Chapter 8 Ginger

Jiang, who is nearly fifty years old, has experienced everything he should have experienced.He went to the countryside before graduating from high school. As a result of going to the countryside, he married a woman from the local county town. At that time, he did not think further, nor could he think further.At that time, under the guidance of Kuangtiandi Dayou, he wanted to work in the local area for the rest of his life.Unexpectedly, the vast number of educated youths returned to the city overnight when they said they would return to the city.In the end, those who got married in the local area were left behind. If the policy remains unchanged and everyone is still doing a lot in the vast world, he will not have any imbalance. However, when others leave overnight, he It becomes unbalanced.Later, after hard work, he finally returned to the city.After he came back, he realized that he was really poor and white, not to mention other things, the house alone was a big problem.There is no way, he can only live with his mother, and his father has passed away before that.Only my mother is left at home. My mother is an intellectual and likes to be quiet. She has been used to it for so many years.The other children also went out one after another. The mother looked forward to the stars and the moon and hoped for a quiet day. Unexpectedly, Lao Jiang came back with his family.At that time, Lao Jiang's children were already in primary school.Lao Jiang has nowhere to go, so he can only live with his mother.Over time, conflicts arose.The conflict came from Lao Jiang's lover and mother. The mother didn't like this daughter-in-law from out of town very much, and the daughter-in-law was not too good at coming. She felt that she should eat and live here, and she didn't treat herself as an outsider.What's more, the daughter-in-law doesn't want to be disadvantaged by anything, so conflicts will arise, and once it happens, it will be out of control, and the mother will be unhappy, and the lover will also be unhappy.All day long, mothers complain and lovers get angry.The lover got angry for a reason, the lover didn't want to call back, she had a satisfactory job in that county town, and finally heeded Lao Jiang's advice and came to this unfamiliar city.Unexpectedly, when she came back here, she had nothing and had to start from scratch, so she was filled with resentment.She knew that her mother-in-law couldn't get used to her and often showed her face, but she didn't show her mother-in-law a good face either.Those days made Lao Jiang very restless. At that time, his biggest wish was to get a house as soon as possible.That is, from then on, he and his lover planted the seeds of hatred. He felt that his lover didn't understand him at all. He couldn't quarrel with his mother, he could only quarrel with his lover.As a result, the seeds of this hatred were buried deeper and deeper.A few years later, Lao Jiang finally got a house and left his mother's place.But this contradiction has not been resolved.

A few years later, my mother was getting older and it was not convenient for her to move around.Lao Jiang always takes time to take a look, and of course his lover is not happy.Because of this, she often quarreled with Lao Jiang, and Lao Jiang felt that the days were very gloomy, and there was no bright future. Lao Jiang was nearly fifty years old, and he finally got the position of director. He cherished it very much. At the beginning, he thought that he would be satisfied if he had a house of his own in this life. Later, he got a house and became a director. Director.He had picked up the position of director from Lao Hong and Lao Li, and if Lao Hong and Lao Li didn't have conflicts, the director would not be his turn anyway.Because of this, he felt more and more that the director was hard-won, so he always felt that the director's seat was not secure, and he always felt that someone might take it away one day.Because of this thought, he was cautious everywhere, not daring to make any mistakes.In order to avoid disputes, no matter what he encounters, he must ask the leader for instructions. Years of work experience told him that it is definitely not wrong to ask for instructions and report more.

For so many years, he has always wanted to divorce. When he chose this woman, he realized that it was a mistake.At that time, when I was young, I didn't control myself when I was excited, and it turned out to be a big mistake.When he wanted to get rid of his current lover, it was not so easy.At that time, local women could find educated youths who went to the countryside, which became a fashion for local young women.When he returned to the city that year, he thought about getting a divorce, and he would not have so many troubles in the future when he brought his children back to the city.Before he brought it up, his lover seemed to see through his thoughts, so his wife said categorically: There is no way to get a divorce, unless you don't want to go back to the city.At that time, his wife's family had some connections in the local area. He was afraid that he would not be able to come back, so he did not dare to propose a divorce.When he returned to the city, when the quarrel between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law was in full swing, he wanted to divorce again, and his wife saw the sign of his inconsistency in time, so she said, "If you want to divorce, you can give me 100,000 yuan." , I leave you immediately.Otherwise, don't even think about it.The wife does what she says, and he has taught her how powerful she is.After hearing what his wife said, Lao Jiang had no choice but to do anything.

Later they got their own house. Although they would still quarrel with their wives every day because they went home to visit their mother, it was much better than the daily quarrels before.Later, he became the chief of the department, so he didn't dare to mention the divorce, otherwise the chief of the department, which he finally obtained, would be wiped out with his wife's noise.Thinking of it this way, he endured it.During this period, the child grew up little by little. He poured all his hopes and sustenance into his son. His son was about to graduate from high school. When his son was admitted to university, half of his wishes would be fulfilled, and the other half would be fulfilled. Relying on himself, this kind of sustenance grew slowly after he became the director.Before he became the director, he never dared to think about it, that is, he wanted to be the deputy director.Lao Feng is about to retire, and once Lao Feng quits, someone will take over from Lao Feng's shift. He secretly calculated that there are more than ten departments in the agency, which means that he will have one-tenth of the hope.Excluding the director who is about to retire, there is still one-seventh or eighth hope.Thinking about it this way, the future suddenly became brighter. He is now working cautiously for that bright future.He also couldn't tell why he wanted to be the deputy director. Maybe this kind of career was innate, and this desire was deeply buried in his blood and bones.Maybe it's the genes of the ancestors, passed down to him from generation to generation, and he can't get rid of it, and he can't get rid of it.

Old Jiang knew how the people in the office thought of him, so he didn't think it mattered, these people couldn't affect his march to the deputy director.As long as the relationship with the leader is good, no matter what you do, as long as you let the leader feel at ease, you must listen to the leader everywhere.So no matter how big or small it is, he must actively report to the leader, and he will do whatever the leader says.How others see him is their business, as long as the leader still sees him as a little Jiang, he will be content. Lao Feng Old Feng who is about to retire.It has been nearly ten years since he changed jobs and moved to the local area. During these ten years, he has been in the position of the deputy bureau.After his wife committed suicide, he could no longer serve in the army.Why did his wife commit suicide? He couldn't even explain why. He had a relationship problem with his wife before.He found his wife from the countryside when he was a soldier, and then he got married, and then he proposed to work again, and then he realized that he really had nothing in common with his wife.He also thought about divorce, but his wife cried and made troubles, and she just counted down her own misfortunes. He thought about it too. When my wife was in the countryside, it was not easy to be a mother and a father at the same time, so let it go .Afterwards, he never mentioned the matter of divorce again. His life was going smoothly, his children were grown up, and he had been a teacher for several years.Unexpectedly, the good days, but his wife committed suicide.The day before his wife committed suicide, he said something to him. He didn't pay attention to it at the time, but those words became his wife's last words.His wife said to him: I know that you haven't been satisfied with me for so many years, don't think that I can't bear you, I can't bear my son, I don't know how he should live without a mother.When the wife said this, the son had already entered college.The wife also said: You have suffered these years and I have suffered too. Now we don't have to suffer anymore. You can be your division commander and army commander comfortably.

He was used to his wife nagging her so often.When his wife said this, he was thinking about something else. He thought that the third regiment was going to practice on behalf of the whole division this time.I don't know if I can get the first one back.He also thought that the leader of the first regiment, Yang, had changed his job. It would be better for deputy leader Wang or deputy leader Zhang to take over.These are all important matters, and what he thinks about all day long are the important matters of the whole teacher. His wife's words are like a gust of wind blowing away from his ears.

No one expected that the next day, when he came home from get off work, he saw his wife hanging from the door.My wife was very neatly dressed. She was wearing the flowered gown she had when she first entered the city, and the mille-soled shoes she made herself.He seemed to understand everything when he saw the scene in front of him, but he didn't seem to understand anything.Later, he changed jobs and came to this agency to become the deputy director. It has been almost ten years in a flash. Everyone in the agency knows that Lao Feng is the most talkative leader, and he will try his best to help you with whatever matters come to him. Don't ask him if he says no.When he was free, people could often see Lao Feng staring out the window in a daze.Looking at it for a long time, no one knew what he was thinking.Usually his words are the least.His son has graduated from university long ago, and has already married and passed away, but he rarely comes back to see Lao Feng, and Lao Feng doesn't say anything.Lao Feng is usually the only one in the family.Not long ago, Lao Feng had a stroke and stayed in the hospital for a few days. After being discharged from the hospital, Lao Feng did not leave any obvious sequelae, except that his mouth was a little crooked when he spoke, and saliva sometimes flowed out from the corners of his mouth.

Lao Feng never visits the office at ordinary times, and anyone who has something to do will go to the office to find him.Sometimes when you meet him in the corridor, he will ask you: Xiao Wu, how long have you been in the Bureau?Xiao Wu answered how long it was.Then he asked: Where does Xiaowu's family live?Xiao Wu asked where he lived.Before long, the next time Lao Feng meets Xiao Wu, Lao Feng will still ask Xiao Wu, how long have you been in the bureau?Xiao Wu was taken aback for a moment, but still asked how long it had been.Old Feng asked again: "Where does Xiaowu's family live?" Xiaowu quickly finished his answer and left without looking back.Xiao Wu secretly thought, why is Lao Feng the leader like this.

Of course, others will encounter this situation when they meet Lao Feng.People think that the leader of Lao Feng is too bureaucratic, and people usually feel that Lao Feng is a bit like that.After a long time, I don't really think of Lao Feng as a leader.When we meet, I always call Lao Feng Lao Feng, and Lao Feng can't see any changes. Sometimes he agrees, and sometimes he nods to you.No matter what you ask him for next time, as long as he can handle it and do it for you, he will always do it for you.People also said that Lao Feng was a good guy and a good guy. When Yuhong went to the party school, she went to his office more often. Yuhong was in a hurry at that time, in order to go to school, because she could switch jobs after school. She once thought that if Lao Feng could really help, and The old code has something and nothing.She once hinted to Lao Feng with words, but I don't know whether Lao Feng didn't hear it, or Lao Feng was not moved. In short, Lao Feng didn't take any action at all. Even if Lao Feng had such a little meaning, Yu Hong would express it.

It wasn't until Yuhong had been transferred to work for a long time that Lao Feng met Yuhong in the corridor and suddenly asked: How long have you been in the bureau?It wasn't until then that Yu Hong really realized that Lao Feng really didn't know what he was thinking. No one knows what Lao Feng is thinking, only Lao Feng himself knows.Since he changed jobs to other places, his mind has stayed in the army, where he has fought for most of his life, and his career and emotions have stayed in the army.It was helpless for him to change jobs to other places. Although many years have passed, he still has not entered the role.He is often in a daze, and when he looks out of the window, he will be distracted, as if he saw his mighty army again.Passing solemnly before his eyes.His eyes watered as he thought about it.

He was getting older every year, and he should retire in some days, but this illusion haunted him more and more strongly.It made his blood boil again and again, and he was disillusioned and lost again and again.So he walks between reality and illusion.