Chapter 20 Part II.2.2

Shi Qiao fit Ye Lianzi's heart very well, especially his calmness, which made her feel that there was a warm embrace under his gown like a hen hatching chicks.The days of living among strangers since childhood seem to be over... Even Ye Zhiqing likes Shi Qiao very much. But for some reason, their relationship progressed very slowly, especially in that war-torn era.The era of war is changing rapidly just like the information age. If you don't seize the opportunity, it will soon be another world.They follow the rules and move slowly, and finally reach the day when they have decision-making significance.Shi Qiao took Ye Lianzi to Dongdan Youth Association to attend some kind of party. After the meeting, he took her to Dong'an Market and asked, "Do you like fried mutton?" Ye Lianzi nodded accordingly.

Shi Qiao asked for a private seat upstairs in Donglaishun.After ordering, Ye Lianzi sat there, watching Shi Qiao rolled up her cuffs, bent her body slightly, and picked from more than twenty condiment bowls with a small spoon, and gave her the seasoning for the hot-boiled meat. The copper shabu-shabu was served, and the little sparks were popping, it was really a bit of a Chinese New Year atmosphere. Shi Qiao didn't say a word, just put the slices of mutton into the shabu-shabu, and put the mutton slices into Ye Lianzi's seasoning bowl. Ye Lianzi said, "Why don't you eat it? I just caught it."

Then he put down his chopsticks and pondered for a while, and finally said to Ye Lianzi: "Lianzi, there is something I wanted to tell you a long time ago. Of course, I should ask your parents for permission first, but... your situation is different, I Want to know what you mean before talking to them... Do you feel happy with me?Don't force it if you're not happy.If..." He held Ye Lianzi's hand, "If you are shy, you don't have to answer. " The cowardly Ye Lianzi is not cowardly at the critical moment, and there will be countless opportunities to prove her explosive power in this aspect in the future.She replied in a low voice but decisively: "Happy..."

Seeing Ye Lianzi blushing, Shi Qiao immediately stopped her and said, "Okay, let's eat." He ate a lot, and asked the waiter to refill his wine once. It was getting dark after dinner, Shi Qiao took Ye Lianzi by the hand and sent her home.His hands are big and thick, like a warm cloud covering the lotus leaves. After that, Ye Lianzi waited patiently for Shi Qiao to come and talk to her parents.But suddenly there was no news about Shi Qiao. When I asked my cousin, my cousin couldn't tell the reason. For a long time, Ye Lianzi thought that something about her behavior that night made Shi Qiao dissatisfied, so he left without saying goodbye.But she couldn't recall exactly what was inappropriate about her.She was startled suddenly, maybe he had some incurable disease, and his cousin was hiding it from her... so she mustered up the courage to go to the university to find Shi Qiao.

Hu Binghuan, Shi Qiao's irreverent, had to replace Shi Qiao to face this gentle woman. Apart from complaining in his heart that Shi Qiao didn't handle things properly, what could he do?Shi Qiao also left him without saying goodbye, he might not be as sad as the little girl in front of him... But he and Shi Qiao are Mo Ni after all, if Mo Ni can do this, what else is there to be trusted? The swallow building is empty... He didn't believe that Shi Qiao was using him.But Hu Binghuan is a person who is indifferent to learning, deeply hidden but compassionate. It is probably inevitable that his dormitory will be used as a meeting place by Shi Qiao and others in the name of discussing Buddhist scriptures, history or poetry club activities.They not only chatted with him, indexed and searched for Buddhist experience, but sometimes avoided him, as if he was not only one of them, but also not one of them.For some reason, no one ever tried to mobilize him to participate.

For Hu Binghuan, who had already seen through the world and was boundlessly lonely, Shi Qiao's parting made him feel once again that life was impermanent and he couldn't help himself. Of course he can imagine where Shi Qiao is going, so he is even more worried about Shi Qiao. A passive person like Shi Qiao is not suitable for politics at all, unlike his second brother Hu Bingchen. The second brother Hu Bingchen, like many people, has a proactive spirit in life, so he is a big deal.But Shi Qiao is not, Shi Qiao is passive, no matter when, no matter what.If not, the relationship between him and Ye Lianzi might have been settled long ago.

Even someone who takes the initiative like the second brother can change the course of fate? A cousin in the second room, who was called the scum of Hu Bingan by his second brother Hu Bingchen, was a student of the first phase of Whampoa and a member of the Communist Party. After participating in the Nanchang Uprising, he was sent to the Honghu Soviet Area and held important positions. In 1931, Wang Ming came to power and ordered the establishment of the Hunan and Hubei Central Sub-bureau, with Xia Xi, Mao Zedong's fellow countryman, as the representative of the Central Committee.In March, after Xia Xi arrived in the Honghu Soviet Area, he killed a large number of Red Army commanders and fighters in the name of eliminating counter-revolutionaries.Jiang Qi, the director of his security bureau, pointed out that someone was a spy, and Xia Xi, the representative of the central government, did not investigate and killed him immediately.He Long, who had just joined the Communist Party after the Nanchang Uprising, had no right to speak at all.

This first-stage cousin of Huangpu, who was the chief of staff of the Red Army at the time, was falsely accused of being a "reorganization faction". He was driven to the square with more than 30 people including Wan Tao, Pan Jiachen, and Liu Zhixun. Several thugs each carried a hardwood stick, and beat them with the stick.Under the chaos of sticks, blood was splashed everywhere, brains were shattered, flesh and blood were flying, and the sound of screams was piercing. When it was later found out that Jiang Qi was an internal traitor of the Kuomintang, almost all the backbone of the base area had been killed.

Absurd, absurd! The tomb of the first phase of Huangpu cousin is said to be in Jingzhou, Hubei. The people in the second room kept this secret.But everyone in the Hu family knew about it, especially the younger brother Hu Bingchen. What happened to him did not make Hu Binghuan feel very sad. In Hu Binghuan's view, faith is just a disease, just like love.what is love?It is the measles that everyone will inevitably have in their lives. Hu Binghuan only knew one thing but didn't know the other. Decades later, Liu Zhixun, who was beaten to death by Jiang Qi with his cousin in the first phase of Whampoa, was honored to enter Mao Zedong's poem "Butterfly Love Flower", in which there are The sentence "I lose my pride, Yang Jun loses my willow..."

Readers who don't know the truth think that martyr Liu Zhixun was killed by the Kuomintang just like Mao Zedong's first wife Yang Kaihui. And the inspiration for the line "Yangliu Qingbiao goes straight to Chongxiaojiu", does it come from the injustice and screams of Liu Zhigou and other martyrs before they died? This is something. Couldn't Shi Qiao find some time to say goodbye?Even if you have a heavy responsibility, you can make things more perfect, let alone such a weak and unfortunate girl? Maybe it's better to end this way?Sooner or later it would be this result, Shi Qiao couldn't help himself anyway.

"Come in and sit for a while?" Hu Binghuan said to Ye Lianzi who was standing with her head bowed in front of the dormitory door. Although she was extremely presumptuous, Ye Lianzi couldn't care less, she wanted to know Shi Qiao's whereabouts very much, so she walked in sideways. The room is very dark, with a touch of silence, gathering and scattered, like a few wisps of agarwood lingering in the room, exuding a kind of tranquility that is calm in the wind and waves.Ye Lianzi suddenly had a feeling of being close to Shi Qiao, but she still didn't know how to say it, "I'll come and see Mr. Shi, he...hasn't heard from him for a long time, so I'm a little worried." She raised her eyes, it was a long time With helpless and desperate eyes; Hu Binghuan's heart sank heavily.No one knew what Hu Binghuan had said to Ye Lianzi.But after meeting Hu Bingshuai, Ye Lianzi became more contemplative in her pain, and no longer longed for a reunion with Shi Qiao. Hu Binghuan returned home a few days later. I went up to my mother's room, called "Mother", and stood watching my mother play chess. From the trembling jade bracelet on her wrist, it could be seen that she was hesitant about the chess piece she held in her hand. He looked at the chessboard and said, "Hei Zi lost." The mother casually put down the chess piece that was still hesitating just now, stared at the chessboard and said: "Play chess with yourself, and you will win or lose. You say that you know yourself and the enemy, and you will win every battle... But how can I beat myself? Is it a victory?" ． "Why are you back?" She raised her head, looked at the slender eldest son in a gray cloth gown, and smiled slightly.But no, he stood there, holding the word "Pu".But it's not the "simple" that is "simple". If you have to use "simple" to summarize, it will be short of weight.Is it the "simple" of "quaint"?Nor is it.Is it the "pure" of "sincere"?nor... The whole thing is a "simple". "Simplicity" is the best in beauty, because there is no decoration, only real swords and guns, and no fakes. "Look." Hu Binghuan replied, he didn't know why his mother turned to smile again. "Have you had dinner yet? Ask the servants to cook you something, probably roasted lamb from the Baikui old house in Longfu Temple." "No, I've already eaten." "My aunt came here and said she wanted you to draw a fan for Miss Jin's family." "Isn't the mother question better?" "It's also writing. I'm just for entertainment, and you're for education. Let's ask the lady a question." pastime!Alas, of course my mother has many ways to entertain herself... This may be the reason why Hu Binghuan must report to his mother before deciding to "go back to his hometown for a visit".It is better if his father is at home, but his father is often away, and he does not have to wait for his return for this purpose. My mother is not like other women. Once her husband has a concubine, he can escape his troubles by eating vegetarian food and chanting Buddha.She said it was disrespectful to the Buddha, and if she recited the Buddha's name, she would recite it sincerely, not because she was desperate.Probably this is why she often plays chess by herself. "Understood." Hu Binghuan didn't say anything, "Mother, I want to go back to my hometown." "Isn't it the graduation exam?" He stood silently without answering. The mother didn't ask anymore, but looked at Hu Binghuan carefully, a little too carefully, "Do you want to visit your third brother in the nursing home before leaving?" The third child is also a ghost, so he has tuberculosis and is not getting better.Think of several sons with different temperaments, none of which are like hers. Hu Binghuan thought for a while and said, "It won't be long, let's go see him when we come back." Looking back on it afterwards, my mother felt more and more that the boss was calm and calm, and it didn't make her feel that he would not come back when things came to an end.So when she heard the news of Hu Binghuan's disappearance, her mother was not overly sad. No matter what Hu Binghuan chose, she felt that it was right for him. After that, Hu Binghuan put down a chess piece he was caressing in his hand, and said, "Mother, you play chess, I'm going back to my room." "Go, the fan is on the desk." "understood." Seeing his back as he walked towards the study, his mother sighed inexplicably. Hu Binghuan did not take the fan on the desk, but brought the "mung bean eye" back to the room. Facing the inscription there was no preface or postscript at all, only the inkstone with the word "Mang" engraved on it, he didn't sleep all night. Was he examining his own heart?Is his belief in Buddha just like his second brother or those great scholars, just following various fashions, or is it just his own nature? Life to him is nothing more than flowing water, to his second brother who is full of enthusiasm, it is like a dream, like a dream, to his third brother who is struggling with tuberculosis, it may just go with the water, why should he be stubborn about what life is? But ask for an epiphany.But understand what?Is it credible or unbelievable to realize the so-called "twist and twists and turns, life and death, suffering and joy"? What is he going to abandon? It's not that Hu Binghuan has no idea about Miss Jin's family. He respects each other like a guest, raises his eyebrows, plays music, chess, calligraphy and painting...who doesn't yearn for such a worldly scene?But did the world allow this possibility?If he couldn't give Miss the Jin family a guarantee, he shouldn't have led her into an unfulfilled hope, just like Shi Qiao's involuntary and his leaving Ye Lianzi without saying goodbye. The parents must have respected each other as guests at the beginning, but didn't the mother pass the time like this?He thought of the trembling jade bracelet on his mother's wrist. All living beings are suffering, and he cannot see the way of redemption... Hu Binghuan and Ke Zhi's heart is like still water, calm?Mo Ni Shi Qiao made him feel ashamed. Maybe it can’t be said that, Li Qingzhao said, “I’m afraid that the boat in Shuangxi can’t carry it, and I’m worried.” The sudden sinking of Hu Binghuan’s boat is actually just a little melancholy that cannot be weighed and is difficult.But who can say that this is sinking? After he disappeared, not only his home, but even the school did not find a piece of paper or writing of him. Maybe he burned all his writing before leaving.Many years later, Hu Bingchen returned to his hometown, wandering in the empty, dilapidated and barren courtyard. In the old imperial garden, there were only a few flower pots in the corner.He couldn't help stroking the cracked flower pots, but he didn't expect this "mung bean eye" to be pressed under one of the flower pots. Who put the "mung bean eyes" under the flowerpot?Of course it wouldn't be Mrs. Ru who swept away all the family wealth and married him as his own wife. And why put the "mung bean eyes" under the flowerpot? It's not just "mung bean eyes" that are pressed down in the flowerpot!He picked up the square inkstone with mixed feelings, and couldn't help but shake it away to the light. The inkstone that was once overflowing with light was blinded, and turned into a stubborn stone again... Facing the blind "mung bean eyes", Hu Bingchen, who thought he had been tempered into steel, was severely filed down by the blunt rusty knife of the past. I don't know what Hu Binghuan and "Mung Bean Eye" decided and did during the all-night communion many years ago. 7 When Wu Wei was still Hu Bingchen's second wife, one night, she urgently called in her dream: "Please wait, please wait..." It didn't sound like calling an irrelevant person, but rather It is a person who has been reunited after a long absence, lost and found, and does not want to lose again.This made Hu Bingchen very uncomfortable; he pushed her awake and said, "Did you have a nightmare?" She said in a daze: "No, I dreamed of a person, it seems to be you..." She shook her head very positively and said, "No, no, although the appearance is almost the same as yours, no, it is not accurate to say that, in fact there are differences Very big... wearing a Taoist robe, floating with a staff, walking in layers of mountain mist..." Hu Bingchen thought of his elder brother Hu Binghuan.But he didn't ask about Wu Wei's dream, nor did he guess with her who this person who is very similar to him might be. After the eldest brother disappeared, everyone said that he committed suicide from mental depression.But Hu Bingchen felt that even if the elder brother committed suicide, it was because he refused to agree, he was too lonely.At that time, he had other thoughts, did the elder brother with a far-reaching mind cut off his mortal relationship and sneaked into the deep mountains and old forests to practice? Wu Wei's dream was like time turning back suddenly, a verification for him to make up. But what does Wu Wei have to do with his elder brother?He has never dreamed of his elder brother, so how can she dream of him? He suddenly felt a little creepy. Wu Wei didn't fully describe her dream.Wu Wei, who had never concealed anything from Hu Bingchen, seemed to have an important secret since then.But when I really asked her what she was hiding, she seemed to be hiding nothing, only showing a look of melancholy and not knowing where to go. 8 Gu Qiushui is the son of a carpenter in Erdaohezi, and Ye Lianzi is the daughter of a poor family. It was just a chance that they left the land.If Gu Qiushui was still working as a farmer in Erdaohezi, maybe he would marry a big girl from the country to prosper.No matter what, he was always a man who was established and established, and he would not go astray for a lifetime, and he was either this person's slave or that person's slave. If Ye Lianzi was still herding pigs in the countryside, she might marry a good man like her second uncle, and she would also get rid of those bad relatives, live a life full of food, and be satisfied. After leaving the land, as a matter of course, as a matter of fact, they read some more books. Gu Qiushui liked reading since he was a child. Other children would buy firecrackers with the lucky money during the New Year. He bought books with the lucky money. Of course, he reads a lot of things, not only has he read "Serving the Country with the Loyalty", but also read many novels after leaving the land. His favorite author is Tolstoy in the old Russian era. ...Not only is he full of "loyalty" and other "loyalty", but he also admires "knights". Gu Qiushui is a good rider, but being able to ride a horse and riding well does not mean "riding dirt", just like having a college diploma does not mean being educated. Except that Hu Bingchen could read the original version, Gu Qiushui, the carpenter's son, and Hu Bingchen, a son of the family, had no fundamental difference in their understanding of "knight". But "knight" is a crop in the western land, and it can't grow in the land of China?So Gu Qiushui and Hu Bingchen can only use their half-understanding of "knight" to be a half-baked "knight" to confuse those women who only half-understand "knight". Gu Qiushui always wanted to get married.How many people can be open-minded to the point of life regardless of marriage?Marriage is an engrossing, obligatory riddle, even to those who have brains. Gu Qiushui, who has read it or not, can marry the wife of Company Commander Yu, a woman nicknamed "Black Peony" as his wife?Such a woman is only suitable for cheating, but to marry a wife is to marry a woman who can blossom and blossom only after his enlightenment education.From this point of view, the term "Girl of the Yellow Flower" may also have hidden evil intentions. Just like how many years later Hu Bingchen said to Wu Wei with contempt but yearning: "... There is a woman surnamed Zhao in your unit. Men can smell a smell emanating from her from a distance. No matter where it is, the taste of lying down quickly and solving it on the spot is really sloppy and cheap to the extreme. Can you fall in love with that kind of woman? Not to mention marriage, it's okay to have a good night's sleep. " This shows that Hu Bingchen discovered that women's body odor is an important source of whether they are sexy or not long before Sean, a professor of psychology at Texas State University. Wu Wei thought, is there such a woman surnamed Zhao in my unit? Similarly, can Ye Lianzi, who has read "Begonia", marry those soldiers who, apart from fighting, smoke opium, gamble, and prostitutes? The dangers of fiction are far from being recognized.If you look at the people around you, you will find that those who don't like to read novels, most of their lives live smoothly, and they will end up dying in the end. In the future, Wu Wei would make the same mistake as her parents, and did not understand the extremely simple truth that "novels are novels, and days are days". Don't forget that Hu Bingchen also loves to read novels. In 1934, the 112th Division of the Northeast Army was transferred to Ding County, Hebei Province. One day in the early spring of this year, Gu Qiushui, a junior officer of the 112th Division, came out of the camp on a bicycle and was going to Ding County. When passing the headquarters, it happened that a young woman came out of the headquarters in a rickshaw. It doesn't matter what Gu Qiushui does in the county, maybe it's just to buy some tobacco or something.It was a holiday when there were no battles to fight and nothing to harm, and no women to laugh at.Such days were difficult for a bohemian young officer of twenty-five, so he paid special attention to the woman sitting in the rickshaw. In his impression, even though the woman was sitting, she could still tell that she was tall.Women at that time rarely had such a tall figure, which reminded him of such elegant and refined sentences as "the jade tree is facing the wind". It's a pity that there was a downhill slope at the city gate, and his bicycle brake didn't work, so he had to go away with the bicycle.But it can't be difficult for a man who is already interested in a certain woman, let alone a man like Gu Qiushui. Since this woman came out of the headquarters of the 112th Division, she must be a family member of an officer of the 112th Division. Gu Qiushui kept saying that it was the first time he saw Ye Lianzi. But he was wrong, he definitely mistook another woman for Ye Lianzi. That young and beautiful woman must be a relative of an officer in the headquarters, not Ye Lianzi. Because it is impossible for Ye Lianzi to take a rickshaw, let alone go to the headquarters of the 112th Division. After Ye Lianzi entered the city with her father and stepmother, she had enough to eat and grew taller and fatter, but she lived another kind of life that cannot be described in words... In any case, people need a little expense.It's like a girl who has reached the "flowering stage" needs a little paper every month, but Ye Lianzi still doesn't have a penny of autonomy. Her need for money is both simple and complex.In addition to the most necessary paper, for example, I want to do something for my stepmother; for example, I want to continue to go to school on my own. It's hard to imagine why she is so obsessed with going to school.Lofty ideals?What lofty ideals can she have? Perhaps the encounter with Shi Qiao strengthened this desire even though Shi Qiao didn't know where to go. Fortunately, plasters were produced in Ding County.Every family spread plaster is a scene in Dingxian County, and the landlord's daughter spread the plaster, and Ye Lianzi also spread it, and sent it to collect wages after spreading. When I received my wages for the first time, the heat in my palm actually warmed those ruthless copper coins a little.On the way home, Ye Lianzi browsed the street stalls while thinking about how to honor her stepmother.When I was about to get home, I saw a sesame seed cake stand, and remembered that my stepmother loved to eat sesame sesame seed cakes, so I bought four.The guy selling the sesame seed cakes used long iron tongs to force the sesame seed cakes out of the oven, and the sesame seed cakes were swollen, hot, and happy.Ye Lianzi was worried that the biscuits would get cold on the road, so she put the biscuits in her arms, and her chest became hot, thinking that her stepmother would definitely give her such an amiable smiling face like sesame biscuits. She hurried home, slapping the knocker on the door anxiously.The shadow inside was shouting something, but no one heard her knocking on the door. After listening carefully, I heard my stepmother saying: "What eighteen-year-old girl? She's already twenty, can I not marry her?" "Who do you want me to marry her to?" said the father. "Company Commander Wang, didn't your wife just die?" "He's a net prostitute..." The stepmother smiled meaningfully and said, "Oh, what man doesn't prostitute?" Although Ye Lianzi didn't know who this company commander Wang was, she definitely had big gold teeth, combed back hair, and opened her mouth to say "fuck me!" She only had two hands with women, either hitting them on the mouth or touching their buttocks.Hearing the unidentified screams coming up from under the card table at home from time to time, the ass of the wife or non-wife leaning on the side must have been severely pinched. Ye Lianzi became anxious, so she knocked on the door harder. The stepmother asked suspiciously, "Who is it?" "I." She replied in a low voice, "Oh, lotus seeds!" Her voice was very kind. Ye Lianzi was impetuous eager to present treasures, and couldn't wait for a moment to look in through the crack of the door, only to see her stepmother's two black eyes, which were always hidden in the bridge of her nose, were now staring at the two doors in unison. The door is thrown.Outside the gate, she immediately felt under their lethal force. The hot biscuits in her arms immediately cooled her heart.