Chapter 14 page fourteen

"Be careful with yourself." What kind of saying is this? Nothing happened, but something seemed to happen.What happened?Nothing happened in the first place!Fang Fang was upset, unhappy, and uncomfortable, and couldn't explain why!For the newsletter that was about to die?Alas, after several trials and tribulations, I have long since given up in my heart, and I have long since given up on writing.The fetus was stillborn, there was no way to recover, and it was useless to regret, not for this. What is the entanglement, the reluctance to let go, the reluctance to let go, disturbing her peace?Perhaps, it was because he broke into a strange family in a daze, and touched some hidden pains of that person, which made him feel uncomfortable?Perhaps, just because this home does not constitute a model of a harmonious family, a sense of loss caused by the failure of a good wish?What does this have to do with you?Why so uneasy?

The sun is tired and the sky is gray.After the dining time in the cafeteria, every family just shabu-shabu and wash the dishes and just eat dinner.She is not hungry and does not want to eat.Li Suoling went somewhere, and it seemed that she hadn't spoken to her for several days.This weird person, she will be so weird for the rest of her life?People have their own way of life, why do you think they are weird?What does it have to do with you? Zhang Fenglan is so contented, so contented that it makes people sympathetic.Who needs your sympathy?Who needs your judgment?She dedicated her youth to her family, and she lived comfortably in a harmonious family without quarrels, or if you think it is not so comfortable, what does it have to do with you?Did she know that anyone had ever shared the joy of talking to her husband?Does she know his yearning for an ideal family?Why should she know!All she wants is her home, her children, and her husband, and she is satisfied.What do you regret?

Is it Meng Yaping's yellow face that makes you uneasy?She endured the heavy pressure of public opinion that shouldn't be there, and buried the most cherished feelings in the world except love.She is not reconciled, unwilling, but must be buried.Are you sad for her?Injustice for her?No, she is so far away from you. "He has no one who can talk." Why do you remember this sentence?His eyes were gray and then bright.His voice is hearty and depressing.He likes to talk, talk very beautifully, but also very sad.No one listened to him.Whether he has someone to talk to has nothing to do with you, does it?His heart is bitter.Whether he suffers or not has nothing to do with you, does it?It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter...

She turned on the bedside lamp. A small yellow circle of light pitifully lit up in the hut, and an inexplicable loneliness lingered in her heart, unwilling to leave.She asked herself: What does all this have to do with me?I should be happy, I'm not married, I don't have a home, I'm free, I can choose. However, she couldn't be happy. The sound of a key being inserted on the door interrupted Fang Fang's confusion.Li Suoling came in with a big bag, and handed over a bag of bread as soon as she entered: "Fang Fang, I bought you bread with cream filling, it's pretty good."

Fang Fang was really hungry, took the bread and started to eat it deliciously. After eating half of it, she remembered to ask: "How do you know I haven't eaten?" Li Suoling gave a rare smile: "You haven't eaten well these two days." "Really?" She herself forgot how many times she had eaten in the past few days. Li Suoling sorted the big bags into boxes and put them in the drawers. With her back to Fang Fang, she only asked: "Haven't you started the manuscript yet?" "No." "Aren't you going to write?" "Ok."

After packing up her things, Li Suoling lay down on the bed as usual, picked up a book, and entered her own world.Fang Fang was full of words and wanted to talk to others. Looking at the silent roommate, she couldn't help but feel sad and unhappy. It would be nice if she lived with someone who liked to talk. "Suo Ling, do you remember that you advised me not to interview him?" "yes?" "You said I'd regret it. Why?" "Because he is unlucky." "You didn't persuade me later, so why?" "Let things take their course."

"You're right. This family is not ideal. In fact, he is very unfortunate, and she is also unfortunate, really, I feel. You know, he used to have a very good girlfriend who was very good at talking. Later, because of gossip Gossiping, stop talking, I also saw that girl. She..." "She pities him." "how do you know?" "There is no unbridgeable gap between compassion and love. Women often love a man out of compassion, thinking that their love can save others from suffering. They also think that this is a supreme emotion and behavior. In fact , the facts and results are often unexpected..."

"how do you know?" "The book told me!" Li Suoling patted the book on her hand, but Fang Fang didn't believe it. "Then you are bookish! That girl just has some affection for him, and it has nothing to do with love at all." "Goodwill is closer to love than sympathy..." "No. There is a problem with your point of view! According to this, a woman can't have a good impression of a man. If she has a good impression, she falls in love with him. If it goes on like this, a woman can only have a good impression of a man, and she should have a good impression of other men. It's normal to be totally disgusted. Is it? This view is too old and too feudal!"

"I'm not arguing with you." A triumphant smile appeared on Fang Fang's face.Before he finished speaking, he went to disturb the people who read the book: "Suo Ling, you said you wanted to tell me something." "Perhaps it won't be necessary." "Say it!" "Be careful with yourself." "What do you mean by that? There is no beginning or end." "Actually, the most terrible thing is not others, but yourself. Everyone's emotional misfortune is caused by themselves." "What you said is pointless to me!" Fang Fang's mouth was stiff.

"That's great." Li Suoling took a deep breath and said leisurely, "By the way, let me tell you something by the way." "What's up?" "I'm getting married." "What?" Fang Fang was no less surprised than hearing that there was an earthquake of magnitude 8 tonight. "I'm getting married." The calmness of the voice surprised Fang Fang even more. "do you like him?" "I don't even like myself, but I still like him!" "Then why do you want to get married?" Fang Fang was angry. The bride-to-be was not at all angry, and answered more calmly:

"People, they always need a home."