Chapter 115 Epilogue message Suo mourns poet sad autumn fan career sends phantom dream old lady

Time passed like running water, I wrote 500-word novels every day, and unconsciously wrote 800,000 words.Using words to allocate this day, plus holidays and mistimed time, this book has been written for six years.In the wedge, I ordered a sum in advance, saying that it would be completed in one year, but unexpectedly it took six times the time.However, it is six times the time, and yesterday is over, time flies so fast.When I was writing the last page, there was an unfortunate incident in my family. The youngest I felt sorry for was Kang Er, a girl who was 18 years old. She died of scarlet fever.Although I am very responsible, at the end of such a big ending, I really can't hold back my grief and end up with the people in the book.There is no other way but to suspend the publication of the newspaper for one day.Twenty-four hours later, out of responsibility, I finished the last page.Throwing away the pen, he sighed and said, "I've done one thing. Tell my friend about it." Two months ago, he suddenly had a big realization, disbanded his family, and brought a small package with him. , went on a walk southwest trip.At this time, I probably entered the Jiange, walked on the plank road, and almost arrived in Chengdu.I just want to write something about the Jin family, but it's impossible.The Jin family left and scattered, there is no need to write too miserable, too cumbersome, enough is enough.I thought so, relieved.

Another friend came to my house to comfort me. He is obsessed, and he must read a paragraph in the newspaper every day. Now seeing the manuscript paper on my desk, he has finished writing the novel. There are too many people to explain.I then asked, "According to your opinion, how far must you explain before the novel is considered complete?" He couldn't answer my question for a while, and smiled hesitantly.He thought for a long time before saying: "In my opinion, it's best to be the people in the book, and they all have an explanation. Even the aunt who served Minzhi and Runzhi, and Yufen's girl Qiuxiang, I had an affair with her in the book. A little friendship, I always want to know her result. It is the end of Leng Qingqiu. Although you have figured it out on the wedge first, she has become a woman who sells calligraphy, but she cannot sell calligraphy for a lifetime..." I didn't wait for him After finishing speaking, he said with a smile: "In this way, I'm afraid I don't have such a long life. You think, I have spent six years writing about the Jin family for more than a year. I have written about their family for ten or eight years. How many days will it take?" My friend thought about it, and said, "I'll let you stop it. But I want to ask a layman's question, if someone doesn't want it to end and continues, what do you think? ?” I said, “I don’t have any thoughts. Because I wrote it, I directed a play. Someone continued writing, and he directed a play. What does it matter?” He listened and nodded. .After I finished speaking, other thoughts aroused in me. I thought, I am here to direct the novel, but behind me, there is another good fortune who is there to direct with me. If someone writes a novel with me... My friend, he thought I was mourning again, so he talked about it in words: "Many people like to read your book. If you write a script and play a few scenes, it may be popular. What do you think?" I said: "This can't be done. This novel is nothing more than a shabby account of the love of a wealthy family. It is not a fragment." The friend said: "Such a big book cannot be written without a poem or word. Do you like poetry?" , why don't you come to the first seven words of ancient times, and sum it up?" I said: "I don't have such a mood, the old monk will stop talking from now on, and you have to ask future generations about the future." Friends are just talking, as long as I don't worry, it will be fine. Don't worry about it, he said a lot of words with me, and dragged me to the park again before breaking up.However, his few words caused me something to worry about.I remember that friend of mine told me that when Leng Qingqiu was in Xiaolou, he was bored in every possible way. He felt that life was boring and he was very world-weary.Although it is unknown to outsiders whether she committed suicide during this period, she filled in three lines of "Linjiang Immortal" to express her feelings at that time.I still remember the word is:

News of Yinhan's red wall is broken, and Yelan's dream is also in a hurry.Qian Chuang people go to the blue corridor and empty, the west wind flies white dew, and the cold moon shines on the lonely pine.I wanted to sleep several times and couldn't sleep. I peeled the banana heart heavily, and repeated it several times across the screen at five o'clock. Tears and hate drops were sealed in the pillow letter. Talk about being incomprehensible with others, worrying more and turning to feel idle.There are three bamboo houses with paper windows, and there is nothing to do with the curtains hanging down. I hug my knees and look at Pingshan.The first floor is full of sandalwood lingering Buddha fire, and the small building is freshly cold tonight.The slanting wind and drizzle beat the sparse fence, and the remnant came to Yongxiang, like the return of a dream in water.

There is still hatred in confessing all the love, and I am ashamed to see the morning glory through the curtain.The desolate Buddha fire darkens the high-rise building, hugging the quilt without saying a word, knocking off the jade and scratching his head.I hope Sijun stops dreaming again, and wakes up when dreaming.The soul of Qian is broken frequently, so don't stay, so I can take advantage of the moon tonight to explore Guanghan and autumn. These three poems were not written overnight, but the third poem is very clear. It is hatred and anger. Extreme hatred and anger. Don’t dream, and don’t hesitate when your soul is broken. When the incense pin jade is broken, it will be pulled down.There was probably always such an evening.According to my opinion, although these three poems cannot form a family, there are one or two lines in them that are desirable.When my friend came for the second time, I read the words to him, and he appreciated it very much.He originally wrote a good handwriting, but later because he wrote a fan for the calligraphy and painting exhibition, he wrote these three poems on it.Moreover, vaguely after the words, a commentary was added, saying that the three poems were written by an abandoned woman from a rich family.This face was exhibited in the venue. People didn't appreciate the quality of the calligraphy, but wanted to study the kind of woman who wrote the calligraphy.It was just for the news reporters to inquire about it, and it was announced in the news, and the visitors should pay more attention.Later, a male student from a middle school came and bought the fan for eight yuan, and he was about to take it away at that time.The people in the meeting said that before the meeting was closed, the exhibits could not be taken away, and a receipt could be issued to him first.The young man said repeatedly that he must take it.In the end, he explained that he had something to do with the inscription on the fan, so they had to let him take it away.My friend happily told me about this, expecting this young man to be Leng Qingqiu's son, otherwise, a poor student would not spend a lot of money to buy a fan.I think, or so.Fortunately, the date, month and address of my book, the more confused the more interesting, I admit my friend's words, but it's just a layer of confusion added to the confusion, but it doesn't matter.In the future, if someone wants to continue the book, they don't have to worry about running out of clues.

This happened in early summer, and in the autumn of this year, after a few months, I had already forgotten about it.One day I went to see a sound movie with that friend, and revisited the old case.It turned out that the movie shown in the cinema that day was called "Unbearable to Look Back", and it was a sad movie.After we got to the theater and took our seats, the screening started immediately, and we didn't care about anything else.But in the seat in front of us, there was a woman who kept criticizing the plot of the film.She was talking to a half-grown child beside her, her voice was very low, and she couldn't hear what she was criticizing.But then a middle-aged woman appeared on the screen, and I heard her say: "This is Qiu Xizhen, so she has acted in a movie, why did she change her name?" I heard the word Qiu Xizhen, which seemed very familiar, but suddenly Can't think of it again.When the movie was interrupted and the lights came back on, I was about to see what the criticizing woman in front of me was like, but the woman even said goodbye to a student in a gray cloth uniform next to her, got up and left.When she left, she took a handkerchief and kept wiping her eyes, the rims of her eyes were red.Although the woman is in her thirties, with thin skin and white flesh, she wears a half-worn black long jacket and doesn't wear makeup, but she still has a bit of beauty in her Duanzhong.I seem to have seen her somewhere, but she walked so fast that I didn't have time to recognize her.But my friend told me that that half-grown child was the one who bribed Qingqiu's Ci fans, but he didn't know who that woman was?Why do you leave without watching the movie?I didn't think it was so comprehensive at the moment, and I didn't answer my friend's question.I read a movie poster in the cinema, and the movie newspaper stated that the protagonist of the movie, Jing Hua, was the son of a family, a Western student who had practiced movies for many years in a German film company.His wife Qiu Yuehun has a talent for acting and has also studied film for many years.When I saw this, I couldn't help but slapped my leg, and suddenly realized that the protagonist was none other than Jin Yanxi.Because Yanxi's single name is a single Chinese character, he doesn't use a nickname. The Chinese character, needless to say, is a homonym of the Chinese character.Just now the woman said that the heroine was Qiu Xizhen, and the film newspaper said that she was Jinghua's wife, in other words, she was Jin Yanxi's wife.Why did Yanxi marry her and turn into acting in movies again?This matter is really out of the question.At that time, because I was watching a movie, it was inconvenient to talk, so as not to disturb others, so I put it in my heart and watched the movie first.The plot in the movie is about a rich young man, who didn’t study hard when he was studying, and went to pursue his lover, so he delayed the book.Just because the family suffered from natural and man-made disasters, the family was in decline, and there was no money to provide for the lover, so the lover turned on him.In a fit of anger, he became seriously ill.Fortunately, I recovered from my illness, my neurasthenia was weak, I didn't read well, I didn't have any knowledge, and I couldn't find anything.As a result, I worked as a laborer in a theater during the day and posted advertisements with others.Later, a famous actor came, and he posted the advertisement upside down. The famous actor was furious and asked the theater owner to fire him.In order to explain this matter to the famous actor, he met him backstage. It turned out that this person was his former lover, but now he changed his name, so he turned around and left, the movie was over.The play was very well acted, and the first half was simply Yanxi's work.Generally speaking, if a protagonist can act in a script that concerns him, he must act more cordially. This proves that the protagonist is the incarnation of Yanxi.

My friend saw my situation and asked me what was wrong?I told him what I thought.He also said: "That's right, the leading actor is probably Jin Yanxi. That Ms. Leng just now is still very simple. There is no reason, she will not spend two dollars to watch the movie. You don't see her go." When I was in bed, my eye circles were red, wiping my tears and want to cry?" I said, "I suspected this a long time ago." My friend also nodded his head and patted his legs, even saying yes.It was the waiter who came over and said, "Gentlemen, please, it's getting late." When we looked up, there was no one left on the seat, and the two of them laughed loudly before returning home.

From watching the movie this time, I got the result of Yanxi Jin, and I am very happy.But after a long time, I became suspicious again. As the saying goes, a centipede is dead but not stiff.As rich as the Jin family, except for relatives and friends, Yanxi's brothers and sisters have some savings on hand, so no one can help Yanxi find a way out for him?This is not to say that acting in movies is not a good career, but in the Chinese film industry, actors have always been paid very little, and the work is very hard, especially for male actors, the full amount cannot exceed 200 yuan.Before Yanxi went abroad, he thought it was not good for a monthly salary of three or four hundred yuan, so why did it become so small after going abroad?Thinking about it like this, I almost overturned all my previous conjectures.But I changed my mind again, in Gaoming's house, ghosts overlooked his room, Yanxi was unlucky, how could his brothers and sisters not follow suit?Besides, the extended family system is certainly not good, as it can cultivate people's dependence.However, the small family system can also weaken the relationship and reduce mutual assistance. The brothers are separated, and who is willing to do their best to help the poor?My thinking is like this, whether I am wrong or not, I can't know.

About half a month later, another film starring Zhang Jinghua arrived.The name of the film is called.It's a film played by this person, which has already caught my attention, with such a strange name.I can't help but look.The plot in that film is about a middle-aged husband who loves a young wife with all his strength.But the wife doesn't know much about her husband's behavior.Because the husband couldn't get his wife's forgiveness, he went out to dance and praise the actress, and the relationship between the husband and wife worsened.The husband came home late one day, and the wife hated it, so she set a fire and burned the house down.Holding a one-year-old child in his arms, he jumped into the fire and burned to death.The husband saw that he wanted to go to the fire to rescue people, but was pulled away by the fire brigade, but he was shocked and scared people crazy. In the future, when he encountered a fire, even a small stove, he would use water Put it out, caused a lot of trouble, the result was injured and died.When he was dying, he was still shouting, there is a woman and a child in the fire, please help!The acting in the movie is very sad. This is clearly alluding to the scene of Qingqiu fleeing from the fire, but the man is too good.So I knew that Yanxi still couldn't understand Qingqiu.If his mother and son wanted to see this film, what would they think?Things in the world are always the opposite. Later, I saw a news on the screen in the newspaper, saying that after Jing Hua starred in the role, he became famous. Many women wrote to him, expressing sympathy with him, and many women expressed their sympathy A photo of him, autographed on it, and sent it to him.His greatest film, which is being filmed again, is called "The Dream of the Spring Woman", and it is said that there is an old lady who has seen the prosperity and decline of the whole family as the protagonist.After reading this piece of news, I suspect that he has awakened a bit.However, many women are obsessed with him, and it is not difficult for him to find a way out, go to the gentle country, or have a second dream.In this way, the gains and losses in the eternal love field are the fault of the man?Or is it a woman's fault?