Chapter 20 twenty

Baoqing was busy looking for a room for the bride and groom.In Chongqing after the bombing, even if it is a broken tile cellar, there are still people vying to pay a high price.Civil servants can't find a house, so they sleep on their desks. Finding a house is really difficult.He asked people everywhere, accompanied the smiling face, ran around tirelessly, begged, and gave favors, and finally found a house that was bombed to pieces and no one wanted it.The house doesn't get the sun, the walls are full of holes, and the rats are swarming, but it's a house after all.Baoqing begged three workers to come and plug up the hole, and the new couple registered and moved in according to the new method.Dafeng has a house, Baoqing has a luthier, and the bookstore is very profitable.What is not enough?Yes, Baoqing has a new son-in-law.But although he had the upper hand of the Tang family, he didn't taste the sweetness.He threw his lovely, obedient daughter into Xiao Liu's arms, and when he thought about it, he was ashamed.He always felt that he was a head above the Tang family in terms of morality; but this time, the things he did were similar to them.

In terms of art, Qinzhu is very disciplined.Come on time and leave after singing.She doesn't quarrel anymore.Losing Xiao Liu seemed to make her mature.Baoqing saw more than once that there was a look of reproach in her big and moist eyes.Bao Qing felt as if she was saying: "I'm a bitch, I'm a bitch. Don't you just think so! But, your sweet baby is sleeping with a man who is tired of playing with a bitch. Ha ha." Bao Qing was ashamed Feel ashamed. Dafeng became more and more silent.She often came to see her mother and sat down for a while each time.She was more timid than before, dry, with no expression on her face.Seeing her like this, Baoqing felt very sad, knowing that it was his fault.Only he can understand the thoughts expressed on that blank and expressionless face.From his point of view, Dafeng always seemed to be expressing silently: "I am a good boy, I will do whatever you want me to do. Don't worry about whether I am happy or not. I will definitely tell you what I think. Don't say it out. I hide it in my heart, and I will be obedient."

He felt guilty and decided to keep a good watch on Xiulian.She might do something bad behind her family's back.He felt that even she was not as close to him as before, and he cherished this intimacy very much.How can we win her favor and restore the normal relationship between father and daughter?He walked into the city and bought something nice for her.As usual, she accepted the gift, her little face glowing with joy, and she threw it aside when she was done. Sometimes he looked at her with doubts in his heart.Is she still a big girl?She grew up so fast, she changed into an adult in a blink of an eye.The chest is high, the face is thinner, and a fiery expression.He often muttered in his heart.Does she have anything to worry about?Have a lover in private?With what man?Sometimes she was like a woman, becoming unrecognizable; at other times, she was like a little girl with pigtails.She's a troublemaker, and it's frightening.

He thought, he should talk to his wife, begging her to take good care of Xiulian, and enlighten her like a mother.As a father, he couldn't speak some words.After thinking about it again, he hesitated again.Second Mistress will definitely laugh at him.Dafeng is already in a heavy body, and the second mistress knows how to spoil her daughter all day long, and she is eagerly looking forward to a fat boy.If it was really a kid, she wouldn't need to go to the orphanage to hold him.My own grandson is better than some little bastard who doesn't know who it is.No matter how big the second grandma's stomach is, she doesn't have time to go to Gu Xiulian.There are many things to be busy, and there must be someone to drink those wines.

Bao Qing felt that he read it correctly, Xiulian even sang books differently from the past.Now she sings the books about the love between the gifted scholar and the beautiful woman, vividly and beautifully, as if she knows all about those things.But sometimes, uncharacteristically, she sang dryly, like a parrot, without emotion. I remember she sang like this earlier.Why is she so capricious?When the parrot learned its tongue, he must have had a quarrel with his lover. One day, in a teahouse, he met a spectator in a nearby movie theater.This person is so flattering and chattering.He cut straight to the point and asked Baoqing to treat him.Baoqing agreed, and those who watched the seat revealed the news.According to him, Xiulian loves watching movies and often goes to the cinema.The spectators know Fang's family, so they always let her watch rubbish shows.This added to Baoqing's mind.Xiulian always told her mother that when she went to see Dafeng, she actually went to see a movie.He questioned the man cautiously.The spectators were sure she was always alone.That's okay, Bao Qing thought, it's no big deal to tell such a lie.Movie theaters are safe and sound.However, if she can tell such a lie, once she really has other plans, what can't she do?

He half-jokingly said to Xiulian: "I discovered your secret. You go..." "Going to the cinema," she continued, "it's useful for my studies. I know almost all the characters on the screen. I only know Chinese, and foreign languages ​​are written horizontally." She looked tentatively. He went on to say: "In the future, I will learn foreign languages ​​like Teacher Meng. I want to know both Chinese and English." Baoqing didn't answer, and said solemnly: "Xiulian, next time you want to read Movies, don’t go alone. Tell me, I’ll take you with me.”

After a few minutes, Xiulian told her mother that she was going to see Dafeng, and went to the cinema all the way.At her age, movies can have a big impact.Sitting in the dark, watching those exciting love stories on the screen opened her eyes.There are domestic films and American films.Love stories between men and women stimulated her.She began to think that love is the foundation of life, and there is nothing to be ashamed of.A woman is ashamed if she is not loved, but if she gets a husband, she can show off in front of others.She thought to herself, if the film is not right, why would the Chinese and foreign production bosses spend so much money to film these stories?Teacher Meng said that women should fight for the freedom of marriage and love, so what is the difference between it and what is said in American movies?

In the movie, some girls reminded her of Qinzhu.For example, those half-naked girls in American movies, singers in nightclubs, they sit on men's laps, sing and dance, attract men's liking, and kiss in public.The girls looked very happy, some smiled, some laughed, and the man gave them a lot of money.Some people have such a love method, which is not necessarily meaningless.Maybe piano beads aren't so bad?At least, she didn't do that in public.As a result, she has a new understanding of Qinzhu.Qinzhu was having fun, like a Hollywood star, and she... she thought of herself.I am just an insignificant little person, I don't have the courage to have fun, I just dare to sit in the movie theater behind my father's back and watch other people make love.

It turned out that Dafeng also had a reason.She was eager to get married, no surprise.It's so much fun with men.The kissing scenes on the screen are all close-up shots.Seeing what made Xiulian's young body warm, I felt empty and uncomfortable.Dafeng said that she got married at the order of her parents, what a lie!Dafeng must have married for fun, and she was really angry with Dafeng.Qinzhu can at least speak out, but Dafeng keeps secrets.Her little face, which looked so peaceful and kind, was there to enjoy the joy of marriage! Xiulian got home and went back to her room.The movie made her swoon.She intends to be a modern free woman just like in the movie.She took off her clothes, sat on the bed, and stretched her bare thighs.This is modern.A few months ago, even if she was alone, she would not have dared to be so presumptuous.At this moment, she thought it was weird, half leaning half leaning, lying on the bed with one leg stretched out and one leg curled up.Be free and grow up.

She sat up.Grab paper and a brush and write a letter to your imaginary lover.To be modern, you need a boyfriend.What kind of boyfriend is it doesn't matter.She had a lot to say to him.She dipped the brush on the inkstone.Mom doesn't love her, sister is married, and she is alone in her own world.Must find a lover. Who can be her lover?Well, isn't there Mr. Meng?Teacher Meng is a mortal with a brain, who can use beautiful rhetoric and taught her to read and write.She picked up a pen and wrote the words Teacher Meng.No, you can't write like that.Girl, how can you call your lover a teacher?Other titles sound so unpleasant and undignified.She felt that even in the most passionate love scene, Teacher Meng would be very solemn.So here we go. "Mr. Meng... Is there anyone who can love a girl like me? Who would want me, who can make me love?" What else should I write, I have some meaning in my heart, but I can't write it.The words she wrote sounded very weak at first glance.She stared at the paper.All the words that were kept in my heart were written in those two lines.When she looked up, Teacher Meng was standing in front of her.She was sitting with her face looking up at him, her bare thighs stretched out lazily, her sweatshirt couldn't cover her bare shoulders, and she held a piece of paper in her hand, which was the love letter.She blushed all of a sudden and pulled her legs back. "What are you doing, pupil?" Teacher Meng asked.

"Write a letter," she said, dressing quickly. "Great, who are you writing to?" She smiled and hid the paper, "Give it to someone." "Let me see," he stretched out his hand, "maybe there are typos." She lowered her eyes and handed him the letter.She heard him chuckle, and looked up quickly. "Why are you writing to me, Xiulian?" he asked. "Oh, just for fun..." As he read, his eyebrows raised high all of a sudden, "...'a girl like me', what does that mean, Xiulian?" "I was going to ask you," she said.In front of Teacher Meng, she was never shy.She dared to ask him any question. "I wonder if there's anyone who loves a girl in our line of business." He laughed.The thin face suddenly lifted. "Oh, Xiulian," he exclaimed enthusiastically, "you have changed. You have grown physically and mentally. All I can say is that if you are willing to improve and make up your mind to study hard, you will be like other young people." , find a lover who is what you want. You will be happy, as happy as other girls. If you refuse to study hard, you will find a lover, but it will be difficult to be happy because your thinking will not improve. Now you know I have learned some words, but I still have to learn. You should go to school, live and study with the new youth." "I go to school? Where do I go? Dad will definitely not agree." "I'll talk to him. I think I can convince him. He really loves you, just be conservative. I think he will understand that reading is for your own good." After class, Mr. Meng saw Baoqing staying there alone.Baoqing was very happy to see him.Among all his friends, he respects Meng Liang the most.Only he can fill the emptiness left by the dead wimp. Meng Liang spoke bluntly. "Second brother, you have to find a way about Xiulian." He said, "She is already old, and at this age, it is a dangerous time. She doesn't understand. She doesn't have a mother, and she doesn't have any friends. Once Dafeng got married, she didn't even have a companion of a similar age. It's easy to be fooled by others, make bad friends, and learn bad things. It can change quickly." Bao Qing looked at Meng Liang with admiration.How could he guess what he worried about day and night? "Mr. Meng, I was just about to mention this to you. Ever since Dafeng got married, I have been really worried. No matter what, I have to watch Xiulian. But there is nothing I can do. What do you think?" Where to live? I always say, this matter, I only have one more discussion with you. You won’t laugh at me.” Meng Liang stared straight into Baoqing's eyes, and asked slowly and unequivocally. "Aren't you already *蚨ㄖ食猓* never selling her?" "Of course. I hope she can help me for a few more years, and then marry her off to a decent young man." Meng Liang thought it was funny. "You really don't intend to exchange her for money. What you want is to find for her a young man you like and marry her off. Is there anything else you want?" "What happened?" Bao Qing thought it was interesting. "Love - two people have to have feelings!" "Love? What is love? It's just the stereotypes in the movies? With it, young people get married today and blow it up tomorrow. In my opinion, they can do without it." "So, you don't approve of love?" Baoqing hesitated.He didn't want to offend Meng Liang.Meng Liang is from the theater, and his thinking is different from that of rich and upper class people.He decided to listen to Meng Liang first, and then express his opinion. "I know you don't agree with finding a partner by yourself, because you don't understand the relationship between a man and a woman, and you really need love." Meng Liang said, "But you should learn to understand. Don't forget, times have changed, You have to keep up with the situation. Love has nothing to do with you and me, but for the younger generation, it may be more important than food. It is life. Now these young people understand that people need love, and no one can stop them Falling in love. You can’t stop them, and you shouldn’t. You are a father and have the right to marry her off, but what’s the benefit of that?” Meng Liang stopped for a while, and looked at Bao Qing fixedly. . "Well, you were right in making up your mind not to sell her. But it's not enough. Why don't you just go through with it and let her be completely free, educated, and make the most of her freedom. Like young people, they have the opportunity to make progress.” Baoqing was dumbfounded.Meng Liang's tone was reproachful, and he felt wronged.Not selling Xiulian to someone as a concubine is already a revolution among artists.He planned to marry her to a decent young man, which, in his opinion, was already quite remarkable.Not enough?Meng Liang also wanted her to fall in love freely and find someone for herself!In Baoqing's view, free love is nothing more than Qinzhu's routine.If there is another kind, it is that some people do not refer to it as making money like the secret door.Thinking of this, his face turned red. "I know your difficulties," Meng Liang comforted him again, "It's not easy for a person to change his opinion quickly. The force of habit formed over many generations cannot be eliminated all at once." "I'm not old-fashioned," Bao Qing said confidently, "Of course, I'm not a new school either. I'm standing in the middle." Meng Liang nodded. "Let me ask you. My sister-in-law doesn't like this girl, and she doesn't care about her. You have to take care of business affairs, and you can't follow her all the time. What will you do if one day she runs away?" "She's already sneaked off to the movies by herself." "That's right, that's your fault, brother. You're afraid she'll be bad, and you don't like her messing around with other art girls. She has no friends, no social activities, no experience. She has become your kind." A prisoner of old ideas. What to do? She is likely to be very bored and go out to find excitement. Your responsibility is to make her a righteous person, let her know how to live through practical experience. When she has If she becomes a true friend and lives a meaningful life, she won't run away." "Then what should I do?" Baoqing asked. "Send her to school. It doesn't matter what she learns. The main thing is to give her a chance to make some decent friends and learn to behave. She'll grow up." "Haven't you taught her enough?" "Of course it's not enough. Besides, I can't go on teaching anymore. I might leave at any time." Baoqing was confused. "What did you say? Why are you leaving?" "I'm in danger, not safe." "I don't understand. Who will harm you? Who will make things difficult for you?" Bao Qing suddenly forgot about Xiulian.It's hard to let go of such a caring friend. Meng Liang smiled. "I haven't done anything bad, and so far, people haven't done anything to me. But I'm a new faction, and I always oppose the government's way of doing things, and I also oppose the feudal forces of Lao Jiang." "I don't understand. What does it matter if the feudal forces go away with you?" The playwright shook his head, his eyes flickered, thinking that Baoqing's words were quite interesting. "Look, you don't know anything about what happened outside your circle. You are already behind the times. Second brother, the war of resistance against Japan that China is fighting now is not an easy thing The problem is complicated. We now have both foreign wars and civil wars. The conflict between old and new ideas has not been eased because of the war. Although it is now the Republic of China, feudalism still exists. We are now fighting two wars Wars. One started forty years ago; The responsibility is to come up with new ideals, new views, new methods, and new principles. Old and new ideas always conflict. I violated the old system that is collapsing, and this system has not lost its ability to eat people. The government Already paying attention to the theater. Some people have been arrested for being progressive. The authorities don't like progressives. Everything I write is signed. Sooner or later they will nail me. I must not let people put my mouth Seal it. They're either arresting me or killing me." Baoqing put a hand on the poet's shoulder. "Don't worry, Mr. Meng, if I really arrest you, I will try to ask someone to rescue you." Meng Liang laughed out loud. "Good second brother, things are not that simple. Thank you for your kindness, you can't help me. I am willing to go to the end. If I am willing, I can be an official, rich and powerful. I don't Fuck, I don't want their bad money. What I want is the freedom to speak. In some respects, I have the same problem as Xiulian. Both of us are fighting for something that you can't understand. Tell you, Second brother, you'd better stop singing the drum lyrics I wrote for you. In order not to cause trouble for you, I try not to use strong words, but no matter how you say these drum lyrics, they are still progressive and inspiring. It has appeal to the youth. The corrupt forces are already worried about their future. We want to mobilize the people to fight against the war and pay back the debt of blood and tears. What the Chiangs want is to sing praises and obey blindly.” Baoqing shook his head. "I admit, I really don't understand these things." "You don't understand Xiulian either. I understand you and sister-in-law, because I was like you for a while. I have gone through a difficult journey now. We are moving forward together, but you and my sister-in-law are standing still. Maybe I am at the forefront of the times, but you are letting the times lead by the nose. I know Xiulian, but you don't know her. Isn't that obvious, brother? So I said, give her a chance. I'll write you a letter of introduction and ask her to meet the principal of the girls' cram school. As long as you agree, she can go to school and experience life. If you don't agree, she will You have to be a slave for the rest of your life. What to do, you can make up your own mind, I will not force you." Meng Liang picked up his hat. "Remember, brother, remember these words of my parting, and perhaps we shall be parted. If you don't let her be free, she will seek her freedom, and destroy herself. You let her be free, she Of course, it is possible to fall, but that is not your responsibility. Many people sacrificed for new ideals, and she is no exception. I think it is better to sacrifice for new ideals than to sacrifice under the old system." He walked towards the door Side, "I'm leaving, God knows when I will see you again. Good friend, good second brother, goodbye." He disappeared in a blink of an eye, as if the reactionaries were chasing after him.