Chapter 11 Chapter Eleven

Xiaoqing finally went to work in the village health center of Xiema Villa with a brand new look.Even though she had promised that she would never stay in Xiema Villa for a long time, she was still radiant and refreshed when she went to work.She was wearing a red flower short-sleeved shirt with short hair, and her breasts were high. Her outfit was so inconsistent with the villa that many people dared not look at her and wanted to take a second look at her.It was the village committee member Liu Hai who led her to open the door of the clinic. Liu Hai saw a haze of mist flashing from Xiaoqing's eyes.After Pan Xiuying arrived, Maizi came from the village.This was the first time Xiaoqing and Maizi met. Xiaoqing was not very interested in the village chief who replaced his father. They just smiled at each other without talking or shaking hands.Maizi asked Pan Xiuying to lead Xiaoqing down to the village to get familiar with the situation.Pan Xiuying is a sensible person, without any delay, she first opened the drawer and handed over the family planning list, the registration form of birth control women in the village, and the birth date registration form of pregnant women, and then led Xiaoqing to visit Xiahekou, Qianchuan, Houchuan and Lingshui.Xiaoqing and Pan Xiuying's going to the countryside was originally a poster, reporting the appearance of a new Pan Xiuying to the whole village, so that everyone would not find the wrong house to have children.But Xiaoqing felt that everyone was not willing to accept her. Lu Guigui, a pregnant woman in Xiahekou, was Xiaoqing's classmate. She talked and laughed happily when she saw Pan Xiuying. When she saw Xiaoqing behind her, she showed displeasure. A month later, Xiaoqing was required to deliver the baby for her, and the brows drooping down immediately, like drooping rabbit ears, and her protruding belly wished she could shrink back all at once.However, Xiaoqing's mood was not affected too much, her character was more like Lin Zhibang - no matter what situation she encountered, as long as she believed in her heart, she would not be influenced by anyone.

Under the guidance of Pan Xiuying, Xiaoqing walked down Xiema Villa, and solved a mystery that has been in the hearts of the people in the villa since the retirement of Lin Zhibang—retirement is for advancement.People didn't bother to ask whether Xiaoqing's initial study at the county health school was the result of the Linzhi Gang, and they all believed that this step was definitely the trick of the Linzhi Gang.When it comes to skills, people once again expressed their admiration for the Lin Zhi gang. He was a beggar, but he stomped on the mountains of Xiema Villa and did whatever he wanted.Some women who were nostalgic for Pan Xiuying could not express their nostalgia for Pan Xiuying in front of Xiaoqing. They climbed mountains and ridges to Pan Xiuying's house in their spare time, and said in a provocative way how could you give it to Xiaoqing, Aunt Pan? when.The woman in the west courtyard of Sister-in-law Yueyue's house pointed to Pan Xiuying and said: You stinky bastard must have followed Lin Zhiliang and Lin Zhibang, or else you would have given up on that one.Pan Xiuying said sister, but she has short knowledge. No policy of the government stipulates who must be found to have a child. Besides, my position is in everyone's heart, who can push the position in everyone's heart?The instigator was stunned for a moment, clicked his tongue in amazement, Pan Xiuying was brilliant—although her place in the clinic was gone, she still had a place in the hearts of the people in Xiema Villa, and she could be called for delivery.Seeing everyone thinking about it, Pan Xiuying went on to say, people remember that doing good deeds means storing water in the reservoir. After all, Xiaoqing is young, so I am storing water in the reservoir of Xiema Villa.Pan Xiuying's inaccurate preamble made the women in the villa very puzzled by this clever and eloquent woman. Everyone still tied a button to the relationship between Pan Xiuying and Lin Zhibang, because Pan Xiuying did not let go of a powerful woman. man.First, Pan Xiuying was fooled by the Lin Zhi gang, then they felt that the Lin Zhi gang was fooled by Pan Xiuying, and finally people felt that everyone was fooled by Lin Xiaoqing.This bewitching little girl walks on Tun Street without looking sideways and never looking directly at people. After living in the county for a few days, she has two black worms tattooed on her eyebrows and eyes. With a pad, the scorpion eggs twisted in mid-air like goose eggs hatched on a windmill.What good things can such a defiant yellow-haired girl bring to the villa?A coquettish and arrogant yellow-haired girl who goes to meet women so early will definitely not be able to do anything good!The people in the villa talk about the new things in Xiema Villa in an over-charged way, just like talking about the black-eyed wind and the oily wind.However, Lin Xiaoqing didn't care about all this at all, she appeared in the streets and alleys of Xiema Villa like a scene, and since then, she has continuously stirred up the ordinary and lonely life of the people in the villa.

After walking through Xiema Villa with Pan Xiuying, Xiaoqing ushered in her first long and lonely day in the clinic.Few people came to get medicine and needles.When the women and men in the villa are not at home, even if they are sick, they have to wait for their men to come back for treatment, because the men sacrifice their lives to make money far away, and they never have the heart to spend money at home. It's like carrying a stone on your back and falling up the mountain.But when the next year comes, they remain the same.Xiaoqing understands that the women in the villa never ask for favors from men, but they can spoil men everywhere, until they end up with a whole body of patients.All morning, the door of the clinic only rang once, and a woman from Xiahekou Houmingyuan came to see a doctor with her fourteen-year-old son.The skinny boy's small face seemed to be soaked in icteric water. Xiao Qing determined that it was icteric hepatitis by scratching his eyes, and told him to go to the township health center for treatment.The woman in Hou Mingyuan immediately changed her face after hearing this, and said, how could it be hepatitis?She slammed the door away from Xiaoqing as if Xiaoqing was cursing her.Xiaoqing watched the gray backs of a mother and child disappear behind the primary school building, and felt an indescribable feeling in her heart, which once again told her not to stay in the country for a long time.

After the mother and child were sent away, the door of the clinic never rang again.The sunlight came in quietly, shining through the glass on the aluminum pressure cooker, and on the dilapidated locust wood chopping board.The days of Xiema Sanzhuang Health Center are lonely and long. Because it is adjacent to the village, the blacksmith furnace and the village primary school, the irrelevant noise that intrudes from time to time is like the mountains on the other side of the river, reflecting the loneliness in the scene from time to time. .Xiaoqing is fully prepared to spend her life in the countryside, such as never being with housewives, never looking for a partner to marry in the countryside, but when the long and lonely time stretching from the mountains and wild fields comes, Xiaoqing From time to time, irritability and boredom gushed out of Qing's heart.This irritability and boredom came unexpectedly, and she couldn't grasp it with the tentacles of her imagination in the county town.Thinking of the country in the county town is like a flower bud on a branch looking down at its rough black roots, only knowing its ugliness, but unable to understand the most essential bearing of it every moment; but thinking of the city in the country is like It’s like a person who has had a good dream and realizes the beauty of the dream after waking up, but he can’t continue it no matter what he wants to resume, and it’s hard to recall what the good dream was like.Xiaoqing's irritability and boredom stem from a kind of regret that cannot be recalled.Of course, what she wants to recall is not Principal Miao, Fang Yiming and Liu Jingjing, but the self-confidence and ideals that she once struggled to get out of the villa, the inner motivation that pushed her to repeatedly collide.The long and lonely reality is the long night after waking up from the dream, and Xiaoqing doesn't know how to pass the long night.She often opened the door of the house and stood at the door, watching several village cadres from the village head come out and go in with seriousness, watching those blacksmiths who hammered farm tools without brushing their teeth and laughed with their yellow teeth bared.These people have nothing to do with her. When Xiaoqing looks at them, she often thinks that it might be a happy thing to be able to get along with them.

This is a day when Xiaoqing is depressed but extremely empty.Maizi began to feel irritable because he hadn't seen Yueyue for several days. When the construction plan of the village committee's brick yard was over, he took advantage of everyone walking out of the village and came to Xiaoqing with a smile.When Xiaoqing saw Maizi, it was like seeing a cloud in the sky, without any reaction.What did Maizi say about Lin Xiaoqing? Xiaoqing squinted at this dark man, what's the matter?Maizi said that Qingzhu had talked about you.Maizi's words were incoherent, and it was clear that Xiaoqing didn't have to answer, it was just a greeting ceremony, like a handshake in the city.Maizi glanced at Xiaoqing, opened the door and entered the room with a bang, and said, this job is actually not easy.

Xiaoqing said that you thought it was easy for you, but it was even more difficult for you.Maizi spoke Mandarin, which aroused Xiaoqing's unexpected interest.As early as when I went to school in the county, I had this feeling. Putonghua is like a beautiful coat, which can invisibly bring a kind of class to people.Maizi's Mandarin stimulated Xiaoqing's desire to speak, and Xiaoqing said that you stole the limelight. Maizi said, thanks to your father and Mr. Weng. Xiaoqing laughed out loud, it's a lie, people like you don't thank others. Maizi said, who am I? Xiaoqing said, self-righteous, suffering and hatred.

Maizi said that the more bitter and bitter the hatred, the more you can remember the benefits of others. Xiaoqing said that it was written for others to read, but in his heart he felt that the whole world owed you. Maizi was stunned, as if to say that you girl has really poisonous eyes.How did you know? Xiaoqing said, from my dad, he is that kind of person. Maizi didn't speak, thinking that this girl is very interesting, and at the same time looking for topics that went off the rails, stopped for a while, Maizi said, what kind of person is Mr. Weng? Xiaoqing glanced at Maizi, without hesitation, she was the exact opposite of you, with a superior background, but felt that she owed everyone.

do you know herMaizi asked very deeply. Xiaoqing said, of course, she is my sister-in-law. Maizi fell into deep thought, with an imperceptible blush on his black face. Seeing that Maizi stopped talking about her sister-in-law, Xiaoqing seemed to realize something, saying that you also fell in love with my sister-in-law?Maizi shook his head, the blush on his face deepened.He stood up, walked out, and said Lin Xiaoqing, thank you for your evaluation of me, no one has ever evaluated me like that, you are a very special woman. Xiaoqing shook her shoulders, showing a coquettish look, so needless to say!

After Maizi left, Xiaoqing's boredom and emptiness had a tinge of serenity.Xiaoqing seldom had this kind of dialogue in Xiema Mountain Villa. It seemed that it was not in harmony with the rural land, and it had a metallic luster, which gave Xiaoqing a chance to experience some excitement in loneliness. Later, Xiaoqing knew that the whole conversation between Maizi and her was for her sister-in-law; later Xiaoqing knew that it was the conversation in solitude that led her into a thrilling story. Like a seed soaked in a warm pond, the national army has experienced the immersion in the hot air flow of people and vehicles in the city, and the inquiring eyes of famous teachers and doctors from one hospital after another. As he wandered around like a guerrilla, the sense of superiority he once had when studying in the city disappeared.The disease that is too embarrassing to tell needs to be repeated over and over again, and the doctor's hesitant expression needs to be recollected again and again, and the judgment of whether the disease is serious or not is deduced from it.In an extremely upset and depressed mood, the national army increased the doses of various traditional Chinese medicine prescriptions.He went to a hospital for one prescription, and each prescription required seven to ten doses. With the help of his classmates who worked in the Agricultural Bureau, he went to the last hospital and took the last medicine. At the gate of Qiulin Guest House, the National Army Encounter an unexpected fellow-Tiger Claw.

At that time, the Guojun was dragging his tired feet up the steps of the guest house, when he heard a rough shout behind him, the Guojun turned his head and saw Tiger Claw sitting on a truck waving at him.Guo Jun turned around, stuffed the medicine in his hand into his back pocket, and moved forward.what are you doing?Tiger Claw jumped out of the car, wiped the sweat off his face, and said he was going to charge the goods.The national army was suspicious, who was so bold that dared to let the tiger's paw bet on the goods.The national army said, who will be in custody?Tiger Claw didn't answer directly, walked to the cab and called, Lao Niu, let me introduce you, this is Lin Guojun from the Seed Station in Xiema Town, my buddy.The old cow loves to ignore it and squints, half a smile but not a smile.Seeing that Tiger Claw didn't arouse the other party's enthusiasm, he added that his father was a foreman and a rich man.The old cow stretched out his hand from the lowered car door, and the Guojun also stretched out his hand.When they shook hands, the tiger's paw said that the national army, Lao Niu is a well-known figure in our county, and he keeps a motorcade.The national army didn't know how to express it at all. They usually met Tiger Claw in the village at the entrance of the town, and they met each other as passers-by.After shaking hands, the national army backed out knowingly, Tiger Claw followed up and said, fuck, you can't give our buddies a strong waist and brag about us.The national army said, did you become a black security guard?Tiger Claw was noncommittal.Tiger Claw looked at the crowded car on the other side, and saw that he couldn't get away for a while, so he told the story from the beginning.

A month ago, after drinking at Maizi's house, Tiger Claw thought about his future.In the past few years, he has never felt that Jinshui Maizi is much better than himself. Jinshui is just like himself. Once he learns, he falters and does not do his job properly. It looks rough.In the bottom of his heart, he never looked down on them, but a meal of shochu showed the ambitions of the two brats, and the tiger's claws were greatly stimulated. They can all have ambitions, why can't I?So one day not long after, I packed my bags and left the house to come to the county seat.He didn't know what he could do, he came to the county so easily.However, he did not expect that he would encounter another incident, which defined his life path after leaving home.Just as he got off the bus at the bus station, he accidentally stepped on the foot of a man with a scabbard face and was scolded. Tiger Claw walked up to him with a pleasant face, and with a slight movement of his hand on the shoulder of a scabbard face, the boy fell to the ground somersaulted.The tiger's paws flashed and the tiger's teeth flashed, and he smiled for a while without looking at it, and walked away.Unexpectedly, not far away, the scabbard face catches up to him, repeatedly calling for big brother to hand it over.Although Tiger Claw had committed many crimes for many years, he didn't understand the meaning of the underworld words, so he stopped in a daze.The scabbard face said, I am the black security guard of the self-employed Lao Niu. I think you are tall and powerful. I just tried your fists on purpose. The Lao Niu asked me to hire a bodyguard for 20,000 yuan a month.Tiger paw asked so much?The scabbard face said it was black insurance, which was risky.The tiger's paws are so big that he is afraid of everything, but he is not afraid of risks, so he followed the old cow to make a bet without saying a word.A few days ago, Lao Niu robbed a public transportation convoy in the county seat to transport clams. The public convoy refused to accept it and set up obstacles on the way every day.Tiger Claw said, fuck, you will never know if you don't come out, the underworld is more loyal than the white way.Because several battles were fought very beautifully, Lao Niu provided him with beer and fish every day, and nearly 1,000 yuan in hard work was paid on the spot.But one day just after leaving the county town, Tiger Claw saw his uncle who was going to the market on the roadside on the back of the bucket. His fingers suddenly itched, he took off his clothes and threw a bag of clams. The old cow found him, and he didn't invite him to eat meat or drink for three days. . After hearing this, Guojun made no sound, and slowly moved towards the front of the car. When he reached the door of the car, Guojun took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, threw two into the driver and Lao Niu, and said, friend, my fellow It's an authentic person, just use it at ease.The old cow lit the cigarette, took two deep breaths, exhaled a wisp of smoke, and nodded slowly.At this time, the national army decided to retreat, and the national army turned to Tiger Claw, saying that they wanted to save their lives.Tiger claws The tiger-like body sticks out in a "half" shape, stretches out dustpan-like claws to hold the national army, and says thank you heavily.When Guojun's slender hands were firmly held by the tiger's claws, he felt that the thing under his body that had been regarded as the subject for half a year shrank.For some reason, saying goodbye to Tiger Claw, the national army felt faint sadness in front of this person who had never looked straight at him.This sadness has been hanging over the national army back to Xiema Mountain Villa. When the national army who had been away from home for a week came into the house carrying a travel bag of herbs, the family rushed to express their joy to him.While the mother was busy with the pot, she said, why did it take so long?Watching it every day is almost killing me.Xiaoqing, who usually seldom talks at home, ran out with a cry, grabbed the national army backpack and said, why do you look like a landmine stealer?Every month, a basin of water was brought to the stone platform in the courtyard for the national army to wash their faces.In fact, as soon as Guojun walked in the door, Yueyue noticed that he had lost weight, his waist became thinner, his chin changed from square to pointed, and he was covered with stubble.Yueyue didn't say anything. Yueyue didn't say anything. On the one hand, in order to hide from her mother-in-law, she had been kept in the dark about the illness of the national army; Emaciated, she would shed tears.However, in order to cover up the deeper, inexplicable fear, Yueyue was silent for a while, and then began to talk about the national army, saying that you must be so skinny because you don't want to spend money on food, and your belt is loose.Yueyue really had tears in her eyes.After Yueyue finished speaking, she went to help the national army rub their backs, ignoring the eyes of her father-in-law, mother-in-law, Xiaoqing and Huo Hua.When Yueyue saw Huo Hua's small eyes, the movements of her hands became softer and more joyful, dancing between the basin and her back, splashing water all over the courtyard. Lin Zhi helped a man watch TV in the house. He already felt his son's return from the hustle and bustle of the family's kitchen, but he didn't move.When stepping down, the prestige and majesty of a village cadre will indeed be lost in front of the villagers, and the majesty of the elders who are fathers at home will never be lost.After washing his body, Guojun walked into the house and said, Dad, I'm back.It's a courtesy report.Lin Zhibang was silent.Seeing that his father had nothing to say, the Guojun stood for a while and turned around to leave, Lin Zhibang spoke, how did Yueyue treat you?The national army was excited, and his heart turned over, thinking that his father knew that he was sick, so he hesitated and said, it's good.you lost weight.The national army didn't say anything, Lin Zhibang said, if your father stepped back, she can't use it to make a big impression on you. Our Lin family has no foundation and can't be bullied.Guojun finally understood what his father meant, and said that Yueyue was not that kind of person, so he turned and left the house. Because of the week-long rush that made him feel even more depressed, and because of his father's advice to be more concerned about his son, Guojun was always in a bad mood, and Yueyue repeatedly stroked his body with his hands, but he gently pushed him down.Guojun doesn't want to be intimate with Yueyue because he doesn't want to make his mood worse, but Yueyue thinks her husband is aware of her changes.It wasn't until she repeatedly fondled the national army that she lost sleepiness, and talked about the situation in the city for a few days, and even met the tiger's claw, that Yueyue closed her eyes with peace of mind.When Guojun talked about saying good things for Tiger Claw, Yueyue took the opportunity to interject, I love you Guojun.After Yueyue said this, she seemed to have climbed a high mountain, and she was sweating all over her body.The heat is like asphalt that has just been poured on the township road, nourishing the mountains and plains of Xiema Mountain Villa thickly and stickily. Time travels in the scorching heat of summer, as if a canal of clear water flows into the valley and deep pool, and refuses to flow forward any more.In Xiema Villa, as long as it comes to summer, the women will all become relaxed and idle.The way of life in the field is clear. The children who go to school no longer have to force the time to cook. Except for three meals a day, there is no need to invest too much in the day. A person who is alive and well can sit in the river loop downstream of the reservoir.At this time, while women bare their bellies and breasts, they also unreservedly reveal their different thoughts.The stagnation of time and the monotony of life, although the apportionment is the same for every woman in the village, but because the circumstances of each household are different, everyone's thoughts are also very different.Women in the Loop, as long as they take off their clothes, they can't help but take off all the things that were hidden in fear that others would know about them. What kind of men don't care about their families, and sons learn to be lazy; Daughter-in-law followed a wild man... Shanghekou Lin Zhiliang's woman is usually most afraid of seeing Wen Shengli's woman. This woman who never talks much is spoiled by men. Wen Shengli never lets her go to the field to do rough work. She walked into a mirror like a monster with scabies on her face, feeling uncomfortable when she moved her hands and feet.However, at this time, when she saw Wen Shengli walking into the loop awe-inspiringly, she said unabashedly, big sister, I really envy you.The woman Wen Shengli squinted her eyes and smiled, saying what kind of contempt is there, I am contemptuous of you, your mother’s family has no bad things to pester you, you don’t know, my sister was paralyzed at the age of twelve, now she is fifty-two years old, brothers and daughter-in-law can’t wait If you are impatient, just vent your anger on me, and once I go back to my mother's house, I will get angry.The woman of victory has a paralyzed sister, and the woman of Zhiliang has long known it, but she just looks at men and protects women every day, so she can't remember the troubles behind her.The Zhiliang woman said, yes, it is always a matter of concern, but after all, this matter belongs to her natal family, and it is far away, and she returns once every ten or eight days, and there is still a good time in ten or eight days. , the ground, seeing the man can't take responsibility, angry to death.Xiahekou was lucky to become a woman, because the man was taken by the tiger's claws as the captain, and he rarely joined the women's crowd. The women chattered in private, and she had red ears. At this time, she ignored it and rushed into the women's crowd The women said why not let Hou Yuncheng beat the tiger's claws, so that people can still sit still when they are bullied?Hou Yuncheng's woman said that it was a fool to do that, and Hou Yuncheng was not a tiger's claw opponent at all, so how would he live if he was beaten to death or injured?Said the eye circle is red.The women stopped talking suddenly, each splashed water on themselves, and said after a long time, yes, I don't know why he beat him into meatloaf.The usual anger towards Hou Yuncheng's woman suddenly made the words in the woman's heart rush into a stream of water.The women's thoughts flowed out one after another, converging into a stream like a river, soaking their skin and lubricating their hearts at the same time.Exposing your thoughts is like a person who is carefully stepping on stones to cross the river and accidentally falls into the water, and no longer has to worry about the dryness and wetness of his shoes to step on the water freely.They talk about their own men's and their own life without any pretense, so that all the burdens of their hearts have been washed away by the accumulated water of time for several seasons. The same woman in the villa, Yueyue couldn't reveal herself like they did.Yueyue couldn't reveal herself not because she was a substitute teacher different from the country women, but because the thoughts in her heart were like lizards in the grass.During the first summer vacation after marriage, Yueyue tortured each other in the stagnant heat with anxious longing and a deep sense of guilt. Every night, the figures, eyes, and backs of the national army, It will sew a huge leather shell with sharp edges to cut off all the unreasonable thoughts of Yueyue. Whenever the national army goes to work in the daytime, the infinite light and heat will drive away the shadows, and the thoughts will go along the dirt street and grass ditch. Crawl and fly along patches of crops.Missing and guilt are like two balls thrown into the water, one after another during the day and night.Let Yueyue lose weight day by day, and her complexion turns yellow.The most effective way to resist the two things is to go to Houchuan to give Zhang Xiaomin extra lessons.Zhang Xiaomin is a poor child. His mother got lung disease just one year after entering middle school. In order to treat her mother, her father asked her to take care of her mother at home and go out to work as a migrant worker. Rice feeds the pigs and serves the mother.Yueyue goes to work twice a day like going to work, and Zhang Xiaomin's mother's constant groaning will make Yueyue become another person as soon as she enters Zhang's house - a rural teacher who saves her compatriots in dire straits, not just a woman in a mountain village . One afternoon with a little cool breeze, Yueyue had just finished packing the dishes and was just pushing the cart to the street, when she met Maizi at the door of Zhang Shoushan's house in the east courtyard of old uncle Zhiliang.This was the first time Yueyue saw Maizi after the breakup. If Yueyue could sit in the loop or under the shade of a tree like a woman in a mountain villa in summer, Yueyue would have many opportunities to meet him.Maizi walked out of the yard with Lin Zhibang, Maizi saw Yueyue happily calling Teacher Weng.Yueyue saw Maizi almost at the same time when she heard the cry, the moment Yueyue saw Maizi, she felt as if she was suddenly electrified, and then her heart jumped in a panic, and her eyes brightened up.But then Yueyue saw her father-in-law Lin Zhibang.Seeing Lin Zhibang, Yueyue suddenly remembered that when she was having lunch, Yueyue brought a pair of chopsticks for her father-in-law, and her mother-in-law said that Zhang Shoushan, in the east courtyard, had a separate family and would not come back to eat.At that time, Yueyue never thought that Maizi would be present even if he was the head of a village.The sudden impulse on Yueyue's face immediately turned into an unnatural sneer after seeing her father-in-law, just like a newly budding chrysanthemum drooping its head after severe frost.Yueyue said, oh, it's... separation.Maizi asked questions instead of answering, where are you going?Yueyue said to go to Houchuan to make up lessons.So Lin Zhibang went west, Maizi Yueyue went east, and walked out of the street under Zhang Shoushan's sleepy eyes. Because Yueyue walked in front of Maizi, her legs were like a broken compass when she walked, and her landing point was far from what she imagined.Because surrounded by a person's eyes, she also felt that her back was being roasted by fire.But Maizi was attracted by Yueyue's slender figure in a dress. At first, Maizi wanted to talk, saying that he hadn't seen you since he came here several times.But when Yueyue's elegant and elegant figure fit into his eyes, Maizi felt his throat hoarse, and when his words narrating the past were about to jump through his throat, he was abruptly pushed back by the excitement of the present.Since becoming the village head, Maizi has been like a fish swimming into the depths of the reservoir from a shallow bay, and his whole body and mind have been submerged by the thick waters. It is completely different from the erratic wisp of solitary smoke rising at the gate of the small courtyard of the cottage.Yueyue's giving made him extremely proud and made him bold in everything he did.When he calmed down at night and silently salvaged the image that made him proud, the figure of Yueyue disappearing in the night overlapped Qingzhu's milky white figure, and became Maizi who walked around the streets and alleys during the day and hid in his soul. Chase found.Yueyue's skirt fluttering in the wind licked and licked between the tripod of the bicycle, playing silent music for the tacit mute speech of the two.The road on Tun Street stretches into a row of dark green corn forests.The country road was silent, and they could hear each other's uneven breathing.When she arrived at the fork in the road leading to Maizi's house, Yueyue suddenly felt that the car sank, no matter how she pushed it, she couldn't move it.Yueyue didn't look back to find the reason, the trembling in her body made her clearly foresee everything that was about to happen.The bicycle left Yueyue gently, flying overhead like a little swallow.Maizi held his bicycle, and when he left, his footsteps were hurried and fast, making Yueyue mistakenly think that he had swept into the corn field in a single leap.Pausing for a while, seeing that Maizi didn't enter the Baomi field, but was advancing towards Dongyakou's house, Yueyue took a step to keep up. The no longer sticky wind swayed the leaves of the crops in the mountains and fields of Xiema Mountain Villa, and the moist and shining sounded the language of autumn.At this moment, in the countryside covered with dense crops, privacy is like rice worms wrapped in corn leaves, talking love, affection and joy to themselves.After entering the house, Maizi hugged Yueyue several times, but Yueyue pushed her away violently.Yueyue pushes Maizi away not against Maizi’s closeness, but deliberately suppresses the impact of desire, and uses long-term staring to identify the quality of Maizi’s emotions—after the sense of guilt is expelled by an unexpected encounter, the memory has been stored. The long thoughts rushed into the land of Yueyue's heart like a flood. Yueyue saw how they rolled and swept her life in the past days, and now how they deeply and strongly shocked her soul. When Maizi was walking behind like a puppy, she thought that she would rather die for it.Yueyue's understanding of herself made her suddenly have a desire to measure the depth of each other's emotions when her eyes met for a long time.The infatuated Yueyue can't know that when the fire of desire ignites a man, the relationship has long lost its proper truth. For a woman, love is originally a lie, or in other words, only the true expression of a lie can truly express love.Yueyue was straight and thin into a long but still round face, as if reading for a long time, she read the pair of small black eyes on Maizi's dark skin.Small eyes speak of excitement and enthusiasm, and small eyes speak of naughtiness and greed.Because Yueyue created a distance, Maizi had to put his passionate greed into words, I love you Yueyue, Maizi said.Maizi's face is full of primitive impulses, and a thick moisture gathers on the open chest, I really love you Yueyue.Maizi said again.When Yueyue saw Maizi, who was spontaneously combusting like a fire, he violently pushed the flames towards her, God knows what kind of world collapse it was.Yueyue closes her eyes, concentrates her energy to feel the soul-stirring hot current scorched by the flames in her body, and feels the floating inside and outside her body.Maizi crossed the distance and hugged Yueyue again. Where is the distance between Yueyue Maizi? It was like a gap where magma broke out.First, they moved around on the ground with their lips in their mouths, their four arms tied around their waists like four chains, wishing they could embed themselves into each other's body, or embed each other into their own body.Yueyue's hand stretched out to caress Maizi's back.Maizi's hand was between Yueyue's breasts, and a young peach picker shook it gently as if appreciating the peaches he was about to pick.Yueyue couldn't stop shaking and itching, and collapsed softly into Maizi's arms, so Maizi picked up Yueyue and sat on the edge of the kang, Yueyue suddenly shrank into a little bear, Yueyue's face and cheeks were like apples Red, vermilion lips fluttered by panting.Maizi looked at Yueyue's face obsessively, it was inconceivable how this strange woman came into his arms all of a sudden.There are indeed so many unbelievable things in Maizi's life of traveling all over the world.When Maizi looked at Yueyue's flushed face, he couldn't help being excited. His hand re-entered Yueyue's breast, flicked, stroked, and then slowly slid down. When it reached the skirt, his hand suddenly lifted his waist jump over.But at this moment, Yueyue opened her eyes abruptly, her tight limbs split apart abruptly, Yueyue struggled to jump off Maizi's embrace, repeatedly saying no, I can't do this, I can't.Like a duck that went to the wrong gate, pecked a few mouthfuls and saw the master coming with a thorn, flapped its wings and ran away.Maizi looked at Yueyue in amazement, thinking that his hands had thorns and hooks.Yueyue shrank her shoulders, rubbed her hands, looked at Maizi strangely, and said that I am a bad woman, right?Do you take me for a bad woman?Maizi looked at Yueyue in puzzlement, his chest moved up and down, and he was gasping for breath.Maizi said no, you are a good woman, you are a good woman that no one in our villa dares to compare to.Yueyue said that I shouldn't come to Cheng Maizi, I'm a married woman and I shouldn't come, Cheng Maizi.Maizi suddenly realized Yueyue's ambivalence, his eyes lit up suddenly, he stepped forward and grabbed Yueyue's hand, "Yueyue, you are not bad, you are really not bad, if you want to be bad, I will be bad, I shouldn't... Just halfway through the words, the two seemed to be pushed by a force at the same time and hugged each other violently. This time they hugged each other and neither of them spoke anymore, as if each of them held the belief that if one is bad, it will be bad to the end. They embraced each other and hastily lifted the barriers between them for each other.When Yueyue was lying on the cool kang mat, she felt that all parts of her body were open and fluffy. Yueyue felt that her whole body and mind were sinking in the wet grass, sinking in the clear and restless pond, waiting for the soft crazy looting.Yueyue moaned, the subtle and weak moans conveyed infinite agitation and infinite pain.Maizi felt Yueyue's agitation and pain, and kept raving "I love you, Yueyue, I love you".Yueyue can hear everything but seems to be unable to hear anything, she just follows the bumps and tears, her whole body turns into nothingness, her whole soul screams a voice: how good it is to be a woman... Yueyue sank into an unparalleled peace and calm, as if the bottle had finally fallen to the bottom of the water after several ups and downs.Yueyue lay flat, looking at Maizi quietly, a skirt covered her whole body, with a quiet expression that was a little bit sad but also a little bit relieved, Yueyue put one hand on Maizi's chin, and the other towards Maizi. Spreading it out, making a relaxed gesture, and at this moment, Yueyue's fingers touched something, a book - right next to the rolled luggage.Yueyue drew it over and saw that it was a collection of poems, Pushkin's poems.do you like poetry Am I an old fashioned person?It has been with me for more than twenty years.There is a woman over there who is quietly, quietly proud, just like you. You say I am proud? Both you and Qingzhu belong to the proud type, but she is so proud and lively, she is not as quiet as you, so quiet that it makes people panic. We are all country people, how can we have any pride, we can see that the pride is precisely because of your own pride. No, no, I’m speaking from the bottom of my heart because I’m helpless, so my heart is often hostile to those who have a foundation. If Qingzhu and you hadn’t taken the initiative to approach you, I would never have taken the initiative to approach you .This is actually low self-esteem. Saying that, Yueyue withdrew her raised hand and held Maizi's face.Maizi's entire body was naked, showing a joyful expression.At this time, Maizi suddenly put on shorts, walked out of the main room and bolted the door, and when he came back, he bared his white teeth and told Yueyue, we are brave enough, the door is wide open, we should go and get the whole village Call to see.What are you looking at?Yueyue asked.Maizi took off his shorts and threw himself into Yueyue's arms and said, Cheng Maizi had good luck and kissed Weng Yueyue, no one in our villa would believe it.Yueyue pouted and became angry, pushed Maizi's heavy body, and said you are a bad thing, what do you think of me?Maizi grabbed Yueyue's nipple with his mouth, sucked it hard, and then said, be a water demon, do you understand the water demon?Once upon a time, there was an old monk who practiced by a lake in a dense forest. He kept his eyes open from morning till night, working, praying and chanting. 老人已经用铁锹为自己掘好一座坟，他已经对神明默祝，渴望圆寂，了此一生。 有一次，在夏天的黄昏，老僧伫立于矮小的茅屋前，真心地对着上帝祷念。 树林变得越来越暗，暮霭在湖上袅袅飘散，一轮月光穿透云层，静静地滑过天廷。 老僧突然把目光透向湖面。 他看着，不自主地充满恐惧；刹时间自己也不能理解自己…… 他看见：波浪翻滚了，转瞬又归于平静…… 蓦地……轻快如夜影，雪白，如山冈的初雪，一个裸体女人走出来，默默地坐在岸边。 买子诵着，感到体内的冲动再一次涌起，这一次涌起不是为肉体的接触，而是因为灵魂的撞击，月月是个女水妖，买子在脑里瞬间映现了自己佝偻在火车上、蜷缩在窑洞里、熏烤在窑门烟雾里的情景。这些卑琐的、每忆起都不愿多想的情景让买子面对月月洁白的肌肤萌动了强烈的、再一次进入月月体内的意念，他就是那个对着神明祷念的老僧。月月感应着这爱欲的重新升腾，迅速伸手搂住买子。买子挣脱搂抱，而是将脸埋进月月双乳间，手在月月两腿之间穿行，润滑和潮湿的臀部在买子掌心里诉说着温暖隐秘的波动……这一次买子没给月月任何语言的暗示，也没有等待月月的配合，任自纵情、任自疯狂，而这恰恰使他们的交融交合变得纯粹，变得炉火纯青，就像小站不停的直达列车，持久的轰鸣真正让人体验穿山过野的痛快。倒是月月在跃上巅峰的时刻连声地喊着怎么办？怎么办啊程买子？列车如期到达终点，目的地变成了异乡，怎么办？买子抹擦着身上雨水浇淋似的汗珠，兴奋而无奈地寻望四周，月月，嫁给我吧。买子随口说出这句是为了表达畅酣和激动。月月开始没有反应，直直地瞅着窗外明晃晃的空间，许久，她好像看出什么，弹起身子，穿上衣服，异常伤感而又异常果决地说，不，不能，你不能是我的全部，我不该爱上你，我还有国军，我还有国军…… 月月一弹身坐起来，脸上现出惯常的拘谨和雅致，刚才躺在炕上时的娇羞和任性丝毫不见，在买子那句要月月嫁他的话出口时，月月看到一只边际不规形象模糊的黑影，这黑影就在买子家天棚的一角，像人手又像猫的手爪，它起初不动，仿佛隐在视觉深处，后来随着月月眼神的转动，它转动起来，在空中舞蹈似的，月月头发蓦地扎煞起来，一种不祥触目惊心地遍布月月四周，她于是迅速整好衣裙跳下炕来。 买子不知道发生了什么，买子仿佛受了伤害似的没有说话。其实他从未想过要月月嫁给自己，他不想攀月月的高枝，庆珠的教训已刻进了心腑。关键是，月月后边有一个林国军，虽然月月从未表现她的优越，虽然月月在跟他的相处中从未讲过国军，但他能感到，他们的婚姻只是出了一点问题，一点性格上的或者是细节上的问题，绝对不是根本的、有可怕性质的问题。买子忽然说出让月月嫁自己的话，不过是情急之下的信口开河，可是当月月认真地拒绝了买子，详细地回答了买子，买子一时愣住，不知该说句什么话才能掩饰心中的难过。不过他没有让月月看出，他依然迷醉地看着月月。 月月因为没有说出自己的发现，她的突然的弹起便让买子陡然增加了陌生感，增加了狐疑和难过。此时此刻，月月其实并不了解，她的生命已经离不开买子，国军只是她的一个活着的外壳，而她已经从躯壳中爬出，飞蛾出茧一样在树叶间产卵、生蚕…… 她却愣要返回她的外壳。 月月离开买子院落的动作太迅疾太突然，使买子一时拾掇不起沉迷着放纵着的心绪。月月走出院子时买子没有远送，他看着月月头也不回地离去，返回屋扑到炕上。买子肚子痛似的翻滚着蜷缩着，询问自己女人到底是什么尤物，他为何总是弄不明白？他确实不敢想娶过月月，可是他希望他能知道月月在想什么，他也并不希望月月跟他交心，可至少不能让他在亲近之后感受陌生。经历庆珠与自己亲近之后的陌生，他再也无法忍受再一次亲近之后的陌生。买子眼前再次展现了庆珠在小树林里弃他而去的情景，买子忽地不再翻滚，买子翻滚的身体歇息下来，他感到他对山庄骄傲的女人有些反感，他感到那个曾经强烈地挣扎在内心的坚硬的东西再一次冒头。买子忽地一下爬起，深吸一口气，两臂猛力一甩作了一个快刀斩乱麻的姿势，而后撞进东屋，走近老母身边。妈，买子说，老母应声抿了抿嘴，深陷的眼睛盯住买子，说，庆珠来了，庆珠怎不过来看我？买子一直没有告诉母亲庆珠死了，买子握住母亲枯瘦的手指，答非所问地说，妈，我会给你争气，我一定争气。