Chapter 20 Six "You are a smart sister"

Hu Yuyin was often amazed that she could survive, survive, and fall in love with Qin Shutian.Every time after being fought, beaten and paraded in the streets, she was escorted back to the Old Hu's Inn, and she felt that she had lived enough, and there was only a trace of breath left.Sometimes I don't even like to take off the black plaque on my neck, so I just sleep with all my clothes on.But when he woke up the next morning, he opened his eyes in disbelief: Strange, still alive?Why not die!She stretched out her hand to touch her chest, which was still thumping and thumping.That is to say, she should get up and sweep the streets...

She felt sorry for herself, and had planned to choose a better day to die, the first day of the new year, or the fifteenth day.Yes, death is my last urgent matter, so I must choose a better day.And to die in a good way.You can't hang yourself with a rope, you can't poke scissors in your chest, you can't buy rat poison.That would lead to a terrible death and disfigurement.It is best to throw water.People will salvage them and put them neatly and cleanly.It was placed on a door panel as if she was asleep, and her hair was not too messy.Only his face was as white as a sheet of paper, and a little bit blue and swollen.Hu Yuyin used to be a jade girl in front of Guanyin Bodhisattva, and she should be a jade girl after death.Even if it becomes a ghost, it will not be ugly or scary.

Because of this, she has walked to the Baishi bridge of Yuyexi several times, staring at the stream in a daze.The Baishi bridge is three or four feet high, and the stream is as green as satin.On both sides of the stream are wet rock walls covered with saxifrage, phoenix tail, and wisteria.If you look down from the rocky bank, you can see that the water is up and down, and there are two white stone bridges and four rock walls.Standing on the bridge, the reflection in the water is so clear that even the dimples on the face can be seen.The bridge is high, the bank is steep, and the water is deep.Therefore, in all dynasties, poor women have come to this bridge to seek suicide.Over time, the residents of the town gave this Baishi Bridge another name: Gunv Bridge.Every time, when Hu Yuyin came to the Gunv Bridge, when she looked down and saw her own shadow falling into the water, she felt sad and cried: Yuyin, Yuyin, is this you?Are you a bad woman?Have you ever hurt someone?What are your life and death rivals in town?No, no!Yuyin was afraid of being stepped on by ants in the town, she seldom blushed, she never spoke in a loud voice, and she never bullied a child.You are not snobbish, mean, and stingy with money, and you have helped many people back then... so why?You don't harm others, don't hate others, are not snobbish, and have no life-and-death rivalry, and people still want to punish you, hate you, and fight you?Think of you as the cheapest, meanest woman in the world?It makes you unable to lift your head when walking, unable to raise your face when you are in front of others, and you have to look around before you even smile... What crime did you do to end up in such a miserable life and receive such retribution!This world is too unfair to me, too heartless!Every time she thinks of this, she cries, cries, feels aggrieved, feels injustice, and becomes angry! "I don't want to die! I don't want to die! Why should I die? What kind of law and what kind of crime have I committed? Why can't I live?" She stood on the Orphan Girl Bridge and did not jump off several times.She just shouldn't have seen the self in the water clearly at a glance...

She had abused herself in other ways as well.Once she did not touch her teeth for three days and three nights.But every morning I comb my hair and wash my face, and every night I take a bath and change clothes.On the morning of the fourth day, she went to sweep the street and passed out on Qingshiban Street.It was Qin Shutian who carried her back to the Old Huji Inn, persuaded her like a relative, coaxed her like a younger sister, and fed her a bowl of egg drop soup.Qin Shutian cried while feeding her.She had never seen Qin Shutian cry.Whether this iron hat rightist is kneeling on bricks and being criticized, or parading in the street with a black card, he is always smiling, just like visiting in-laws or sitting at a banquet.He is happy and knows no sorrow.But now, Qin Shutian cried because of her, which made Hu Yuyin's cold heart feel a little bit of human warmth.She has been soft-hearted since she was a child.She is soft-hearted to others and soft-hearted to herself.It turned out that when Guigui was alive and life was good, she was most afraid of seeing and hearing sad things in other people's houses.Qin Shutian, Qin Zhizi... have been protecting her for a long time.For a while, she hated Epilepsy Qin.As if his own misfortune was brought about by epilepsy Qin.It was that year when she got married, but Qin Duanzi brought the goblins from the song and dance troupe to sing "Happy Song Hall", anti-feudalism, and ruined her wedding... Now, Qin Shutian probably wants to make up for his mistakes.But the fault is so serious that even if you die three times and live three times, you can't make up for it.In fact, Qin Shutian is also hurting others, he feels sorry for him, and the evildoer feels sorry for the evildoer.Beside Hu Yuyin's hospital bed, Qin Shutian hummed "Song of Copper Coins" in "Xi Ge Tang" softly to her: "It's easy to sing "Song of Copper Coins" in the first month. How much is a copper coin? Quickly calculate, quickly say, you are a smart sister, she sings "Copper Coin Song"..." Qin Shutian sang three copper coins, four copper coins, and sang until ten copper coins stopped . "You are a smart sister, a smart sister", every time he sang this line, Qin Zizi looked at Hu Yuyin sadly with tears in his eyes.What's the meaning? "You are a smart sister" Ah, why do you want to humiliate yourself?Why not live?The world is not just a Hibiscus town.The world is big, and the sky lasts forever.Moreover, the existence of the world cannot rely solely on sports and struggles.There are many, many other things in the world.Smart sister, smart sister, you are a smart sister! ...

The ancient folk songs are calling and exhorting.song of life.Perhaps it is this ancient song that she has sung and loved since she was a child that awakened Hu Yuyin's desire for life.She began to pay attention to Qin Shutian.Becoming a member of the five categories and being a subordinate, you are always so happy and active.It was as if misery, humiliation, and misery did not exist in his nigger world.He always seems to be in the lead when parading in the streets.When accepting criticism, he always kneels down with a plop before anyone shouts or shakes his fists, and lowers his head.When someone slaps him on the left side, he waits for another slap on the right side.The revolutionary masses and cadres of the town brigade said that he was not stubborn, but just an old sportsman.At first Hu Yuyin looked down on him a little, thinking that he was an idiot.But later, I slowly realized that Qin Shutian's method was right, and he could suffer less beatings and hardships.It's just that I can't afford to learn by myself.He pulled her hair, and as soon as he let go, she couldn't help stretching out her fingers to comb it.He pressed down on her neck and bent over ninety degrees. When she straightened up, she was about to pull the skirt and button the clothes.She was made to kneel down, and as soon as she was allowed to stand up, she immediately wiped the dust off her knees.Because of this habit, she suffered a lot of beatings, but she couldn't change it.Someone said, "This new rich peasant woman is really stubborn."At this time, she was thinking of dying early, so that people would not be able to scold her, criticize her, or fight her.

She was still alive because of another incident that gave her a strong stimulus.That time, the group of lawless Red Guards from other places, speaking the northern dialect or Changsha accent, dragged out the commune secretary, Li Guoxiang, and paraded through the streets with a pair of broken shoes hanging around his neck!What kind of thing is this? The world is really big, and there are so many novel things that have never been heard or seen.It turned out that you fight against me, I fight against you, fight against others, and fight against yourself... When she came back from the street that day, she didn't know why, but she felt happy in her heart.Evil-minded, gloating.She washed her face and went to look in the mirror.The mirror is left by my mother. During the "Siqing", only the new building was confiscated and converted into a small guest house in the town, leaving the old shop to her.She was always afraid that she hadn't looked in the mirror for two or three years.She realized that she was much older, with crow's tail wrinkles on the corners of her forehead, eyes, and mouth...but the overall appearance of her face remained the same.The hair was still green, thick and soft.The eyes were still big and bright, and the cheeks were still plump.She herself was surprised.She even sometimes thought frantically: Well, if Li Guoxiang takes off her official hat and the rich peasant hat on her head, let's see for yourself!Tell a hundred men to touch and pick with their eyes closed, not afraid of not being compared to that whore and whore...

Sometimes, she went to bed early at night and couldn't fall asleep.The weather was hot, and she lay naked on the quilt.She slapped her hands and covered her eyes habitually, as if shy, and then slowly wiped it down until she reached her chest before stopping.The chest is still bulging and towering, like two small peaks.She really hated herself to death, she was almost like a newly married girl... It was so disgusting, she wished she could smooth it over.But it's not fair.Where does it look like a class five molecule?The members of the five categories hunched their backs one by one, their hands and feet were like dry wood sticks, and their chests were desolate like winter grass.Only she and Qin Shutian are still like people.After that, she resumed the habit of looking in the mirror.Sometimes I feel sorry for myself in front of the mirror, but most of the time I cry in front of the mirror.What are you crying for?She cried and there was still a fire in her heart that didn't go out.She only hoped that the fire would be extinguished sooner.

On the morning of the heavy thunderstorm, that dark morning, she and Qin Shutian were so wet that there was not a single dry yarn left on their bodies. God fulfilled their sins... For things in the world, the "first" is always the most precious. valuable.With the first _, there is no need to worry about the second.If you do the first day of junior high school, you will do fifteenth.The vigilance of the townspeople is focused on politics.Class struggle is really ubiquitous and pervasive.Who would have thought that two "new five types of elements" would be punished to clean up Qingshiban Street, and this kind of sexual intercourse between men and women would still happen?They were deceived, deceived.Maybe it's the movement like a big circle within a small circle, the coming and going like a revolving lantern, and the repeated slogans that change from day to night, which make them dazzled and tired.They just feel that the Qingshiban Street is being cleaned day by day, so clean that the bluestone slabs emit a dim light, and the dolls will not get dirty if they drop a grain of rice on it.In addition, Qin Shutian and Hu Yuyin, two members of the fifth category, were very active in their work, and even grabbed the heavy and dirty work on the team.The wrinkles on Hu Yuyin's face were ironed out, and a layer of ruddy like hibiscus petals appeared.It was as if she had received the letter of approval that on a certain day, the black hat of "new rich peasant" would be removed from her.

The iron hat rightist and the widow of the new rich peasant lived together illegally behind the back of the revolutionary masses in the town.They are like a pair of young people who have had an affair without the approval of the elders. They are always frightened, but also feel that every minute and every second is precious and sweet.As long as they were together, they hugged, hugged, kissed and kissed like crazy.Long-suppressed feelings, when they erupt, manifest themselves in uncanny frenzy, in a kind of urgency for time.It seems that a giant hand may separate them at any time, and they will never see each other forever.They are racing against time.Only deformed life can have deformed love.They understand that such audacity is a flagrant challenge and rebellion against their political identity and social class.At night, they never light their lights.They are used to and even like to live in the dark.Hu Yuyin always slept on Qin Shutian's arm.Sometimes I still call "Gui Gui, Gui Gui" in my sleep.Qin Shutian would not be angry, and agreed, as if he really was Gui Gui.Gui Gui is not dead yet, she is still pampering him and loving his woman.Guigui's soul is attached to Brother Shutian.Brother Shutian often hums "Xigetang" to Yuyin.One hundred and eight tunes, more than two hundred lyrics, the tunes are anti-feudal.He memorizes all the songs and can sing them well.Hu Yuyin admired his good memory and good voice.

"Yuyin, your voice is really good. That year, I brought the actors to collect and organize "Xi Ge Tang". You have a graceful figure and a clear voice like jade. We really want to recruit you to be an actor in the song and dance troupe. But you, at the age of eighteen, recruited a man and got married..." "It's all fate. It's your fault that you took advantage of other people's marriage to rehearse the show and ruined the lottery...Gui Gui and I have a hard life..." "Are you crying again? Crying again. Well, it's all my fault. I always like to mention old sayings, which make you cry."

"Brother Shutian, I don't blame you. It's my own fault. I have a big life and a lonely life. I won't cry anymore, you can sing "Xi Ge Tang" to listen..." Qin Shutian sang again: My sister was born like a cloud, shining brightly against the sun. Tomorrow the bridal sedan chair will go through the door, and the lion in the sky will match the unicorn. Red lacquer stools are paired with top chairs, and Hengzhou flower drums are paired with dulcimers. The bridal chamber held up a hand-to-hand cup of wine, and the newlyweds burst into tears in the wine. My sister was born like a cloud, drifting with the wind without fixed roots... Hu Yuyin unknowingly sang along, followed along.They all sang softly, and it was difficult to hear them outside the shop.Sometimes they sing different words and songs.Hu Yuyin sang the original song and the original lyrics, and Qin Shutian sang the lyrics that he had adapted himself, which are similar with minor differences.When they sang different places, they just pushed each other and glanced at each other, but no one corrected the other.Who said they have only suffering, no happiness?Like all the people in the world who are sincerely in love, they are drinking the sweetest milk and the most precious nectar in life.They love to sing their songs: There are one hundred roads in the world, and ninety-nine of them can walk. There is a desperate road left, don't choose to let my sister go. Raw rice is boiled into mature rice, and the fir board is ready! Marry a chicken and follow the chicken, marry a dog and follow the dog, marry a door panel and carry it on your back. The life formed by the generated "horoscope" is mixed with clear water and muddy water. Accompanying my sister to shed tears in my eye sockets, it is difficult to solve my sister's worries and sorrows... The life of a sinful man stretches endlessly forward like a long black ribbon.Around the end of spring and the beginning of summer, Hu Yuyin began to feel unwell, often rebellious in her heart, wanted to vomit, afraid of being greasy, and eating sour food.I ate and ate the sour radish and sour cabbage gangzi soaked in last winter.At first she didn't feel what was going on.Later, when she inadvertently thought that this was a symptom of "Ba La Du" and "Zuo Li Xi", she almost fainted.I was really surprised and happy, I wanted to laugh and cry.I have been looking forward to it for so many years, but I have not expected it. The time has passed, and there is no wishful thinking, but the "happy" has come quietly and late, and it is in this kind of life where life is not as good as life, and death is worse than life. The years and months have come.why not come sooner?If the rice and tofu stalls were full of babies and three or four babies were born, the new buildings would not be built.With three or four more small mouths to feed and fill, she is a poverty-stricken household and can ask the government for relief and subsidies.With descendants, Gui Gui will not go that way.As a father, how can you not live for future generations? ...Mr. "Bazi" said that she "has no master in her life", and the "son" finally came, although she came late and at an untimely time.Is it a curse or a blessing?She was terrified.But she is willing to bear any pain resulting from it, even giving her life.How much dirty water had been poured on her to make her sterile.Even myself, I always regard childbirth as the number one priority for a woman.Since ancient times, it has been "there are three kinds of unfilial piety, the greatest is to have no descendants". Hu Yuyin didn't immediately tell Qin Shutian that she was "joyed".This matter is too important, and you must tell him only after you have full confidence and confidence.She became more and more tender towards Qin Shutian, and would cuddle up to him whenever she had nothing to do.I often make something good for him to eat and coax him to eat, but I am not willing to eat it myself, just like entertaining a hero who has made great achievements.Women are so infatuated.At the same time, Hu Yuyin seemed to be waiting for the coming of a holy religious festival, she purged her heart and desires, and no longer lived with Qin Shutian, making Qin Shutian feel like he was in a fog.She likes to live alone in the Old Huji Inn, lying quietly on the bed without covering anything, stroking her abdomen with both hands gently, probing, and finally touching the little life The parasitic corner... She is so happy.Tears of happiness and relief filled her eyes.Since Guigui's death, she has never been so excited. She feels how good and interesting it is to be alive.What a fool, but I used to always think of death, death. "You are a smart sister", what kind of "smart sister" are you? A whole month later, after Hu Yuyin became absolutely sure of her pregnancy, and after enjoying this sweet secret alone for a month, she told her about her "joyful happiness" in the early morning Qin Shutian.Qin Shutian woke up like a dream, and only then did he understand the reason why Yuyin was both close to him and estranged from him during this time.He threw the broom, and shouted "Oh my god, my god" in the street, hugging Hu Yuyin tightly, laughing and crying at the same time.Yuyin quickly suppressed his ecstasy, crying and laughing without looking at where or what occasion. "Yuyin, let's plead guilty to the brigade and the commune, and apply for marriage registration!" Qin Shutian buried his face in Yuyin's chest, and said like he was dreaming, "This is something I didn't even dare to think about..." "Will they be accurate? Perhaps, we are adding to the crime." Hu Yuyin replied calmly.She has thought about everything over and over again, so she is not afraid anymore, and she can feel at ease. "We are still human. Which document, which article, which paragraph stipulates that five types of people are not allowed to marry?" Qin Shutian supported her with both hands, and said with confidence. "Just allow us to register. I'm afraid that in these years, people are like red-eyed cows, going crazy, just holding grudges... Never mind. Brother Shutian, don't worry about this matter. No matter what happens to others, you must Sure, the doll is ours anyway. I want it, I want it!" As Hu Yuyin said, she threw herself into Qin Shutian's arms, trembling all over, and began to cry.It was as if someone would stretch out a pair of terrifying hands immediately and snatch the unborn fetus from her arms. Naturally, Qingshiban Street was not cleaned properly this morning.That is to say, from this morning, Qin Shutian assumed the responsibility of a man and never asked Hu Yuyin to get up early to sweep the streets.Yuyin was a little "coquettish" again, and she wanted to sleep in the "Tianguang sleep", like a woman who "sats happy" and her body "lost her temper", she will take a rest for a while.Qin Shutian was intentionally or unintentionally showing it to the neighbors in the town: Hu Yuyin was already owned by someone from Qin, and someone from Qin cleaned her part of the street.