Chapter 24 Chapter Twenty-Four

In the mortal world, there are reasons for race, and there are people who seek results.The Buddha said that affliction is Bodhi. You don't have to be obsessed with delusions in everything. Only when you know how to let go can you be relieved.When people are on the journey, no matter they are in good times or bad times, they must learn to know the weather and be at peace with the situation. Sanmao said: "Tomorrow is an inescapable thing, and I have no way out. Have you ever heard of anyone who, in this world, does not live alone or die alone?" After leaving the Sahara, Sanmao was certainly sad. But life is like floating weeds, each has expectations, and each has his own stay.What's more, the sea scenery of the Canary Island and the Sahara Desert have the same beauty.Looking back on the past, I don't know if those people I loved and the scenery I encountered will be safe and sound.

Soon, Sanmao and Jose rented a beautiful bungalow facing the sea in Canary Island.There is a spacious living room, a bedroom, a guest room, and a clean bathroom.The necessary furniture is also all ready, and the food here is only half the price of the desert.Sanmao, who has lived in the desert for more than three years, suddenly felt that the Canary Island was like a fairyland.She should be satisfied with her current life and happily embrace her husband who returned safely from the war. However, this is not the Taoyuan described by Tao Yuanming, and we cannot find the simple and peaceful life of working at sunrise and resting at sunset.What's more, Tao Yuanming put down his official career and all the ups and downs, honors and disgraces, only then did he have his Dongli.Although Sanmao, who has been wandering for half a life, has tasted the ups and downs of life, he no longer has much distinction for the things around him.But when they ran out of savings and Jose couldn't find a job on the island, the real life made them unwilling to enjoy the blue and pure sea scenery outside the window.

Such is life, it always ends badly when you put your passion into it.In desperation, Jose had no choice but to rush back to the Sahara Desert to work.At that time, the Moroccan army had entered the desert, and the Sahara was still in the midst of war.Jose took risks to make money, and Sanmao was frightened by the ebb and flow of the waves on the island.This kind of day of gathering less and leaving more, every day is suffering. Sanmao has written records about this chaotic and scattered life: "Although the separation is short, who has confidence in their own lives during the war. Every time Jose goes home, it is like a major festival for her. Two days before the certain date, she was excited, and as soon as he came back, he immediately knelt down in front of her, hugged her leg, he didn't want her to see his tears, buried his head in her jeans and refused to get up."

How insignificant is human strength, to endure such separation of life and death for simple basic necessities of life.Sanmao, who lives in seclusion on the island, is lonely and cold. She goes for a walk on the beach every evening.Looking at the Sahara, which is only separated by a water, there is her beloved lover and the constant concern of letting go.Once on the way home, she was in a trance and got into a car accident. In this car accident, San Mao injured her spine and was admitted to the hospital.Jose had no choice but to quit the job that had just raised his salary, return to his wife, and stay together.After being discharged from the hospital, Sanmao refused to let Jose return to the Sahara.At this time, Sanmao suffered from the chronic disease of lower body bleeding.Since then, their life has become even more impoverished.

Unemployment is like an unfathomable vortex, which plunges this poor couple into great sorrow.Jose sent cover letters to major companies around the world.But this professional and excellent diving engineer has fallen to the point where no one cares about him.In order to survive, the proud Sanmao even asked for help from Taiwan. She wrote to Jiang Jingguo, hoping to give her Chinese son-in-law Jose a job in Taiwan, regardless of the salary.Chiang Ching-kuo wrote back to apologize, and informed that there is currently no suitable job for Jose in Taiwan. There is nothing worse than this.Their only source of livelihood is the sporadic royalties Sanmao earned from his distant hometown.Jose, who is unemployed, is anxious and depressed, and he is extremely ashamed to rely on his wife's manuscript fees to support his family.When he proposed marriage back then, he promised to earn money to support his wife and give him all the happiness and stability.But now, they can only eat one meal a day, sometimes a piece of bread, sometimes a bowl of fresh noodles.Poverty can wear away all edges and corners of a person and crush all strengths.

Every morning, Jose goes to the beach to fish.The fisherman and fisherman in fairy tales were originally a warm and beautiful picture.Sanmao and Jose couldn't feel the romance and warmth of holding hands at all.In the Sahara, although they also endured poverty, José had a fixed monthly salary.On the Canary Island, Sanmao deeply experienced the bitterness of sorrow for a poor and humble couple. Just after the bone injury had healed, Sanmao's body became weaker and weaker due to continuous bleeding from his lower body.In addition, even the basic food and clothing are not enough every day, and the smoldering mood makes her unable to support herself anymore.Sanmao decided to fly back to Taiwan in order to recover from his illness.Their money is only enough to buy a plane ticket, so Jose can't go with them.Thinking about it, even if they had the money for two air tickets, Jose would not choose to go back to Taiwan with Sanmao to join his father-in-law and mother-in-law in such a desperate situation.As a man, he couldn't afford to hurt such self-esteem.

The so-called timidity of being close to the hometown, when Sanmao boarded the plane back to Taiwan, he was filled with emotion.After four years away from home, she traveled across the vast desert to find her life partner.I thought I could bring my lover and return home happily, but I didn't expect to end up in such a bleak situation.The ups and downs of life have already exhausted my parents physically and mentally.I wanted to get lost in the desolate streets of a foreign land, but I finally embarked on the way home. She has imagined thousands of times, the scene of returning to her hometown, there are surprises, disappointments, warmth, and indifference.But she never guessed that what awaited her were countless flowers and applause.Once upon a time, Sanmao's has become popular throughout Taipei.Her readers, like the gravel in the Sahara, sprinkle one after another.How many times, she has learned from her mother's letters that her works have caused an upsurge in her hometown.Now that I return to China, I realize that I have already inadvertently become a popular public figure.

They hope to find more legends from this woman who broke through the desert.Sanmao, who came back from the desert, wears two braids, dark brown skin, and gestures with a kind of pride and roughness that has gone through thousands of rivers and mountains.After returning from the primitive desert, she has seen too many customs and customs, and the charm exuded from her bones is enough to fascinate people. The dusty Sanmao is like a fan, which is memorable.In the days that followed, Sanmao accepted interviews from batches of reporters, signed signatures from countless readers, and had an overwhelming dinner.Celebrities who used to be admired by Sanmao are now friends who exchange cups and exchange cups.In the past, San Mao had no place in the literary world, but today he has become the protagonist.

Therefore, we should never question a person's dream, and never underestimate a person's ideal.Destiny will always make unexpected arrangements for many people, but I just don't know if there is any one of the narrow doors of success open for you and me.The article is a matter of ages, and the gains and losses are well known.The joys and sorrows in the meantime can only be understood by those who have experienced it. The banquet was like water, and the applause was like waves.Such a noisy background made Sanmao feel confused.She went to the Sahara in the first place to pursue her dreams, and exchanged the vicissitudes of life for several years in exchange for the bright aura of today. Is all this really what she wants?In the hustle and bustle, people tend to lose themselves easily.Sanmao, who is used to living a quiet life, seems a little unaccustomed to the prosperity of the city.

Only when the wind is light and the sun is setting, when you return home, guard your parents, and guard the small window, can you be quiet for a while.When Sanmao was receiving a feast every day, Jose, who was far away on the Canary Island, was unemployed and at home, enduring hunger and loneliness.Maybe he couldn't imagine that his wife was favored by so many people in Taiwan.To him, words have never been soft or touching.He also couldn't imagine the infinite charm that Sanmao's works can bring to readers. Jose's letter woke San Mao up like a dream.The flowers, banquets, and family affection in Taipei almost made her forget that there was a seaside hut on the Canary Island, and a poor husband was waiting for her to return home.In fact, she didn't forget that what she couldn't let go of was not the prosperity here, but her parents with white hair on the temples.This time I left, the mountains and the roads were far away, and I don't know when I came back.

Who said that people who are used to wandering are not afraid of the impermanence of the world, and they don't care about the hasty aging of time.Although it is floating dust and weeds, there is always an inseparable dependence on everything in the world.Even if it is a fallen leaf, I hope it can circulate in the wind for a few more cycles.One day, when the people who love each other can no longer care about themselves.The lonely self needs to rely on the memories of yesterday to keep warm quietly. A doctor surnamed Zhu in Taipei cured Sanmao's women's disease with a secret recipe of traditional Chinese medicine.Sanmao knew that her journey would begin again.To her, wandering is like a home.What's more, in the distance facing the sea, there is a man who is waiting for her.For her, he took responsibility and exhausted the vicissitudes of life.She couldn't bear the slightest disappointment, couldn't bear it. Sanmao left, left Taiwan, and went to Canary Island to find her lover.Thousands of miles of sky, evening snow and thousands of mountains, how will tomorrow start, let the sea answer for her.Take nothing away and leave nothing behind.Only the song called "Olive Tree" was sung year after year. "Don't ask me where I come from, my hometown is far away, why wandering, wandering far away, wandering..."