Chapter 9 Why do girls cry.2

Ru Ping began to follow Shangguan Hongshan to look for a new job everywhere, and he was sold irresponsibly by her like a slow-moving commodity.Shangguan Sequoia said that this gentleman studied at Harvard and Cambridge, is proficient in four foreign languages, and is especially good at economic management. In short, he is a rare talent.She has a gold-plated card case full of business cards.She took Ru Ping to find the owner of the business card.She knew some of them, and some of them only had a face-to-face meeting.This will inevitably encounter some embarrassing scenes.Shangguan Sequoia said to a certain manager, Manager Zhang, hello, long time no see.The other party didn't know her.Shangguan Hongshan said, you are such a noble person who forgets things too much. I drank three glasses of white wine with you that time. Was it for nothing?She was born with this ability to deal with things without panic.At this time, Ru Ping's heart seems to be full of flies, he looks at the faces of those men who are suddenly awakened, and thinks that this is the face of a man.That's the kind of nasty look a man has in front of a pretty girl.They grabbed the girl's little hand and held it desperately, wishing they would never let go.

In a crowded elevator in a company, Ru Ping saw a plump manager in a suit and leather shoes, his face was flushed, and the veins on his forehead were pulsating violently.One of his hands seemed to be on the button unintentionally, carefully touching Shangguan Hongshan's chest.Shangguan Sequoia smiled, turning a blind eye to those hands that were yellowed by smoke.Ru Ping felt chilled, he secretly kicked her.She ignored him and gave him a hip bump in return.Ru Ping heard Shangguan Hongshan say something softly, Manager, the square ring on your hand is very beautiful.Later, when Ru Ping saw the square ring appearing on Shangguan Hongshan's finger, he suddenly had a feeling of being tricked and tricked.He asked her, "Where did this thing come from?" She took off the ring and exposed it to the sun, and said, "Isn't it very good gold? I like the color of gold best, it's very warm." He asked her : "How did you get it?" She said: "Don't worry about it, it's an exchange of equal value." Ru Ping completely understood a cruel fact, and he said to the girl: "You are a shameless bitch." I brushed her long hair and said, "Don't swear, I'm not a bitch. I'm just a bad girl." After a long silence, Ru Ping said sadly, "I'm disappointed in the whole world. I'm going to buy a bottle Sleeping pills, will you accompany me?" The girl said, "Go by yourself, one bottle is not enough, you'd better buy a few more bottles." Later, Ru Ping worked in a real estate development company introduced by Shangguan Hongshan, with a monthly salary of three hundred dollars.This made him initially get rid of the poverty-stricken life.He started smoking his favorite British cigarettes and wearing designer clothes and sneakers.Sometimes he gazed at his own face in the mirror, young and proud, with eternal bewilderment in his eyes.Ru Ping felt that it was necessary to torture the person in the mirror. He was very disgusted and dissatisfied with the person in the mirror.Ru Ping said, what are you?upstart?Second rater?Little reptile?Living zombies?Tell me, what the hell are you?Ru Ping gradually began to avoid Shangguan Hongshan.When he thought of the girl's intolerable misdeeds, he couldn't calm down.He went out at night and wandered the streets alone until the early hours of the morning.Facing the empty and silent city in the middle of the night, Ru Ping found that the sky of the city was very low. He stretched out his fingers towards the sky, and the sky became so solid that he couldn't pierce it with his fingers.One day Ru Ping opened the door of his room and saw Shangguan Hongshan sitting on the bed, flipping the sheets sideways. "What are you looking for?" "Bra." Without looking up, she said, "Where have you been?" "Walking around. I'm stuffy and my chest seems to be blocked." "I know where you are blocked." She said, "No interest in me anymore?" "I just can't accept your life. I'm thinking about how to reform you. You are a delinquent youth. After reforming, you still have a bright future." "Don't try to reform me, I am very satisfied with myself. Have you seen my bra?" "For me, there is only one choice, to transform or discard." The girl looked back at Ru Ping thoughtfully, and suddenly laughed.She said, let it go.I don't care, and so do you.She began to look for her things in the drawers, pajamas, cosmetics, toilet paper and slippers, all stuffed into a large hiking bag.When Ru Ping saw the hiking bag, he knew that she was going to pack up.He lay down on the bed a little frustrated, and pulled the pillowcase to cover his face, he didn't want the girl to see his face. "I will miss you, you remind me of things other than sleep, some good things." Ru Ping said. "I think you are exactly the opposite." The girl said, "You hypocrite." Ru Ping felt cold all over.He tossed off the pillow covering from his face, and saw the girl's charming back and hips, and the beautifully contoured face, which gradually faded in the dim light of the room.At this time, Ru Ping heard the sound of fine sand collapsing in the air again.The sound plunged him into utter terror and grief. "Do you want to keep this for you?" she said, holding up a box of contraceptives. "No. Take it with you if you want it."

"Good boy. If you don't want it, just don't want it." She pushed open the window and threw the box of things out of the window with a wave of her hand.Then the girl walked to the bed and kissed Ru Ping lightly on the forehead.It was a cold kiss.Filled with the breath of dying.Now Ru Ping still recalled that strange chill, he couldn't believe it came from the girl's wet and sexy red lips.When the girl left, she gently closed the door.I heard her footsteps hurry past the window.The room was dark, and the wind chimes hanging on the window sill made a crisp and monotonous sound.In the dark I understand the contents of the dark.I saw some sad air jumping away in front of me, and they wept slightly in every corner.I fell asleep with a feeling of emptiness.Random dreams come and go.I saw a group of girls in white gauze standing in many circles.The music started, they danced, and finally passed me.They hide their faces from the darkness like a group of white ghosts.They often appear in my dreams later.

For the rest of the winter, Ru Ping lived in a hut on Fenglin Road and devoted himself to writing a love novel.Towards the end he was suddenly disgusted with the novel, all the characters were ridiculous, all the details were clichéd, and he thought how could he have written such a terrible novel.Ru Ping tore up a stack of manuscript papers one by one, carried them outside the door and burned them on fire.He watched the pile of paper quickly turn into a pile of ashes in the wind. He walked around the paper ash to express his silence. Finally, he calmed down and decided to go outside for a cup of coffee.When he came to the cafe on Xining Road, he found that the formerly humble and simple facade had been magnificently decorated, and a foreign language was written on the glass door in green paint: Garden of Eden.He wondered if the name whetted his appetite.But he recognized a problem: The world is changing wonderfully every day.

On this day, Ru Ping and Shangguan Sequoia met again.He saw Shangguan Sequoia and a gray-haired foreign gentleman sitting by the window.He wanted to avoid them, but this kind of avoidance seemed trivial to him, so he simply swaggered past them and sat down in the corner.He thought it was purely accidental, like the plot of a love movie, the performance of the characters should be natural and smooth.He noticed that Shangguan Sequoia had put on heavy makeup, which was a change, but her expression and smile were as charming as ever.He watched them calmly, and heard the girl chatting cordially with the gray hair in fluent English.She didn't see me?Why can't she see?Ru Ping thought sadly.He even had an impulsive thought: go and sit among them, or drive the gray hair out of the café.But he didn't have to do such stupid things.Besides, there is no such scene in a good movie.

Nostalgic and sentimental love songs should be ringing.Ru Ping saw them standing up and walking outside holding hands.She never looked at him.Ru Ping rolled up the glass window facing the street, stuck his head out of the window, and yelled strangely at the girl.He saw the girl covering her mouth and smiling.She came over, raised her palm and patted the top of his head, then walked away with her arms twisted.He heard the gray hair ask, who is that man?The girl said, he's an idiot, and I like to pat the top of an idiot's head.Because of this, the top of Ru Ping's head itched unbearably.It had endured this little wound with his soul.The trauma can be ignored, and Ru Ping cannot tolerate Shangguan Hongshan calling him an idiot.Ru Ping has always believed that he is the last wise man in the mad world.A few days later, Ruping met another girl, Xiaoman, on the way to work.Xiaoman suddenly jumped off the sidewalk and stopped his bicycle.She was sunk in all kinds of fur from head to toe, holding a bunch of candied haws in her hand. "You don't have eyes?" She tilted her head and pointed at him, "Why are you bumping into people casually?" "Don't be kidding. I'm in a bad mood." Ru Ping frowned. "What do you mean by being in a bad mood? What happened to you and Shangguan? Who kicked who?" "She's an idiot." Ru Ping said.

"Idiot?" Xiaoman giggled, she took a bite of candied haws, "I like listening to people scolding, as long as you don't scold me." "You're an idiot too. Girls are idiots," Ru Ping said. "Damn it, be careful I'll beat you up." Xiaoman glared at him.She jumped back to the sidewalk, grabbed a man wearing sunglasses and said, "Come on, let me introduce you. This is Mr. Huang from Hong Kong. He is very rich. This is an artist from mainland China. He doesn't have any money." Hei Fang smiled at Ru Ping.He politely took off his gloves and held out his hand to Ru Ping.Ru Ping stared at that hand in a daze, it was undoubtedly a lascivious hand, God knows how many girls' bodies it had defiled.Ru Ping held it weakly and shook it.Men's hands are very dirty and greasy, Ru Ping thought, he hates shaking hands with people. "Where does Mr. work?" Mr. Huang asked.

"Crematorium." Ru Ping said without hesitation, "I'm very busy with work, I have to go to work." "Oh, Mr. used to work in a factory." Mr. Huang didn't hear clearly, and turned his face to ask Xiaoman . "What factory did he say he was in?" Xiaoman laughed maniacally again, and said after laughing enough, ignore him, he is broken in love and in a bad mood. "Bastard." Ru Ping cursed in a low voice, and he went to push the cart.At this time he heard Xiaoman shouting to him, Shangguan is gone, she is going to Shenzhen. "What did you say?" "She's gone, maybe she's going to Holland, she's picked up a Dutchman." "What does her going to Holland have to do with me?"

Ru Ping boarded the car again.He put one hand in his pocket and rode with one hand.At eight o'clock in the morning the streets are full of noise, advertisements, cars, shops, and humans floating like ants.They run all day with confidence.With so many people and such a prosperous life, do they all have full confidence in the future?Ru Ping suddenly remembered the words in the Bible: the blue sea floats.What does Canghai floating life mean?That is to say, the world is like the sea, a vast expanse.Everyone floats aimlessly on it, some are salmon, some are industrial waste, and some are just a deflated condom.Shi Fei is also a girl who loves the phone.She often calls Ru Ping.One day she relayed the plot of the TV series "Ashin" on the phone, and she burst into tears as she spoke.Ru Ping had no choice but to hang up the phone and let her cry.Another day, Shi Fei called him and asked him for a ticket to the Songshan Ballet.Ru Ping said he didn't have a ticket, and if he did, he wouldn't give it to her.He said that male ballet performers don't wear pants, and unmarried girls are not allowed to enter.Shi Fei shouted on the phone, talking nonsense, be careful, I will let the tiger beat you up.Ru Ping has never seen Shi Fei's tiger.He has a natural hostility towards the girls' lovers.Maybe Tiger is really a little man who is good at fighting, because within a few days, Shi Fei called him again to ask if he had a way to the Public Security Bureau.She cried and said that the tiger fought with people again.You don't know what a man he was, a boy whistled at me and he went up and knocked his teeth out with a punch.Ru Ping said, isn't this good?Let him stay in jail for a few days, and he will be more manly when he is released.Shi Fei said, are you gloating?can't you help meI have always regarded you as a good friend.Ru Ping said, who will help me if I help you?If I were the head of the Public Security Bureau, I would detain people all over the world. Everyone is guilty and should experience the taste of detention.During the days when Tiger was detained, Shi Fei went to the detention center to wait for her lover every day.She stood outside the iron fence and stared down a long corridor, all she could do was cry.It was raining white outside, and the rain was falling from my hair. I couldn't tell which was rain and which was tears.Later Shi Fei described it to Ru Ping like this.She suggested writing these into novels. "He brought me something from it." Shi Fei said mysteriously, "What do you think it is?" "A love letter? A gold necklace?"

"No, you're too vulgar." She suddenly rolled up her sleeves, revealing a rubber band on her left wrist. "It's this rubber band." "Very well, it means more than a gold necklace." "He asked us to put it on his hand and wait for him to come out. Later, I picked him up with a rubber band. I raised my wrist from a distance, and when he saw the rubber band on my hand, tears flowed." "This is a moving movie scene, and my tears are about to flow." "It was raining that day. We didn't have raincoats or umbrellas, so we walked slowly in the rain and got soaked. On that road, we Finding that we couldn’t separate each other, he put my hands in his pockets, because I was shivering with cold. At the gate of the telegraph building, he hugged me, and he said, is it still cold? I said it’s not cold anymore , no longer cold." "Love." Ru Ping sighed and said, "What is true love? This is true love." A few days later, Shi Fei called and told Ru Ping that she was going to have a relationship with Tiger. get married. "You can buy me a meaningful gift." Her voice was beaming. "I don't have this idea." Ru Ping said, "I am against girls marrying too early and breaking the marriage law." "Actually, it's not a formal marriage, it's cohabitation before marriage, understand?" She put the emphasis on cohabitation before marriage and snickered for a while , "You can send a tapestry, or a coffee set. We have a small house covered with ivy on the wall. What color wallpaper should we put on the wall?"

"I don't know, I object to your illegal cohabitation." "You are so disgusting." She yelled into the phone, "I will never talk to you again." "If you don't talk to me, don't talk to me," Ru Ping also yelled into the phone. "Who are you scaring?" There was no news about Shi Fei after her marriage.Ru Ping guessed that her life must be very happy and romantic. The girl's final destination is to stay with a man, which is the driving force of social development.One day when Ru Ping was cleaning the house, he saw the small umbrella behind the door, and he thought she should take it away. He called the Disabled People's Foundation looking for Sphy.The other party was a middle-aged woman's voice, and said impatiently, "Not here, he said where he went, and the other party said that you are in charge of others, where you want to go, you can go to the newspaper and publish a missing person notice."Ru Ping was puzzled, he finally heard a sentence from the microphone, what the hell?What does that mean?Ru Ping was very angry. He thought that woman was probably at the age of menopause. Not only her, but many people in the world were in a bad mood for some reason.Newspapers and magazines say that this is related to the activities of sunspots and the destruction of ecological balance by deforestation.The umbrella was still leaning against the door, and Ru Ping remembered the scene of meeting Shi Fei for the first time on that rainy night, as if it had been a lifetime ago.Everything became distant and blurred. After a long time, Ru Ping was entrusted by his relatives to choose two strings of duck gizzards in a north-south goods store. He buried himself in observing the various duck gizzards at the counter, and heard someone secretly laughing overhead.It turned out that the saleswoman in the white coat was Shi Fei.Covering her mouth and laughing, she pulled out more than a dozen strings of duck gizzards from the basket, and said, "Choose, I'll give you a discount, so you can choose." "Why are you here?" "What's the matter here? Can't I be here? Don't come to buy things if you discriminate against the salesperson." "No, I mean how did you leave the Disabled People's Foundation, it was a good job. "If you don't believe it, it's just for a little mutton." She stuck out her tongue, "I ate a lot of mutton at a dinner party, and I ate their share too. They thought I was immature." I can't stand them all saying bad things about me behind my back. I hate others to spread rumors behind my back and hurt my personality. I was so angry that I didn't go to work for three days. They couldn't tolerate me, so they took the opportunity to fire me." .Besides, mutton has nothing to do with self-cultivation." "They're a bunch of scumbags, they're all hypocrites," she said. "Pretend that you can't eat it, but you can actually eat a pig and two sheep. Who cares about that bit of boiled mutton? I wish I could spit out the mutton and give it back to them." "You must not be too depressed, and you must have full confidence in life. Selling duck gizzards is also serving the people." "Who is depressed? Only weak women are depressed! I just want to fight and show them my ability." She spoke angrily, and lowered her voice to tell Ru Ping. "I want to be a TV announcer and host a youth special program." "It's a good idea, but your Mandarin doesn't seem to be standard." "What are you afraid of? I work hard, and those who have something (will) will succeed." Ru Ping and Shi Fei talked for a long time across the counter. The smell of goods mixed together was very strange and unpleasant, and the surrounding was noisy, but the conversation was pleasant and unrestrained.Until later, Ru Ping found that Shi Fei was a little absent-minded, and she glanced at the Xiaokun watch on her wrist from time to time. "Getting off work?" "No, I have to call someone at five o'clock." "Your love for the phone is touching." Ru Ping said, "Hang up the tiger?" "No." She shrugged, with a mysterious and shy smile on her face. "I want to call a young painter. Ah D, do you know him?" "Ah D or Ah Q? I know Ah Q, who is Ah D?" "You don't even know Ah D? He is in the Beijing Art Museum. He has held art exhibitions and won an international gold medal. He is handsome, with sideburns, and likes to wear a white trench coat. Don’t you really know him?” “It’s a lie.” Ru Ping said, “It’s a lie. thing." "Who are you talking about cheating?" "I'm talking about beards. There are a lot of fake beards, which are glued on with superglue, and they are designed to trick pure girls into love." "If you don't have a beard yourself, don't be jealous of those who have beards." Shi Fei criticized Ru Ping, she said, "Many girls adore him. Ah D is very proud, he is Prince Charming. He wants to draw a portrait of me, He said he would invite me to watch a movie later." "Are you having an extramarital affair? Aren't you afraid that tigers will make you popular?" "I'm not afraid. He can't restrict my personal freedom." The girl raised her face, her bright red lips moved Trembling, she said, "I'm going, I want to pursue my freedom and rights." "It's over." Ru Ping sighed deeply, "I see this world is completely messed up." The girl looked again I looked at my watch and let out a cry.She hurriedly walked towards the goods room inside, turned her head to greet Ru Ping and said, "Wait a minute, I'm going to make a call." Ru Ping leaned against the counter and heard the familiar dialing sound from a girl, that kind of The sound rattled in his damp heart.He knocked on the glass counter, fidgeting for no reason, what am I waiting for?Is there anything else to talk about?With a wry smile, Ru Ping picked up two strings of duck gizzards and walked out of the North and South goods store.weather is good.A girl is going on a date with a strange man.Ru Ping thinks that this kind of thing happens every day, and this is also the law of life, which is independent of human will.In the early spring, the ice and snow quietly melted on Fenglin Road.The leaves of the sycamore trees on both sides of the road split and peeled in the wind.Natural colors change from dull to bright.The light of the world in 1985 stung my eyes. I live alone in a corner and pass the day in peace.At night I have a recurring dream.I always see a group of girls in white gauze dancing, hiding their faces from the darkness.They hide their faces from the darkness like a group of white ghosts.I saw their beautiful faces swirling in the virtual light, turning into some decadent flowers, peeling off petal by petal in the wind.who is cryingWho is weeping in the dark? In spring Ruping received a telegram.The content of the telegram is that I live in Room 301 of the Oasis Hotel, I miss you, and I will definitely send you a letter, etc.A very long telegram.There is no signature below.Ru Ping guessed that the telegram must have been sent by Shangguan Hongshan.Because he was meditating on the girl's beautiful face and body.He believed in the power of the mind.It can't be someone else's, even from the telegram, he can still distinguish the sweet smell unique to girls.At night, when the spring breeze was blowing, Ru Ping sat by the window and wrote letters to Shangguan Hongshan.After several months, he was still tender to her.In the letter he poured out an eternal and passionate yearning.He indicated that this kind of thinking transcends the body and emotions, and belongs to the category of human nature, so it is more profound and rich.After the cold farewell, he found that he couldn't get over the dissolute girl.Recalling the love scenes in the past, Ru Ping's heart is as heavy as iron.He read the letter aloud, put it in a homemade envelope with abstract drawings, and dropped it in the mailbox on the corner.He stood by the mailbox and stared at the desolate street in winter night, and heard a nostalgic and sad love song echoing faintly again.The southern sky is in the south, it is a distant and strange place.Ru Ping looked up to the sky and sighed, and suddenly felt that the hearts of the adults in the world are ancient, and things are in the same sky. Mysterious contrasts and changes. After half a month, Ru Ping's letter was returned.On the post office's change and return notice, it was written that there was no such person.Ru Ping was very disappointed, he thought maybe she had left her place.He wrote a letter to a girl who was wandering around, and it was expected that the letter would bounce back. He just regretted that those feelings were wasted in vain after a bumpy ride on the mail road.In the season when spring is getting stronger, Ru Ping is miserable. He sees Shangguan Sequoia walking freely in his dream almost every day.Girls walked freely around him in bare feet and transparent nightgowns.Her black hair fluttered in the wind like silk, and it was fragrant.Ru Ping realized that he was in a dangerous situation.He laughed at his own weak will, not believing that he could fall in love with someone so sincerely.But he couldn't restrain his desire to find Shangguan Sequoia.One day he found Ji Li's address in a drawer, and he decided to find that annoying girl, she might know the exact news about Shangguan Hongshan.Ru Ping found Chengxi according to the address.At the entrance of a dirty and muddy alley, he stopped a teenager for questioning. "Jili?" The young man thought for a while, and suddenly realized: "Is it a big ocean horse? She's in the grocery store." Ru Ping didn't expect that Jili would live in such a dilapidated house, and he never knew that Jili would live in such a dilapidated house. It's the big ocean horse.It made him a little funny.He went into the private grocery store, but there was no one in the store.Ru Ping looked hesitantly and opened the curtain at the back, behind which was a small courtyard.The atmosphere in the yard was unusual, the ground was covered with wreaths, and the smell of burning incense candles wafted through the nostrils.Many people were busy in sackcloth and filial piety, and a woman was crying hoarsely.Ru Ping was taken aback. There was a funeral here.His first thought was that Gilly was dead.If Gilly died, he wouldn't have to bother her anymore.Ru Ping exited the grocery store quietly, and just as he got on his bicycle, he heard a shout behind him: "Stop, just slip away without saying hello." Looking back, it was Ji Li, who turned out to be still alive. "I thought you died, and I was very sad." Ru Ping said. "Fart. How could I die? My mother died." "Then why don't you cry? You look so happy." "What's there to cry for?" Ji Li looked back inside and said quietly, "Everyone who deserves to die will die, and those who don't deserve to die will live." Ru Ping sat in the grocery store for a while.It was a small shop opened by Ji Li, and the shelves were full of small general merchandise such as cigarettes, wine and soap.On the east wall is a photo of Ji Li with a shriveled old man.Ji Li pointed to the photo and said, "That's my husband, twenty-three years older than me." "He's quite handsome," Ru Ping said. "Don't do this with me. Idiots look for handsome men." Ji Li pointed to the shelves again, "You can take whatever you like. I'm honored that you came to me." Ru Ping picked out a few Putting a box of British cigarettes into his pocket, he said, "Anyway, they are all exploited. If you don't take it for nothing, you won't take it." Ji Li laughed, and she untied the filial piety belt around her waist and threw it on the ground, "Just tell me, what did you want me for?" "Shangguan Sequoia. I have something to look for her." "I thought you asked me to dance." Ji Li spat at him, she winked and said, "Am I not as attractive as Shangguan?" "You're all good. Much more attractive than the old pig woman. Do you know where she is now?" "Gongshi." Ji Li giggled suddenly, she lit a cigarette and said, "She's Gongshi in Guangdong Yeah. I know that place in Guangdong, and I don’t want to come back after I’ve been there.” “I know that. I have a hunch. Something happened to her.” “It’s a little bit wrong, it’s not a big deal.” How big is the little chazi?" "I can't tell you." Ji Li's expression was a little secretive. She took a few puffs of cigarettes and blew the smoke ring on Ru Ping's face, "Everyone has a little secret, so don't ask." "But I agree Her relationship is extraordinary. There are no secrets between us." "Extraordinary?" Ji Li covered her mouth and laughed, "The relationship between a man and a woman is the same thing, so don't be too sentimental." "Don't laugh like that, you just died, Mom." Ru Ping was a little embarrassed, and he said, "Tell me, what happened to her?" "I can't tell you." Ji Li suddenly darkened, "You men don't have a good thing." "Unintelligible. I think you are inexplicable." "You're the one who doesn't know why. Go away and find your love elsewhere. There are only dead people here, no love." "I feel that the whole world is inexplicable." Ru Ping stood up slowly, took up his scarf and gestured around his neck, and said, "I really want to strangle you to death, it will be normal after death, just like Just like your mother. She is the most normal person now." Ru Ping walked out of Ji Li's grocery store in frustration, and he heard Ji Li shouting from behind: "Do you know how to play mahjong? Come play mahjong tomorrow." Ru Ping ignored .A gust of wind hits him as he mounts his bike, amplifying the sound of mourning in the backyard of the grocery store.Ru Ping's face was pale, his lips trembled in the wind like dead leaves, and his heart was also filled with a chill of despair.On this day, Ru Ping secretly vowed to end the romance with the girl.He said to himself in a hoarse voice, disappear, let us disappear each other.Ru Ping closed the door of the hut on Fenglin Road.Shut spring out.He sat down at the desk again to write a novel with an autobiographical nature.He wanted to avoid the description of his love life, but it was impossible because it played an important role in his youth.When Ru Ping was writing, he turned on his small tape recorder and played E. Siegel's episodes over and over again.He believes that such music is beneficial to the progress of creation.In the novel, Ru Ping designs the reunion with Shangguan Hongshan: One night in April.He returned to the Fenglin Road hut from the outside.Finding his door open from a distance, he had a premonition that something was coming quietly.Girl sits by the window and eats bread.A few simple pieces of luggage were piled on the ground.He walked up quietly and covered her eyes from behind.What surprised him was the change in her attire, which she had never worn before: a black turtleneck, blue jeans and loafers, her hair cut as short as a boy's.He hardly recognized her. "How did you get in?" "I came in through the window." "You're still alive, I thought you died an honorable death." "Almost, just a few breaths left." "You don't know how much I miss you." "I miss you too." He picked up the girl.The girl was as light as a feather in his arms, and drifted like the wind.He was deeply moved by this reunion after a long absence, and his eyes became a little hot. "It's so good, we're together again, don't go anymore." "No, I'm exhausted." "This is your home, never leave here." "That's not okay, I don't like to stay in one place all the time." "I mean, we, get married. Would you like to get married?" "Married? How fresh, are you kidding me?" "No. Say, would you marry me?" "I don't care. If you are interested, I will accompany you and try it out." "Then let's start now." "Let's start, maybe this is very interesting." He took two candles from a drawer and lit them.Then he turned off the light again.The room was instantly flooded with bizarre hues.The two slender flames of the candle trembled and were slightly blue.He stared at the candlelight and saw the dream of happiness burning little by little in the candlelight.He hugged the girl tightly and said, "When the candle burns out, a new century will begin. How do you feel now?" The girl shook her head.She said calmly again in the dark: "I've been in prison for a year." "What did you say?" "I've been in prison for a year. I sent you a telegram. The Oasis Hotel is a prison, and you probably didn't Understood." "Don't scare me, I have a heart attack." "I spent the night with Hans in the hotel, and I was ambushed." "I don't understand." "That happened to be a big net, and I ran into the muzzle." "I still don't understand. I think the whole world is crazy Gritting his teeth, he raised his hand and slapped the girl across the face, "Shameless little bitch." "How did you hit someone?" the girl said, covering her face, and grabbed an ink bottle Throwing at him, "Why the hell did you hit me?" "I'm sorry for not hitting you." He looked down at the ink bottle shattered into flakes on the floor, and the ink flowed all over the floor. He said, "How did I fall in love with a bitch?" "That's not true. You just love Fuck, I know that better than you." The girl stood up and picked up her luggage.She looked at the candles on the table and smiled in the dark.She said, "The candles are going out, and I should go too." "Why should I love a bitch?" he said. Then the girl came up to him, and she reached out a hand to touch his face.Say, your face is so hot.Then she raised her hand and slapped him loudly.She said, I can't let you slap me for nothing.You hypocrite.He squatted on the ground without moving.The blow of the palm was cold and cold, as full of death as her kiss.He watched the girl walk out the door in the last candlelight, her slender figure flickering on the wall like fire.Don't go, you will die.He walked up and down the room rubbing his hands.The candles on the table were silently extinguished.you will die.He was immersed in dark emotions thinking this way.He heard a heavy truck rumble by on the street outside, then stopped abruptly.At the same time, he heard the sound of sand collapsing in the air, which became more and more intense and lingering.He kept hallucinating afterward of a gigantic hairy and greasy hand steering the truck on a sinister mission.He heard a deafening crash.There is also the girl's sigh as thin as a gossamer, which flutters on the maple forest road like willows. There was a car accident in spring. The scene of the car accident was on Fenglin Road, only fifty meters away from my house.Under the light of high-pressure gas lamps, I witnessed the death of a girl.I saw her sleeping on her side on the cold pavement, like a branch accidentally dropped from a tree.There are two travel bags scattered on the road, one is red, the other is also red.And the girl's body was as pale as snow in this night.This night is a continuation of every previous night.What happened besides the car accident?I still fell asleep.In my dream, I saw the group of dancing girls again, their bodies covered with white veils, hiding their faces from the darkness.On April nights I am always awakened by dreams.I folded my arms, no one was crying in my arms, and I turned back.Someone was crying on the back of my foot.Girls cannot escape, this is a nightmare, this is a long nightmare love story.Ru Ping's youth has stagnated since this spring.He ended his years of flirting with girls and began to live an imaginary life of a monk.He lived in seclusion and wrote the autobiographical novel at his desk.In the novel, all the girls he loved died in the end, and he couldn't explain why he couldn't help but let them all die.There is only one Shi Fei left, and Ru Ping is a little hesitant, whether to let her die or let her live? One day when Ru Ping was reading a local evening paper, he found a text message about a murder case.As soon as he had an idea, he cut out the message and pasted it on the manuscript paper, making slight changes.汝平想，这就是一条情节线索了，用这种写作方法处理人物结局经济实惠。 谈恋爱脚踏两只船遭残杀少女命归西 本报讯：四月五日晚在护城河旁发现的无名女尸案现已被侦破查实。死者史菲，女，二十岁，生前系长江南北货商店店员。凶手王飞已于昨日揖拿归案。据了解，王犯系史菲同居男友。王发现史菲与画界男子白某另有恋情，遂起杀心。史菲被害时，白某也在现场，但他竟然见死不救，逃之夭夭。 汝平把这一节念了两遍。这时候他的思维有点紊乱起来。一种言语不清的恐惧感使他呼吸急促，无法继续写作。他希望这是在梦里。面对的是虚拟的恶梦。于是他把灯开了，灯光一明一灭。依然不能减轻他的恐惧。Maybe that's true.汝平站在书桌前环顾屋子的四周，他看见一点金光在幽暗中闪烁，那是一年前的雨夜被史菲遗忘的雨伞，它现在挂在门后，伞柄上的金箔片沉重地下坠。汝平取下那把伞，将伞尖朝脚背戳着，他用的力量很大。疼痛和迷乱使他发出了一声狂叫。他把伞扔在地上，史菲的细花雨伞无声地倒了下去，就像一具悲哀的人体。 “这是真的。”汝平对自己说。 “她们不幸地死去了。”汝平拉开门，进门的是五月之夜温煦潮湿的风，风中有白玉兰花淡淡的清香。进门的还有一点一点的黑暗，它们匍匐在他的脚下，慢慢地向室内移动。 这是一九八五年暮春的一个夜晚。 五年以后，汝平三十岁了，他成了这个城市小有名气的青年作家。同许多三十岁的男人一样，汝平结了婚，有了个呀呀学语的小女孩。他的妻子是一个外科医生，是他患阑尾炎住院时认识的，汝平对别人解释说，医生和病人最容易产生爱情，而这种爱情关系往往是冷静的恰如其分的。他对他的婚姻家庭抱着非常乐观的态度。 汝平在市郊拥有一套舒适漂亮的房子，有一天他路过枫林路那一带时，顺便去看了从前住过的房子。枫林路一带在大兴土木，街道两旁古老的房屋已经夷为平地，到处都是残垣断瓦。奇怪的是他住过的小屋还没拆掉。孤零零地耸立在瓦堆上。汝平绕着它走了一圈，听见空地上隐隐地回荡着一支熟悉的电影插曲。汝平想起昔日的浪漫生活。想起昔日关于英雄和艺术的梦想，不由得唏嘘长叹起来。小屋的门上贴了封条，但没有上锁。汝平推门进去，看见四壁结满了灰尘和蜘蛛网，地上到处都是他搬家时遗弃的杂物纸片。也许这里已经好久无人涉足了。在一只破纸箱里，他发现了那把伞。伞面被老鼠啃得千疮百孔，伞把上的金箔也没有了，汝平想那是很漂亮很可爱的小玩意，不知是让哪个孩子拿回家去了。汝平举起那把伞，在屋子里走了一圈又一圈。他听见多年前的夜雨声在伞上淅淅沥沥地响着，久久不散。汝平想雨夜还会来临，但是永远也不会有女孩来这里敲门了。