Chapter 5 chapter Five

Today, Sunday, is Shijun's last day in Nanjing.His mother said softly to him: "You have to go and see Dad today." Shijun was very reluctant to go to his father's small mansion.Why did his mother want him to go, but she felt that he hadn't come home for a year, and since all his relatives and friends knew he was back this time, it would be a bit rude not to visit his father anyway.Shijun also knew that he had to go there, but he always liked to procrastinate until the last moment. On this day, he chose to go to the small mansion in the morning before his father left the house.The style over there is much bigger than theirs, and there are two male servants.A servant who came to open the door was new and didn't know him. Shijun asked, "Has the master gotten up yet?" The man looked at him hesitantly, and said, "I'll go and have a look. What's your surname?" Shijun Said: "Just say that the second young master in the old mansion is here."

The man asked him to sit down in the living room and report himself.The living room is full of mahogany furniture.Shijun's father liked to be arty, on the high table, on the bar table, there were antique porcelain everywhere, making people afraid of breaking valuable things with every move and gesture.Shijun didn't pay attention to anything else, there was a tray on the table with a few visiting cards and invitations scattered inside, Shijun picked it up and looked at it.There was a pink wedding invitation for "Mr. Shen Xiaotong and Mrs. Shen Xiaotong". It can be seen that in the circle his father interacted with, everyone treated his concubine as his wife.

Xiao Tong probably hadn't got up yet, Shijun sat alone in the living room and waited, the morning sun came in and shone on the sofa he was sitting on.The white cloth cover on the sofa is quite old, but it has been washed clean.Obviously, the housewife here is a thrifty housekeeper. At this time, she was buying vegetables in the small vegetable market and came back, followed by a maid who carried the basket for her, and she carried a steelyard in her hand, walked past the door of the living room, opened a picture inside, and said with a smile: "Oh , the second young master is here! When did you come back to Nanjing?" Shijun never called her or anything, he just stood up to her, and said with a straight face: "It's only been two days since I came back." This aunt is already a half-old Xu Damn, although she used to be a man of the world, now she is dressed very honestly, with her hair combed, wearing a half-worn black wool wool cheongsam, and only a little powder on her face.If she was a coquettish slut, Shijun would feel calmer, but she is such a typical housewife, completely taking Shijun's mother's position, so every time he sees her, he always feels very uncomfortable .

She always put on a perfunctory face when she saw him, but she did not lose her identity in being polite.She turned her head and shouted: "Li Sheng, why don't you pour tea for the second young master?" Li Sheng replied outside: "Pour it here." She nodded to Shijun and said with a smile: "Sit down for a while, Then Dad came down. Little San’er, come and call brother. Come!” Her third child was coming downstairs with his schoolbag on his back, and she beckoned him over, saying, “Call me second brother!” The child followed Shijun My nephew is about the same age.Shijun smiled and said, "How old are you?" The concubine laughed and said, "Second brother asked you something, tell me!" Shijun laughed and said, "I remember he stuttered a bit." The concubine laughed and said, "That's his elder brother. He is the third one, last time you saw him, he was still in your hand!" Shijun said: "Children grow up really fast." The aunt said: "No."

Immediately, the concubine took the child by the hand and went out. She could be heard shouting from a distance: "Where is the coachman? Tell him to take the young master to school and he will be back soon. The master wants to sit down." She knew that the father and son would talk. It won't be long, and she won't have any confidantes, but she is still very careful. Although she walked away, she dispatched her mother to sit in the main room.This old lady has been living with her daughter. Although her daughter has been completely transformed and has become a standard family, the mother's godly spirit is still very strong.Shijun hates seeing her even more than seeing his concubine.She probably knew something in her heart, so she didn't come to greet him.I heard her rustle down in the main room and say to a little girl, "Little Si, come on, grandma will teach you how to fold tinfoil! Here, fold it like this, and fold it again like this—" Paper-folded ingots and She could hear the rustling of the spindle being thrown into the basket, and of course she could hear the conversation in the drawing-room here.Although she is old, her ears are probably fine.

The ambush here has just been set up, and there is a familiar "Hehan" on the stairs!Shijun's father came downstairs.Although the coughing sound of the father sounded familiar, the father himself was a little strange.Shen Xiaotong walked in with his hands behind his back, Shijun stood up and called "Dad".Xiaotong nodded to him and said, "Sit down. When did you come back?" Shijun said, "I came back the day before yesterday." Xiaotong said, "There have always been a lot of rumors. What news did you hear in Shanghai?" Talk about the current situation.Shijun didn't admire his opinions at all, he was just an old-fashioned businessman, and his comments were all heard from other businessmen, or they were scraps and pieces from the newspapers.

After Xiaotong analyzed the major national events one by one, he was silent for a while.He never looked at Shijun's face, but at this moment he suddenly said: "Why are you so tanned?" Shijun smiled and said, "It's probably because I went out to climb mountains every day for two days after I came back." Xiao Tong Said: "You are here this time, did you come back on leave?" Shijun said: "I didn't ask for leave. This time, the double tenth holiday happens to be on Saturday and Sunday, and there are several days." Xiaotong never asked him much about it. His career, because the father and son had a very quarrel, just because of his career.So at this point, Xiaotong felt a kind of taboo, and immediately changed the topic and said: "Uncle is dead, do you know?" Shijun originally wanted to say: "I heard what Mom said." But he changed it temporarily. Cheng: "I heard it."

There are a few old elders among their relatives, Xiaotong respects them very much. During the Chinese New Year, when he visits these families to pay New Year's greetings, he always goes with Shijun's mother, although the couple rarely see each other. In this way, it is absolutely impossible for Li Ying to go out together.Now these elders have passed away one by one, and only this uncle is left, and now he is also dead. From then on, Xiao Tong will never go out with his wife to pay New Year's greetings. Xiaotong talked about his uncle's stroke and said, "It's so fast..." Xiaotong himself also has a serious problem of high blood pressure. When he mentioned his uncle, he couldn't help thinking of himself.He was silent for a while, and then said: "I don't know where the prescription Dr. Liu prescribed for me is gone. I want to find it tomorrow and buy something to eat." Shijun said: "Why doesn't Dad look for it anymore?" Can Dr. Liu take a look?" Xiao Tong has always been a bit shy about medical treatment, so he evaded and said: "I don't know if this person is still in Nanjing." Shi Jun said: "Yes. This time Xiaojian's rash is because he saw it." Xiao Tong said : "Oh? Xiaojian has a rash?" Shijun thought to himself, he also lives in Nanjing, and he wants to ask me, a person from Shanghai, about these things, which shows that there is a gap between him and his family.

Xiaotong said: "Xiaojian is always sick, and I don't know if he can be raised well. When I see him, I think of your brother. It has been six years since your brother died!" As he spoke, tears suddenly shed Come.Shijun felt very surprised.When he came back this time, he saw his mother was a little confused. He thought that his mother was old, and now his father shed tears to him again, which had never happened before—is it also because of old age? It has been six years since my brother died, and my father didn't cry like this when he just died, so why is he so sad again today, six years later?Or he feels that he is old, his brother lost an arm after his death, and his second son refuses to cooperate with him. At this time, he misses the dead, expressing a kind of helpless yearning for the living.

Shijun remained silent.At that moment, he thought of countless things, how his father had treated his mother, and his mother's suffering had cast a shadow over his childhood.He thought of all this to harden his heart. The concubine shouted loudly from upstairs: "Mother Zhang, please listen to the phone!" It was Mama Zhang, but in fact she was directly calling Master.Her shout reminded Shijun that he didn't have to feel sorry for his father, as his father had a warm family of his own.Xiaotong stood up and was about to go upstairs to answer the phone, Shijun said: "Father, I'm leaving, I have something to do." Xiaotong paused, and said: "Okay, you can go."

Shijun walked out with his father, and his concubine's mother smiled at him and said, "Second Young Master, why are you leaving? Aren't you eating here?" Xiaotong said impatiently, "He still has something to do." Walking up the stairs He turned around, nodded to Shijun, and went upstairs.Shijun left. Back home, his mother asked him: "What did Dad tell you?" Shijun only said: "Speaking of uncle, he also has high blood pressure. Dad himself seems a little scared." Mrs. Shen Said: "Yes, your father's problem is that he is afraid of stroke. If I didn't curse him, I was always worried that if you don't come back, I'm afraid you won't see him!" Shijun thought in his heart, his father must also think the same way, So just so sad.This time when I came back to Nanjing, my mother never had the chance to shed tears to him because of Shuhui.Unexpectedly, his father cried to him! He asked his mother, "How's the family going?" Mrs. Shen said, "It's always been good, and I always get someone to send it on a monthly basis. But... don't say I'm cruel, I always think so, there is If your father dies one day, what can you do, all his money is in the hands of that woman." Shi Jun said: "Then... Dad will always have an arrangement, and he will always guard against such a day... "Mrs. Shen smiled bitterly and said: "But at that time, he can't let him decide. Everything is in the hands of others. Even him, it is difficult for us to meet! I may not run away like Qin Xuemei's filial piety!" " Shijun also knew that his mother was not overly concerned.This kind of incident often happens between relatives. The master died at the concubine's place. The wife wanted to carry the body back, but the other side refused to let it be carried. mourning.This is still a trivial matter. In the future, the property issue will really be a headache.I hope he already has the ability to support his mother, sister-in-law and nephew at that time, so he doesn't have to fight with others for family property.Although he had this kind of heart, he was unwilling to comfort his mother with empty words, so he mechanically comforted his mother a few words, saying, "Let's not worry about nothing." Since this was his last day at home, Mrs. Shen also wanted everyone to be happy. Hi, so I won't mention these. He left in the car tonight, and accompanied Shuhui to two places during the day, and returned home in the afternoon to have dinner early.The young mistress hugged Xiao Jian and smiled, "I just got to know the second uncle, but I have to leave again. The next time the second uncle comes back, I have to admit my birth again!" Mrs. Shen thought: "If you come back again, you will have to leave again. After a year and a half, the child will be born again." Thinking of this, her eye circles turned red, and she forced a smile and said, "Xiaojian, shall we go to Shanghai with Second Uncle? Are you going?" Said: "Hi Shanghai! Let's go with my second uncle?" The question was tight, Xiao Jian just slipped into the arms of the young lady, and the young lady smiled and said: "No prospect! I still want a mother!" Shijun and Shuhui didn't bring much luggage when they came this time, but they returned with a full load when they went.In addition to the usual fruits and snacks, Mrs. Shen bought two osmanthus ducks for them. That was the season when osmanthus ducks were on the market.In addition, there was a large box of medicines, which she forced Shijun to take by injection.She was going to send them to the station, but Shijun stopped her.Everyone in the family stood at the gate to see them off to the car. Mrs. Shen wiped away her tears with a smile and told Shijun to "let me write as soon as I arrive". Once on the train, Shijun suddenly felt relaxed.They bought two Shanghai newspapers and read them on the bunk.The train left Nanjing, and the lights of the ancient city gradually faded away.People say "the train of the times", and the metaphor is really reasonable. The running of the train does seem to pass through an era with vigor and vitality.The atmosphere of the old times in Shijun's house, those tragic characters, and those things that hate shipwrecks have all been left behind.The train rumbled away into the darkness. Shuhui slept in the upper bunk, Shijun was bored below, and saw one of Shuhui's feet hanging over the edge of the bunk, the sole of the leather shoe was covered with a layer of yellow mud, and there was a circle of wool on the side. grass clippings.The so-called "traveling clogs" is like this, right?Shijun asked himself that he was really not a good playmate.This time when I came back to Nanjing, I don't know why, but I was always so restless, no matter what I did, I was in a hurry, I just wanted to get away quickly, as if he had another appointment. When he arrived in Shanghai early the next morning, Shijun said, "Go directly to the factory." He wanted to go early so that he could see Manzhen earlier, without having to wait until dinner time.Shuhui said: "How about the luggage?" Shijun said: "Take it first, and put it in your office." He helped deliver the luggage to Shuhui's office just to see Manzhen.Shuhui said: "It doesn't matter anything else, but these two ducks are so oily that there is nowhere to put them. I think we have to send them back. I'll take a trip, you go first." Shijun took the bus to the factory alone, got out of the bus, and looked at his watch until eight o'clock, Manzhen must have not come yet.He wandered about the station.It was still too early, and he also knew that Manzhen would not come for a while, but when people got anxious and counted the time, Shuhui might come soon.If there was Shu Hui in the next bus, wouldn't it be strange to see him, who came three quarters of an hour earlier, still here after jumping off the bus? Thinking of this, he felt a thorn in his back, and immediately turned around and walked towards the factory.There is a fruit stand near the bus stop.Shijun had eaten several oranges on the train just now, and he couldn’t even eat the fruit brought by his family, but he stopped after passing by the fruit stand, bought two oranges, peeled them out immediately, stood there slowly Eating slowly.After eating the two oranges, he felt that this place really couldn't stay any longer, as Shu Hui would come anytime soon.Moreover, how could Manzhen still not come at this time, if he had come earlier, he was already in the office?He fell here and waited foolishly!Although this idea is extremely unreasonable, he immediately walked to the factory, and this time he walked very quickly. On the way, I suddenly heard someone shouting from behind: "Hello!" When he turned his head, it was Manzhen, who was walking towards this side with a smile on her wind-blown hair with one hand in the morning sun.As soon as I saw her, I immediately felt my heart open up.She smiled and said, "You're back?" Shijun said, "You're back." There was nothing ridiculous about this, but both of them laughed at the same time.Manzhen said again: "Just arrived?" Shijun said: "Hey, I just got off the train." He didn't tell her that he was waiting for her there. Manzhen looked at his face very attentively.Shijun touched his face awkwardly, and said with a smile, "I don't know if I washed my face carelessly on the train." Manzhen smiled and said, "No——" She sized him up again , smiled and said: "You are still the same. I always feel as if you will change your appearance once you go back." Shijun said: "After going for a few days, will your appearance change?" However, he also felt that he had not only been away for a few days, but had also come back from a far away place. Manzhen said: "How is your mother? Everything at home is fine?" Shijun said: "Everything is fine." Manzhen said: "Did they say anything when they saw your box?" Shijun smiled and said: "Nothing. Manzhen laughed and said, "Didn't you say you sorted the boxes well?" Shijun smiled and said, "No." While walking and talking, Shijun suddenly stopped, and said: "Manzhen!" Manzhen saw that he seemed to be in a dilemma, and said, "What?" Shijun was silent again, and continued to move forward Walk. A series of disasters flashed through her mind: something happened to his family—he was going to quit—he was engaged to be married—he fell in love with someone, or someone from the past A girlfriend, I met again when I went back this time.She asked again, "What's the matter?" He said, "It's nothing." Then she fell silent. Shijun said: "I didn't bring a raincoat, and it just happened to rain again." Manzhen said: "Oh, does it rain in Nanjing? It doesn't rain here." Shijun said: "But it's okay, it just rained One night, anyway, we always go out during the day. But we also go out at night, even on rainy days." He found himself a little incoherent, so he stopped suddenly. Manzhen really became a little anxious, looked at him and said with a smile: "What's the matter with you?" Shijun said: "It's nothing.—Manzhen, I have something to tell you." Manzhen said: "Tell me. Shijun said, "I have something to tell you." In fact, he has already said it.She had heard it too.Her face was completely still, but he could see that she was very happy.Suddenly, a kind of light shines in this world, and everything can be seen very clearly and accurately.He has never felt so clear in his life, like during an exam, when he sits down and reads the questions, he knows all the answers, and he is so excited, but also feels a strange calm. Manzhen's expression changed suddenly, she smiled and called "Mr. Chen", it was the manager of the factory who walked beside them.They have come to the gate of the factory.Manzhen hurriedly said to Shijun: "I'm late today, and you are late too. See you later." She hurried in and went upstairs. Of course Shijun was happy, but after thinking over and over all morning, his self-confidence gradually disappeared, and he regretted not being able to speak clearly just now, so that he could get a clearer answer.He always thought that Manzhen was very good with him, but now that she thought about everything she showed her affection for him, she felt that it was not justified, either out of friendship, or just her innocence. During the meal, the three of them were together again, and Manzhen was still talking and laughing as usual, as if nothing had happened.According to Shijun's thinking, even if she doesn't love him, she should react a little bit, a little embarrassed, a little stiff - he doesn't know how a woman is at a time like this What kind of attitude, but in short, it won't be completely nonchalant, right?If she loves him, then her composure is even more astonishing.It's almost inhuman for women to calm down sometimes.And he can really act.I am afraid that every woman is an actress. After coming out of the restaurant, Shu Hui went to the tobacco shop to buy a pack of cigarettes. Shijun and Manzhen were waiting for him at a distance, and Shijun said to her: "Manzhen, what I said this morning is too unclear. .” However, he couldn’t speak more clearly for a while.He looked down at the shadows of the two of them in the autumn sun.There were many fallen leaves on the side of the road. He poked through them with his toes, picked up the largest browned leaf, and smashed it with his foot, making a "chuck". Manzhen also avoided looking at him. She looked at Shuhui's back and said, "Let's talk about it later. Come to my house later." He came to her house that night.She still has something to do after work. She goes to a place to teach, from six to seven.After dinner, I have to go to another place to make up books for the two children.Shijun is very familiar with her daily program, he can only go to her place during dinner time, maybe he can have a few words with her. He set the time right, and rang the bell at the back door of Gu's house at ten past seven.The Gu family has now rented out the downstairs house, so it was the old lady of a tenant who came to open the door.The maid was cooking, and she was so busy cooking and cooking, she just called upstairs: "Mrs. Gu, you have a visitor!" and let Shijun go upstairs alone. Since Shijun brought his friends to see the house last time, he has been here once, and he has not been there since, because there are many people in their family, and when they come to the house, the quiet and avoiding situation makes him feel very uneasy, especially those who Children, children are active by nature, there is never a moment of silence when they ping pong pong, how can they be so silent. On this day, Shijun heard them talking and laughing upstairs when he was on the stairs.An older child scolded: "It's so noisy! People are doing their homework here!" Books, rulers and set squares were scattered on the table in front of him.Manzhen's grandmother held a pair of chopsticks in her hand, pushed his things aside, and said, "Hey, the stall can be closed! We need to make room for the dishes." The child just did his geometrical triangles, He didn't lift his head. When Manzhen's grandmother turned her head, she saw Shijun, and said with a quick smile, "Hey, here's a visitor!" He nodded to her again and said, "Auntie, is Manzhen back?" Mrs. Gu smiled and said, "She's coming back soon. Sit down. I'll pour tea."Mrs. Gu put down the scissors and poured tea.But a child yelled: "Mom, my neck is itching!" Mrs. Gu said: "The dregs of the hair have fallen into it." She picked up his collar, turned it over, and dusted it carefully by the light. Whisk for a while.Mrs. Gu brought a broom and said, "Look at the hair on the ground!" Mrs. Gu hurriedly took the broom and said with a smile, "I'll come and I'll come. This is really called 'customers come to sweep the floor'!" Mrs. Gu The wife said: "Don't sweep his hair! Let Mr. Shen sit over there." Mrs. Gu went to turn on the light, and let Shijun go to the next room.She stood at the door, leaning on the broom handle, and asked him with a smile: "Is it always busy?" After a few words of pleasantries, she said, "We're here for dinner today. There's nothing to eat—I'm not polite to you!" Shi Jungang It's a bit embarrassing to come here when I'm in a hurry to eat, but there's nothing I can do.Mrs. Gu immediately went downstairs to cook, and was busy again because she needed to add some food temporarily. Shijun stood alone in front of the window, looking into the alley, but did not see Manzhen coming back.He knew that Manzhen lived in this room, but the room was full of other people's things, such as her mother's sewing basket, glasses case, and children's basketball shoes.A blown-up photograph of her father hangs on the wall.There was one of her sweaters on a bed, which must have been her bed.Her room was like a boarding house, with no personality.It seems that the only things that really belong to her are the books on the bookshelf.There were magazines, novels, novels in translation, and textbooks she read at school, English books with the spines off.Shi Jun looked over one by one, and found many books he hadn't read, but he thought they were all his books because they belonged to hers. Manzhen is back.She walked in and said with a smile, "Have you been here for a while?" Shijun smiled and said, "Not much time." Manzhen put down the purse and books in his hand, the air between the two of them is a bit strange today, she It seemed as if her every move was being watched closely.With a blushing face, she went to the full-length mirror to get a haircut, then straightened the front of her clothes, and said, "The tram is really crowded today, people are out of shape, and the socks are dirty." Shijun also came to take pictures. Looking at the mirror, he smiled and said, "Look, I went to Nanjing, did I get tanned?" He stood behind Manzhen and looked in the mirror, too close to see if his face was tanned , but saw that Manzhen's face was red. Manzhen looked at him perfunctorily, and said: "It's always like this when it's exposed to the sun. It turns red first, and then it takes two days to turn black." When she said this, Shijun realized that he was also blushing. Manzhen leaned over to check her socks, and suddenly yelled: "It's broken! It's all crowded by the tram, so it doesn't count!" She took another pair of socks from the drawer, and ran to the next room to change. , and closed the door, leaving Shijun alone in the room.He was very uneasy, wondering if she was a little unhappy.He took out a book from the bookshelf to read, and just as he took it out, Manzhen had already opened the door and smiled at him, "Come and eat." A round table was full, and Manzhen sat diagonally across from Shijun.Shijun felt that he had dinner at the same table with her today, but someone was always with him, and he was getting farther and farther away from her.He is really a bit resentful. Mrs. Gu temporarily added a piece of scrambled eggs with preserved eggs, and sent the children to buy some meat with smoked fish sauce, and put these dishes crowdedly on Shijun's side.The old lady Gu still told her daughter-in-law from time to time: "Give him some sauced meat." Mrs. Gu laughed and said, "I'm afraid that their new recruits don't like other people's food." The children didn't say a word, they ate very fast, they finished eating after a while, and went to the table.They have always been somewhat hostile to Shijun. Seeing their expressions, Manzhen remembered her sister's fiancé, Zhang Mujin, who came to their house in the past. At that time, Manzhen was already twelve or thirteen years old, and she hated Mujin very much.Children at that age seem to have the mentality of barbarians in the tribal era, with a strong sense of family, and always think that others are foreign invaders who come to rob their sisters and destroy their families. After dinner, Mrs. Gu wiped the table with a rag, and asked Manzhen, "You guys should sit over there." Manzhen said to Shijun, "Go over there, let them study here, and let them study here. lights up." Manzhen first poured Shijun a cup of tea.After sitting down, she picked up the pair of silk stockings that she just changed, and patched up the broken place.Shijun said: "Aren't you tired? After coming back for a while, you have been busy." Manzhen said: "If I don't do it, my mother will do it. She is tired enough, cooking She does all the laundry." Shijun said: "You used to have a young lady here, but now you don't need it?" Manzhen said: "Are you talking about Abao? She has already been fired. When you saw her, Because she couldn't find a job for a while, she is still helping us here." She lowered her head to mend her socks, her hair was all thrown to the front, revealing a soft and greasy neck.Shijun paced back and forth in the room, walked past her, and really wanted to bend down and kiss her neck.But of course he didn't.He just stroked her hair.Manzhen didn't seem to feel it, she still lowered her head to mend the socks, but she held the needle in her hand, and she didn't know where it went, so she accidentally pricked her hand.She didn't say anything, she saw a small bead of blood coagulated on her finger, and she wiped it on her handkerchief. Shijun kept looking at the clock and said, "You have to go out again in a while. Should I go too?" He felt very disappointed.She is so busy that she hardly has a chance to talk to her. She has to wait until Saturday, and today is only Monday. How to spend this long week.Manzhen said: "Sit for a while, and go together when I leave." Shijun suddenly came to his senses and said, "I'll take you there. What kind of car are you taking?" Manzhen said: "There are not many roads. , I often go there." She was putting a piece of thread into her mouth to bite it off, with a silk thread between her teeth, but she smiled at Shijun.Shijun suddenly gave birth to endless hope. Manzhen stood up to look in the mirror, put on a coat, Shijun held the book for her, and they went out together. Walking into the alley, Manzhen remembered that her sister used to go out for a walk with Mu Jin sometimes, also after dinner.Manzhen and the children in the alley often followed them, clamoring and nailing their ends.Although her sister and Mu Jin ignored them, they were embarrassed to show displeasure, and there was always a smile on their faces.When she thinks about it now, she feels that she is really unforgivable, especially because her sister and Mu Jin's marriage failed in the end. Their sweet time was not long, and there really was not much time. Shijun said: "I am so happy this morning." Manzhen smiled and said, "Really? You seem to be very unhappy all the time." Shijun said with a smile: "That was later. Then I thought I misunderstood What do you mean?" Manzhen didn't say anything.In the semi-darkness, she could only hear her chuckle.Shijun didn't feel relieved until this time. He takes her hand.Manzhen said: "Your hands are so cold. Don't you feel cold?" Shijun said: "It's okay. It's not cold." Manzhen said: "It was a little cold when I came back just now, and now it's cold again A little more." This conversation between them was completely night-time.Under the night, he held her hand.Both of them had an indescribable feeling. Most of the shops on the road are closed.Across the way there was a big yellow moon hanging low over the street, exactly like a street lamp.The moon is particularly human today.It seemed to rise from the boundless sea of ​​people. Shijun said: "I'm too bad at talking, I just want to be like Shuhui." Manzhen said: "Shuhui is not a bad person, but sometimes I really hate him, because he gives you a inferiority complex.” Shi Jun smiled and said, “I admit that my inferiority complex is also one of my shortcomings. My shortcomings are too many, but there are no advantages at all.” Manzhen smiled and said, “Really?” Shi Jun said: "Really. But now I think, maybe there is something good about me, otherwise why would you—be nice to me?——Unless it is because my heart is still good." Manzhen laughed: "Oh, you Do you have a good heart?" Shijun said: "Well. I think I am like a vegetable, isn't it best to have only one vegetable heart?" Manzhen said: "Well.——" Then she Suddenly laughed. Shijun said: "The day I was leaving, you came to our place. Later, Shuhui's mother said: 'I can't believe that Shijun is such an honest person, but he snatched Shuhui's girlfriend away.'" Manzhen He smiled and said, "Oh? I'll never be embarrassed to go there again." Shijun smiled and said, "Then I regret telling you." Manzhen said, "Did she say it in front of Shuhui?" Shijun Said: "No, she was talking to Shuhui's father behind her back, and I overheard it. I thought it was ridiculous. I always thought that falling in love should be a natural thing, why is it always like a war. Whether to rob or not. I don’t think Shuhui will rob me.” Manzhen smiled and said, “You won’t rob him either, will you?” Shijun paused for a moment, then smiled and said: "I think some women may like to be beaten to the point of bleeding for her, you are the same as them." Manzhen laughed: "This is not about fighting either. —Fortunately, Shuhui doesn't like me, otherwise you would have walked away without saying a word. I will never know what happened." Shijun was speechless. Just now when he passed by a fruit stand that was lit up for a night market, he put her hand down, and now he held her hand tightly again.But she broke free, smiled and said: "It's almost here, maybe they can see it from the window." Shijun said: "Then take two steps back." They walked back again.Shijun said: "If I knew that you wanted me to snatch it, I would have snatched you here anyway." Manzhen couldn't help laughing, and said, "Who will snatch it from you?" Shijun said: "Anyway, who Don’t even think about it.” Manzhen laughed and said, “You—I’ll never know if you’re really stupid or pretending to be stupid.” Shijun said: “In the future, when you find out that I’m really stupid, you’ll regret it.” Manzhen Zhendao: "I won't regret it unless you regret it." Shijun wanted to kiss her, but she turned her face away and only kissed her hair.He felt her trembling.He said, "Are you cold?" She shook her head. She rolled up his sleeves and looked at his watch.Shijun asked: "What time is it?" Manzhen replied after a while: "Eight thirty." The time has come.Shijun immediately said: "Go quickly, I'll wait for you here." Manzhen said: "What's the matter? You can't stand here for an hour." Shijun said: "I'll find a place to sit For a while. We seem to have passed a cafe just now." Manzhen said: "There is a cafe, but it's too late, you'd better go back." Shijun said: "Don't worry about it! Go in!" He just urged her to go, but he forgot to let go of her hand, so she couldn't walk two steps, and was pulled back again.Both of them laughed. Then she went away, hurrying to ring the bell.As soon as she rang the bell, Shijun had to run away. A big leaf floated down from the sycamore tree beside the road, like a bird, "Crack!" and passed over his head.When it landed on the ground, there were two more "chacha" sounds, and it slipped smoothly.Shijun walked over slowly, and heard a person shouting: "Rickshaw! Rickshaw!" He shouted from the east end to the west end, but there was no answer. It can be seen that the road is quite desolate at this time. Shijun suddenly remembered that the primary school student she was teaching might be sick and unable to go to class, so she would come out immediately and look for him there.So he walked back and stood for a while on the corner of the road. The moon is getting higher and higher, and the moon is shining on the ground.远处有一辆黄包车经过，摇曳的车灯吱吱轧轧响着，使人想起更深夜静的时候，风吹着秋千索的幽冷的声音。 待会儿无论如何要吻她。 世钧又向那边走去，寻找那个小咖啡馆。他回想到曼桢那些矛盾的地方，她本来是一个很世故的人，有时候却又显得那样天真，有时候又那样羞涩得过分。他想道：“也许只是因为她——非常喜欢我的缘故么？”他不禁心旌摇摇起来了。 这是他第一次对一个姑娘表示他爱她。他所爱的人刚巧也爱他，这也是第一次。他所爱的人也爱他，想必也是极普通的事情，但是对于身当其境的人，却好像是千载难逢的巧合。世钧常常听见人家说起某人某人怎样怎样“闹恋爱”，但是，不知道为什么，别人那些事情从来不使他联想到他和曼桢。他相信他和曼桢的事情跟别人的都不一样。跟他自己一生中发生过的一切事情也都不一样。 街道转了个弯，便听见音乐声，提琴奏着东欧色彩的舞曲。顺着音乐声找过去，找到那小咖啡馆，里面透出红红的灯光。一个黄胡子的老外国人推开玻璃门走了出来，玻璃门荡来荡去，送出一阵人声和温暖的人气。世钧在门外站着，觉得他在这样的心情下，不可能走到人丛里去。他太快乐了。太剧烈的快乐与太剧烈的悲哀是有相同之点的——同样地需要远离人群。他只能够在寒夜的街沿上踟躇着，听听音乐。 今天一早就在公共汽车站上等她。后来到她家里去，她还没回来，又在她房间里等她。现在倒又在这儿等她了。 从前他跟她说过，在学校里读书的时候，星期六这一天特别高兴，因为期待着星期日的到来。他没有知道他和她最快乐的一段光阴将在期望中度过，而他们的星期日永远没有天明。