Chapter 84 Chapter 83: Willows are dark, flowers are bright, a few words make a big mistake, the sky is far away, don’t walk away

Shi Kelian didn't have an internal disease. He stayed in the hospital for three days and he recovered from his illness.Because according to the order of the nurse, I have to take a walk in the yard.He walked out and stood leaning against the railing for a while.I only saw Yang Xingyuan wearing a dark blue lake crepe jacket and a fedora, and slowly coming out of the upper consultation room, so he yelled from a distance.Seeing that it was Shi Kelian, Yang Xingyuan came up and asked, "Does Miss Shi also see a doctor? I see that you are seriously ill." Shi Kelian said, "There is nothing wrong, but my grandmother passed away. .” Having said this, his throat choked up, and he couldn’t continue.Yang Xingyuan said: "What? The old lady passed away." Shi Kelian said: "It has been more than ten days since she passed away today. I think she is very pitiful. And when she passes away, the more I have no relatives to rely on, how can I not feel sad? My cousin is the one who decides, she must send me to the hospital. According to me, I might as well die." Yang Xingyuan thought about it, she really became a lonely person with no worries.Hearing her say it was also depressing.He lowered his head, stomped his feet twice, and said "cough" twice.Yang Xingyuan didn't speak, and Shi Kelian couldn't speak, so the two faced each other for a long time without making a sound, quietly and silently, looking at each other.After watching for a long time, Shi Kelian remembered a sentence and asked: "Mr. Yang, why is he still in the hospital? Has he recovered from his illness?" Yang Xingyuan said: "The illness is better, but the body has not recovered. No. Now I come here every day to see a doctor. How is Miss Shi's health? Is it okay?" Shi Kelian said: "It doesn't matter, what's the problem? Even if I can't afford it, I don't need to spend too much on my relatives." Coffin money." Yang Xingyuan smiled and said: "The old man is dying of his life at this old age. This is also a legitimate destination, and there is nothing to hurt. Why would Mieshi say such a thing. Hey! People like me, with white hair, can't be hurt. I can’t serve. On the contrary, I often get sick and worry my mother who is far away, and I deserve to die.” Shi Kelian said: “A man’s ambition is everywhere, and this is not a hate thing. Mr. Yang is willing to do things. Responsibility, if you can take a month and a half of leave and go back to your hometown, you can meet the old lady. Like me, now open your eyes and see who is my close person." Two people Standing, you persuade me a few words, I persuade you a few words, the words get longer and longer, and we talked for a full hour.But the nurse walked up behind Shi Kelian, and said softly: "Miss Shi, you have stood for too long, go in and have a rest." Shi Kelian blushed when she said that, and said, "I don't Don't get tired." The nurse said: "Someone has come to your house." Yang Xingyuan couldn't just stand like this, nodded and said: "Goodbye." He retreated.

It was a coincidence that it was Shi Kelian's uncle, Mr. Yu, who came to see the doctor today.He originally followed the nurse, but when he saw Skellyn standing and talking with a man, he couldn't stop.When Shi Kelian saw his uncle coming to see a doctor, he thought it was an extraordinary honor and was very grateful.As soon as Mr. Yu met, he asked who he was talking to?Because this matter was not worthy of attention, Shi Kelian told him casually, "It's a relative of a classmate." After hearing this, Mr. Yu didn't say anything, and instead of going into the infirmary, he turned around and left.Only then did Shi Kelian suddenly realize that his uncle was not satisfied with this matter.I thought to myself, I had already broken away from the Yu family, and only went back because of my grandmother's illness.I originally planned to move to the school as before, but because I fell ill, I was delayed for a few days.Now that my uncle still doesn't take me seriously, and he doesn't even stay in the hospital, let's go back to school.As for the future, we will talk about it at that time.I made up my mind, I stayed here for one night, and the next day, I left the hospital without asking whether the hospital agreed or not.Fortunately, I still had some change on me, so it wasn't too painful.I wrote a letter to Yu Ruixiang asking her to check and send all the things in Yu's house.At this time, it was very close to the start of the school year, and the boarding students came one after another, which was very lively, and my stomach was full of depression, which invisibly subtracted a lot.However, since the start of the school year is approaching, the school board and lodging fees have to be paid for.What I mean is that I waited for Li Dongqing to come to the capital, and then discussed with her in the long run, and settled my lifelong affairs.Now the school is pressing hard for money.There was no other way, so I had no choice but to go to Yang Xingyuan again without avoiding suspicion, still begging him for help.

This afternoon, I went to Yang Xingyuan's apartment as I used to visit him.Into the front yard.Brother Fu, everyone has gone out. The front is empty and there is no one there.In the back yard, there were two people talking, their voices were very loud, Shi Kelian heard that it was Yang Xingyuan talking to Mr. Fang Haogu.As soon as my heart moved, I walked under the morning glory fence beside the moon gate, but I didn't want to go forward.And stand for a while, and listen to whether you can go in.If you can't go in, it will be even more embarrassing when everyone meets.At that time, I heard Yang Xingyuan say: "You don't need to talk about it, Mr. Li. As soon as Ms. Li arrives in Beijing, you will understand." Mr. Fang said: "The reason why Dongqing wants to go to Beijing is because she is willing to sacrifice to complete the two of you." Do you think she came here because of yourself?" Yang Xingyuan said: "I've been talking for a long time, but your old man didn't understand what I mean at all. To be honest, I was extremely discouraged because there is no marriage in this life anyway. It doesn't matter if I know my girlfriend. So I will help her without avoiding suspicion. If I talk about marriage with Ms. Shi now, I will be punished. Ms. Li has given me and Ms. Shi a hard time. Saying it together really gave me a kind of pain. I thought she was born in a poor life, so I recognized her as a friend and often helped her a little. If so, it seems that I have ulterior motives for her, so I have no choice but to see her no longer." Shi Ke When Lian heard this, she couldn't help feeling panicked, and hurriedly stepped back.Clinging to the white powder wall next to the Moon Gate, I stood there blankly for a while, lost in thought.What are you still standing here for?So he sighed and walked out the door with his head down.If I wanted to walk, I couldn't tell the difference between east and west, north and south, so I hired a car indiscriminately and went back to school.When he entered the dormitory, he didn't take off his clothes and shoes, but lay down on the quilt, straight, as if he hadn't known about human affairs.The students in the same dormitory also panicked when they saw her acting suspiciously.He called her again and again, how could she agree, at least she fainted.The classmates were in a mess, so they invited the school supervisor, and quickly called the doctor. Fortunately, the hospital was nearby, and the school doctor was there. After a while, the doctor came.According to him, it didn't matter, he gave Shi Kelian an injection, and then poured a small bottle of medicine, and he became more awake.

The superintendent moved her to the convalescent room and let her recover well for two days, and then she recovered. For the past two days, Shi Kelian slept alone in the convalescent room, very quiet and peaceful, killing time, so she thought carefully about Yang Xingyuan's words, and explained to herself that Li Dongqing and Yang Xingyuan had a very good relationship, why did she reject him? What about your marriage?In the past, I always did not understand, but now I am enlightened, and it was for me.Because Yang Xingyuan helped me so much, I have something on my mind to thank him. When it comes to the word marriage, I know that Dongqing is in front of me, so how could I think of it?But grandma always has this meaning when she is in Japan.Although I object, she and Dongqing talked about it, but I don't know.What's more, in front of Dongqing, I often say that I don't forget the benefits of Yang Xingyuan, and I often communicate with Yang Xingyuan.In this way, Dongqing must have doubts that I intend to marry someone because of Yang Xingyuan.I can't bear to make him unhappy, so I am willing to withdraw from the scope of this love, so that we can achieve good things.well!This is really her mistake.But it never occurred to me for a moment that I had no objection to the marriage.So Dongqing was very discouraged and tried to ask me to replace her.Yang Xingyuan thought that my presence would alienate his lover, so he was most afraid of proposing marriage with me.But pity me, and don't want to sever ties with me.So this question became more and more entangled.Thinking of this, Shi Kelian thought that I didn't care about Yang Xingyuan at first, so why didn't I confess my love to Yang and Li, withdraw from the circle of right and wrong, and let them reunite.And in this way, not only can the pain of the two of them be relieved, even if the truth comes to light, the Yu family will naturally understand after some speculation about me.I just have a naked body, live one more day if I can live, die if I can't live, it's convenient to go anywhere, why do I need a marriage.After making up his mind, he felt a lot more relieved, so he waited quietly for Li Dongqing to come and explained to her.By the way, discuss with her and ask her to think of a way to solve her life problems.As soon as my heart is relieved, the illness will be relieved.When the accountant at the school asked her for money, she agreed without hesitation, and within ten days, she would make the full payment in one go, and there would be no loss of a copper.If there is no money to pay off the debts, move out of the school immediately.The accountant saw that she said it so decisively, and expected that she must be sure, so he waited for her honestly for ten days.Two days later, old Mr. Fang received a letter from Li Dongqing, saying that he would arrive within a week, so he came to Skellyn School and told her the news.Shi Kelian felt more at ease waiting.Unexpectedly, one day passed, and another day, until the deadline set by Shi Kelian, there was only one day left, and there was still no news.Called Mr. Fang's apartment to ask, and he also said he didn't know.I said hard things, and I will definitely pay the money in ten days. What should I do now?Originally, the problems of my own life have not been solved, and I have not read books, let alone talk about it. Now if I pawn and sell my clothes to pay tuition fees, and cut off my future, it is not a solution.How about waiting another week for Dongqing to see if she has any news?If there is still no news, make your own plans.Thinking about it this way, I went to see the accountant first, and said that the payment was delayed for some reason, and it would take six or seven days.The accountant agreed because she made the statement first.After Shi Kelian said this, the first two days were really in a hurry. She didn't have classes, she couldn't eat enough, and she couldn't sleep well.

All day long, I just felt like my heart was on fire, and I couldn't tell what the pain was.After three days, my heart became calm again, no matter what happened, I felt it was meaningless.At this time, even if someone came forward and beat him up without asking any questions, he felt that there was no need to argue with others.It's not like eating chili in my heart like that, I just feel empty, and there is absolutely nothing in my chest.Eat when it's time to eat, and when it's time to sleep, lie down on the bed and fall asleep peacefully.All day long, he smiles when he sees people, but he doesn't go to class.When the students saw her, they were worried at first, but now they are happy again, and they don't know why she is so moody.She herself didn't seem to care, and didn't pay attention to anyone's attention.

On the sixth day, which happened to be Sunday, all the classmates left, but she closed the door of the dormitory and wrote letters all day. Among these many letters, there was one for Li Dongqing and one for Yang Xingyuan.After the letter was finished, I temporarily put the rest of the letters in the box, gave Yang and Li two letters, and hid them in my body.In the afternoon of that day, he came to Mrs. He's house.Mrs. He was looking forward to her and was very happy to see her coming.When Shi Kelian said that her grandmother was dead, Mrs. He said: "No wonder! I went to your school twice and said that you moved back. I don't think I know Mrs. Yu's family, so it is inconvenient to visit you. It is expected that you will always What is the delay, otherwise, you can't stay away from school for so long. The old lady has gone to the west at this old age, and it is also a matter of returning to the roots of life. Don't be sad. You are rare. I want to keep you for dinner, will you? Eat?" Shi Kelian said with a smile: "Yes, I have something to talk to you, I can't come and leave." Mrs. He said: "It's refreshing like this. If you have something to say, just talk. I have long admitted that I tried my best Help." Shi Kelian knew that she seemed to have misunderstood me, and said with a smile: "I have nothing to say, I just have two letters, please pass them on to two people." When she said that, she took the letters from her body Come out and give it to Mrs. He.When Mrs. He saw that it was delivered to Yang Xingyuan and Li Dongqing, she felt a little puzzled. Dongqing was always coming, and she could have a face-to-face meeting if she had something to say, so why did she have to write two letters and ask her to hand it over?Seeing her hesitation, Shi Kelian also guessed what was on her mind, because he said with a smile: "You don't care what is written here. Please wait a week before you can take out these two letters. Don't publish it for a week anyway." Mrs. He frowned and turned her head in thought.Shi Kelian said with a smile: "I don't want to say in advance, a week later, the letter will be opened, anyway, I can't hide it from you, so why should you think about it?" Since she wanted to hand it in a week later, there must be her reasons, so I didn't feel comfortable asking, and said with a smile: "Okay, I'll just guess the riddle for a week. When I open the letter in the future, I'll see what the mystery is." Ke Lian said: "Of course there are mysteries. But on the first level, if you publish before the time, it will not work." Mrs. He said: "Okay! I will endure for a week to see what kind of spiritual method you have?"

Seeing that she agreed, Shi Kelian was very happy, talking and laughing.That night, I had dinner at the He couple's house and drank a little wine.At dinner, He Jianchen was also at the same table, she was so happy, but unexpectedly, she thought she was young after all, now that her marriage is settled, she even forgot about her grandmother's funeral.After dinner, Shi Kelian wanted to leave, and said to Mrs. He: "Send me off, and I don't know when we will meet again!" Mrs. He heard that she did not hire a car for her, and sent her out of the gate, and accompanied her. She walked a main street, and then she hired a car.He got in the car and even said goodbye twice.

Mrs. He saw that she was very happy to go back, thinking that she must be very satisfied today, she said to He Jianchen when she returned home: "Miss Shi is always very satisfied with Mr. Yang's marriage. But Mr. Yang is always very satisfied. It’s about being suspicious or not, how should the people next to us use this matter.” He Jianchen smiled and said, “Don’t be too busy, I have a chance. The last time we talked about Mr. Wu, didn’t he have a lover? Yesterday In the evening, I found out the most certain news. He and his fellow countryman, Ms. Zhu Yuntong, have already got engaged in Xishan. We are about to catch him and drink his wedding wine. Bibo's handwriting is very good, and Ms. Zhu can draw again Chinese painting, so he made a lot of fan banners for cooperation, and after the announcement of the marriage contract, he will distribute it to his boyfriend and girlfriend as a souvenir. Do you think the two of them are elegant and profound, happy or not?" Mrs. He said: "This is not the same as Mr. Yang. What does it matter?" He Jianchen said: "Young people are not envious when they see other people getting married. I want to tell Bibo that when he entertains the guests and announces the marriage contract, he will make it lively and include Ms. Shi in the banquet. Xingyuan is naturally here, so let's take advantage of that time to speak to him." Mrs. He smiled and said: "I thought you really thought of something, it turned out to be such a shitty idea. If Mr. Yang was so easily moved, it would have been resolved long ago Are you still waiting for today?" He Jianchen said with a smile: "Actually, I really have no choice, but it's just a joke. I want to test his tone before Ms. Li comes. If he insists on marrying Ms. Li, Let's turn around and persuade Ms. Li." Mrs. He smiled and said: "You are simply a fool, the more you talk, the further you go. If Ms. Li is willing to get married, do we still need us to persuade her now?" He Jianchen said: "That won't work either. , that won’t work. Everyone sweeps the snow in front of the door, let them do as they please, I don’t care about their business.” Mrs. He smiled and said: “You should have slapped me five hundred times when you said that. Don’t you think about it How did people help us with our affairs back then.

Shouldn't we be helping others by now? "He Jianchen smiled and said: "You are a kind person who repays your kindness. When he comes to the newspaper tonight, you can talk to him. Mrs. He said, "Is he cured?" " He Jianchen said: "What's the matter! He himself is too embarrassed to ask for leave, so he is forced to do things. Not only does he continue to do things as usual, but he also adds two more things to do." Mrs. He said: "Then why, aren't you afraid of being troubled?" He Jianchen said: "I also persuaded him in the same way. According to him, his family has been in decline for the past two years, and the south has been relying on him to send money to support him. His own money has been used up again, so he has to work hard." Mrs. He said: "I will It is often said that Mr. Yang doesn't know what is called settlement. This is his big disadvantage. In this state, earning 10,000 a month is still poor." He Jianchen said: "You think that everyone in the world will be like you, holding a book of grandma, Can't you live by pinching your fingers?" Mrs. He said: "It's Mr. Yang's words again. If you don't bring money with you when you die, don't you take it with you when you die, but isn't it good to save a few? If Mr. Yang can save a few, Why do you have to work hard when you are sick now?" He Jianchen said: "Everyone has his own mind, you think this is reasonable, others think it is troublesome. I won't talk to you." He Jianchen said So far, I went to the newspaper office.

When I arrived at the editorial office, I saw Yang Xingyuan holding her head and writing on the table with one hand.Standing next to him was a young typographer, who was waiting for the manuscript.He Jianchen turned his head to look at him, and saw that his brows were tightly furrowed, without saying a word.What was pinched in his hand was a bald pen without a tip, and only a slight rustling sound could be heard on the paper.Even the book and the rough, rushing to make a manuscript there.The electric light reflected on his collar, it looked paler and paler.Looking at the manuscript again, it is an essay, and the title has been written as "Three Happiness Principles".He Jianchen couldn't help laughing, and said: "You are poor and sick, and you still talk about the three major pleasures, you are really a person who can take pleasure in suffering." Yang Xingyuan said: "The business I do is not to give readers a kind of interest. Is it? According to you, I should cry bitterly to the readers every day." He Jianchen said: "That's not to say, since you are sick, you should rest more, why bother to do it so desperately?" Yang Xingyuan sighed He sighed and said: "My responsibility is too heavy, and my burden is too heavy. The spring silkworms will not be exhausted until they die, so I'd rather people bear me." He Jianchen originally wanted to talk to him slowly about marriage, but now he sees He was so full of complaints that he didn't want to talk about that again.Yin smiled and said: "Do you know about Bibo? He is engaged to Ms. Zhu." Yang Xingyuan said: "I seem to have heard this sentence, but I don't know why he keeps a secret. Boping came to see him this morning. I asked him about my illness, and he said that Bibo has a childish temper and is still naughty. He plans to choose a day, and he and Ms. Zhu will post separate posts and invite their guests. This place can be in one place. Wait for customers When they arrived, they acted as hosts and announced their marriage contract temporarily, which surprised everyone. There were also many small pieces of calligraphy and paintings that they collaborated on, and they were given away on the spot. However, he has already made it public, and plans to In a few days, there will be a treat. The place for the treat is also special, at the Xiangshan Ganlu Hotel. After making an appointment to gather at the place, he rented two long-distance buses to carry the ghosts, and packed them all in one."

He Jianchen said with a smile: "Don't talk nonsense, it's a happy event, and the guests who go there are also happy. Why do you treat the guests as ghosts, and what is the master?" Don't mention it to Bibo, even if he doesn't shy away from it, he can't think it's a good word." He Jianchen said: "That's natural. You know both sides, and you have the qualifications to be a witness." Yang Xingyuan said: " That's right, Ms. Zhu is a friend of Ms. Li, and I have also met at Ms. Li's house twice. I don't know how she got to know Bibo." He Jianchen said: "Bibo didn't start studying pictures in the last ten months. Have you joined any calligraphy and painting research association? That's why they recognize it." Yang Xingyuan said: "It's true. Now that men and women socialize, it can't be very open. Everyone can only do it under the guise of some research association or literature club. Marriage agency. I also wonder how Bibo can learn to draw well? It turns out he is learning to thrush." ​​When he was speaking, Yang Xingyuan had finished the manuscript, threw the pen away, sighed and said: "I am tired enough." It's done." He Jianchen said: "You go back. If the manuscript is not enough, I'll come and find a way with you." Yang Xingyuan cupped his hands at him, smiled and said, "Thank you very much." Then he immediately went back by car.When I got home, I undressed and went to bed and went to sleep. Fu Jiajun is rushing to repair his old work these days, preparing to publish a booklet.Every night, I can't go to bed until after twelve o'clock.A window at the back of his room was facing Yang Xingyuan's room. He sorted out the manuscript and looked up, only to see the dark room opposite.I thought to myself that the electric light was on for a while, but then it went out again. Could it be that Mr. Yang has not come back?It happened that the servant came in to make tea. When he asked, he said that Mr. Yang came back today and fell asleep without drinking a cup of tea.Fu Jiajun knew that Yang Xingyuan's illness was not fully healed, and was afraid that the illness would recur, so he walked into his room lightly, turned on the light, and saw Yang Xingyuan sleeping on his side, with a letter on the table. There were a few pieces of letter paper scattered around beside the marked envelope, and one piece of letter paper fell to the ground.Yin leaned over to pick it up for him, but inadvertently saw a line of striking words on it.That word is: "Apologies for the harvest shortage this year, and the family's expenses are becoming more and more urgent. After the letter arrives, you must check the previous letter and send it with one or two hundred yuan." Fu Jiajun only read these words and knew it was It was inconvenient for Yang Xingyuan to read the letter from home, so he put it on the table.Then, it is conceivable for Yang Xingyuan to follow the public because of his strength.At that time, he didn't disturb him, and still turned off the light and went out.The next day, I went back on purpose, met with Fu Xueren, and told him about Yang Xingyuan's economic panic.Fu Xueren said: "In this case, I will write a check for two hundred yuan here, and if you give it to him, it will be considered as your Shuxiu. He is a person who does not ask for money randomly, so you have to say this carefully. "Fu Jiajun also felt that his uncle had done this very happily, and while Yang Xingyuan was not at home, he sealed the check with an envelope.A few words were written on the envelope: "Uncle's order to present Bo Yi in place of Shu Xiu, student Jia Jun." When Yang Xingyuan came back and opened the letter, he knew that Fu Xueren wanted to help him.Unknowingly sighed: "My parents are the ones who gave birth to me, and Uncle Bao knows me." I was just asking for money, so I didn't need to be hypocritical and humble, so I accepted it.When we were having dinner, I personally told Brother Fu to turn it into a greeting and thank you.The next day I was busy remitting the money back home. Just as the remittance was gone, I received a letter from my family on the same day, saying that the money could not be turned over, and the family was going to sell the house to pay off the debt. Move the difference, so as not to borrow money again.Originally, if I wanted to send this letter home, I would have to resign from one or two things to take it easy, but when I saw this letter, I didn't dare to do it again.I turned around and thought about it, if I continue to do this every day, I won't see any pain.Although the doctor said that the root cause of the disease has not been cured, as a doctor, he is overly careful and scares the patient with words.I don't feel any pain or itching, so what's wrong with me?Thinking about it this way, I made up my mind about continuing to work.After two days, I didn't feel any pain, but my appetite decreased and I was lazy in my movements. Woke up early this morning, just after waking up, I suddenly heard the servant say outside, hurry up and tell Mr. Yang that this is good news, he must be very happy to hear it.Hearing this, Yang Xingyuan thought it was Li Dongqing's letter from Beijing, so she turned over, got up, walked under the glass window with her shoes on, lifted a piece of window screen, and looked out.The footman came in from the outside with a beautiful envelope in his hand.Yang Xingyuan then asked: "Is it my letter? Take it in and have a look." The servant sent it in, and when he took it to look at it, it was a clean white paper with a corner on it, printed with a few green leaves, and two or three flowers in between. chrysanthemum.A box was framed with red silk, and the recipient's name was written in the middle. That word is written very neatly and beautifully.When Yang Xingyuan saw it, he knew it was Wu Bibo's handwriting.When I turned it over, I saw that it was written in imitation Song Dynasty in red.The words said: "Because we agree with each other, we were engaged a month ago. Recently, many friends have asked about this matter. And many friends only know Yuntong or Bibo. For the purpose of introducing each other and meeting friends, we will wait for the light in Jiezun at the Xiangshan Ganlu Hotel on the first day of the month.On the same day, there is a long-distance bus to pick you up.Dear friends, please come to Xisiya East Tea House to gather in order to board the train, please come.Sincerely, Zhu Yuntong and Wu Bibo. "Yang Xingyuan thought about such a good paper and such a beautiful printing. I thought I would write some very elegant and clear words, but unexpectedly it was such a common language. Bibo is also a person who often insists on words. Opportunity, don't show off? At this moment, He Jianchen called, saying that he had received this post. Yang Xingyuan told him why this post was written in vernacular? He Jianchen said: "I heard that, he originally planned to This Ms. Zhu said that they have a lot of friends and new characters, and if they want that kind of writing, it will be something that has been thrown in the stinky hair pit for 30 years. I am afraid that friends will laugh.And he also said that he expected your wedding day to be around the Double Ninth Festival, so I would rather let you do this romantic affair. "Yang Xingyuan listened to it on the phone and couldn't stop laughing. He Jianchen said: "How is it?Guess what's on your mind right? "They discussed whether to give a wedding gift or not. Yang Xingyuan said: "There is no need to give a gift when you are engaged.But our friendship is different, I could have written a few crooked poems to congratulate him.Since he follows his wife around and thinks he is corrupt, let's buy some more elegant souvenirs.I'm so tired all the time, I can't go to the streets, so I'll do all the shopping for you.Wait until the day he gets married before giving him gifts. "He Jianchen said: "You are so weak, can you still go to Xishan? "Yang Xingyuan said:" Let's talk about it that day. "Hanging up the phone, Yang Xingyuan took the post and was lost in thought for a while. I thought I had to go because of emotion. I regretted that I shouldn't have read it again. It was He Jianchen who told Wu Bibo again. If you say that Xingyuan is weak, you can persuade him that there is no need to go to Xiangshan. Wu Bibo thought so, so he came to see Yang Xingyuan himself and said, "It's half a mile up the mountain from the gate of the palace to the Ganlu Hotel. If you can't find a sedan chair, I'm afraid you won't be able to go up, so you don't have to learn it. "When he said this, Yang Xingyuan felt that his old friend was considerate and thoughtful, so he wanted to go more. He said that there was nothing wrong with him, and he should participate in happy events to make his spirit happy. Wu Bibo said: "If you must go, I will hire another car The car will pick you up.The long-distance bus is uncomfortable. "Yang Xingyuan smiled and said:" That's good, but you're spending too much money. "Wu Bibo smiled and said:" That's too big.Who taught us that friendship is thick? "Seeing what he said, Yang Xingyuan wanted to go even more, so he decided to go. But that night, he had a fever. The next day, the fever was so severe that he slept for most of the day. Fortunately, the date to go to Xiangshan is only one day, and it is expected that it will not happen at this time, and he will fall seriously ill. In the evening, I wanted to declare that I was not sick, and I struggled to go to the newspaper office.He Jianchen waited for his manuscript to be sent out, then dragged him to the room next to the editorial office, and said with a smile: "Congratulations, your red luan star has moved." When he said that, he took out a letter from his body, handed it to him and said "Look, this is a love letter that Ms. Shi asked me to forward. When can you answer it?" Yang Xingyuan took the envelope and looked at it, and it said "Thank you Mr. Yang Xingyuan for asking Shito".Yang Xingyuan was very surprised, why didn't she send me the letter directly, instead of handing it over?Thinking silently in my heart, it's always nothing more than a marriage problem.It was a little inconvenient to read it here, so I smiled, put it on my body and said: "I don't know what the hell you are doing, I will talk about it when I go back and read it." He Jianchen said: "This is none of my business, it was entrusted to me. I have to hand it over to you. As for what the letter said, I don’t know at all.” Yang Xingyuan said: “I won’t argue with you at this time, let me read the letter before making a fuss.” Yang Xingyuan went home first, sitting in the car thinking all the way, why did Ms. Shi write to me?promise my marriage?cant.No matter how women are liberated, there is no anti-negotiating marriage issues with men first.Reject my marriage offer?Not right either.My friend and I just discussed it behind our backs, and no one mentioned it to her formally.She doesn't know what I mean, so how can she reject it aimlessly?I thought all the way home and didn't care about anything, so I opened this letter first and read it.It is thick with a few sheets of letter paper.The channel: Mr. Xingyuan Huijian; when you read my letter, I have already arrived in Shanghai.This time I went south, I didn't have a definite goal. I didn't have to plan where I was going. Anyway, I just lived every day. It turns out that what I meant was to repay you and Ms. Li Dongqing's kindness, and I don't care about other things.Yang Xingyuan read the sentence "I've already arrived in Shanghai", and her heart skipped a beat.Seeing this, it is very surprising that this trip to the south is for myself.What did I do to offend her and force her to go south?It depends on her reasons.When I looked down again, I said: I don't need to talk about the kindness you have done to me. Of course, you two also think that there is some.Although I can't do what Confucius said and repay kindness with kindness, no matter what, I can't repay kindness with resentment.Since I can't repay kindness with complaints, I can only walk away, which is the best move.Because after the death of my great-grandmother, I was left alone, and I was extremely discouraged.I don't have a home in Beijing, and I don't have a home when I go to other places, so I feel that no matter where I go, I'm just a person, and it doesn't matter whether I go or not.However, because many friends have involved my husband and I in marriage issues, I have considered and considered this matter, so I decided to wait for Ms. Che to come.How do you say this?I have no room for rejection if you propose a marriage with me based on your character, learning and friendship.But I admire Mr., or I have, Mr. I am afraid that there is no word of love for me.Without love, where does marriage come from?The letter was originally written on eight lines of paper.The first and second sheets are written in running script with cursive writing evenly.Now that I write here, the handwriting is even more scribbled.Although the font is much larger, the ink is also very light.The following reads: I really don't understand what Ms. Li Dongqing means, why are you trying so hard to promote our marriage.First of all, let me think about it, or Ms. Li suspects that you treat me well, which has the effect of love, so I do this.But no matter what, the love between you and Ms. Li is also public. I can't keep up with one percent. Why is she so confused about what you mean!Then I thought, she might take pity on me and let me have lifelong support.So I would rather sacrifice myself to help me.However, I don't trust the behavior of saving lives.In the end, I heard people say that she vowed to be celibate, and she ended up being a favor, which facilitated our marriage, and more or less meant to recommend someone on her own behalf.I dared not promise this.Because both you and Ms. Li have relations with me to persuade me, I think you and Ms. Li must have discussed it long ago.I have such a good marriage, but I can't miss it.Unexpectedly, I went to the noble apartment once and heard you talking with Mr. Fang. The love between you and Ms. Li is absolutely unbroken. It is troublesome for friends to mention your marriage.You don't want this marriage, that's not wrong at all.But why should Ms. Li back down?That's right, Ms. Li must have doubts. Thank you, we have the intention of getting married.But it's not easy to proceed because it hinders her.Therefore, she deliberately withdrew from the scope of love affairs to preside over this matter.That's how much she loves you and doesn't want you to be unhappy.At the same time, it also fulfilled my life, but she didn't know that it was all due to a misunderstanding.My husband never loved me, so why did I ever hope to marry him?All in all, it's all for me, causing a gap between you and Ms. Li.From this point of view, Ms. Li's sudden passivity is because of me.My husband insisted that Ms. Li come to Beijing because of me.If I don't go, I'm afraid it's not easy to understand the misunderstanding between the two of you.Not only will they not understand, but they may add some more entanglements.Rather than expending a lot of words and ink to explain this misunderstanding, I might as well get out of the pot and walk away first.Then, when Ms. Li arrived in Beijing, she heard that I was leaving, so she naturally cleared up her doubts.The husband doesn't suspect that I have something to say.Seeing this, Yang Xingyuan cleared away the clouds and mists of the day. She couldn't help but stamped her feet and said, "She herself has completely misunderstood, and she also said that we misunderstood. Is it fatal?" Looking further down: Because of this, I set off for the south on the second day after writing the letter.I sold all my things and the things left by my grandmother, and I got a total of more than one hundred yuan.With this money, I can find my place to belong.My first step was to go to Shanghai to find my distant uncle.I heard that he was managing accounts in a factory, so I asked him to find a job.If not, I will try to go back to my hometown in Yunnan, because there are still some parents there, or they can give me a little shelter.But I have a digression, I want to tell my husband that I have been taught a lesson, and I am determined to keep my celibacy.I don't stick to celibacy alone, and I don't associate with all relatives and friends except to find a place to live.Because I feel that if you are alive and cannot be forgiven by others, you don't need to communicate.然而谁又能谅解谁呢？自然，一个十几岁的女子，守独身主义投身到社会上去，是很危险的事，但是我已把生死置之度外了，还有什么危险可怕呢？ 杨杏园看到这里，心里未免有些恻然不忍，叹了一口长气道：“聚九州十三县铁，不能铸此大错也。”再看下去是：既然我不怕死，哪里也可以去。纵然是载途荆棘，我也看成是阳关大道。有一天路走不上前了，我就坦然坐着，等死神降临。所以从此一别，也许三十年五十年后我才死，也许三十天五十天我就死。人总有死的一日，我不必欢迎死神，我也不必苦苦的和死神去抵抗。这就是以后我的下场，请您转告我的朋友罢。大家永久不见了，也不必挂念了。先生对我援助的地方，今生不能报答，若有来生，来生决不忘的。若无来生，就算天下多一个负您的罢了。除函告先生外，并另有一函，将此意告之李冬青女士。言尽于此，望先生前途珍重。 史科莲谨白杨杏园反复将信看了两三次，越看越心里难过。心想一个十几岁的女子，要子身只影，去飘荡江湖，这岂不是危险万分的事。若是她有些好歹，又是“我虽不杀伯仁，伯仁由我而死”的一种形势了。我好意助她，倒不料生出种种误会，种下这种恶果。看她这信，竟是很钟情于我的，不知道听了我什么话，愤而出此。我一向梦梦，不知她是很有意于我的，我真负疚良深了。几张信纸，散乱着摊在桌上，他却两手相抄，向后一仰，靠住椅背斜坐了，只是出神。半晌，自言自语的，又叹一口气道：“今生已矣。”这个时候，业已夜深，杨杏园尽管坐着，只觉两只脚冰冷。 冷到极点，也坐不住了，只得上床去睡。