Chapter 27 27

After "Young Night" was performed for three days, the host planned to stop for a week and continue the performance.But the official warning came.Huang Cunren, Zhang Huiru and others were very disappointed, so they had to temporarily dismiss the intention of repeating it.Residents in the provincial capital will not have the opportunity to see the reenactment of "Night is Young".But many young people still refer to it from time to time.Shuying is one of them.This play did give her hope, opened up a new horizon for her, put a goal in front of her, and made her know some new people, people with blood, flesh, emotion, and will.They were so numerous, so frank, so pure, that they seemed to belong to two worlds compared with her family.That warm and fulfilling life, and impassioned sacrifice, was several times better than her dying in a cage-like family.She has no doubts now.She has made a plan with her second brother and cousin Qin: she is like a little bird, waiting for the opportunity to come one day, she will break out of the cage and fly away.She had only loathed life in the cage, dreading the impending doom; seeing the majestic vista of the free sky outside the cage only strengthened her resolve.The shadows of these figures flickered before her eyes from time to time.They inspire her.Some books and newspapers she had read in the past two or three months supported her theoretically.Many reasons gathered together, like piles of soil slowly piled up into a hillock.They also had a huge impact on Shuying's mind.

These reasons complement each other in both positive and negative aspects and drive Shuying to approach the "new road". This is her only way out, and she knows it herself.She was almost standing at the intersection now.She is making all kinds of preparations.She wants to walk steadily on that road step by step. She had lately ceased to live in sighs and weeping.She read English with Jian Yun more attentively, and worked hard to learn all kinds of new knowledge with Qin. Qin is very enthusiastic about Shuying's affairs.She often came to Gao's house, and sometimes Shuying also went to Qin's house.When others saw the two of them reading together, they didn't bother them.Shuhua and Shuzhen are often with them.Shuhua was also interested in listening to Qin's lectures on history and geography.The textbooks are newly edited middle school textbooks, and Qin and Juemin bought them from the Commercial Press.Shuhua sometimes asks Qin some questions.But such things don't happen often.Shuhua sat in the room for two or three hours without chatting with anyone, and felt bored, so she wanted to go outside for a walk or find someone to talk to.

So whenever Shuying learns arithmetic with Qin, Shuhua doesn't bother them. As long as Shuzhen is not interfered by her mother, she will never leave Qin.She wasn't interested in the lessons and didn't understand them.But being with Qinqin and Shuying is the girl's only happiness and comfort.She sat beside them quietly, with a gratified smile on her face, and did not make a sound to disturb them.She could sit like this for hours. Juemin also often went to Shuying's room, and sometimes he would answer Shuying's questions instead of Qin.They took over as Shuying's teachers.The classroom is not just Shuying's room.Many places in the garden, as well as Juemin's room, are places where they teach.After the day's homework, they still arranged some entertainment.This is what Shuhua is looking forward to most.

Shuying is very enthusiastic about accepting new knowledge.She is like a beggar who only wants to gobble up the delicacies in front of her without knowing how to restrain herself.On the contrary, Qin and Juemin sometimes see her working too hard and persuade her to rest.She would often answer them with a smile: "I know so little. I should learn more." She sees the new knowledge as the only elixir that can save her, so she clings to it don't relax.When Qin and Juemin saw this situation, they felt pity for her crazy dream, but this also strengthened their determination to help her.

Jianyun still comes to teach English every evening, and Shuhua's grades are not far from usual; Shuying has made rapid progress these days.She used to be always restless, and often couldn't concentrate on those weird pinyin and simple conversations without deep meaning.And that doom hovered over her head forever like an eagle, and its shadow weighed on her, making her understand that all her efforts were futile, and she still fell into the mire.At that time, it was not easy for her to attend classes on time and read perfunctorily.She didn't drop out of school, half of it was because of Jian Yun: on the one hand, she couldn't bear to disappoint Jian Yun's kindness; on the other hand, she didn't want to make him lose his job.Jian Yun didn't know the kind of thoughts she had before.So when he found that Shuying had made amazing progress recently, he praised Shuying pleasantly and expressed his intention to Shuying.

"Actually, I can't say that I have made any progress, but I have been studying more seriously recently. I used to be very annoyed, and there were always things to distract me, and I couldn't think about it. Now I can see a little bit more clearly, so I can also concentrate on studying," Shuying said. Smiling slightly, he replied in a clear voice.Her eyes were bright and there was a quiet expression on her face. "Second Miss is indeed looking much better recently, and she is in good spirits," Jian Yun said gratifiedly, and a look of joy appeared on his face. "That's right, Second Sister seems to be a different person recently. She's been very happy recently, talking and laughing, and no longer has the frowning look she used to. Probably some happy event is coming," Shuhua said Interjected with a smile.

"Bah. Who wants you to talk?" Shuying spat and reproached with a smile, "Sister, when have you ever seen me make a sad face? Unlike you, no matter what's going on, I just know how to laugh and make trouble. , don’t say a serious word.” “Isn’t what I just said serious? Let’s ask Mr. Chen if you used to have a sad face and tears at every turn?” Shuhua argued with a smile. Shuying blushed slightly and remained silent.Jian Yun smiled slightly, and said like a rescue: "Miss San, you ask me, how do I know?" Shuhua chuckled, and said jokingly: "Mr. Chen, you also help her bully me, I don't agree." Jian Yun was too embarrassed to answer, his face turned red immediately, he struggled for a long time before he stammered and said: "Miss San, I didn't bully you, I told the truth." "Mr. Chen, don't you Pay attention to her, she is joking with you," Shuying said to Jian Yun pitifully.But she never understood Jian Yun's mood.Shuhua naturally didn't understand it, she wondered why Jianyun showed such embarrassment.Jian Yun thought that Shuhua had guessed what he was thinking, so he blushed in panic.

"Third sister, you are too naughty. Mr. Chen is our husband, you shouldn't joke with him," Shuying said to Shuhua seriously, but there was still a smile on the corners of her eyes and eyebrows. Before Jianyun answered, Shuhua pretended to be angry and said, "Okay, you two are bullying me, I don't want to listen to what you say, I'm leaving." She picked up the book after she finished speaking, without looking back go out of the room. "Miss San." Jian Yun stood up in fear and called out, he thought that Shuhua was really angry and left. "Mr. Chen, don't pay attention to her, she is pretending," Shuying reminded Jian Yun with a smile.

Jian Yun turned his head to look at Shuying in surprise. He saw Shuying's quiet smile, so he sat down with confidence.But his heart was still beating hard.He and Shuying sat face to face in a room, and he felt that he had the opportunity to say a lot to her, and those words were piled up day by day, and he always wanted to say to her, but he couldn't find what he meant Opportunity".But now when this opportunity came, he felt that he couldn't choose the right words, and he didn't know which sentence to say first. Every look she looked at might be aimless to her, but he felt that her eyes pierced his heart; so all his words became superfluous and clumsy.He hesitated to speak, and fidgeted restlessly. After a while like this, his face gradually turned red.He was a little anxious.He was afraid that she would notice his embarrassment.The more absent-minded he was, the more blushed his face became.He also felt his ears burning.Shuying buried her head and concentrated on reviewing her homework for the day.She read word by word in a low voice, her attitude was very quiet.This gradually made him bold enough to look at her.She kept her head buried in the book happily, and then she realized that he was looking at her, she raised her head and smiled at him slightly, and then lowered her head again.The smile inadvertently gave him encouragement.He quickly seized this opportunity and said: "Second Miss, you have indeed changed recently. I used to worry about you. Now I can rest assured. Is there a turning point in the Chen family's marriage?" Shuying raised her head and looked at the sword again. Yun, she smiled at him gently, and happily replied: "I have an idea now. The second brother and the others can still help." "But the marriage of the Chen family?..." Jian Yun asked worriedly.

"You know my father's temper. Even if the Chen family is a fire pit, he will send me there. Mr. Chen, don't you see the matter of Cousin Hui? If his father can do it, he can do it too. But I don't I will be like Cousin Hui. I will die at most," Shuying said resolutely.There was nothing melancholy or sad about her face. Jian Yun looked at Shuying's youthful face with emotion, and his tears were drawn out by these words.He was not sad at this moment.It was another emotion that came to assail him.He completely forgot his own origin.He has only one desire: he is willing to sacrifice everything for her.He could no longer hide this feeling.He revealed his heart to Shuying with a trembling voice: "Miss Er, your idea is also right. I believe you can succeed. But... I don't know if you still remember that day when I was in the garden What did you say? I said, if one day you need someone to help, there is someone who is willing to sacrifice everything for your sake..." Shuying saw the tears in his eyes and heard such words again, this was beyond her expectation Yes, she couldn't help interrupting and called out in a low voice: "Mr. Chen..." She was very moved, and she wanted to speak to show her gratitude.But Jian Yun didn't let her continue.

"My existence is insignificant. I am not worthy of pity. If I can help you a little and make you suffer less, then I am worth dying. I am also willing. I live in this world without any It means, just like what Juehui often said about wasting life. I can be said to be a living corpse. I also know how to appreciate you for being kind to me, especially the second lady. You think highly of me and treat me as a husband. I should too Find an opportunity to repay, " the more Jian Yun continued, the more he felt the words welling up in his heart like spring water.As he spoke, tears flowed to his mouth, and flowed into his mouth which opened and closed. He just swallowed the tears while he was talking.The tears flowed so much that his eyes were blurred, but his eyes still stayed on Shuying's face through the tears.Then he seemed to see tears in the corners of her eyes too.He was too excited to say any more.He wanted to cry aloud, but he tried his best not to look at her again, so he bent his head slightly, leaned his chest on the table, and covered his eyes with one hand.Tears immediately wet the hand. "Mr. Chen, don't say that," Shuying said with tears of gratitude.Jian Yun's words opened the heart of an unfortunate person to her.Naturally, there was a secret hidden deep in his heart that she hadn't understood yet.But for the first time she saw more clearly the true face of the melancholy young man.When Qin and Juemin mentioned Jianyun, they always showed a little pity. Even Juexin sometimes did the same.They all regard Jian Yun as a sentimental scholar.Now she knew how generous he was. But what could she offer in return for this act of generosity?All she could express was a little gratitude.Of course she appreciated his kindness.Little did she know, however, that she would get from him the help she really needed.It occurred to her that this kind-hearted young man needed help just as much as she did.She cannot do such things.But she was willing to give him a little sympathy and comfort.Two hearts in suffering gradually approach each other.Although there is still a short distance between them, it still cannot prevent Shuying from developing a greater affection for Jianyun.She said to Jian Yun with concern: "Mr. Chen, I don't need your help in my affairs. But I will never forget your kindness. In fact, you are so enthusiastic about teaching me English, you are helping me. Am I still dissatisfied?..." Shuying paused, she felt like she was going to cry.She didn't want to cry in front of Jian Yun at this moment, so she took out her handkerchief and wiped away the tears accumulated in her eyes.Jian Yun was very moved. It was the first time he saw a person weeping towards him with good intentions, and this person was a star in his sky.He secretly prayed that the happy smile would return to her face as soon as possible, but at the same time he couldn't help but think with disappointment: She still doesn't believe me.But he didn't blame her for it, but he only regretted that he had wasted the past time in vain. "Mr. Chen, I'm young, maybe I'm not sensible, I can't speak," Shuying forced a smile, and continued a little quietly, "But I don't know what worries you have in your heart. We rarely see you smiling Yes. My elder brother said that you have no burden on your own, but you are very free. On the contrary, he envied you. But they also said that you are a sad person and don’t have arms. I don’t know if I should ask you. But you always say that you are a small existence What are you sad about? Mr. Chen, you see, even people like me are still foolishly dreaming of flying away. , how can you underestimate yourself? You men are more capable of doing things than us. You are not necessarily worse than others. Why do you waste yourself?"——she spoke with a bit of pity, like a sister scolding a brother of.At the same time her eyes caressed his face tenderly. "Miss Er, you don't know yet," Jian Yun said painfully, "I didn't deliberately underestimate myself. Fate is too tormenting. I'm like a person who stumbled into a mud pit and tried desperately to climb up. However, I can’t get up, as if something is tying my feet. Every time I try hard, the result is always in vain, and some people laugh at me for being restless. Now I don’t even dare to move. My parents died very early , leaving little property, my uncle raised me up and let me stand on my own after graduating from middle school. My uncle has always been very indifferent to me. I have never tasted warmth since I was a child. I live in my uncle's house, and there is no one in his family. One of my cousins ​​works in a county in another state.My aunt suffers from paralysis and stays up all day.Since I was a child, my heart has been filled with loneliness, darkness, and coldness.You will not know how sad that lonely day is.No one cares about me, and no one I care about.I can't even remember the faces of my parents.Second Miss, how do you think I can cheer up and do things?Who am I working hard for?In fact, I had some plans in the past, but as soon as I was ready to implement them, I hit a snag.Now it's too cool.I'm afraid I've got a tuberculosis, and I'm a wretch, so to speak.I still have to live—" Suddenly there were two or three coughs outside, and a familiar footstep passed under the window, and the soles of the shoes squeaked. Jian Yun shut her mouth in shock. Shuying also raised her head Look at the window. But the voice gradually faded away. Shuying whispered to herself: "Father is back," and closed the open book in front of her. Jian Yun immediately swallowed the unfinished words. Seeing that he stopped talking, Shuying smiled bitterly, and said softly: "Mr. Chen, I didn't expect you to have suffered so much. I thought I was already very unfortunate. But the past is still mentioned. What? Your health is indeed not very good, you should take good care of it. Maybe you will meet a good opportunity in the future. I will tell my eldest brother and second brother to help you. Please take it easy. You see, now Even I am not what I used to be." She looked at him pitifully, as if saying: Just listen to me. Jian Yun was very excited.Such eyes and such words completely conquered his heart.He was moved and even called "Second Miss" with reverence, and then said with a sob: "I will never forget what you said. No one has ever said such a thing to me, and no one has ever—" Jian Yun Before he finished talking, he saw Cuihuan running in in a panic, so he stopped talking.Cuihuan carefully urged Shuying in a low voice: "Second Miss, the master is back, you go quickly." Shuying stood up quickly. Regardless of the tears on his face, Jian Yun asked Cuihuan in panic, "What's the matter? You are in such a hurry. "" Nothing.I'm afraid that the master will lose his temper if he doesn't see the second lady when he comes back. The master lost money playing cards today, and he seemed not very happy, "Cuihuan replied with a little anxiety, "Okay, let's go," Shuying said listlessly. She then said to Jianyun: "Mr. Sit down for a while. ""Yes, I'm here waiting for Juemin to come back," Jian Yun leaned forward and replied. "Mr. Chen, you are still so polite," Shuying said with a slight smile.She followed Cuihuan out. Shuying entered Keming's room.Keming was sitting on the sofa with his legs crossed.He holds a hookah in one hand, and holds a paper twister in the other hand, blowing it by his mouth.Shuying walked up to Keming to greet her, and said gently, "Father, you are back." Keming nodded.He blew on the paper twister and smoked a bag of cigarettes, blowing away the ashes, and then reproachfully said: "I have been back for a while, and you only came to see me." Ying lowered her head and argued. "Really, the second daughter has been working very hard recently, and she is still studying English at night," Zhang interrupted as if to save her. "Oh," Keming spit out this voice.He smoked another pipe of cigarettes, then frowned and said seriously: "What's the use of two girls and one girl reading English? She just needs to practice her handwriting better. I don't think she will have to follow Jian Yun to read English in the future." The second daughter is not young anymore. Jian Yun is also very young. The two of them are often together and it is unreasonable. Today, the fourth brother mentioned to me that when the second daughter and the others went to the park, Jian Yun was in it. This kind of If the matter reaches the ears of Chen Ke's family, he will still laugh at me for not having a tutor." "That's not true. Jian Yun is a relative in our family, and he knows the rules and etiquette very well. I can trust the second daughter too. It is very rare for young people to be happy and hardworking. How could the fourth brother have such weird thoughts?" Mrs. Zhang couldn't bear to see Shuying's head drooping and tears in her eyes, so she explained for Shuying. "You always use her like this." Keming glared at Mrs. Zhang, then complained with a straight face. "Will you be responsible for what happens in the future? I don't have the face to negotiate with Chen Ke's family." "Third Master, why are you so unreasonable." Zhang blushed and snapped. "It's a good thing you can say this in front of your daughter. I can take responsibility. What happened to the second daughter, you can ask me." "You can take responsibility? I know you wish I could take the Chen family The marriage is canceled, so you can marry the second daughter to Jian Yun." "I think you are really crazy. You said such things in front of the second daughter." Zhang stood up and pointed to Keming.Shuying suddenly cried "Wow" and ran out of the room.Seeing Shuying walking away, Mrs. Zhang stopped arguing with Keming, so she said angrily, "I won't tell you anymore, let you lose your temper alone." She walked out of the room angrily. Shuying held back her tears and hurried back to her room.Cuihuan was standing in front of the desk, buried her head in printing a box of sandalwood for her, when she heard Shuying's footsteps, she called out in surprise, "Second Miss." Shuying didn't agree, and walked all the way to the bed, He fell down and wept softly. "Second Miss, what's the matter? Why are you crying again?" Cuihuan raised her head to look, was shocked, hurried to the bed, leaned over and asked. "Father doesn't want me to read English and talk nonsense," Shuying replied sobbing. "Master is too unreasonable. He is always so cruel to his daughter, thanks to him being a well-educated person." Cuihuan said angrily. "How does he understand my psychology? How does he care about my happiness?" Shuying said painfully.At this time, her mother, Mrs. Zhang, came into the room. "Second daughter, don't be sad, your father will calm down after a while," Mrs. Zhang advised kindly while sitting on a chair. Shuying didn't answer, but just cried in a low voice. "Second daughter, I think you can just follow your father's words. It doesn't matter if you can read English well. You won't need it when you come to the Chen family to be a daughter-in-law. When I think about it carefully, your father's words also make sense. Instead of studying English, you might as well learn how to cook a few dishes, so that you will easily please your parents-in-law and your aunt and young master in the future," Mrs. Zhang continued gently and preachingly. "I don't follow my father's advice. I want to read English. I'm not likable." Shuying couldn't bear it any longer, so she twisted her body and protested explosively. Mrs. Zhang was not angry when she bumped into a nail by accident.She looked at Shuying in surprise, unable to speak for a while.She felt that Shuying gradually changed.