Chapter 13 Chapter Thirteen

Xiaotong's coffin was transported back to Nanjing by water, Shijun came back with the boat, and Mrs. Shen and his concubine went back by train respectively.After the death of her husband, Mrs. Shen's mood has developed a lot.She was very used to living as a widow. In the past, she was a widow because her husband was taken over by others, so she always had such a breath in her heart. in his arms.It is concluded that no one can take him away now.This made her feel very stable and comfortable. Because the place in the family is small, the coffin is stored in the temple, and funerals are carried out as usual. After being busy with these, I am busy with the separation of the family.It was the concubine's request to separate the family. The concubine's family has many children, and the education expenses in her budget are huge. And her mother, she said that Xiaotong had promised to provide for her mother until the end of her life.Although everyone knows that the private savings she has accumulated over the years must be considerable, and when Xiao Tong moved out of the small mansion due to illness, there were still many important things that she did not bring out, but there is no proof of this.Shijun has always held the idea of ​​calming things down and persuading her mother to suffer a little loss, but women are always small-minded, and his sister-in-law is also involved in it.Their separation this time is for the concubine. His sister-in-law will still live with her mother-in-law in the future, but they will always be separated in the future.His sister-in-law felt that she had to think for Xiaojian, not for herself.There were many complaints behind her, blaming Shijun for being too weak, saying that he had a young master's temper, not knowing the difficulties of farming, and suspecting that when he lived in the small mansion, he was praised very much by his concubine. she.In fact, Shijun did his best inside.After a long delay, the matter was finally settled.

After his father's death, when the hundred days expired, Shijun went to his relatives' homes to "thank you" as usual, visiting from house to house, including Shi Cuizhi's house.Cuizhi's home is an old-fashioned five-bay house that is half central and half west. The garden in front is also half middle and half west. There is a wide lawn, but a rockery is piled up in the middle of the lawn. goldfish.Shijun's visit this time was on a summer evening, the sun was setting, but the cicadas on the trees hadn't stopped, and Cuizhi was walking her dog in the garden.She was leading the dog, but the dog was actually leading the man, pulling a leash straight and pulling her away.Shijun nodded to her, and she called the dog's English name: "Lai Li! Lai Li!" Finally, the dog stopped.Shijun smiled and said: "Is this dog not young? I remember you had such a black dog in the past." Cuizhi said: "You are talking about its grandmother. This one is just the same as the one in your family. nest." Shijun said, "Call it Laili?" Cuizhi said, "Mom originally called it Laifu, but I thought it was ugly." Shijun smiled and said, "Auntie is at home?" Cuizhi said, "Go out to play cards. "

Cuizhi also came when they were hanging out, but Shijun was a filial son at that time, and he was always in the filial curtain, and didn't talk to her, so when they met this time, she couldn't help asking him about his father's life before his death. situation.When she heard that Shijun had been in the hospital, she asked, "Then did you stay at Shuhui's house this time? Did you see him?" Shijun said, "He has been to the hospital twice." Cuizhi No more words.She had originally thought that Shuhui might not be in Shanghai anymore. She had written him a letter mentioning her and Yipeng's dissolution of engagement, but he never replied.He has always avoided getting close to her, and she also guessed that it was because her family was rich, and he himself felt that he could not get close to her, so she always thought that she should take the initiative.But this time she wrote to him and he didn't reply, and she regretted it again, not because her behavior was too low-grade, because she never thought about it to him.She repented not for anything else, but because she was afraid that people would think she was too explicit, and even if he had intended for her, he would instinctively feel disgusted.So she has always been depressed.

She smiled again and said to Shijun: "You often see Miss Gu in Shanghai, right? How is she?" Shijun said, "I didn't see her this time." Cuizhi smiled and said, "She and Shuhui are on good terms, right? When Shijun heard her words, he felt a little surprised at first, but immediately realized that she must have heard it from his sister-in-law. When Manzhen and Shuhui came to Nanjing to play, didn't he tell his family that Manzhen He is Shuhui's friend, lest they look at Manzhen with a special perspective.Thinking of the scene at that time now, it seems that it has been many years, and it is very vague.He forced a smile and said: "She and Shuhui are also ordinary friends." Cui Zhi said: "I really envy people like her, how nice it is to work outside." , working hard all day, there are still people who envy her.But that is also a thing of the past. Now that she is the wife of the director of the hospital, her life is of course more stable.

Cuizhi said again: "I also really want to find something to do in Shanghai." Shijun smiled and said, "What do you want to do?" Cuizhi smiled and said, "Why, do you think I can't do it?" "No, aren't you studying in university now?" Cuizhi said: "It's just that if you don't graduate from university. Even if I say I want to go out to work after graduation, my family will still object." Then, she took a long breath.She seemed to have a stomach full of complaints that she couldn't talk about.Shijun couldn't help looking at her face.She has lost weight recently.Shijun felt that since she got engaged and then broke the contract, she seemed to be a little different from before, at least she was much calmer than before.

The two followed the dog, walking slowly on the lawn.Cuizhi suddenly said, "He's so lively." Shijun said, "You mean to be beneficial?" Cuizhi paused for a moment, then said, "No, I'm talking about Shuhui." Shijun said, "Yes." Yes, he is so lively, if I go to talk to him when I am not happy, I will really feel better." He thought to himself, after all, there is nothing to talk about with Cuizhi, and when we talk about it, we talk about it again. Shuhui came over. Cuizhi asked him to sit in for a while, and he said he had two other families to visit, so he said goodbye and left.He hadn't been to a relative's house these days, and it had been a hundred days by now, so there were no such taboos, and gradually there were many inevitable social gatherings.Once upon a time, his sister-in-law ran into trouble as a matchmaker for him and Cuizhi, and his sister-in-law felt very sorry for her cousin, "the shoes look bad if they don't make them well."Of course it was not mentioned afterwards, and of course Cuizhi's mother was even more secretive about it, so their relatives didn't know much about it.When Amy talked about this incident, she always blamed Shijun's shyness and Cuizhi's stubborn temper, otherwise they would be a good couple.Cuizhi once got engaged and then regretted the marriage, but now she has become a problem person again.Shijun may be supercilious, he feels that when people invite guests, there will always be him and her.Cuizhi felt the same way.She often goes to play tennis with Amy, and Amy often asks Shijun to play tennis.There Shijun met a Miss Ding who played tennis very well. She went to university in Shanghai, and she and Shijun were classmates.When Shijun went home, he mentioned her a few times during his conversation, so his mother went to Amy's with an excuse, and secretly took a look at Miss Nading.When Shijun's father was dying, he said that his only regret was that he didn't see Shijun get married.Her mother didn't dare to accept this fault at the time, because she thought that if Shijun got married, she must be married to Manzhen.But now, after a long time, Mrs. Shen thinks that the crisis is over, so she often brings up his father's last words and keeps talking about them.

Almost all the young people I knew were married, and it seemed that there were a lot of people who got married that year. Since autumn, they have been eating wedding wine one after another.The most exciting thing here is Cuizhi's mother. Originally, Cuizhi was not too old, so her mother didn't need to be so anxious, but recently Cuizhi wanted to escape without permission and left a letter saying that She was going to Shanghai to find a job, but fortunately, the family found out early and intercepted her at the train station. Although she didn't see anyone with her at the train station, her mother still believed that she must be seduced by someone, so since she went out After this incident, her mother was even more anxious to marry her off, thinking that there would be trouble sooner or later if she stayed at home.

Recently, someone was a matchmaker for her, saying that a Qin family was the young master of a local rich man, and someone said that he had hobbies.The introducer invited guests, but Cuizhi refused to go no matter what, and hid early in the morning without thinking of where to go.She felt that only her cousin could understand her current situation, so she wanted to go to her cousin and cry about it.The young lady of the Shen family and Cuizhi have always been close friends. Even when Cuizhi and Yipeng terminated the contract, one was her cousin and the other was her own brother, she didn't favor anyone, because in her simple mind Well, everyone in her natal family is good, of course her brother is a first-class good person, and her cousin can't be wrong either, there must be outsiders causing trouble in this matter.Yipeng married Dou Wenxian immediately after the contract was terminated, so it must be that Dou Wenxian was not good enough to deliberately destroy their relationship and snatch Yipeng away.Therefore, she felt rather sympathetic towards Cuizhi.

On this day Cuizhi came to Shen's house to complain to her cousin, but she never thought that the eldest grandma, who never goes out, happened to go out, because her father-in-law was dead in the temple, and her mother-in-law remembered that she hadn't visited for a long time, so she went I bought joss stick paper money and went to kowtow, took Xiaojian with me, and left Shijun alone at home. When he saw Cuizhi, he smiled and said, "Oh, your family knew you were going to come here? They called just now to ask Yes, I told them I’m not here.” Cui Zhi knew her mother must be in a hurry, and she was looking for her everywhere.She sat down on her own, and asked: "Cousin has gone out?" Shijun said: "I went to the temple with my mother." Cuizhi said: "Oh, auntie is not at home?" She saw someone on the table I just flipped through the book, Shijun saw that she seemed to be ready to sit for a while, so he said with a smile: "Should I call back and tell your family that you are here?" Cuizhi suddenly raised her head and said "What are you doing?" Shijun was stunned for a moment, and said with a smile, "No, I was thinking that my aunt might be looking for you for something." She lowered her head to read the book again, and said, "She won't have anything."

Hearing her tone, Shijun understood a little bit, she must have ran out in anger with her mother.Cuizhi has always been very unhappy, he has seen it for a long time, but because he is also very sad in his heart, and he absolutely doesn't want people to ask him the reason for his sadness, so he puts himself in the other's shoes, and he doesn't want to know why others are sad.It's okay to say that it's sympathy, he feels that when he is with her, he is much more comfortable than with others, at least he doesn't need to force himself to smile like that.The dog that Cuizhi sent them timidly came forward and wagged its tail, Cuizhi put down the book to scratch it, Shijun accosted and laughed, "It's too pitiful for this dog to end up in our house. There is no garden, and no one takes it out for a walk." Cuizhi didn't hear what he said either.Shijun suddenly saw her eyes filled with tears, and he fell silent.It was Cuizhi who broke the silence and asked, "Did you play tennis these two days?" Shijun smiled and said, "No. Are you going today? Let's go together?" Cuizhi said, "I'm calling." There's no progress in fighting." Her voice was very calm, exactly as usual, but as she spoke, tears fell down, and she turned away from her face and impatiently wiped it, but she could never wipe it away. Dry.Shijun smiled and called out: "Cuizhi." Then said: "What's wrong with you?" She refused.He stayed there for a while, then came and sat beside her, wrapping his arms around her shoulders.

The new autumn wind blew in through the window, and the book on the table was flipping page by page, making a crackling sound, the sound was very crisp and lovely. Cuizhi finally broke free from his arm.Then she said in a low voice as if explaining: "I will be seen later." Then, if there is no danger of being seen, then it is fine.Shijun couldn't help looking at her and smiling slightly, Cuizhi immediately blushed, stood up and left, saying, "I'm leaving." Shijun smiled and said, "Go home?" Cuizhi said loudly, "Who said that?" I’m not going back?” Shijun smiled and said, “Then where are you going?” Cuizhi smiled and said, “Then leave it alone!” Shijun said with a smile, “Go play tennis, okay?” Cuizhi At first they were noncommittal, and then they went together. The next day he went to her house to pick her up again, planning to play tennis together, but he didn't go, so he just sat and talked at her house and went back after dinner.Her mother was very affectionate with him, and became affectionate with Cuizhi.After that, Shijun often went to their house every three or two days.Mrs. Shen and the eldest young mistress were very happy when they found out, but they didn't dare to show it too much. I'm afraid that if everyone coaxes him together, he will retreat again.Although everyone didn't say anything on the surface, it would create a peaceful atmosphere. Whether Shijun was in his own home or went to Cuizhi's place, he was always surrounded by this peaceful atmosphere. For Cuizhi's birthday, Shijun gave her a diamond brooch. The diamond was originally there in his house. It was a pair of earrings from her mother. It's only a platinum tube, the style is very simple and generous.Cuizhi pinned it on her collar on the spot, and Shijun stood behind her and watched her pin it to the mirror, and she asked him, "How do you know when my birthday is?" Shijun smiled and said, "My sister-in-law told me Mine." Cuizhi smiled and said, "Did you ask her or did she tell you?" Shijun lied and said, "I asked her." He looked at her in the mirror. She lightly smeared some rouge on her forehead, still had very long bangs on her forehead, her curly hair was tied up with a velvet belt, and she was wearing a short-sleeved jacket of dark red corduroy.Shijun stroked her arms with both hands, and said with a smile, "Why are you so thin? Look at how thin your arms are!" Cuizhi just looked up, and buckled her pins with great effort, saying, "I'm probably Yan Xia, after a summer, you will always be thinner." Shi Jun stroked her arm, perhaps tentatively, then leaned up from behind and kissed her cheek.Her powder is very fragrant.Cuizhi struggled and said: "Don't be like that—what's the point—you've been seen—" Shijun said, "You'll see it when you see it. It doesn't matter now." Why it doesn't matter even if people see it now, he didn't say I understand, and Cuizhi didn't necessarily ask him to speak out.She just turned around and looked at him with a shy smile.The two of them had agreed on it. Shi Jun usually reads novels, and always feels that the characters in the novels are always very troublesome regardless of whether they are married or married. In fact, getting married is really nothing more convenient. Because Shijun's father had just passed away not long ago, they couldn't be too extravagant, so they didn't plan to do anything about their engagement.Planning to get married in October.When he and Cuizhi are alone, they often like to talk about the future after marriage. Cuizhi always hopes to go to Shanghai one day to organize a small family, what kind of house to live in, what kind of furniture to buy, and what color to paint the walls. , everything is very specific.Unlike being with Manzhen in the past, thinking of living together in the future, I just feel blissful. In short, I just want to be very happy, but I can't imagine what kind of situation it will be. Before getting married, Shijun planned to go to Shanghai. He said to Cuizhi, "I'm also going to visit Shuhui, and ask him to be the best man. He can also help with many other things. Don't look at him laughing like that, he can really do things, I really admire him." Cuizhi didn't say anything at first, and after a while, she suddenly said angrily: "I don't understand why, when you mention uncle Hui always says he is good, as if you are inferior to him in everything, but in fact you are much better than him, you are ten thousand times better than him." She hugged him and buried her face on his shoulder.Shijun had never seen such a warm expression from her, so he was a little flattered.At the same time he felt ashamed, because she had such an innocent enthusiasm for him, and he was afraid that he was still a little unsure in his heart until now.It was for this reason that he was anxious to have a face-to-face talk with Shu Hui and discuss it with him. When he came to Shanghai, he knew that Shu Hui would not come home until Sunday, so he went directly to their dormitory in Yangshupu to look for him.Shuhui had already left work, and Shijun noticed that he was wearing a gray woolen vest. It was the same two vests that Manzhen had made before and distributed to the two of them. Shijun hadn't worn that one for a long time, but he couldn't stop it. others wear. The two were walking in the countryside, and Shuhui said, "It's a coincidence that you came here. I just wanted to say a few words to you, which cannot be written in a letter." Shijun smiled and said, "What is so mysterious?" Shuhui smiled With a smile, he said, "I'm leaving Shanghai next month." Shijun said, "Where are we going?" But Shuhui didn't answer right away, looking around for no one, he said in a low voice, "I've always been arresting people." It was very powerful. A colleague in our factory was also arrested. This man shared a room with me in the dormitory. He was very nice. I always borrowed books from him and liked to have long talks with him, so I told him Since we got to know each other, I feel—there has been a big change in thinking.” Hearing this, Shijun understood a little bit, and said in a low voice, “Are you going to the northwest?” At that time, the Red Army was going north. The anti-Japanese war has already reached northern Shaanxi.Immediately, Shuhui nodded.Shijun paused, then whispered again: "Are you in danger here?" Shu Hui shook his head and smiled, "They didn't notice me. I'm not a Communist Party, I don't have that honor yet. I But think about it, as an engineer like us, staying here, no matter how hard you work, you are still serving the ruling class. You should go there, or you can really do something for the people.” Shi Jun nodded silently.They were walking in the wilderness, and the factories in Yangshupu were closed. Many sirens blared far and near, and the smoke from the chimneys rose straight into the red sunset sky.Shuhui suddenly took Shijun's hand and said, "You go too, okay? People like us with a little bit of skill always want to do something for the society, but look at what kind of society this is. " Shijun said: "I think, as long as you are a person with a little thought, you will never deny that our society is deformed and unreasonable, but—" Shuhui said with a smile: "But what?" Shijun looked at it. He smiled and said, "I lack your revolutionary spirit." Shuhui was silent for a while, because he said, "I'm really disappointed if you don't go. I really should go and see it. It's worth going to see it—— completely It’s a new atmosphere. I think if there is still hope in China, the hope is there.” The two walked for a while in silence, and Shijun said: “Actually, I—I don’t want to go, either. But my situation is not so simple." Shuhui felt that he was evading, so he didn't say anything, but after a while, he couldn't help but said: "Actually, now that the old man has passed away, aren't you freer? After arranging the family affairs, auntie's life is no longer a problem, you can just stand up and leave." Shijun said nothing, and smiled at him after a while: "The truth is, I—I'm getting married soon. When Shuhui heard the news, he seemed to be expecting it, and he was not surprised. Shijun knew that he must have misunderstood him, thinking that he was married to Manzhen, so he quickly added a sentence without waiting for him to speak: "I'm engaged to Cuizhi." Shuhui said in amazement, "You and Cuizhi?" As he spoke, he suddenly laughed.Shijun felt that his attitude seemed a little insulting, and he didn't know whether he was addressing Cuizhi or himself, but it was very annoying. Shuhui finished laughing and said, "If you marry Cuizhi, then you will be completely 'little feet', and you will have to be the husband of a wealthy young lady for the rest of your life, and be an obedient citizen of this old society." Shijun only smiled lightly , said: "That also cares about yourself." He was obviously not very happy, and Shuhui felt it too, so he blamed himself again, why did he oppose their union in this way? Is there still a little selfishness? For Cuizhi, on the one hand Reason doesn't allow me to get close to her, but I don't want others to possess her.That's despicable.Thinking about it this way, he originally had a lot to persuade Shijun, so he didn't plan to say it. He laughed and said: "You see, I am really unreasonable. I haven't congratulated you yet, and I only care about arguing with you!" Shijun also laughed.Shu Hui smiled again: "When did you get engaged?" Shi Jun said: "Recently." He felt that he needed some explanation, because he had never liked Cuizhi, and Shu Hui knew it better than anyone else. of.He said: "You remember, my sister-in-law introduced us to us, but she was still a child at that time. As for me, I probably had a childish temper at that time. The more you want to introduce me, the more uncomfortable I am." Willing." His tone seemed to say that the old age of wayward youth was over, and now he was steadily entering middle age, and embarked on the journey of life in a regular manner according to the way people of his class were accustomed to.When Shu Hui heard what he said, he felt desolate.They walked slowly in the field, it was already dusk, and a group of homing crows croaked and flew overhead.Shijun talked about asking him to be the best man again, but Shuhui declined, saying that he was leaving soon, and that he might not be able to attend Shijun's wedding in time.But Shijun said that if it was too late, he would rather move the wedding date earlier, presumably Cuizhi would agree.Seeing that he was so persistent, Shuhui couldn't refuse. That night Shu Hui stayed with him for dinner in the dormitory, and after the meal they talked for a while before leaving. He came to live at his uncle's house this time.After staying for a few days, I bought almost everything, so I went back to Nanjing. Shu Hui came to Nanjing the day before their wedding.People who hold wedding events are always noisy, and the house is in chaos. Mrs. Shen even arranged a guest room for Shuhui in spite of her busy schedule.Their own home is a bit cramped, but this time the wedding event is not small. First, the wedding ceremony was held at the Central Hotel, and at night, the wedding banquet was held at a large restaurant.When Cuizhi appeared in the restaurant, she had already changed into casual clothes, a red velvet narrow-sleeved cheongsam with a small red velvet waistcoat, which was the most popular style at that time.Shuhui watched her from a distance under the lamp, long time no see, almost a year, the last time we met, he congratulated her because she was engaged to Yipeng, and now he congratulated her again.As an outsider forever, he can't help feeling a little bit emotional.He is the best man, and he should sit at the same table with the bride and groom, but because he is good at entertaining guests, he is used to entertain guests, so he is placed at another table.Perhaps because of him, their table was very lively, and there was a lot of drinking and quarreling.Shu Hui's punching skills were really not very good, and he refused to admit defeat, so he drank the most. Later, everyone took turns to toast at the newlyweds' table, and Shu Hui followed suit, and everyone clamored for them to report their love history.After a stalemate for a long time, someone came out to smooth things over and asked them to hold hands in public.This may be a difficult problem for the old-fashioned bride and groom, like their new-style marriage where they are married by love, shaking hands is nothing, but Cuizhi has a very stubborn temper, she just sits there with her head down, Shijun The face was tender, and it was Shuhui who was at the side to help them out. He pulled Cuizhi's hand and said with a smile: "Come on, Shijun, stretch out your hand, hurry up." But Cuizhi suddenly raised her head at this time , staring blankly at Xiang Shuhui.Shu Hui must be drunk, and for some reason, he kept holding her hand.Shijun thought to himself, Cuizhi must be angry, the color on her face was very wrong, she was almost pale, she seemed to be about to cry. After the banquet was over, some people still went back home with them and continued to make room, but Shu Hui did not participate. He had already agreed with Shijun that he had to take the night train back to Shanghai that day, because he was about to leave for the north Going, there are still many things to take care of.So he went back to Shijun's house, only talked to Mrs. Shen, and then quietly took the box and hired a car and left. The roommates kept making trouble until very late.The people who were crowded into the room had all left, so it should look much more spacious, but on the contrary, I don’t know why, but I feel that the place has become narrower, and the roof is too low, it’s almost breathless.Shijun put on a relaxed look and stretched himself.Cuizhi said: "There was a little fat man who made the most trouble just now, who is that?" They brought up today's guests one by one to talk about, a certain lady was the most eye-catching, a certain wife was the most "crazy", His behavior was the most ridiculous, and he talked for a long time as soon as he talked, as if talking very interestingly.There were several tall glass dishes on the table, filled with candies of various colors, Shi Jun let her eat like a master, and she ate some of each.This room was originally the sitting room of their house, after some renovations, Mrs. Shen didn't use bright red in everything like the old-style new house because she catered to their young people's mentality. The sky is red like a sea of ​​blood.Now this room is very elegantly furnished, more like a western-style hotel room.But there is a pair of silver candle holders on the table, with two red candles burning.Only the red candles in the middle of the night have some meaning of a new house. Cuizhi said: "Shuhui is really drunk today." Shijun smiled and said: "No! I am really worried about how he got on the train by himself." Cuizhi was silent, and after a while he said: " When he sobers up, he doesn’t know where the train will go.” She sat in front of the dressing table and brushed her hair, which was covered with red and green confetti sprinkled by others. Shijun told her again that the old concubine of his uncle's house, who ate vegetarian food and recited Buddhism, hadn't been out of the gate for one or twenty years, unexpectedly came to watch the ceremony today.Cuizhi brushed her hair, then thought of it and said, "Have you seen Amy's hair today? It's very special." Shijun said: "Oh? I didn't notice it." Cuizhi said: "It is said that it is the latest hair style in Shanghai. Look. Did you see it when you were in Shanghai last time?" Shi Jun thought for a while and said, "I don't know. I didn't pay attention.——" Gradually feeling lack of information for the conversation, Shijun smiled and said: "You must be tired today?" Cuizhi said: "I'm fine." Shijun said: "I'm not sleepy at all, maybe I talked too much, but instead I've come to my senses. I want to sit for a while and read a book. Go to bed first." Cuizhi said: "Okay." Shijun was reading a pictorial there.Cuizhi continued to brush her hair, and after finishing brushing, she took off all the jewelry and put them in the dresser drawer.Seeing that she was walking slowly, Shijun thought that she might find it inconvenient to undress and go to bed in front of people, so he laughed and said, "I'm afraid you won't be able to sleep with the light on?" Cuizhi smiled and said, "Oh." Shijun said: "I have this habit too." He stood up and turned off the light, and turned on another desk lamp to read, and the room immediately became dark. After a long while, he turned his head to see that she was not asleep yet, but she was cutting her fingernails by candlelight.It was really getting late, and one of the two candles had already been lit first.According to superstition, this is a very bad omen. Although Cuizhi may not believe it, Shijun still kept his mind, and just smiled and said: "Yo, the candles have already been lit. You still have to Aren't you going to sleep?" Cuizhi replied after a while: "I'm going to sleep." Shijun heard her voice was a little hoarse, and wondered if she was crying again because he ignored her?Could it be that one candle was lit first? He looked at her attentively, but at this moment, she happened to use the scissors she used to cut the nails to cut the candle flower. As soon as she cut it, the flame of the red candle fell down, and her eyes went dark. Well, the candlelight came on again, shining on her face, her face was already very calm.But Shijun knew that she must have cried just now. He walked up to her and said with a smile, "Why are you upset again?" He asked over and over again.She pushed him away annoyed at first, then she suddenly grabbed his clothes and began to whimper and cry, blurting out: "Shijun, what should I do, you don't like me either, and I--I I don't like you either. It's too late now, don't you think it's too late?" Of course it was too late.What she said was exactly what he thought in his heart, and he admired her for having the courage to say it, but what good did it do? He could only murmur to comfort her: "Don't think like this. No matter what you do, I will always treat you—Cuizhi, really, don't worry. Don't do this. Don't cry.—Hey, Cui Zhi." He murmured comforting words in her ear, but in fact, his heart was as lost as hers.He thought they were like two kids who had gotten into trouble.