Chapter 24 Chapter Twenty-Four

It is indeed a miracle that a man like me, who has long been accustomed to seeing different things, can fall in love with a fixed woman so reborn. This miracle should first be attributed to An Xin's personality. The role of moving, which shows that the appeal and attraction of good moral qualities to people exists in any era.Second, and equally important, in my interactions with An Xin, she always gives me some unexpected surprises, which keeps me fresh and curious about her.For example, there is an incredible distance between her appearance and her experience, and there is also an unimaginable difference between her inner character and her outer temperament.These distances and differences are the unique charm of Anxin!

Just like I never expected that a girl like her, who looks weak and watery, can draw such a smooth and full back swing leg in mid-air, I also did not expect that under that pure and kind face, there is also a woman lurking. The courage and ingenuity that ordinary people can't match. I can only attribute this to the professional training she has received and the thrilling extraordinary experience.After all, she has withstood a life-and-death test, and her past career and experience often make me admire involuntarily. What surprised me the most about An Xin was that she rescued me alone after I was imprisoned.At that time, I cut off communication with her in prison, and I didn't even know her whereabouts and whereabouts. If I knew that she was still running around, I would have persuaded her to stop.I know that this is a "mountain of ironclad" lawsuit that no one can overcome. If a dead horse is treated as a living horse doctor, it may be futile and waste money. It is like throwing money into a bottomless pit without even hearing a sound.I know that money is equal to survival and survival for An Xin and Xiaoxiong mother and son. This is a very realistic thing.

And I thought, peace of mind has no money.What can you do without money these days? It was probably when I was feeling hopeless and exhausted that my complaints were ignored, An Xin rushed back to Beijing from Qingmian with a huge sum of 280,000 yuan.She first found the female lawyer I used to use, paid the female lawyer enough money, and then planned with the local government how to overturn the original judgment.They first went to Liu Minghao, and if they were moved by emotion, they would be reasonable, and if they were not reaped by reason, they would be lured to benefit, and finally they finally opened the gap from Liu Minghao.Liu Minghao has a loyal side, but also a side that sees profit and forgets righteousness, so in fact, love and reason, righteousness and benefit all played a certain role in him.On the premise that the lawyer guaranteed that his original testimony in court would never be accused of perjury or false accusation, he agreed to testify again, and told me about my attitude and process of collecting the 20,000 yuan kickback at the dinner table, and later I told him the fact that Bian Xiaojun and Zhong Ning agreed to give me the 20,000 yuan, and I made another proof.He also revealed an important situation, that is, Bian Xiaojun had some conflicts with Guoning Company, and he didn't know whether he resigned or was fired recently, anyway, he is no longer working in Guoning Group.This situation lifted the spirits of An Xin and the lawyer, and they both had a premonition that the dawn was ahead and victory was in sight.

They found Bian Xiaojun immediately.The search process was very complicated, and Bian was a person who never returned home at night and whose whereabouts were uncertain.The lawyer had too many things to deal with, so An Xin followed the clues provided by Liu Mingfa and searched bit by bit. After searching for more than a week, he finally found this guy.She blocked Bian Xiaojun at the door of a nightclub, saying that she wanted to talk to him about something.Bian Xiaojun had never seen An Xin before, and he was a little confused to see such a beautiful girl waiting for him here.I know that the relationship between Bian Xiaojun and his wife has always been very weak. He used to joke with me that the three major joys of being middle-aged are to get promoted, get rich and kill his wife. Hearing this made me shudder.He happily followed An Xin to a quiet small bar, sat down, ordered a drink and talked slowly.He was probably anxiously looking forward to the further development of the story with An Xin, but he didn't expect An Xin to take out 30,000 yuan, 10,000 bundles, and put them in front of him one by one, making him stare. Almost bewildered.

After An Xin left the small bar that night, she went to a lawyer and reported to her the results of the secret meeting with Bian Xiaojun.After Bian Xiaojun knew about the relationship between An Xin and me and her recovery, of course he would not have any evil thoughts, and simply started a business with An Xin. He doubled the price, and he had to pay at least 60,000 for An Xin, otherwise out of the question.An Xin did not hesitate to close the deal immediately, she agreed to pay Bian Xiaojun 60,000, and Bian Xiaojun agreed to go with her to see a lawyer. The rest is mostly technical, with lawyers negotiating with Liu Minghao and Bian Xiaojun separately about their new testimony.Liu Minghao didn't want to offend Guoning Company too much, so he didn't want the lawyer to disclose the fact that Guoning Company bought him and made him give false testimony. In the end, Liu Minghao only got a small business that Guoning Company used to replace this big deal—printing the sales brochures of Guoning Building. It didn't make a total of thousands of dollars, and it was a very troublesome thing to worry about.Zhong Guoqing is also a businessman, maybe he thinks that Liu Minghao's testimony in court is worth it if he dies.

Bian Xiaojun was different. He took the initiative to express his willingness to reveal the inside story of Zhong Guoqing forcing him to give false testimony.When Zhong Guoqing personally talked to him, he asked him to deny in court that I had reported to him the fact that I had received a kickback of 20,000 yuan, and denied the fact that he agreed to let me hold the kickback, so as to achieve the purpose of framing me.Anyway, Zhong Guoqing forced him to do it, which constituted the crime of perjury, and Zhong Guoqing should be the main bearer, because Zhong Guoqing and Bian Xiaojun were in the relationship between the boss and the employee at that time, and Bian Xiaojun "forced him to follow the pressure", The role of coercion in law.The culprit must be dealt with, and the coercion will not be asked, Bian Xiaojun himself will not have any trouble.Of course, Bian Xiaojun's initiative to help was not because of the benefit of 60,000 yuan, but because of some grievances between him and the Guoning brothers and sisters.His position in the Guoning Company was dismissed anyway, and he was not afraid of wearing shoes if he was barefoot. When talking to lawyers, he had a fearless spirit of "willing to cut himself to pieces and dare to pull the emperor off his horse".

In addition, Bian Xiaojun also made suggestions and provided the names and contact methods of several other witnesses. He had previously expressed dissatisfaction with these people on different occasions that Zhong Ning sent me the 20,000 yuan kickback.Many people in the company knew about this at the time. The few people Bian Xiaojun provided were basically fired from Guoning Company or were fired by Guoning Company. Trouble, it is estimated that there is no problem in testifying. So many people know about kickbacks, it must be in line with the principle that kickbacks must be made public.As for whether there is an account, the lawyer believes that in a private company, the boss's decision on the disposal of property is valid.Zhong Ning agreed to let me take the rebate, and the rebate is actually a reward from the company, and it is not my responsibility to leave the account.She has stated this point of view in the court debate last time, and the point of view itself is not problematic. The main reason for losing the case last time was that the prosecution witnesses unanimously denied knowing about the kickback, denying that I got the kickback because the boss agreed.If it can be proved that the person in charge of the company knew about this matter this time, and it can be proved that the boss agreed to give me the money, then my charge of secretly accepting bribes, from subjective motives to objective consequences, will be difficult to establish, and I will stand up. I can't stand anymore.

In the spring of 1999, the lawyer went through legal procedures and filed a request for review to the court on the grounds that new evidence was found to prove that the original judgment was wrong.On April 28th, I remember that day clearly. The court held a review of my bribery case.After reviewing the new evidence materials provided by the defense, investigating and questioning the witnesses, and a brief debate between the defense and defense, the presiding judge pronounced the verdict in court: the accusation of bribery by the plaintiff has insufficient evidence and cannot be confirmed.The conviction of the original first-instance judgment and the second-instance judgment was improper and should be corrected.Review and re-judgment: Defendant Yang Rui is not guilty!

That day, accompanied by my lawyer, I walked out of the court building in a free body. I looked up and saw the sky outside, which was bluer and bigger than the sky in the prison.Between the sky and the earth, it is full of sunshine.I leveled my gaze and saw my beloved An Xin standing under the steps of the courthouse.We looked at each other, and I felt very uncomfortable seeing her thin face.I walked down the steps slowly step by step and stood in front of her.I saw the tears in her eyes, flickering in the sunlight.She raised her right hand and gently touched my face, and I slowly stretched out my arms to hold her in my arms.For a long time, what I have been thinking about day and night is to hug my peace of mind like this now.

The lawyer also walked down the steps and walked to our side. She said: "Congratulations." We turned to look at her in unison. She had already walked to a waiting taxi by the roadside, opened the door, and turned back. Smile at us.This was probably the first time I saw her smile.She said, "Call me if you have anything to do." After she finished speaking, she got in the car, and the car drove onto the main road in a blink of an eye, and merged into the torrent of vehicles that was endless, like a drop of water into a rushing river, and soon there was nothing left. disappeared.

I thank the lawyers, I thank the law, and I thank all the witnesses who spoke up for me, even if it was for money or for other purposes, but they finally spoke the truth. It was because of their truth that not only was I able to end my imprisonment and regain my freedom, but more importantly, they also gave me a clean body. I appreciate the peace of mind! I didn't know at that time that An Xin had lost her entire family because of this sunny day. She benefited everyone who played a role in this trial, including lawyers.The same is true for lawyers. These days, no one can do nothing for you, and no one can do nothing just for morality and truth. An Xin gave everything, including her parents' life savings, what she wanted was to stand under the high steps of the court one day and see me striding out from the building as deep as the sea. I am grateful to the parents who feel at ease! From the day I knew that my innocence was not only redeemed with innocence, but also redeemed with money, I longed to go to Qingmian.I am eager to see my parents who feel at ease, I will never be able to kneel in front of them!I failed to let their daughter live a full day, but instead dragged her whole family down to poverty.I want to kneel in front of An Xin's parents and swear that I will repay this kindness for the rest of my life! Now, I am finally approaching the old residence of An Xin's family.On this morning, nearly a year after I walked out of the court, I walked through the ancient pocket town of Qingmian, and finally saw the northern house by a lake hidden by mountains and forests.The courtyard is surrounded by well-proportioned Yunnan houses, almost like a small scenic spot, which made me feel a kind of kindness unique to the Yellow River culture.I clearly knew that this yard was no longer An Xin's home, but when I saw that mass of blue bricks and black tiles, my heart beat and I couldn't help running towards it. I finally stood in front of the gate of this house, which was simpler and easier than I imagined.I stared at the two gates decorated with iron corners. The paint had already been mottled, showing a somewhat dilapidated appearance, a bit desolate, but the pair of exquisitely carved little lions on the stone drums on both sides of the gate , but his posture and expression are still radiant.The surroundings are very quiet, as An Xin described, this is a place isolated from the hustle and bustle. I knocked on the door with my hand, and there was an ancient sound on the door, and I asked loudly, "Is anyone there?" There were some random noises in the yard, which were quickly reduced to a series of kicking footsteps, and then the door opened with a "creak", and the sound of the door hinge was classic, exactly like the sound effect specially made in a movie. The door was opened by a young man who didn't look much older than me.I bowed slightly to express my disturbance, and asked him if he knew where a peaceful family who used to live here moved to.The young man made a thought: The surname is An?At this time, another person came out from the courtyard, an old man with gray hair, and said, "You are looking for Dr. An who used to live here, they moved last spring." I said, "I know, where did they move to?" The old man said: "They moved to the county mass cultural center. But I heard that it is no longer there." I asked the way to the mass cultural center, then thanked the two new owners of the courtyard, one old and one young, and then I took a quick glance into the courtyard through the courtyard door that was only half opened.This courtyard used to be An Xin's home, and this place is where An Xin was born and grew up. Every brick and tile in the courtyard, and every plant and tree outside the courtyard, all aroused some impulses and fantasies in my heart, and I could hardly tell them apart. Is the thing satisfying or is it more arousing my longing for peace of mind. When I found the Qingmian Mass Cultural Center, it was lunch time here, and all the staff had gone home for dinner, and there was almost no one in the museum.This is a half-new and not old two-story brick building. The building is not big, but the door is covered with countless large and small signboards.Libraries, fraternity associations, research associations, counseling stations, etc. are probably branches of mass cultural centers.Most of the doors in this building are locked, and the unlocked ones are also empty. Occasionally, when I see someone passing by in a hurry, when I ask Dr. An and his wife who works here, they all look blank.I walked around the building for a long time without finding anything, so I quickly came out and walked to the street to eat.I ate a bowl of bean soup and half a catty of Yongchang pancakes in a simple but clean shop diagonally opposite the Cultural Center.After I was full, I checked the time was almost up and returned to the cultural center again. This time I went directly to the director's office of the cultural center, blocking a female cadre who happened to come out of the office and was locking the door to leave. After hearing who I was looking for, the female cadre looked me up and down warily.I guessed why she was alerted, and quickly showed my Beijing ID card, saying that I came from Beijing and was a classmate of Dr. An’s daughter. I came here to find An Xin—you know where they live now have you gone? The female cadre checked my ID card and checked whether I and the photo on the ID card were the same person.My ID card and my Beijing echo, which can't be imitated by an authentic outsider, dispelled her doubts, but her answer still didn't satisfy me. "You're looking for Dr. An, right? They've moved away. His wife doesn't work in our library anymore." "When did you leave?" "It's been...it's been several months." "Where did they go?" "I don't know. It seems that he left Qingmian and went to another place." "Where did you go?" "We don't know, they didn't tell us." The female cadre stuffed my ID card back to me and left in a hurry.I stood tiredly in the corridor, my heart was empty.An Xin's parents in Qingmian are the main clue for me to find An Xin. I think whether An Xin returns to them or not, they should know her daughter's whereabouts. I walked out of the small building of the cultural center again and stood in a daze on the street. Up to this point in my entire journey, I had no direction at all.I thought about it for a long time, and walked back to An Xin's house from the county town without any purpose. Go up a long ancient road with faintly remnant rocks, and walk towards the Pinghu Lake in the mountains that I often dream about.I looked at the lawn on the opposite bank by the lake, and the lawn looked extremely open in the sun.The sunlight pushes back the shadow of the towering trees at the end of the lawn with all its strength, making the virgin forest, which is extremely deep and magnificent if you get close, become small and amiable. I didn't return from the shore of the high mountain Pinghu until the sun set to the west, and passed the northern house again, and the smoke had not yet risen in the courtyard.On the way back to the county seat, I looked back and stared again and again, trying my best to combine this last scene in the dusk with my previous imagination, and at the same time, I left my nostalgic eyes on the blue bricks and gray tiles of the courtyard.There was such an absurd thought in my mind, I thought that if I couldn't find peace of mind, I might move to this place and live near this yard. I returned to Qingmian City, walked through the street market between two mountains, passed through the ancient city gate that once strangled the throat of "Three Propaganda and Six Consolation", and then crossed the Tianzhu Qingjin River with the aid of the Tie Suo Bridge, and returned to the station where the train station is located before dark. That small town.From the timetable of the passenger train I carried with me, I found a train that was approaching late at night. It was the 775 express train from Kunming to South Germany. I think that apart from An Xin's parents, the only person who might know An Xin's whereabouts is Lao Pan, the captain of the Narcotics Brigade of the South German Public Security Bureau. It was still early, I bought a pack of biscuits in the grocery store in front of the station, took it, and didn't open it to eat.Under the oppression of depression and bewilderment, my stomach has little pleasure in wriggling.I sat in the small waiting room of the station with the bag of biscuits, the backpack on my back looked heavy, but I didn't bother to take it off.I just sat like this until night fell, and I sat on the platform until late at night, chewing pancakes and waiting for the only night train that stopped briefly at this small station. I have been to South Germany once. It was the approaching summer season last year. An Xin and I went back to Yunnan together. Of course we went to South Germany.In addition to Nande, we also went to Kunming and Beiqiu, when we were happily preparing to get married. At that time, I had just been released from prison, and An Xin and I were immersed in the joy of reunion in victory.We have decided to get married, and nothing can stand in the way of our official union!We have all thought about it and discussed it seriously, regardless of whether our parents—mainly my dad—agree or accept it; They all decided to get married!We must get married!Right now, get married! Of the 280,000 yuan that An Xin brought back from Qingmian, less than 30,000 yuan was spent to rescue me from prison.She called her parents and told us about getting married and about money.An Xin's parents congratulated us on the phone, and her mother also talked to me. The maternal sensibility in her voice was touching.She said: "You are Yang Rui, right? Do you know that An Xin loves you very much, she loves you more than herself. In this world, besides her child, the person she loves the most is you, do you know? " I said, "I know." She said, "Can you love her as she loves you?" I said: "Yes!" She said, "Can you love her child?" I said: "Yes!" There was silence on the phone for a while, and An Xin's mother was sobbing faintly. She restrained her sobs and said, "My daughter is suffering too much...I know you are suffering too, and you can live together...I really want to Best wishes to you all!" The mother began to cry, unable to speak.I handed over the phone to An Xin, and I listened to their mother and daughter consoling each other, saying trust me.I thought silently in my heart, I will definitely treat An Xin well, and it will never change in my life! Regarding the remaining money, An Xin's parents asked us to keep it for the wedding, but I disagree, and I strongly advocate that An Xin send the money back.An Xin discussed and argued with her mother over and over again on the phone, and finally agreed to a compromise, we kept 10,000 yuan, and the other nearly 20,000 yuan, and An Xin and I went to the post office to send it back to Qingmian. Under An Xin's persuasion, I went to see my dad.One is to tell him that I have come out, that it is all right, that I have been rehabilitated, and that I have not given it to him, nor have I given anyone to our old Yang family.The second is to tell him that I am getting married, and I hope he will agree.Fortunately, my dad didn't drink that day and his mind was still clear.But between the words, it can be heard that his brain has been poisoned by alcohol for a long time, and it is not as good as before.He was only in his fifties, and he spoke incoherently like an old man in his seventies or eighties.Regarding my innocence rehabilitated, he expressed emotion, scolded the judges and prosecutors for their stupidity, and tried his best to encourage me to sue them.My dad said, "We can't let them spend more than half a year in vain. Let's not mention the material loss. If we mention it, people will look down on us. We have to mention the spiritual loss and reputation loss, and we can't just forget it."Now there are laws.If the national government does something wrong, it still has to pay, and now the people sue the government and they win. Regarding my getting married, my dad didn't make a clear statement, but he agreed in tone.He first asked: Are you old enough?I've said enough, men can get married at twenty, I'll be twenty-four after the Chinese New Year, and An Xin will soon be twenty-three.He was silent, but he didn't say anything in favor, at most he said, are you almost twenty-four?I can't control you when you are seventeen or eighteen, let alone you are twenty-four.When did you actually hear me?You listen to your mother when your mother is around, and you listen to yourself when your mother is gone.When you were a child, you were a little afraid of me, and you didn't listen to me when you were afraid of me, but now you are not even afraid of me. When he said that, I didn't say a word. We can't say too many affectionate words between father and son now.After being silent for a while, I felt very uncomfortable, so I said: "Dad, you can rest, I will go first, and I will come to see you when I am free, and I will tell you when the date is fixed." I took the two bottles of An Xin that I had brought Put down the white wine and a bag of fruit, and leave.My dad stood up and walked me to the door. He finally said something like this: "I don't have any preparations for you to get married. Your dad can't give you the money. I wanted to marry the house you live in now." The apartment I live in will be changed to a larger one with the unit. If you are going to get married, I will not change it for the time being, let you live first, and you can’t live on the street when you get married.” I said, "Thank you dad." My dad said: "You still know how to thank me, are you polite? You don't need to thank me. Just don't be angry with me." The last few words my father said at the door were tantamount to agreeing, at least acknowledging my marriage. Later, my dad called to ask where we planned to get married and how many tables to hold, and reminded me not to forget who to invite whom.I told my dad that we are thrifty about our wedding, and we don’t plan to set up too many tables. We will travel and get married, and we will just distribute candy to relatives and friends when we come back. My dad said: "Oh, that's fine. An Xin is a second marriage with a child. It's fine if you don't have to make a fuss. Just go out and do it quietly. If someone asks me, I'll tell you that you have already done it." Done." My dad's words made me very unhappy, but I didn't say anything, I digested it myself. Yes, An Xin and I decided, no one knows, marriage is our own business, we can say whatever other people like, we can say whatever we want. But An Xin and I invited the shrewd and unsmiling female lawyer who helped us win the case to a meal.No matter how tight our money was, we still found a relatively decent place - "Friday" Restaurant, to express our gratitude to her for her "life-saving grace".Especially An Xin, who insisted on treating her to this meal in a decent way, and she and she seemed to have formed a deep fighting friendship.I said: If you really want to be decent, let’s go to a restaurant to eat shark’s fin and abalone. I used to eat it a lot.An Xin was stunned for a while: shark fin abalone?How much does that cost?I smiled and replied: "If you just eat and eat, the three of us can take it down within two thousand." Two thousand?An Xin was startled, eat gold!I said, three people can eat those things for two thousand yuan, and they really can’t eat good things. Shark fins can only eat broken fins and small fins that have been overcooked; abalone can only be fresh abalone and only Eat sixteen heads... An Xin said, let's eat something else, it doesn't have to be decent. So we chose "Friday", which is a place that young people like to go to, and foreigners also like to go, because the atmosphere of the place is very fashionable for Chinese and nostalgic for foreigners.Foreigners pay more attention to decency when eating than Chinese, but their decency pays attention to the environment and tableware, as well as how old the wine is, not what to eat.Foreigners don't like to eat shark's fin, abalone, sea cucumber, fish maw, and other things that nourish yin and strengthen yang, but Chinese people are particular about eating these. The three of us spent a little over 300 yuan for that meal, and we had a good time.The lawyer is six years older than us, basically a generation, so we have a common language. What's more, just looking back on this case, celebrating the common victory of the three of us, and talking about all the interesting and profound people and things in the process, there are endless topics. After dinner, while sitting with a drink, the lawyer abruptly ended the review and asked me a question about what to do next. She said: "Yang Rui, from a legal point of view, Zhong Guoqing and Zhong Ning's actions should be framed, which constitutes the crime of false accusation and perjury. Are you willing to sue them?" I froze for a moment and said, "Okay." The lawyer said: "The testimonies of Liu Minghao, Bian Xiaojun, and several other witnesses during the retrial are actually enough to convict them of this crime. What is needed now is for the victims to file a lawsuit against them and bring the procedure forward. Just start it up." I looked at An Xin, An Xin lowered her head, thinking about something, but didn't express her opinion.I said to the lawyer, "OK, I'll sue them!" The lawyer corrected: "It is the procuratorate's business to prosecute them, but the victims can file a complaint with the procuratorate and request prosecution. I can do things like writing complaints and contacting witnesses for you." The lawyer also took a look at An Xin, but An Xin remained silent.The lawyer turned to me and said, "You go back and discuss it, and if you make a decision, you can come to me." I said, "Okay, I will definitely have to trouble you again." After dinner that night, we broke up at the entrance of the restaurant. The lawyer took a taxi and left. An Xin and I went to the bus stop to go home.It's too late and we won't pick up the bear.An Xin called Xiaoxiong's "grandmother", and said goodbye and good night to Xiaoxiong for a long time on the phone, and then took the bus with me and wandered back home. When you get home, make your bed with peace of mind.After tidying up the bed, she walked to the living room and asked me: Are you sleeping?I looked at my watch and guessed that she might need me tonight.In the first few days after I was released from prison, I had sex with An Xin every day, often twice or even three times a day, and during the day, it seemed that I was injured all of a sudden, and I felt that I should be sick if I did it again.So in the past few days, we started to rest honestly. We just hug each other when we sleep at night, but if we don’t do it, we kiss each other and say good night to each other when we are sleepy, and then we go to sleep like old couples.From An Xin's tone and eyes at this time, I felt that she wanted tonight again, so I stood up from the sofa, went to the bathroom to rinse my mouth, and then went to bed.Take off your clothes directly before going to bed.An Xin was still wearing a corset, and got on the bed, lying flat next to me.I was also lying on my back, as if I was waiting for the other person to take the initiative to touch me.After waiting for a long time, An Xin remained motionless, as if thinking about something, I couldn't bear it and just wanted to reach out to her chest. An Xin suddenly asked me: "Yang Rui, do you really want to sue Zhong Ning?" I was silent for a while, and then said: "Ah, she should be a defendant too!" We all fell silent for a long time, and An Xin spoke again: "I don't mind if you sue her, I'm worried that you are different from me, I don't know her anyway, I have no relationship with her, only hatred, but you are different from me , you used to be lovers." I said, "Who is her lover? Do you think I still have feelings for Zhong Ning? Are you okay?" An Xin fell silent, after a long pause, and then said: "People are emotional animals, and it's hard to tell about emotions. I'm not saying that you and Zhong Ning still have feelings now, I mean, you were together in the past, after all, you have Have a good time, have cared for each other, miss each other's moments, these things are your experiences, can you just forget it? Experience is something you can't hold on to." I said, "You don't think I'm still nostalgic about my past life and thinking about Zhong Ning, do you?" An Xin said: "No, I'm talking about my experience, just like I didn't love Mao Jie, I knew he was guilty of drug trafficking, but you asked me to sue him and let him die, I I still have obstacles in my heart, I can't bear this! I always think of the past between me and him. There are many beautiful moments in the past. I will think of how he treated me well in the past and how he took care of me in the past. Many details can't be remembered at ordinary times. Yes, but by now I've remembered." I smiled, raised my body to look at An Xin, touched her face, and said: "That's you, you are a woman, women are sentimental, too soft-hearted, and take care of everything by themselves, we men are not like this. " An Xin was still lying on her back without moving, looking at me.The light outside the window shines through the gauze curtain, making her eyes bright.She looked at me without blinking her eyes, and she said, "Okay, as long as you fall in love and don't feel uncomfortable, then you can sue. Of course I have no objection." I said, "You really have no objection, why didn't you say anything when the lawyer said this?" An Xin said: "I won't take the initiative to ask you to sue her, I won't. If you are really angry with her and want to take revenge on her, and you sue her, there is no objection. But I don't want to persuade you to force you to sue her .Because I know she is your past girlfriend. I don’t want you to feel unbearable, unnatural, and insist on doing it. After doing it for a long time, I feel uncomfortable and regret it. I don’t want you to be like this .” I lay down and said nothing.Will I do what An Xin said?I'm not sure.But think about it the other way around, if I go to court, face my ex-lover, sue her for jail, make her suffer, will I be particularly happy from it?I also seem to be unsure of this. I thought of when Zhong Ning sued me, I looked at her so calmly in court, but she was relentless, she almost wanted to kill me at the top of her lungs!I could see that she was having pleasure and being satisfied by it!Thinking of the elated look she showed in the court at that time, the malicious pride on her face, I suddenly warned myself, I can't be like her, I can't be like Zhong Ning who is cruel by nature, so vicious, and has no tolerance. I can't be such a person without a little class! That night, An Xin and I didn't say anything more, and we didn't do any more intimate things. We each thought about our own thoughts until we fell asleep. The next day I called the lawyer, and I said I didn't intend to sue Zhong Ning and Zhong Guoqing, let them go.The lawyer seemed to have expected it a long time ago, and asked me without surprise: Why?Is it because they are afraid that they will not be able to sue if they have too much money?I said no, I don't want to sue them again, Zhong Ning and I had a relationship after all, she was good to me in the past, let me repay her.The lawyer didn't say anything more, she just said: Well, you make up your own mind anyway.After a pause, she suddenly said: Yang Rui, you are a great man!I smiled and asked: Why do you say that?She replied: I have admired you since you told me that you wanted to plead not guilty.For the sake of innocence, I would rather go to jail, and most people would not choose this way.Just looking at your appearance, I didn't expect you to be such a man, including how you treat Zhong Ning now, the way you handle it is quite impressive.Even though I don't agree, I understand.I also understand why An Xin tried so hard to save you, I think she is worth it. I finished the phone call with the lawyer with a sense of triumph.I told An Xin about my decision not to sue Zhong Ning anymore, An Xin was very calm, neither expressed appreciation nor regret, just said, oh. In addition to our dinner with the lawyer, we also had a meal with Liu Minghao.It was Liu Minghao who treated us and asked us to go there again and again.I didn't want to go at first, Liu Minghao lied in front of me in court, he knew that I would be ruined if he testified like this, but he still testified like this.When he testified that day, he didn't dare to look at me.His certificate almost wiped out our friendship for many years from childhood to adulthood.Can I still eat his meal shamelessly?But feel at ease: Liu Minghao is in business, he dare not offend Guoning Company.Let's not demand so much from him, and don't remember this grudge, you can't avenge this grudge, why bother to keep him in your heart.Besides, he has helped you too. He has helped you a lot over the years.He made you even this time, otherwise you have to remember his thoughts. What's more, he later testified for you again, otherwise you wouldn't be able to get out. The meal was eaten in the Oriental Garden Hotel. The atmosphere of eating in the restaurant is good, and it seems to be higher-grade than eating in a restaurant.Liu Minghao booked a single room here, and all he ordered were the Shanghai Jinjiang dishes that this restaurant is good at.It was a bit awkward when we met at first, but it got better soon.刘明浩第一杯酒先主动谢罪，说：“哥哥有对不住弟弟之处，先喝一杯自罚。”他一仰而尽，抹着嘴说：“我这人就这优点，知错就改，我原来没想到我说那么一句：不记得了，就能把我弟弟给判了，我想咱们国家的法院还不得明察秋毫啊。结果杨瑞一进去可把我急坏了，我他妈惨死了。我心说我怎么着也得想办法把我弟弟给弄出来。正好安心又来找我，我们一拍即合。是哥哥让你进去的哥哥也就必须得让你出来！来，这第二杯是给你接风的，喝了它，压压惊。” 我们喝了酒，不容我和安心插空说话，刘明浩还没说完似的又接着说：“不过人也说了，没结过婚的男人不算男人，没进过监狱的男人不算真正的男人。杨瑞，你这半年没白进去，我看得出来！你过去整个儿还是一孩子呢，今天我一见你一看你这眼神儿，就看出不一样了，成熟多了！” 我笑道：“那你什么时候也进去一回，也当一回真正的男人。” 刘明浩一愣，解嘲地笑笑：“我呀，我先学着做个普通男人得了，我正准备着结婚呢。” 接下来他又大骂钟宁钟国庆，说现在好多人都准备告他们呢，国宁公司缠上了好几起官司，法院检察院也在查他们诬告我的事。咱们国家法律都有规定的：诬告反坐！不过钟国庆在上面的关系多，也许能摆乎也说不定。可是得道多助，失道寡助！Unjust is doomed to destruction!他们总这么黑早晚要轮到恶有恶报的一天！ 吃完了饭，安心拿出三千块钱来，还给刘明浩。小熊生病时我们借了他四千，后来我去龙都第一个月挣了钱以后还了他一千，现在我们手里有钱，理应还齐了。刘明浩喝完酒的脸红彤彤的，使劲把钱推回来，嘴里嚷嚷着：“嘿嘿嘿，你们干吗，这不是骂人吗。”安心诚心诚意地说：“这还是你卖了股票借给我们的，你已经亏了，我们连利息都不付，再连本儿都欠着，实在过意不去。”刘明浩说：“见外见外，我和杨瑞，谁跟谁呀，这钱就算我跟我这小老弟赔罪的吧，要不我心里难受！” 他硬是不收， 安心无奈扭头看我， 我把钱接过来硬塞在刘明浩怀里，我说：“你让我们轻松一点好不好，欠着人家的钱我们俩睡不着觉。” 刘明浩见我态度坚决，换了个理由还想把钱塞回来：“你们不是要结婚了吗，这钱就算我做大哥的送的份子好了，省得找另给你们买东西了。” 我不接，说：“一码是一码，这样吧，反正你也快结婚了，你现在要是送我们东西，到时候我们也得送你，送来送去何必呢，不如咱们说好了，情义到了，礼就免了，怎么样？” 刘明浩知道拗不过我，只好把钱装进手包里，苦笑着说：“你结婚那份礼我无论如何得送，哪怕我送了你不喜欢扔了去呢。” 说实话，我真是不想让刘明浩送礼，不光他，谁的礼我都不想收。这半年官司吃的，还有前一段找工作那个费劲儿，我算深知了人情冷暖，世态炎凉。这世界上人和人要是没有一点亲缘关系还能亲热来亲热去的，本质上肯定都有一根利益的纽带，纯感情的事儿太少了，有也别信。 在这个观点上，安心就显得比我宽容和善良。她说你也别把人都看得那么委须，好像谁要帮你一个忙一定是别有用心似的，这样看也太绝对了。过去我在南德缉毒大队工作的时候，我们潘队长和钱队长对我都不错，好多人都帮过我的忙，难道都是有利可图？ 我解释不了她的经历和体会，辞穷地说：“南德我不了解，我是说北京，说大都市，哪个大都市不是物欲横流。” 安心对她的生活体验也很执着：大城市比我们南德和我们老家那种小地方，是商业化了些，但我相信，人的内心总有善良美好的一面，总有爱心。爱心就是无私的，否则就不叫爱心。 我不再跟安心争辩，她说服不了我，我也说服不了她，各存己见算了。我们的观点不同缘自经历不同，也练自人性的不同，我想安心是自己太善良了，所以才觉得别人也善良。 我承认我不像安心那么善良，但我喜欢善良，愿意和善良的人在一起生活或者工作。我想如果我和安心今后真能天长地久的话说不定我也会变得和她一样善良的，可能也和她一样，吃善良的亏！