Chapter 29 Out of Yin and Yang
After the beginning of the Tianjin account saw a slight improvement, Qiu Taiji also wrote a letter to his family.
The family letters of the overseas personnel of the ticket number are usually sent back to the old account, and the old account then sends a message to the family members who receive the letter, asking them to come and pick it up.Qiu Taiji's letter was naturally taken back by Wen Yutian from the Tiancheng Veteran in the city.He saw that the letter was sent from Tianjin, which was a little strange.
Apparently, when Qiu Taiji was transferred from Xi'an to Tianjin, he was in such a hurry that he didn't write a letter to inform his family.
Mrs. Yao was also surprised when she saw the letter, and when she hurriedly opened it to read it, her heart was naturally overwhelmed again!In the past, it was so miserable to guard, and the man only improved step by step; the year before last, he broke the precepts and lost his integrity, but the man was different every year, and changed a lot every year.Isn't this God's retribution for her?She knew that it was a man's wish for many years to go to Jinhao to be an old gangster.When I was lucky in the past, it was still far away; now I am unlucky, but I jumped up with one step.So abnormal, who would have expected it?
Seeing Mrs. Yao sitting there in a daze after reading the letter, Yu Tian didn't dare to ask any more questions, and walked away quietly.
Ever since he had that relationship with the master's wife, Yu Tian was not like the Guo Yunsheng in front of him. He showed his pride in just a few days, and later, he regarded himself as half the master.The further he went, the more he felt that his sins were serious.On that cold winter night, it was the host's wife who kept him.But the lady is his benefactor, a benefactor like his mother, and he shouldn't take this step.
When the wife hugged him, she loved him so much, and he felt that there was also a lot of maternal love in it.So he didn't dare to indulge to enjoy this love.Madam is extremely warm and charming, but also extremely heavy!He knew that if he rejected this love, he would lose the wife of the host, but if he accepted this love, he would feel restless day and night.The better his wife treats him, the more he will think of the shopkeeper who is far away from home.One day, when the shopkeeper of the main family came back, how could he face it calmly?
Yu Tian talked to Mrs. Yao more than once about the difficulty she couldn't escape.Mrs. Yao always said, don't be afraid, I'm here.At that time, as long as you listen to me, nothing will happen!But she also sometimes said, what to do, what to do, who told us to come to this point?When he said that, how could he not be terrified!
Especially whenever the shopkeeper of the main house sends back a letter, the wife is always in a daze when she sees it.Yu Tian is a young man who is careful and sensitive, seeing this situation, his heart will be overwhelmed.Madame is in a daze like this, she must feel sorry for the man.He was the one who got madam in trouble!Therefore, every time the shopkeeper of the master's house received a letter, he always avoided seeing his wife until she forced him to summon him.He couldn't answer the call to see him, but every time he was in a heavy heart, and he had to say something like "I've hurt Er Niang, and I want to sue and quit my job".
When Mrs. Yao heard what he said, she was very moved and said, "You have such a heart, and I'm worth it! Even if you suffer a thousand cuts, it's worth it."
At first, when Yutian saw his wife say this, he hurriedly replied: "It's not worth it, it's not worth it! Who is Er Niang, and who am I? I ruined Er Niang, the sin is too great! Er Niang treated me as much as a mountain, let alone deserved it. "
Mrs. Yao seemed to be even more moved, and said: "You are so affectionate and righteous, why should I not deserve it?" Tears came down when she said that.
Yu Tian, what else can he say?It can only remain the same.Besides, if he left Qiu's house, he really had nowhere to go.
It was the same this time, seeing that his wife had a complicated expression after receiving the letter from Tianjin, Yu Tian quietly avoided it.But there is also a difference: several days have passed, and the wife has not summoned him.Yutian couldn't sit still anymore.Because in the past, within two days at most, Madam would summon him.Or, simply sneak into his place in the middle of the night.
This time, what happened?
Although Yutian hoped not to go any further, but the host's wife really ignored him like this, she still couldn't bear it in her heart.At first, he thought that something had happened to the master shopkeeper in Tianjin.But the more you look at it, the less it looks like.Something really happened, Madam wouldn't sit at home like this without any movement.If something happened, there is only one possibility: Madam has really repented.
Although Yutian has never been in a business, he knew from a young age that outside the mouth is a holy place for merchants, Xi'an is a big wharf, and Tianjin is even a big wharf.In less than two years since he came to Qiu's house, he witnessed the shopkeeper of the main family being transferred from outside the mouth to Xi'an, and then from Xi'an to Tianjin.He remembered since he was a child that his mother always hoped that his father could move to a place close to home to live in a business name, and of course he hoped that his father could change to the big wharf.But my father survived until his death, but he still did not leave the small distant pier.
Therefore, shopkeeper Qiu has long been a powerful figure in his mind.How could Madam offend such a noble man for such a lowly servant for a long time!Now that Shopkeeper Qiu has been transferred to Tianjin Grand Wharf, Madam must regret it even more.
It's not regret, it's also fear.
Such an imposing shopkeeper, once he knows about Madam, how can he spare her lightly?
Of course, I can't spare him as a lowly servant.He died without any complaints, but his wife was hurt!
By ignoring him like this, is it a signal to break up with him and tell him to leave as soon as possible?
But where can he go?
After losing his wife, the world became ice and snow again, so he had no choice but to die.
Or, as soon as possible, ask his wife to send him to a distant land to live in a shop and be an apprentice?
A few more days passed after Yutian thought wildly like this, but there was still no movement.His wife kept the door closed, which made him even more restless.
On this day, he finally couldn't bear it anymore, and took the initiative to call the hostess Shui Lian to stop, and asked: "It's been several days, and Erniang hasn't come out, is she sick? If I'm sick, I have to go see a doctor right away. "
"I'm not sick. I also asked, and Mom said she's not sick, just tired, and wants to rest for a few more days." When Xiao Shuilian replied, her face was bright.
Yutian was very afraid of seeing this brilliance, and hurriedly said, "It's good that I'm not sick. I should go too."
Shui Lian stopped him with a smile: "Yutian, why don't you spend a few days at leisure while Mom is not out? Come to the city with me today!"
Yu Tian even hurriedly said, "How can I be free? It's already autumn, and I have to go to the tenants to check the growth of the crops."
She still smiled brightly and said, "I don't care if the crops are crops or not, anyway, Yutian, you have to accompany me into the city!"
How can Yutian agree?I had no choice but to change the tone of begging and said: "Miss, what I eat is to serve the master's family. How can I not want to serve you when you go to the city? But the crops are a one-year thing, and now the tenants have many tricks, so I don't want to find out as soon as possible. Growth, when the crops are about to ripen, they will secretly harvest 10 to 20% for you first, how can you find out?"
"I won't listen, I won't listen! Anyway, you have to accompany me into the city!"
"What are you doing in town?"
"Let's take a stroll."
"But I ran away to the tenant by mistake, I can't tell Er Niang."
"Accompany me into the city, what can I miss you!"
"The season waits for no one..."
"Yutian, I can't order you?"
"I'm afraid Erniang will blame me..."
"I'm going to tell Mom!"
"I follow orders."
Seeing Xiao Shuilian ran away, Yutian was relieved.
Xiaoshuilian treats Yutian differently than she treats Yunsheng.She obviously likes Yutian too, she always likes to run around behind Yutian when she has nothing to do, asking questions.Moreover, she followed her mother's name and insisted on calling him "Yutian".Her mother repeatedly asked her to change the name, but she chose not to call it "Yutian, Yutian".She also asked Yutian to call her Shuilian instead of Miss.Of course Yutian dared not agree.
Before Yu Tian had an affair with his wife, he was of course very happy to see that the lady in charge didn't dislike him, so he tried his best to please her and coax her to like him.But ever since he had a supernormal relationship with his wife, Yutian felt guilty when he saw the lady, and always wanted to avoid it intentionally or unintentionally.This avoidance, on the contrary, aroused the suspicion of the young lady: Why doesn't Yutian like her anymore?
Xiao Shuilian went to her mother to complain.Mrs. Yao panicked when she heard this, and hurriedly asked Yutian in private: "Why did you provoke Lianlian? Don't mess with her, don't mess with her!" Yutian explained that he just wanted to avoid, and didn't mess with her.Mrs. Yao warned: Don't neglect her, absolutely don't neglect her!What was going on before, what was going on, I didn't dare to show any abnormalities.
Yu Tian is so young and a junior, how can it be possible to hide such an affair in his heart without showing any traces on the outside?Although he didn't dare to deliberately avoid Xiao Shuilian, it was also difficult for him to remain calm.And Xiao Shuilian was quite satisfied seeing that he was a little more shy like this: it was easier to control him.
Xiao Shuilian is just an eleven-year-old girl. She likes Yutian, but it's just a pure feeling.Growing up in a family where I didn't see my father or brothers for many years, I naturally had a sense of novelty towards men.The aversion to Yunsheng and liking for Yutian are originally the two sides of this novelty.But Yu Tian, who was full of guilt and even a sense of guilt, couldn't deal with Xiao Shuilian calmly.
Shui Lian often made requests like asking him to accompany him into the city.If Yutian could evade it, she would.When I went out with her, it was too difficult to talk a lot in a calm manner, not to get too close to her, and not to annoy her.Therefore, what Yutian was looking forward to was that his wife would not allow her to accompany her into the city.
But Shuilian quickly ran out, and said to him proudly: "Yutian, Mom agreed, and asked you to accompany me into the city. She said that there happened to be a letter, and asked you to go into the city and hand it over to the letter bureau. Go, Mom is calling you!"
After hearing this, Yu Tian couldn't help being overjoyed: he didn't see his wife for only five or six days, but it seemed like how many days had passed!Today is considered to be under the light of Xiao Shui Lian, and I can finally see my wife again.He didn't pay much attention to Shui Lian, so he ran to see his wife.
I haven't seen her for a few days, and Madam is visibly haggard.When he entered, Madam didn't speak, nor did she look up at him, as if she didn't know he was coming in.Yu Tian asked timidly in a low voice:
"Shui Lian said there was a letter and asked me to deliver it to the letter office..."
Mrs. Yao still didn't look at him, but said coldly: "The letter hasn't been written yet. Go get a pen, ink, and letterhead. I said, write it."
To whom is this letter written and asked to write?In the past, when my wife wrote letters to shopkeeper Qiu, she wrote them all in her own handwriting.As for writing such inappropriate letters, Madam just confessed and did not dictate.
He was only thinking like this, but he didn't immediately go back to the accountant's room where he lived to get his pen, ink, letter and paper.
"Didn't you hear me?" Mrs. Yao asked sharply.
He just ran out quickly.After taking it, as soon as I licked the pen and put the paper on the paper, my wife began to dictate:
"A husband like a face—"
It turned out that he was writing a letter to the shopkeeper of the main house!When Yutian heard this, his hands trembled a little.
The letter from Jin has been received.Knowing my husband was honored to be promoted to the old gang of Tianjin, and my concubine was very honored.I would like to wish my husband to make contributions in the Tianjin account as soon as possible, and to repay the boss and the old account.Everything is fine at home, but Lian Er and Fu Sheng miss you very much, and so does my concubine.Husband told his concubine that he might have to live in Tianjin for three years before returning from get off work, and the concubine has no complaints.However, when the husband returns, the resurrection will be five years old!concubine word.
When Yutian was writing the first time, she was too nervous, and only focused on writing, without explaining the meaning, and barely comprehending what his wife dictated.It was not until the second time that the letter was transcribed clearly that I realized the meaning of the letter.Among them, the shopkeeper of the main house will not come back until three years later, which makes him most gratified.The wife has been angry recently, perhaps because she resents the man for being too ruthless.
When he presented the clear letter paper to his wife for review, seeing her face was frosty, he said: "Second Lord is also a hero among the shopkeepers, naturalized, Xi'an, Tianjin, one wharf is moved a year, and each wharf matches one. pier……"
Before he finished speaking, he suddenly heard his wife roaring at him:
"A heartless thing, you are a heartless thing too! You want to go to the dock too? They are all heartless things! You all go to the dock! They are all unfamiliar things..."
While roaring, he tore the letter in his hand to shreds.
Where has Yutian seen such a formation?He knelt down in a hurry, but he didn't know what he said wrong.
That day, Mrs. Yao's scolding was like heavy rain, and it lasted for a while.At the end, he said something that shocked Yutian even more:
"You go too, I won't support you anymore, let's go, let's go!"
He was blindfolded with fright, and did not know how to explain himself.His wife has kicked him out.
He walked out like a lost soul, startling Xiao Shuilian who was waiting outside.When asked in a hurry, he didn't speak.Shui Lian ran into her mother's room, and soon came out disheveled.
Shui Lian came to pester him again and asked, how could he have the heart to tell this little girl?He just said, "I don't know why Erniang is so angry. Maybe I think my handwriting is too ugly? Erniang is angry, so don't ask me anything."
After dismissing Shui Lian, Yu Tian also hoped that the host's wife was just speaking out of anger, not really trying to drive him away.
But he was wrong.The next day, Lan Ni, the maid in the wife's house, came over and said, "The second mother told you to send a message to you. You don't need to worry about anything. Pack your luggage and go find another job."
Madam really want to drive him away?He froze and didn't speak.
Lan Ni asked in a low voice: "Yutian, why did you provoke Erniang? You made her so angry, and she hated you when she mentioned you!"
Yu Tiancai said: "I don't know either? Yesterday, Er Niang was going to write back to Er Ye. She said something and asked me to write a sentence. After finishing writing, she got angry. I really don't know why."
"You didn't write according to Erniang's intention, did you?"
"How dare I!"
Lan Ni asked some stupid things again, and Yu Tian didn't want to say more to her, but just told her: "You can answer Er Niang, I have no complaints when I leave. In the past two days, I have run away from the tenants and checked the crops of each family. Get up, and go."
Lan Ni said, "Leaving the Qiu family, where are you going to make a living?"
"Hurry up and call Er Niang back!"
Sending Lanny away, he really went out of the village to the tenants' fields.
Lan Ni, who was a bit silly, knew that she was worried: where would she make a living after leaving the Qiu family?But he stopped thinking about it.Take one step, count one step.Last night, he hardly closed his eyes. He had thought over and over again how many times, if he really left Qiu's house, he would never return to his uncle's house.The first choice was to go to the camel puller and follow him outside the mouth.The camel family didn't want him, so he went out of the mouth by himself.He believed that as long as he walked out of the mouth, there would be a way out.
At night, he also thought about how his wife got angry.He said the wrong thing: she shouldn't have praised the second master when she resented the second master's ruthlessness.Maybe he really showed envy for the docks stationed in other cities?But the madam's anger seemed to really wake up his dream.
He should really think about the future.I can't always be like this, spending my whole life with the wife of the host.I am also a man, so I should go to the docks of other cities to make a living.You can't be stationed at a big pier like shopkeeper Qiu, at least you have to find a small pier to live like your father did.
In short, because of his wife's anger, Yu Tian really yearned to come to the docks in other places.
With such yearning, Yutian not only lost his depression, but also seemed to inspire a kind of maturity.He ran non-stop to more than a dozen tenants of the Qiu family, and was away for three days.During this period, he never went back to Qiu's house, and lived in the nearest tenant every night.
It was not until the evening of the third day that he returned to Qiu's house.As soon as he entered the gate, the gatekeeper called out: "Yutian, you're back!"
"What's wrong?"
"Go in quickly!"
Whoever I met when I came in, they always said the same thing: "You are back!" Later, when she met Lan Ni, she even screamed and said, "Yutian, you are back! Erniang scolds me every day, and thinks I let you go!" You're leaving! You have to make it clear to Erniang that it's you who want to leave, not me telling you to go..."
"What's the matter?"
"As soon as you left, Erniang scolded me every day! She could scold me eight times a day! When you finally came back, I will report to Erniang."
"In the past few days, I have been running away from tenants, have I told you?"
"Er Niang didn't listen to what I said. Go ahead and tell me, and I'll report it right away!"
After Lan Ni ran in, Yutian stood in the courtyard and waited for a while, but seeing no movement, he had no choice but to go back to his residence.
Not long after, Xiao Shuilian came and asked him where he had been so angry these days, and told him in a low voice: "Damn is getting more angry, you have to be careful when you see whoever scolds you!" After speaking, she ran away quickly.
However, until it was completely dark, Madam did not call him.It seemed that she was really angry.She thought he was angry with her after he left for the past few days?Lanny may not have made it clear.Since coming to Qiu's house, he has never left for a day.It is inevitable that she is angry.He ran the tenants with all his heart and soul, without any grievances or grievances.
If she is so arrogant, she won't take back her life and leave him behind.
Although he was a bit reluctant, he must take this step sooner or later.
After running for the past few days, he was also tired.After washing and rinsing, I fell asleep and fell asleep soon.After an unknown amount of time, he vaguely heard a cry, which seemed to be far away and near, and somewhat familiar, but he couldn't find where the person was.I was looking for it in a hurry, and suddenly I woke up.
In the darkness, the cry remained the same, only more clearly.
Shocked again, he saw his wife sitting on the edge of the kang couch.
He hurriedly sat up and was about to go down to the ground, but his wife stopped him.
"Sleep in your bed! Make me so angry, you sleep soundly! They are all heartless things..."
"I was rushing to run away from the tenants..."
"Who knows where you went, you heartless thing!"
"Seeing that autumn is getting cold, I really..."
Madam hugged him and didn't let him speak any more.
That night, Madam was extremely sentimental, but he was not allowed to ask any more questions, let alone explain one more sentence.
At breakfast the next day, Madam asked to prepare an extra pair of bowls and chopsticks on her dining table, and spread the word: "Although Yutian is young, he has made great achievements as a housekeeper. A few days ago, I went to run away from tenants and worked tirelessly. Do your best. From now on, Yutian will have meals with our mother and daughter. Be careful not to neglect him!"
This surprised Yu Tian again!
There is a difference between master and servant, that is a big rule.Madam Yao publicly treated him as the same as the master's family, although he didn't expect it, but he knew Madam's intention: she did not hesitate to make the matter public, but she wanted to keep him, right?However, how could he accept such high treatment with peace of mind!
But he couldn't refuse.Just as he was hesitating, Shui Lian came over and took him to a seat.On the seat, Madam has no complaints, she talks and laughs calmly, and is in good spirits.Shui Lian was also very happy.But he couldn't be happy with them.
A few days later, there was a temple fair in a neighboring village.The first day of the three-day temple fair was very lively.This is probably because there was a boxing chaos last year, and the situation was unstable in the first half of this year. There was no temple fair for more than a year.
Mrs. Yao heard that the temple fair was very lively, so she told Yu Tian: "You ask them to find out what play is written. Later, we will also take a car and go to the play."
Yutian said, "Then I'll go. If you find something worth buying, buy some."
Mrs. Yao said, "Yutian, you also have to learn how to control people! You can't just know how to work hard on yourself. I hired these servants just to ask you to control them. If they are not enough to manage, let's hire them again."
Yu Tian said, "I'd better go shopping. Besides, I also want to catch up with the fun."
Mrs. Yao said: "If you are willing to go, that's another matter. But you have to learn how to manipulate people! Don't say that I love you, how can you be a housekeeper for me without any ostentation!"
In the past, Yutian would burst into tears after hearing these words.Now, he felt a kind of oppression.
The temple fair in the neighboring village was really lively.But he inquired a few places, and they all said that this year he only wrote back a small theater troupe called "The Wind Stirs the Snow".Because of successive years of drought, coupled with the boxing chaos, the money returned from the village's public share is not much, and it cannot afford to write a big theater troupe.
"The wind stirs the snow" refers to the singing style of the Caotai wild opera troupe in that era, that is, they sang big operas and Yangko minor tunes.Kungfu is seen in big dramas, which have a large scale, but also have big rules; Yangko minors can improvise.In order to make a living, the small opera troupes also come together with the big opera Yangge, and the audience sings whatever they like.At that time, Yangko, which was popular in Qitaiping area, had formed its own system and had its own simple repertoire.Although the repertoire is simple, it is very popular because it is collected from the villagers and most of them are based on personal relationships between men and women.Of course, the small theater troupe has to compete for "the wind stirs the snow".
But even a well-behaved young man like Wen Yutian also knows what will happen when singing "The Wind Stirs the Snow" at night: it's still good to make a few lewd words!
So Yutian concluded that since there is only "wind and snow", Madam probably won't come to the theater.He walked around the meeting and saw that charcoal was very cheap, so he asked for two carts and brought them back.
When Mrs. Yao saw him buying charcoal, she shed tears without asking a few words.Yutian couldn't figure out what was going on, so his wife said: "The year you first came, you were frozen sick to buy charcoal! Did you forget?"
Yutian quickly said: "That's because I don't know how to do things, so don't mention it."
But he knew in his heart that what Madam was thinking about was not this matter, but that cold winter night, when he went to fill a pot of charcoal fire, she refused to let him go.But when he bought charcoal today, he didn't think of it at all.
After dismissing the charcoal seller, the wife asked him, "Whose play are they writing back?"
Yu Tian said: "I didn't write back to the serious theater troupe, I just called in a wild troupe of 'Wind and Snow'."
The lady actually said: "'The Wind Stirs the Snow' also has its lively boundaries. I haven't seen a play for more than a year, so let's go to have fun. Have you posted the play report tonight? How many plays are there? ?”
"It's written in the opera newspaper that there is a Wu Yangko "Cuiping Mountain" and a big play "The Legend of the White Snake". But this kind of wild troupe, it will sing for you according to the opera report? I don't know where it got messed up!"
Madam resolutely said: "It doesn't matter what, let's go! I'll take a car and go there in the afternoon, catch up with the meeting first, and then go to the theater."
Madam did not shy away from "wind churning snow" at all, which made Yu Tian very afraid.In the past, Madam was extremely cautious on the outside, what's the matter now?Madam, if she really wants to watch "The Wind Stirs the Snow", she must be with him to the end.Eating at the same table with her at home, and "stirring the snow" with her on the theater, wouldn't that make their personal relationship public?Is she acting like this out of anger, or does she really want to take this step?
Yutian didn't dare to think deeply.Madame is kind to him.He couldn't ruin Mrs.But he can't stop it.When he was in a hurry, he thought of only one person: Xiao Shuilian.
He hurriedly told Shui Lian the news that he was going to catch a show later in the afternoon.When Shui Lian heard this, she was of course very happy, and ran back to choose clothes.
For a while, the wife didn't ask him to go.It shows that Madam agreed to take Shuilian there.Yu Tian breathed a sigh of relief.If you bring water lotus, you won't be watching "The Wind Stirs the Snow" very much.
When they went out later in the afternoon, a carriage was really full. Mrs. Yao, Shui Lian, and Lan Ni hugged Xiao Fusheng, and they also pulled a few benches for watching the theater.Madam also asked Yutian to squeeze in, how could he squeeze in!
But when it came to the meeting, Mrs. Yao insisted that Yutian accompany them for a stroll.Yutian said that he first moved the bench to occupy a good space in the theater.Don't worry if Madam refuses to let me say that no man will follow!He had no choice but to accompany the stroll.
Madam supported his shoulders from beginning to end, and squeezed through the crowd generously.Yu Tian felt extremely uneasy!Fortunately, in the atmosphere of the temple fair, no one paid much attention.Even Shui Lian and Lan Ni who followed her didn't care.
When entering the arena at night, Madam asked Shui Lian to sit on one side next to her, Yu Tian to sit next to her on the other side, and Lan Ni to sit on the other side next to Shui Lian.Yutian was a little embarrassed, but his wife couldn't explain it.Looking at the atmosphere in the theater, he seemed to be more tolerant, not caring about anyone, so he felt more at ease.
The martial arts show at the beginning was just chaotic, instead of good kung fu, the dust on the stage was rising and flying towards the audience.There seemed to be few people watching the play in the theater, and it was noisy.So when the martial arts show ended, Shui Lian and Lan Ni were both dozing off.Fusheng also fell asleep in his wife's arms.
Yu Tian said, "Er Niang, we didn't see the show well, so we should go back. Seeing them stumbling around, are you here to suffer?"
Mrs. Yao said, "Tell them to take the car back, let's watch, the serious show hasn't started yet."
When she was talking, she woke up Shui Lian and Lan Ni, and told her to hug Fu Sheng and go back to the village by car.He also confessed that there was no need for carriages and horses to come again, and he carefully closed the door.She has Yu Tian to serve her, so after the show, she can just hire a sedan chair.Yutian had no choice but to send them to the car and explained to the driver.
As soon as he came back and sat down with his wife, he felt her feet stretched out and hooked his legs.
It was late at night after the re-opening of the play, and the big play was not sung seriously, so it was "wind and snow".Yutian really hasn't experienced this scene, and always feels uncomfortable.Seeing the deadly place, I simply feel ashamed.
But Madam is like a raging fire, she doesn't care about anything, she just lets the wild wind blow her.Before the play ended, she pulled Yu Tian and squeezed out of the theater.He didn't hire a car or sedan, just held Yutian's hand tightly, talked wildly, and walked into the wilderness.
The mad lady in the wilderness really frightened Yutian.
It was this night that made Wen Yutian make up his mind.
Half a year later, he really followed a camel caravan and left without saying goodbye.This is the result of his secret efforts for half a year.Taking advantage of the opportunity of going to the city to buy and do business, he found an old friend of his father, entrusted him as a guarantor, and obtained an apprenticeship outside his mouth.
Mrs. Yao almost went crazy after she was convinced that Yu Tian would not come back.Strangely, it didn't take long before she seemed to quiet down.What's more, this time she returned to the old days of persevering, only waiting for the man to come back from get off work.This is something.
In those few days, the villagers around Longquan Temple in Fengshan also wrote a few operas in order to thank the Dragon King.Due to the donation from the firm, serious theater troupes are invited here, and the temple fair is also large in scale.
It's just that the Kang family has no habit of going to theaters, let alone going to theaters like temple fairs.Therefore, no one in the Kang family took it seriously when they heard that Longquan Temple was singing an opera.Only Rumei was a little moved.
After the situation calmed down, the old man let go: Hurry up and talk to the Chang family in Yuci, pick a date, and marry Meimei over.Then, the two ends were stretched out, and the auspicious day was set on the sixth day of September.
In this regard, Rumei is very sad.She felt that the old man was eager to drive her away!Ever since she met that mysterious old nun in Fengshan, the old man has been estranged from her.Although her father didn't alienate her, he also warned her not to think wildly, let alone inquire about things she shouldn't know.She really wanted to listen to her father, but the more they were like this, the more she couldn't let go.
Seeing that she is about to get married and become a married woman, I am afraid that it will be even more difficult to travel.Looking back on Girls' Generation, what Rumei regrets the most is that she was not able to take a few more trips with her father.After finally going to the south of the Yangtze River, it happened that the old lady passed away.As soon as I arrived in Hangzhou, I rushed back day and night!
Just when she was so sentimental, the thought flashed out again: I just painted the portrait of the old lady in the early winter of last year, fell ill in the twelfth lunar month, became seriously ill in the first month of this year, and died in February?This seems to be step by step, arranged?Although the painting of the old lady is a Western portrait, the size is the size of the portrait... On the way back from Jiangnan, Rumei once asked her father about this question, and was reprimanded by her father.
But now this doubt has not disappeared, it has become a kind of temptation: Rumei really wants to visit the nunnery in Fengshan privately again, to see if she can meet the newly deceased old lady...
At Rumei's age, once this idea is formed, it cannot be suppressed; the more you suppress it, the more you want to try it.What's more, she's used to being willful again.As Girls' Generation is coming to an end, she doesn't want to let go of this adventure.
It's just that she couldn't find an excuse to go to Fengshan.Those coachmen, tell them to go anywhere, but no one wants to take her to Fengshan.She suspected that this was an order from the old master, and no one dared to disobey it.
So, as soon as I heard that Longquan Temple in Fengshan was singing an opera for a meeting, I wanted to take the opportunity to go there.But she can only pester her mother.Although my father was at home, he was so busy that it was difficult to see him.As for the mother, not only did she not let go, she even spoke out to her.The mother is now the main mother-in-law, blindly guarding the rules of the Kang family, scolding her for being unruly.Rumei had no choice but to give up.
But after a while, she had an idea.
She pretended nothing had happened, and stayed up late before going to see her mother again.The mother thought she was pestering her again, so she lowered her face, and said hurriedly, "Mom, what's the matter? I can't come to see you?"
Mother snorted and said, "Who knows what's good for you!"
"Then don't say anything, don't say anything."
"What do you want to say?"
"Stop talking!"
"What on earth are you trying to say?"
"Mom, you always say that I'm ignorant, and I want to understand something, but you still look annoyed! I'm both sensible and ignorant, so why do I say it?"
"Damn girl, what the hell are you trying to say!"
"I see my father and you, looking inside and out, busier than anyone else, so I want to visit grandpa and grandma for you. I don't know if it's sensible or not?"
"Meimei, didn't I mean it a long time ago? You just don't like to go!"
"Go now, isn't it too late?"
"What are you talking about! If you want to go, go quickly."
Rumei's grandfather's house is in the same village as Shopkeeper Dai of Jinghao, not far away in Yangyi Town.Although it is also a big family, it cannot be compared with the Kang family, nor does it have as many rules as the Kang family.Especially the two elderly people who dote on Rumei very much, why not agree to her request?Since Rumei was planning to go to Fengshan to spy on secrets, she finally thought of using these two old people.
Early the next morning, Sanniang solemnly dispatched chariots and horses, brought a gift box, and sent Rumei to Yangyi.
When she arrived at her grandfather's house, Rumei changed her mind again: she was not in a hurry to ask to go to Fengshan for the meeting.Based on her experience, the mysterious nunnery must be closed tightly when she is rushing to sing an opera.If you go, you will go in vain.Therefore, she lived here with peace of mind and tried her best to please her grandparents.
After the Longquan Temple meeting was over, she said to her grandparents: I am getting married soon, and I want to make a wish at Longquan Temple.I rushed to the meeting two days ago and thought it was chaotic, but now I have finished the meeting and it is quiet.The two old men listened, how could they stop them?Hurry up to arrange chariots and horses, choose servants, and ask one of her cousins to accompany her.
Ru Mei was really excited.
After coming to Longquan Temple, she repeated the old trick. After offering incense and making a wish in the Great Buddha Hall, she advocated climbing mountains.The cousin who accompanied her has little feet, how can she climb a mountain?Seeing that there are few pilgrims, I am afraid that there will be accidents going up the mountain, so I am not willing to let her go.Rumei had already figured out a countermeasure, so she said, "Cousin is worried, because I'm a girl, right? Then I'll pretend to be a boy, so it's okay!"
Cousin couldn't work it out, so I had to let her go.Rumei borrowed a cloth jacket from the male servants to put it on, and wrapped a cloth towel around her head.My cousin said she didn't look like a man, she said she could be a maid, but she was in a hurry to leave.The cousin asked two male servants to follow and serve.
After leaving the monastery, Rumei walked briskly, trying to get rid of the servants.But these two male servants regard Rumei as a princess, and they are careful to curry favor, not daring to make mistakes.Therefore, no matter whether Rumei walks fast or slow, she always follows closely behind.Rumei thought for a while, these two male servants are not from the Kang family either, so follow along.
She dragged the two menservants up and down the hill into the silent valley.
The two servants panicked and asked, "Where is this?"
Rumei said in a somewhat mysterious tone: "There is a small temple in front, and the lottery is very effective!"
The two servants didn't believe it, so they said, "Why haven't I heard of it?"
Rumei said even more mysteriously: "This is the place where women ask for lots. How do you men know that! Women are especially clever about asking for lots."
The servant stopped talking.
But when we arrived at the nunnery, the gate was closed and there was no one around.
A male servant asked, "Is this the small temple?"
Rumei nodded.
Another servant said, "Then I went to knock on the door?"
Rumei hurriedly said: "Don't knock. The more you knock, the harder it will be for people to open. Knock on the door and force your way in, and the lottery won't work."
"Then we made a trip for nothing?"
Rumei said, "Let's find a place to sit in the shade of a tree. I'm tired too. Rest for a while, and the temple gate may open."
I took a look, and there were a few vigorous old pine trees not far away, and I went to rest in the shade.After sitting for a while, the nunnery still remained silent.Rumei began to doubt what she saw last time.What I saw here that time, I told anyone when I went back, but I didn’t believe it.Not only did he not believe it, but he also laughed at her and scolded her.Therefore, she has doubted many times: Did she take the dream seriously?I met an old nun with a beauty spot on her face, and asked Liu Ye, maybe all this was just a dream she had?
Looking at everything here now, I have seen the small temple before, but is it a nunnery?The mountain gate was closed tightly, and there was no movement.She didn't ask the servant to knock on the door, because she was afraid of seeing the old nun again and causing more trouble, and she was afraid that it was not the nun who came out to open the door, but the monk!Then her dream will really be broken, and it will be broken in a dull way.
Sitting so stupidly, the two footmen soon became impatient.One was going to knock on the door again, and the other advised her to go back to Longquan Temple first.She sat patiently for a while, but still saw no movement, so she had no choice but to stand up.After thinking about it, let's leave for now, and don't knock on the door rashly.Maybe because the Longquan Temple meeting just passed, the nunnery dared not open the door easily, she still hoped that it was the nunnery, not a dream of hers.
The three walked out along the valley, and when they were about to leave the valley, Rumei saw a monk walking towards them.Because the most conspicuous thing was the bald head and cassock, so she concluded that it was a monk.Ru Mei is quite disappointed!When the monk entered the valley, he could only go to the small temple: it was not a nunnery?Do you really take your dreams seriously?
In this state of mind, Rumei didn't pay much attention to this monk.He just waited until the moment when he was about to miss it when he got close, then he raised his eyes inadvertently and took a look.After reading it, she seemed to have no special expression, but after walking about ten steps, the two servants realized that she had stopped talking!He asked her nothing and didn't answer, told her to stop and didn't stop, just walked forward with her eyes straight...
The two servants panicked.
The third master was at the Tiancheng Yuanlao, discussing the Beijing-Tianjin issue with the shopkeeper, Sun Da, when he saw that Sanniang sent someone to ask him to go back, he wanted to push it off.The servant said it was urgent, and he must invite the third master back.He asked what was the urgent matter, but the servant said that Sanniang didn't explain anything.
Sanniang had never been so aggressive.三爷就问：“是老太爷有急事吗？”
家仆忙说：“老太爷那里没事！”
这就更叫人摸不着头脑了。三爷只好赶回康庄。进门一听三娘告诉，三爷的脸色立马严峻起来，忙问三娘：“这事没张扬出去吧？”
三娘就说：“我还不知道老太爷疼汝梅？所以，还没敢言声，怕惊动老太爷。她外爷那头，怕这边怪罪，只来给我报讯，也没敢送汝梅回来。我看这疯妮子，准是冲了什么不干不净的东西，中了邪！”
三爷说：“你也不用慌张，就跟没事一样，在家等着。这事，跟谁也先不要说。我这就去杨邑！”
三娘急忙说：“我不去哪成！不光汝梅呢，她外爷外婆也受了惊吓！”
汝梅曾有凤山遇神秘老尼那种经历，三娘其实并不知道。汝梅不会跟她说，三爷也没对她说，所以，她也并不知道事态的严峻，只想去看看中了邪的女儿，也安慰一下担惊受怕的父母。可三爷断然不许她回娘家，说她一走，动静太大，惊动了老太爷，更麻烦。
三娘也只好遵命。
三爷到杨邑后，两位老人直说道歉的话。三爷就说：“她自小就野，哪能怨你们！只是，这事没张扬出去吧？”
岳丈慌忙说：“这事着急还着急不过来呢，哪顾上张扬！”
三爷说：“就怕你们太惊慌，吵嚷得满世界都知道了……”
“没有，没有。一见梅梅成了这样，就赶紧给你们报讯！除此，还能去给谁说？”
三爷才说：“那就好。不过小事一件，太惊慌了，叫人家笑话。”
岳母就不高兴了，说：“梅梅都成了这样，还是小事？”
“关起门来，你们说成多大的事，也无妨的！”
三爷又应付了几句，就去见汝梅。
初看，汝梅倒没有什么异常，但他走近，她竟像认不得似的。三爷叫一声“梅梅”，不但不应，连看也不看她一眼。
三爷到她跟前，连着叫了几声，还是不答应。
两位老人焦急万分，连说：“自从凤山回来，就没见她张过嘴，说过话！这可怎么是好？赶紧请有本事的道士吧？”
三爷叫来那两个跟着的男仆，详细问了问出事经过。之后就叫大家都回避了，只留他和汝梅，看能不能叫应她。
两位老人及其他主仆，也只好都退出来。
三爷把房门闭上后，先亲近和气地叫梅梅，她不应，也依然问她话，交谈似的与她说话。还特别说：“过几天，就带你去一趟京师！”可折腾了半天，还是不顶事，她依然直着眼，不认人。
三爷知道汝梅是惊吓过度了。但遇见一个和尚，就吓成这样？她又把这个和尚看成谁了？以前她说过，遇见一个老尼姑，脸上有颗美人痣，很像死去的老夫人。一个和尚，又能像谁？难道是跟她的那两个男仆有什么非礼之举？三爷刚才询问他们时，留心细察，两人并不像做过坏事的样子。
三爷常跑口外，经见过惊吓过度的人事。对吓傻了的伙友，有时猛然给他一巴掌，倒能将其唤醒。可汝梅是个女子，更是自家的爱女，真无法下手抽她这一巴掌。可她真要吓傻了，跟谁也不好交待。
这样一着急，三爷那火暴强悍的脾气又上来了，面对着汝梅，猛然大喝了一声：“你是谁？你不要缠她——”
三爷也不知怎么就喊了这样一句，但这一声喝叫，是那种在荒原练出来的吼叫，爆发慢，后劲大，给憋在屋里一回荡，真是很可怕。
这样一喝叫，真还把汝梅震动了，眼珠先就抖了一下，跟着转动起来，跟着又哇一声哭了出来，扑过来搂住了父亲。
三爷就叫了声：“梅梅——”
汝梅答应了一声。
三爷又问：“你认得我吧？”
汝梅说：“认得，爹！”
谢天谢地，总算把她吼醒了：三爷终于松了一口气。
听到这边吼叫，汝梅的外爷外婆一干人都慌忙拥来。见汝梅已哭出声来，也都长出了口气。两位老人正想细问汝梅受惊缘由，三爷立刻止住，说：“我也饿了，汝梅你饿不饿？快去给我们张罗吃喝吧！”
三爷把围着的人打发开，又哄汝梅止住哭。汝梅虽能认得人了，还是有些痴呆。三爷也就不再多问，尽量说些她愿意听的。
那天天快黑时，三爷和汝梅同坐了一辆马车，回到康庄。临别时，三爷又特别嘱咐了岳丈：汝梅凤山受惊这件事，千万不要张扬出去。
到家后，三爷也拦住三娘，不叫她问长问短，只说：“梅梅也没什么事，累了，不想多说话，俩老人就大惊小怪！”
此后几天，三爷也不叫多说受惊的事。他也没有怎么外出，尽量多陪着汝梅。但汝梅分明像变了一个人，成天不大言语，那几分痴呆气也未消去。尤其三爷不在跟前时，更胆怯异常，像害怕什么似的。
三娘早着急了，直对三爷说：“梅梅还是中了邪！请道士，还是请神婆，得赶紧想办法呀！梅梅老这样，还得了？”
三爷就瞪她：“你就想折腾得惊动了老太爷？我看梅梅是有心事，慢慢哄她说出来，就没事了。就只想中邪！”
“她有什么心事，能这样重？把人都压垮了！”
“她眼看要嫁人了，能没心事？她去龙泉寺，就是为了许愿。”
三爷这样说，是为了稳住三娘：汝梅受惊的实情，他不想叫三娘知道。而汝梅受惊的实情，他也还未正经问呢。不是不想问，是想缓一缓，能问出个究竟来。
又过了几天，三爷才把汝梅叫到自己的账房里。先告汝梅说，最近他想去趟京师，只是放心不下她。汝梅立刻就有些慌张，说：
“爹你去哪，也得带着我，我一人可不敢在家！”
三爷就说：“我也想带你，可你现在这样，怎么能出门？”
汝梅说：“我是害怕！跟着你，我才好些。”
“梅梅，你从小就是胆大的女娃，有什么能叫你害怕？我看你是胡思乱想，自家吓唬自家呢。要不，你是听了谁的胡言乱语了？”
“没有！我是碰见一个人，没把我吓死！”
“碰见谁了？又是一个老尼姑？你还没忘了那件事？早跟你说了，我派人去打听过，凤山里头就没尼姑庵！”
“不是老尼姑。”
“那是谁？一个和尚？”
汝梅又直着眼，不说话了。
三爷就说：“梅梅，看看你，又犯傻了！老这样，我怎么带你出门？”
汝梅才说：“我在凤山碰见一个人。”
"Who?"
“洋画上画的那个人。”
“洋画？”
“给她画了一张洋画，也给我画了一张洋画。”
三爷听明白是谁了，可他也几乎给吓傻了：新逝的老夫人？How is this possible!
他努力镇静下来，说：“梅梅，你怎么净爱这样胡思乱想？他们说你碰见的是一个和尚……”
汝梅直着眼说：“她不是和尚，和尚就是她。剃了头发，一身法衣，走路轻盈，远看像和尚，近看就是她……”
“梅梅，你还认得我吧？”
“爹，你不信，亲自去一趟！以前天天见她，我能认不得她？”
“梅梅，梅梅……”
“爹，连你也不信我？”
“信你，信你！”
三爷极力安抚住汝梅，并故作神秘状，好像要与她一道共享秘密，结成同谋，先不向任何人说出这件事。这一招，似乎还叫汝梅满意。
但三爷心里，却是惊涛汹涌！
真会是她？
她真还活着？
她的丧事，那场浩大豪华的丧事，他是自始至终都参与操办了。她怎么可能没有死？她入殓时，他还没有赶回来，未见她的遗容。但别人见了！
三爷不是糊涂人。他疼汝梅，也不会轻信她一个小女子的胡思乱想。他心起惊涛，那是有更深的缘由。身在康家，他对老夫人的频频亡故，已是早有些影影绰绰的疑虑。但那关乎老太爷的尊严，他尽量不去想那种事。
六爷的生母去世时，三爷已近而立之年。他冷眼看去，已觉有几分突然。待将杜氏续来做老夫人，三爷便更生疑惑了。杜氏那时一半京味，一半洋气，正风靡太谷。老太爷就赶得那么巧，正好丧妇？
不过，三爷宁可相信那只是自己偏心的猜疑，因为他也是激赏杜氏的！杜氏风头最劲的时候，三爷曾邀了几位友人，往杜家拜访过。那一次，杜氏也出来了，与他们谈笑风生，真是明丽芳香之极。他哪里料到，父亲居然把杜氏娶了回来！这真是太叫他意外，也太叫他伤心。
那时，他早有妻小，按家规他根本不可能娶杜氏的。但居然是父亲把杜氏娶回来，三爷还是太难接受！所以，他生疑惑，也许是偏心使然，妒意使然吧。
杜氏初进康家那几年，三爷远走口外，将这一切深埋心底，永远不想动它了。世间除了他自己，也永远不会有人知道这一切。
可是，去年冬天带汝梅下江南时，汝梅说了她在凤山的奇遇，三爷当下就震惊了：他的猜疑原来也不谬？前头那位老夫人，难道真是明亡暗废？可那样浩浩荡荡发丧了，怎么活下来，又怎么藏到山中的尼姑庵？尊贵为老夫人，就那样听任摆布？他无法细想，只是告诫汝梅，不要胡思乱想，不要什么都想知道。大户人家，宅院太深了，不要什么都想知道。
他当然疑心过汝梅的奇遇。她自小就爱疯跑，也爱发奇想。可她与老太爷老夫人无冤无仇，不会有什么偏心。童言无忌，童眼也无忌！
但那一次汝梅的奇遇，三爷只是惊异，却不想去触动。那一位老夫人故去已经多年，也无法去触动。这是去触动老太爷，三爷他怎么敢！
这一次，汝梅居然又撞上了杜氏……这个梅梅，她操了这份心，探到了更可怕的隐秘，没有把她吓死！可他依然不能去触动吧，决不能去触动。
老太爷已经把半个家交给了他。
但她真没有死吗？
真没有死，又能怎样？
忍了几天，三爷还是无法放下这件事，无法放下这个杜氏。在想了又想之后，他决定去做一件事：派一个可靠的人，去凤山暗访一次那座尼姑庵，验证一下汝梅所说的，到底有几分真，几分假。
他也只做这一件事，只走这一步。不管验证的结果是真是假，他都到此为止了。他与杜氏也没有一点情分，犯不着为了她，去触动老太爷最要命的地界。
这件事，他也可以不做，只是按捺不下。
毕竟是杜氏，一个深藏在他心底的女人，与众不同的女人，下场太凄惨的女人。
但做这件事，还是太难了。
Who should I send?这个出面暗访尼姑庵的人，不能露出一丝与他有关的痕迹。一旦露出，必为老太爷所察，那后果不堪设想。这是与老太爷周旋！
三爷想了许多方案，都觉不妥。在太谷，他可托靠的人，都是康家的熟人，老太爷的熟人。
他没有自成体系的心腹，他哪想过要与老太爷周旋？口外倒有他自己的知交，可将那些人召来，也是太显眼了。
他终日这样忧愁，从小就时刻跟着伺候他的一个家仆见了，知道主家有了大的犯难事，便试探着问了一句：“三爷，遇什么难处了？”
三爷扫了他一眼，顺嘴就说：“我有什么难处？京津刚叫人放心，我在家歇两天吧，有什么难处！”
刚这样说完，忽然就闪出一个念头来：这件事也许该交给这个人去办？这个叫宋永义的家仆，从小就跟了他，跑口外、下江南也跟着，常为他办事。他对永义，也一向当心腹使唤。如果连这个人也不能托靠，那他还能成什么大事？
这样一想，三爷就断然决定：将这件事交永义去办。办成，那当然好；办不成，甚至将自己败露出来，那也认了：半辈子了，连身边这个心腹也为不下，倒霉也活该了！
于是，他瞅了一个单独的机会，先对永义说：“你能瞅出我有心事，也算没白疼你！”
永义就跪了说：“也许我不该多嘴！”
三爷先叫他起来，才说：“永义，我是有一件事想叫你去办。事情也不难办，只是，除了你我，谁也不能叫知道。连你三娘，老太爷，也一样。”
永义说：“我知道了。”
三爷还想叮咛，一想，罢了，就交待了要办的事：找个可靠、又与他康三爷不相干的人，最好是个老妇人，叫她去给凤山一座尼姑庵，捐一笔香火钱；然后打听清庵里有几位女尼，什么模样。
永义听了，就说：“这事好办。”
三爷想问问他派谁去，也作罢了，只说了句：“小心去办吧。”
在此后的几天里，三爷见了永义也没多问。但心里却不平静：他这是正式跟老太爷周旋开了。也许，老太爷会给他一个意想不到的下马威？
五天后，永义给他回了话：“三爷交待的事，已办妥。跑了两趟，香火钱才捐上，进去拜了佛。庵里只有一位法号叫月地的女尼，四十多岁，面容甚清俊，只是瘸腿。”
三爷极力平静地问了一句：“就一位女尼？”
永义说：“听说原来是两位。那一位法号名雪地，十天前云游外地名寺走了。”
“十天前？那位雪地什么模样，问了没有？”
“说是三十多岁，因未缠过足，行走方便，故外出云游去了。对了，还说那位叫月地的女尼，脸上有颗痣。”
有颗痣！那汝梅所见的一切，都是真的了？三十多岁，天足，这也像杜氏吧？可她偏偏在这个时候，就云游走了？难道老太爷有了觉察？可十天前，他什么动作也没有，只是在安抚汝梅，连她所见的详情还没问呢。
杜氏也认出了汝梅吗？
杜氏真还活着？她云游外地名寺去了？
三爷为了使自己平静下来，问了问永义派谁去的。永义说，是编了个理由，求他姑母托了一相知的妇人，出面去给捐的香火。头一次跑去，人家不收布施。第二次，又托说为还愿，必须捐出布施，才能保她独子长久平安。这才收了。
三爷赞扬了两句，并叮嘱说：“这事关乎汝梅，除了你我，不能再给第三人说。你姑母那里，也叮咛一下。”
他是想将事情的严重性稍作化解，才这样说的。永义似乎也未生疑心，连声应承了。
过了几天，三爷去见老太爷，说：“西安信报说，朝廷快起跸回京了。我想即日启程，赶赴京师。京津两号此次开局惊天动地，我该去亲历一番的。”
老太爷说：“那你就去吧，只是余波了。”
“汝梅近来郁闷不乐，我想带她出外走走，赶九月初六，送她回来。”
“不想嫁人，是吧？一路上，你也说说她，女娃家，不能野一辈子！”
老太爷没有一点异常，什么都应承。三爷虽松了一口气，但第二天一早，还是真带了汝梅，踏上了赴京之路。
路上，他常忍不住要想：杜氏是否也往京师云游去了？
十天前，杜筠青真是离开凤山，往京师西山云游去了。说云游，其实是下了决心，弃太谷而去，弃俗世而去。移往京师，那却不是她自家的选择，是随了剃度她的法师而去。杜筠青此去，将在京师西山事佛到底，修炼余生。
她此时出走，也同汝梅没有一丝相关，与整个康家都无一丝相关的。
那天她与汝梅迎面相遇，实在是什么也没有看清。不用说那天汝梅扮得不男不女，就是熟脸本相，杜筠青也不会留意到的。她真有些两眼皆空了，俗世的一切，都视而不见。就连终日与她做伴的月地，她也越来越疏远。因为月地到底不愿舍弃俗世，虽然月地的俗世，几乎什么也没有了，就剩下