Chapter 33 exude

When people told me the story of Dai Shiqing, they used one word: "distributed".They said that the old man of Tiexiang gave away without begging for food. Evidently, exhalation means death. This is one of my favorite words in Maqiao Dictionary.In comparison, death, dying, finished, old, gone, seeing Hades, braids, legs kicked, eyes closed, breathless, everything is over, etc., as synonyms for "scattered", all seem simple and superficial , is far less accurate, vivid, and delicate than "distributing" to reveal a process.Life is over, that is, the various elements that aggregated into this life disintegrate and collapse.For example, flesh and blood turns into soil and running water, and transpires into air and clouds.Or be bitten by insects and become their autumn song; absorbed by the root system, it becomes green grass and colorful petals in the sun, until it becomes huge and vast and invisible.When we gaze at the wild land where everything is alive, we touch all kinds of subtle sounds and all kinds of rare smells, float in the slightly cool and moist golden air at dusk, and linger under an old maple tree.We know that there is life here, the lives of countless people who came before us—we just don't know their names.

From the moment their pulse stopped, their names and their stories collapsed into fragments of people's memories and legends. After a few years, they will finally be completely annihilated in the sea of ​​people, and it will never be possible to recover. . The four seasons can cycle, and the hands of clocks and watches have been circulating. Only the emission of all objects is an irreversible straight line, showing the absoluteness of time.According to the second law of thermodynamics, this is an incremental process, that is, an orderly organization slowly dissipates into a state of disorder, uniformity, mutuality, and coldness—in that state, bones and grave mud are no longer available. There is no difference between Dai Shiqing's feet and teeth.The opposite of emanation is of course convergence and aggregation.Convergence is the essence of existence, the essence of life.Essence and blood become people, clouds and mists become rain, sand and sand become stones, words become thoughts, days become history, and people become families, parties, or empires.Once the cohesion weakens, it is the beginning of death.Sometimes the more expansive and exuberant a thing is, the more difficult it is for inner cohesion to go beyond the support limit of life force.From this point of view, we can also understand that Maqiao people's "dissipation" not only refers to the death of a person, but later, it can also be used to indicate any kind of bad situation, especially the hidden prosperity and decline.

Many years later, when I listened to their evaluation of TV, I heard an old man say in horror: "Watching TV every day, watching TV will make you feel bigger, and you won't let it go?" This is nothing but worrying that people get more and more from TV. Knowledge, people are stimulated by television more and more desires, why aggregate?Can't gather, isn't it finished? I can't comment on whether their fear of television is justified.I just realized that the "distribution" they said has a much expanded connotation than it did more than 20 years ago.I also feel that they hold a kind of stubborn vigilance of Maqiao people to any scattered state, such as the state of people's enthusiasm in front of the colorful TV, and the state of integration with the larger world.