.Shuhua reminded her how much she wished to have a younger sister!She couldn't bear to say a cruel answer all at once.She was silent.She leaned against the bridge railing. "It can't be done," Juemin shook his head and said, "Do you think Fifth Aunt would agree? Auntie wouldn't just run into trouble for nothing." His words were very clear.He knew he was telling the truth, but he didn't heed his hopes of killing two people in one fell swoop. Shuhua pouted and kept silent, as if she was angry with others.Qin felt that Shuzhen's body was shaking, so she bowed her head and called out affectionately: "Fourth cousin." She heard Shuzhen agree in a very low voice, and saw Shuzhen reach out and rub her eyes.Her heart was filled with affection.She could no longer hurt Shuzhen's heart with words, so she could only comfort Shuzhen in a vague way: "Fourth cousin, don't be sad. We will definitely find a way for you. There must be a way." Shuzhen also bowed her face in the Qin's face.When she heard the few words that Qin whispered in her ear, she still felt uncomfortable.After a while, she raised her face and answered quietly: "I know." She held Qin's arm affectionately and begged again: "Sister Qin, you don't want to go back tonight. Do you promise? You Staying here makes me feel better." "I promise you," Jean replied emotionally. "Miss Qin, I still have something to tell you," Cuihuan said happily, still holding the red lantern in her hand. "What's the matter with you?" Qin asked in surprise. "Wait for me," Shuhua was very happy when she heard that Qin was staying, and when she heard Qin ask Cuihuan what's the matter, she rushed to say: "Sister Qin, Cuihuan, Qixia, and Qian'er have long been Say hello to me, someday I invite you to have a 'night snack'. It was originally said to be on the day of the Dragon Boat Festival, but then you went back. I haven't had a chance in the future. You came today, but it's a pity that Qian'er is not well. Cuihuan and Qi Xia intends to invite you tonight and asks me to discuss it with you. If you don’t want to leave, let’s ask Cuihuan to go out first to prepare vegetables.” Qin was about to decline, but Cuihuan continued: "Miss Qin, Miss San has already agreed, I wonder if you are willing to pay me some favors? Of course we girls can't afford good things. But I always knew that Miss Qin thinks highly of us. , that's why I dare to ask Miss Qin to give us a face." Qin burst out laughing.She replied: "Okay, you don't need to say any more. You treat me, why should I not come?" She raised her head inadvertently, her eyes were facing the bright and white full moon.She felt that the dark fog in her heart had completely dissipated.Then she lowered her head and looked at Juemin, and said encouragingly in a low voice: "You should go to the club. I don't know if you are going to do it now? I don't want people to say that you are delaying work." Before Juemin opened his mouth, she She also said: "Look, they want to invite me to 'night snack' again, I won't be lonely here." She lowered her voice even more: "If I don't leave tomorrow, I will also cook some dishes for you to invite you to 'night snack' ’, to celebrate your graduation.” Juemin smiled happily and said in a low voice: "Thank you first. I'll go right away." Then he said loudly to all of them (no more than four people): "You guys just play here for a while, I'll go out first .” He hurried away alone. Shuhua didn't hear what Qin said to Juemin, so they didn't know why he went out first. "Third cousin, you went to see Qian'er today, what's wrong with her?" Qin asked Shuhua. "Who knows? Qian'er is seriously ill. Fourth aunt refuses to ask a better doctor to take her pulse. It's really unreasonable!" Shuhua said angrily, her complexion changed. "Fourth aunt refuses, so it's better to find my eldest cousin," Qin said in a deep voice, and she continued as if talking to herself: "I'll go see her tomorrow." "Okay. Sister Qin, I'll accompany you tomorrow morning," Shuhua said loudly. Qin took a look at Shuhua, nodded and said, "We'll talk about Qian'er's illness tomorrow morning. We can really ask big cousin for help if we have something to do."