Chapter 53 break the dream

The sun was shining brightly outside the house, and it was completely white.Although it was almost noon, the weather was still quite cold, but fortunately there was no wind, so it was not too harsh.Among the branches of trees, among the grass and rocks beside the road, and on the tile ridges of houses, crystal clear snow can be seen everywhere.Probably because they were afraid of the cold, all the servants hid in the house. In the huge yard, except for her and Lu Yi, there was no one to be seen.However, those birds who had been trapped in their nests for a whole day clearly couldn't bear the hunger, so they flew out to look for food one after another, and their chirping and chirping resounded in the courtyard.

Based on her usual understanding of Qian Sun'ai, Liu Rushi didn't take this unexpected guest seriously, but she was still vigilant in her heart.Therefore, at this moment, she didn't have the heart to step on the snow to enjoy the scenery. She just wrapped her fur tightly and walked non-stop along the brick path cleaned by the maids, and soon came to the flower hall. Sure enough, Qian Sun'ai was already waiting.It's just that the young master didn't sit on the chair, and he didn't pay attention to Hong Qing who was standing beside him. Instead, he kept his hands behind his back, holding the slender braid hanging behind his head in his palm, and walked back and forth with an uneasy expression.Hearing footsteps coming from the door, he trembled like an electric shock and turned around quickly.

"Mrs. Liu, are you up? My dear, please greet Mrs. Liu!" He said hastily, and at the same time, he was obviously relieved. Liu Rushi glanced at him, nodded, "Well, that's all!" Then, supported by Hong Qing, who was waiting in front of her, she walked straight to the front of Fang Ji, and sat on a chair at the top. Qian Sun'ai did not follow immediately.He stood where he was, with his eyes wide open, looking up and down curiously, as if he wanted to discover something unusual about her. Liu Rushi didn't take it seriously at first, but after a long time, he also felt a little uncomfortable, so he pointed to the chair opposite and said, "Please sit down, young master—what can I do for you?"

"Oh, yes, yes!" Qian Sun'ai replied quickly, took two steps forward quickly, and sat on the chair, but then raised her head again, still staring at her blankly. Liu Ru was a little annoyed.She patted Fang Ji with her hands, and urged impatiently: "Hey, I said, young master, you have been here for a long time, and you are out of your mind, what are you trying to do!" "Oh!" As if awakened suddenly, Qian Sunai stood up in a panic, just opened his mouth, and suddenly found that Hong Qing and Lu Yi were waiting beside him, and quickly stopped. Seeing him hiding his head and showing his tail, Liu Ru could not help but frowned, but still waved his hands and said to the two maids: "Well, you go out first!"

Qian Sun'ai quickly nodded in gratitude, and then stared intently until the backs of Hong Qing and Lu Yi disappeared outside the door, then he got up, stared at Liu Rushi, and whispered eagerly: "Here is the child, why are you here?" I think, I want to implore Mrs. Liu to sever contact with that person!" Liu Rushi's eyelids twitched slightly.Before that, she had estimated that the other party probably came for Zheng Sheng, but when Qian Sun'ai opened his mouth, he directly pointed out the matter and made a sharp request to "sever contact", but it was still beyond her expectations.But because of this, it aroused the arrogance in her heart. "Hmph, that old woman in the main courtyard must be dizzy with age! Since she wants to fight and negotiate the terms, she should pick someone with a higher seniority. Do you think that with such a half-sized youngster going into battle, the old lady will be able to fight?" Will you be obedient and submit?" She thought coldly, then raised her face and asked in feigned surprise:

"Severed contact? Who is that person? What contact is severed? I don't understand!" "Mrs. Liu...doesn't understand?" Qian Sun'ai asked suspiciously, "How could Mrs. Liu...not understand?" "If you don't understand, you don't understand! That person—who is that person? Tell me!" "That's, that's the one whose surname is, surnamed Zheng!" "A person surnamed Zheng? There are many people surnamed Zheng in this world! I know a few on weekdays. But who are you talking about?" Liu Rushi simply refused to admit it at all, which obviously also came as a surprise to Qian Sunai.What's more, he lacks the ability to deal with emergencies.So all of a sudden, his blood-scarred face turned red and white, white and red again, and he stayed there silently.However, after a while, he still raised his eyes and insisted sincerely: "Mrs. Liu, don't say that you don't know. Of course, Mrs. Liu knows. Otherwise, why are not only people in the family, but also people all over the street talking about this?" What's up!"

Liu Rushi sneered: "People all over the street say, so you believe it? I said I don't know, why don't you believe it?" "It's not that I don't believe it, I also wholeheartedly hope that there won't be such a thing! But everyone in the family insists that there is, and, after discussing it, I will come here tonight to catch, catch, and rape. It's best if I don't get caught, but If caught, then, then..." Until Qian Sun'ai said this, Liu Rushi always said something to the other party, and she took the blame. Of course, this was because she was angry, and at the same time, she wanted to stimulate the other party to tell more news.Now when she suddenly heard that the main courtyard was going to do something tonight, she was stunned, and immediately thought of Zheng Sheng who was still lying in bed and hadn't woken up yet.However, after rolling her eyeballs, she returned to her original attitude: "Haha, so they planned to come over to catch the rape! Well, let them catch it! But, since this is the case, why did you still send me here?" I report it?"

"They didn't send the child here, the child stole it by himself." Qian Sunai hurriedly confessed. "You stole it yourself? I don't believe it. I didn't do you any favors. Why are you waiting for me? Besides, am I being scolded by people all over the street? Don't you worry about being implicated by me? Aren't you afraid of being scolded?" "This—I don't care! The child just wants to do this, so he does it. If he doesn't do it, the child will feel uncomfortable! That's it!" Seeing Qian Sunai blushing when he spoke, with a stubborn and willful look, Liu Rushi blinked and didn't speak again.Indeed, over the years, even though everyone in the main courtyard regarded her as a thorn in their side and a thorn in their flesh, only Qian Sun'ai had always been friendly to her.Judging from his sneaky report today and his sincere attitude just now, there seems to be no reason to doubt that he really has good intentions.This made Liu Rushi a little moved, even a little ashamed.However, this feeling was only for a moment, because then she realized that the two options that she had considered countless times were presented before her again—that is, as Qian Sunai advised, immediately put Zheng Sent away, cut off contact.This is not too late.But this is tantamount to going back to the half-dead days of the past, and spending the rest of my life in boredom and loneliness.Either he will continue to maintain his relationship with Zheng Sheng regardless of everything, and try his best to deal with his opponent. Even if it is inevitable that he will die in the end, he will live a vigorous life without wronging himself.But then again, if she was willing to take the former option, she would have done it long ago, and there was no need for Qian Sunai to report.In fact, at least so far, she still decided to stick to the latter.But Qian Sunai couldn't let Qian Sunai know about this, even if he didn't have any malice towards her.So, in order to stabilize the other party, she shook her head pretending to be relaxed and said:

"Aha, so you are really filial to me? But, let me tell you, if there is no such thing, there is no such thing!" As he spoke, he stood up. As if bumping against a thick cold wall, Qian Sun'ai revealed a look of despair and stopped talking.However, just as he lowered his head in frustration, he suddenly became excited again, staggered away from the chair, and fell to his knees on the ground with a "plop". "Mrs. Liu, don't be obsessed anymore!" He said loudly, with a crying voice, "Father is coming back soon. If you don't want to sever contact with that person, what will you do then?"

Liu Rushi had already started walking, but upon hearing this, he stopped in doubt.Suddenly, there was a shock in her heart, and she quickly turned around: "What did you say? Master, he is coming back?" Qian Sun'ai nodded, and said in extreme distress: "Father sent a letter from Beijing two days ago, saying that although he has already been awarded the right hall of the Ministry of Rites, he is too old to be used to Beijing. Living and eating, and also being homesick, I have decided to retire to the old school, and once the court grants permission, I will be sent back to the south!"

"Then, what about the letter?" Liu Rushi asked, feeling that her voice was trembling, and for some reason, her throat became dry and astringent. "Father also asked about Mrs. Liu in the letter. But they said that if something like that happened, there is no need to let Mrs. Liu know about this letter. Today, it was the boy who brought it!" Qian Sun'ai said, wiping away Tears flowed down his cheeks, and he took out the letter from his sleeve tremblingly. The "they" that Qian Sun'ai referred to naturally refers to those people in the main courtyard headed by Mrs. Chen, but Liu Rushi no longer cares about it.She hurriedly took the letter, unfolded it, and looked down. Qian Qianyi's letter is not too long, and the content is basically what Qian Sun'ai said just now, but with a little more detail. For example, his official position as Minister of Rites is only a false title, but he is actually the vice president of compiling "History of Ming Dynasty" ;For example, now that I have my own house, I don’t need to partner with others, and my daily life is considered normal, and so on.In addition, the letter also asked about the situation of everyone in the family, among which Liu Rushi was naturally indispensable.However, when asked about other people, they were all commonplace words, but when asked about Liu Rushi, they said this: These few words may seem too vague to others, and they even wonder why old man Qian pays attention to his concubine, but only pays attention to whether the environment of her new house is beautiful and pleasant?But Liu Rushi understood that the meaning contained in it was extraordinary.Because in May of this year, when the Qing army approached the city of Nanjing and Qian Qianyi and the civil and military officials in the city decided to surrender the city, Liu Rushi was living in the official office.After she heard the news, she felt extremely desperate. She once ran to the pool in front of the Sixia Pavilion in the back garden alone, planning to throw herself into the water and die for the country.It was Qian Qianyi who heard the news and rushed to stop her.At that time, Qian Qianyi once said: Surrender is only a last resort and expedient measure. After passing this hurdle, he will try to contact people with lofty ideals to work for the restoration of the Ming Dynasty.Qian Qianyi was afraid that Liu Rushi would not believe him, so he pointed to the pool of water and swore on the spot: "If you change your mind and break your promise, it will be like this water!" Therefore, what he wrote in the letter now clearly hinted to Liu Rushi that he was ready to keep the previous agreement.Then the reason why he decided to resign and return to the south, it seems that it is not because he is old and sick, not used to the daily life and diet in Beijing, but has a bigger conspiracy... It is this discovery that makes Liu Rushi seem to be in a daze In a drunken dream, as if hearing a distant and loud bell, I was involuntarily stunned.For a moment, she held the letter tightly in her hand, forgot about the situation in front of her, Qian Sun'ai, and even Zheng Sheng. She just felt a long-lost memory come to her heart again.This memory made her tremble, made her suffer, and made her heart throb... However, as if a back current dispelled the newly gathered duckweed, a drunken voice emerged from the bottom of Liu Rushi's heart again, and began to murmur to her about the shortness of youth and the joy of loveliness, reminding her It was too late, after doing that, she could never be forgiven, especially Qian Qianyi's forgiveness!At this point, she has no hope, only to seize the last day and enjoy it crazily, and then jump into the dark, eternal abyss... "Mrs. Liu..." Qian Sun'ai's voice rang in her ears. Liu Rushi shuddered, and when she came back to her senses, she found that the boy had stood up again and was looking at her in surprise.She raised a hand to signal the other party not to disturb her thinking, then turned around, walked back to her chair, and sat down slowly.