Chapter 13 Xiaowu and Xiaojie

All kinds of rumors about how the agency reduced staff didn't seem to have much impact on Xiaowu and Xiaojie, because they were still young.The lifeless life of the agency made them all feel bored.This feeling is more obvious in Xiaowu. He came to this institution a few years earlier than Xiaojie, and his feelings for this place are much deeper than Xiaojie's.Xiao Wu sometimes looks at Lao Hong and Lao Li and thinks, maybe in ten or more decades, his end will not be any better than theirs.Thinking of it this way, he felt terrified. He would just go on like this, year after year, day after day, without creation, just repeating a simple labor mechanically.Human passion, as well as life, pass day after day without any change. Today is no different from tomorrow, and tomorrow is the same as the day after tomorrow. That is to say, Xiaowu has seen a few things from today's life. Life after ten years.Xiao Wu, who calmed down and thought about it, really felt scared.He seems to have seen himself after fifty years old, hunchback, gray hair, weak walking steps, coughing continuously... that is himself.Xiaowu sometimes thinks this way, he feels that he is already old now.

Xiaowu, who is in his early thirties, often breaks out in a cold sweat from such strange thoughts.So he began to be dissatisfied with the real life, but he never mustered up enough courage to change the current living conditions.He knows that this is a bad root of human beings. He knows it is like this, but he can't do anything about it. This is the greatest tragedy of human beings.Xiao Wu, who has no courage, is often sad like this.Sometimes he was angry with himself, and when he was angry, he thought again, isn't that how most people in this world come here?After thinking about it this way, he was not so angry with himself.He knew that if he was not angry with himself, then this person was really hopeless.Maybe one day, fate will push me to a dead end, and then maybe it will be my new life.Xiao Wu was thinking about his future with such complicated emotions, and he couldn't tell what the future would be.He vaguely felt that this change of organization might be a good thing for him.After having this thought, his heart felt at ease instead.

Xiaojie's thinking has many similarities with Xiaowu's. She came to the agency in her twenties. This is entirely the wish of her parents. Parents have their parents' consideration. Not much gain, the picture is a kind of stability.Xiaojie couldn't change her parents' thinking, and she didn't know enough about the organization, so she came when she came.After she came here, she realized that this place was not quite suitable for her.Every time she gathers with her classmates, she finds that the mental state of the classmates is changing every time. They have so many dreams, as if their life is new every day.Only her, this time is the same as last time, and there will be no big difference between this time and next time.Some of her classmates are in the company, and some are working for themselves. They are constantly changing. What they do here today may be there tomorrow. They don’t regard changing jobs as a big event. Well, people go there, and finding the one that suits them best is the ultimate goal.Compared with these classmates, Xiaojie is much more stable.She will not think about tomorrow, nor can she think about whether the current job is suitable for her, because the first thing she thinks of is whether she is suitable for the job.

This is where she is different from others.Xiaojie also thought that one day, he would go to this world to create his own career just like his classmates.Because of the stability in front of her eyes, she was not determined to get out of herself.Regarding the upcoming changes in the organization, she couldn't tell whether it was a good thing or a bad thing.She really hoped that day would come soon.Maybe that day is my future. Xiaowu and Xiaojie sat across from each other in the office, but they didn't have much to say during the day.Xiaojie always seems very busy, she has many phone calls every day, and her pager keeps ringing.Xiaowu had also experienced this kind of excitement before. Not long after he graduated from university, his classmates had just started to work. They were very excited and saw that everything was new, so they had regular gatherings. When the classmates arrived We have a lot to say together.Later, as time passed, they got older day by day, and they felt that such a day was no longer suitable for them, so, they couldn't tell which day it was, and they were no longer excited about such a day.They seem to feel that there is nothing to be excited about, so life is different.

Today's Xiaojie is yesterday's self in Xiao Wu's eyes. He knows that sooner or later she will be silent like himself. What is needed and what is not. Therefore, Xiaowu felt that Xiaojie at this time would not have any common language with him, and he even felt that Xiaojie's current appearance was a bit ridiculous.He also laughed at his past, the day when he laughed at Xiaojie was the same as yesterday when he laughed at himself. On the contrary, Xiaojie felt that Xiaowu was young, but already old, lifeless all day long, with no activity or passion.She also does not believe that there is any common language with such a person.So they seldom communicate with each other, and at most, they nod each other when they look at each other.The days passed by them so unhurriedly.

Xiaowu still chats with the girl named Xinxin online. Although they have never met, they seem to be very familiar with each other, as if they have known each other for hundreds of years.Later she called him Lao Kan, and he called her Lao Xin.Lao Kan and Lao Xin became a pair of old friends online.Xiaowu sometimes thinks: What kind of girl does Be Careful look like?He thought about it a hundred times.But every time he thought about it, it was different. The more he thought about it, the more he wanted to see Xiaoxin in reality.They used to guess each other's looks online. He said, you are an introverted girl with long hair, fair skin, and talking eyes. You love to laugh, and you are the most charming when you laugh.You are also a girl who loves fantasy. You imagine that there is a blue sky above your head and a grass field under your feet...

She said: You are a man who doesn't like to talk, unless you are your confidant, you can only be silent. You are also a thoughtful man, and the women who are with you will feel very at ease.Although we have never met, I think we will become good friends in the future... Xiaoxin on the Internet finally agreed to meet Xiaokan on the Internet, and the place they met was the famous Sunshine Plaza in this city.There is a musical fountain in Sunshine Square, and they will meet in that romantic and beautiful place.At that moment, Xiao Wu came to the dating place early, and there are always many people in famous places.Before that, he once said to the Internet: No matter how many people there are, I will definitely recognize you in the crowd.She said the same thing, so they chose this crowded place.This is where they are validating each other's vibes, and this is where they want to find the beginning of a romantic story.

Xiaowu confidently came to the music fountain in Sunshine Square. There were indeed many people there, and Xiaowu was standing in the crowd.The agreed time was approaching little by little, and Xiaowu couldn't tell whether he was nervous or excited.He'd never felt this way when he'd dated other girls before.This time was different from before, he thought, this time there must be a good result. At this moment, he suddenly found Xiaojie in the crowd, and Xiaojie seemed to be waiting for someone.Xiaowu subconsciously left the music square.He wasn't afraid of Xiaojie or anything, but he still felt unnatural. He never expected to meet acquaintances here, especially acquaintances like Xiaojie.He walked around outside the square for a while, thinking that Xiaojie might have waited until the people left, but when he returned to the square, he saw Xiaojie was still standing there.He could only stand outside the crowd, he hoped that Xinxin would come to him at this moment, time passed by, but Xinxin did not appear.When he walked into the crowd again, Xiaojie was no longer there, but the girl named Xiaoxin still didn't appear.Xiaowu thought, it was all because of Xiaojie's appearance, if he hadn't met her, maybe he would have waited until he was careful.In the end, he left the dating place full of regret.

That time, Xin Xin complained about his missed appointment, and he explained to Xin Xin that he met an acquaintance and missed the opportunity to meet her.So they made an appointment for their next meeting.