Chapter 7 six

On a night in early autumn, with the breeze blowing in the shadows of stars and leaves, Xiangzi raised his head, looked at the high and distant Milky Way, and sighed.It was such a cool day, and his chest was so wide, but he felt that there was not enough air, and his chest was very stuffy.He wanted to sit down and cry.With his own physique, his tolerance, and his strength, he will be treated as a pig and dog, and he will not be able to maintain one thing. He not only resents the Yang family, but also feels a sense of hopelessness. I'm afraid I won't have any improvement in my life.Pulling the bedroll, he walked more and more slowly, as if he was no longer Xiangzi who could run ten miles by picking up his legs.

When he got to the street, there were few pedestrians, but the street lights were very bright, and he felt even more empty and vague, not knowing where to go.where?Naturally, it is back to people and factories.I feel a little sad again.Those who do business and work hard are not afraid of not having business, but they are afraid that they will not make a business because they have a caretaker, just like a restaurant, a barber shop, and a customer who comes in, takes a look, and then goes out.Xiangzi knew that it was common for him to resign from his job, so he didn't stay here, but he had his own place to stay.However, he maintained his work in a low voice and put his face down in order to buy a car, but it turned out to be a matter of three and a half days.He almost felt ashamed to enter the factory again, and made it a joke for everyone, saying: "Look, Luotuo Xiangzi dares to show love in three and a half days, hum!"

If you don't go to people and factories, where will you go?In order not to think about this matter again, he went straight to Xi'anmen Street.In front of Renhe Factory are three storerooms, one of which is used as a cabinet room. Only the drivers are allowed to come in to pay accounts or negotiate matters, and they are not allowed to pass through the hall casually, because the east and west rooms are used by Liu's father. women's bedroom.Beside the west room is a car door, two green-painted doors, with a thick iron bar bent over it, and a very bright, unshaded electric lamp hanging on it, and the four words painted gold on the iron sheet are hung across the lamp- — "People and depots".Drivers go through this door when they get out of the car to collect the car and come and go at any time.The dark green paint on the door, matched with the gold lettering on it, was illuminated by the bright white electric light; all the cars that went out and in were beautiful cars, the black paint and the yellow paint were all equally shiny, matching the The snow-white upholstery made even the coachmen feel a little proud, as if they all regarded themselves as noblemen among the coachmen.Enter through the gate, turn around the west room in front of you, and you will find a big square courtyard with an old locust tree in the middle.The east and west rooms are all open, and they are where the cars are stored; the south room and the small houses in the small courtyard behind the south room are all the dormitories for the coachmen.

It was about eleven o'clock, and Xiangzi saw the extremely bright and lonely lamp of Renhe Factory.There are no lights in the cabinet room and the east room, but the west room is still on.He knew that the tiger girl hadn't slept yet.He wanted to go in on tiptoe, so that Miss Tiger would not see him; just because she thought highly of him, she didn't want to be the first to see his failure. He had just pulled the car under her window when Hu Niu came out of the car door: "Hey, Xiangzi? Why—" She was about to ask, but when she saw Xiangzi's dejected look, the carriage was pulling the bedroll, she swallowed the words.

Afraid of everything, Xiangzi's shame and anger condensed into a ball, and he immediately stood up and stayed there.Speechless, he looked at Miss Hu stupidly.She is also different today, I don't know if it is illuminated by the electric light, or she has put on powder, her face is much whiter than usual; the whiter face conceals a lot of her fierceness.There was indeed a bit of rouge on her lips, which made Huniu a little charming; when Xiangzi saw this, he felt very strange, and was even more flustered, because he never regarded her as a woman before, and when he suddenly saw those red lips, I suddenly felt a little embarrassed in my heart.She was wearing a light green silk jacket on her upper body, and a pair of blue crinkle pants with fat legs underneath.Under the electric light, the green coat shone with a soft and slightly sad silky gleam. Because of its shortness, a little bit of the waistband of the white trousers was exposed, making the green color more obvious and pure.The fat black trousers below were blown slightly by the breeze, like some kind of gloomy air, trying to get rid of the bright light and unite with the night.Xiangzi didn't dare to look any more, and lowered his head in a daze, with a small shiny green jacket still in his heart.Miss Tiger has always, he knew, not dressed like this.Considering the financial resources of the Liu family, she could wear satin every day, but when dealing with the coachmen all day long, she always wore plain clothes and trousers.Xiangzi seemed to see something very new, both familiar and new, so he was a little confused.

Originally distressed in his heart, and seeing this new and strange living thing under the extremely strong light, he lost his mind.Since he refused to move, he hoped that Miss Tiger would go into the house quickly, or order him to do something. He simply couldn't stand this kind of torture, a very sad torture that didn't look like anything. "Hi!" She took a step forward and said in a low voice: "Don't be dumbfounded! Go, put the car down, come back quickly, I have something to tell you. See you in the room." He was used to helping her with things on weekdays, so he had no choice but to obey.But today she was different from the past, he really wanted to think about it; when he thought about it, he was so stiff; he had no idea, so he pulled the car in.Look at the south house, there is no light, probably they are all asleep; or there are confiscated cars.Putting the car away, he turned back to her door.Suddenly, his heart beat.

"Come in, I have something to tell you!" She poked her head out, half smiling and half annoyed. He walked in slowly. On the table are a few white pears that are not yet ripe, and the skins are still green.A jug and three white porcelain wine cups.A large plate with half a chicken in sauce, and some food like smoked liver sauce tripe. "Look," Miss Tiger pointed to a chair for him, saw him sit down, and said: "Look, I'm going to have a treat today, so you should eat some too!" She said, and poured him a glass of wine; the spicy taste of white dry wine, mixed with the smell of smoked meat, was particularly thick and heavy.

"Drink, eat this chicken; I've already eaten it, don't let it go! I just played with a domino, and I'm sure I'll know when you come back, is it working?" "I don't drink!" Xiangzi looked at the wine cup in a daze. "Get out if you don't drink; what's wrong with being ungrateful for your kind intentions? You silly camel! It won't kill you!Even I can drink four taels.If you don't believe me, take a look! "She picked up the wine cup, filled most of it, closed her eyes, and let out a cry. Holding up the cup, she said, "Drink it!

Or I'll pour your ears into you! " Xiangzi was full of resentment and had nowhere to vent; when he encountered this kind of teasing, he really wanted to stare at her.But he knew that Miss Hu had always been nice to him, and she was so forthright with everyone, so he shouldn't offend her.Since you don't want to offend her, on second thought, just complain to her about your grievances.I have never been very talkative, but today I seem to be bored with a thousand words in my heart, and I have to talk about it to make me happy.Thinking about it this way, he felt that Miss Tiger was not teasing him, but was frankly loving him.He took the wine cup and drank it dry.A hot breath slowly, accurately, and forcefully moved down, he stretched his neck, straightened his chest, and burped two inconvenient belches.

Huniu laughed.He managed to mobilize the wine, and when he heard the laughter, he quickly looked towards Dongjian. "No one," she choked back her laughter, but the smile was still on her face. "The old man went to celebrate my aunt's birthday, so there will be two or three days' delay; my aunt lives in Nanyuan." As he spoke, he filled the cup again. Hearing this, he turned a corner in his heart, and felt that something seemed wrong somewhere.At the same time, he was reluctant to go out; her face was so close to him, her clothes were so clean and smooth, her lips were so red, all made him feel a new kind of stimulation.She was still so old and ugly, but she had more vitality than usual, as if she suddenly became another person, still her, but with something more.He didn't dare to think about this new thing in detail, and he didn't dare to accept it casually for a while, but he couldn't bear to refuse it either.He blushed.As if to strengthen his courage, he took another sip of wine.Just now he wanted to tell her his grievances, but now he forgot.Blushing, he couldn't help but look at her a few more times.The more he watched, the more confused he was; she showed more and more something he didn't understand, more and more hot power was transmitted, and gradually she became an abstract thing.He warned himself to be careful; but he also had to be bold.He drank three glasses of wine in a row, forgetting what it means to be careful.Staring at her in a daze, he didn't know why he felt very happy and bold; he was very brave and wanted to immediately grasp a new experience and happiness.Normally, he was a little afraid of her; now, she is not scary at all.On the contrary, he himself became majestic and powerful, as if he could hold her in his hands like a cat.

The lights in the house went out.It was very dark.From time to time, one or two stars pierced the Milky Way, or drew into the darkness, with red or white light tails, light or stiff, falling straight or sweeping, sometimes moving and trembling, giving the sky Some turmoil of light and heat, some flickering bursts to the darkness.Sometimes one or two stars, sometimes several stars fly down at the same time, making the quiet autumn sky tremble slightly and confusing all the stars for a while.Sometimes a single giant star pierces the corner of the sky horizontally, with an extremely long light tail, emitting star flowers; red, gradually yellowing; at the final advance, it suddenly illuminates a strip of the corner of the sky with joy, as if piercing through thousands of layers The darkness penetrates and lingers some opalescent light.The corner of the eye faded away, the darkness seemed to shake a few times, and then closed again, and the quiet and lazy stars returned to their original positions, smiling on the autumn wind.Flying on the ground are some autumn fireflies looking for lovers, also playing star-like games. The next day, Xiangzi got up early, pulled up the car and went out.There was a little pain in the head and throat, this was because it was the first time he drank alcohol, and he didn't pay attention to it.Sitting at the entrance of a small alley, with the morning breeze blowing his head, he knew that this headache would pass soon.But there was something else in his mind that made him feel depressed and panicked, and he couldn't get rid of it for a while.What happened last night left him wondering, ashamed, sad, and feeling a little dangerous. He didn't understand what happened to Miss Tiger.She was no longer a virgin, Xiangzi didn't know until a few hours ago.He always respected her very much, and had never heard of her being unruly; although she was very easygoing with everyone, they never talked about her behind their backs; ,nothing else.So, why the scene last night? This was obviously confused, and Xiangzi also doubted what happened last night.She knew he was not in the depot, so how could she wait for him wholeheartedly?If any one is fine... Xiangzi lowered his head.He is from the countryside, and although he has never thought of getting married, he has a calculation in mind; if he has his own car, lives a little more comfortably, and is willing to marry, he must go to the countryside to marry a young, strong, hard-working woman. , A girl who can wash and act.Boys of his age, even if someone is in charge, which one doesn't sneak to the "white house"①?Xiangzi has always been unwilling to be easy-going. First, he considers himself a strong man and cannot spend money on women; I can't urinate even with my head against the wall.In the end, he must behave himself in order to be worthy of his future wife, because once he wants to marry, he must marry a clean girl, so he has to act like that.But now, now... Thinking of Huniu, if you look at it as a friend, she is really good; if you look at it as a woman, she is ugly, old, fierce, and shameless!Even thinking of those soldiers who snatched his car and almost killed him, they are not as hateful as thinking of her!She'd ruined the coolness he'd brought from the country, and he was a pussy-stealer now! Besides, what if Liu Si finds out about this matter if they make a fuss about it?Does Liu Si know that his daughter is a loser?If he didn't know, wouldn't Xiangzi bear the blame alone?If they knew it long ago and were unwilling to control their daughter, then what are their father and daughter?If he mixes with such a person, what is he himself?Even if their father and daughter are willing, he can't have her; no matter whether old man Liu has sixty cars, six hundred cars, six thousand cars!He had to leave the people and the factory immediately and break with them completely.Xiangzi has Xiangzi's ability, and he can buy a car and marry a wife with his own ability, this is just and honorable!Thinking of this, he raised his head and felt that he was a good man, there was nothing to be afraid of, nothing to worry about, as long as he worked hard, he would surely succeed. I gave up the seat twice, but failed to pull it up.That awkwardness suddenly returned.I don't want to think about it anymore, but my heart is blocked.This matter seems to be completely different from other matters. Even if there is a solution, it is not easy to forget it casually.Not only did something stick to my body, but there also seemed to be a black spot in my heart, which could never be washed away.No matter how much resentment, how much dislike for her, she seems to always grab his heart, the more he doesn't want to think about it, the more suddenly she jumps out of his heart, a naked her, all the ugly and beautiful all at once, the whole I handed over everything to him, like buying a pile of junk, among the scraps of copper and iron, there were also a few shiny colored items, which made people unable to bear to refuse.He has never been so close to anyone, even though it came out of the blue, even though it was a deception, after all, this kind of relationship can't be forgotten casually, just want to put it aside, it will naturally linger in his heart, as if born Root like.It was not only an experience for him, but an indescribable disturbance which left him at a loss as to what to do.He has nothing to do with her, with himself, with the present and the future, as if he is a bug on a spider web, and it is too late to struggle. In a daze, he pulled a few deals.Even when he was running, he didn't forget this matter in his heart, not clearly, from the beginning to the end, but from time to time, he thought of a meaning, or a little taste, or some feelings, all of which were vague, And kind.He really wanted to drink alone, he drank so much that he didn't know what to do, maybe he could have a better time, and he couldn't suffer from this torture anymore!But he dared not drink.He couldn't destroy himself for this.He thought again about buying a car.But he couldn't concentrate on thinking, something always hindered his mind; before he thought of the car, this thing had sneaked out and occupied his heart, covering the sun like a black cloud and blocking the light broken.At night, he was even more sad when he planned to collect the car.He had to go back to the garage, but he was afraid of going back.What if I meet her? He dragged the empty car around the street, two or three times he was not far from the depot, then turned back and walked elsewhere, very much like a kid who plays truant for the first time and dare not enter the house. Strangely, the more he wanted to avoid her, the more he wanted to meet her, and the darker the day, the more this thought became stronger.A kind of boldness and bewilderment that he knows is wrong but is willing to try tightly grasps his heart. When he was young, he used a pole to poke a hornet's nest like this. He was afraid, but his heart jumped to try it, as if he had some evil spirit. It's like urging yourself.Dimly, he felt a force stronger than himself, trying to knead him into a ball and throw him into a ball of fire; he couldn't stop his progress. He went back to Xi'an Gate again, this time he didn't want to hesitate any longer, he wanted to go straight to the court to find her.She is not anyone, she is just a woman.His whole body became hot.As soon as he walked to the door, a man in his forties came under the light. He seemed to know his face and attitude, but he didn't dare to greet him.Almost instinctively, he said: "A car?" The man was taken aback: "Xiangzi?" "Yes," Xiangzi smiled. "Mr. Cao?" Mr. Cao nodded with a smile. "I said, Xiangzi, if you're not at the gate of the house, why don't you come to my place? The man I'm working with is too lazy, he doesn't care about cleaning the car, although he runs very quickly; will you come?" "Can you come, sir!" Xiangzi seemed to have forgotten how to smile, and kept wiping his face with a small towel. "Sir, when do I go to work?" "Then what?" Mr. Cao thought for a while, "the day after tomorrow." "Yes, sir!" Xiangzi also thought for a while: "Sir, shall I send you back?" "No need; didn't I go to Shanghai for a while? When I came back, I didn't live in the old place. Now I live in Beichang Street; I'll go out for a walk at night. See you the day after tomorrow." Mr. Cao told Xiangzi the house number , and added another sentence: "I still use my own car." Xiangzi was so happy that he wanted to fly, all the troubles of these days were suddenly wiped away, like a white stone road washed by heavy rain.Mr. Cao was his old master, and although they didn't live together much, they had a very good relationship; Mr. Cao was a very kind person, and his family was small, with only one wife and a little boy. He pulled the car and ran straight to Renhe Factory.The lights in Miss Tiger's house are still on. As soon as the light came on, Xiangzi was stunned. After standing for a long time, he decided to go in and see her; told her that he had found another monthly subscription; handed in the two-day car share; wanted to pay his savings; and made a clean break from now on—it was naturally inconvenient to say, but she would understand. He went in and put the car away first, and then he came back and called Miss Liu boldly. "Come in!" He pushed open the door, and she was lying on the bed, wearing ordinary clothes and barefoot.Still leaning sideways, she said, "How is it? What's the matter with the sweetness?" Xiangzi's face was as red as an egg given to someone when he gave birth to a child.After being stunned for a long time, he said slowly, "I've found another job, and I'll go to work the day after tomorrow. He has his own car..." She picked up the words: "You kid doesn't know what to do!" She sat up, pointing at him with a half-smile and half annoyance: "Here's what you eat and what you wear; what's the point of sweating? What? The old man can’t control me, I can’t be a widow for the rest of my life! Even if the old man is really guilty, I have two bodies in my hand, and we can get two or three cars, and we can earn eight cents a day. Isn't it better than you running around the streets all day long with stinky legs? What's wrong with me? Except that I'm a little older than you, it's not much bigger! But I can protect you and love you!" "I'm willing to pull the cart!" Xiangzi couldn't find any other rebuttal. "True wimpy head! Sit down first, I won't be able to bite you!" After she finished speaking, she smiled, showing a pair of canine teeth. Xiangzi sat down with bouncing veins. "Where's my little money?" "It's in the hands of the old man; if you can't lose it, don't be afraid; don't ask him for it, you know his temper? It's enough to buy a car, and if you want it again, you won't be short of a kid; if you want it now, he wants it It's no wonder if you don't scold your soul! He's been good to you! I can't lose it, and I'll pay you both for the short one! You country brain! Don't let me hurt you!" Xiangzi said nothing again, lowered his head and dug out for a long time, took out two days' car rent, and put it on the table: "Two days." Immediately thinking: "I will pay the car today, and I will pay for it tomorrow." Take a day off." He didn't want to take a day off at all; however, it was obvious and straightforward; after handing over the car, he would no longer live in people and factories. Miss Hu came over, grabbed the money in her hand, and stuffed it into his pocket: "These two days, even the car and the people have been given away for nothing! You kid is a bit lucky! Just don't forget to be grateful!" After finishing speaking, she turned around and locked the door upside down. ①The White House, the lowest class of brothel. ②Swift, fast meaning. ③A journey means some days.