Chapter 14 14

On Monday afternoon, Juemin returned home from school with a few English books.On the way, he was still worried about Haichen's body, and he wondered what the medical officer Zhu would say when he came to see the doctor this morning.He walked to the door of his mansion, and saw many people surrounded the gate, lit firecrackers were scattered on the ground, Mrs. He leaned against the stone lion on the right, weeping sadly.Huang's mother persuaded her in a low voice beside her.At first he didn't understand what it was all about.But no sooner had he crossed the threshold of the tin box than he caught a glimpse of something.That is death.He has no doubts.He felt a shudder run up his spine, and stepped inside quickly.He saw a slender figure swaying at the second door.He recognized the figure from the back, and unconsciously called out: "Jian Yun!" The figure had disappeared into the second gate, but Juemin's cry called him back.Jian Yun's thin face appeared at the second door.

He waited, looking at Juemin with troubled eyes. "You're just here?" Juemin asked, striding to catch up. Jian Yun nodded gloomyly, and said desolately: "What happened to Haier is really unexpected." Juemin was about to answer when he was suddenly seized by a burst of grief.He felt a little sore in his heart, so he tried to calm himself down.But it was useless, tears poured out uncontrollably.The shadow of a lively and beating child flashed like lightning in front of his eyes.Along with grief he felt anger.However, he had no chance to vent.He could only sigh and said anxiously: "I'm worried about big brother. He can't bear such a blow again. Hai'er is his life." He walked towards the hall.

Jian Yun heard these three sentences, and the word "fate" touched his other thoughts, he said bitterly to himself: "Fate, everything is fate. But fate is against big brother, even Haier is so cute It is really unreasonable." "Natural law? There is no natural law in the first place!" Juemin said angrily.He took a few steps in silence.As soon as he reached the turning door, he suddenly realized: "Brother is perfunctory everywhere, he is perfunctory when he sees people, he has been perfunctory all his life, and he still ends up like this. You still say this is fate?" Juemin turned his head when he said the last sentence Looking at Jian Yun, he seemed to be looking forward to Jian Yun's answer.But Jian Yun didn't make a sound.At this time they walked into the turning door, and unexpectedly found Juexin standing under Juemin's window, leaning against the pillar in front of the steps, thinking about something.

"What's the matter, big brother?" Jian Yun whispered to Juemin with half horror and half sympathy. Juemin gently squeezed Jianyun's arm with his free right hand, telling Jianyun not to make noise.He walked to Juexin's side and called out "Big Brother". Juexin raised his head and saw Juemin and Jianyun in front of him. He did not avoid his tear-stained face, but said briefly and sadly: "Haier is dead." Yes," Jian Yun whispered sympathetically, he suddenly remembered many things about himself. "Brother, let's go inside and sit down, you've been too tired these two days," Juemin restrained his grief and comforted him gently.

"Second brother, this seems to be a dream," Juexin said and couldn't help crying. Juemin and Jianyun comforted Juexin in many ways, which temporarily stopped Juexin's sorrow.Qixia came to invite Juexin and Juemin to have lunch.Juexin originally said not to eat it, but was dragged by Jueminsheng to the upper room.Jian Yun came after dinner, so he went to Juemin's room to sit alone.Qixia also brought him a cup of tea. Jian Yun sat for a while, then picked up a magazine to read.Later, he felt that his eyes were a little tired, so he put down his book and paced around the room a few times, feeling very troubled and unable to calm down.Mrs. He passed by the window, and soon she was crying again in the next room.

The crying disturbed his heart even more.He looked at the window, sighed helplessly, and walked out of the room listlessly. He went down the stone steps and took a few steps in the courtyard, and saw Shuying coming out of the aisle with two books in her hand.He went up to meet them. Shuying walked down the patio and greeted Jianyun with a smile, but her brows were tightly knit together.He also understood that her smile was forced.He wanted to persuade her, but he was always clumsy with words and couldn't find the right words for a while.But he said: "What happened to Hai'er is really unexpected!" Although he expressed sympathy in his words, this sentence caused Shuying even more worries.Her complexion changed, she buried her head slightly, and said in a low voice: "I dare not think about it any further." He saw her sad face, saw her desperate and helpless appearance, and he felt the blood in his body suddenly speed up. cycle up.His body was shaking slightly, and he had a fever.He seemed to have gotten a surge of courage from somewhere.He was about to do a brave thing, or say a bold word.

"Second Miss, why are you always so pessimistic lately?" He finally said in a circle with a trembling voice.That's not what he meant to say. Shuying raised her head to look at him, her face stretched a little, her eyes lit up with hope.She pondered for a moment, then shook her head gently and said, "I'm not pessimistic, and there is no other way. I recently read the newspapers published by my second brother and the others, and I think it makes sense. But I have nothing to do with my own affairs. No Someone help me." She raised her head and looked at the sky, as if looking at a dream scene.

Jian Yun's heart beat even harder, as if the heart was about to jump out of his mouth.He struggled for a long time before he managed to say: "I'd like to help you." He felt his face was burning, so he lowered his head. "Mr. Chen, are you serious?" She asked in surprise, her voice was not high; she turned to look at him with gratitude in her eyes.This should have encouraged Jianyun to say more brave words, but he felt that he was wronged when he caught Shuying's grateful eyes. He was originally a person who was not worthy of her trust.He replied fearfully: "But I know I'm not worthy." "Not worthy? Why do you say that?" Shuying asked suspiciously.She glanced at him again, and the little joy she had just now gradually disappeared.After thinking for a moment, she said in a quiet voice: "At least I should be grateful to you.

You have such a good heart that you take pity on my situation.I know your situation too, you need help too. "Every word of Shuying stirred up waves in Jianyun's heart. His heart seemed to be stirred by a huge force. He gradually lost the power to hold himself. Tears came out of his eyes. He has never I have never heard such tender and caring words. Gratitude and longing overwhelmed him. He said one after another: "I don't matter, I don't matter.I only hope that the second lady will come—" Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Shuhua's voice. Shuhua came out from the upper left room and said loudly: "Mr. Chen, are you going to class now? "Then Juemin also came out.

Jian Yun was slightly taken aback, and stopped talking.He hesitated for a moment, then replied to Shuhua, "Okay." He accompanied Shuying up the stone steps, met Shuhua, and the three of them entered Juemin's room together. Juemin didn't follow them in.He looked at Shuying's back silently, his heart was tormented by sympathy.He is thinking. He walked for a while on the steps alone.Later he saw Juexin dejectedly coming out of the upper left room and turning into the aisle, he thought for a while and then walked towards the aisle. Juemin entered Juexin's room, it was deserted, and the room seemed very spacious.

He couldn't see Juexin, and stood blankly in front of the writing desk for a while, and was about to enter the inner room, when he saw Juexin coming out, holding a box of square characters and a few picture books in his hands.He couldn't help calling out sympathetically: "Brother." Juexin stared at Juemin for a while as if in a daze, and tears fell one by one. He lowered his head and looked at the things in his hands.He felt his eyes were dazzled: Hechen's face kept moving in front of his eyes. He looked again, but there was nothing in front of him.There was nothing but bleakness in the room.He shook his head, and heard Juemin's voice again. "Brother, what are you doing?" Juemin asked in panic when he saw Juexin's dazed look. Juexin seemed to have woken up from a dream. He shook his head and looked around, then suddenly closed his mouth, holding the square box and picture book tightly, crying sadly like a child, and said, "Second brother, I don't believe in Haier. I will die, I really don't believe it." Juemin sighed slightly.He took the square box and picture book from Juexin's hand, but Juexin didn't argue, so he let go.Juemin tried his best to persuade in a quiet voice: "Brother, you should also take care of your own body. After all, Haier is just a child. Besides, people cannot be resurrected after death. It is useless for you to be sad. Your own Your body is important. You have become thinner recently." "You don't know that Hai'er is my life. He is dead, what's the point of my life? I can't go on living like this. I think it's better to die, "Jue Xin struggled angrily, and coughed again, wiping his cheeks and lips with a handkerchief. Juemin watched silently from the side.It hurts him not being able to help his brother.He put the square box and picture books on the desk.His eyes wandered aimlessly around the room, and suddenly stopped on a photo.The full face, the reserved smile, the eyes full of kindness: this is something he is familiar with.But now she was far away from him. This is an irreparable loss, and from this loss he thinks of the current loss.One after another, disasters do not "travel alone" as the saying goes.He didn't know what disasters would come next.Yet he understood that all of this was caused by one man's cowardly actions.He sympathized with what had happened to his brother.But he couldn't help blaming his brother for his weakness.He wanted to say, "You brought this on yourself." But he still couldn't bear to say that to Juexin.He just tried to persuade him casually: "Brother, why did you say such a thing? You are only in your twenties this year, and you are still young, and you can still do something. You can't just give up your responsibilities. Hai My son died, of course it was a great misfortune. Each of us is sad to think about it. We all loved him." He paused and added: "But there are other people in our family, don't we? Is there a person worth your concern? Isn't there anyone who cares about you?..." "You don't know," Juexin interrupted painfully. "Second brother, how do you know what kind of life I live at home! You can reason, but I ask you to put yourself in my place and try. I have never been happy all day. What's the fun of doing this?" His tears gradually stopped.What he felt at this time was not pure sadness, but anger was added to it.He felt injustice: The world is so big, why did all the disasters fall on him alone? "It's all your own fault. You are too weak. You make others and sacrifice yourself everywhere. In the end, what benefits do you get? You should be tougher in this world," Juemin said in a complaining tone. Enlightened said. "What's the use of you saying such things now? It's too embarrassing now!" Juexin said desperately, he had no idea at all. "There's nothing wrong with doing something! It's still too late! Even if you can't save yourself from those losses, you can still save others," Juemin saw that his words had an impact on Juexin's heart, and knew Juexin's situation. When he felt hesitant, he said to Juexin the words of encouragement and questions from above. "Save people? Who can I save?" Juexin asked himself in distress. He didn't understand Juemin's intentions, and thought Juemin was mocking him. "For example, the second sister, can we still give her ideas?" Juemin knew that the opportunity must not be lost, so he said straightforwardly.He looked at Juexin's face with serious eyes, afraid that Juexin would easily push away the responsibility with a sentimental sentence. "Second sister? Why do you want to give her ideas?" Juexin asked in surprise when he heard Juemin mention Shuying, a little confused. Juemin felt strange when he heard this sentence, and thought that Juexin was avoiding it on purpose.He later noticed that the expression on Juexin's face was honest, and knowing that Juexin hadn't thought about Shuying for a while, he said plainly: "It's the Chen family's marriage, have you forgotten it?" This sentence reminded Juexin. new.Things were unfolding in his mind as plainly as day.Not only did he see Shuying's melancholy face, he also saw the faces of the other two women, one was sad and the other was plump, but they all withered before his eyes like flowers.As if the wound had healed and was scratched open again, the dull pain in his heart suddenly broke out.Then one night the words that Cuihuan had said to him in the garden began to ring in his ears again.Now Juemin is saying the same thing again.It seems that many people think that he should help Shuying.He himself never forgot about Shuying.He also cared about her fate.He remembered what he had said to Shuying and Hui: the three of them fell into the same fate.He said they were too young for them to follow in his footsteps.Now they were literally following in his footsteps. Can he just sit back and do nothing?But how could he save them?Hui's wedding date will not be more than next month, and it cannot be changed.Her father was so stubborn, and her mother was so cowardly.He can't do anything in the middle.When he thought of the girl's future, he seemed to see her face with willow eyebrows and phoenix eyes gradually thinning.He knew it wasn't fantasy, it would become reality.He can't stand this.He could not find a way out in the chaos of his thoughts.He said with regret, "What happened to Cousin Hui is irreversible." It seemed that this was a big loss for him. Juemin did not expect that Juexin would suddenly think about Hui, but when he heard the mention of Hui, his indignation increased. Seeing another young man's life being ruined will only arouse his inner anger.His young heart could not let such injustice go by.Although his temperament is different from that of Juehui, the third younger brother who fled to Shanghai, he is also a young man with flesh and blood, and he will take revenge for a blow or a loss.One thing at a time made him strong.He cannot casually compromise with the old forces, and sit back and watch new blunders being made one by one, while secretly weeping.He thought: Even though what happened to Hui is irreversible, Shuying's fate can still be changed.At least he can help Shuying, it's not too late now.So why should he hesitate? So he made up his mind and said: "The second sister's matter can be solved. We should help her, and we can't let her go that way." "Yes, we should help her." Juexin said casually.Afterwards, he suddenly came to his senses and asked, "How can we help? The matter was completely decided by the third father, and it was still very early." At this time, he was no longer deliberately evading, but he really had no idea. Even Juemin couldn't answer the question of "how to help".Although he has made up his mind, he has no clear plan.All he had was a little courage, a little indignation, a little vague notion.He only knows what to do, but he doesn't know how to do it yet.He thought about it, but couldn't think of any solution for a while.He didn't think hard anymore, and simply replied: "It is because it is still early that we can try to save it. As long as we make up our minds, we will always find a way." He also said: "You just need to promise to give the second sister Just help, and we can discuss other matters later." Juexin hesitated for a while, with a troubled expression on his face.He still hasn't been able to give Juemin a definite answer.He is naturally willing to help Shuying, he naturally hopes that her fate can be changed, he naturally hopes that the old forces will be destroyed and new lives will grow.All this is what he wishes.In terms of thought, he felt that he was no weaker than Juemin.But what is the use of wishing alone?How could he make this wish come true in this environment?His third uncle's will was irresistible.Even if he wants to defy, the result will only be failure, it will still be a waste of energy, and it will even cause trouble for himself.He also thought that it is very difficult for things in the world to have satisfactory results.Ruijue, Mei, Hui, Shuying, himself, and many more.It has always been like this, and now I am afraid there is no other way.Human efforts can sometimes save nothing. ——Juexin has many ideas, but there is one thing in common: Shuying's fate cannot be changed.Juemin's claims are completely fanciful.So he couldn't promise Juemin in a muddle. "I think it's better to let go of your idea. Second sister's situation is naturally pitiful. But when you say you're helping, it's just empty talk.How can this kind of thing be done in our house! "This is Juexin's answer. It is like a ladle of cold water suddenly poured on Juemin's enthusiasm. Juemin was stunned at first, but then he became a little annoyed." Why do you still say such things at this time? "He almost yelled at Juexin, but he held back suddenly. He patted Juexin lightly on the shoulder and said in a low voice, "Let's go inside." "Juexin didn't know Juemin's intentions, but he followed him into the inner room. The room looked messy, the canopy bed was empty, there were no curtains or bedding, and the electric light that had just been turned on hung lonely in the middle of the room. The scene was very bleak. Juexin's heart began to ache again. The room gradually fell into silence.Juemin didn't speak, and Juexin didn't make a sound, but swallowed his tears secretly.The voice in the next room rang clearly: It was raining when we got up this moring... It was Shuying's voice.Shuying read carefully word by word, her voice was not high, but very clear.When she read moring, she paused, repeated the word, and then read on: but it did not raining. "Did you hear that?" Juemin touched Juexin's sleeve and asked in a low voice.Juexin nodded silently.He felt very sad, so he walked out of the inner room.Juemin followed him out like a follower. "Look at the second sister who is still studying English so seriously, trying to seek new knowledge and make progress. She is struggling desperately. She wants to live. You have the heart to help others send her to death?" Juemin spit out these words angrily to Juexin's face. Juexin did not give Juemin an answer.He buried his head in pain.