Chapter 90 0090

The door of the room was opened, and a thin figure in a dark black shirt and skirt with shoes covered with filial piety flashed in. The square lamp was still swaying in her hand. She did not approach the bed where Baye Guan was lying, but stepped back. One step, closed the door behind her back, leaned against the back of the door, the square lamp was shaking lightly at her fingertips, she raised her head, staring deeply at the other person's face as if she was looking through something, he was lying on the pillow wrapped in white cloth Injured leg, after a long while, there was infinite resentment, and a voice of infinite sadness burst out from her lips: "It's me, Ba Ye. I am North Xuzhou... the love in the prison... aunt..."

"Ah!" Guan Baye only uttered a long word "ah" before something stuck in his throat, he gritted his teeth and twisted his body to turn on the coal lamp on the table beside the couch. "I... finally found you, Ai Gu." He panted. That's right, she is indeed Aigu, the daughter of the old prison guard Qin Zhen. He was entrusted by Qin's father when he was dying. The person he wanted to look for, from her figure wrapped in black mourning clothes and her pale face full of resentment On the profile, one can still vaguely find the shadow of Aigu back then. ... Her life can be regarded as buried in his own hands, and he once tried to save her fate, but it was in vain, just like those countless tragedies among the masses, unless it was avoided in advance, otherwise, When tragedy has been formed, it becomes a tragic certainty.

He was gasping for breath, the pain making his brow sweat. "Your father has repeatedly told me to find... you," he said. "What's wrong with my father?...Baye." She took half a step forward and said, the square lamp trembled, making the glass of the lampshade shatter. This is not an inquiry, this is a torrential thunderstorm with lightning. The thunderstorm of eager hope and strong family affection rushes towards his head. He is not afraid of red fire, not afraid of blood redder than fire. The forest-like mountain of knives descends into the valley of death, and dares to smile fearlessly at the splashing muzzle of the gun, but he cannot stand the question: he sees the vitality of pain, the hard endurance, the gleaming Zhang hangs between her brows and eyes, she lives for this question.Maybe the sky can answer, and the sky should answer her. Why did she have such a tragic experience? !And Guan Ba ​​couldn't... He silently lowered his head, unable to bear to touch her suddenly dim eyes again.But he couldn't avoid her sobs.

"Tell... me, I beg you... tell me,... my father?... What happened...?" She knelt down, put down the lamp, and covered her face tremblingly, her voice was dripping with blood He asked: "Is it life?...Is it...death?...Just please explain it clearly, don't hide it anymore...I am a miserable person..." He raised his face three times and struggled to get the words out: "He... died... Miss! The illness he suffered from in Liaodong was buried outside the customs. When he was dying, he entrusted me to find you and take care of you. ... You hate me from now on, girl. Father Qin died of illness in a foreign land , you fell into the mouth of wolves, all because of me. You hate me, I feel better."

She suddenly stopped sobbing, lifted her tearful face, and said decisively: "No, I can't hate you at all, Ba Ye. You have seen more tragic things in your eyes, that is fate! The strong and the evil are created fate!" He suddenly felt sparks bursting out of his pupils, and he no longer bowed his head.He never imagined that Aigu could say such words, louder than thunder, brighter than Shine, this is the source of tragedy in the world, she is just a victim in the great tragedy caused by tyranny and violence, her tragic Alive, not down.Her living with grief and humiliation is a kind of display, a kind of resistance. She will stand on the ground like this, and no one will lend a helping hand. ...But she is a kind and weak woman after all, she confided: "I just... feel that life... is too bitter, Baye."

"I...know...know..." He said sadly, "I...know all about what happened to you. What is comforting is that the people who betrayed you—Bian San and Mao Liu—had been rewarded. .The way of heaven is always revealed in the eyes of people. You get up and sit down, girl." "I don't believe in the way of heaven anymore," she stood up and said, "Baye, the way of heaven must be carried out through people. You are...the one who walks the way of heaven, but you are too lonely." "I dare not." Guan Baye said in a hoarse voice, "I'm just learning, trying my best to be a 'human', just like the suffering people, eagerly looking forward to the Northern Expeditionary Army sweeping away the smoky Beiyang as soon as possible.  … I Believe that the true way of heaven will always be followed by someone."

"Don't say that, Ba Ye." She said: "You have done enough. Who are you suffering for? For whom are you running day and night?...Why do you never think about yourself?!... ...Your leg hurt?..." "It doesn't matter." He smiled and gritted his teeth again: "I exchanged this leg for hundreds of guns to save Yanshi. Even if it is disabled, it is enough for the cost." "You were wounded there, coming in a thunderstorm?" "In Yangjiao Town, Judge Zhu Si shot me twice." Guan Baye said, "This made me know him. He is indeed a man who can afford to take it down! It's a pity that he shot his head and smashed his head... Bone. I always focus on saving...people, but in the end, I end up killing...people..."

Ai Gu was silent, after a period of torture, she was able to control her trembling in a gradual calm.The sound of the rain seems to have calmed down a lot. Although the air is very cold, it contains a bit of speechless tenderness. "There is one person, but you can only save her, you can't hurt her anymore!" She finally said: "Grandma Hanying, she coughed up blood in Kaichun... I know her affection for you...she, her ...you know she is a strong person..." Guan Baye shook his head sadly and lonely: "I just... blame me for not being born at the right time, girl, I'm not a puppet, it's just a dream... nothing more, far away and hazy. Maybe I'm just a material to fill in the ditch. Even if I am alive, it is just a floating cloud. How can you tell me?..."

"I hope that day will be peaceful." She said, looking at him meaningfully. "Yes." He murmured, his eyes were full of sparkle and he murmured: "Yes....Taiping..." But Taiping is still far away, and more lives, more corpses, and more blood are needed in exchange for it.In his tear-filled eyes, there is only thunder, only rain, and only the vicious darkness outside the window.A coal lamp depicts two miserable faces, pain is written on it, and hope is also written on it.She was silent with him for a while, then picked up her square lamp.She once looked at his majestic back in the prison, looked at his bloody club wounds, and also secretly fell in love with him, and described him as a hazy dream in the girl's heart.Thunder has been struck, fire has been burned, and now the dream painting only leaves a burst of pain, she is no longer Aigu, the original Aigu has long since died, she is just a body wrapped in black, she is Wanliang's The widow Wan Xiaoniang.The environment and people's words restricted her, making it too much for her to serve decoctions for Guan Baye.But she is determined to serve him personally, in order to repay Aunt Hanying's kindness, and for more lives to be saved, she will not care about the gossip of those people in Wanjialou.

"You... Take care...Baye." She said with tears.The door blocked her flashing shadow, and the square lamp was turned to the outside of the window pane, and she reminded again: "Take care of yourself, I will personally come to make the medicine tomorrow." The flame danced.A rooster crowed in the distance, causing countless roosters to crow. This was the first time when the Jiangfang army attacked Yanshi in the rain for the first time...