Chapter 15 fifteen

Keming and his wife were left in the room.Cuihuan also went outside with the bamboo planks.Mrs. Zhang sat down on the armrest of the sofa, and she gently touched Keming's shoulder with her hand.Seeing that Keming was still leaning on the back of the sofa, she didn't speak for a while, so she gently persuaded: "Third Master, go and lie down for a while." "I don't want to sleep," Keming replied vaguely after a while.He turned to look at her suddenly, and a soft expression began to take over his face that she hadn't seen in years.He stretched out his left hand and squeezed hers tightly.Pleadingly: "Don't go. Just stay here with me for a while."

Mrs. Zhang was a little embarrassed, her face was slightly red, she whispered: "Let go, others will come and see." Keming didn't seem to hear it, and just said his own words: "I want you to stay here with me. I'm very bored." He squeezed Mrs. Zhang's hand and refused to let it go. "I'll just stay here with you, let go of my hand," Zhang said as if she were dealing with a child, most of the previous anxiety disappeared now.She was afraid of him before, but now she feels pity for him. "The fourth child may not be successful in the future. The fifth child should also be disciplined well. I don't think these children will be successful. It's true that one generation is not as good as the next," he said to himself, his thoughts still circling among those things .There was anxiety in his voice.

"Third Master, do you still want to think about these things? The fifth child is not your son, and you will cause trouble if you take too much control. You should be less angry and more restful, which is the right thing to do," Zhang persuaded with concern. "You women don't know. Although Wuwazi is not my son, he is a child of the Gao family. I can't bear to see the Gao family decline," Keming retorted. "You are too enthusiastic. You are not alone in the Gao family. You will be angry if the fifth brother sells the field; you will be angry if the fourth brother sings about Xiaodan outside; if the nephews don't learn well, you will be angry." Be angry. How can you control many of them by yourself, and besides, father is gone, and they secretly refuse to obey you," Mrs. Zhang said earnestly.

Keming shook his head in pain, and said, "It's because father is gone, and you, as an elder brother, have to come out to take care of things." He relaxed her hand, and she quickly retracted it. "Actually, I care about their affairs, and I just want them to learn well. I'm not doing it for myself. I don't understand why they hate me?" He thought for a while, and then said with confidence: "I asked myself that I didn't do anything wrong. This thing. I'm a man of integrity. I've never messed around outside..." Mrs. Zhang gently pushed his arm away, and interrupted: "Third Master, don't talk anymore, can you go to sleep for a while? Or tell the kitchen to serve dinner." She looked at him in surprise, not knowing why he changed today He changed his attitude and said so many things to her.But she was always worried about his health.

"I don't want to sleep, and I don't want to eat," Keming said wearily. "Third Master, what happened to you today?" Mrs. Zhang asked anxiously.Suspecting that he was ill, she stretched out her hand to touch his forehead. His forehead felt a little hot, and she was relieved.She wanted to retract her hand, but this hand was pinched by him again.He took it off and put it in his arms.She silently let him do it.He called softly: "Third wife." She smiled and replied: "Yes." "You have been with me for nineteen years. You should understand me better than others. Do you think I am an upright person? Have I done anything wrong?" Keming kept his eyes on Zhang's face, earnestly Waiting eagerly for Zhang's answer.

"I understand you, I understand you. You are an upright person, and you have done nothing wrong," Zhang said emphatically.She only tried to comfort him, to relieve his pain immediately, and she went to forget that he had done one thing that disappointed her (about their daughter Shuying running away, and he still refused to forgive Shuying). "But why am I the only one who encountered these things? The second daughter sneaked off to Shanghai. The fourth son is so unbelievable. The fifth brother, not to mention, he took a concubine privately before he was in mourning, and sold his ancestral inheritance. Four My brother should understand that he also hangs out with actors outside. I scolded them, but they were disobedient. I think our property will definitely be wiped out by them. None of them is worthy of me, let alone my dead father. It’s the reward for being an upright person in my life. It’s really discouraging to think about it. Fourth child doesn’t learn well, needless to say. I don’t think seventh child will be promising, and now he is disobedient. What hope do I have in this life?” Keming said with half resentment and half frustration.He let go of her hand and took several breaths.

"Third Master, you are not wrong. They are all bad," Mrs. Zhang said sympathetically, looking at her husband's slightly sickly face tenderly, "but your own health is important. It's not worth getting angry about these things. As long as You do things with a clear conscience, and you don’t have to worry about anything else. I think good people will always be rewarded.” The delicate melon-seeded face of this thirty-eight or nine-year-old woman still has many traces of youth.Two watery eyes looked at her husband with much tenderness and concern. "Your body is important," she said, and suddenly remembered something, she blushed first, and then whispered with a smile: "Third Master, why are you angry at Siwazi and Qiwazi? You forgot that you still Yes—" She said this, shut her mouth in embarrassment, and unintentionally lowered her head to look at her growing belly.

A smile suddenly appeared on Keming's face, and he understood what she meant.He seemed to glimpse a faint light in despair.He somehow felt a little warm.He moved and said: "You mean well. I hope to have another son. He may be better than his two elder brothers. After all, you still care about you and you understand me. But you also have to take care of your body. In the past six months, you Also haggard." These words gave Zhang a little warmth and excitement.No, it also evokes a memory far, far away for her.She looked at him with dreamy eyes.She was embarrassed to look more, and immediately looked away.But in this short look, she saw the face of the young handsome man in his haggard face, and she seemed to be in a dream (she hadn't had such a good dream for many years).She said tenderly to Keming: "Third Master, don't you remember that nineteen years ago, when I was in your house for only three months, you read a poem to me, and you also said that the two of us are one person, you You can't leave me, I can't leave you; you said, as long as I am by your side, you will not be discouraged in doing things; you have said a lot of things." She thought of those words, and her face turned red.Gradually she put her hand towards his.

Keming also began to fall into a dream.He slowly replied in a low voice: "I still remember. After that, we gradually separated, and I don't remember how things changed." "That was after I gave birth to my second daughter, and you went to the capital to introduce me, and then you were busy with your business, and gradually ignored me," Zhang said as if dreaming, and in her eyes appeared She has lived a dull and monotonous life for the past ten years.She missed the first few years of her marriage to the Gao family.The life of the next few years bored her again.Her thoughts gradually approached a little girl, and the child grew up quickly.So she saw that beautiful oval face and a pair of watery phoenix eyes.This is not her when she was young, this is her daughter Shuying.But Shuying is not her daughter now, and he does not recognize Shuying as their daughter.He refused to help Shuying, but let the girl live a hard life alone in the vast sea of ​​people in Shanghai.Things about Shuying often torture her heart these days.Now it came to oppress her heart again.She gradually woke up from the dream.She said to Keming with the feelings of that period: "Third Master, I beg you for one thing, and you promise me this one thing."

"What's the matter? Tell me, I'll definitely agree," Keming replied in a dreamy tone. "It's the second daughter," Zhang said bravely. "Although she shouldn't leave, she is very pitiful in Shanghai alone. I still remember how much you liked her when she was just born. We had a very good time in those days." Happy." Tears overflowed in Zhang's eyes. "You're still thinking about the second daughter," Keming said in a deep voice, as if he was still in a good dream of the past.He was about to go on, but Mrs. Wang interrupted him.Mrs. Wang walked into the room and called out loudly: "Master, madam, dinner is ready."

This rude voice broke the dreamscape of the two people.At the same time, they fell back to real life from their married life more than ten years ago.Mrs. Zhang stood up embarrassedly and responded. Mrs. Wang immediately withdrew.Keming stroked his chin and shook his head, saying: "I don't hate the second daughter. I know that Jianyun and the others taught her to be bad. But this is too much. I can't." "But what good is it for you to be angry with her? Do you remember what happened in the past?" Mrs. Zhang burst into tears. Keming thought for a while and replied decisively: "The past is the past. I cannot forgive her behavior this time. I cannot slap myself. In my heart, the second daughter is dead." "Third master, you can't, you can't be so cruel! Why are you so strict with the second daughter?" Zhang argued with a sob, the memories of the past gave her a lot of strength, and she rarely argued with him like this before . A tear or two fell from Keming's dry eyes.He replied bitterly, not harshly: "She is my own daughter, and I cannot forgive her. But you are still her mother, and I do not interfere with your correspondence with her. You can send money to her, or you can send money to her." If she helps, I'll do whatever you want, but if you tell her not to write to me again, I won't read her letters no matter what." As soon as he finished speaking, he let out a choking cough, then bent down and coughed. "Third Master, why did you come here!" Mrs. Zhang complained and said this with pity, while beating his back with tears in her eyes.