Chapter 20 Chapter 08 I Love My Family

For the turbo driver, Sunday was a dull day because Anna belonged to her family that day.It will be fine soon, when Anna comes back, every day will be his.Perhaps because he can't get it, the turbo driver feels that Sunday is the most important day of the week, and the busy week from morning to night is all for this day.This day belongs to home. The difference between single and non-single is whether you feel too free on Sunday.Now, the turbine driver is floating alone in Baohe Park, wearing a long windbreaker, and seeing all the people as a family, talking and laughing, children running, and kites shaking.The turbo driver's young stepmother led the turbo driver's father back to her natal home, and the turbo driver was suddenly placed on the order.The turbo driver is lazy, doesn't want to do anything, doesn't want to see anyone.This Sunday, Wang Gui took his wife and children back to his mother-in-law's house.They pulled us up early in the morning, carried us on the back of the car, and went to the gate one by one to have breakfast.Wang Gui told Anna, you take your son and daughter to mother's house first, and I will go to Qiguitang to buy an old hen and some fruit to take with me.Then he sent us to the station and rode away by himself.

The mother-in-law likes Wang Gui's family to come over, because she can see her precious granddaughter and talk to Wang Gui.The mother-in-law likes Wang Gui's intimacy and talkativeness. When she enters the door, she doesn't become a coquettish guest like her son-in-law. Instead, she stands in the kitchen and chats with the old lady, praises her mother's dishes, learns crafts, and looks around Is there a shortage of rice or salt? When should I replace the gas tank? When should I buy rice?Wang Gui was very clear in his heart, which made the old lady really happy that her son-in-law was chosen as caring as her son.

I also don't understand why the mother-in-law is difficult to serve, and the mother-in-law is easy to fool, in fact, they are both mothers.Grandma criticizes people is very interesting.The son and his daughter-in-law quarreled. Although she kept silent, she concluded afterwards that my son is honest and always bullied by his daughter-in-law.But if Anna quarreled with Wang Gui, the old lady would blindly favor Wang Gui: "You have too much temper! Only Wang Gui can be bullied by you." Sometimes, I wonder if, in the eyes of the old lady, she is just like a woman in the world black?Is it okay?

Wang Gui likes to go to his father-in-law's house very much. He owes everything to his father-in-law and mother-in-law. Because of his love for Anna and his love for his children, he naturally treats the children's grandparents as his own parents.There he was always praised by Anna and his mother-in-law.When it's time to eat, you don't need to touch your hands, the chopsticks will come to you automatically, and the rice will be served respectfully by Anna and held in front of your face.Occasionally, I need to wash the dishes politely, and my mother-in-law pushes it away, saying that I don't need you.This day is always a day when Wang Gui thoroughly enjoys life, so Wang Gui runs to his husband's family very frequently, and is very familiar with Anna's younger siblings, including their children, and the whole family enjoys themselves happily.

Anna was a little busy, she didn't know what was wrong, but when she was busy with her hands, she thought of the turbine driver. "I don't know where he is now?" When she stretched out her thumb to fight the bullfight with the little sister's child, and pretended to lose to tease the child, a thought came to her mind: "If the child's father is a turbo driver, there is no place here." Will it be so harmonious?" Shaking his head, he felt that he was a little nervous, everything was just passing by, and he had passed the age of fantasizing about love.Although, seeing the slightly melancholy profile of the turbo driver and his focused gaze, Anna still had the urge to touch his cheek from the bottom of her heart.That kind of intimacy and love has been buried deep in my heart many years ago.

Anna regards Wang Gui as her husband.Husband -- it seems to be called without any emotional color -- should be the father of the child, right?Or is it a member of the life mutual aid group?Work together to solve difficulties, negotiate with each other when there are conflicts, being together is for life, and have a companion for each other, but -- there is no love, there is no feeling that makes you look forward to being embraced by him from the bottom of your heart.Anna never had the urge to kiss Wang Gui proactively, and the most intimate move was just to slap Wang Gui on the forehead. As for the turbo driver, if Anna didn't use her mind and determination to control it, she might have already collapsed in his gentle arms, like two magnets that attract each other, embracing naturally.Anna often feels guilty recently, and she is also very gentle in front of Wang Gui, fearing that her little secret will be discovered.For several nights, Wang Gui was snoring peacefully by her side, and she was holding hands with the turbine driver in her dreams.

Anna's imagination stretched only as far as holding hands, and later she would dream that she was a mother with her two children walking ahead.Marriage is actually a shackle, whether you want it or not, once you put it on, you will voluntarily disarm and give up your freedom because of the existing commitment.Even the dreamland, the last private area, is monitored by invisible fences. When Anna was free, she flipped through Freud, trying to see if her five elements were messed up from that book.She always has those stream-of-consciousness dreams, such as a raging fire in the forest, a frightened deer running around in the thick smoke and cannot escape; or a snow-white and cold mountain like Mt. In the lake water, it was still the little deer, wandering by the water's edge, carefully putting its hooves into the pool to test.What is a deer?What is a mountain?what is waterwhat is fireWhat is the forest?Anna couldn't find an answer.Anna would rather dream of Guanyin knocking on her head and tell her the future directly than guessing like this.Anna has expectations in her heart, but she is also afraid that what she is looking forward to will actually appear.If nothing happened, Anna would be disappointed, and if it did happen, Anna would not know what to do.

Another person with constant stream-of-consciousness dreams is the turbo driver.The more than forty days of vacation were about to run out, and the turbine driver hadn't opened his mouth to confess his love to Anna.Seeing Anna's single-mindedness towards the child and Wang Gui's satisfaction with nothing else, the turbine driver thought of giving up several times.Think of it as revisiting the old place, remembering love.However, after so many years of loneliness, is it really over today?What to fill the days to come?I don't even have the motivation to keep fighting. Turbine Driver shudders at the thought of a future with no one to turn to, no one to even think about.The closer the return date is, the more impatient the turbine driver will be.Maybe there is nothing to see on the face, still leisurely and calm, but the heart is not under my control, and I start working at full capacity as soon as my head touches the pillow.Unlike Anna, the turbine driver’s dreams are concise, complete in content, and nothing symbolic. He always dreams that he can’t find the plane ticket when he goes to the airport, finds the plane ticket but can’t find the passport, and goes out without getting a ticket. When I arrived at the airport, the plane just vacated; or I missed the class because the school had already started after returning; or I just left Anna's house and went back, and the house disappeared.

The turbine driver suddenly became superstitious, the dream was a bad omen!Most of them are unlucky.Turbine drivers would rather believe the phrase "anti-dream".Perhaps, the dream was telling him that if he didn't speak out, his life would be wasted? The turbine driver asked Anna tentatively while playing chess: "Is it bad luck or bad luck when you have nightmares?" Anna replied: "Do you do it in the first half of the night or in the second half of the night? It's bad luck in the first half of the night, and bad luck in the second half of the night. If it's a nap Yes, it’s just a daydream.” Holding up the chess piece, Anna couldn’t see any curiosity on her face, and she didn’t even ask the turbine driver what he dreamed about.Perhaps with Anna's ice and snow intelligence, she probably knew it. "Does the eyelid twitch? The left eye twitches money, and the right eye twitches disaster. Seeing that you are restless, you may be surrounded by evil spirits."

The turbo driver forced a smile, but felt bitter. He wanted to make fun of Anna, but felt the corners of his mouth heavy. The words that had been accumulated in his heart for decades suddenly popped out without thinking about the consequences. "Anna, don't you think that God has made people trick people? If it is the present era, if we go back to twenty years ago, maybe the two of us are already in the United States." The turbo driver's finger holding the dark Go piece stopped suddenly. "Yeah! My life has been ruined. But it's also balanced. There are not just one or two people like me, but a large number. I'm not the bottom one. Isn't Wang Xiaopei still in Changfeng Country and unable to come back? One must be content and learn to balance. Otherwise, he will never know what happiness is." Anna hugged the teacup and comforted the turbo driver with words that comforted herself countless times.

"What if, what if you have a chance to start again now?" The turbo driver didn't look up at Anna, and gently dropped the chess piece on the set position. "What's the meaning?" Ana looked at the turbo driver.The turbo driver also looked at Anna. "I want to take you away. We wasted 20 years in vain, and I am very distressed. But when I think about the future, maybe we still have 30, 40 or even more years, I don't regret it." "What's the meaning?" "Come with me and go to the United States. Everything is stable in my place now. You can do what you like, you can study, you can stay at home, in short, do what you like. I teach in schools, if you If you want to continue your studies, taking courses in our school is free of charge. You can keep studying.” "Are you kidding me? How old am I!" "How old are you? There are students in American schools with all-white beard and hair. What are you afraid of? With your foundation and intelligence, what do you have to worry about? Not to mention me." "That's impossible! What about the child?" "Of course I bring the child. It should be better for the child to live abroad than in China. Er Duozi is so smart. Although his grades are not good, I think it is a problem with the education system. A different environment should be more suitable for him to develop his strengths. The Chinese child went to In the United States, the foundation is better than that of foreign children. If you grasp the language, you will have better adaptability than us. Needless to say, daughters, girls are more popular than boys in Western society. If you like it, take it with you. Your child is me Children. At our age, it is impossible to have another child, and I will treat them as my own." "No! This can't be done! This is too unfair to Wang Gui! The fault of the times is not his fault. What's more, he loves children so much, and children are his lifeblood. His wife is optional, but children are not. If you take them away, you want his. Life!" Anna's initial refusal to go in the direction pushed herself into a dead end.From her words, the turbine driver could tell that it wasn't that she refused, but that she felt sorry for Wang Gui. "Of course it's not his fault. He's a good man, and a good man doesn't mean a good lover. Anna, don't you understand me?" The turbine driver was firm, "I know it's unfair to Wang Gui. Otherwise, the second eldest child will stay For Dad, let's take our daughter away?" Anna smiled wryly, and said, "I'm already forty, how can I talk about love? Life is not like a movie, where everyone is happy according to the ideal plot. In fact, there is no happy ending in this movie. It is not clear who will win." "It's never too late to talk about love. I don't even want to fight for it, so what plot can the movie have?" The turbo driver grabbed Anna's hand. "I, I haven't thought about this problem. I don't think it's possible. Is it too sudden?" Anna murmured in a daze. "Not suddenly, I've been waiting for twenty years. Don't think about anything, just promise me and say 'yes'!" Anna sat there, frozen into a statue.Neither good nor bad. "I'm leaving at the end of the month, and there are still six days left. Tell Wang Gui slowly, and I'll talk to you when necessary. I don't want to hurt him. If he has any requests, I will definitely satisfy them and do my best." Anna raised her big eyes, her face full of contradictions. "I won't be here these two days, so please tell Wang Gui well. I'll come to see you on Thursday morning." The turbine driver shook Anna's hand tightly, patted her on the shoulder, and strode forward without looking back. gone. Leaving Anna curled up like a question mark sitting on the sofa. There was a crisp and polite knock on the door, and Anna knew it was the turbo driver. "Sit." Anna pointed to the sofa. The turbo driver walked towards the sofa and asked, "Did you tell him?" "What kind of tea do you drink? Black tea or green tea?" Anna was looking for a tea pot in the glass door of the decorative cabinet. "No, thank you." "Drink Huangshan Maojian, our famous tea from Anhui. I think it can compete with Longjing." "So good? Then I'll try it. Have you talked to him?" "Hmm. Have you packed up the things you left?" Anna was opening the lid of the tea pot, but she didn't break it a few times. "I'll do it." The turbo driver quickly followed to open the cover for Anna, and then pulled Anna's finger over to check, "Does it hurt?" Anna smiled and withdrew her hand. "What did he say?" The turbine driver squeezed some tea and put it in the glass, went to the kitchen and filled the glass with half a glass of water. He held it in his hand and shook it gently. He did not look at Anna, but focused on it. Staring at the tip of the tea slowly unfolding in the cup. "Nothing. Is there anything else you need to bring?" The turbine driver gave Anna a very warm smile: "I'm leaving this time, I don't plan to take anything with me, I have an empty suitcase, and I can stuff you in it, saving me a plane ticket." Anna smiled, her eyes narrowed into half crescents, and a tear mole at the corner of her eye made her look very attractive, "You treat me like this? Am I not worth the money for a plane ticket?" The turbo driver laughed, and Ranana sat on the sofa, "I will send you an invitation when I get back. If necessary, I will come back to go through the formalities, and then I will pick you up and go with the child. Have you talked to him about the child's problem?" ?” Anna smiled and shook her head, "How could it be so fast? The U.S. government is like your family, and you seem to have everything in mind." "Anna, I've been waiting for so long, it's already very slow." "By the way, I'll show you the child's photos!" Anna got up and went to the bookcase, opened the bottom drawer, and took out a stack of photo albums. "This one is my daughter's 100 days. At that time, Wang Gui was helping foreign countries." "so small!" "Well, she was born prematurely, so it's not easy to take care of her. Now she can grow so tall that she surpasses me." "This picture was taken when my daughter was catching Zhou. The picture is not very clear, and the camera is not good. In fact, she has apples and books in her arms." "Why are you holding this?" "She caught it herself. The apple she picked for the first time, and the book she picked for the second time. That's right. Now it's delicious and good-looking books." Anna smiled very warmly. "What about this one?" "This picture shows the son and daughter playing with bumper cars in Xiaoyaojin." "The boy is so fierce? His eyes are staring at the boss, unlike now, he knows how to be shy, and runs away as soon as he is touched." "This is a photo of my daughter's performance, a little swan dancing. Her father was so excited that his head was under the stage, so it is very clear." "Yes, Not Bad." "This is my mother's 70th birthday, a family portrait. The one on the left is my sister, and this is my brother-in-law. The child in Xiao Wang's arms is my elder sister's grandson." Anna pointed to the child in Wang Gui's hand. "Why do gay men hug their children? When people take pictures, women hug them!" "I can't help it. If the child clings to him, Grandpa Six needs to hug him. He is destined to be a child." "This is Wang Gui's second trip abroad. Our family went to Shanghai to pick him up and took it at Hongqiao Airport." "Hey! Your daughter is really a big girl now, she is very beautiful!" "Yes, it grows really fast! ... and this one! This is Wang Gui taking the children on a pirate ship. I took this picture. I didn't take the picture well. The thing was shaking so high that I didn't dare to sit on it. Wang Gui took them to play." "what about this?……" "this……" The turbo driver started talking less.There was a silent sadness in the corner of his eyes.He has a very bad feeling.The torrential rain in last night's dream was pouring down on his heart now. He suddenly closed the album in Anna's hand, grabbed Anna's hand, and said, "Anna, I have seen your life in the past twenty years, very clearly. But you have not seen mine in the past twenty years. I'll show you." The turbine driver took out a wallet from his pocket, and carefully took out a yellowed black and white photo from it.The photos are a bit blurry, there are more than 30 people inside, sitting on the grass in the front row, squatting in the back row, and standing in the last row.The photo was small and crowded with people, so I couldn't see the facial features clearly, but Anna spotted the girl with two braids on the left side of the first row at a glance, smiling brightly.That's Anna.On the top of this photo is printed the words "All the teachers and students of Class 3 (2) of Experimental Middle School as a souvenir". "This is my twenty years, only this one." The turbine driver choked up a bit, his throat moved, and he restrained his emotions with his fist against his lips. "I took it with me when I was sent down. When I was in trouble, I thought, I have to live even for Anna. I took it with me when I went to study in Beijing. I know you are married and have children. I have nothing , I can't give you a good life. When I'm tired, I just look at it. When I went abroad, I didn't even have a person to talk to. When you laugh with your son and daughter here, I'm alone in the laboratory , talk to your photo in the middle of the night and think about what you might be doing in the distance." The turbo driver raised his face and controlled his wet eyes. "Anna, I love you. I know this is silly, maybe you have heard it many times, but I never said it. Anna, I owe you twenty years, and I will use all the days in the future to pay back. Without you, I Very lonely. I have always wanted to forget you, but I have never done it. Do you know what it feels like to miss someone for twenty years? Anna, I hope you can come with me." The turbo driver held onto it with all his strength. Anna's hand, he very much hoped to use his firmness and desire to make a final fight through this grip. Anna's face was extremely serene, with a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, and fluorescent lights flickering in her eye sockets.There is a piercing pain in the chest, the pain of parting from life and death.On one side is the love she has dreamed of all her life, and on the other side is her family that is entangled like her breath.On one side is the bright aura of the future, and on the other side is the mediocrity of reality. "I'm sorry, I can't go with you." Anna's voice was calm and gentle without any trembling. "I'm sorry. Time is like a river. It can only run forward and cannot turn back. People cannot step into different rivers at the same time, and it is impossible to have all the happiness. Now that it is gone, let the wind go." Ana wanted so badly to rest her head in the turbo driver's arms, but she insisted.She couldn't let this crowd ruin a decision she had made ten thousand times. Turbo drivers don't even know when they stand up.Before he left, he gently embraced Anna's head and kissed her hair, like coddling a child, with infinite nostalgia. "I'm leaving." He walked out of Anna's house quickly and closed the door gently. Anna sat absent-mindedly.She could no longer distinguish between dreams and reality, and she couldn't remember what she just said. "Am I talking about going with him or staying?" Anna was a little dazed. Anyway, either of these two choices is like flipping a coin to determine the outcome, and it doesn't matter to her. really?Does it really matter? The three or five clocks on the decorative cabinet struck eleven.Anna woke up suddenly, and she recovered quickly, as if she was reincarnated after death.It's time to cook, and in one hour, Wang Gui and the children will come back for dinner.I am a mom.This was the only thought in Anna's mind.She went to the kitchen to wash her face, she was as calm as if nothing had happened, and the turmoil in her heart also stopped instantly.She was busy washing the beans, slicing the meat, turning on the water, and turning on the TV, so that the sound of babbling and opera singing in the living room could be heard in the kitchen. "Brother Liu's speech is too unreasonable..." "Mom, I'm hungry!" The son rushed in first. "Let's have dinner right away, and wait for Dad to come back." "Mom, my math test paper is down." The daughter came back. "How many exams?" "79." "What happened? It's so bad?!" "The teacher gave a wrong question, and our monitor only got 92 in the exam this time..." "Are you ashamed to say? You are only over 70 when you take the test of 92! I warn you, you are not allowed to read novels next week! If you don't pass the test above 90, I will lock the bookcase!" Anna's role change was successful, she pulled her face, mother The feeling came back, no longer the weak girl who knew nothing twenty years ago. "Ouch! My legs are sore, I didn't even drink my saliva." Wang Gui rushed into the kitchen with his hands covered in chalk dust, "Turn on the faucet for me." Anna leaned over to turn on the faucet, and shouted, "Let's eat!" Anna brought the dishes to the table one by one.The son tapped the table with his chopsticks. "Anna, where's your cooking?" Wang Gui lifted the lid of the rice cooker and looked back at Anna. "Oh!" Anna covered her face subconsciously. "It's okay, it's okay. I'll make noodles today, and it will be ready soon." Wang Gui put on his apron and went to the kitchen to boil water. "Oh...! I'm starving to death! What's wrong, the logistics can't be done! Mom, you should just retire!" I began to wait for an opportunity to retaliate. On Sunday, Anna made dumplings for the family for the first time.Wang Gui stood behind and fought. "Add more water, add more." Anna commanded verbally. "Too much! There must be too much, I will add more noodles later. This is already a big pot of noodles." "Stop talking nonsense! I'll take care of you?" Anna is suffering from making dumplings.She is from Shanghai. After Wang Gui and Wang Gui, the two of them became neutral.One day, Wang Gui suddenly remembered the flat food made by his old lady in the country, and his mouth watered.Anna is not convinced, thinking that if she is a young lady from Shanghai, she can't beat his mother in the country when it comes to food?So I learned from my classmates in the north, but I didn't learn the authentic way. The table was full of flour, and the dumpling skins were not rolled smoothly.Despite this, we are still very happy, and eating dumplings is a big event in my house. "Hey! Your foxy man seems to be leaving today?" Wang Gui suddenly remembered when he was importing the dumplings. "Ok." "Why don't you go and give him off? You are so ruthless. There is no love in the business! You don't even give a fart, really." "Eat! What are you talking about! Shut up! You don't have anything else to say at the dinner table except the toilet!" Anna hates people talking at the dinner table without restraint. "Is there anything good to give? Let's just come and see it? Are you going to give it away? Finally, it's sent to the United States. You don't even have a wife." Anna said with a smile. "How is it possible, I don't know you yet? You can't go anywhere now. People say that an unmarried woman is a swallow and is free. A married woman is a dove and will come back when the time comes. A woman with children is a duck." , there is a string behind your buttocks. You hang one under your left wing, and drag one under your right wing, and you are still leading me behind your buttocks, where are you going!" "Yes, yes! If it weren't for you two little debt collectors!" Anna tapped me and Er Duozi on the heads with her chopsticks, "There is another old debt collector!" Then she tapped Wang Gui on the head again, "I I don’t even know where I flew to!” After finishing everything at night, Anna and Wang Gui went to bed and turned off the lights to sleep.Suddenly, Anna held Wang Gui's face in the dark, "You...have known me for so many years, it seems that you have never said 'I love you'?" "what?!" "Say, do you love me?" "Huh? Are you on your nerves today?" "Ask you, do you love me?" "Ok." "What does um mean?" "Well, that's right!" "No, you have to say it. If you have love in your heart, you have to say it." "Oh, how can we discuss this topic when we are in our 70s and 80s? Go to sleep!" "Okay! You won't be allowed to sleep if you don't talk today!" Anna was really angry. "My God, I love this thing, and there are people who force people to talk about it. If you don't talk about it, you won't sleep?! What is the world?!" "Do you love it or not! What does it matter if you tell me?" "Okay, okay, I'll tell, I'll tell, love." Wang Gui couldn't laugh or cry. "Love what?" "Not yet!" "What do you love?" "love you love you." "Say it all over again!" "Haha..." Wang Gui almost fainted from laughter, "Love is not based on words, love is based on deeds!" Wang Gui stretched out his hand to demonstrate. "You hate it!... not serious!" Anna hasn't gotten Wang Gui's complete "I love you" until now. (full text)