Chapter 46 quarrel

Once some words are put into practical use, there will be strange changes: their antonyms will grow and multiply within themselves, emerge and overflow, and finally destroy themselves and complete their own negation.In this sense, these words are their own potential antonyms from the beginning, but it is not easy for people to perceive them. They have their own backs that are hard to see. For example, the hidden meaning of "reveal" is actually concealment.The revelation of sex in a erotic film may make the audience terrified and stunned at the beginning.After this type of film is commonplace for the audience, and after it is revealed as a car-loaded volume and surging repetitions, things will no longer have other results, but it can only make the audience numb step by step, turning a blind eye, indifferent, and facing the infinite beauty. Yawn again and again.Sexual overstimulation eventually leads to exhaustion or even complete disappearance of sexual sensation.

The implicit meaning of "praise" is slander.Disparagement of a person is likely to lead to more sympathy for that person.The slander of a film is likely to make the audience lower their expectations before watching it, but they will get an unexpected favor when watching it.Therefore, a person with enough life experience will not fail to understand the principle that good and bad are complementary, and will not fail to realize the horror of "praising and killing" as Mr. Lu Xun said.Praise can add excessive glory and praise to an opponent, arouse the envy of others, attract deliberate criticism that the public may not necessarily have, and greatly increase the possibility of general complaints.Praise can also make an opponent hot-headed, arrogant and lazy, making a big mistake himself in the later days, and falling into disrepute without waiting for others to blame.The best way to treat enemies is more often to praise than to slander.

What about "love"?So what about Yanzao's love for his grandmother?Is there also a shadow behind the meaning of the word?After the emotion of love has flowed through, is there something surprising that settles down? Yanzao's grandmother was a very eccentric person.I have to sleep during the day, but at night I have to climb out of bed, chop firewood, make tea, and sometimes sing songs.Yanzao helped her to the latrine, but she didn't want to let go. As soon as Yanzao helped her to bed, she stinks of excrement and urine.She yelled for sour garlic, Yanzao finally borrowed it, and she yelled for crispy rice, and pulled the sour garlic out of the bowl, all over the floor.When she finished eating the crispy rice, she declared that she hadn't eaten anything, and she was so hungry that she was on her back, cursing Yanzao for starving her to death, and cursing Yanzao for being an unfaithful and unfilial person.For several years, Yan Zao had looked after this old man in such a helpless way, an old man who raised the two brothers.

Yan Zao screamed, feeling a special kind of distress for her grandmother.Whenever he saw her go on a hunger strike or something, he would turn around in a hurry, and the veins on his forehead would burst out.Open a row of teeth, so that everyone in the village can hear it.A small dining table in his house has been refurbished several times, and it is said that he slapped it down every time when he was very anxious.Of course I understand that howling and slapping the table like this is out of his distress.Unfortunately, I understand that too.This kind of distress is making grandma more and more accustomed to his distress, and she is used to it as cheap, and finally reaches the point where she neither cherishes nor notices it.She often rolls her eyes and mutters, thinking about Yanzao's younger brother Yanwu.Obviously Yanzao made the cotton shoes for her, but she insisted that Yanwu made them for her.It was obvious that Yanzao went to the health center to see a doctor behind her back, but afterwards she insisted that it was Yanwu who went behind her back.No one can correct these strange memories of hers.

Yan Wu studied at a distance, studied as a painter or Chinese medicine outside, and never took care of her at home, even when she was seriously ill and hospitalized, she never went to the hospital.But once in a while when he goes home, the old man will drag him to blame Yanzao, sometimes with a smile all over his face, he will take out a glutinous rice cake that has been warmed in his pocket for several days, or two shriveled grapefruits , secretly stuffed it to him. What Yanwu is best at is guidance and criticism, for example, he is very dissatisfied with his brother's screaming, "She is an old, old and young, you can only treat her like a baby, why are you angry with her?"

Yanzao looked justified, and kept silent. "When she wants to make trouble, you let her make trouble. She is full of energy and Yang Qi, making trouble can release energy and restore physiological balance, so she may sleep peacefully at night." He is a man of knowledge, and it is not easy to understand when he talks about it later. Yanzao remained silent. "I know she tortures people. There is no way. No matter how much trouble is caused, no matter how much you torture people, there is nothing you can do. She is always human, right? Even if she is a dog, you can't kill her casually, right? How can you beat me?"

He was referring to the fact that Yan had slapped Grandmother's hand hard not long ago - that hand picked up chicken feces and stuffed it into her own mouth.Afterwards, Yanzao didn't understand why he was so irritable at that time, why his hands were so heavy, and the old man's hands were swollen with two strokes, and a layer of skin peeled off in vain after a few days.People say that Yanzao has dealt too much with pesticides, and his body is full of poison. Anyone who hit him will burn off a layer of skin. "Her quilt is about to be washed, and she feels irritable. Do you hear that?" The scholar left after speaking.Every time he came back, he had a meal, wiped his mouth, made some arrangements and left.Of course, he kept as little money as he could.he has money.

I can't say that Yanwu's reprimand and money are not a kind of benevolence, even if it is an outside and after-the-fact reaction, benevolence is still benevolence.But the premise of this kindness is precisely because he seldom lived at home and was rarely tortured by his grandmother.I can't say that Yanzao's use of force is not a kind of indifference, even in the face of an unreasonable masochist, indifference is still indifference.This indifference comes from his despair after all methods fail, from his failed love.Here, love and hate have switched positions, just like the black filters out the white in the imaging process of a negative, and the white filters out the black.In front of this old Gu woman in Maqiao, human kindness filtered out indifference, and human indifference filtered out benevolence.

Maqiao people have a special word: "yuantou", which is a bit like "resentment", which contains two meanings of love and hate.Enemy is often in such a situation.The other party has no loveliness, so habitual love is no longer emotion, but a kind of rational perseverance and suffering.One can imagine that after a love is exhausted, burnt out, drained, squandered and trampled by the other party, only the wreckage and dregs of love are left, full of bitterness, full of day after day. torture.This is "injustice".Lovers can be rewarded. After giving love, they can at least leave some kind of moving memories for themselves.But the wronged person has nothing in return, can't leave anything, and keeps giving until he has nothing and loses everything, including losing all the meaning and characteristics of love step by step.At this time, in the face of moral public opinion, the injustice loses the right to have a clear conscience.

Yan has long been his grandmother's enemy. Grandmother eventually died.During the burial, Yan Wu rushed back and cried the most. He knelt in front of the coffin, and no one else could pull it up.From his crystal tears, anyone can see the truth of his grief.Yanzao is numb, he will do what others ask him to do, his eyes are very empty.Maybe he has been too busy these days to wash the old man's body, change his shroud, and buy a coffin, and there is no more tears. Because of the class status of Yanzao's family, there were not many people who came to mourn the old Gu Po, and no one was invited to sing filial songs.The funeral was extremely quiet.A few descendants came from Grandmother's natal family, and they couldn't help venting their resentment towards Yanzao, saying that Yanwu was still a little filial, his eyes were red from crying, and he was willing to kneel down, only that guy Yanzao was unseemly. It's not very good for the old man. They quarreled twice in three days, and there is no explanation until now, and the eye sockets are not very wet.Do you feel sad when a dog dies?This unconscionable product will not be under the radar in the future?

Regarding these gossips, Yanzao remained silent.