Chapter 47 January 31

At one o'clock in the afternoon, I just rushed back from the "city", but I was surprised to find that the door of my room was ajar.Who dares to enter my room?Why did you go in without the master?Guessing the worst, I almost turned around and left.But the door of the room opened, and a person greeted me. It turned out to be N.I was relieved and surprised at the same time. N took my hand and asked affectionately, "Sister, you have changed these two days, why?" When I heard that this was unusual, I was shocked, but I was still able to smile and shook my head and said, "It's nothing."

"Hey, why don't you hide it from me?" N took my arm, walked to the bed and sat down. "Just now you didn't lock the door properly. The small foreign lock only fastened a door knocker, and it opened as soon as I pushed it. I thought you were at home. When I came in and saw that the coat was gone, I realized that you had gone out. There were letters and the like on the table. I didn't pack it up. I was afraid that someone else would come in, so I just sat and waited for you. Sister, you have always been meticulous. You must have something to do today. I think your mind is a little messed up."

"Oh, strange way, I remember it was locked." I stood up and took off my coat. "Sister, thank you for looking after my house. I was in a hurry to catch the car just now, and I made a mistake in my busy schedule." "I'm afraid not at all?" N Bian said with a smile, and took out a piece of paper from his side and handed it to me. "Look, what is this--you put it on the table casually." This is a telegram I drafted to send to my father.I picked up the paper, and couldn't help blushing, thinking how could I be so careless, and wondered if N wanted to say that I had changed.

"Sister, are you planning to go home?" N said softly. I nodded, but added another sentence: "But if you have such a meaning, don't say it!" "Why should I say it!" N replied casually, looking at the sky, as if he had touched something on his mind.She lazily took a step away, but turned around again, leaned against me, put her face on my shoulder, and said quietly: "Sister, do you really want to go home to visit father? Longdong? Where is it?" ? How far? When are you going to leave?" "I don't know how far it is. I've never traveled this road before. It's probably more than three thousand miles away."

N stared at me and said every sentence, but her eyes seemed to be thinking of something else, she didn't seem to hear my words at all.She raised one hand to stroke my hair, and gently, as if she was afraid of scaring me, said: "Your family life must be very happy, and your father must love you very much. I know: Every smart and beautiful girl is liked by her parents, brothers and sisters." I pursed my lips and smiled without speaking.I knew she was probably homesick too, but I couldn't think of any words to comfort her.I just squeezed her hand tightly. N raised his head and looked out the window. Then, he let go of my hand lightly, took a step, leaned his back against the desk, and stared at me.After a while, she came to me again, held my neck and said, "Are you determined to go?" Before I could answer, she let me go, turned her back on me, and said softly Said: "If you don't go, you can't do it?"

I took her by the shoulders, turned her around, and faced me. I saw that her eye circles were a little red, and I felt sad for a while, so I said, "It's not sure yet, maybe I won't go in the end." She giggled, "You lied to me!" She looked down at the ground and scratched on the floor with her toes.After a while, she suddenly raised her head, looked directly at me, and solemnly called out, "Sister, you should go. Why not? Going here may be a new life, a new world; you should go of!" However, an inexplicable bitter taste choked my throat; why don't I think like her, a wonderful longing flashed in front of my eyes, but there was still something hidden deep underneath. There is a broken heart--a heart ravaged, burned with hell-fire, broken beyond measure!My life experience is not as simple as N.When a person has a glimpse of a bright future, he often feels that the unbearable life in the past is a heavy burden on the soul.How could I be as happy as N! ——Felt my eyes were itchy with tears, I forced a smile and grabbed N's hand, but I couldn't say a word. "Anyway," N went on, "the home is better than here. If I still have a home—"

N paused, his eyes lowered, and his expression changed.I hurriedly comforted her and said, "Why are you sad? Maybe I suddenly received news that your family is still fine." "Hey, maybe—" N smiled wryly, and then became excited again. "That's right, who knows? My father, do you know whether he is dead or alive? Is he a obedient citizen, a traitor, or maybe a guerrilla, and all of his land is divided, and he is with his brothers and sisters. , carrying a gun and fighting guerrillas every day! Who knows, anyway, he doesn’t know where I am, and I don’t know where he is!”

I was so excited to see her that I couldn't think of words for a while, so I just squeezed her hand tightly. "Sister, if I really go home, you will be my company too, how good it is!" I finally said this, but I couldn't believe it was possible, it was just a comfort from boredom. N seems to feel the same way.She glanced at me and said with a wry smile: "How can this be possible! If you really want to do this, I'm afraid you won't even be able to move." "Oh!" That's when I felt N's bony ups and downs just now, not just to say goodbye. "How do you say that? There are some new problems, why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"Isn't that an old trick!" N looked very calm. "Anyway, I already have a plan in mind. For example, if an enemy plane comes to bomb, a bomb will be dropped on the head." I shook my head disapprovingly, gently took her waist, leaned my face against hers, and was about to persuade her, but she continued with a cold smile: "Sure enough, it's not what you expected." Well, the nine-headed bird made up my rumors and asked the old clerk to pick them up as a means of blackmailing me; but he also took advantage of the old clerk's threat to me to show his favor to me, intending to let me fall into his trap and take Look at him as a benefactor!"

"What rumors did the nine-headed bird make?" "It's not what he said in front of you that time! But in front of you, I can tell the truth; why should I ignorant of my conscience and follow them to reverse right and wrong and deceive my classmates! My negativity is true I don't know if he wants to use this to force me to fall into his bait, it's too despicable and shameless. I'm not so easily scared and soft!" "However, sister, you are about to suffer a loss. What should I do? There will be trouble soon..." "Maybe. I feel it too." N smiled coldly again, but his voice changed a bit. "The situation in the past few days has been completely dark. No one can understand it. Don't treat people as people!"

Suddenly, N put his face on my shoulder and hugged me tightly.A wisp of hot stuff crept under my shoulder.I was very confused, I didn't know whether it was anger or hatred. N raised her head again, tears were still glistening, she bit her lip, and after a while, she said again: "In my class, there were more than 30 people yesterday, but today there are only more than ten people! All of them are half dead with miserable faces, how miserable! " The horrific scene of a movie I watched many years ago unfolded before my eyes, but I could not utter a word except to curse silently. N shook her head and pushed her hair back.He let me go, walked to the bed and sat down, was silent for a while, and then resolutely said to me: "So, I've given up. I think my parents are just like other people's, and I don't compare them. No matter how clever he is, what has he suffered, and what right do I have to avoid it? I'll just wait for it to come! " I know what these mean, and my heart seems to constrict.Slowly I walked to the bed, put my hands on N's shoulders, my face almost touched hers, and I said softly, "But sister, why don't you come to my house? I only have one A father in his sixties, he likes girls." N smiled, and reached out to hold my face: "Is this possible? I'm not sure yet! If there is a way, then I also have a cousin who still communicated with me last year, and he is in—— away from you It's not far from home." "It's man-made." I pondered for a while and said. "But I advise you, you have to be patient at this time, you just have to imagine that you are acting,—to buy time!"