Chapter 16 Chapter Three She Sleeps Safely in a Box of Drawers When She Tired of Talking

"Alice, I can't sleep." This is what Alice, the sister, said.In fact, the older Alice did not sleep well.But it was little Alice who said it. Alice, who also had difficulty falling asleep, told her sister that she had to close her eyes even if she couldn't sleep, because everyone except the crazy can always understand the fact that opening eyes in the dark is equal to closing them. She listened to her sister, but she was still bored with her eyes closed. It's not a question of whether the eyes are closed or not, it's something else. If she can really prove that she is lying in the original room of the Fuling Hotel, then when the sky should be bright, she may not necessarily think about it.

"I should know where I am!" "Don't be busy, you will know eventually!" "I fear this darkness will last for a year or two." "That's not true. As long as there are people talking, people's voices, or moving things in the dark, whether it's crying or laughing, I guess this darkness will not last forever. Listen, it's not just one person, one person can never talk with two voices. " Miss Alice, the older sister, never thought that she was only one person, but could be divided into two people to talk, argue, argue, quarrel and comfort after anger!

At first, my sister wanted to refute a sentence, but then thought, if you don't listen to this person's advice and talk too much, it is "nonsense", so I will stop "nonsense". In another place, which seemed far away and near at the same time, there were indeed people talking.The words were soft and clear, but Alice could not understand anything except that they were talking very dearly (not so much as they disagreed with themselves).Alice, the younger sister, did not want to find anyone in these matters, so she went and listened, as Elder Alice ordered. In this world, we know that there are many people who can be dumb forever, and stretch their ears so long—like Mr. Nuoxi—only to listen to other people’s play.We can also believe that some people can pass a long day by eavesdropping on the conversations of the neighbors in their own rooms.Although Alice, the older sister, lacks this kind of interest, she is older and knows how to find a meaningful way out of boredom, so she proposes to listen to the discussion in another dark place.

Listen up.Just because she heard the voice, little Alice asked her sister's first question again.She thought she was talking to only one person, like herself, although she had the opposite temperament everywhere in spirit. Elder Alice could not agree with this estimate."That's an estimate," she said. "Then are we two Alices or—?" "You can't use yourself as a metaphor." "If you use yourself as a metaphor for everything, then you will have a standard to find." "What you do is not necessarily the same for others, because 'they' are not 'us'."

"But why do we not allow them to do the same?" "You can't say that! I just say 'they' not 'us', not that we are like this and they are not like this." "Alice, I don't understand what you mean, I'm confused." Needless to say, little Alice was a little angry when she said this.Being angry alone is inevitable, and she doesn't want to be angry all the time. In fact, Alice, the older sister, often confuses what she says when she talks about it.When she saw her sister angry, she couldn't find out the reason for her anger. "Alice," said the eldest sister, "are you angry again? Angry is a bad thing. A man who is easily angry is prone to a headache, a cough, goose-bumps, . . . Well, I am, Really! I think of a very angry person. Our aunt. No, my aunt, Mrs. Gregory Foyce, who is fifty years old, never gets angry once a year, but the headache ointment also stays on the temple all the year round. , this thing is weird!"

Little Alice said, "What's so queer about that? Headache ointments aren't for angry people." Saying that headache ointment is not for angry people is of course attacking "angry is not a good thing".But it was certainly not a joy to have little Alice sticking on three or four headache ointments every day, as her aunt Mrs. Gregory Foyce did.And she doesn't "love" to be angry.It is better to say that I love to be angry than to say that I love to resist the opinions of my elder sister.In the air of resistance and disapproval, the older Alice thought that the girl was getting angry.

The eldest sister fell silent when little Alice said, "Headache ointment is not for angry people."She thought to herself, "Then who is it prepared for? (Laughs when I think about it.) Maybe it's because of the headache ointment that Auntie has a headache—it's like having a hospital before someone stays in the hospital, and having..." The sister had nothing to do. When talking with her sister, she always seemed to seldom agree with each other. She stayed there for a while, and then began to sing softly by herself. She sang softly, like a thrush singing in a dream.She didn't see a thrush singing in her dream, but she believed that if a thrush knew how to sing in her dream, its voice would always be not far from her own air.

She used a rhyme from the conversation she had last time at the gray stork's house, and sang: God, please tell me, where am I now? I have to understand how long the road to Fuling Hotel is. You blame the weather, why is it so dark? If your darkness had ears to hear— I, Alice, say that you "deserve a slap in the palm of your hand". Elder Alice, neither criticizes nor approves of the song.As usual, darkness doesn't have "ears", and naturally it doesn't have "palms" either!Saying "It's time to fight" can no more make darkness into light than it can be said to make darkness darker.

She meant that if the darkness could answer, it must have said: Alice, don't be like this, there is nothing wrong with cursing me. You still hope for the light to come, There is hope that things are always safe. Little Alice saw no echo in the darkness, so she sang again: You are so dark, it will do you no good, all darkness is miserable for everyone, if you put back the light, even if it is a thread, I will turn back Discuss with Mr. Nuoxi about rewarding the gods and fulfilling their vows. As little Alice hoped, when she just said "I turn back", a ray of light really came out from the depths of the darkness.

"Light, light, look, I welcome you!" Little Alice embraced her hand, but what she embraced was darkness again.A ray of light flickered in the distance first, then disappeared, disappeared. The sudden coming and going of the light surprised Alice, her sister, and said to herself, "Everything is good twice." The eldest sister thought, "Everything is good only once—it's not good if it happens twice." It's not just "thinking", big Alice actually said it.This made my sister not quite believe it. "Did you see it too?" The eldest sister laughed and said, "I have eyes too."

"There will be a second appearance soon, I ask you to pay attention. This is—" She was embarrassed to continue, because she felt that this was the power of a god, or the light revealed by a demon who was cursed and regretted. she waits.Rather, they waited.Alice, the older sister, originally felt that there was no other way but to wait patiently for the light to drive out the darkness! If you say wait, does that mean that the younger sister agrees with the older sister's proposition?No.They each have something to look forward to, although what they are waiting for is only a light. "The light will come eventually," is what my sister meant. "It will come, but besides the power of God, you can also help it to come earlier by cursing," this is what my sister meant.What two different hopes! ... For the sake of dispelling the darkness, coming and going with the light, this girl made herself into two people, and it was better to quarrel (of course, when the quarrel was overwhelmed, one of them would soften), but in the end she felt that the quarrel was meaningless, It would be better and more ridiculous to be noisy, so I endured loneliness and let only one Alice lie in the dark to spend this long unknown night. This made it much quieter.Because there are two Alices, the other's behavioral thoughts are constantly refuted.She, who is in the position of criticizing and criticizing, does not show her face first, and always speaks later.What is even more embarrassing is to think about those stupid things and stupid thoughts. Before thinking about it, the smart woman has no opinion at all. Once this thing goes wrong, she comes out to speak out.It is not a decent thing for a person to be criticized and ridiculed by others, although the one who laughs and the one who is ridiculed are all himself.But since I have two, why don't I cheer for my behavior and thinking?Others, in the hope of becoming famous, sometimes hire someone to ask someone to brag on their behalf, or use a very humble color to find someone to help them. Today, Alice only knows how to make trouble for herself, of course it is better not to be divided. All right. As for Alice herself, she was asked to act as an intermediary and to speak impartially, and she could only sympathize with her stupider self.Because the smarter self, although she is mature and stable, and does things well, but she thinks this is irresponsible, and the temper of making sarcastic remarks afterwards is close to the so-called unlovable type of people.Indeed, she loves the character who likes to make mistakes more than the character who looks like an adult in every way, she is a child. Alice had something to say to the two sisters when it was time to end the two hers.She gave her final lectures like a teacher to a student.She said, "I can't divide you into two people anymore. It can't be done. There are two people in one place in the world, and there are always two ideas and two dreams—exactly, when it comes to dreams, I am very tired, and the sky is so different. It's so dark, I should go to sleep! I can't quarrel over a little opinion to the point of no resolution, so that even if there is a compromise at the end, it will still be a pain for me. I understand that in my lonely season , I have two for fun, but I am dizzy because of you. I am afraid of the impact. I remember my aunt telling me that I am dizzy with cerebral congestion and nervous disorders. Where can I find a doctor at this time when you are arguing about such a terrible disease for the two of you? And I have never had two dreams at the same time. My aunt, Mrs. Gregory Foyce, has never said it. Make an exception tonight!" So the Alice sisters who loved to discuss, study, debate, and quarrel were sent away and never came back.After this side has been quieted, I will tell the reader where Alice is at this time. This is indeed a Chinese family.The place where Alice lived was an elm desk drawer box against the east wall of this family's house.If this box is counted from the top, it will be the first, and if it is counted from the bottom, it will be the fourth.According to the European example, except that the tabletop can be regarded as a roof garden, this place should be called the most humble roof.But according to the Chinese saying, this is the most favored place.Because the lowest floor is the old draft (that is, the so-called old customers).The second floor is lived in by family letters, the host and guests from the same country.The third layer houses letterhead envelopes, which can be said to be imperial envoys. (The imperial envoys only live on the third floor!) Others put Alice on the top floor very politely, which is really considered rude to foreign guests. The house is an ordinary apartment building, not very big, less than one foot in width and less than five feet in length.This, of course, could not be mistaken for the chest of drawers in which Miss Alice now lived.Not to mention that it was much smaller than the Poria Hotel where Alice stayed in China.This small place is worthy of a little tedious description, not the furnishings in this house.Apart from an elm table and two tofu-style elm armchairs, there is only one bunk bed, one lamp, three and a half gray walls, and a dark white rectangular roof.Even though the floor can be a rare luxury ornament in a certain place, the floor in this room has been peeled off where the paint is often trampled on, and the joints are all open and swallowed. Grey, it makes people feel very disgusting.It should be said that it is the temporary owner of the house. In this room lived a mother and a daughter. The mother was fifty-two years old, but the daughter was less than fifteen years old.The old man was a very small woman with a country air and a healthy spirit.The daughter is about the same size as Miss Alice (but if you stand with Alice and look at your height, you should call Alice the eldest sister), but in fact she is older than Alice who has just turned twelve. Two years (in other words, she had two more fun New Years), fourteen and a half years old, half a year older than the third sister of Alice's family! The old lady who is a mother is holding a book in her hand, reading it slowly, putting a kind heart on the characters in the book, and smiling.The old lady in the book is herself, but that is herself more than ten years ago.Because the book said that the old lady showed the killed chicken to the children with a smile, and the children shyly said that the chicken had won the battle just now, and everything was just as it was.Now the naughty kid who secretly caught the caged chickens at home to fight with other people's chickens can write down this experience with a pen and print it into a book.The old man thought of other things from the book, and returned to the present from the past, and still found it funny! The daughter's name is Yibin.Yibin was standing at the window at this time, (our readers, never suspecting that it is night like Miss Alice!) reading her primer in French in the sunlight at the window.When I couldn't read five new words in French, I turned around and called Mom again.According to the rules, when reading from signal to maille, or from caille to ail, the word "ma" is added in the recitation, although the sound of "ma" is not much different from maille, mothers can understand it , Just casually agree to say ah or oh outside of reading.On the other side, after calling mother, you can ask some questions as you like, and those who are reading on this side should also answer the questions, and sometimes say a little more besides answering the original questions.You can ask whatever you want to ask questions, from looking at treasures in the Three Palaces to eating March berries in your hometown, you can't just answer the questions.For example, in some seasons, the question is to know how many city gates there are in Beijing, but my mother answers that the city is not as good as the country. If I transfer the question to a book that the mother reads like this, that's a good idea. Bin was about to laugh at his mother.He smiled and said that his mother would eventually become a nerd when she grows old.Bookworm, it is said that the third uncle is usually called by people like this, he is wearing a tattered light moon white bamboo cloth shirt, there are small holes in the front and back of the soles of the shoes, and the socks are full of eyes and toes, so that the head is exposed to cool off , and his face was as dirty as if he hadn't wiped it with a towel for five days, and he liked to use the word "also" and "zhi" when speaking.This is what mother said.Just think about it, if your own mother has become like this, how funny it is! Yi Bin laughed that her mother would become a nerd, but her mother would not tell the difference.Sometimes while dealing with Aijiao's daughter, I still read the book in my hand.Sometimes the mother put down the book, and as soon as the mother put down the book, Yibin could no longer read francaise elair.Like a bird thrown into his mother's arms, he put his face on his mother's shoulder, stubbornly and mischievously asked his mother why he was so fascinated by the passage in the book, and continued to use an old man's tone when his mother answered wrongly. Repeat it to my mother, and laugh shrilly.Mother could not find anything to say in such a situation except to laugh.At the end of this scene, Yibin has short black and green hair on his head, and he has to ask his mother to use a small comb to fix it with his hands, because all he needs to do is move around his mother, laughing wildly and shrugging his shoulders and shaking his head. Hair must be disheveled, this has become a habit in Yibin's character with a good mother, and like an old man's hands, with such a daughter by his side, a haircut has become an almost necessary habit. In the weather in Beijing, three-quarters of the time in June is daytime. In this season of February, even though it is February, the days gradually feel longer.The long days (it was the long nights that Miss Alice suspected of hiding in the drawer), Yi Bin and her mother exhausted her just as they said.My mother sometimes falls asleep when she gets tired of reading.Depending on the day, Yibin went to another room in the morning or afternoon, reading French at two o'clock from a fourth-year French student at a university, and listening to a story or half a story from another.Some of you have heard half of the story, right?That is to say, you often have to force your elder brother to tell a story or two, but if you don’t tell it, you can’t do it, so your elder brother has to fabricate it at will. Most of the stories that are fabricated at random can only tell the beginning of the story. It was very pleasant to hear, but in the end it was fruitless.Or just come up with some kind of big bug out of thin air, and later, for the sake of convenience, this big bug often turns into a mule or a little pig with fancy feet.That's exactly how Yi Bin listened to a story or a half of it from that second brother.There is still a small part of the story in the story, but if you don’t understand it, Hengshun will never understand it, and if you understand it, you don’t need to explain it and be innocent. In short, there is such a thing. Yibin also has a second elder brother who is also a guest here. For example, there is Mr. Nuoxi and Miss Alice in the Fuling Hotel, which is not a coincidence.In this way, it is easy to understand how Alice came to stop here in the box of drawers.Anything that is too obvious is tasteless, but I might as well say it clearly, and tell people who read this book: Miss Alice came to China because of Yibin's second brother!If anyone wants to ask why they rely on Yibin's second brother, then he is a fool. He can only sit in the meeting place where Dr. Starling is welcome, and make fun of Dr. Starling or the "authority of Chinese thought circles". Born fat, he would really like to worship that duckling who can shed oily tears as his godmother. Yibin's second brother, who was in the other house, was a thin, medium-sized man with the appearance of a college student. He was a retired soldier who had been a regular soldier in the local army for four years.This soldier, up to now, can be seen to have received good sergeant training. Although his face is pale and thin, he is in good spirits, his waist is straight, his legs are straight, and he still walks like a soldier.His personality is calm and seems to be melancholy. Except when he hears his mother joking and learning stories to tease the younger sister to let her go to her mother's brother, she rarely speaks casually.The past experience and the life in front of him bothered the young man, just like when his mother and sister were laughing, something bit his heart after laughing.Although this situation, he can always use a child's laugh to hide it well, so that the mother will not know.In addition, it is useful to understand that this person is in his mid-twenties and has never had a wife. By a strange fate, this man escaped from the army with thirty-one dollars and a strong body capable of withstanding hunger and cold, and settled down in this big city for his future life.From the age of thirteen, in a small place in southern China, he served as a supplementary soldier for two and a half years, as a regular soldier for three years, as a regular soldier for one year and seventy months, as a sergeant for one year, and for one year and three months. Secretary of the Communist Party of China, a country youth with such an unexciting one-page resume, ran to the city of Beijing full of knowledge and snobbery, and spent every passing day with the spirit of Hanako. found purpose in life, and built incalculable amounts of human friendship and sympathy. It was almost an accident. While here, Yibin's second brother was gradually getting familiar with a life situation that he often felt strange to himself, the mother in the country wrote to his second brother just like Yibin was a mother.The letter said that over the past few years, the official position of my father who returned to his hometown seemed to be getting bigger and bigger every day, but the place was also getting poorer every day.It is also said that in the past few years, the local people took knives, knives, guns and guns to neighboring counties to protect the environment and relieve the people. .He also said that my father was getting old and my mother was equally lonely, so I thought it would be very appropriate to come to Beijing to see the red walls and green tiles when I was sending my younger sister to study.He also said that the third brother was only a captain with 500 junior military school enlisted students in the village, and he had to leave the local area in case of war, so he also agreed with his mother and sister's northward journey.At the end, it is said that those who want to understand are whether the second brother is willing or not, and how capable he is.The reply was of course very good.He decided to use his right hand as a tool, hoping to make the three of them survive.One is a mother with a short life, and the other is a younger sister who has a long life. For the happiness of the two, he does not care about his ability, and is determined to live in Beijing, which is not easy to support. As the second elder brother, all he can think of is how to make the old man happy with a good hope for the near future.He understands that the happiness of the younger sister is the happiness of the old man. He thought that his youngest sister should not drop out of school like him. He thought that she should be allowed to acquire all the knowledge a person should have at the age that her mother saw.He hoped that the younger sister's growth would help the old man to be satisfied with her own later life.He himself suffers from a heart disease and his nose often bleeds, and under certain unknown circumstances, the shadow of sudden death often covers his heart. It is a necessary thing for my sister to save for her happiness in her future life.He promised the younger sister all the expenses for her future studies, and he often thought that the younger sister could go to France to learn French, and he was optimistic about being able to translate the second brother's novels, forgetting the pitiful and helpless life in front of him. The distress of a woman in love. Being sick is what he often has.In the life of an aristocrat, it was a terrible disease.The symptom is that as long as the body is slightly overworked, the nosebleed will inevitably flow out, and after the bleeding, the appearance of the person will change completely.However, thinking that as long as they fall down, this lovely day of the family will be over, even though they are tired, they still have to get up.During his illness, he tried to hide his physical haggardness and mental exhaustion due to illness. While trying to converse with his mother, he had to spend his brain thinking about a piece of paper about the life of the three of them in his own room. The actions of characters on tragic comedy.Write down the characters on the paper, the most exciting parts of life, and at the same time, you have to write down the irrelevant, trivial, and popular plots that are often cited as interesting, and then slowly introduce this character from real life. Going out of boredom on the Internet, giving this person a legendary or romantic opportunity other than real life, so in the end this character commits suicide——suicide, an interesting term in many times!To say that a woman commits suicide in pursuit of love, or that a man commits suicide because of his lover's inability to commit suicide, as long as the words are strange and fit the most shallow and shallow outlook on life and dreams of young people, that is how easy it is to be popular and easy A thing of fame!Although he has never heard of a woman who really needs love, and he has never thought of committing suicide when he is in extreme pain (on the one hand, he often feels that even though he is in pain, he can only see its depth in a smile. The cry of blood and tears and death is the ultimate tragedy of life,) However, suicide is a very important thing in general terms. ——If the character on paper finally commits suicide successfully, the author will be saved materially. "However, this is impossible," he wrote to a friend, "because I can't make the characters in my book full of blood and tears out of thin air, so the result is that many of them are not in line with the spirit of the times, and the market will be poor." It's very bad, and the philistines are willing to use this spiritual horse to pull the cart, but they can't negotiate a good deal. It's really embarrassing. For the happiness of the family, should they be forced to adapt to this modern blood-tearism? Still can't. Can't cater to it This gust of wind, to do things that cannot be done, so I had to put down the desire for money and women, and work hard to write articles that the world has not noticed. Fortunately, there are still those damned readers and manuscripts that violate the modern megalomaniac Or, so I just hope to continue my predestined life.” This is true, he can only do this, this man is close to a fool! It was the fool's idea to keep Miss Alice in a box of drawers.He could have sent her to the Fuling Hotel and had daily meetings with Mr. Nuoxi.Hengshun is a guest staying in the south of China. Every day, he has half a dozen opportunities to see other people’s meetings. Every day, he can go to at least one place to watch the speeches or conversations of great Chinese writers three times. Every day, he can encounter one unexpected event. (For example, listening to a big man talk about a kind of doctrine, this doctrine will be different according to the weather), but Yibin's second brother has left Miss Alice behind for no reason.He thought in his heart, if Alice came to China, if what she saw was only listening to the story of the servant Er Niu Xue from the Fuling Hotel, when she went out with Mr. Nuoxi, she would have to ask for help for a poor Chinese like an English gentleman and a Japanese hero To kill him, and to go to a meeting-place to hear the birds quarrel, would not be wonderful.Mr. Nuoxi is an elderly man, so stay or is very suitable, but Miss Alice is not suitable! When Alice came to China, what she saw was just these things, not what Yibin's second brother originally intended.What a long way to go from Europe to China!He seemed very sorry to have invited this little girl here, but there was nothing to see.He couldn't just stay in the Fuling Hotel like Mr. Nuoxi and send Alice back to the country alone.He couldn't do Alice to watch the excitement of the war. After looking at it for a long time, he wrote in his manuscript: ——My dear little girl, you have to understand China, just like every adult and child who comes to China, I understand it very well.But I am ashamed that it is at this season, even though it is the most lively season in China, you can hear the cannons every day no matter where you are (in the past, this is not the case except for the New Year), no matter where you can Every day you see the murder of one hundred or fifty people and news about various murders. You can see Chinese cultural characteristics no matter where you go. Even in places where China is said to have successfully revolutionized, you can easily find them. Kowtowing and bowing are examples of good habits, but if this is not "not cost-effective", it should be said that it is "not necessary".If you want to understand this kind of China, you must first learn the characters of your own country well, and then read the Chinese travel guidebook written by Mr. Nuoxi’s friend Habu Jun (I dare to include such a book) This book will soon be translated into French, German, Latin, and many other foreign languages).Once you read that good book, you will know everything about China.After reading this book once, it will be worth a year in China, so you should believe it.Although there will be another ten years of revolution, ten years of fighting, three dozens of prime ministers, fifteen dozen military leaders, one hundred times the most fashionable political doctrine, and ten thousand times the best slogans, China will still be the same China as before.The situation in China will never be different from what Mr. Ha Bu said, and it seems that the two personalities in you will never be the same, not because you want to change.Since you admit that you have two personalities, you have to believe that the situation in China cannot be different in ten or twenty years.You think that wherever China progresses a bit, it will change. There will be no more officials who pray to God, no more students who will be beheaded at will, no more markets where slaves are resold by the catty, and no more human beings. It's almost gambling war, no more flies and bugs.The Chinese will be angry when they hear you say this.He would feel an embarrassing insult when you said that.You have to trouble him to read for you the motto of "Chinese learning is the body, Western learning is the spirit of Buddhism".If you are a soldier, he is not happy with you, and he can also say that you are a Communist Party. As long as you say that you are, you have violated the sacred law and some kind of holy religion, and you should be arrested or shot.The Chinese themselves often admit that they can do their part to preserve all Chinese culture. When officials want to fight, most of them scold their opponents with words like disobedience, so that they can mobilize and mobilize all teachers to gain fame.For small things, such as "tips", in the new various yamen, (a yamen is a place where unemployed people who have read or not read, sit in it, smoke, drink tea, and talk about leisure. In such places, Beijing and Nanjing have the most, and Shanghai has foreign idlers.) It is impossible to get rid of it. Those who work as servants know how to keep this rule and earn that unreasonable fortune.Other important matters are all about the happiness of a few adults and lords, of course they cannot be changed casually! …Second brother Yibin, I won’t continue writing here, so Alice went to live in a drawer in Yibin’s room.