Chapter 26 Forgotten Memories (2)

——Spring is coming, flowers are coming, rain is coming, clouds are coming, I want to open the marriage certificate with Jiang Yuanlan, my parents are so angry that my nose is crooked, I use both soft and hard methods, I also know that I am not filial and I am not good, but there is nothing I can do about it.  ——Have you cooked cooked rice with uncooked rice?  ——Not only did the raw rice make mature rice, even the rice crust was almost eaten Here I am, but I beg the government to do me a favor and let my marriage be settled, or else the wedding candy, wedding wine and cigarettes I prepared would be wasted. 

—Are you telling the truth?  ——Marriage is not a trifling matter. Only my stupid Jiang Yuanlan came to the dictatorship to care about the sudden rush of care. He said he raped me. It was just a trick of a man with low self-confidence. What kind of man is forced to say such deadly nonsense what kind of man is scared to walk into the public prosecutor's office, so I want to say that I will not marry him unless the world is reversed. I go out and kill myself on the wire under the pole.  ——Are you both voluntary?  ——The two parties are voluntary, voluntary, but to be honest, I seduced him. Student love, teacher love, has existed throughout the ages, is legal, and is fashionable. Everyone, please don’t be surprised and blame me. 

—— Don't you think you have a thick skin?When leaving the gate of the Public Security Bureau, the little girl looked back at Director Bao standing on the high steps. Her disdain and loneliness were all on her face. She questioned the little girl with her eyes like this, which made the little girl deeply let out a sigh of relief.She thought: she could successfully complete the task entrusted by Director Guo and rescue Jiang Yuanlan. The joy in her heart made her run and jump. Apply to slightly dry lips.She even felt that there was nothing wrong with letting the society care about it.Thinking of the dignified expressions of Director Guo, Wei Fengyan, Yang Meiren, etc., she burst out laughing, thinking that they were too timid, and she just went to the forest to pick a basket of mushrooms, and just yawned in the corridor. 

As soon as Xiao Zizi walked out of the mulberry garden behind West Street, she was suddenly hit by a storm like raindrops of soil, mud balls, rotten vegetable leaves, melon skins, stinky tomatoes and other preparations that had been prepared in advance. Good ink and sheep dung, she didn't know any of the people who rushed to her from a distance of ten feet, but they, including two or three women, cursed at her and kept grinning at her, Making obscene gestures with gestures.The little scorpion instinctively covered her face with her hands, turned her body sideways, and waited for an opportunity to escape the sudden storm, but when she found that this group of people had surrounded the entire street, she had no choice but to back away, bitch!loose woman!Bitch!Big broken shoes!In the beginning, the little girl felt fresh and excited when she heard such scolding. She never thought that the scolding was related to her, and it was her who was scolding!Seconds later, when she realized that they had said everything they could about women, and they were done, she still didn't realize that she had fallen into the abyss of indiscretion and innocence that would define her life. .She didn't realize that her ordinary and simple life had suddenly turned into a dirty and dirty life. Afterwards, her understanding of her own superficiality and mistakes took a lifetime to complete.At that time, she was just furious, and even felt that the other party must have made a mistake. "Hey - hey, I'm a kid, I'm a kid!" 

"You smelly and shameless little bastard! You..." At that moment, when a fat, fat and strong woman cursed with fierce shining eyes, the inattentive little man froze like a clay sculpture, and the previous self-reported family could be regarded as whining, even though she was not yet Knowing whether she still has the ability to raise courage and dignity, but she wants to see the faces of a group of people on the opposite side clearly. She looks forward to having a familiar face, so as to find out the cause of the disaster and find out what mistakes she has made.However, the sudden disaster was full of sadness, and everyone's faces were so strange and full of hatred.In an instant, her eyes were covered with tears, covered by a cloth darker than the night, and she could only see the scorched yellow eyes of rams hanging from the street lamps hanging in the wire cage. 

The little girl with a blank mind waited for her attackers to beat and scold her enough. They all dispersed for a long time before moving, and the continuous curses still sounded in their ears. The sharp and fierce curses were like a tide. interest.She ran to the school gate in one breath, but stopped suddenly.The young maple trees sprouting crazily and the lush green grass by the campus lake flashed back and forth in the moonlight, and a few old junipers also protruded out of the high wall of the campus unfathomably, silently from a high place. Staring at the little crocodile, the tiny needles shaking lazily seem to be asking: What are you doing here? 

It wasn't until this time that the little boy calmed down: it was so unrealistic to want to throw himself into Jiang Yuanlan's arms and cry aggrievedly.Look at yourself, it's dirtier than a beggar, more scary than a sheep struggling in the mud and rain, look at yourself being beaten all over, it will definitely frighten Jiang Yuanlan.At this moment, she looked back at the city wall lying on a piece of gray tiles. It was like a huge ship, lying on top of the dark houses and stretching to the foot of the continuous Yin Mountain. It gave up anchoring, Sail to the other side.From the city wall, the little man saw almost imperceptible joy, that is, when the pain caused by the accident was too deep, he called all the pain "feelings".She thought that since it was a feeling, there was nothing she could not bear. Since it was a feeling, no matter how difficult or bitter it was, it was also a feeling. Feelings cannot be done as one likes. Thinking about it this way, she boarded the Great Wall just as she and Wei Fengyan laughed. , she sang like Wei Fengyan back then: 

The little servant's family walked out of the upper door, Two pots of green onions were planted in the back garden.  A pair of flies landed on a green onion leaf,  Red is female and green is male.  The male fly chases the female fly, Little things can be married.  Green, red, babbling,  It looks like it's more than human.  After singing, the little scorpion found the place where Teacher Gautan Helen and the man were buried. Although the person curled up in a ball of millet stalks has been buried, the ball of millet stalks is still there, and it is even fluffier and richer than before. a lot.Little Gaizi also rolled her body into a basket and curled up in it. She looked at the brightest Vega and thought: Vega, Vega, weave a more beautiful dress for me tonight. I will wash my face with spring water tomorrow morning. , use the jubilant flowing spring river as a mirror to dress up, I want to go to Jiang Yuanlan, I want to tell him that someone has bullied me, someone... the little boy can't go on thinking about it, she is crying so loudly, she is crying And fell asleep. 

On the morning of early summer on the plateau outside the Great Wall, the breeze blows the dew on the grass stems and leaves onto the grooves and battlements of the city wall, and onto the face of the little man, who wakes up.She opened her eyes like a patient who has finally regained consciousness, and licked her chapped lips with her tongue. She looked around blankly, and suddenly found a large character carved with a knife on a city brick beside her: Return emotion to clear name , to teach the world.  The little boy understood that this was left by Mr. Qutan Helen and her lover with their lives.A night ago, she was like a small mountain almond tree in full bloom—beautiful and strong, but now her cheeks look whiter than the limestone on the hills along the Sanggan River, her lips have lost their redness, and only her eyes are It was still as bright as a lamb, but its expression was completely different.She has a more confused state of mind than the rain.There was a sneer at the corner of her mouth, and when she raised her blue eyelids and injured neck, she couldn't help but gasp in pain, she leaned close to the battlements, and looked at a school surrounded by cooking smoke. When looking at the buildings and streets of Xicheng, a new, strange, frightening and incomprehensible expression flashed in his eyes. 

When there is no way out, the person who comes out to help is always the path in the field. Besides, there is a strong part of the bum in the habits of the little gangster, or the part of hanging around.For the new day she never had the same grief for the past.Therefore, Xiaozizi is full of invincible passion for revisiting yesterday's incident. Deep in her bones, she believes that she has acted as a scapegoat for another girl with the same name as her. She insists on shopping, and she thinks she can't Just being called a bitch and a broken shoe in such a daze.  Before the mirage shrouded in Xicheng hadn't dissipated, the little boy came to the well platform by the east wall of the school.Due to the continuous rain on the wet well platform, moss grew in the crevices of the stones.She washed her face by drinking water from the animal's stone trough, and when she rubbed her face with her hands, she felt pain here and there.A few wanton sparrows also stood on the stone trough and chattered gloatingly at her. She wanted to grab the sparrows by their thin necks and throw them into the well. She called the sparrows whores and broken shoes loudly. After scolding such a dirty word once, I found that the washing water and tears were mixed together, and I felt hungry. 

When she came to Yangmi's house, dark clouds gathered and it began to rain again.Yang Meiren had already gone to her fiancé's house to "sit on the kang noodles" five minutes before her.The simple and honest Wei Fengyan had a serious and fraternal expression on her face, but she was in a completely relaxed state. She said that she slept well at Yang Mei's house. She thought she was going to squeeze half of the kang with the little one, but she didn't come back all night. , She slept on all fours and forgot where she slept. When she woke up, Yang Meiren's family's quilts were piled up in yards and piled up in the corner of the pit.  Xiao Kuazi's modernity yesterday and today's embarrassment taught Wei Fengyan how easy it is to reach the other side of life.She widened her eyes and asked the little boy: "Why did you become this virtuous? Why did you become such an unlucky person?" "I don't have a slogan defending virtue on my body, so why can't I become This virtue?!" The little scorpion's righteous words made Wei Fengyan laugh, "Do you know what you look like?" "What do you look like?" "Like a hag with disheveled hair! Also like..." "Like broken shoes and a bitch Isn't it?" Wei Fengyan's face turned pale immediately at the little clerk's rhetorical question, "You know all about it?" Wei Fengyan asked nervously and flusteredly.  "You tell me!" "I won't tell, I'll never tell!" Wei Fengyan's sudden forceful tone and the tears in her eyes caused the little girl to turn around abruptly. While she was taking off her dirty clothes, she was searching for a comb to comb her hair all over the room.When she put on the white-washed Chinese tunic suit again, she suddenly found that the top was shortened: "Hey, I've grown taller! Look," the little man walked up to Wei Fengyan, turned around and said : "So this dress is here," she gestured with her hands on her knees, "Now it's here," she finished pointing to her thighs, and then said in a casual tone: "Come on, let's eat brains." !" I will not go!Wei Fengyan played with the folds of her clothes preoccupied, her narrow eyes narrowed even more, and she tried her best to show a smile from the corner of her mouth: "It's delicious, but it's too expensive." You don’t need to go out!” The little boy grabbed Wei Fengyan’s arm and was about to go out, Wei Fengyan suddenly said in a begging tone: “Young girl, come back to our village with me, come to our village for a few days, Xicheng, you can’t stay Lah. You can no longer be ashamed of yourself! Do you still want to eat your brains? Do you still have any brains? You are finished!"  "Why? Old Wei, if you want to recognize me as an old classmate, you have to tell me clearly!" The little girl let go of her hand, and her arm drooped as if it was broken, but the flame in her heart was still burning. There is also a melancholy that is more pattering than the rain. She longs for Jiang Yuanlan to appear in front of her at this moment. Jiang Yuanlan will go to eat his brains with her first, and then go to the photo studio to take a picture.She wants to stretch Jiang Yuanlan's clothes in front of the photographer and other strangers, and Zhou Zhengzhou straightens his collar. She also needs to dip some cold water to press down the strands of hair on the back of Jiang Yuanlan's head that always grow out after waking up, and wait for the two of them Immediately after the photo was taken, I went to the vast mountainous area—towards the mythical silver light and the distant view shrouded in mist—the Sanggan River merged into a mirage... A calm and obsessive radiance rose on the face of the little girl who was dreaming like this. Her always optimistic nature made her take out a yellow banana apple from the travel bag as if she suddenly remembered something, and she stuffed it into Wei Fengyan's arms. Save one, leave it to him.  Wei Fengyan held the apples in her hands, looked at the undefended expression of the little boy, and was suffocated by the burst of crying that suddenly rushed into her throat...Her kindness floated on the pot forever like sheep's lungs, she The depression was always floating on the pot like suet, and she couldn't help telling the truth to the little boy: "They say you steal men, steal men!" In the next few days, the little boy wandered like an ownerless wild dog in the four towns and fields of Xicheng.Before that, she had never discovered that she had an extraordinary enthusiasm for notoriety, and a morbid appreciation for malicious slander, no matter whether it was their pointing fingers, cursing and beating, she seemed to have some secrets The ulterior and extraordinary desires encouraged her. While she was able to avoid hitting back and scolding, she also wondered in her heart, why did she go to Xicheng Middle School to find Jiang Yuanlan after being beaten again and again? Why did she have a sweet experience of feeling humiliation in the calmness, and it was just that she didn't have the slightest miss or regret for her family, on the contrary, she hated them so much.Moreover, the more her hatred continued unabated, the more peaceful her heart became.At the door of the non-staple food store, she picked up a broken sack that used to contain sheep's head and sheep's offal. She took it with her like a magic carpet. At night, she either found a cellar, or a bench at a train station, or When I went back to the lee of the city wall and slept in the open, the sack was both a mattress and a quilt, and it was also a barrier to isolate me from the world.Teacher Hao, who teaches biology, taught that the spirit that lives inside a person is nothing more than the function of the brain.The relationship between thought and brain is like the relationship between bile and gallbladder, and urine and kidneys. Xiaojiazi felt that what Teacher Hao told her, including what the whole Xicheng Middle School told him, was not as much as what Director Guo told her in half an hour.She feels that people's thoughts cannot withstand filtering, and the more thoughts that have never been filtered, the better things are. For example, all the conditions of Director Guo that she agreed to without thinking, including not going to Jiang Yuanlan within a period of time, not going to No more trouble for him, without thinking about it.  Director Guo told the little boy that human life is based on breathing, but human beings are more than just a breath of air.Lie in the cold abandoned air-raid shelter, the more she thought about what Director Guo said, the more she felt that Director Guo was telling the truth. While breathing the fresh air of summer night, she let the scattered raindrops hit her face while thinking about Wei Fengyan's accusation. Who committed the crime of stealing a man?She thought of Director Guo, Director Bao, and even Miss Yang, but she didn't think about Jiang Yuanlan.  —— Two weeks later, Xiao Yanzi was brought back to Xiaojing Village by Jue Xindan and Bai Maya.Since the little guy had a problem with his style, the little guy has become more popular than celebrities.An anonymous person called Xiaojing Village, and the branch secretary said that Juexindan and Baimaya were the best candidates to solve the style problem.So, they sent them down the mountain.The two gray monkeys each worked side jobs for three days, fighting at night in the yellow rice shop outside the west gate. They were so tired that their faces turned into yellow rice noodles, so they ate melon seeds and candy and went to find the little crocodile.The two of them were found on the ninth day. The little girl was sitting on the crenellation of the city wall in a daze, facing Xicheng Middle School. She told Juexindan and Baimaya that the lake in the campus was blocked by demons. , turmoil.  The wet wind in summer raised showers of rain and fog on the deserted city wall, and the Chinese tunic suit of the little boy was also blown down by the wet wind, and his whole small face was so thin that it was not as big as a sheep's face, making him look like a little boy It is indeed suffering.Jue Xin Dan and Bai Ma Ya did not hesitate to cry, crying as sweetly as the newly turned land, and their expressions were as solemn as a taut banner. The lice's little scorpion spoke loads of comforting words, and they kept emphasizing that in ancient times everything went smoothly, but these days, big things can be left alone.However, they found that the little boy's eyes were slack, and he was stunned there, sluggishly but submissively obeying all arrangements, including agreeing to go back to the village with the two of them.  Bai Maya said to the young man in a considerate manner: "The one who was shot and died, we will help you find news of seeing him. He is not in Xicheng, but he was called to the province to compile teaching materials. Guo Guo went with him. Director..." The little girl who had already walked out of the greeting door suddenly turned around like crazy, and ran towards the school, searching all over the ground while running, until she held two and a half bricks in her hands.Hey, hey——Juexindan and Baimaya chased and chased the little boy out of breath, and they begged: "Little boy, stop walking, let us follow anyway Go to the shadow."  Holding two and a half bricks, the little girl stood in front of Jiang Yuanlan's hut panting and tearful. What hurt her heart more than a knife was when she saw the door lock. She said as if biting off her tongue: "Jiang Yuanlan Teacher, come out!" The little girl was shaking violently, her teeth were chattering loudly, the distance between the hut and her was not more than ten feet away, but with all her strength, she threw half of the brick towards the door panel of the hut, towards the hut. Throwing it to the open window, half of the brick was thrown on the window lattice and bounced back. In addition to the dust falling on the window lattice and the window paper being smashed, except for the door panel creaking a few times, the newly woven fabric chained to the door frame None of the spider webs were damaged.  The torrential rain came suddenly and unexpectedly.  When the little girl picked up the brick and threw it at the door again, the bounced brick happened to hit the little girl, and her forehead was bleeding profusely.Jue Xindan and Bai Ma Ya shouted in horror: "It's out! It's out!" But at that moment, the little boy felt that the blood that flowed out was also a cathartic rain, so timely and so understanding , her depressed mood began to surge like dark clouds in the sky, unlike before, which pressed her down like an iron plate.She watched the torrential rain with admiration.From the blood on her hands, she could also see the dark clouds in her heart constantly rolling, and a piece of blue sky as big as a sheep's hoof was fleeting, but she saw it.  One day in July 1976, the little girl was about to leave Xicheng, and she received a transfer order from the Guangdong Provincial Department of Health.  Xiao Wuzi didn't take away her stitches, plants and trees in Xiaojing Village, but she felt that this was her forever home, and people who left home always wanted to go home, and she would come back soon.  The one who sent her on the road was half-backed.The little man proposed to go to Datong instead of Xicheng, but half-heartedly disagreed.He said that it is not far to meet each other, and it is not affectionate to see each other, and it is a long way to go to Datong, what good is it to go around far?The people who went far away were competing with themselves, half-shouldered holding the bullwhip and said.  When the little boy came to Xicheng in a half-legged ox cart, the sunset was already red.Singing "Da Lian Cheng", "Picking up Blue Charcoal", and "Yellow Oriole Spreading Wings" all the way with a half-faced, full of interest, but as soon as they entered the Yingxuan Gate, they drooped their faces and said that the dog-day Yingxuan Gate welcomes a fart, The road is too short.The little boy said that I would like to go to Xicheng Middle School. You should send me to the school gate like the first time, but he said half-heartedly: "It's a sad place for the baby, and I won't send it to you." The little boy said "If you don't give it away, I'll go by myself. You can go to the West Street to fight for the tip." Half-buttock said: "No! The Lord just won't give it away," but the rein in his hand was still turned and pulled to the inside of his right hand, and walked. Enter the alley leading to Xicheng Middle School.  Annoyance is nothing but people thinking about others.  Hearts hurt more than people hurt.  The heart mourns more than people mourn.  The heart is dead, but people bury people.  ...   Half-baked said that Grandma Fu'er asked him to sing to the little boy.The little man said that only old kilns have old trees, and old people have old songs, but I have nothing.He said half-heartedly that you have a job!The little boy smiled wryly, and tried his best to calm down again, saying that he half remembered to go back and take care of my sheep. My three lambs were only one month old, especially the one with dark circles and old legs. It’s too soft to go away, you take some cooked beans and chew them into pieces and sip it into its mouth... "Don't talk, don't talk," the half-bellied man waved his hand and said, "If you can't be annoying, just Counting your daughter's family affairs..."  —— When he knocked on the door of Jiang Yuanlan's hut, Jiang Yuanlan was facing the door with his back. After washing his face, he wrung the towel with both hands. He shouted, "Come in!" The little man pushed the door open.  Jiang Yuanlan was wearing a snow-white shirt and a suit vest, and his lower body was a pair of straight dark blue trousers with sharp trouser lines.He never expected that it was the little boy who came in, his hands froze when twisting the towel, his upper body shook violently, and there was an extremely complicated and inexpressible expression of pain on his face.The little boy's eyes seemed to be dazzled by that white shirt, she seemed to be unable to see anything, she couldn't even believe how there were such white shirts in this world, a man would be so handsome after wearing a white shirt, so Young, so charming, she looked at the small buttons on the shirt that shone like pearl shells, looked at the creases on the shirt, looked at the open pointed collar, she seemed to find that she had never been so radiant. Jiang Yuanlan, she said to Teacher Jiang sincerely, even enviously: "You look so beautiful in a white shirt, why haven't you worn a white shirt before? Don't you think you look very good in a white shirt? I have never seen You wear a white shirt, do you know that you are so energetic in a white shirt, do you know how young you are in a white shirt? You know that you suddenly become a handsome boy in a white shirt!"  Jiang Yuanlan put the towel on the washbasin stand, and the little girl noticed that there was a black circle on Jiang Yuanlan's washbasin again. Without saying a word, she first put some soap on her hands, and then washed it with the remaining water in the basin Get up the washbasin.She turned the basin around, and after washing it clean, she opened the door with a light touch of her toe, poured out the dirty water in the basin, and poured some clean water from the iron pot to rinse the basin clean. It was sprinkled on the dry green bricks on the spot.The hut that was sprinkled with water suddenly had a pleasant smell of moisture.  Jiang Yuanlan pulled the stool away affectionately, motioned for the little boy to sit down, the little girl shook her head with a smile, she took out a handkerchief from the satchel, and opened it in front of Jiang Yuanlan: it was worn by Jiang Yuanlan in Xiaojing Village. The watch on the little man's wrist. "I don't know how to wind it, I twisted it hard, and it broke. I'm sorry, your watch has been stopped for a long time, and it has been with me for a long time." The little man said, and put the watch on the table.Immediately afterwards, the little girl looked at Jiang Yuanlan's white shirt intently again, and she admired like looking at a rare and precious thing: "Your shirt is so white, why didn't you show me a white shirt before? Last time you came Our village should wear white shirts and be angry with those bad boys in our village, none of them have such white shirts, your white shirts are whiter than a newborn lamb!" Jiang Yuanlan picked up the watch, sighed and asked in a timid voice: "Can I just stay with you?" "A scarf is enough!" After the little man finished speaking, he gritted his fine white teeth and smiled sweetly.  "Aren't you going to ask me what I'm doing in Xicheng?" Xiao Yanzi asked.  A spark flashed in Jiang Yuanlan's eyes, but it went out immediately: "You came to settle accounts with me! I know, you will definitely settle accounts with me!" "Do the math, you're a big-headed ghost! Can you stay away from mathematics?" The little boy quickly glanced at Jiang Yuanlan's miserable expression, as if he had just had an unpleasant quarrel with her, she thought He misunderstood her again. In her heart, there was nothing but caring, nothing but kindness, nothing but warmth. She said softly, "I'm here to say goodbye to you. I'm leaving." "There needs to be an important conversation between us," Jiang Yuanlan said to himself rather than to the young man.In his eyes appeared the frightened and docile look of a smart sheep or goat after an illness: "You are gone, you are gone..." The little man did not expect Jiang Yuanlan's voice to be so distant and indifferent all of a sudden, She hurriedly said: "I told you that we will be together forever. Is the little purse I gave you still there? I left a message for you on that little purse!"  Jiang Yuanlan nodded, and let out a long breath: "That's a commemoration for forgetting!" For the memory of forgetting!  Xiao Wu was shocked by this sentence all of a sudden!She was in a hurry, and she said to Jiang Yuanlan incoherently crying: "I can't marry you now, it's because I'm not financially independent, no, no, it's not about financial problems, it's because of my age... I won't be legally legal until October next year your marriageable age!" "What did you say?!" "I'm sorry, I've been lying to you, lying to..." Jiang Yuanlan suddenly hit her head with both hands as if out of control, and the little boy backed away in shock. She called out in an extremely sharp voice: "Teacher Jiang! Don't worry, wait for me, wait for me..." In despair, Jiang Yuanlan raised his tear-ridden head, and said sadly:  "I know, I know, I get it, but don't you want to know how old I am?" "You are a hundred years old, a thousand years old, and I will marry you at ten thousand years old. Age is not important to me, at least it is not as important to me as seeing you in a white shirt. This white shirt you are wearing is more important than what All important, all good, all of which make me happy. Promise me that in the future, you will reply to my letter on the same day.” According to his own train of thought, the little man ordered willfully and recklessly: “You take me to the train station, I will I want you to send me."  It was raining heavily outside the house. This year, Xicheng used up all the rain that lasted for a hundred years. After the rain fell, it was like a flood. Outside an inch, there was misty rain and mist, and the mist was vast.  ... Seeing Jiang Yuanlan pick up the key to lock the door, the little girl suddenly felt flustered. She noticed that Jiang Yuanlan's face was so pale, and his index finger and middle finger holding the key were burnt yellow from the smoke. She snatched Jiang Yuanlan's hand She said: "The umbrella can be opened! The umbrella can't be opened!" As she spoke, she pushed Jiang Yuanlan to the side of the bed. She pressed both hands several times to Jiang Yuanlan who was about to stand up and said, "I won't let you Send me off, I want you to pick me up! On that day, you must come, still wearing this white shirt, pick me up!"