Chapter 8 08. Wife's eyes

Ma Min came out of the noisy Longmei Entertainment City that night and drove Ms. Peng, Ms. Wen and Zhou Xiaofeng off one by one. After returning home, returning home, my wife's yellow pupils were still open, and her face was earthy.late night one It was one o'clock, and her eyes were still open. "Are you still asleep?" He walked into the bedroom and looked at his wife lying on the bed. The wife moved her face and cast her eyes on his face, "I fell asleep and woke up again." The wife said. He suspected she wasn't asleep at all.He guessed that she said this because she was afraid that he would blame her for not sleeping well.he knows

Every nerve in the wife's head is tense and fragile. If there is any trouble, she will be like a frightened deer, will wake up.My wife is afraid of the dark, and she never turns off the lights when she sleeps.She is also afraid that the doors and windows will be wide open. She always sleeps with the bedroom The doors and windows were closed tightly, as if the devil would break through the screen door and enter if it was not closed tightly. "Aren't you asleep? Don't lie to me?" "I really fell asleep," said the wife, and asked him blankly, "Where have you been?"

"First, I accompany the boss of Party A to have dinner at the Medicinal Food Restaurant, and then I accompany them to sing karaoke in Longmei Entertainment City." Ma Min replied Answered.Ma Min didn't need to think about such a lie anymore, he could already utter such a white lie.Ma Min I don't want to say anything serious to hurt this woman who has given her whole life to him. Her mind can't hold it If there is any excitement in the world, if you tell the truth, it will definitely hurt her. The wife stared at him with two big eyes, and the wife moved her head again, with a half-smile expression on her face,

This expression often appeared on her face, just as birds often fly past our eyes.Wife moves her dick again The face, as if a big beetle moved.Ma Min was very reluctant to glance at this flat beetle-like face, Ma Min felt sad when he saw this face, and felt that God was playing tricks on him.Ma Min was about to walk away when his wife said, "After playing this when? " "Sleep well." Ma Min didn't bother to answer her words.Seeing that his wife moved her face like that again, Ma Min was still in a daze. Looking at him with big eyes, he was even less willing to look at her flat, beetle-like face.When will Ma Min think it will be over?

Ah, Ma Min walked out of the bedroom, went into the kitchen, washed his hands with fragrant soap, relieved his hands, and then re-entered the bedroom.wife still Then he stared at him with two yellow pupils, which gave Ma Min a hollow feeling.Ma Min looked at her in disgust He glanced at her without saying a word, he felt that she should be able to live a good life, and she really shouldn't let him have no hope like this. He cast his eyes on his daughter.This is the weather in April, the daughter is lying beside her mother with her face crooked, wearing a A tank top with a funny Donald Duck pattern printed on the chest, a pair of floral shorts, and two lovely legs naked in front of his eyes

, covered with a corner of the blanket. "Her feet and hands are exposed," Ma Min said reproachfully, looking at his wife. Take a look. "You should cover things with her, and troubles will come when you are sick." "She won't cover it," the wife replied in a low voice, her face still blank. "When I cover my foot, she kicks it." "What does she know?" Ma Min glanced at his wife, "She doesn't understand anything." The wife lifted up the thin bath towel blanket that was placed next to the pillow, and covered her daughter's hands and legs.Ma Min sit down

She caressed her daughter's face affectionately, and then touched her playful little smooth shoulders. The hairs on her shoulders very deep.Then he stroked his daughter's two smooth calves, which were also covered with deep hair.Daughter is filled deeply by him Awakened by the touch of love, the daughter glanced at her father, "Don't mess with me." The daughter protested softly, waving her father's hand With a flick of the hand. Sitting aside, Ma Min observed his daughter's sleeping state. The daughter fell asleep with her face on her side, with one hand under her face,

Another hand rests on her mother's shoulder.The daughter has a round face, and her sleepy face is cute.Ma Min gently stroked The daughter's shoulders, the daughter's shoulders are round, and the palm of your hand can feel the softness of the hair on the daughter's shoulders.wife looking at him Touching his daughter, he also turned his head to look at his wife. The wife's face used to be very beautiful, not this kind of beetle shell. The same flat, but since she got mental illness, the rosiness has completely disappeared from her cheeks, it shouldn't be so fleshy Now there is so much flesh growing in the place, so the shape of the face becomes ugly.Ma Min looked at his wife again, and at this moment his wife looked at him

With a smile, his lips became a deep and ugly character horoscope.Ma Min sighed, trying to restrain his temper and said: "Sleep, sleep well. Don't make your brain hurt, don't stare at me all day long." "I fell asleep and woke up again," the wife said, denying that she hadn't fallen asleep. "I woke up as soon as you opened the door." "Then go back to sleep, I'm going to sleep." Ma Min thought, if it was Peng Xiao, his life would be very poetic.He turned and went into the next room.since six In the summer of the previous year, after his daughter was born in the Third Hospital every day, Ma Min and his wife slept in separate beds, because the four-foot-five-wide bed slept

Three people, how uncomfortable.Ma Min is a domineering man who sleeps by nature, he always sleeps on half of the side bunk. Hands and feet spread wide.He was afraid that if he was not careful, he would put one hand on the baby's neck and suffocate the daughter to death, so So he took the initiative to give up the bed for their mother and daughter, and started a new job by himself.Ma Min lay down on the bunk, lit a cigarette, and stared at the Looking at a gouache painting in a frame on the wall.This is a gouache sketch of a high loess slope made by Zhou Xiaofeng ten years ago At that time, Zhou Xiaofeng still had the dream of being a painter in his mind. Although he studied arts and crafts, he longed to be a painter.

To be a truly free painter is Zhou Xiaofeng's dream since he was in high school.Ten years ago, Zhou Xiaofeng and Several ambitious young people went to Tibet and Qinghai to find inspiration and collect creative materials, and painted a large number of paintings.seven or eight of them After the young artist came back, he held a painting exhibition in the Provincial Exhibition Hall, and later took these paintings to Guangzhou for half a month. There was a little reaction or something.Although the painting on Ma Min's wall is not Zhou Xiaofeng's most proud work, it is also his second It is a proud work, so naturally it participated in the exhibition and was mentioned several times in newspapers by several second-rate art theorists. This is a gouache painting with warm colors, the so-called warm colors are mainly brown and earthy yellow.Entire folio large On the gouache paper, there are all layers of high loess slopes, and the darker loess slopes in front are in the shadows, which are vividly depicted. If you look carefully, the stones on the road and the breaks on the hillside are also shown; although the distance is also earthy, it is more blurred towards the The distant sky spreads over; the sky is a heavier blue-gray, with only a short line; there are neither people nor Anything like grass and trees, only a yellow ox the size of a matchbox was walking on the high slope of the loess, still with a thin The thin cow's buttocks are facing the audience impolitely; there is a beam of bright golden sunlight on this high loess slope.This At the beginning of the painting, Zhou Xiaofeng named it "Scorched Earth", but a literary youth asked him to name it "Sunshine on the Wasteland", saying The beam of sunshine in the picture has a very clear symbolic meaning, because the bull that is not illuminated by the sun gives people the feeling of Just walk towards this beam of sunshine.This is very interesting!Zhou Xiaofeng did not have these ideas when he was painting, but literature The youth discovered this layer of meaning in this painting.So this gouache painting took its name, in Changsha It was exhibited in Guangzhou and Guangzhou, and also appeared in "Painter", "Hunan Pictorial" and "Changsha Evening News".When Ma Min moved to a new house, he asked Zhou Xiaofeng wanted to paint, Zhou Xiaofeng thought about it, and gave him the one hanging on his office desk. Now Ma Min is smoking a cigarette while staring at this gouache painting, he thinks he is the one walking into the sun with his thin buttocks crossed Cow, the beam of sunshine in front is shining golden, this dejected cow is slowly moving towards that beam of sunshine.I am this O cow, my love life is this vast wasteland.Ma Min thought. Waking up in the morning, Ma Min picked up a Marlboro cigarette, lit it, and took a puff. He felt his head clearer.he smokes again After he finished his mouth, he felt that the thoughts in his head became more clear.He finished smoking this cigarette, didn't want to get up, lay down and lit it again. cigarette, eyes fixed on this masterpiece of Zhou Xiaofeng on the wall, but thought about the scene of singing and dancing with Peng Xiao last night. matter.He was surprised to feel that this woman entered his heart all at once, and this serious thought of a woman It feels like he hasn't had it since he got married.He felt as if there were a pair of hands in his heart that always directed his thoughts towards Peng Xiao. Pulling on the body, it is like an ox walking forward with a plow on its back.His wife went into the living room to mop the floor. Seeing that he was awake, she put down the mop and walked in Come on, looking at him with big dull yellow eyes, "Are you awake?" she said.The wife is wearing a very ordinary Pajamas, pajamas were made a few years ago, they are old and baggy.The flesh on the wife's face began to grow horizontally, It devoured her formerly pretty duck-egg-shaped face alive.Beauty fades so quickly on her face, and her breasts are like It hangs down like a loofah, limp like two leather bags hanging on the chest.She is only thirty-three years old, how could she just end up with one life? How is it?Ma Min glanced at her, sighed and said, "What about Tiantian? Did you go to preschool?" "I'm in preschool," said my wife. "She's the class monitor, and the teacher asked her to open the door early." "Have you eaten eggs every day?" "No, she doesn't want to eat eggs." "She doesn't want to eat, so you can tell her not to eat?" Ma Min looked at his wife reproachfully. "She refuses to eat, and I have nothing to do with her." "I sometimes say you're stupid, but you don't admit it!" Ma Min became angry, "She doesn't want to eat, you can educate her, What does she know?You tell her that if she doesn't eat, she will be beaten. Do you think she will eat it?what did she eat " "I only ate one bun." The wife looked at him nervously, a pitiful look afraid of his reproach. Ma Min really wanted to scold her, but seeing his wife's face fell down, and fearing that she would get sick from worrying alone, she Already a sick person. "Okay, I won't talk anymore." Ma Min got off the bed and said, holding his breath in his stomach.he stands After moving my limbs in the living room, I felt that my muscles and bones were a little sore.He looked out the window, the sun was shining brightly outside the window, he I think today is another good day.When he turned his head, his wife was standing behind him with that thoughtful look on her face. "If she doesn't eat, maybe I really beat her?" said the wife, showing a look of incompetence. "Then really fight." Ma Min said, "If you don't obey, it's fine! What nutrition does a steamed stuffed bun have? What's the use of eating some starch and turning it into feces? ! " Ma Min went into the kitchen to wash his face and mouth, then came out, picked up an egg, peeled the shell, and started to eat.wife in a folded He sat down on the chair, looked at him with big yellow eyes, seemed to want to say something, but hesitated.Ma Min deeply felt that his wife was not old enough Aging, at least the mind is aging before it gets old.People in their thirties don't dress themselves up anymore. For a woman Say, it's over. "You can buy more sets of good clothes," Ma Min said. "I'm afraid I can't buy it alone." His wife looked at him and said hesitantly. "It doesn't matter if you can't buy well, I will never say anything about you. If you have nothing to do today, go shopping in the street and buy some good clothes. You are thirty-three years old, you can still dress yourself up, don't just give up on yourself, women need to dress up. " "I'm afraid I can't buy it well." The wife stood up and said. Ma Min wanted to get angry, but swallowed it down again. "Yes, you should dress yourself, or I really will run away.I hope you are more feminine and more beautiful.Don't make me think about other women. You are thirty-three years old now, not fifty-three years old. If you work hard, you can still find your own feelings. " The wife pursed her lips and looked at him. "Don't squeeze your mouth so hard that you can't pry it open, it's not pretty." Ma Min said, hating the expression on her face. "You just hate me," the wife glared at him, her face full of melancholy. "I don't hate you," Ma Min said, "I'm telling you to relax your lips, don't close them so tightly." The wife opened her lips, revealing a mouthful of not-so-clean teeth, "I didn't close it as tightly as you said." "That's because you don't feel it yourself." Ma Min felt sorry for her. "Forget it, do what you want. It's just that I hope You often look at your expression in the mirror. " The wife went into the bedroom to look in the mirror, then came out and looked at Ma Min.Ma Min felt that he should give Something warm about her, "I think your figure is still very good." Ma Min said, patting his wife on the shoulder, "As long as you pay attention to your facial expressions a little bit, and often do facial masks, the beauty will still be restored on your face." The image of his mother appeared in Ma Min's mind. In his memory, his mother had never been beautiful.And being a mother After his mother died, in his mother's drawer, Ma Min found a yellowed photo, which was taken by his mother when she was young. Very beautiful, so beautiful that he couldn't believe his mother was so beautiful.Now this picture is in his collection of albums, which is The only photo left of his mother when she was young.In order not to let this photo turn yellow or rot, he also took it to the store Plastic has been removed inside, and the air that corrodes the photo is isolated from the outside of the photo.He finds it strange that his wife's two years and two years The former is simply a different person. The wife stared at Ma Min with her big yellow eyes that made Ma Min sick, and the expression on her face was not as calm as before. Extremes and extremes or something. "Then I'll go buy some clothes, since you want me to buy them." The wife said hesitantly.