Chapter 24 I don't want to admit being a victim

In 1967, a 32-year-old male worker of a tram company in T City I was one of the first to rise up to rebel--"Tram Red Flag" had three thousand soldiers--The famous "609 Massacre" all over the country--Jiang Qing made a fuss, and the U.S. Federation planned to party--Sentenced to life imprisonment for no reason- - We walked out of the prison on our own two legs - even if you call Chairman Mao, he can't tell. When I write to you, I want to chop you with a brick to see if you dare to write me. In the past ten years, there have been many works written about the "Cultural Revolution". For some reason, they always have a "fake" air and are not convincing.As soon as the rebels appeared, a gang of thugs, big and small, brutal and inhumane, put on their faces, making us scumbags laugh and sneer. We are like pork that has been inspected, stamped on the buttocks, and put on the chopping board. Who wants to eat it? Just cut a piece.

Why did I rebel?Of course it happened for a reason. I was born in 1935, and I have eight generations to go, so there is no problem with my family background.When he was fourteen years old, his family was so poor that he couldn't get rid of the pot. He didn't finish his studies and went to work as a small worker in a sewing club. During the "Three and Five Antis", we stood on the side of the party and limited the capitalists to brutal struggles.The capitalist was sluggish, and when the "three-five anti" was over, he said that the business would go bankrupt at a loss, and he kicked me out, and the business continued. I was unemployed, so I went to the tram company to sell tickets, one hundred and twenty-nine a month Jin millet, pretty good.At that time, it was not difficult to get into the tram company. Those who drove the car could lift a block, and those who sold tickets could do addition and subtraction. The old workers in the factory were uneducated. .The organization focuses on training, I can write, and become a special correspondent of the "Worker's Daily".When I saw the two sentences printed on the manuscript paper issued by the newspaper, "reflect the voice of the masses, and be a good mouthpiece for the workers", it made me get angry.At that time, the workers were very miserable, and the leaders had a lot of heads, and they did nothing immoral. I exposed it and spoke for the workers.I thought I was loyal to the party, but who knew that this was called "whatever pot is not opened, which pot to lift", and became a thorn in the tram company. They wanted to get rid of us a long time ago, and I felt pretty good about myself.

After the rectification movement in 1957, big-character posters spread everywhere.Daewoo News reported that whoever was stealing things and messing with women made a mess, I thought to myself, isn’t it helping the party to rectify the movement?Why bother with such nonsense, just write a big-character poster saying, "Blowing up is blowing up, don't forget the six principles the chairman said."Unexpectedly, the disaster was brought to him all of a sudden.Said that I shot back at the party, said that because of my big-character poster, how many counter-revolutionaries were not exposed, and they held meetings to fight against me every day.There are no rightists among the workers, so I will be sent to re-education through labor with a suspended sentence of two years and stay in the factory for probation.That's why they took it down.I couldn't figure it out at the time. Later, when the "Cultural Revolution" came to prison, a cadre from the Ministry of Finance and Trade said to me: "The rectification is on the outside. It is called leading snakes out of their holes inside. Didn't your big-character poster wall up all the snake holes? I don’t want to punish you.” I didn’t understand until it was too late.

Since then, we have learned to be good.I thought, stop, get on with your work, and don't cause trouble for your parents. When the "Cultural Revolution" came, it became even more fierce.The Red Guards were overwhelmed, and I saw with my own eyes beating people to death on the Five Avenues.There was a big political discussion among the workers. With my previous experience, I thought to myself that with such a big movement and such fierce momentum, I might hit the front of a car.Let's put a seal on our mouths and don't say anything.However, speaking must be made at the discussion meeting. The Cultural Revolution touched everyone's soul, and if you don't speak, you refuse to touch it.I'm the last one to speak, so what?Let's just recite the "Sixteen Points", what about "the focus of this campaign is to rectify those in power within the party who are taking the capitalist road", we don't have our own words, so we just recite it from the book, is it all your words?

Well, it doesn't work either.The next day, Daewoo newspapers filled the yard, saying that I had attacked the party again, and locked me in the cowshed.It's over, life and death are the same price.The Red Guards outside have nothing to do with it, the end of the world is here, and they are waiting to die. This set was all done by the government-run "Cultural Revolution" team in the factory.But not long after, the situation changed suddenly, saying that the "Cultural Revolution" groups in each unit were not implementing Chairman Mao's revolutionary line, but the bourgeois reactionary line. a large piece.Chairman Mao issued the "Latest Instructions" saying: "There are thousands of lines on the road of Marxism, but in the final analysis, there is one sentence: rebellion is justified." Suddenly, all units rose up to create a government-run "Cultural Revolution" and rebellion against those in power.In fact, the "Cultural Revolution" wanted to bring Liu Shaoqi down, but the party cadres at all levels were all on Liu Shaoqi's line. If these cadres were not overthrown, Liu Shaoqi would not be able to be down, so the masses rebelled.At that time, we didn't understand the mess of the upper class. When we thought about it, yes, the masses were indeed oppressed!Go against it!I wrote seventeen big-character posters in one go, and told me exactly what happened to me, asking where was my crime?I was one of the first rebels in the factory. At that time, the factory's "Cultural Revolution" team had not yet collapsed, so the picket team was asked to arrest me.Someone ran out and called the university's Red Guards to rescue me. This shock caused the factory's "Cultural Revolution" to collapse. I thought, let's do it!I was cornered and could no longer be manipulated.Rebellion is justified, we are justified!

Here, we also talk about those literary and artistic works that write about the "Cultural Revolution" now. When they write about the rebels, they are the "Cultural Revolution" thugs. I wonder if these writers were breastfeeding in their mother's arms at that time? When the "Cultural Revolution" began, the people who ransacked homes and beat people were all responsible for the "Cultural Revolution" of various units.The first rebels were oppressed people.Otherwise, where did such a big backlash come from? At the beginning of the "Cultural Revolution" there was no word "rebellion".Rebellion refers to a counter-revolution that turned the world upside down. "Rebellion" started from Chairman Mao.Do you still remember the photo of Chairman Mao?Wearing a big red armband with the word "Rebellion" written on it.At the beginning, when the Red Guards were in trouble, Chairman Mao received millions of Red Guards in Tiananmen Square, and he wore the "Red Guards" red armband on his arm.When Chairman Mao put on the "rebellion" armband, it was the anti-"capitalist" line.Only when the workers rise up and attack the society, is this the process?We have to respect history!

Chairman Mao is the Red Commander. Where does Chairman Mao point to and where should we fight? Without him directing our grassroots people to dare to rebel?We were really a red heart at that time, and we really risked our lives. We posted big-character posters on the streets every night, and no one gave bonuses or night shift fees.Death also follows Chairman Mao! But those of us who were under pressure came together, and when those who punished people changed, they also formed rebel organizations, and antagonism came out, forming two factions that vowed to be incompatible.Everyone said they were defending Chairman Mao's revolutionary line, and everyone scolded the other party for holding the red flag to oppose the red flag. In the future, all kinds of people will get involved, and the fighting will become more chaotic.If you write about the "Cultural Revolution", if it doesn't reflect the historical process truthfully, then it's not true, who will accept it?

I was one of the four major organizations that rebelled the first time in the city.It was named "Tram Red Flag".I have 3,000 people under my command.When the workers came together, the children of the Red Guards were much worse off.Society is watching us.At that time, the rebel organization spoke out for those who were oppressed in the early days of the "Cultural Revolution" and opposed the "capitalist rebellion" line, which won the hearts of the people.Royalists are not popular, but everyone is afraid that once their own faction is overwhelmed, they must overwhelm the opposite side, and this will become more and more fierce and comprehensive.When you work together, your heart will not be so pure.To be honest, I was also scared at the time, things were getting worse and worse, and I knew that I would have to settle accounts later; there was a mess in front of me, I couldn't see the clues, and I always felt that there was an irresistible force pushing me to my death.I'm like riding a tiger, and it's even worse to retreat. You have to be brave and do it, and you have to have strength. If you have strength, no one will dare to touch you.Not only me, but also the rebel organizations in the society all have this mentality. Each of the various forces, each tree on its own hilltop, soon formed a large horizontally integrated organization regardless of industry system.

I have a best friend who doesn't share snacks and drinks, so I said to him: "In the future, we will each go our own way, part ways, and you will walk with me again, and eat melon and cheese sooner or later." In this way, life and death are the same. I am alone, and I take care of everything in Yu Cheng by myself.But I have to step by step, keep my feet on the ground, and do things steadily.There was an "Industrial and Mining Rebel Headquarters" who had the same views as us, and I was exactly the same. They had a lot of people, so they got rid of them, and sent people to the major rebel organizations to find out and organize the teams. A total of fifty-two organizations were established. Anti-restoration liaison station".Strong strength, one of the best in the city.I sit in the headquarters, turning day and night.Today there is a fight here, and reinforcements are dispatched; tomorrow there is an accident there, and you come forward to deal with it.They have to send people to squat in Beijing to get information and get the latest speeches of the "head of the central government".We can't do it blindfolded, or we won't know how to die.

After the "January Storm" in Shanghai, there was a climax of power grabs in various places.The central government sent a big person to set up a "city preparatory leading group for seizing power", planning to set up a revolutionary committee after seizing power and establish a red political power.The first time this big man convened a meeting of various mass organizations, he called us "Tram Red Flag" and opened up rectification with the other two university Red Guard organizations.This means throwing us out of the red regime.Throw it out and wait for it to be fixed.I said: "You just came here, you can cut off our hills, no way!" Another leader of the rebel organization with the same view said: "If you do this, tomorrow we will paste the whole city into a big wastebasket!" He slapped the table and said: "Whoever leaks today's meeting will bear the consequences!" This meeting broke up unhappy.

When we thought about it, the Revolutionary Committee would be finished without us, so turn against him!The next day, he posted big letters against him, and organized all organizations with the same viewpoint to set up a "Great Joint Preparatory Committee" (hereinafter referred to as "Great Joint Fund"), head-to-head.That big man originally planned to complete the seizure of power in three months and set up a revolutionary committee, but we had to tell him not to set up one.The preparatory group for seizing power used the army to support their favored faction, while our faction was an opposition faction, a bunch of grassroots, and the pressure was quite heavy.We thought about it, when the pressure was the greatest, we took the big river in the middle of the city as the boundary, pulled the team across the river, and fought one south and one north.Wasn't it a legend at that time that Chairman Mao was ready, and if it didn't work, he would go back to Gangshan to fight guerrillas?The big struggle between the two factions began, and a series of big fights happened.The climax was the well-known "June 09" incident throughout the country. 609 is a military factory, and the rebel organization in power in the factory is the opposite of us.The cause of the incident was that a literary and art propaganda team organized by the Red Guards of the Engineering College in our "Dalianchou" passed by the gate of the No. 609 Factory, shouted slogans, scolded each other, and made them all arrest them.The preparatory organization of the United Nations was trusted and sent teams to snatch people one after another.No one was snatched out, and the leader of the rebel organization in the rolling stock factory was also detained.I arrived at the scene the next day. When I saw it, there was a huge crowd, and Factory 609 was already surrounded by us.Our temporary combat command has also been mobilized. The Minister of Operations, Minister of Logistics, Minister of Propaganda, Minister of Liaison, etc. have all arranged officials.I said that the No. 609 Factory is a military factory, and if we hit it, it will attack the military factory. This is a trap tied to the opposite side, and we cannot drill into the trap.I decided on a few things: First, the bridgeheads leading from the suburbs to the urban area should be controlled, and peasant rebel organizations should not be allowed to enter the city to expand the situation.Second, only surround, not fight.Third, maintain the manpower advantage.At this time, 609 had transferred people from the outside to the inside, and counted how many people they transferred.One count, drive in five cars, two hundred, okay, let's call four hundred people around it!They transfer 800 people, okay, let's transfer 2,000 people, and surround it again!Outside the wall behind 609 is the Jinpu Line. They wanted to reinforce people from the railway line, so we blocked the railway line, controlled the situation, and forced them to release people! In the evening, something happened to one of our rebel teams in Dagang.Heideng couldn't see clearly, mistook one of his own for the other party, and stabbed one of them to death.But when the people in Dagang reported to the headquarters, they lied, saying that one of our soldiers was stabbed to death by the opposite side.Immediately, the crowd was excited, and thousands of people shouted to pay back the blood debts of the dead comrades. The fighting was uncontrollable, and the two sides exchanged fire. The bulldozers also came up.The atmosphere in 609 was quite fierce. There is a milling factory next to the 609th factory, which is also their stronghold.That night, the headquarters decided to feign an attack on 609 and actually attack the milling factory, and first pull out the stronghold of the milling factory.But as soon as our people left, all of their people ran away, and we turned around and attacked 609. Ever since Jiang Qing said "Cultural attack and military defense", armed combat has been legalized, escalated step by step, and turned into a real war.At the side door of 609, the other party made two bulldozers clear the way in front, and people rushed out from behind. People get rotten from the sulfuric acid, and their eyes are red.We thought of a strategy. When their cars came, our people withdrew to both sides, let the cars pass, hit the people behind, and isolated the bulldozers.They fell for the trick, and the bulldozer quickly backed up as soon as it fell into isolation, but they picked up the wrong gear and couldn't go back in circles.Our people jumped on it.Because I hated the person in the car who was stepping on sulfuric acid so much, I stabbed a rock in the car and hacked the person to death. Afterwards, I found out that there were more than 270 injuries on this person.I saw a driver in the car from a distance, and I knew something was wrong, so I rushed up to pick up the driver and rescued him.At this time, my left foot was stabbed with a broken sulfuric acid bottle, and I was wounded, so I took the man away with my hands.If I didn't take him away, he would be dead, and he would have to be beaten to pieces. The city's preparatory leadership team for seizing power sent people to the scene, but failed to solve the problem.Chen Boda called and ordered us to evacuate.The central government notified the two factions to send 25 people to Beijing urgently.We had planned to go to twenty-three in the Universiade, but we only went to five.why?Everyone is afraid, not knowing what the higher-ups think, good or bad is unpredictable.At that time, no matter what faction they were, they were all fighting against the central government, and they were all afraid of the central government. I don't know how they changed.When they arrived in Beijing, Jiang Qing, Chen Boda, Kang Sheng, Yao Wenyuan, Qi Benyu, Xie Fuzhi and others came out to meet him.We listened carefully, and it turned out that the two factions were to be invited to negotiate an "agreement on the cessation of armed fighting" in Beijing.When we came back to talk about it, there was a commotion in the organization, and everyone was vying to go.Some organizations say that you cannot represent us, you must have democratic elections.Twenty-five people were re-elected that day, including workers, cadres, and teachers, including me.Why are you all fighting over it?We are in the opposition faction, and we are all afraid of being left outside after the big coalition, losing our sense of security, and going to the central government to negotiate will be regarded as the number one.It's normal to hang the number seven. At the beginning of the negotiation, they bit each other for a word.This statement was made by the other party, and it was called "Don't take the gun, don't shoot", I have to reverse it and change it to "Don't shoot, don't take the gun".I said, "There are troops poking behind you, with guns. We have no guns in the field. How can we open it? These words are obviously suppressing us, as if we really want to grab guns. If you open, we will open it, unless you don't open." My words were strong enough, and they had no words to answer me. The deputy leader of the city's preparatory leadership team for seizing power was also tough, but he was unreasonable. He said, "That's it--don't grab guns, don't shoot." I said: "You are like this, okay, brothers, stand up and go!" At that time, the people on our side stood up and left, leaving Beijing and returning.This time, even if he has tied up with this big shot, he will become the director of the listing reform committee in the future. To be honest, don't look at me arrogantly, I am quite guilty.He's an official, we're just common people, we're just ordinary people, what do we count in their eyes?A piece of grass, if it says to step on you, it will step on you.We only have a little bit of strength for a while, and we can be considered cowardly if we hold on to it, but we will collapse immediately if we don't hold on.Of course, the top is only for a while, which is called unlucky and sooner or later.It's not that I don't know in my heart, I don't beat the drums. After this negotiation, the Great United Taiwan became a reality.Chairman Mao also gave instructions: "Very well, follow through." We sent many people into the Workers' Representative Conference, and some into the Municipal Revolutionary Committee.I became a member of the Standing Committee.Some people scolded me for climbing to the top and becoming an official, and even used porcelain as an example, saying that my private kiln has been changed to official kiln.We are not addicted to being an official, we just want to keep ourselves.If you want to be at the bottom of society, the lower you go, the safer you go; if you go to the upper class, the higher you go, the safer you go, that's the reason.The brothers finally lost their faces, thinking that it will be a "parliamentary struggle" in the future.The overall situation is stable, which is much stronger than expected. What are the characteristics of the "Cultural Revolution"?It always makes you think that what was then is what will always be.If you really think so, you are wrong!Silly boy, the "Cultural Revolution" just kept going back and forth, you go up and down, you die and you live, you like me and I don't.This is where my tragedy begins. On February 21st, I suddenly received a notice to go to a meeting urgently.Where to open, what will be, do not tell.Go to the cadre club and get on the car together, hang curtains on the windows, and ask everyone not to say hello to acquaintances on the road.Looking at the carloads of people, almost all the leaders of the revolutionary committees at all levels in the city have moved here, thinking that this is not a small matter.The car drove all the way to Beijing, arrived in Beijing, did not stop, went to Changping, then turned around and returned to Beijing, and entered the Bayi Children's School.As soon as the meeting was held, all members of the Central Cultural Revolution came, and the Prime Minister also attended, but when Jiang Qing shouted, the Prime Minister left and never came back.Jiang Qing yelled: "I have evidence. Some of you held a black meeting." This is the famous "Two. One Speech", also known as "Two Black Incident".It is said that someone held a black meeting on literature and art in our city to seize the Central Cultural Revolution—actually it was Jiang Qing's leadership of literature and art.This matter involves the rebel organization in the literary and art circles under our Dalianchou. We don't know what kind of meeting it is, whether it will be held or not, so we announced to Jiang Qing: "Dalianchou is an organization with serious mistakes." Chen Boda followed They also rejected us and charged us with the crime of "reactionary organization".The United Nations is planning to go to hell. On the way back, a leader said to me: "After we go back, how should we explain to the brothers? Let's go the other way!" I said, "Stupid boy, no! Whoever opposes it will be against the red regime and the central government!" After we came back, we called all the heads of the various organizations, and I said, "It doesn't matter if you say we're betrayed or not mean enough, we're done anyway. From today onwards, Dalianchou will be disbanded!" We didn't move. Well, a big-character poster of the trouble was not posted, and the gang broke up. The general situation is stable. The other party is strange.With so much power raised by the United Nations, why is there no movement? Chen Boda also said: "Why is ×× city so quiet? ×× city was one of the cities that were liberated the latest when the whole country was liberated. The fugitive landlords from all over the country went to ××, The bourgeoisie is also quite powerful, so why is it so quiet?" In other words, how can a large organization with tens of thousands of people finish talking without even making a sound.But we are not stupid, as long as we move, many lives will be lost. "Zuo Zuo" sent our group of leaders to hold a study class, and a group of croaking staff officers came up to talk to us and find out.A staff officer said to me: "There must be someone who is behind you to come up with ideas." I said, "Why must someone have an idea?" He mentioned one thing: Before the Great Union, they surrounded an organization of ours in the engineering college, marched, shouted slogans, and wanted to provoke violence.After I got the news, I immediately decided not to call.I said, they shouted the slogan "Wen Dou", and once we fight, the responsibility for fighting is ours.I mobilized people to surround the location of the leading group for the preparatory seizure of power, and we also marched and shouted slogans.As a result, the people surrounding the engineering college over there did not evacuate themselves.The staff officer said: "To tell you the truth, we have records of all your activities back then. Whose idea did you say 'encircling Wei and saving Zhao'?" I said: "No, it's me." He said: "I don't believe it, you have this ability." I said, "How can I be capable? Look at Chairman Mao's works. All kinds of military tactics are written on it." It was only here that I realized that they were ready to settle accounts after the fall. They really have roots and are really powerful. When the Central Cultural Revolution turned upside down, the grand alliance was finished, and organizations big and small fell apart and scattered, but our "Tram Red Flag" has not yet dispersed.First, because I was still a member of the Standing Committee of the Workers' Congress, I didn't fail; second, the old workers in our factory watched me grow up, so they believed me.In the past, I wrote something to complain for them, and they all remembered it.This determined that the higher authorities must take me down.It didn't take long for our group to be punished. The person who was a member of the Listed Revolutionary Committee was arrested as a "gang rapist" out of nothing.The Workers' Representative Council found out that I was "re-educated through labor for two years" ten years ago, saying that I was not qualified and finally got it. Internal investigation and external investigation were carried out.As for me, I knew it well, and I had already prepared for this liquidation. We will not talk nonsense, beat people, or engage in women. There are no counter-revolutionary or criminal cases, so we can't catch me.I went back to work in the factory, while dealing with the endless transfers from outsiders.People I know from top to bottom, big and small, I have come into contact with too many things, and anyone who has an accident will come to me to check.We were originally grassroots.It is grass on the roof, but it is still grass on the ground.I thought that the "Cultural Revolution" period would be over, but this time I was a fool.Who knows that this time it didn't fall to the ground, but fell into the abyss completely. Suddenly one day, someone from the military management of the Public Security Bureau came to me and asked me about the deaths in the 609 Wudao.I told the truth about the death of the bulldozer man I saw on the side of 609 that day, and they took a note and left.I just pretend it's okay.Two days later, three people came and asked me to go there.I said I'll go pee later.They actually found a person to follow me, and I felt a small drum beating in my heart, thinking that something was wrong.Then he followed them out of the factory, entered the court, and went to a small room behind the porter's office.They said, "The three of us are the pre-judgment officer of the court and the investigator of the Public Security Bureau. Let's study "Old Three Chapters" together!" I said, "I can memorize "Old Three Chapters", so I don't need to learn it. If you have anything to say, just talk about it." They said, "You still haven't said anything about June 09." I just gave them three words: "No more." This is a dead end.Stuck for a week.One day, I was suddenly taken to a place, and when I entered, I was locked in a big room. I saw that it was a prison!Things are getting bigger.But I went through the matter of 609 in my heart several times, and there was nothing else.There are bigger things to go to jail, I thought I had to wait for them to talk about it. At one o'clock at night, four people came in.It was the first time I saw this military representative. He was a big man with a Shandong accent, and he was very aggressive. He sat opposite me as soon as he entered the door. A recorder sat next to me, and the other two walked behind me.I can't see it right, so hurry up and tighten the shoelaces.I have practiced martial arts and played ball, so we have to prepare too.The two behind me asked me what I was doing, and I said it was cold and my feet were cold. The military representative asked me about the situation at the scene of 609. I have a pretty good memory, so I described it to him in detail.He pointed to a place, by the back door.I said that I have only been to the front door and the side door, but I have never been to this place.He asked again, and I said I had never been there, so naturally I had no impression.He became angry and said, "If you are dishonest, I will tell you to change!" I said, "No matter how you change it, you can't make it fake." He slapped the table and shouted: "Bastard." I raised my head and shouted: "You bastard, why are you scolding me!" The one behind came up and punched me in the neck.I reacted subconsciously, my buttocks did not leave the stool, and I kicked him aside.The military representative rushed forward and grabbed my hair. With all my strength, I pushed him down the table and pulled my hair off.I thought it was all right today, I smashed one by one, stood up and grabbed the stool and threw it at the recorder who ran to the corner.The second time the military representative came up to pin my legs with a table, and the other two held me down. The military representative gave me two kicks, all of which were kicked on my mouth. Blood.I was beaten to death with my hands, and I couldn't move, and I didn't move, so I told them to fight, and it took a while before they stopped. I said, "Are you still fighting?" The army representative said, "You committed murder!" I said, "Which one of us beat you first. I don't even know your last name, why should I beat you?" The military representative said, "Okay, let me tell you, my surname is X, and I am the chief representative of the military control committee here." I said, "I'll sue you too. First, I'm not guilty, and second, I still have citizenship. If you hit me again, I'll fight back; if you tie me up, I can still bite you with my teeth." The keys are the same. The next day, they came back again, showing a little bit of bone in what I said: "You are wrong, you have a life, not the man on the bulldozer, that man has nothing to do with you, we know, it was after nine o'clock in the evening thing.". As soon as I heard it, there was no shadow!Immediately replied: "My foot was injured, and I was not at the scene after four o'clock. I have many people who can testify for me." The military representative said: "You are dishonest, handcuff you!" I was so stupid that I thought it was like in the movie that the front handcuffs were done, but it was wrong.Three people pushed me to the ground and turned back.First, the two arms are turned backwards. The handcuffs are flat and round, and the wrists cannot be turned when they are put on. Then the arms are bent together.I felt that the muscles in the shoulder socket were all stretched and torn.After being handcuffed, no one could sit down.Beads of sweat dripped from my forehead, and my teeth chattered.I said, "Okay, do you still have the law? I have citizenship!" The military representative ignored me, looked at his watch, took it off after 20 minutes, and his arm was no longer his own. The next day, it was announced that I would be detained and transferred to the former prison number.When I was interrogated at twelve o'clock at night, the military representative said, "Your nature has changed today. You are a detainee. This is a court. Please tell me, don't think that you will be fine if you don't confess. Without your confession, we will still sentence you." I got angry and said: "You can only acquit me if you judge me, or you broke the law." The military representative said: "Okay, first let you experience it." I was hungry that day.I have been hungry for two and a half years. Every morning, a small bowl of porridge will not only do nothing, but only arouse hunger.I have a special experience with this hunger. It turns out that it is easier to feel hungry when sitting quietly than when working.I was so hungry that my chest was pressed against my back, and I watched my muscles drop.Later, he pulled out his beard with his hand, pinched and pulled it, and a cut was made on the nail cover.The nails can also be moved back and forth, bent back and forth, like the cap of a soft bladder.When going up the steps, you have to pant for a while. The most uncomfortable thing is that your heels are on the ground, and your internal organs are pulled down.The prison number I live in is next to the market.All kinds of voices of the citizens can be heard, and my home can be seen from a distance through the window.Damn, in this unlucky place, wouldn't it be good to change to a different prison number?Every morning, the smell of hot soy milk fried dough sticks wafts inside.Someone asked me what it was like to be in prison, and I said it was like lying in a small coffin, with the lid of the coffin on the bridge of my nose, and I couldn’t move. . Besides, after starving me for half a month, I was interrogated again, and the military representative asked, "How do you feel?" I said: "You can think of another way, I'm used to it." This caused trouble.The army representative said: "Okay, take the rope, right away." This time the punishment was more severe.First wrap the arms and wrists with four pieces of small canvas, and then tighten the rope so that the rope does not make marks.Then I used the rope to push my arms backwards and squeezed to the minimum distance, only to hear my muscles tear apart and the small blood vessels snapped.It's the first time we suffer this crime, once it's enough, the second time it's better to beheaded.This time, I couldn't recover for four months.My arms were congested and stiff, I couldn't make fists with my hands, I couldn't hold the chopsticks when I was eating, and the spoon kept falling out of my hands, and I lost my grip strength... But until now, I still don't know what crime I committed.I thought that no matter what, I have to hold on, live, wait, and understand why, even if I die, I have to understand why I died. Until one day in March 1970, a car was suddenly taken to take me to my original unit and into the auditorium of the factory.It was pitch black when I entered, and the curtains were drawn tightly. I didn’t know if there would be anyone in the audience. There were military representatives and a group of people from the court sitting in front of the stage. Two rectangular stage lights shone directly into my eyes.Look at the meaning and judge me today. They said: "You confess now, there is still a chance." I said: "I have nothing to confess." They said: "Okay, turn around!" I looked back and saw a row of people standing. They were all the brothers in my organization. The one on the left was guarded by the police. He was my bodyguard and had the closest relationship with me. The judge asked them to expose and produce evidence.As soon as they said it, I realized: On the day of the June 09 fighting, at around nine o'clock in the evening, at the back door, under my direct command, my bodyguard used a fire hook to open the head of the other party, a man from the ×× Textile Factory, and died on the spot.I ordered them to dispose of the corpses, and then entered into an offensive and defensive alliance with them, and no one was allowed to say - that's all. I just knew the joke!This completely fabricated lie was actually spoken out in such a formal official occasion.My lungs are going to explode!They exposed one by one, and I refuted them one by one. The military representative said: "Hack it, you are not allowed to speak!" Only witnesses are allowed to report, and I am not allowed to speak.I opened my mouth again, and a burst of slogans suddenly sounded from the audience knocked me down.It turned out that the audience was full of people.It was only after I was released from prison that I found out that all the party members of our company were called to attend the meeting that day, and the masses were not invited to attend. I think about it again, it's broken!Those who exposed me were all my buddies, and the confession was exactly the same. If they didn't run away, they would be punished with capital punishment, and they would have to kill me.At the meeting, I was identified as a murderer, and my bodyguard was also a murderer.I don't understand, why did the personal guard admit that there was nothing wrong with it, and still expose me? Didn't he self-destruct?But there was no sentence at this meeting, because they still lack my confession. Early the next morning, the military representative showed me the minutes of the meeting the next day and asked me to sign it, intending to use this thing instead of my statement.I asked, "Why is there no record of my words?" He said: "Don't memorize it if it's not necessary. Sign it!" I took a pen and wrote a line on it: "There are principles in this case, and you will not die with peace!" Then I wrote a big word "injustice". The military representative said, "It's not okay to write like that." I said: "Your language, my words, count as my signature. My words, I am responsible for myself." In the afternoon he called me again and asked me, "Do you want to overturn the case?" I said, "Yes." He said, "I tell you, it's very easy to shoot you. Now that the public security, procuratorate and law are combined to work together, you will be decided over tea. I will criticize you in the whole city and then shoot you!" I said, "I want to leave a last word." He said, "No!" I said: "You are not as good as Qin Shihuang, you don't represent the Communist Party! According to the book of the little man, the dynasties of all dynasties allowed criminals to leave their last words. I am dead, who will overturn my case in the future?" He said: "This is an iron case, and no one can break it!" He actually tore up the record I wrote in front of me. I was so angry that I scolded him: "Why the fuck are you tearing it up? That's the original document. You're really not a Communist Party!" This time, he put on me a pair of big pig-iron shackles, which are said to weigh thirty-five catties. Many old prisoners have never seen such big shackles, and I can't move.I sat in the prison and looked at the roof, and I couldn’t eat any more. I was angry, angry, and wronged, but there was nothing I could do. An old prisoner in the same room said to me: "Young man, don't confront them, they just want your confession. If you don't say anything, just tell me. Hard-crime, it's useless, you suffer for nothing." I said, "They tore up my original certificate. I'm so sad. There's no way to check it. Isn't this going to be a dead ghost forever?" There was a prisoner in the same room, who used to be an interrogator of the Public Security Bureau. He asked me, "You really didn't have such a thing?" I said: "At that time, I seldom moved alone. The opposite side watched and arrested me all day long, and there were always a group of big living people around me to protect me. I was wounded and left the scene at four o'clock that day. Several people followed me. But they slapped me on this matter, saying it happened after nine o'clock, how could I participate? But my brothers refused to testify to me, and they told lies face to face, insisting that my injury was fake, and wasting time Push it back so that it can be linked to the dead man. Besides, when I went back by car, there were other people in the same car, and I was still applying medicine in the factory infirmary. I wrote these witnesses, and they all dumped them. I asked, they didn't answer." The man said: "Take a piece of paper and write down the whole process of the matter truthfully. Who can testify to you in each period of time, write it all on it, and finally write a sentence of 'this will always be your testimony'. After writing Don’t hand it over to the military representative, but to the prison on duty. The guards on duty have to register and file all the prisoners’ materials according to the rules. Isn’t this enough? Remember, if you really have nothing to do with it, don’t talk nonsense, otherwise , harm others, and harm yourself. The Communist Party has a rule that no matter what happened at the time, it must be reviewed after many years. You must believe in this." It's someone who does this and has experience in this area.Thanks to what he said, it really saved me.Later, by chance, I learned that this material had really entered my file.Probably because this material failed to kill me in the end.The verdict stated that I was "extremely cunning in the face of solid evidence and refused to plead guilty." This may be referring to this material. When I was sentenced, the sentence was not announced publicly, but was "sentenced" in prison.I was sentenced to life imprisonment and life imprisonment, and I was transferred from the front prison to the back prison to execute the sentence.Since then, although I have not pleaded guilty yet, I have pleaded guilty.We don't believe that even if there is nothing, you can be sentenced to life imprisonment.I don't believe in the laws of the country, and I don't believe in my own power.I just felt that from then on, a bloody corpse was on my body, sticking to me.Even if a layer of skin is torn off, the corpse cannot be removed.Prison is not a reasonable place, it is useless at best, and I will not come out for a day, I have lived and died in it all my life, so I have to change my way of life, I am good at playing ball, let’s play; I am capable, Do something for the prison.They don't need to starve me any more. I eat and drink when I need to.It's just one step away from death. I call it "living and dying". When it's over, why can't you let it go?But I didn't forget one thing, every once in a while, I was required to write an appeal letter and hand it in, pleading my innocence, but every appeal was allowed to be rejected.They are not afraid of my writing, and I am not afraid of their rejection.The prison believes that the courts are not free, and cannot sentence people without grounds, but the mission of the prison is only one: to guard the prisoners.If you don't plead guilty, you can at most educate and educate.但我一直不服，日子一久，他们干脆不理我这套，教育也省了，反正看住我，别叫我跑了就是了。 刑满十年时，"文革"完了，我心气儿变了，起死回生，有想活的愿望，可我接连碰到两次打击，心气又低下来。 头件事，当时中央对判处长刑的犯人有所考虑。八０年给我改判为再坐十二年牢，《改判书》上说我"认罪伏法"，因此改判。真是莫大讽刺！我打进来那天就没服过，硬说我"认罪伏法"。他们当初判我，现在改判我，都不根据事实，怎么弄我都有理。我看没嘛戏了。可是我接着又写份申诉书递上去，咱不申诉，就落个真的"认罪伏法"了。 二件事，八０年三月我的申诉材料再次被驳回，原话是： "你的申诉材料收悉，经本院复查，根据你所犯罪的主要事实，处理得当，对你的申诉，予以驳回。" 我的心又凉了。要再坐十二年牢，我得九二年才能出来，那时候我坐在您面前，将近六十岁了，另一副模样儿了！ 可更稀奇的事还在后边。这次驳回没过多久，我忽然被宣布"无罪释放"。我讲这变化-- 十月里一天，法院忽然来两个人找我，说要复查我的脚伤。就是当年在六０九事件中我的脚被扎破的伤口，问我还有没有痕迹。 我说："男人都有脚气，总脱皮，又过了十一年，哪能还有。" 他们非要看，我脱下鞋给他们看，真的没有了。我又想，他们不会凭白无故验我脚，我的死案便透进了一线光明。我马上说："你们对脚伤挺有兴趣，我提点旁证行吗？我还有这只脚当时穿的袜子，上边有那破瓶子扎破的洞。" 他们很惊讶，说："十多年，当时的袜子你还留着?" 我说，这袜子原先撂在家，后来家里送来穿。一次打完球，狱里有个坏小子跟我捣乱，把我一只鞋连袜子扔了，剩下的正巧是这只。单只袜子没法穿，便塞在包里，留着缝东西时拆线用。 他俩像发现嘛宝贝似的，叫我快拿来，我拿来一穿，弹力袜给脚一撑，那个破洞明显在受伤的位置。他俩马上把位置画下来，拿走袜子。很明白了--如果能证明我脚确实受过伤，后边打死人就没我的事了，我有点激动，说："问个问题行吗?" "你说。" "我奇怪了，我曾经提到过一个证人，就是武斗那天我从推土机救下来的那个司机，挺大的个子，当时他满头满脸血，记不清嘛模样。是我把他带回厂，叫医务室的厂医绘他上的药。他当时面临生死，我救了他，他印象肯定相当深，不会不记着我。为嘛这证人一直没出现？" 法院这两人说："昨天我们见到他了，他说他不记得你了。" 我说："不可能。" 他们说："你设身处地想想，当时他什么处境？他和你不一样，他是俘虏，心里恐慌，又绘打懵了，还不知你们会怎么处置他呢，怎么可能记住你？告诉你，他的话对你有利的，只有一点，就是他还记得当时给弄上一辆车，送到一个单位的医务室上过药。" 我想，也对。又问道："我回厂时同车还有一个到我们组织来串连来的学生呢！" 他们笑了，说："不是一个，是两个。你说的那个现在新疆，我们去过了，他已经给你出证了。" 我再问："我们厂还有一大帮人能给我作证，他们都死了？" 他们说："你将来回去问问，他们当初都是怎么说的吧。像你这种文化大革命案……" 我突然截住他的话，火了，说："你打住！" 他们很奇怪，问我："为什么?" 我说："你别说文化大革命案，我受不了！嘛叫文化大革命案？三五反，反资本家，肃反，抓反革命，四清，搞四不清分子，文化大革命到底谁对谁？两派人你打我，我打你，往死处打，为嘛？情杀？仇杀？谋杀？虽然六０九那人不是我打死的，可这人究竟死了。为嘛？你问那真正的凶手，我料他准说不明白。你就是把毛主席叫来，别看他伟大，叫他说，他也说不清！" 他俩没话可答，只说："你要保重身体，我们一定给你弄清楚……"就走了。 一听这话，我心里有根，案要翻了。因为那时很多文革期间被屈打入狱的，蹲在牢里早绝望了，一旦宣布无罪，咕咚一下人完了，要不心脏猛烈地蹦蹦一跳，瘫了。大起大落，忽死忽生，人受不住。我那监狱就出过很多这类事儿，后来人家有经验了，事先暗示你一下，垫个底儿，好缓冲一下。 果然，没过几天，我被叫到前监。法院来人，我们厂里也来人。法官说："全体起立。"还对我说一句，"你把扶桌子的手放下去，站好。"然后宣布一张《裁定书》。The original text is: "×××因打人致死一案，经×××公安局军事管制委员会七二年十月十三日判决无期徒刑。经判定，×××打人致死，无实据，不能认定，撤销原判，宣告无罪释放。" 法官念完，露出笑脸。屋于外边围着的一大群犯人看到后，都喊起来："有戏！" 法官对我说："自你被捕那天起，直到今天，所有扣发工资一律补发。因为国家目前财政困难，你的级别暂时还不能提，以后看机会再解决吧。记着，回单位不准找领导算账，账要记在'四人帮'身上。这次为复查你的事，你们单位领导帮了很大忙。有什么思想解不开的，可以直接找我们法院来谈，好吧！" 随后，叫我去后监拿东西，跟厂里人回厂，厂里派车接我来了。我回到牢房，把那些破破烂烂东西全分给大伙。这就走出凭白无故关了我整整十一年的监狱。滋味？没嘛滋味，我控制住自己，咱是汉子，没罪。进来是叫他们硬弄进来的，出来是咱自己两条腿定出去的。 回厂后，那帮弟兄跟我一见，我模样大变，当初挺神气的小伙子，如今这副吊死鬼似的德性，他们都忏悔了，挺尴尬。I say: "算了，我当初没跑出来，要是跑出来，你们都别想活，现在咱恩恩怨怨全结了。" 往后再一细说，真不能怪他们。 原来把我关进监狱那天，也把他们全都弄去，使出各种招儿逼他们。监狱里人上刑时鸡哇喊叫的声音，吓得他们心里发毛。军代表还把他们老婆孩子、老爹老娘全弄去，叫家里人跟他们哭，闹着让他们跟我划清界线。他们就顺秤爬了，人家怎么引就怎么说，最后编成那个弥天大谎才放了他们。可如果他们顶着，结局恐怕跟我差不多。 我们厂的厂医那姑娘真不错，她当时给我治的脚伤，坚持给我出证。单位领导就把她调出医务室，在厂里调来调去，挤得她远离高飞，调到北京林业部。法院最后复查我的问题时，去北京找到她，她就哭了，拿出一张当年为我出的证，说："当时我妈妈对我说，那小伙子肯定死了，可是不能死在咱手里，你得说实话。我照实写了这张证词，可放在我这里十年了，为嘛他们不要呢……"我几次想找到她，当面谢她，不是谢她这个人，是谢她这颗良心。那时碰到这种事，能做到这一步的人不多。后来听说她去澳门了。 我那贴身护卫是个倒霉蛋。军代表审他时，允他了，只要照他们编的那套说，保证不判他。可宣判我时，连他一块判了，判他十五年徒刑。那天宣判完事，我俩前后被押出来，他大骂："妈的，说好不判我，又判我，根本没那回事儿。" 押他的警察说："住嘴，你早干嘛去了！" 我也不怪他了，他也冤枉，和我一样无缘无故坐了十一年监狱，也是跟我同一天放出来的。 据说他被关进监狱以后，他父亲曾经设法从医院找到那个死者的死亡报告，并打听到死者没有火化，土葬的，就要求开棺验尸，验验死者头骨是否是用消防钩打开的，可当时不受理。"四人帮"完蛋后，××纺织厂清查文革问题时，又把这事情折腾出来，说六０九死的那人，是我们本厂对立面用小口径步枪打死的，凶手在我们厂，电车公司那两个人是冤的。但很长时间一直按着这事没动，他们也不知道阻力究竟在哪儿。 后来又听说，早在抓我之前，这个厂已经搞出眉目，但突然这事一拐，就硬扯到我身上来。我总琢磨这事，觉得是个阴谋，小阴谋外边还套着一个很大的阴谋。却又不肯信，如果真是个阴谋，咱不就纯粹成了牺牲品？ 我至死也不愿意承认自己是牺牲品。不然，咱这辈子不就更没劲了吗？ ***任何人都是牺牲品--这就是那个奇特的时代。 ***