Chapter 49 Section 89

In the room, he sat quietly on the sofa, looking at the photos scattered on him, as well as the copy of the marriage certificate. In the sound of his heavy and light breathing, there is forbearance and restraint.Then there is the boundless silence, like the rising tide of the sea, silently and slowly filling your head, engulfing you whole, and suffocating before you can survive. Finally, he looked up at me, and then looked down at the marriage certificate, with a sarcasm on the corner of his mouth, so clear and cruel, he murmured, as if talking to himself: "You, really belong to him!" ?”

I shook my head in pain, and after shaking my head, I really wanted to slap myself, yes, in front of those photos and marriage certificates, all denials seemed to be arguments. He looked at me, with a sad smile on his lips, and said, "You are so silent, don't you want to give me an explanation?" Explanation?I looked at him, the pain had made me unable to repeat the sad marriage history between me and Jiang Han like Mrs. Xianglin. I said, "Gu Lang, do you still remember what I said that day on Taiping Street, on your back?" ——Gu Lang, do you believe me? --I believe.

——Gu Lang, no matter what you hear or... see in the future, please believe me, okay? —Okay, I will always believe in you. Gu Lang looked at me, silent. I smiled, tears streaming down slowly, and I said: "Gu Lang, on your back that day was the happiest moment for me. Every time, every time I get tenderness and happiness from you, I am so scared, afraid that I will lose you and this kind of happiness.However, I feel that I have a clear conscience. My heart has been entrusted to you since I was thirteen years old, from the first time I saw you, and I never dare to change it. You gave me that flying bird pendant when I was fourteen years old. I have always hung it on my chest, because it is the place closest to my heart. I have watched you fall in love and embrace others since I was a girl. , Kiss others... Looking at your happiness, I will cry, but I will also smile, because I know that you are happy, and because you are happy, I dare not cry.I am afraid that I will be unlucky, and cry away your happiness.

I have always been like an ugly duckling, living in your beautiful shadow. For me, you are a god in the sky, even... Even after you told me that you love me, I never dare to mess around with you. I am not an obedient Persian cat, and I am not the kind of girl who is particularly literary and ladylike. I like to let my hair loose and wear baggy pajamas, I like to watch TV with my legs crossed, laugh and binge on popcorn, I like when my boyfriend messes with me, I just punch him, hit him, kick him, scratch him , Crying at him, making trouble at him, losing his temper at him.I like to live like a mortal in front of him, with flesh and blood and temper... But in front of you, I never dare!I wear delicate clothes, a neat ponytail, and a smile with eight teeth. I don’t dare to be too happy, I don’t dare to be too angry, and I live carefully in front of you... This is not the real me!This is Ye Ling!

Every moment with you, I worry about losing the next second. I have loved you for ten years, from when I was thirteen to twenty-three.During this period, I also fell in love, suffered from lovelorn, it didn't hurt or itch, just because my heart was taken away by you, so I couldn't find a better person to give my heart... Gu Lang looked at me, pondered, and said, can't you find a better person to give your heart to?Hehe, it was before Jiang Han appeared.After he appeared, what you delivered was more than your heart! I looked at him, his words made me very hurt, but I could also feel his heartache, I said, I have said so much, I just want you to know my heart... On Taiping Street, you are behind my back When walking that distance, I told you, "Gu Lang, no matter what you hear or... see in the future, please believe me, okay?"

Gu Lang looked at me, as if he was caught in that memory, his eyes trembled slightly, and he smiled bitterly. He said, that day, my answer was - "Okay, I will always believe in you".But now, Ai Tianya, tell me how I trust you! As he spoke, he dropped the marriage certificate at my feet. The piece of paper floated down gently and fell to my feet, just like my falling heart. I leaned over to pick it up, looked at him, and said, during the winter vacation of my junior year, he was in the United States. Because of a phone call, I provoked him, and he flew halfway around the world... and found my home, because of him, My mother mistakenly thought that Xiaotong was my child who was born to him when I was a teenager, so she came up with this marriage certificate... For the past two years, I have been thinking about divorcing him, but the first year he went to the United States , the second year...he came back, but still did not agree to divorce until the day before yesterday...

Gu Lang smiled sadly, and said, the woman I love is a writer, but please make up your stories more satisfactorily and in line with national conditions!The marriage certificate is not for the two of you, who can force you!You tell me, who can force you! My heart is infinitely sad. I looked at him and smiled bitterly. This is the ending I expected. I said, you asked me to explain it just now, and I knew it. Even if I explained it, you might not believe it...In this case, so be it. I said, so be it. Then, I turned around and left. Gu Lang was alert and said, where are you going? I turned around, smiled, and said, since you don't believe that I love you, why should I stay here?

Gu Lang said, you want to leave me? I nodded, looked at him helplessly, and wiped away my tears. These ten years were just a moment of happiness, but they exhausted all my energy... At the moment I turned to leave, Gu Lang stood up suddenly, pulled me back, and hugged me tightly. He seemed like a child who was afraid of losing to the extreme, with a hoarseness in his throat that was enduring pain. Said, Tianya, don't leave me! As he said that, his tears flowed down. It was desperate, compromising, helpless, but also extremely loving. He said, I believe in you, okay?I don't care if these are good or not!do not leave Me!

As he spoke, he put the ring on the ring finger of my left hand in a hurry, and said, under the ring under the diamond of this ring, there is a flying bird hidden, which is my heart. Sometimes, love can make people weak without restraint. Pain is extreme pain, hatred is extreme hatred, resentment is extreme resentment, but because of extreme love, the most feared thing is loss.So in this world, there are so many illogical forgiveness and forgiveness, just because of hopeless love. I also cried loudly in Gu Lang's arms, why am I not afraid of losing him. Gu Lang and I hugged tightly.

This is the second time I saw his tears. The first time was when he fled from Changsha back to Qingdao to see Ye Ling but learned of her death. Don't go back to the girl you love. He is a person with a tough personality, and the more he is, the more irresistible his tears are. At that moment, in his arms, my heart was as soft as mud, I was so clear and sure, this man loves me.