Chapter 5 Section five

Seeing him at a loss, my heart is like a horse running on the plain, easy to let go but hard to stop; my body is like a pawn on a chessboard, only advancing but not retreating: "But, Mr. Xiang must not remember what clothes I was wearing. You don't see me. It's so strange, it's the same place and the same time. Do you remember?" I plucked up the courage to say these far-fetched, extraneous things, and saw that Xu Xian was vulnerable—he was like the Feilai Peak in the legends I heard.Flying to the east for a while, and flying to the west for a while, his heart, ah yes, suddenly has no place to stay, and he doesn't know whether to stay in the east or the west.

"Actually, as beautiful as Xiaoqing, I should find a good husband." "I'm so glad you called me pretty—even if it's fake." "I won't lie." I fixed him with impatient and strange eyes.Get close to him. "You! Have you ever liked me?" Breathe each other. "A little bit? Is there any?" Have you ever seen a cat, after catching a mouse, it does not kill it immediately, but always deal with it loosely and tightly?There is an element of abuse in it.You can't hide anyway.How to hide, early tomorrow morning, everyone will look at each other again.

He was startled, a little confused. I gave him a grape—no, I held a grape in my mouth and handed it to his mouth. Still in shock, Gulu swallowed it. "Huh? You even swallowed the nucleus?" I reached out and followed his face, his eyes, nose, mouth, ear piercing... "In the future, saplings will grow here, here, here..." He let my hand wander. In this chaotic and dim heat afternoon. I don't expect any answers. The sound of my sister's footsteps suddenly came from the other side, calling out: "Why isn't Xiaoqing here?" I grow worms over the fence and take advantage of the gaps.

Don't show your feet. When Suzhen came out, she saw only Xu Xian sitting here with grapes on the ground.He said: "I haven't seen Xiaoqing for a long time, I don't know where you went to have fun." "I...haven't seen her for a long time." When Xu Xian said this, I was secretly happy. He was finally willing to lie to Suzhen for me.This is difficult for an honest man, and he didn't behave well, but fortunately Suzhen didn't notice.How did Suzhen guess that his blushing was not because of the early summer sun, but because of early summer's infidelity?

"real?" "Really!" Xu Xian felt guilty and looked even more distressed. "Why are you sweating?" She wiped his sweat.Compassionately.By the way, I stomped on a few grapes. "It's hot." Push it all to the weather. "Yes," Suzhen looked around, "It's already April, and the weather is getting hot." "By the way, it will be Lu Zu's Christmas in two days. I plan to go to the temple to burn incense. Would you like to go too?" Suzhen thought: "I'm not going, there are too many people seeking medical treatment, I can't go away--you, why don't you go with Xiaoqing?"

Look at him and see how he responds. "No, I'll go for a walk by myself, just go and come back soon." In the evening, when we were having dinner, Suzhen asked me again: "Should Xiaoqing accompany Xianggong to burn incense in Luzu Temple?" I look away.How much does she know?Seeing a gap, she said to Suzhen: "Sister, forgot the little glutinous rice balls? It's all about Lu Dongbin, who messed us up in a dilemma. Do you still want to worship him?" ——Actually, it’s just my difficulty, a dilemma. Suzhen laughed: "Speaking of which, I have to thank him! Otherwise, I wouldn't know that there are such touching emotions and desires."

In front of Xu Xian, he deliberately said: "When my husband burns incense, you must be very devout. I pray that we will grow old together, with white hair and eyebrows. Xiaoqing, look at 'my husband', even his neck is red!" On Lu Zu's Christmas day, Xu Xian went to burn incense by himself. He went there for a long time, and when he came back, he couldn't stop describing the excitement outside the temple: "There are storytellers, fortune-tellers, medicine sellers, and fire-breathing..." It seemed strange to me that he never spoke such a large amount of words.

Suzhen whispered to me: "Have you noticed that Xianggong looks different?" "He talks too much." "A person who doesn't talk much suddenly wants to cover up his nervousness by speaking. I think there must be some reason." I don't know why, but I hope the "cause" isn't me.There are ghosts in my heart, and even I feel uneasy. After dinner, Xu Xian pretended to be tired again, and entered the room for a long time. When he came out, he poured a glass of water, took out a talisman, melted it, sprinkled it in the water, and handed it to Suzhen:

"My lady, this is the talisman I got today, drink it!" His hands trembled. Seeing this, Suzhen took a gulp and drank it as if nothing had happened.Also express thanks to: "My husband is so sincere, how dare I defy him?" After drinking all the talisman water, he turned the cup upside down, and there was no drop left. Xu Xian was dumbfounded for a moment, and then let out a big breath when he saw that everything was safe.His face also softened.Suzhen asked again casually: "Is this talisman obtained from Luzu Temple?" "It's not—" Xu Xian relaxed his mind for a moment, lifted his vigilance, and forgot his ulterior secret.

"Who gave it to you?" "..." "Is there something my husband is hiding?" "No--" I saw that he was clearly full of doubts, how could he take it lightly, so I also asked together: "This talisman is used to deal with my sister? Where did it come from? Tell me!" "Sanggong, it's really disappointing that you and I are a husband and wife and still have something to keep in mind." Suzhen's disappointment is not feigned. Xu Xian immediately felt guilty.So he confessed: He walked around the halls and halls under the corridor to watch it today. When he came out of the temple, he saw a celestial master, wearing Taoist robes, carrying male and female swords, wearing a scarf, wearing a yellow silk sash around his waist, and wearing cooked hemp shoes, sitting in front of the temple selling medicine. , spread the potion, and saw Xu Xiandao: "Poverty is Zhang Tianshi in Zhongnan Mountain. If you see a black aura on Xianggong's head, there must be goblins. I will give you two talismans to save your life." After Xu Xian finished speaking, he hurriedly took the When the turban was removed, it turned out that he also had a talisman hidden in his hair to protect himself, and it seemed that it was placed in the room just now.Another one has been melted in clear water, and Gu Suzhen drank it.

He giggled: "That day the master also said that the lady is a demon, once she drinks the talisman water, she will change into her original shape. I am worried while watching you drink it." "You suspect that I'm a goblin?" "No, no, I'm just responding in vain." "You suspect that I'm a goblin?" "Lady, the Heavenly Master is so confused, let's not talk about him anymore, shall we?" "Sir, you didn't answer me." "—Whether he is spiritual or not? He doesn't want money. What's the problem if he lets me try?" Xu Xian said in a muffled voice, "Since the lady is not a fairy, let's treat it as a joke?" Suzhen said seriously: "If you really trust me, you shouldn't make this joke!" When she said it, her voice was full of sadness.Xu Xian bowed his head. Suzhen resented: "A dignified man, his ears are soft and his mind is confused. He can't help other people's instigation, even his wife doesn't believe it. My kindness to you is not as good as a stranger's words." Xu Xian hurriedly bowed to admit his mistake, and smiled: "I was stupid, and I listened to slander, my lady, please forgive me!"——It is not true love that is easy to be separated.Suddenly, I sympathized with Suzhen. It's just that people don't offend me, and I don't offend others.Now being tested by a celestial master with extremely low morals and calligraphy, it is really unreasonable to say that Xianggong is uneasy. Suzhen and I, with the same hatred, rushed to Luzu Temple to settle accounts with him. I saw a group of people surrounded the fellow, who were writing talismans and dispensing medicine. Suzhen's snake eyes were wide open, standing in front of her eyes, and shouted: "You are so rude! In vain calling me a demon in front of my husband, Shufu came to catch me!" The other party still insisted on supporting it to the end: "What I practice is the Dharma of Wulei Tianxin. If there are goblins who eat my talisman, they will show their true form." Suzhen faced the crowd: "You give me the book talisman and I eat it." He handed it over, Suzhen took it, and swallowed it.Relying on my strong skill, I also grabbed one and swallowed it.Hey, "show your true shape"?It's really sweeping the dead with the corners of clothes, so majestic.With such a quick way to go around the rivers and lakes, dare to break ground on the head of Taisui? We also deliberately showed a white and green air on our heads, so that he would be humiliated to death—so what if he is a demon?Do you have the ability to bear it? The crowd was in the mood of watching the excitement, and watched the fire with nothing, but who knew that it was nothing to see, and it was not attractive at all, so they shouted: "This is our first-class doctor in Suzhou. He is famous far and wide. How can he be called a goblin?" The celestial master was so scolded that his mouth was wide open, and he was speechless for a while, his face full of fear. I added insult to injury: "Maybe he is a demon himself, jealous of Baohetang's popularity among the people, and wants to destroy it!" Wow, the crowd was raging and clamoring, his face was blue, red, black and white.Turn around and run. How can I let it go? After chasing up to the celestial master, he shouted loudly, he rose up in the air, and was held hostage by my driving wind, unable to move, so he had to let himself be manipulated. He begged all the way: "Grandma, please let me go!..." "You said, who is the demon?" "My aunt is a human being, and I'm a demon!" This kind of spineless celestial master, facing a catastrophe, would be willing to call me a mother. What a scum, he even betrayed his dignity. I feigned anger and said, "Since you are a demon, bring the male and female swords so that you will not go out and harm the world." Seeing that the sword is extraordinary, I became greedy, so I took it away. He also bargained: "The sword is for my aunt, at least let the younger one go." Well, I have to fight back for some kindness. I got him to the top of an ancient tower.He looked up and looked around, not knowing where he was. I said: "This is Yunnan, you will stay here, and you will never be allowed to go to Suzhou!" He had no choice but to thank him. Just like the blind Taoist priest in Hangzhou last time, these boring people, one by one, can't see others living happily, meddling in their own business, and overthinking their own capabilities, it's really a sin. Look, one by one, didn't you let me clean it up? After a day of messing around, it's okay to win back a pair of male and female swords and share the spoils with my sister. In the evening, we both showered and washed our hair, repeating today's battle.The hair is very long, combed with a comb, drooping, and went to the yard to enjoy the cool air to dry. By dismantling the Liuyun bun and removing the gold and jade hairpins, we became equal in a very primitive way—just like back then, two bald snakes, free from the customs and customs of the world, with the same body and hair. Together we fight the same enemy. Together we celebrate an easy victory. The evening breeze is light, and the black hair is ethereal.Suzhen sighed: "I have tried everything I can, but I still can't stabilize his heart." She said: "Whenever there is a slight disturbance, I am frightened. He is too easy to be led away by the nose. Xiaoqing, what do you think? yes?" Her gaze rests on mine. How much does she know? How much does she know? —or, how much did he say?The couple who slept together, had he ever told her?A slight hint, a hidden pride.Telling her would be a crime and a meritorious service—but he wouldn't say it, if he had the courage to say it, he would have the courage to do so.He is a man who trembles even in his imagination. Suzhen couldn't take her eyes off her. "Maybe I guessed wrong!" she said, "I'm becoming more and more human, it's too bad. Xiaoqing—what were you two talking about that day?" "Stop beating around the bush, sister, I won't, I swear." The moon peeped at us crystally and indifferently, with twists and turns in the words.It must be ridiculed from the bottom of its heart, for what, everyone can't figure it out? The mercury poured down on both of us, and the black shone with a gloomy light, and when it dried, the veins became clear.The world is just like this. Said to Suzhen: "The moon is shining tonight, I swear, please understand: I won't!" Just because I wasn't sure, when I made the oath, my expression was extremely certain. Suzhen said: "Xiaoqing, don't swear to the moon." "You do not believe?" She sneered: "It's fine to swear on anything. But the moon, it changes too much—it changes every ten days." She pushed forward.Inch by inch, my mind was spinning wildly. "Sister, I'm here to test." I finally found an excuse, "I'll give him a try, if he's not dedicated, I'll tell you right away, so that you can give up." "Who asked your dog to bring the mouse?" "I have a good heart - if he doesn't love you but loves me, I will take revenge for you." "Who used you to avenge me?" The two said repeatedly that they were intrigues.Neither of them understood what the other was trying to say. A simple thing, so complicated that in the end, we were both stupid.Incoherent. "Sister, Xu Xian is not well." "How do you say that even you don't believe it yourself?" ——By the way, the truth came to light! She loves him and I love him too.Even though he's not good, we haven't met better. This is a dead end. The two of them let their hair down and meditated quietly.Thinking is tangled, and it seems to be blank.We were all trying to look contemplative, but really, it was just a gesture, because there was nothing to talk about anymore.And I couldn't escape back to the house—the hair was not yet dry, it was a half-depressed wetness.Looking at it from a distance, don't we also look like ghosts who can't find their former residence in the middle of the night? Thinking before and after, my heart is more confused. Suzhen came over and hugged me tightly. So tight, I can't breathe. Same goes for my return. ——If it's not love, it's hate, it's pretty much the same anyway. She changed her tone: "Xiaoqing, the rules in the world are to stick to one and end, you'd better pick another one you like—" He added: "A man who doesn't have a woman by his side." Indisputable. "Xiaoqing, you are my good sister," she half coaxed, "You are better than him, let him go!" Ah, so what she wanted to say was this sentence. She insisted that I will not let him go. She's so silly - love never lets go. At this critical juncture, I changed my mind for a while, relaxed, and couldn't help saying a joke: "Sister, you are smarter than me, why don't you let me go?" This is just a joke.Unexpectedly, Suzhen was furious when she heard this, and she tried to push me away.I staggered, I didn't know where I fell, maybe I fell into a dragon's pond and a tiger's den, and I couldn't get up again. Unprepared, as fast as lightning, she tried her best and hit me hard. I couldn't resist, and I rolled over half of my body. My face turned blue, so blue that it became a protective layer like my body. Things change so fast.I didn't respond—simply didn't understand what the appropriate response was. Suzhen was so angry that smoke came out from her seven orifices, and she knocked down a row of bamboo fences.Flowers and grass, panic again and again, inexplicable.The ruthless violence caused a blue-and-white porcelain goldfish tank in the corner of the false rock to explode. Several innocent goldfish, some remained in the half-walled tank, and some had sputtered to the gravel floor. The sudden vibration was a life-and-death moment. Everything is displaced. The two confronted each other.I am a snake ready to attack, my whole body is tense, but I hold back all the grievances and grievances in the bottom of my invisible heart, holding my breath alone, guarding a corner alone, if I see something wrong, I will wait for an opportunity to attack. She hit me!She has never dealt with me so viciously!She burst out between her teeth: "I won't let you go!" Suddenly the window creaked, which startled the two of them. Xu Xian asked softly by the window: "What's up?" The stalemate cannot continue. We hurriedly exchanged smiles.It's really a good connection. Of course, with these hundreds of years of friendship, who doesn't know the other party's intentions?At the moment, everything is normal, Suzhen replied: "It's knocking down a tank of goldfish." Xu Xian went downstairs gracefully.ask: "Who wasn't careful?" "It's not me." I regained my vivacity and deliberately shrugged off responsibility. "It's Xiaoqing!" Suzhen glanced at me, "She's careless. She didn't admit it after she did it. Do you recognize it?" I pouted, pretending I couldn't deny it: "Aren't you going to help clean up the mess?" The three people, each showing their strengths, each rescued a goldfish to see the aftermath. Some were short-lived, unsurprisingly, and died long ago.When some people are dying, knowing that this moment will pass and the next moment will not be passed, they struggle very hard, like a human heartbeat: thump, thump, thump, thump, thump... extraordinarily hard. Must live.If you can't live, you have to die slowly. A few wisps of light clouds floated past the moon, like interruptions, but meandering.In the end, I want to cover the moonlight, but I have no good plan, the moon still shines through, and there are disputes everywhere in the world, which are always difficult to understand. Xu Xian asked, "Is your hair dry? Be careful of the wind." I don't know whether to ask her or me.It must have been her before, but now it may be me. It's different now, we're all different. Xu Xian's outline is clear, his brows are elegant, and there is always an indelible, confused look in his eyes. I don't know where to put it - I think he is asking me. "It's almost done," Suzhen answered immediately, without any room for loss. "It's Xiaoqing who is naughty, chasing and beating, and making a mess. Come on, let's wash off the sweat together. Mr. Gong, you go back to the room first , I'll come later." After Xu Xian left, we both smiled.If the enemy does not move, I will not move. Time passed bit by bit.I have to live with sadness.She never hit me, just for a man; she never made things difficult for me, just for a man. She said: "..." "Xiaoqing, you... go back to the West Lake." "Go back!" What she said, I was also very surprised.I heard it, and I fell into the abyss, and I kept falling, and I kept falling, and I couldn't reach the ground. She wants me to go! I was a child who did wrong and could not be forgiven.She wants me to go.The whole world left me like a cloud, and in the end it was only me, everyone left, no, everyone was there, I left. I was suddenly terribly lonely.Back to the bottom of the West Lake?Alone?Day and night?No, I am already wild, no longer a snake willing to practice, I am no longer comfortable in the room. Maybe there was no me in the world, but there was Suzhen first, and Suzhen planted me, and if she didn't want me, I would wither. "I won't go, sister, I want to go, the two of you will go together." "Who said I'm leaving?" "What am I going to do on my own?" "What are you doing here?" "I don't do anything! I am in front of you, behind you, more than the years of West Lake. Hundreds of millions of years, talking to yourself, you know that this kind of life..." "You want to keep it yourself," Suzhen said like a god with supreme authority, "Xiaoqing, I treat you well. If you want to keep it, I will let you keep it. But Xu Xian is mine." Be good when you are lucky, I am downcast. ——If there is another choice, I will not be so humiliated! "Okay, let's wash off the sweat," she said.She won. When it comes to May, the atmosphere of the earth rises, and the world is like a steamer, which tortures us to death.I curse the sun every day, because the bitterness and heat are more difficult than lovesickness.Yes, the physical doom is often more direct than the psychological one. Close to Duanyang, I feel sick all day long.In severe cold days, they need to hibernate, and they doze off while eating.When the weather is hot, you have to get a good night's sleep.Self-hate is powerless to overcome the sky. Suzhen is a little better, she is dizzy, but she can also cheer herself up. Xu Xian incensed and cut moxa, and Zhang hung calamus talismans.Seeing the two of us lazily making zongzi for the festival, we also came to make arrangements for a while.When I saw him coming, I took the opportunity to run away. As soon as he arrived at the door, he suddenly saw a monk. He seems to be looking for someone, but also seems to have been waiting for a long time. Look carefully, uh--I've seen it before. It is still a soap-colored Gebu single shirt, with cassocks on the outside, and a red lacquered Zen staff in his hand.Seeing his sharp eyes, I was deeply impressed, it was the diamond forehead bead looming on the forehead between the eyebrows, yes, it was him! What is he here for? I was taken aback and felt ominous. He stood still by the door, and I dodged to hide, never showing my face, let's see what his intentions are? When Xu Xian came out, he met the monk. The way was for alms, and he was about to give him money and sandalwood for a chat, but he didn't want any of it. Xu Xian was surprised: "What advice does Master have?" The monk glanced at Xu Xian, and smiled slightly: "The poor monk was originally the Fahai of Jinshan Temple in Zhenjiang. He was born with the roots of wisdom and walked the way for the sky. When he was traveling in the world, he saw the evil spirit in Suzhou, and he was suspicious. He traced it to this place. After searching, he was originally born in the family of the benefactor." Xu Xian was stunned: "Why?" Fahai asked: "Did any strange things happen to the benefactor recently?" He couldn't take his eyes off Xu Xian. "It's nothing strange. My good wife manages the house well, and her business is booming. It's almost the Dragon Boat Festival, and she's still preparing food and drink for the festival. Why is she so evil?" "Is your wife beautiful?" "beautiful!" "That's it." "Is beauty a monster?" "Has anyone ever mentioned to you that she is a demon?" Xu Xian murmured: "That's true, but it's just nonsense, and my wife has seen through it. Taoist priests and heavenly masters all fled." "The way is shallow, and it is inevitable that you will be taken advantage of by demons." The monk had a well-thought-out plan, and I secretly called it bad. "Master said she was a demon, what kind of demon?" "The Millennium White Snake Spirit." "She also has a younger sister." Xu Xian didn't forget me. "That's right, that's a green snake, and it has five hundred years of practice. Donor, please think carefully. Is there any strangeness in your acquaintance and communication until today?" "—Even if it's a demon," Xu Xian hesitated, "it's okay to treat me so well." "This is exactly what makes her so powerful," Fahai said, "She treats you well and seduces you with her beauty. If you don't guard against it, in the end she casts her magic power, and your life's essence and blood are wiped out."