Chapter 4 The fourth round of hand in hand for a clear talk, gradually rising delusional thoughts, dirty, amazing, beautiful, suddenly moving, dead

At this time, Shi Yi groped around Zhou, but there was no money, so he sat on the broken chair, resting his head on his hand, back and forth, wondering where did he lose the money?After thinking for a long time, I remembered.I remember when I was listening to the radio, I was afraid of losing the money, so I took out the money from my pocket and stuffed it into the sock tube.I remember this movement clearly, and I can't make a mistake. I quickly bent down and touched the sock tube, and I couldn't help laughing. Isn't this the ten-yuan bill that was made into a small stack and stuck to the flesh?With banknotes in hand, it was ridiculous to think of the panic just now.At that time, I hurriedly bought some ready-made noodles and ate them, and rushed to the Qianmen night market. I spent more than one yuan and bought a half-new gray cloth coat. Happy to go back.This night, he slept even more fascinated, and had dozens of small dreams, all of which were with that Xiaonan girl.

When he got up the next day, the sky had not been bright for a long time, and the sun had not yet shone into the courtyard. Shi Yi immediately washed his face with cold water, rinsed his mouth, and walked towards the railway at the root of the wall outside the Shunzhi Gate.But when he walked on the railway, the sun that had risen in the east was still shining high on the tops of the willow trees, giving it a rooster-yellow color. Needless to say, it was still early.Shi Yi went to the place where Xiao Nan stole coal last time, but she wasn't there. He expected that she hadn't come yet, so he looked to both sides of the railway, and still walked back on the way he was going.After walking for a while, I didn't see her coming, so I thought to myself, could it be that she has already caught up, and has already walked forward?With that in mind, he turned around and continued walking forward.This time I walked a long way, and when I was almost at the west gate, I still didn't see her, so I decided that she didn't come, so I walked back the second time.I walked back and forth like this for more than an hour, but I didn’t see Xiao Nan. My feet were a little tired. I’m going to sit down later. Someone passed by on the railway. Seeing this situation, I must wonder why such a person is wearing long clothes. People, sitting here early in the morning?I'm really tired if I still want to go.Just wandering around like this, suddenly leaning against a tree to look at the water, suddenly walking on the railway and counting the sleepers, and suddenly walking on the sidewalk, pacing back and forth, but no one comes.I don't have a watch, this place is surrounded by city walls on one side, and I can't find a place to watch the clock, and look at the sun on the tree, it's no longer golden, but it's hot.Then, it can be seen that it is getting late, such a disheveled hairy girl is putting on airs like this, and ignores her, afraid that she will come.I became restless and thought that a woman can never offend her. If you offend her, you will not be free from her coercion.Joy came, turned into depression, and from depression to resentment.

But fortunately, Xiaonan promised him many benefits, after all, he came here, in the distance of the railway, with a broken basket on his arm, lowered his head and straddled the sleepers, walking step by step.Shi Yi was full of complaints, and wanted to see her say a few words about her, but when she came to her side, she suddenly smiled and lowered her head, and said in a low voice: "You came early?" Couldn't leak it out, so I had to smile at her and said, "Didn't I come early? I came early, why did you come at this time?" Xiao Nan lowered his head, meditated for a while, and then smiled: "Is it too late?" Shi Yi said with a smile: "It's not too late, but it's not too early either." Just after finishing this sentence, I suddenly felt that I was too contradictory. If it's not too late, why not too early?If this sentence needs to be explained, I am afraid it will cause people's misunderstanding, and there is really no way to explain this matter, so I can only smile with her and cover it up.She didn't seem to care about these words, she still lowered her head and stood aside.Shi Yi clasped his hands behind his back, coughed twice, and smiled at her, "You came out so early today, didn't your mother ask you?" She shook her head.Shi Yi was speechless again, raised his head and thought for a while, and then said: "Let's walk along the railway. Later, I will take you to the Tianqiao meeting and buy some things for you." Xiaonan said: "Where do you go along the railway?" Wow?" Shi Yi said: "Anyway, we can't stand here and talk, and it's too early to visit the flyover now, why don't we take a stroll along the railway?" Xiao Nan didn't say yes or no, and lowered his head keep silent.Shi Yi's heart thumped for a while, and he reached into his pocket to feel for the money he was carrying.He originally had some one-dollar bills, but last night he had an idea and exchanged two bills for two, and now he had them on his body. At this time, he held a silver dollar in his palm and took it out.Seeing Xiao Nan with her body on her back and her head bowed, she stretched out the foreign money and wanted to hand it to her.But for some unknown reason, this hand trembled a little.So Fu put the foreign money away and put it in his pocket again.But just as Yinyang was put down, seeing Xiaonan's silent appearance, he felt that standing still like this was definitely not an option, so he took out Yinyang again, held Yinyang in his hand first, and smiled at her: "What are you doing today?" Aren't you short of money?" She was silent at first, and then replied: "I will be short of money someday." Shi Yi said, "Hey! I'll buy you a pair of socks for this dollar." She suddenly heard Seeing the word one yuan, he seemed to be taken aback, so he turned around and looked at Shijiao.Seeing that he really had a dollar in his hand, he had nothing to say, but said, "Why did you give me this money?" Shi Yi really didn't expect that if he gave her a dollar, she would be flattered, his hand stopped shaking, and Handing the silver dollar to her, she said with a smile, "It's not too much. I'll give you the money later, so you can go with me."

Xiao Nan held a dollar in his palm, and moved his feet.Shi Yi walked side by side with her and was silent for a long time, wondering what to say to her?After a long time, she smiled and said, "Aren't you willing to make friends with me?" She turned her head and smiled.Seeing this, Shi Yi saw that she was not a child who didn't know how to behave, so he said: "We are walking all the way, if someone asks us..." Xiao Nan smiled and said: "I know, I will say that you are my brother." The two words were sent to Shi Yi's ears, and he couldn't help but tighten his body for a while, and said with a smile: "That's great. Aren't you very smart?" Xiao Nan said: "No one is stupid these days?" Shi Yi walked straight forward, and gradually reached a place where no one was there, squeezed and walked side by side with her, and said, "I'll carry this basket for you." So he took the basket over, took the basket with one hand, and He shook her hand.

That Xiaonan girl shrank her hand back, but she didn't use much force, so this hand was always held tightly by others.She didn't care, she just lowered her head and still walked slowly, but Shi Yi only felt the blood rushing all over her body, and she no longer knew what environment she was in.After thinking about it for a while, I finally thought of her family problems, which can be used as conversation materials, so I asked, "What does your father do?" Xiao Nan said, "He is also a gentleman, because his eyes are broken, and we are poor." Shi Yi said: "How old is he?" Xiao Nan said: "He is forty-nine years old." Shi Yi said: "You were born in your thirties? How old is your mother?" Xiao Nan said: "I Mom is young, she is only thirty-four years old this year." Shi Yi said: "Of course your father is a poor man, what about your mother?" Xiao Nan said: "My mother is also very straightforward, she just speaks straight. Some people don't like her very much." Shi Yi said: "If I see your mother, how will she treat me?" Xiao Nan said: "Don't say you have played with me, then it doesn't matter." Shi Yi put her He squeezed his hands tightly, and said with a smile: "Why?" Xiao Nan retracted his hands, threw them away, twisted his neck with a smile, and said, "Is it on purpose or what? Why don't you understand?" Shi Yi knew She won't say no to it.When she became more courageous, she helped her by the shoulders, and walked slowly, "Can you come out to play with me every day?" Xiao Nan said, "Okay. What can I do? But you want to work every day, why not?" Do you have time to play with me?" Shi Yi stroked her hair with his hands, and said with a smile, "You are a very good child, why don't you comb your hair and wash your face, is it so bad?" Xiao Nan said "Are people like us worthy of combing our hair and washing our face? As soon as we turn around, our whole body is black." Shi Yi said: "Are you willing to pick up coal cores for the rest of your life?" Xiao Nan said: "Who is such a cheap bone? Coal core?" Shi Yi said: "I also know that you can't be that stupid. But you made such a mess on your body, besides me, where else would that kind of person make friends with you?" Xiao Nan nodded and said: "You People are very good." Shi Yi said: "You know that you are good. But if you want to make friends with me, you must listen to me. First, don't be with those wild boys who pick up coal cores. Second Two, you have to clean yourself up a bit. Naturally, I will always give you money every day to buy some useful things." Xiao Nan said: "How much money do you earn a month in that charity association?" Shi Yi was forced to answer this question, but he couldn't answer it. If he said too much, it wouldn't look like it. If he said too little, he was afraid that Xiao Nan would not be happy. Money?" Xiao Nan lowered his head and walked step by step, then suddenly raised his head and said, "I think you can earn ten or twenty yuan, right?" Shi Yi snorted slightly and said, "That's right. .” So the two quietly walked towards the west gate.Shi Yi said: "How much does your family spend a month?" Xiao Nan said: "It's not sure, earn more money and use more, and earn less money and use less." Shi Yi said: "If it is a month, your family has my money. Is this money enough for your family?" Xiao Nan said: "Of course it is enough." Shi Yi said: "Then, if you have a money earner like me in your family, your family will be fine." Xiao Nan looked He smiled.Shi Yi said with a smile: "Well, I'll go to your house and be your mother's godson. Then, your family will have a breadwinner." Xiaonan said: "How can our family be worthy?" He smiled and said: "Why not? As long as you agree, your family will be half settled." Xiao Nan flashed his body and said: "Here comes the careful person, don't make any moves." Shi Yi said: "You said Yes, we are brothers and sisters, so it doesn't matter if people see it." Xiaonan said: "Hey! We are talking, we are almost at the gate, where are you taking me?" Shi Yi said: "Go out of the gate to play Come on, let's just go to the park. Later, let's hire a foreign car to go to the overpass." Xiaonan said: "Don't go too far. If you go too far, I'm a little scared." Shi Yi said: "It's okay. I'm here Walking, it doesn't matter if you go to the sky, are you hungry? There is a Youtiao Biscuit shop in front, let's buy something to eat, do you think it's okay?" Xiao Nan nodded with a smile.

As he spoke, he walked away from the railway and walked towards a side street by the side gate.There are biscuit shops, raw and cooked pork shops, and small oil and salt grocery stores.So I bought twelve sesame seed cakes and twelve deep-fried dough sticks.I went to the pork shop again and bought two boxes of vegetables.The so-called boxed dishes are those in the pork shop, where the elbows with sauced meat sauce and the scraps of braised liver with sauced belly are put together in one place, wrapped in a lotus leaf, and fixed to a pack of ten, or twenty. One bag, although it is not very hygienic, but for the poor who cannot afford meat, by taking this opportunity, they can always taste some meat.Shi Yi took the deep-fried dough stick sesame cake by himself, and the lotus leaf bag was hung by a rope, so he gave Xiao Nan to carry it.Xiao Nan brought the two boxes of vegetables, although she never ate them, but smelling the smell of this kind of sauced meat already made the glutton in her stomach urge upwards, and she couldn't help but follow Shi Yi away.Shi Yi led her out of the convenient door and walked towards the countryside.

At this time, although the fields have not grown green, a large part of the woods have tender green leaves.Under the warm sun, on the plains, there is such a forest full of vitality. It makes people look at it, and they are so happy that they can't express it.After walking for a mile, Shi Yi saw that there were no pedestrians in front or behind, and there was a half-turned-down temple on the south side of the road, so he pointed to the back of the temple: "Let's go to the back of the temple and eat something before we go. Xiao Nan didn't dismiss it, and followed him all the way to the back of the temple.At the back of the temple, there is a high soil foundation. The two of them went to the soil foundation, found two green bricks and put them in the middle of the ground, put fried dough sticks, pancakes and vegetables on the green bricks, and then invited Xiao Nan to sit on the ground.First, he took a biscuit and spread it on a slant, sandwiched a deep-fried dough stick in the middle of the biscuit, handed it to Xiao Nan, and said with a smile, "You eat this first." , With a grunt, he swallowed once.However, as someone else, he opened his mouth wide and seemed a little embarrassed, so he turned his body on his side and chewed behind his back.In less than two or three minutes, I ate a sesame seed cake.Shi Yi is really considerate of others, when she finished eating and turned around, he was already inside a sesame seed cake, filled with a box full of vegetables, and handed it to her hand.She lowered her head and smiled and said: "You let me do it, don't you eat it yourself?" Shi Yi said: "Why don't I eat it? I have prepared it for you, and I will eat it again. Do you think I am a good friend?" Xiao Nan Nod with a smile, just smile.

Shi Yi saw that there was no one around, so he sat next to her, pulled her into his arms, and said with a smile, "little sister, do you know that I love you very much?" People say such things to her, sixteen-year-old children, what can't they understand after hearing such words?For unknown reasons, the muscles all over her body trembled after this sentence.Although I still eat sesame seed cakes, I no longer feel that sesame seed cakes are extra delicious, but now it is very common.Although Shi Yi was a man, his heart was beating wildly. After saying that sentence, he also had nothing to say.In the silence, there is nothing to do, just eat sesame seed cakes with others.After finishing the fried dough sticks box and vegetables, I still dare not say what I want to say in my heart. I just look at Xiao Nan. With his back turned to him, he can see the back of Xiao Nan's neck, which is a bit disappointing. Excited, she saw that the black mud on her neck had almost turned into a layer of gray paint, so she said to her, "Turn your face away, and I'll show you something." Bring out a white towel bag.As soon as Xiao Nan looked back and saw it, he asked, "What's inside?" Shi Yi smiled and said, "I bought it specially for you." So he opened the towel bun, and when Xiao Nan saw it, it was a piece of soap , a small bone comb.Xiao Nan said: "Are you giving this to me?" Shi Yi stood up, pointed at the broken wall to the east with his hand, and said with a smile: "There is a river there, I will take you there to wash your face." Said: "Why wash your face?" Shi Yi said: "Hey! You are such a young girl, why don't you like it? You must be very good-looking. I want to see what you look like after washing your face?" Xiao Nan pursed her lips and smiled. : "It's not good. Don't look!" Shi Yi said: "Go and wash your face. After washing your face, I will make clothes for you. Let's go!"

As he spoke, he took Xiao Nan by one arm and asked her to get up.There was nothing wrong with her at first, but after he pulled her hard, she couldn't move, so she followed him and walked towards the city wall.About half a mile away from here, there is a moat outside the city wall. The moat in the outer city does not have the ditch water flowing from other people's houses, so it is very clear.Shi Yi supported her, walked slowly to the edge of the trench, and said with a smile, "Go down to the water's edge, and I'll shine a light on you." Xiaonan said, "Do you really want me to wash my face?" He dragged her politely, and dragged her to the edge of the city moat.He squatted down first, and pulled her to squat down too.At this time, she has lost the ability to resist. First, a girl, followed by a strong man, came to the wild, how dare to offend him?Secondly, I also feel that Shi Yi treats people very well.So he squatted down and laughed: "I am so old, can't I even wash my face?" So he took the towel, soaked it in running water, and rubbed it a few times.Shi Yi said: "No, I'll do it." So he rolled up his sleeves for her, revealing a round arm.Then he pressed her neck with one hand, and wiped the wet towel on her face with the other.First rub it on, and then rub a layer of soap on her hands, then wash from her face to the side of the ear, from the side of the ear, and then to the nape of her neck.Xiao Nan just shrank her body into a ball with a smile, and said: "Don't do it, I'm afraid of getting stuck, if you tell me to wash it, I will wash it." Shi Yi squatted on the ground by himself because she tried his best to dodge. Turning sideways, it was really strenuous, so she stood behind her and said: "You wash your hair again." Sure enough, she lowered her head, wet the water with a towel, and rinsed it on her head.Wash the soap, wipe the soap and wash again.Shi Yi said: "Okay. I'll comb it for you. You wash your face and hands and arms yourself." As he spoke, he picked up the small comb, and started to comb it slowly behind her.She waited for him to comb her hair, and washed her face and hands countless times.

Shi Yi was behind her, and he could already see the back of her neck, which was extremely white. Sometimes when she raised her head, her hands and arms were also like tender lotus root.The hair was combed clean and soaked in water again, and it was also very black against the white neck. Shi Yi smiled and said: "How is it? Aren't you a very good boy? Come on, turn around and I will give you Comb the overturned hair in the front." She heard that, she really stood up, turned her face to him, rolled her eyes, and smiled at him.After Shi Yi suddenly faced her face to face, he couldn't help but froze. She smiled, but he was speechless.The comb in his hand fell to the ground, and he didn't know.After a long time, she lost her voice and said, "Oh! Are you so beautiful?" It turned out that after she washed her face, her entire oval face was white and tender. She was a little shy just now, and her cheeks were even redder. dizzy.White and red, very beautiful.Shi Yi originally thought that her eyes were good, but now after washing his face once, those eyes are even more black and round.Moreover, she turned to people and smiled with her white teeth, which was really charming.Unexpectedly, a girl collecting coal nubs has such a pretty face that she really buried a piece of beautiful jade in the mud.Seeing him staring at him in a daze, Xiao Nan said, "What are you doing? Don't you recognize me?" Shi Yi said, "In this way, I really don't recognize you. You...you..." Xiao Nan said: "What am I? "Shi Yi said: "It's a pity for you." So he took her arm, looked at it twice, then put it on the tip of her nose, sniffed it a few times, couldn't help it, and suddenly embraced Xiao Nan with both hands.Xiao Nan couldn't hide, so he hid his head in his arms.Shi Yi's blood vessels tensed again, he hugged her tightly, lowered his head, and was about to smell her neck.As she lowered her head, she saw that the collar of her dress was wet, so she slowly rolled up the collar for her.At this time, I found a thin thread braided around her neck under her collar, and with two fingers, pulled out the thread. The thread was not short, but there was something yellow at the bottom.Shi Yi stopped hugging her, held the yellow thing in his hand and looked, it turned out to be a letter X made of copper, because he asked her: "What do you do with such a thing hanging on your body?" Xiao Nan grabbed it, but still stuffed it into his collar.He smiled and said: "The copper thing is so shabby to wear, I don't want people to see it." Shi Yi said: "Since I am afraid of being shabby, why do I wear it?" Xiaonan said: "It was worn by my father. Put it aside." Shi Yi said: "What did your father ask you to wear this for?" Xiao Nan said: "My father is a layman." Shi Yi said: "You also know the word layman? Does your father eat vegetarian food? Xiao Nan said: "Yes, my father eats vegetarian food, but my mother always makes trouble with him, and buys meat and bones to eat when she has money. My father has no choice but to go hungry." Shi Yi said: "That is to say, Your father is a great believer in Buddhism!" Xiao Nan said: "Isn't it? He always meditates at home. He really has patience, and he doesn't care if he is so poor that he has no food for two or three meals." Hearing this, Shi Yi was a little moved , could not help but take a step back.Looking at her face, he asked for a long time, "Do you also believe in Buddhism?" Xiao Nan said, "I don't quite understand this, but my father said that it is good to believe in Buddhism, so he always makes me recite Amitabha Buddha." Shi Yi said: "Have you ever read it?" Xiao Nan said, "What am I reading? I keep reciting Buddha, and Buddha doesn't give me food." Shi Yi said: "Your father believes in Buddhism, and my father also believes in Buddha. I have been I don’t have a mother, but my father brought me up. He often told me that being a human being is not only based on skill, but also on conscience. If you have skills but no conscience, you will feel uncomfortable even if you are full. Conscience has no capacity, and he is always calm in his heart. He also said that the human heart is not enough, and only kind people can be satisfied. I think your father is a man, just like my father. My father died At that time, he untied a string of Buddhist beads from his wrist and gave it to me. He said, "I didn't leave any property for me, and I don't have any property. As the saying goes: My son is like me, what do you keep money for? My son is as bad as me, so I don't have any." What do you do with money? So I give you this string of prayer beads to calm your heart. If you have any bad thoughts, just look at this string of prayer beads and remember what I said. Remember, what is a person like? You can work hard even if you don’t have skills, but your conscience is what matters. If you have no conscience, you will get into trouble if you are poor, and you will get into trouble even more if you have money. Your father, unlike other fathers, is both a father and a mother. Remember what I said, you have to be a kind person. He died after he finished speaking. I used to believe in Buddhism, but these two years I was so poor that I hated it so much. I put away the prayer beads my father gave me, and my father told I also forgot what I said. Now you mention it, he is so poor, he still believes in Buddhism, and he doesn’t do bad things. He is really a good man. He is half a hundred years old. It’s a girl like you. I can’t lie to you, I can’t hurt you. You My father and my father are both kind people. If I am in my twenties, if I spend one or two yuan to deceive a sixteen-year-old child like you, I will feel sorry for my father."

After hearing what he said, Xiao Nan was puzzled and just looked at him blankly.He said: "You don't know that when I was young, I was often bullied by others. I think my father is too useless. A poor person just eats and drinks less and doesn't do anything else. Why? People want to bully me? Now I hear you say this, I think you are poor and don’t do anything to me, why should I bully you? Little sister, I really don’t really love you, now that you are so beautiful, it’s a little bit I really love you. I love you and I can't hurt you. If I have the ability to marry you, I must ask someone to come out as a matchmaker and handle this matter properly. You are young, do you understand what I say?" Xiao Nan set off a He gritted his teeth for a long time, and said with a smile: "Why don't I understand?" Shi Yi said: "It's good if you understand, can you lead me to see your mother and your father?" Xiaonan said: "My mother has a bad temper, so I dare not say it. But my father is very kind and can do anything. My father's name is Chang Youde. He has a son, and he likes to go to small teahouses. Because his eyes are blind, only Going to the small teahouse to listen to books is still a pleasure. You are not a bad person, and I would like you to make friends with my father." Shi Yi scooped up the towel from the water, wrung it to wipe his face, and immediately woke up Many felt that it was too reckless to hug her like that just now, looked at her hands and face, then looked at her hair, and after a while of silence, said: "Xiao Nan, let me take you home." Xiao Nan said: "Aren't you going to take me to the overpass?" Shi Yi said: "Don't go shopping. If you have money for shopping, I can give you a few more. Let you do some small business." Xiaonan said: "I What kind of business can a girl do?" Shi Yi said: "Why can't you do it? If you can pick up coal cores, you can do business. As far as I think, you can sell some newspapers and sell them, and you can also sell some candies. Before, I saw a man with a broken eye who was led by his son and sold peanuts on the street." Xiaonan said, "Your words are the same as others telling my father to tell his fortune. My father said, fortune tellers He is an honest man and cannot tell lies." Tu Yi said: "In this way, your father is an even better man. He said he can't lie, that's a business that doesn't cost money. Doing a small business now is making profit from capital. What does it matter? You can talk to your father when you go back. If your father is willing to make a friend like me, I can help him." Xiaonan said: "How can I Do you have the nerve to talk to him?" She blushed again as she spoke.Shi Yi saw that her face was like a spring begonia, she was really cute, and wanted to reach out to help her, but stopped again.Still bent down to pick up the soap and combs on the ground, still wrapped the wet towel, and said with a smile, "We can go." Then, he first landed from the moat.Xiao Nan followed up with a smile, and said to him: "You washed me so clean, and when I went back, my mother asked, what should I say?" Shi Yi said, "Is this a strange thing? Could it be that your mother, Do you have to be as dirty as a ghost?" Xiao Nan said: "I've always been used to being dirty, and I'm a little embarrassed to see people after I wash it." Shi Yi sighed and said: "There are really such contradictions in society. Things. If you are afraid that your face will be clean, some people will laugh at you, so you can make your face dirty again.” Seeing Shi Yi sighed, Xiao Nan smiled and said, “Since you don’t want me to do that, I will keep it clean.” When I go back, I will say that I went to Shichahai today and washed it there." Tu Yi said: "Whatever I want, are you willing to do?" Xiao Nan lowered his head again. When Shi Yi lowered his head or laughed, he couldn't help staring at her.But at this time, I often think of the word № hanging on her chest.In any case, my father and son had once been good people, and we couldn't use any means to ravage such a young woman with naive knowledge.So after being in a daze for a while, I changed my mind again, loving her is one thing, and lying to her is another thing.At this moment, after she was in a daze, Xiao Nan opened her mouth first, and said, "Didn't you say you were sending me back? What else do you want to say?" Shi Yi said: "I have nothing to say, let me take you back. "So he walked side by side with her, and walked towards the avenue into the west gate.The two of them had almost reached the west gate, and when they reached the wall of the earthen courtyard, Shi Yi turned his head to look at the spring field. Under the sun, he was so angry that he turned around again.Xiao Nan smiled and said, "What's the matter with you? You always stop when you walk." Shi Yi smiled at her and said, "It's such a fine weather, it's okay to run home, and it's strange to lie on the bunk. It's a pity, I really want to play for a while outside the city." Xiao Nan said: "Play for a while, let's just play for a while, if you go back late, it's okay to be scolded." Shi Yi looked up and saw a peach blossom on the upper wall, which was in full bloom under the sunlight. Suddenly, a gust of wind blew off a large piece of the peach blossom and scattered it to the ground outside the wall, so he got a new feeling.