Chapter 4 04. Ma Min's wife

The lady sitting next to Zhou Xiaofeng dragged Zhou Xiaofeng onto the dance floor, and the lady sitting next to Ma Min moved her shoulders He also stood up, glanced at the dance floor where the lights were flickering, and said to Ma Min: "Sir, shall we dance?" "I don't want to dance," Ma Min said, looking at the beautifully dressed female singer who was singing. The lady took his hand, "Let's have a dance, what's the point of sitting here?" the lady said. Ma Min has no interest in this girl, so he lazily pushes her away. Ma Min knows in his heart that these women are all looking for men.

fanny pack.Ma Min psychologically resists such sweet talk from women.The girl whispered again: "Sir, I Let's dance. "As he said, he put it on Ma Min's side, and pulled Ma Min to stand up again. Ma Min refused to stand up, so Ma Min pulled one of her hands away.Ma Min originally came here to find happiness and make money, no Where do you pour the fatigue of the day in a nightclub?But Ma Min's heart is not in the nightclub, but in Peng on Akatsuki. "This pretty guy," the young lady smiled again, wanting to pull him to dance. "Shall we go dance?"

"I don't want to dance." Ma Min's heart was very turbulent, "I just want to sit here and rest." After the dance music was over, Zhou Xiaofeng and the young lady came slowly. "Oh, are you sitting here and not dancing?" Zhou Xiaofeng asked Say. Ma Min asked the lady to stand aside, and he glanced at Zhou Xiaofeng, who was holding the lady's hand with a smile on his face. lovely smile. "You two are so intimate?" Ma Min picked up the glass on the table, took a sip of tea, looked at Zhou Xiaofeng, "It's tasteless, I want to go."

"Let's play for a while." Zhou Xiaofeng said, "Accompany me well, my brother, or I won't have the money to pay you." The young lady glanced at Zhou Xiaofeng, then cast her gaze to the orchestra pit, where red, green, and green lights flickered on the floor. A lyrical song begins to float in the hall again, like a butterfly fluttering in your ears.Miss cut her hair, Rearranging the smile on his face to be gentle and lovely, he said to Ma Min tenderly, "Shall we dance first?" Ma Min stood up sullenly, and the two stepped onto the dance floor. Ma Min hugged her and danced to the powerful rhythm.

After a dance, the two returned to their seats. Ma Min picked up a cigarette and put it to his mouth, lit it, smoked a bit, and talked with him again. The young lady stepped onto the dance floor and danced casually, no longer whimsical. At eleven o'clock in the evening, the two came out of the Hong Kong Island nightclub, followed by two young ladies, and Ma Min paid a small fee of one hundred yuan. After paying the fee to the girl who was next to him, Ma Min walked into Santana and started the car.Zhou Xiaofeng wants to ask that to dance with her Go with the girl, do her thought work there.Ma Min waited for a while, and seeing that he was still talking, he irritatedly

I honked the horn a few times, and the horn made a piercing sound.Zhou Xiaofeng walked over quickly, with displeasure fluttering on his face, His face turned black. "What happened to you today?" After Zhou Xiaofeng got into the car, Ma Min asked him, "What's so boring about this kind of woman? If you don't agree, just leave, and if you don't It's about love. " "I still like that young lady," Zhou Xiaofeng said. "Excellent figure, and also very good at talking." "For such a woman, don't talk about liking." Ma Min drove the car onto the road, "I'm putting them out of love."

As a human being, no matter from which angle you look at them, they are not worthy of your liking. " "Why do you have such thoughts?" "You instilled this idea in me." Ma Min said, "You think one day at a time, and you were poisoned by Schopenhauer. Go too deep.If the trickster Schopenhauer died in Changsha, I would send two migrant workers to dig his grave. " "You are not qualified to say Schopenhauer, you haven't even read a single book by him." "I only like Chairman Mao." Ma Min said, driving the car into the fast lane, "Chairman Mao said: 'I don't want to sacrifice so much

Great ambition, dare to change the sun and the moon into a new sky. 'Is that so bold?As for Schopenhauer, I still have to think about being my son. " Zhou Xiaofeng smiled disdainfully, and cast his eyes on the dark road.There are few vehicles and pedestrians on the street Now, only the street lights flickering on the dark road.After Ma Min sent Zhou Xiaofeng home, he drove his car towards home. go.The wife hadn't fallen asleep yet. Seeing him coming in, she sat up from the bed and said, "Why did you come back?" "Going to work with Zhou Xiaofeng," Ma Min said lazily, "You sleep."

After washing his face and feet, Ma Min sat in the living room and lit a cigarette for a few puffs. Feeling irritable, he extinguished the cigarette butt. Sighing, he walked into the bedroom.Under the dim electric light (the small light bulb specially installed by the daughter who is afraid of the dark when she sleeps), the wife opened her eyes. He stared blankly at him with two gray eyes--the world in those eyes was strange and bleak; On the sky blue pillow, a haggard face faced him. "You haven't fallen asleep yet?" he said. "Have you taken your medicine at night?"

"have eaten." "I should be able to fall asleep after eating, why can't I fall asleep again, what are you thinking?" "I didn't think about anything." His wife looked at him with two yellow eyes. The wife's eyes were very big, the kind of big eyes Women, when you stare blankly, your eyes look too big to make you uncomfortable.The wife stared at him blankly, wanting to ask his permission He looked like, "I won't take the medicine, okay? My legs have been numb these days, and even after taking the medicine, my head is still numb." "That won't work." Ma Min got up and lit the cigarette ash, "The doctor said that it will take at least two years, and you only take it for one year now.

Years, until this time next year.Last time you ate it for more than half a year and didn't eat it, but didn't you post it again?you again Your ability to work will be further reduced.I would rather have you take medicine, and I would rather have your head be numb.you are only Thirty-three years old, you still have a long way to go in life, if you don't take good care of your illness, you will be the one who suffers, you know? " His wife's pupils are yellow and loose. "I just hope you get better soon, your health is what I'm most worried about." Ma Min looked at her, "Sleep well." The wife closed those big eyes, but the upper eyelids trembled slightly in disobedience to the eyeballs. Ma Min's wife was no longer a normal person three years ago, her mind and spirit became a person from another world. That world is the world of the psychopath.Ma Min has a sense of guilt in front of his wife, and always feels that his wife is unhappy, His wife was attacked from all sides in the factory, such as not giving her a raise, etc., all of which were related to his betrayal by deceitful means. About the military factory.Six years ago, when someone in the factory saw that he took personal leave to do renovations outside and enriched the family, I no longer agreed with him to ask for sick leave, and severely criticized the matter at the general meeting, but did not mention his name, but Everyone knows that this is Ma Min.Ma Min knew that taking sick leave was not enough, so he proposed to stay without pay, but as a soldier The director of the branch factory, but he disagreed with him leaving his job without pay and going outside to make a fortune.The branch manager raised his head and looked at him unwillingly. The filing cabinet in the corner, "If you want to transfer out, if you want to resign." "Why can workers in other factories stay without pay, but I can't?" Ma Min glanced at the factory manager angrily. "We are a military factory, and we have iron discipline." The factory manager put on a majestic face and said, "We don't engage in This set.Which employee in our branch factory doesn't behave well at work?I don't engage in suspension without pay. " "I just want to stay without pay," Ma Min yelled at him angrily. "I just don't agree with you staying without pay, unless I'm not the director of the factory!" Ma Min knew in his heart that it would be difficult for him to convince the factory director who had been a company commander.Ma Min knew that he was in the Korean War On the field, he won a medal from the government for fighting the enemy hard. Ma Min also knew that he was a frighteningly stubborn character. The sure thing is that three cows will not turn back when they go to pull them.But Ma Min was unwilling to give up the fortune that was attracting him at that time. 100,000 yuan in decoration business, and after doing this business, he can earn at least 70,000 yuan, so he resolutely left the factory. However, his move is in a sense a betrayal of the "revolution". In the eyes of veteran soldiers who are nailed and riveted Obeying the rules and regulations is the revolution. If he leaves the collective, he is tantamount to a traitor to the revolution.The shadow he left naturally looms His wife caused her to be ostracized from all aspects in the factory. The factory optimized the combination, because the wife only knew how to stretch and translate. He has nothing else to do, so of course he was excluded from the door of optimizing the combination, waiting for redistribution in the factory, and finally waiting During the waiting period, he became depressed and became ill, and accidentally became a mentally ill patient.Ma Min once thought that if his wife was the secretary of the Communist Youth League Remember to get married, maybe you won't suffer from mental illness. The secretary of the Youth League Committee has now become the deputy director of the general affairs of Huaguang Electronics Factory. And the wife of the young and promising deputy factory manager will naturally not be excluded from the door of optimizing the combination and waiting for orders.Ma Min also thinks If I were in the factory, my wife would not be like this.During the first two years when he was assigned to Huaguang Electronics Factory, he once Ball, the head of the factory and the head of the trade union all have a good impression of him. If he insists on working in the factory, maybe he will too. There are middle-level cadres in the factory, because Huaguang Electronics Factory promoted a layer of college students to middle-level leadership positions in 1986.if He mentioned middle-level cadres, and his wife would not be unscrupulously pushed by the fifth branch factory to the main factory for rearrangement. Ma Min's wife was recruited to the provincial gymnastics team at the age of eleven because of her weak waist and weak bones. It was 1972, when Shanshan Still in the fourth grade of primary school.At that time, it was really enviable!But Shanshan did not achieve any results in the provincial gymnastics team Come on, maybe it's bad luck, maybe it's something else, anyway, in her gymnastics career, she didn't even get a medal took.Although she practiced diligently in the beautiful melody every day, and some gymnastics moves were extremely beautiful and fascinating. She is a human, but as soon as she arrives in the arena, she is nervous, trembling, and her legs are even weak. She is afraid that she will fail and end up It always fails.As she got older, after the coach was completely disappointed with her, she ate a few meals in the provincial gymnastics team. In 1999, he did some cleaning work, and then he was arranged to work in this factory.After Ma Min fell in love with her for a month, he immediately I found her to be a very low self-esteem girl.Her superficial aloofness is just a piece of paper, but in fact she is as weak as a ball cotton.She felt that she had read too few books and hadn't even graduated from elementary school. This was where her inferiority complex lay.this inferiority complex Like an eagle's talons catching a chicken, it has been holding her tightly, so that she can't let go of her hands and feet when she does anything. She thinks that she can't do well on her own, so that she thinks that anyone who comes into contact with her casually thinks that she looks down on her and thinks she has no culture.horse Min deeply sympathized with her and encouraged her to read and study.On the contrary, Ma Min loved her even more, and told her that she was still young and could try to remedy. "You should be more active, Shanshan." When Ma Min found out that she was always alone at home and kept silent, he warned her Say, "I find you are so lonely, always alone. You will get sick sooner or later if you are alone in the house." The wife said: "I can't get in their mouths, and I can't talk to them." "The world is full of things, and you can talk about anything, such as clothes and fashion." But the wife doesn't want to talk to anyone, she would rather stay at home.When optimizing the combination in the factory, she was abandoned by her colleagues After the door, she became depressed.She didn't want to greet anyone, not even Ma Min. talk.She always waved to Ma Min and said, "I don't want to talk." She is an introverted woman, she doesn't cry, she doesn't She didn't even know how to quarrel.She kept all the pain well locked in her heart and didn't want to show it to others. She silently watched her husband busy. She didn't show the happiness she should have for the sum of money Ma Min earned, but felt even more excited. Useless by yourself.When Ma Min found out that she was thinking strangely and said some strange things that surprised him, Ma Min's whole body shuddered. up. "What's wrong with you?" Ma Min looked at her desperately, "What's wrong with you?" "I'm fine, what's wrong with me?" His wife looked at him incomprehensibly, staring at those two big eyes very Scattered eyes, face also lost that beautiful luster. "You said you don't want to watch TV because the people on the TV are talking about you." Ma Min said anxiously, "The TV The people in it are acting in a TV series, what does it have to do with you?No wonder you don't even want to watch TV. " "I just feel like people on TV are talking about me," she said with a very forlorn look. "You are going to see a doctor. I suspect that you are as mentally ill as your uncle." Ma Min stared at her sadly. His wife's uncle suffered from mental illness more than 20 years ago, that is, during the Cultural Revolution. At that time, her uncle My uncle was a royalist in a factory. He was arrested by the rebels and imprisoned for a month. After he came out, he became a mentally ill patient. When Ma Min was in love with his wife, his wife's mother told Ma Min that her uncle had been beaten into a mental disorder by the rebels. Take this matter to heart, anyway, this uncle has nothing to do with them.But thinking about it now, Ma Min deeply feels that it has something to do with it. Yes, the members of their family cannot withstand blows, and they may lose their nerves if they are hit.Their ancestors must have had this aspect medical history, otherwise they would not turn into psychopaths one after another.During the Cultural Revolution, thousands of people were punished Millions, but those who become mentally ill are only a few of the few. Ma Min's own father was labeled as a "rightist" in 1957, and was ordered to go to Beijing by the rebels during the Cultural Revolution. Digging an air-raid shelter, living like a mouse, but not becoming a mental patient. "You have to cheer up and stop thinking wildly." Ma Min said with chills, "You are only thirty years old, you Do you know?If you continue like this, your life will never end. " The wife said vigilantly: "You don't care about me, you go away. I live alone, I don't need anything." "You have to go to the hospital. It doesn't matter if you are sick, as long as you treat it in time." Ma Min looked at her deeply, "You Believe me, or your life will be completely over.do you know?You are only thirty years old, and you still have time to put yourself Get adjusted.You have to look at me! Your husband has the ability to make you live well, and it should make sense for you to think so. " This was a conversation three years ago. Ma Min always thought that with his natural ability to make money, his wife would be able to regain her mental health. Break free from the world of the sick.Ma Min used a motorcycle (he hadn't bought this Santana at that time) to take her to see a doctor, and the governor He urged her to take medicine, thinking that his love could save her from the abyss.But once this disease suffers, it is not so easily recoverable.Ma Min felt that there was a devil in her mind. Since this devil got in, he would not escape easily. Running.The doctor said to Ma Min: "This disease is even a lifetime thing. You are her husband, so you must be prepared for it." prepare. " "Has there ever been a cured case?" "I still need to take medicine after being cured, but the dose is reduced. Besides, the ability to work will also be relatively reduced. I think It is very difficult to fully recover from before the illness.You have to be prepared for this. "The doctor said earnestly. Ma Min had this kind of mental preparation, but he thought that everything would be fine after hard work, but after three years of struggle, he knew That's how it is.He regrets it now, why did he marry her in the first place, and now he deeply feels that he is not with the same living with a normal person, but with a woman who has become numb because she must take sulpiride every day, Ma Min really wanted to get rid of her, to find a normal life and a normal woman's love.Ma Min glanced at his wife on the bed, There was an unexplainable sadness in my heart.