Chapter 15 color blindness.1

Suddenly a red glow rose from the western sky, and the people were bathed in crimson air, as if their plain clothes were also dyed a light crimson. The evening wind blew wildly at Ms. Zhao's moon-white Indian silk cheongsam; she caressed it with her hands from time to time, as if she was afraid that the good evening wind would blow all the buttons off.Probably tired from standing for a long time, she is now half-twisting her slender waist, her head is slightly tilted to the left, and her eyes are focused on the ground; her short black velvet hair is covered to the tip of her eyebrows, and there is a smile on her small lips: There is a kind of resentful and charming fragrance revealed from her solemn and capable.After a while, she raised her head, brushed her short hair with her left hand, and said softly and slowly:

"Those things are stranger than dreams; they are really unexpected. ——Ah! What is Huifang doing there?" The boy in the suit opposite her turned his face away and saw something light purple rustling on a green poplar tree near the river bank. He couldn't help shouting anxiously, and at the same time moved his feet: "Miss Li, falling into the water is not for fun! Shall I help you down?" There was a burst of giggling laughter from the poplar tree, and then a petite human figure was cut out in the green waves, and in an instant it was on the ground, but it didn't know what to do there, and the evening wind gradually blown away the purple cheongsam The lower edge of the bottom reveals the light red suspenders on the honey-colored stockings.

"She's more naughty than me," said the young man with a sigh of relief. He turned around and smiled at Ms. Zhao, picking up the thread of the conversation again: "Life is a big dream. It's good to dream, but it's a pity when you dream. I didn't know it was a dream." "When you know it's a dream, do you still want to keep doing it?" Ms. Zhao's voice was very low, as if she was talking to herself; she gently stroked her left temple with her left hand, staring at the purple cloud piles like chaotic mountains on the other side of the Huangpu River where the water and the sky meet.

"Isn't that a bit like Guishan, Misi Zhao?" The boy in the suit followed Ms. Zhao's eyes and changed the direction of the conversation. The answer was a sweet smile. The past of last year and today floated up on Ms. Zhao's brain like light smoke; she was very reluctant to recall these past events. ——The boy in the suit couldn't help but recall many words.It turned out that it was "nothing to do with me", but for some reason, when thinking of those things, there was always an inexplicable irritability that overwhelmed her until she couldn't breathe.She glanced at Lin Baishuang suspiciously, as if she wanted to find out whether the young man's piercing gaze had glimpsed her heart.As soon as their eyes came into direct contact, Ms. Zhao's heart moved suddenly, and her face flushed. She immediately felt that such distracting thoughts were too ridiculous, and was about to cover it up with words, when suddenly a furry thing touched the back of her neck up, startled her.

"Hui Fang, you—" Ms. Zhao turned around quickly, and just bumped into Li Huifang's chest.Ms. Li gave a silly laugh, turned her body sideways, wrapped her left hand around Ms. Zhao's waist, and raised her right hand to the sky, and a small gray object landed on Lin Baishuang's shoulder. "It's a good thing that you have revolutionized life! Even if you see a little sparrow, you will be afraid." Ms. Li scratched Ms. Zhao's cheek with her fingers and said with a smile.Lin Baishuang had already grasped the poor little sparrow in his hand, while looking at it, he casually asked:

"Did it come from that poplar tree? It can't fly yet! Let it go?" Before Ms. Li could answer, Ms. Zhao snatched the little sparrow from Lin Baishuang's hand and threw it on the grass. The little thing flapped its wings strangely, wanting to fly high, but it only flew two or three feet away. , finally fell down.Ms. Zhao turned her head and glanced at Li Huifang, and said with feigned annoyance: "You are the revolutionist! You will kill the sparrow! Huifang, make fun of revolution with me again, I will not follow! What revolution, who has revolutionized it? When will I see revolution?"

"Stop whining, good sister." Huifang said playfully, twisting her arms on Ms. Zhao. "It's not a complaint. I'm not a great man who went abroad. What complaints?" "Jun Qiu is right," Lin Baishuang interjected, "Complaints are not our business. They are just resentment and disillusionment. What I said just now Recently, I feel that my life is extremely empty, which is exactly what it means. I naturally believe that there are no such earth-shaking heroes in the world, and the heroes in the eyes of ordinary people are really just a wheel in the big machine of human history, but I also feel that I Not only is it insignificant, but it is also an insignificant person in the great machine of human beings; in the great machine of modern life, my status is not even as good as a screw. I am just a piece of scrap iron that accidentally fell into this big machine In the midst of countless big wheels and small axles, it was just crushed."

Lin Baishuang couldn't speak for a long time by herself.He didn't notice that Li Huifang, who was leaning on Ms. Zhao's shoulder, was imitating his speaking posture like a "double reed".When he said the last "That's all", Ms. Li suddenly raised her right hand to the side of her chin, palm up, fingertips facing Lin Baishuang, then moved forward, and shouted with laughter: "That's all. That's all." This caused both Lin Baishuang and Zhao Yunqiu to laugh.But Ms. Li put back her smile instead, imitating Lin Baishuang's tone, and added seriously:

"That's all, that's all; Lin Baishuang is all that, but he won't give up!" "Naturally, it's someone who scrapes the ground." Lin Baishuang said softly, and heaved a sigh of relief at the same time. "Naturally not—but—the ones who scraped the land," Ms. Li laughed again, "Naturally—and—there—the ones who were scraped, not only refused to give up, but even wanted to settle accounts. " Lin Baishuang smiled suspiciously, but said nothing. "I heard from my brother that they have paid at least forty to fifty million in advance. He said that this account must be settled. They can't give away their hard-earned capital to corrupt officials casually." Get a few more aunts..." Ms. Li suddenly stopped talking, and secretly glanced at Ms. Zhao.Ms. Zhao stared blankly at a large ship exiting, and seemed to have never noticed Lin Baishuang's conversation.Ms. Li pursed her lips and smiled, then turned her mouth and continued, "Let's not talk about those accounts. Let's go and see that ship. If it's Jiang An, my cousin will be on board."

Holding Ms. Zhao's hand, Li Huifang ran towards the river bank, but the ship had already gone far away, and only a yellow section on the chimney showed that it was indeed a China Merchants ship.At that time, a cloud of thick smoke came out from the chimney, which gradually seemed to elongate, dragging in mid-air, like a tail.There is also a tail on the surface of the river, which is the white foam stirred up by the leaves of the dark ship, pulled out from the buttocks of the ship.Zhao Yunqiu looked at it in bewilderment, and suddenly thought of her lonely mother who was far away in the south of the sky, and her eyes were moist.

Ms. Li was also deep in thought, but of a different nature; her thoughts were flying gracefully around the ship.She likes the life with wide sea and sky most.Every time she came to Shanghai from her hometown, she resented that the Yongxing ship went too fast and only gave her one night and half a day of sea experience.She suddenly laughed to herself.Looking back at Lin Baishuang who was standing quietly beside him, he said: "Mr. Lin, what do you say is the most interesting thing? I want to be the owner of a big ship! Just think about it, he, not only, is at sea every day, but also--I'm sorry, Mr. Lin, I'm following your tune again and, having so many sailors' waiters under his command, and so many guests relying on his ability, he is like a commander-in-chief, a king, isn't he? On board, he's the only Dictoid!" Speaking of the last four words, she suddenly hugged Ms. Zhao, giggling. "Hey! Just now you made fun of other people's revolution, now you don't blame yourself, you have to do a lot of Deketui!" As Zhao Yunqiu spoke, she gently pushed Li Huifang's arm away; even though the person hugging her was a woman, she always felt a little uncomfortable. "Apart from the door," Li Huifang laughed loudly after imitating Zhao Yunqiu's Cantonese accent, "I never objected! Dektodo, I just want to be on a boat." "When you become the owner of the ship, Miss Li, I'll be the waiter." Lin Baishuang tried to divert the conversation. "If you accept the female waiter, I will come too!" Zhao Yunqiu forced another sentence. At this time, Kusama suddenly jumped out of a toad, looking at the three of them with protruding eyes.Li Huifang quickly picked up a piece of broken tile and was about to throw it over when the toad disappeared and threw the tile away casually. She straightened her body and said slowly but seriously: "Don't make fun of it. Go to heaven and become a fairy. I can learn to sail in the next year or two, and in five or six years, my father may start a steamship company. Why can’t I be the captain? Ambitious, there should be. My brother said, three or four years ago It’s business, business, and now, political backstage bosses. They want to dominate the regime. Why shouldn’t they? They have plenty of money! I just want to be a ship owner now, why shouldn’t I?” There was a momentary silence.Only the wind was blowing and rattling the clothes of the two ladies.Ms. Li is the shortest among the three, but she is relatively the fattest; she has a round face, small and round eyes, slightly curved but not thick eyebrows, a scarlet smile, a plump and strong body, and a lively Although her behavior was not as slender and charming as Zhao Yunqiu, she was innocent and innocent, and seemed to have a particularly dazzling light.Now she is standing upright, graceful and vigorous, which adds a bit of enchanting magic power. "Miss Li, I admire your courage! Four or five years from now, you are so confident!" Lin Baishuang broke the silence.He immediately felt that his tone seemed to be mocking Ms. Li's ambition, so he hastily added a statement: "Optimism is good; this is the attitude of the strong. I often want to get rid of my own gray and gloomy outlook on life, but unfortunately I always fail. I see the bubbles of ideals bursting one by one, and I seem to be rolling in a huge wave. I feel dizzy and depressed. I dare not say that I am sure about my future hopes. But, Miss Li, what you said just now really excited me." Li Huifang smiled slightly, seemingly humble, but at the same time proud.Suddenly the toad, which had disappeared before, jumped out again at her feet and landed on her instep.Li Huifang instinctively raised her legs, and the little thing fell five feet away; it seemed to be in a panic, but it turned its shambling body and squatted against Li Huifang.This made the naughty Ms. Li couldn't help but not to chase after her. Lin Baishuang watched her lively back, and a vague idea emerged in his mind: "The daughter of the emerging bourgeoisie!" So many complicated meditations rushed to his consciousness at the same time, and he forgot where he was.But this was very temporary, he immediately returned to reality, and hurriedly glanced around as if waking up from a dream, only to see Zhao Yunqiu's tender eyes echoing on his face.His whole heart was shaken, and he unconsciously took a step towards Zhao Yunqiu; many words were rushing to come out in his throat, but he didn't know which one should come out first. For a few seconds silence occupied them both. "Mr. Lin, I remember that your tone was not the same as it is now." Finally, Ms. Zhao spoke first, "Of course, we didn't have a long talk before, but your discussions on the podium are so positive and optimistic." "Really?" Lin Baishuang replied in bewilderment, and an image of Ms. Zhao in cloth uniform appeared in front of his eyes, raising her hand to salute him, but it flashed like lightning, and she was still gentle and bright. As if feeling that Lin Baishuang's expression was wrong, Zhao Yunqiu lowered his eyes and smiled slightly. "Because now is now." Lin Baishuang continued more serenely: "The wandering mood rolling in the huge waves has never existed before; it's just that it is shrouded by the strong light-like environment and can only lie dormant in the heart. Not only is it dormant, but it seems to be dead. However, once the external force is gone, it will clearly appear and become more powerful. Not only is it powerful, but it is also mixed with the smell of depression. Now I see the front It's just gray and black. Naturally, I know that there are red, yellow and white colors in the gray and black, which are sharply opposed, but it is only gray and black in front of my eyes. Yunqiu, what hurts me the most is that I am not myself. Willing mental colorblindness!" "You probably don't see a ray of light ahead?" Ms. Zhao asked softly; that gentle tone was full of sympathy. The answer was a sad nod.It was a nod of resignation, just like the nod of a conscientious doctor when he has to say that the patient is hopeless. "So you say that life is empty? Do you think there is no place in the vast world that is more gratifying?" Ms. Zhao followed up with another sentence; there seemed to be a trill in her urgent tone.It was like a stream of clear water flowing in Lin Baishuang's swollen and hot heart. "There should be." Lin Baishuang was very encouraged, "It's thousands of miles away, but it's close at hand." Then he paused suddenly, his eyes flicked across Ms. Zhao's face, and he came to a vague conclusion: "What is unknown is luck." Life." Ms. Zhao just smiled faintly; she turned her head and saw Li Huifang climbing on the rocks far away and looking into the water.The twilight gradually fell, but it was still possible to recognize that what Ms. Li was holding in her hand was the soft stalk of a green poplar. "Li Huifang's optimism, do you think you can't agree with it?" Ms. Zhao asked casually, still facing Ms. Li, and seemed to be observing with great interest, but a look of anxiety and eagerness was also revealed in her sneaky look at Lin Baishuang.However, Lin Baishuang didn't notice it all. "If she can do what she wants, that's not bad. It's a pity that the changes in personnel are unpredictable." Lin Baishuang replied casually.Another thing was on his mind: he felt that Zhao Yunqiu had deliberately diverted the conversation, deliberately pretending to slip past his "nearly present" pun.He felt a little empty.He was about to use other words to inquire about Ms. Zhao's heart, but Li Huifang came jumping.Her youthful voice came from the twilight: "The toad has thrown himself into the river. Let's go back too!" Both Lin Baishuang and Zhao Yunqiu looked back in surprise.At Paotai Station, the lights were already on; the car they came in was on the left side of the station, and the driver looked at them from the window, probably impatiently waiting. On the way back, only Ms. Li was talking and laughing happily.Ms. Zhao seemed very tired, and Lin Baishuang looked rather depressed, as if she had done something wrong.When the car arrived at Broadway Road, Ms. Zhao got off first. She smiled and said to the car: "Mr. Lin, please take Huifang home. It's early, and you can still go to the theater." Lin Baishuang's heart moved in the car, he watched Zhao Yunqiu's slender figure move past the glass window of a big shop, and finally disappeared into the darker street corner, as if he had lost some treasure, very dispirited.He let out a low sigh, leaned back against the spring mattress, and closed his eyes.The car moved again.In the shock as if the car body was dragging forward, Lin Baishuang's shoulder touched something warm and soft, and at the same time, an intoxicating fragrance penetrated into his nostrils.It seemed that the scent was oppressing his lungs, so he took a deep breath.He couldn't help but look sideways, and happened to meet the pair of energetic round and small eyes.Li Huifang is looking at him attentively! "Does Miss Li often go out for a stroll?" Lin Baishuang said unnaturally, trying to break the strange suffocating silence.It was the first time for him to be alone with a young woman, and in a car. Although he was not at a loss, he was indeed somewhat at a loss.However, Li Huifang is very composed.She smiled and said: "Mr. Lin isn't busy with homework at school?" "Not busy, three classes a week, sometimes none at all." "I heard from Yunqiu that when you were teaching in Wuhan last year, you were very busy." "That's a different situation. Here there are many teachers and few students, and the students often take the teacher's leave. For example, next week, my class will be over." Li Huifang smiled.She supported the car door with her right arm, twisted her waist, and leaned against the right corner of the cushion.He looked at Lin Baishuang more kindly.The electric light on the roof of the carriage emitted a pale yellow halo of light, covering the two of them in mysterious fluctuations. "I heard that a love philosophy was popularized in schools in Wuhan last year; is it true?" When asked this question, Ms. Li's attitude was very serious, and even the usual smile was gone. "Nothing!" Lin Baishuang hurriedly gave an absolute denial. I have no words for the time being.Then Ms. Li suddenly laughed.It was such a silly smile: Lin Baishuang saw the pair of virgin breasts trembling slightly under the purple silk.At this time, the car turned into a relatively secluded road, the outside of the car was gray and black, and the electric light on the roof of the car dimmed as if falling asleep.Lin Baishuang suddenly felt his hair stand on end.Li Huifang's laughter terrified him.He felt that the two rows of sparkling teeth in the blood-red mouth seemed to eat people, but these strange emotions only emerged for a moment, and the girl's warm fragrance sent Lin Baishuang into the cloud of intoxication.His eyes focused on Ms. Li's plump breasts, and his own face became hot. "Isn't there? But people say there is, so it won't have no effect at all." Li Huifang smiled and asked again. "Indeed not. If you don't believe me, you can ask Miss Zhao." Lin Baishuang replied calmly, "If it is said that people at that time were a little crazy about love, it is also true." "I heard that if you don't fall in love with others, you will be attacked; is it true?" Lin Baishuang nodded slightly, wondering in her heart; but after thinking about it, she thought that this was a common curiosity of young girls, and it was not worth being surprised. "Has Junqiu ever been attacked?" Li Huifang smiled and asked again. Lin Baishuang was stunned.He really didn't know the details of Ms. Zhao's past life, so he couldn't comment.However, Li Huifang's small eyes stared at him so scorchingly that he couldn't answer unambiguously: "That, no one has ever heard of it." "Didn't you guys always hang out together?" "Not often. In fact, we rarely met and talked at that time." Lin Baishuang replied lightly.He felt a little embarrassed.He really wanted to get rid of this difficult question.And he was also slightly dissatisfied with Li Huifang's attitude of probing people's secrets.He didn't let Li Huifang ask any more questions, and then said: "In the past six months, I have been very free. Last year was very different today. It was an era of tension and excitement. The current situation was developing day by day, and new things emerged almost every hour. More manpower was needed in all aspects ;Yes, more energy and activities to cope with the situation that is unfolding at that moment. In this hot air, the sun is running too fast! Miss Li, you see it is different now. Although it is still Eventful autumn, but the air is not hot. I often feel desolate, empty and lonely.” He stopped talking suddenly.Feelings took him too far, and he suddenly felt a burst of sadness in his heart.Like a wronged child, what he longs for now is a pair of gentle soothing hands.He glanced at Li Huifang's round face, then lowered his head, sighed in a low voice, and put his left hand on his forehead. "Oh, the air is not hot...it's different now...desolate, empty, lonely." Li Huifang pondered in a low voice.So a suspicious sneer flickered on the corner of her mouth.Suddenly she raised her voice again and said: "Of course this is Shanghai, not Wuhan, but now that you have reunited with your companion who lived in the hot air, at least your desolation, emptiness and loneliness can be healed!" Indulging in disillusionment, Lin Baishuang seemed to nod her head slightly, but did not answer. The driver suddenly squeaked his horn, the car turned again, and the brightly lit busy street was again ahead.Lin Baishuang suddenly raised her head and looked around in a panic, as if she had just woken up from sleep. "The big bungalow on the right is my home." Li Huifang had an air of disgust with someone on her face, but she still said with a smile.