Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve

Miss Dai Er felt soreness, swelling, and numbness all at once, extending from the nerves in her back to her whole body.She wants to lie down like this forever, time will no longer pass, the world will stop running here, so that the wonderful, warm, soft and tired touch on the back will always crawl all over her body through the pressing of the acupuncture points, and let the religious and lustless touch in her ears The friendly voice of Yi will always linger in my heart. Over the past few years, through her own life experience, Ms. Dai Er has realized that there are two types of kindness: one is rational, which can only be obtained through long-term conversations and contacts, and his wisdom.The strength of personality and charm can slowly penetrate into your heart; the other is perceptual and intuitive. He uses his demeanor, eyes, body, voice, language, and temperament to convey the feeling to you in an instant and grab you. , you don't need to know more about him, and you can get it without mobilizing your mind to deal with him.

Qigong masters obviously belong to the second category.This is the most favorable start for making a young woman willing to be intimate with him.Miss Dai Er was really tempted. At this time, the qigong master asked Miss Dai Er to turn over and lie on her back, so she turned over obediently.The qigong master stopped touching her body. He hung his hands about two feet away from Miss Daier's body, palms down, and performed qigong on Miss Daier. Daier's head still felt hot and numb at first. , and then this feeling continued to flow through her body.Gradually, this feeling became concentrated in some parts of her body like last time.Dai Er began to mobilize her will to fight against her feelings again.

A warm feeling suddenly rose in Miss Dai's heart, this feeling was like a ray of light, causing her rational desire to withdraw from her body, making it escape from the soles of her silent feet like a bug.She seemed to be standing far away, looking at herself, and she saw that she was always an empty window, always open alone, and someone had sunk into that window before, but that kind of sunk made her at a loss, more than no one sunk into it. It was even more lonely, so she resolutely got rid of it; now, finally, there is someone she longed for standing in front of the window, peeping through the window, and everything that happened suddenly filled Miss Dai Er's heart .

At this time, Dai Er seemed to hear a vague voice calling her from above, and at the same time, she felt a hand on her shoulder. The real touch of this hand immediately changed the situation and pulled her away completely. Reality beyond reason.Dai Er suddenly felt that she was a sick and helpless little girl, who was weakly longing for the qigong master's sunny body to enter her gloomy body, her trembling and moist breath, and her longing soul; She longed for him to hold her tightly in the arms of his heart and guide her to fly, all day and all night.She finally pulled his hand towards her... Dai Er closed her eyes.

The qigong master began to untie her coat and skirt, and then her underwear and panties.Dai Er didn't resist.Everything was going on slowly, and when her white and smooth limbs, which were lacking in softness due to thinness, lay naked in front of his eyes, she almost handed over her heart that had been closed for many years, and came out naked.This sudden sense of surrender and disarming engulfed her immediately... When Miss Dai Er got up, her will returned to her body, and her face was slightly shy.She wanted to divert the topic to the mysterious power in the universe that she was interested in, and stay away from the embarrassing thing just now.But the qigong master laughed secretly at the side in a mysterious way, and didn't want to talk about anything.

Dai Er looked at him inexplicably and said, "Don't you want to talk to me?" "What are we—talking about?" "For example, qigong. For example, there are many." Dai Er lowered her head. "Of course. You, um, are a lovely girl. But, unfortunately, I must first... well, I probably shouldn't tell you that my, um, experiment worked." "What experiment?" "What happened just now. The discovery of the central nervous system and a certain acupuncture point... and, um, some kind of induced transmission... Miss Dai Er was stunned, and then her cheeks turned red. She sat motionless on the sofa and didn't make a sound for a long time. Then, she stood up slowly, walked over, and walked to the Qigong master: "So, I Is it time to congratulate you?" There was a cold light in Dai Er's eyes.She would have liked to slap him in the face, say "Please accept my congratulations!" and leave.But that cheek was full of tenderness and guilt towards her, she had never seen a face that could touch her like this.Dai Er looked at him, she couldn't resist his charm, so Dai Er turned and walked towards the door.

"Please don't go!" The qigong master said with difficulty, "Things are not as you imagined... Well, can we talk? If you allow me to start over." Dai Er turned around and looked at him.After a long time, she said: "Re-what? Experiment? Have sex?" "Don't think so badly. You need help. This kind of headache is not as simple as pulling out a bad tooth. You also have to learn to restrain your worries, think more, learn to relax, and not always be preoccupied. Life, often ..." "Well, I know how to live. I'm fine. Goodbye." Dai Er opened the door and walked out.

The afternoon sun was like a ferocious beast, illuminating Miss Dai Er naked in the open space.The warm, illusory mist of the morning has gone.The dirty street lay naked in the sun, Dai Er raised her head, high-tension lines, electric wires in the air, and numerous telephone wires protruding from the windows of the buildings like arms, densely spread out over the city A net, the tall buildings are arrogantly higher than the net like giants, looking down at it with their heads down.Miss Dai Er suddenly had an idea: If the city continues to develop like this, in a few years, when someone jumps from the roof of the building to end her young or old life, it may be difficult to realize her long-cherished wish—the suicide The body will slide down from the roof of the building like a bird with broken wings, and then hit the net with its head. A strong downward pressure and weak upward elastic force counterbalanced, and the net was broken through, and the giant killer was counteracted. The force was buffered for a while, and then she landed on the ground with no weight. Her body twisted and rolled for a while, and then she got up and walked away like a loser.Miss Dai Er suddenly imagined such a scene for some reason.

She turned into a secluded deserted path, one side of which was full of wild leather, rubbish and discarded iron plates; Warehouse for stacking tools.A crooked and ugly rail crawled further down the path.Facing the lonely and worrying landscape of the desert in front of him, and the mood that most easily makes people fall into memories and laments, Dai Er did not habitually immerse herself in pessimism, but laughed ironically at herself. for a moment. Miss Dai Er felt amused at her wasteful days full of imagination these days.When she lay flat on her back under the magical gaze of the qigong master, his voice, breath, and induction almost mobilized her spirit and body, and she even felt that what she had been searching for for several years was finally magical. It seemed to appear, she almost regarded this kind of gain as a kind of belief gain, but suddenly, everything collapsed, like a sneer slipping down from the face leisurely, dissipating, and the feeling was lost in an instant.She was alone again.

Miss Dai Er's stomach twitched violently, and then there was a small hollow sound.She remembered that she hadn't eaten since yesterday's dinner, and her hunger reminded her that it was time for lunch.However, Dai Er didn't have any desire to eat. She quickly boarded a car leading to the city center and drove to Murphy's newspaper.Dai Er went to find the vice president Lao Liu. With an angry smile, Dai Er greeted the doorman standing at the gate of the newspaper office with a gun. She adjusted herself to a rather casual and familiar demeanor, as if she was a staff member or a family member of the dormitory who came in and out every day. Go to the hassle of registering.However, Dai Er was not able to get away with it, the guard recognized her at a glance from the few people coming in and out, and called her to stop.Therefore, Dai Er had no choice but to obediently register, and honestly wrote her name and the name of the vice president Lao Liu in the two columns of "Visitors" and "Visitors".After entering the gate, Dai Er regretted it, why was she so obedient?If you don't check your documents, you can't write your name!While thinking, she knocked on Lao Liu's door.

When Lao Liu met Dai Er, he felt a sense of family affection with his elders. He first recalled the irresistible love he had with Professor Dai before he was alive, and then lamented that life is short and good people suffer badly, and then fell on Dai Er's work issues.After all, people are not pawns, and Mo Fei's plan for this game of chess failed to go smoothly, and the blockage and stagnation naturally appeared in the middle link - the president.So far, the vice president, Lao Liu, has not received the material from Dai Er, who was retweeted by the president.Dai Er felt that something was wrong, and she said that she had forwarded it over there, but she said that she hadn't received it here, and someone here was lying.At this time, Lao Liu said that after the president Xu Zheng wrote to "so and so", he put the letter in the drawer and forgot about it.Dai Er looked at Lao Liu and felt that he was on her side.So, she asked Lao Liu to find a way to enlighten the president from the side, but Lao Liu said no.He said that the president is coming and going in the wind and rain, he has rich revolutionary experience, and his sense of smell is extremely sensitive. Any kind of side inspiration that does not touch the skin will immediately arouse the vigilance of the president, so that he can see that Lao Liu and Dai Er have long been in the dark. The collusion was just a trick to use his current president as a springboard.Dai Er said to Lao Liu, just don't go around in circles, you can just recommend yourself and get approved. I really can't wait any longer, I just want a job.Lao Liu immediately looked distressed, and said again that he was able to stand in the club because of the magic weapon.Lao Liu gave Dai Er an idea. He asked Dai Er to visit the president's house under the banner of "who and so", and to send a gift to him, saying that "who and so" asked him to bring it to him.This is sure to work.It was only then that Dai Er suddenly remembered that "who"'s family still owed a "visit".So, she nodded, thanked Lao Liu and walked out. As soon as she left the gate of the newspaper office, Miss Dai saw a group of people watching a beautiful long-haired yellow dog.The streets are crowded with people, Dai Er thinks, people are living smarter and smarter, more and more dogs will be raised in the future, people have to learn to feed all kinds of dogs - dogs that do nothing , a fat dog with a big ear, a dog full of knowledge, a dog who obeys orders, a dog who relies on others... To be honest, Miss Dai Er didn't want any job, she was making another effort that was contrary to her nature.She just wants to earn money to gain independence in life; she just wants to prove to others that she is not unable to adapt to this world and runs away everywhere; to prove that she also has the social value of a woman recognized by society.She knew that as long as she was alive, she would have to face all of this, with nowhere to escape and nowhere to say goodbye. The air became dull.The poplar trees on both sides of the street are shockingly tall, and the rustling sound of the leaves stirred by the wind is sprinkled from a very high altitude. Press down. A violent throbbing pain radiated from Miss Dai Er's stomach.She staggered under the pressure of the pain, and looked like a sickly old woman from a distance. There was a phone booth by the roadside, and Dai Er slipped into it with difficulty. "I'm looking for Murphy." "I'm." "..." "Hello, who is it? Hello?" "..." "Hey, talk?" "Murphy, do you still want to take me out to play?" Dai Er suddenly choked up, and she tried her best to make her voice sound as usual. "Oh, Dai Er. There's no need to ask! I've been waiting for you for several years." "..." Dai Er's tears flowed down uncontrollably. "Hey, who is it? Is it Dai Er?" "it's me." "Hey, what are you doing, what's wrong with Dai Er?" "Murphy...I'm very tired and hungry. I feel...boring." "Dai Er, I wrote you a long letter, we need to talk, you can't run around like this anymore, and I can't live like this anymore, I have to be with you, you need help." "..." "Dai Er, are you listening? I'll pick you up and tell me where you are?" She hung up the phone. It finally rained, and the drizzle soaked the street wet in an instant. In the rainy and tear-stained streets in early summer, only Miss Dai Er was left wandering like a skinny fish.Her hair was wet, and a melancholy black windbreaker was wrapped around her body.Dai Er bent her waist and leaned her head weakly on one of her shoulders, exhausted.Just now, the street was full of people, noisy and noisy, and suddenly only Miss Dai Er was left alone to listen to the sound of her footsteps. She was walking alone on Rain Street, and she counted all the feelings of destruction she had accumulated over the past few years one by one.This kind of detail and taste made her feel a kind of masochistic pleasure.In this kind of happiness, on the one hand, she tasted the freedom of loneliness, and on the other hand, she felt the unstoppable emptiness.She did not mourn, nor did she lament.She knew she was forever in a farewell trance.Yet there was never a farewell; she knew that when she said goodbye to the world, the world was really born. In any case, Miss Dai Er had to move forward.The rain on the road slowly rose under her feet, and the splashing water droplets were like silver birds flying in front of and behind her feet.In the rain and fog, Ms. Dai Er seemed to see a bleak early morning scene many years later: passers-by on the morning shift gathered around a tall old banyan tree full of pink flowers in a hidden place on the corner of the street. Seeing Miss Dai Er hanging herself peacefully on the branch, her thin limbs looked like only the black windbreaker wrapped around her body fluttering in the morning wind... that was the last dignified place to escape . Miss Dai Er didn't turn around, she walked straight along Yu Street, facing her self-pitying imagination, a mocking smile curled up on the corner of her mouth!