Chapter 15 Chapter Fourteen Pregnancy Journey
The night before the National Day, I returned to Daicheng, and finally I could rest for a few days.On paper, I'm kind of fucking burned out.
After dinner, I was watching TV when Yang Yi came.I haven't seen him for a long time, I only returned to Daicheng on Sunday, he had to go to school on Sunday to make up his homework, and continued to work at his desk at night.I went to him, but his father stopped me.The meaning is very clear, I am a worker, Yang Yi is a college entrance examination candidate, let me not spoil him.
I'm not in high spirits, lovelorn, it's always like this.Yang Yi asked me: "Why did you go to Matai Town? I have been looking for you for a whole week." I said that I had no choice but to go to the Qianjin Chemical Plant.Yang Yi said: "You are so unlucky." I said: "Don't hurt my heart anymore." Later he asked Yu Xiaoqi again, and I told him that Yu Xiaoqi had a boyfriend, or a college student.Yang Yi said again: "You are so unlucky. People are frustrated in love, and they are proud of casinos. You can't rely on both, and you are frustrated together."
I said, "Can't you fucking comfort me?"
We ran downstairs to smoke, Yang Yi didn't seem to be in the mood either, he was listless.He asked me: "How do you spend National Day?"
"Lie down at home."
After a moment of silence, he said, "Your cousin is in Shanghai, right?"
"Yeah, what's the matter?"
"She's a doctor now, isn't she?"
That's right.My cousin is from my mother's department. She is eight years older than me. She is a medical student and is from Shanghai.When I was young, she often came to my house, either to borrow money from my mother, or to run away from home and come to Daicheng to sleep for a few days. Her relationship with the family was also a mess.This cousin is the person who likes me the most among all relatives. She once said that I am talented and talented.Damn, since I was admitted to the technical school, I have no face to see her.Yang also met my cousin when she was a child.
"What's the matter with my cousin?"
Yang Yi said: "It's like this, I accidentally stopped a girl's... period."
"What?" I didn't understand.
"It's possible to be pregnant," Yang Yi said, "Of course it's possible not to be pregnant, god knows."
I said, "Pregnancy makes you vomit, why can't you figure it out?"
Yang Yi said: "You watched it on TV. Pregnancy doesn't necessarily mean throwing up. Besides, even if there is a pregnancy reaction, it will take two or three months. I'm less than three months away."
"You are fucking better than an obstetrician and gynecologist." I asked him again, "Did you make it yourself?" I remember Da Fei said that if a woman tells you that she is pregnant with you child, then you must first ask who the child is.
Yang Yi said in frustration: "Of course I did it."
I'm very angry, Yang Yi has a woman, but he didn't tell me, it's so embarrassing.Any girl I liked would be honest with him, and it was obvious that he and I were not in a diplomatic relationship of equals.Later I thought about it. Not long ago, I discussed the relationship between love and career with him. I am a technical school student, and I can’t talk about any career. I have always believed that love is more important than career.This question is quite contradictory for Yang Yi. He is a person who wants to take the college entrance examination, his career is the college entrance examination, and his love is puppy love. The school disagrees, and the parents also oppose it.There is a knife on the head of the color character, and a bar on the bottom of the color character. Let alone a normal sex life, even masturbation hinders his career. Love and whoring are the same to him anyway, both are crooked ways.Yang Yi's consistent view is: love hinders career, mainly because he can't concentrate on studying his homework, so love and career are contradictory.But a while ago he suddenly told me: "Xiaolu, I don't think love and career are in conflict, and love can promote the development of career!" I asked him why he changed his view overnight. The Communist Manifesto".In fact, I should have guessed that he hooked up with a certain girl, so he had this kind of spiritual insight.
Unexpectedly, at the same age of eighteen, they all lost their virginity, even Yang Yi managed to do it in such a harsh environment, and I was a fucking idle product, the first kiss not long ago was like a disaster.
I asked Yang Yi: "Didn't you fucking go to Tsinghua University to find a girlfriend? Have you changed your mind now?"
Yang Yi said: "Oh, I put smoke bombs, so as not to make the teacher suspect that I have a puppy love."
I was annoyed by him again, and asked him, "Does your family know?"
Yang Yi said, "No one knows."
"Have you been checked in the hospital?"
"No, she hasn't had her period for two months. She used to be punctual, but this time she might be pregnant. She needs to go to the hospital for a pregnancy test first." Yang Yi said, "It's best not to get pregnant, or it will be a disaster. "
"You don't have any fucking contraception at all?"
"Sometimes yes, sometimes no."
I said, "Even if you want a pregnancy test, you don't need to go to Shanghai, do you? The hospital in Daicheng can also do this."
Yang Yi said: "No way, the hospitals in the city have to check the units. One phone call to the school will destroy us and we will definitely be expelled. I don't dare to trust anyone. I can't let others know. Only you are the most reliable. .”
"Wait, you messed with your school?"
"Fuck, otherwise where else could I do it?"
I'm right when I think about it, their key middle schools are like a big cage, shutting all the students in it, and then stuffing knowledge into their minds.In this kind of place, it's normal for love to blossom and bear fruit, but you can't do it openly, or you will be eradicated.I said, "Come on, I'll give my cousin a call. You guys go to find her. It's National Day. You don't know it. You're pretty good at counting."
Yang Yi said: "What I mean is, please accompany her there. I'm going to participate in a mathematics, physics and chemistry competition for senior high school students in the city during the National Day."
I yelled, "Is it more important for you to be a woman or math, physics and chemistry?"
Yang Yi said sadly: "The top three can get extra points, and the college entrance examination will add 10 points. I didn't get this year's outstanding teenagers, the city's three-good students, and the Olympiad, so I can only rely on this to add points."
I shook my head and said, "I'm convinced of you, too." It's ridiculous to think about it. Damn, I, a person who just lost love, actually wants to accompany his wife to Shanghai to have an abortion, while he stays in Daicheng and throws himself away. Let go of all distracting thoughts to participate in the mathematics, physics and chemistry competition.The matter itself is perverse.
Yang Yi said, "Xiaolu, I haven't asked you for anything in my life, have I?"
I said, "You really don't ask for help in your life."
Yang Yi said: "Let's help my brother this time, and we can't make any mistakes. If you are expelled from the school, you will lose three lives."
I said, "You can calculate clearly, including your son."
Yang Yi said: "I didn't count that, I counted you in. If I want to commit suicide, I will definitely jump off the building with you in my arms."
I said, "Don't do that, people think I'm robbing you of women."
We ran to the grocery store and made a phone call to my cousin's house. The long-distance call fee at the grocery store was twice that of the telecom bureau, but Yang Yi had already prepared enough funds for abortion.My cousin is a very straightforward person, she agreed immediately, and I am very grateful. My cousin said: "It's nothing, now there are many middle school students in Shanghai who have abortions." I was taken aback by her.
The matter of going to Shanghai is decided. On October 1st, that is, tomorrow, I will take her woman to find my cousin. First, I will go for a pregnancy test. If she is pregnant, I will have an abortion. I will rest at my cousin's house for two days. You can rush back to Daicheng.If you are not pregnant, you can go to Jing'an Temple to burn incense.
Yang Yi clasped his hands together and said, "Thank God." This was a little disgusting.Later he took me home and gave me two train tickets plus 1,000 yuan, which was a huge amount of money. I asked him where the money came from, and he said that he had lived frugally since elementary school. He doesn't eat popsicles in summer, doesn't drink soy milk in winter, and doesn't buy firecrackers with the lucky money. He occasionally steals a dollar from his father's pocket and saved it over the past ten years.For one irrationality, he is now bankrupt.
I said, "Being irrational once? I'm afraid I've been irrational many times? By the way, where do you usually do it? School?"
Yang Yi said, "Fart, how dare I do it at school? Of course it's at home."
"Whose family?"
"My home."
I fucking figured it out. According to the pregnancy period, it was summer vacation two months ago.At that time, I went upstairs to look for Yang Yi, and I often saw him sticking a note at the door: review your homework, please do not disturb.So you're fucking reviewing this!Yang Yi said: "Fuck, talking about this makes me so angry, why the hell do you kick the door every time? You also falsely accused him of being an idiot." I said: "Scared you?" One said: "Fuck!"
I want to say a few more words about this matter: that summer vacation, Yang Yi lost his virginity, and the girl was at home with him, on the single bed, sharing the joy of fish and water.The most commendable thing is that every time the girl comes and goes, she can avoid the eyes and ears of the old lady in the corridor, which is really incredible.No one has discovered Yang Yi's secret. People say that he is a good boy who works hard. He is locked in the house on a hot day to review his homework. When he walks past his door and sees the note of "Do Not Disturb", everyone will not be able to help himself. Slow down slowly, like a civet cat, walking gently on tiptoe.New concept English was playing on the tape recorder, and in fact, behind the piece of English was a piece of gasping and moaning.It's just me, who always kicks the door of his house in a very ignorant manner, scaring him almost to the point of impotence, and every time in the middle of a good job, I have to put on my pants to check the situation, thinking that his father has come home.Later he got used to it, and the girl got used to it too, and the two would scold together when they heard the sound of kicking the door: Lu Xiaolu, you idiot.
The girl knew me, and was impressed with me, that I was a boring, bastard thing.
She is Ouyang Hui.
On the National Day of 1991, I climbed on the train to go to Shanghai with Ouyang Hui by my side.She and Yang Yi had been in love for more than half a year, and they had sex with each other. When she first saw me as a hooligan, I thought she would be very shy, or out of anger.Unexpectedly, she was very calm and said to me: "Let's go." Then she ignored me. Before, Yang Yi once said to me: "Xiaolu, I know you also had a crush on Ouyang Hui. If I fell in love with her, shouldn't it be regarded as stealing your woman?" I said shit, I don't care about it at all, I There is only Yu Xiaoqi in his heart, and there is still a little space left for Zeng Yuan.For me at the time, having two girls in my heart was enough space. I was very happy for Yang Yi, who successfully lost his virginity at the age of eighteen, and it was not easy in a heavily guarded place like a key middle school.No wonder he told me that love is the driving force for career. In fact, his subtext is: sex life is the driving force for reviewing homework.Of course it's vulgar for me to say that.Thinking about myself, I only got my first kiss until now, I am still at the starting point, Yang Yi has already reached the end point, and even broke through the end point, breaking the virginity is not enough, it would be fun to add an abortion. In the chaotic train station, Ouyang Hui followed me, squeezed through the crowd and moved forward inch by inch.On the National Day that day, all the villagers in the city went to Shanghai to watch the excitement.A child in the crowd said childishly: "Mom, we are going to see Nanjing Road." The child's mother said: "Son, come back and write a composition." I thought to myself, it's so fucking boring.Any city will look boring if you just stand in the train station. When we got to the platform, I was really desperate. There was a sea of people, and it was the same on the train. The fat people were squeezed into thin people, and the skinny people were squeezed into sticks.I was afraid of losing her, so I looked back at her again and again.She has no expression on her face. To be honest, she really looks like Yu Xiaoqi, looking at him abruptly from a certain angle. As soon as the train stopped, the doors opened, and the crowd roared up. Men, women, and children became death squads, and those who didn't want to die would be swarmed and pushed up by the people behind.It is said that this is how wars were fought in Europe in the Middle Ages. Tens of thousands of people huddled together and rushed forward. Those behind did not know whether to live or die. Like candied gourds, a dozen people were strung together. The original 10 kg weapon was strung together to 1,500 kg. The spear could not be lifted, and the formation was broken.Guys like me used to be masters of stringing spears back then.I did my part, squeezed an old man and a woman away, and I went to the front.Looking back, the crowd between Ouyang Hui and me had already been rushed away, she was knocked to one side, her face was still full of displeasure, and she didn't call me.I had no choice but to retreat, grabbed her arm and said, "Come in front of me." Ouyang Hui muttered, "What are you doing?" I can go to Shanghai by carriage.I held her waist from behind, lifted her up hard, and sent her to the car door. A woman behind me grabbed my clothes and cursed loudly: "Why did you hit me? You gunman!" I cursed "Fuck you, don't pull me!" Many hands behind me pulled me together: "Come down, rascal!" Ouyang Hui didn't say a word at first, but then felt that I was not lifting her and pushing her into the car door, but hugging her. She screamed as she fell to the ground. I struggled hard, and heard a snort behind me, and someone tore my shirt.I didn't have time to pay attention to this, so I took advantage of the situation and sent Ouyang Hui forward, the conductor at the door stretched out his hand and dragged her up.The people behind continued to pull me, this time by my belt.I was dragged down by them.Ouyang Hui stood at the door of the car and shouted to me: "Where are you going?" Muay Thai tricks.I ran to the car, saw a window was open, put my hands on the window sill, jumped in, stuck my head in a passenger's vagina, and crawled out from under the seat. After a lot of effort, I squeezed to the car door, and Ouyang Hui stood there without saying a word, not surprised to see me.I said, "Hey, I'm here." At this time, she said the first sentence to me seriously: "I thought you ran away." I said, "How is this possible? How could I run away from what Yang Yi entrusted to me?" Ouyang Hui said: "Don't mention him to me again." Obviously very dissatisfied with Yang Yi. After the train started, she didn't speak again, she lowered her head and wondered what she was thinking.Although there is no friendship between me and her, there are many grievances and grievances in the past. I once humiliated her for being flat-chested, and she once brought the teacher to arrest me.At that time, I was very young and irrational, and it was a long time ago, so let's not talk about it.I sneaked a look at her, her belly was not big, and her chest was still flat.I heard that a pregnant woman's breasts get bigger, but she doesn't seem to change much. This is a slow train, commonly known as a kowtow train, which stops at every small station.There's no way, if the express car won't stop in Daicheng at all.It was very hot in the carriage, and people were crowded out of shape. Slow trains are annoying, and the pits and valleys are full of people from the countryside.I heard a child crying, saying: "Mom, I don't want to see Nanjing Road." The mother said: "It's annoying, stop crying." Ouyang Hui leaned against the wall of the carriage and muttered mockingly: " Children, come back and write a composition." I laughed out loud, it turned out that she is a girl with a sense of humor. We stood at the junction of the carriages, swaying badly, and couldn't see the scenery outside the window.Ouyang Hui kept her eyes on the ground, with her schoolbag on her chest, without saying a word.I slowly remembered that I had a crush on her once, and even stole her poems.Of course, she is now Yang Yi's girlfriend, and she may be pregnant, so I can't have any evil thoughts about her.Liu Bei said that brothers are siblings, women are clothes, and a woman who touches her brother is like stripping her brother of his clothes, which is not something humans do. I said to Ouyang Hui, "Let me carry your schoolbag for you." She hesitated and said, "Okay, thanks." I put my schoolbag behind my back.She kindly reminded me that it is more comfortable to carry it on my chest.I said no, the back of the shirt was torn by those people, it was chilly, and I didn't know how bad it was, so I had to use my schoolbag to cover it. Ouyang Hui pulled me over 180 degrees, looked at my back, and said, "It's pretty torn, a new shirt." I said, "This is my only collared shirt." She said, "You don't wear an undershirt?" I said, "It's too rustic. Now it's popular to wear shirts and suits shirtless." She didn't answer any more, I felt her hands groping in the schoolbag behind me, and when I looked back, she found a book.I thought it was a textbook, but later I found out that it was wrong. The textbook is not that small and not that thin.She opened the book and read on a certain page casually. I bent down to look at the cover. It was "Anthology of American Confessional Poetry". "Are you writing poetry?" I asked embarrassingly. "Huh?" She looked up. "It's good to write poetry." "Do you write poetry too?" "I won't, I won't." I quickly waved my hand, lest she mistake me for a poet and ask me to recite the moonlight before the bed.I can understand it just by looking at her eyes. Writing poems or not writing poems is the biggest difference between me and her.If you meet a cook, he will never classify you as a different kind just because you don't know how to cook.With Yu Xiaoqi, I don't know how to paint, but at least I can act as a model, but I don't have such good luck with a poet, and I don't need a model to write poetry.Ouyang Hui lowered her head to read the book again and ignored me. I said awkwardly: "Yang Yi said..." "Don't mention him to me, didn't you say that just now?" She said without raising her head. I simply shut up and forget it, too much gossip makes me look like a pig.Thinking about it is right, Yang Yi is a bastard who makes people's stomachs unclear, and the National Day is not in a good mood. He wants to squeeze the train with me, a gangster, and go to Shanghai to do a pregnancy test, and he may have an abortion. Can't help but hate him.Ouyang Hui is considered very educated, if it were Zeng Yuan, he would probably have hacked with a watermelon knife long ago. When the car arrived in Kunshan, many people came up again, all blocking me.I was pushed towards Ouyang Hui, and the tighter and tighter I was, I was worried that she would have a miscarriage, so I didn't have to go to Shanghai.I faced her, propped my hands against the wall of the carriage, and competed with the people behind me.Behind is a girl who just got on the bus from Kunshan and yelled at me: "Can you take off your damn schoolbag and put it on your feet? Leave me some space, are you tired from carrying you like this?" I turned around and said, "I'm not tired, but since you want me to take off my schoolbag, don't regret it." The girl was quite beautiful, wearing glasses, like a scholar, and she continued to yell at me: "Why are you poor?" Mouth? Hurry up and take off the schoolbag, I’m so hurt from being squeezed by you!” I took off the schoolbag forcefully, and showed her the hole in the back, no, let her stick it.The girl said: "Damn!" I felt her body being pushed by the person behind me, and she was softly attached to the bare skin on my back.Ouyang Hui was in front of me, and another girl was in the back, so glamorous that life would be worse than death. The girl said, "Why don't you even wear an undershirt?" After saying this, Ouyang Hui could be heard laughing slyly.I said with a sad face, "If I had known this, I would have worn armor." Ouyang Hui said to the girl, "Come next to me, I can still squeeze here." The girl thanked her and forced her way to her side, The two leaned against the wall of the carriage together, and an old country man was immediately stuck behind me.The old man is much harder than the girl, and a bit smelly. On the way, the girl chatted with Ouyang Hui. The girl is from Kunshan and went to see her boyfriend at Fudan University.She glanced at me and said to Ouyang Hui, "You two are a good match." Ouyang Hui was expressionless.I hurriedly explained that I didn't have that kind of relationship with her, we just went to Shanghai as a partner.The girl said: "Hee hee, why do I think you look at her wrongly?" I said, "I was born with this kind of eyes, and the old man also looks like this." The girl was chatting with Ouyang Hui, and the latter was perfunctory. After all, she was going to Shanghai to have an abortion, not a trip, so she probably wasn't in the mood.I don't know how long it took, the car arrived in Shanghai, and we got out of the car along with the crowd.The air outside is very fresh, and I can finally breathe a sigh of relief.The girl's boyfriend picked her up on the platform. They went to Fudan University, and we went to Zhongshan Park, in opposite directions.They drove us all the way to the bus station before waving goodbye. Ouyang Hui said: "You are quite popular with women." I said, "Don't talk nonsense, he has a boyfriend." Ouyang Hui said mockingly: "It's because of this that you are said to be amazing." I really want to answer, I am not as good as Yang Yi.I didn't dare to say it, for fear that she would turn against me.Although this girl is not bad-looking and looks very gentle, in fact she has a strong desire for revenge.I looked at the bus station, oh my god, there is a long queue, it is not worse than the train station, the only difference is that the train can climb in through the window, the car cannot, there are old men with red armbands to maintain order, and they speak Shanghainese , very arrogant.If caught by them, I will definitely be punished to death.The bus station in Shanghai is also interesting. There are two lines of people, one is called sitting line and the other is called standing line.At this time, the car came, and the people in the queue went up first and occupied the seats, and then it was the turn of the queue.I saw that the time was a little too late, so I said to Ouyang Hui, let's stand in line.Ouyang Hui nodded.I lifted my trouser belt, dragged her, and rushed towards the crowd of people again. Two hours later, I saw my cousin.My whole body was already drenched in sweat, and Ouyang Hui was also very embarrassed. My cousin is getting more and more beautiful. It's a waste for a doctor to be so beautiful.She has been like this since she was a child, and she has a sense of standing out from the crowd, and she is still in the crowd, and she has not found the crowd.This is also quite sad, but she doesn't care, she is still a crane, always a crane, and that's enough. My cousin is my idol, not because of her beauty, but because of her toughness.She was the first rebel in my matriarchal family. She fell in love with a Chinese teacher in high school. You must know that it was still in the 1980s. People are old. The cousin's cross-border love was passed down as a good story by the whole school. Everyone wanted to kill her This pair of incest mandarin ducks.At that time, my uncle was only in his forties, and he became a hypertensive patient because of her anger. He could only take Jiangya Ling every day. My aunt's menopause was advanced by ten years, and she never recovered.Because of this matter, my cousin changed schools and dropped out of school. She studied in high school for four years, and once ran away from home and lived in my house for more than half a month.She is very arrogant, and she scolded anyone who tried to persuade her. Back then, I was the only one who supported her, but it was a pity that my words were so light-hearted, it was useless, and I could only encourage her spiritually.My cousin made a fuss about this shit for more than two years, and then she was admitted to university, which is really tough.The family felt that she was an adult when she went to university, and the Chinese teacher was not too old, she was only thirty years old, and everyone gradually accepted this marriage. Who knew that my cousin had changed her mind, she didn't love that person anymore.As a result, the language teacher cut her pulse at the door of her house with a razor and was sent to a mental hospital.My cousin fell in love with a married man with hundreds of thousands of property and a company.Now my uncle was out of epilepsy, and my aunt was very happy. After all, there were very few wealthy people in the 1980s, and the wife could be ignored.The divorce battle was fought for two years and ended with my cousin's complete failure - the rich guy somehow went down the stairs and broke her neck and died.My cousin caught nothing.She was silent for two years, and then hired a calligrapher. I read his handwriting, shaking like Parkinson's disease. The inscription is "the year book of so-and-so's sixtieth year", and he is already sixty years old.The family is turned upside down again. If she messes around like this, no one can bear it.I wait for her to marry that old man, or that old man dies, but she doesn’t want to play anymore. As for the reason, I don’t know. I think the sixty-year-old calligrapher is shaking so badly, maybe he can’t be satisfied. my cousin.Anyway, broke up again.It was supposed to be celebrated, but my uncle was very scared. He knew that for my cousin, the end of one relationship meant the beginning of another, just like the flood of the Yellow River, followed by a more terrible plague. God knows she would delay. What weird things come back, the generation of Tianjiao, Tang Zong and Song Zu are not as romantic as her.After graduating, my cousin worked as a doctor in a general hospital. There are countless love stories about her, and there are many people chasing her. There is probably a strengthening company.Her love stimulates our nerves in a high-frequency and short way.Then our nerves went numb too.The news that came out recently is that she found an ordinary-looking man in the company under her command. The salary is not high, and the conversation is indecent. The only advantage is that he is loyal. If you ask him to jump the Huangpu River at any designated place, he will never jump into the Suzhou Creek.Such a well-behaved man is rare, but God knows that one day she will get tired of playing and don't want it anymore, she is very likely. My cousin and I have a very good relationship. When she ran away from home and came to Daicheng, I took out all the change in my piggy bank to let her relax and give her spiritual encouragement.She kept saying she wanted to repay me, and now she has her chance. My cousin lives in a new village. She borrowed a two-bedroom house.In the new village in Shanghai, the rooms are very small and the lighting is not good, similar to a dovecote.In the early 1990s, although Shanghainese were very arrogant, their living environment was ridiculed by the people of the whole country.Then things went wrong, real estate was privatized, and then prices went up, and people from all over the country rushed to Shanghai, renting dovecots and thinking that they had come to heaven, and at the same time cursed this paradise. I entered the door of my cousin's house. It was already afternoon, and she ran out wearing a teddy bear pajamas and opened the door.Shanghai women are so fucking tough, they dare to walk on the street in their pajamas, this unhealthy trend has also spread to Daicheng, and it has intensified, our women also walk on the street in their pajamas, but they often forget to wear a bra underneath , Two black spots appeared on his chest, causing the bus driver to kill someone. I haven't seen my cousin for several years. She was very affectionate and said that I had grown taller and had muscles. Egg, if you don’t learn well, how did something happen?” I struggled and said, "I didn't do it, it was Yang Yi." My cousin used to live in my house and knew Yang Yi, and the three of us went to the movies together.The cousin said: "Oh, that little bastard, he has been very cunning since he was a child. Which technical school does he go to now?" I said: "He is now a high-achieving student in a key middle school, and he will take the college entrance examination next year." The cousin said: "He is smarter than you You pig, you went to a chemical technical school, and you will be a worker for the rest of your life." I said, "The worker is also very good." My cousin said, "Well, you are so tall, you are deceiving yourself, pig. Do you have a girlfriend?" I said : "No." The cousin said: "This proves that you are a pig." I told my cousin to stop messing around, Ouyang Hui is still at the door.My cousin turned her head, and Ouyang Hui said generously, "Hello, my name is Ouyang Hui." She was so generous, I have never seen a abortionist so calm.My cousin is considered well-informed, so she couldn't help but look her up and down, and the two shook hands.The cousin said, "Hello, my name is Lin Jiayue." After entering the house, make tea and eat snacks as usual.My cousin took a men's shirt from the drawer, threw it to me, and said, "Change it, it's cheaper for you. This shirt costs three hundred yuan." I went in, was forked out by her, and said: "Go away, what are you meddling with girls' affairs?" I had to sit outside, run to the toilet to pee, run out to drink tea, turn on the TV, and look at me. Cousin's art portrait, I saw a half-naked photo with arms and legs exposed, which was very exciting.Cousin is an unrestrained woman.Later when they came out from the back room, the cousin still said to Ouyang Hui: "Not necessarily, we will only find out after the pregnancy test." Ouyang Hui said: "I'm sorry." The cousin said: "I'll sleep with you tonight, let Lu Xiaolu sleep in the living room." Ouyang Hui said: "I'm not used to sleeping with others, can I sleep alone?" The cousin smiled and said: "Then That’s okay, you sleep inside, I’ll sleep on the sofa, and Lu Xiaolu will use the floor.” Ouyang Hui looked at me and said, “I’m sorry.” I said, “It’s okay, I can sleep on the floor.” I was a little unhappy , I think this girl is hypocritical, she has already slept with Yang Yi and has a big belly, and she even said that she is not used to sleeping with people. My cousin told us that it was too late to go to the hospital today, so I had to leave early tomorrow morning. She is also on vacation these days, so she can stay with Ouyang Hui all the time, so I don't have to go.I said no, I must go, I worked hard to escort her from Daicheng to Shanghai, but I didn't see the result, so I was worried.The cousin said: "Don't be too wordy, you don't have to worry about women's affairs." In the evening, my cousin bought some cooked vegetables and cooked a pot of rice.She said that she still had an engagement, and she was going out for a while, so she changed into a beautiful dress, a royal blue skirt, a small patent leather bag, and walked away with high heels.Ouyang Hui said: "Your cousin is so handsome." I couldn't help telling her all the stories about my cousin.Ordinary girls would be surprised when they heard this kind of story, but Ouyang Hui was a little fascinated and asked, "Why did your cousin break up with the Chinese teacher?" "Just don't love him anymore. If you don't love him, you should break up. My cousin said." Ouyang Hui said thoughtfully: "Your cousin is so chic, she is right." We had dinner with the accompaniment of the news broadcast, when the phone rang in the middle, I picked it up and heard it was Yang Yi.As soon as Yang asked me a few words, he asked me to hand over the phone to Ouyang Hui.Ouyang Hui lowered her voice to talk to him. I thought it was boring, so I ran downstairs, found a public phone booth, and called Yu Xiaoqi. On the phone, I heard the aunt in the dormitory calling her name loudly. After waiting for a long time, Yu Xiaoqi answered the phone. I said I am in Shanghai. Yu Xiaoqi was very happy and said, "Hey, it's a good thing I didn't go back, otherwise we would have missed it." I said I was near Zhongshan Park, and she said it was a coincidence that her school was in this area.I said, "Can we meet tomorrow?" Yu Xiaoqi said: "I'm going to the Bund tomorrow, how about you go too?" "Okay." After making an appointment, I hung up the phone and ran back upstairs. Ouyang Hui was no longer in the living room, she went back to the back room, and the door was closed tightly.I don't know what Yang Yi said to her.I sat alone in the living room watching TV, dumbfounded and in no mood.Thinking of seeing Yu Xiaoqi tomorrow, I suddenly felt a little annoyed, why should I go to her. After watching TV for over an hour, Ouyang Hui remained silent, probably asleep.I was also drowsy, so I simply turned off the TV and took a nap on the sofa.I don't know how long it has passed, I feel sore in my neck, it's almost fucking broken, I opened my eyes and looked at the clock, it was ten o'clock, and my cousin hadn't come back yet.I stood up and rubbed my neck, and heard a small sound in the room, as if a saw blade was sawing something from time to time.I looked around the room and found that the sound was coming from the back room. At this moment, I realized that it was Ouyang Hui who was crying. I lit a cigarette and walked around the room again, the girl's cry was still piercing into my ears, although the voice was not high, but every time it plucked just right on my nerves.If every girl in the world cried like that, I'd have to go nuts.Later, I put my ear to the door and listened carefully. I couldn't bear it any longer. I knocked on the door and asked, "Are you okay?" The crying inside was originally very low, but after I asked, it suddenly became louder.I thought to myself, maybe my greetings just hit Ouyang Hui's nerves.Damn, my cousin is right. Women's affairs are very troublesome. I shouldn't have gone to greet her, but I can't let her cry, can I?I couldn't see her through the door, so I had to say: "Don't cry, nothing will happen after tomorrow. I know you are a high-achieving student in Daizhong, and you will definitely be admitted to university in the future. This kind of thing is nothing .My cousin fell in love with a Chinese teacher in her second year of high school and was almost beaten to death by her family. She survived and was admitted to university. No matter how bad things are, they will pass.” Ouyang Hui said inside: "You don't understand at all, so why come to persuade me?" I said: "Don't be so pessimistic. Even if there is no such unlucky thing, there will be other unlucky things, just like a boat sailing in the sea, always hitting a rock, either this one or that one." I waited for a while, but there was no movement inside, as if she had stopped crying.I said: "Actually, everyone hits a rock sometime. Like me, I fell in love with a girl, but she didn't like me, she came to Shanghai, I'm going to be a goddamn life in Matai Town Workers, this is unlucky enough. There are many unlucky things in the world, some of which are temporary, and some of which are lifetime." Ouyang Hui said in the room: "I heard from Yang Yi that the girl looks a bit like me." I said, "Hey, you know too? Yang Yi is willing to tell you everything." Ouyang Hui said: "You and Yang Yi are friends, right?" I said, "Iron buddy, it's been ten years." Ouyang Hui said, "Don't you think there is something wrong with his character?" 我说：“这我可不能评价，得你说了才算。”过了一会儿我又说：“其实这件事，他做得有点缺德，不过他也没办法，他要考清华大学，就必须去参加数理化竞赛，参加数理化竞赛就不能陪你来上海。这个事情很矛盾的。我觉得，他已经考虑得很周到了。” 欧阳慧说：“他周到个屁，他只会考虑他自己！” 我不防她会骂粗话，只好说：“他还给了我一千块钱……” 欧阳慧说：“你告诉杨一，让他去死吧。你也去死吧！”说完，房门上咚的一声，好像是把什么东西砸了过来。我心想，这妞今天装了一天的文静，其实我太清楚了，她没那么大的气量，到了晚上总算爆发出来了。这大概就是歇斯底里，和更年期综合症差不多的。又反过来想想，她也挺可怜的，打胎这么大的事情，居然跟着我这个陌生人跑到上海来，再痛苦也得自己扛着，还不能告诉爹妈。这么大的女孩儿，在家一定像宝贝一样供着，真要上了手术台那跟牲口也没什么差别。算了，我体谅她。 后来她没了动静，估计是睡了。我从衣柜里找出被褥枕头，铺在地上，关了灯躺下。我想，我认识的这些女孩儿都是怎么回事，都不大正常，都有着我无法理解的一面。我睡不着。外面的霓虹灯照在屋子里，紫红色的，在黑暗中可以看见表姐的照片挂在墙上，她美丽的面孔变成了一团黑黝黝的影子。 零点时，一阵轻微的动静，灯一亮，表姐回来了。她以为我睡着了，穿着裙子就从我头上跨了过去，不料我此时正好睁开眼睛，她那点春光被我看了个底朝天。太生猛了。表姐低头一看，吓了一跳，一脚踩在我脸上。还好她把高跟鞋脱了，就光着脚，不然老子的眼珠子都能被她踩出来。表姐恶狠狠地低声问我：“看什么看？”我低声说：“我什么都没看见！”表姐说：“你这个小流氓。” 后来表姐去洗澡，在卫生间里换了睡衣，把灯关了跳到沙发上。我闻到她身上淡淡的香气，似乎不是香水的味道。表姐太诱人了，我要是那群男人，我也情愿为她跳黄浦江。我们两个压低了声音说话。 表姐说：“那个小姑娘好镇定啊，我从来没见过这样的，一般都是哭哭啼啼的。” 我说：“刚才还哭过呢，关在屋子里闷头哭，还骂人，大概歇斯底里了。” 表姐说：“这种情况下，有点情绪很正常的，我还以为她天生神经麻木。” 我说：“她会写诗的，其实很脆弱的。” 表姐说：“杨一这个小赤佬不错嘛，女朋友会写诗，比你强。” 我说：“她跟杨一是同学，近水楼台先得月。” 表姐说：“你怎么不去找个女朋友？” 我说：“我最近在找，不过，我失恋了。” 表姐说：“嘻嘻，失恋的男人我见多了，没有你这样满不在乎的。” 我说：“我心里很难过，但我有情绪也不表露出来。” 表姐说：“你才是天生神经麻木呢。” 我争不过她，还是睡觉吧。临睡前，表姐说明天早上六点她们就要出门，让我在家多睡一会儿。表姐还让我放心，她会照顾好欧阳慧的。她说：“不是不让你去，你要是去了，看见这种场面很不好，对人家女孩儿也不好，你又不是杨一。还是我来应付吧。”表姐其实是个善良的女孩儿。我说：“有一千块钱在我裤兜里，杨一给我的，明天你拿着。”说完，我打了个哈欠，五秒钟之内睡死过去。 第二天早上我醒来，屋子里空荡荡的，表姐和欧阳慧都不在了。我确实睡得太沉了。一看钟，已经九点。我从地铺上爬起来把自己收拾了一下，打开冰箱一看，表姐没有为我准备任何能吃的东西。我索性抄着裤兜到街上找吃的，然后直接去和于小齐见面。 那天回来已经是夜里，我在新村楼下看见表姐家的灯亮着，赶紧冲了上去。表姐问我去哪里了，我说我出去逛逛。表姐说：“欧阳慧没事了。” “什么叫没事？” “就是说，她经过测孕证明，她没有怀孕。不过，因为孕周比较早，有可能没测出来，所以我建议她下个月再来测一次。” “他妈的，费了半天劲，原来是个空弹壳。”我说，“杨一这个傻逼。” “你好像唯恐天下不乱。” “不是不是，”我说，我当时的心情非常恶劣，只问我表姐，“欧阳慧呢？” “她回戴城了，说是不等你了，还让我谢谢你。”表姐说，“刚才杨一来过电话了，好像都乐屁了，比人家生了龙凤胎还高兴。” 我一屁股坐在沙发上，说：“我明天走，让我再住一天吧。” 表姐说：“你再多住几天也没关系，难得来次上海，去外滩什么的玩玩。” 我没告诉她，我已经去过外滩了。我只说：“我明天早上回去。” 后来表姐从屋子里拿出一本硬面抄，说：“欧阳慧把这本东西忘在我床头了，我刚才看了看，是本诗集，不知道是她抄的还是她自己写的。看写作风格挺整齐的，应该是她自己写的吧。还不错，你别忘了带给她。” 我翻开本子随便看了看，有几行诗句像水纹一样出现在纸面上。 我又翻过一页，上面写着： 诗都没有题目，句子散落在纸上，笔迹一如我所珍藏的那页纸。我觉得自己心脏部位被什么冰凉的东西摸了一下，不敢再看下去。 那天，表姐说，她特喜欢欧阳慧，有一种与众不同的地方，将来会是个很不平凡的姑娘。我说杨一挑的女孩儿当然不会有错。表姐摇摇头说：“欧阳慧对我说，她决定跟杨一分手了。” "why?" “她觉得她不爱他。” 中国话里面“他她”同音，我没听明白。表姐说：“欧阳慧认为，自己不爱杨一了。” 我还是没听明白，为什么忽然不爱了。都上过床了，还能不爱？这件事情要反悔起来，好像特别严重。当然我联想到表姐的恋爱生涯，她也是这么干的，说不爱就不爱，或者说爱就爱。表姐说：“我跟欧阳慧谈了很久，她很懂事的。” 我说：“姐姐，她还说你潇洒呢。” 表姐说：“那女孩儿啊，杨一有点配不上，杨一就是个小赤佬。我对欧阳慧说了，要分手就要决绝，没什么好废话的。” 我叫起来：“你也太过分了，怎么能撺掇人家分手？像你这种久经沙场的人，要撂倒一个杨一，那就跟玩似的。你他妈的这不是公平竞争。” “你嚷个鬼啊，这是欧阳慧自己的选择。”表姐忽然很严肃地说，“爱一个人，不爱一个人，都像一条很长的路，要走上很久才能明白。你明白吗？” 我叹了口气，等我走上很久，我就什么都明白了。 次日天亮我告别表姐，独自回戴城。我想，这下回去没法交待了，杨一完了。我这辈子可能再也见不到欧阳慧了，其实我错了，我后来还遇到过她。倒是表姐，那是我最后一次看见她。一年以后她死于一次凶杀事件，凶手是那个死忠的男人。他将她勒死在客厅里，就是我睡觉的位置上。他一边说爱她，一边缓慢地将她置于死地。他杀了她之后，没有去跳黄浦江，而是镇定地走到派出所投案自首。我看到过凶手的照片，一张平庸的脸，戴一副平光眼镜，鼻子很短，眼镜片子把鼻子压缩成一个很小的像面粉团一样的东西。爱是一条很长的路，与时间无关，我们都不能知道终点在哪里，即便是表姐这样强悍的人。 表姐就这么死了。
有关那本笔记本，我托杨一转交给欧阳慧。杨一接过笔记本，翻看了几页，随后将它合上，像老头那样叹气。我问他，是不是已经被欧阳慧蹬了。他反问我：“你怎么知道？” “她说要跟你分手，”我说，“不过没有对我说，她告诉我表姐了。” “她跟你表姐还挺投缘的。”杨一说，“听说你表姐还他妈的教了她分手技巧。” “真的分手了？” 杨一说，分手了，而且实打实被欧阳慧蹬了。这是他人生第一次失恋，非常惨痛。说实话，按照杨一的人品，在戴城这种地方本来是不应该失恋的，可谁让他非要找个女诗人做马子呢？我吃过欧阳慧的亏，只能说，这个妞外表柔弱，内心凶悍，比街上的小太妹不差劲。小太妹的内心没这么强大。 杨一说：“很多事情我都想不明白，不过我也没时间去考虑了。” 我点头说：“还是考大学要紧。” 杨一说：“对了，欧阳慧没怀孕，一回戴城，她就来例假了。我至少不用担心被学校开除了。” 我说：“他妈的，你真是得不偿失。” 这事就这么莫名其妙地结束了。 若干年以后，我和杨一在药店里看见一种测孕笔。我对杨一说，当年要是有这玩意，你跟欧阳慧可能就不会分手了。杨一把玩着这支笔，说：“他妈的，我怎么没想到呢，就是一张PH试纸嘛。”说完大笑起来。 他放下那支笔，对我说：“没缘份，早晚还是要分手的。”
On the National Day of 1991, I climbed on the train to go to Shanghai with Ouyang Hui by my side.She and Yang Yi had been in love for more than half a year, and they had sex with each other. When she first saw me as a hooligan, I thought she would be very shy, or out of anger.Unexpectedly, she was very calm and said to me: "Let's go." Then she ignored me. Before, Yang Yi once said to me: "Xiaolu, I know you also had a crush on Ouyang Hui. If I fell in love with her, shouldn't it be regarded as stealing your woman?" I said shit, I don't care about it at all, I There is only Yu Xiaoqi in his heart, and there is still a little space left for Zeng Yuan.For me at the time, having two girls in my heart was enough space. I was very happy for Yang Yi, who successfully lost his virginity at the age of eighteen, and it was not easy in a heavily guarded place like a key middle school.No wonder he told me that love is the driving force for career. In fact, his subtext is: sex life is the driving force for reviewing homework.Of course it's vulgar for me to say that.Thinking about myself, I only got my first kiss until now, I am still at the starting point, Yang Yi has already reached the end point, and even broke through the end point, breaking the virginity is not enough, it would be fun to add an abortion. In the chaotic train station, Ouyang Hui followed me, squeezed through the crowd and moved forward inch by inch.On the National Day that day, all the villagers in the city went to Shanghai to watch the excitement.A child in the crowd said childishly: "Mom, we are going to see Nanjing Road." The child's mother said: "Son, come back and write a composition." I thought to myself, it's so fucking boring.Any city will look boring if you just stand in the train station. When we got to the platform, I was really desperate. There was a sea of people, and it was the same on the train. The fat people were squeezed into thin people, and the skinny people were squeezed into sticks.I was afraid of losing her, so I looked back at her again and again.She has no expression on her face. To be honest, she really looks like Yu Xiaoqi, looking at him abruptly from a certain angle. As soon as the train stopped, the doors opened, and the crowd roared up. Men, women, and children became death squads, and those who didn't want to die would be swarmed and pushed up by the people behind.It is said that this is how wars were fought in Europe in the Middle Ages. Tens of thousands of people huddled together and rushed forward. Those behind did not know whether to live or die. Like candied gourds, a dozen people were strung together. The original 10 kg weapon was strung together to 1,500 kg. The spear could not be lifted, and the formation was broken.Guys like me used to be masters of stringing spears back then.I did my part, squeezed an old man and a woman away, and I went to the front.Looking back, the crowd between Ouyang Hui and me had already been rushed away, she was knocked to one side, her face was still full of displeasure, and she didn't call me.I had no choice but to retreat, grabbed her arm and said, "Come in front of me." Ouyang Hui muttered, "What are you doing?" I can go to Shanghai by carriage.I held her waist from behind, lifted her up hard, and sent her to the car door. A woman behind me grabbed my clothes and cursed loudly: "Why did you hit me? You gunman!" I cursed "Fuck you, don't pull me!" Many hands behind me pulled me together: "Come down, rascal!" Ouyang Hui didn't say a word at first, but then felt that I was not lifting her and pushing her into the car door, but hugging her. She screamed as she fell to the ground. I struggled hard, and heard a snort behind me, and someone tore my shirt.I didn't have time to pay attention to this, so I took advantage of the situation and sent Ouyang Hui forward, the conductor at the door stretched out his hand and dragged her up.The people behind continued to pull me, this time by my belt.I was dragged down by them.Ouyang Hui stood at the door of the car and shouted to me: "Where are you going?" Muay Thai tricks.I ran to the car, saw a window was open, put my hands on the window sill, jumped in, stuck my head in a passenger's vagina, and crawled out from under the seat. After a lot of effort, I squeezed to the car door, and Ouyang Hui stood there without saying a word, not surprised to see me.I said, "Hey, I'm here." At this time, she said the first sentence to me seriously: "I thought you ran away." I said, "How is this possible? How could I run away from what Yang Yi entrusted to me?" Ouyang Hui said: "Don't mention him to me again." Obviously very dissatisfied with Yang Yi. After the train started, she didn't speak again, she lowered her head and wondered what she was thinking.Although there is no friendship between me and her, there are many grievances and grievances in the past. I once humiliated her for being flat-chested, and she once brought the teacher to arrest me.At that time, I was very young and irrational, and it was a long time ago, so let's not talk about it.I sneaked a look at her, her belly was not big, and her chest was still flat.I heard that a pregnant woman's breasts get bigger, but she doesn't seem to change much. This is a slow train, commonly known as a kowtow train, which stops at every small station.There's no way, if the express car won't stop in Daicheng at all.It was very hot in the carriage, and people were crowded out of shape. Slow trains are annoying, and the pits and valleys are full of people from the countryside.I heard a child crying, saying: "Mom, I don't want to see Nanjing Road." The mother said: "It's annoying, stop crying." Ouyang Hui leaned against the wall of the carriage and muttered mockingly: " Children, come back and write a composition." I laughed out loud, it turned out that she is a girl with a sense of humor. We stood at the junction of the carriages, swaying badly, and couldn't see the scenery outside the window.Ouyang Hui kept her eyes on the ground, with her schoolbag on her chest, without saying a word.I slowly remembered that I had a crush on her once, and even stole her poems.Of course, she is now Yang Yi's girlfriend, and she may be pregnant, so I can't have any evil thoughts about her.Liu Bei said that brothers are siblings, women are clothes, and a woman who touches her brother is like stripping her brother of his clothes, which is not something humans do. I said to Ouyang Hui, "Let me carry your schoolbag for you." She hesitated and said, "Okay, thanks." I put my schoolbag behind my back.She kindly reminded me that it is more comfortable to carry it on my chest.I said no, the back of the shirt was torn by those people, it was chilly, and I didn't know how bad it was, so I had to use my schoolbag to cover it. Ouyang Hui pulled me over 180 degrees, looked at my back, and said, "It's pretty torn, a new shirt." I said, "This is my only collared shirt." She said, "You don't wear an undershirt?" I said, "It's too rustic. Now it's popular to wear shirts and suits shirtless." She didn't answer any more, I felt her hands groping in the schoolbag behind me, and when I looked back, she found a book.I thought it was a textbook, but later I found out that it was wrong. The textbook is not that small and not that thin.She opened the book and read on a certain page casually. I bent down to look at the cover. It was "Anthology of American Confessional Poetry". "Are you writing poetry?" I asked embarrassingly. "Huh?" She looked up. "It's good to write poetry." "Do you write poetry too?" "I won't, I won't." I quickly waved my hand, lest she mistake me for a poet and ask me to recite the moonlight before the bed.I can understand it just by looking at her eyes. Writing poems or not writing poems is the biggest difference between me and her.If you meet a cook, he will never classify you as a different kind just because you don't know how to cook.With Yu Xiaoqi, I don't know how to paint, but at least I can act as a model, but I don't have such good luck with a poet, and I don't need a model to write poetry.Ouyang Hui lowered her head to read the book again and ignored me. I said awkwardly: "Yang Yi said..." "Don't mention him to me, didn't you say that just now?" She said without raising her head. I simply shut up and forget it, too much gossip makes me look like a pig.Thinking about it is right, Yang Yi is a bastard who makes people's stomachs unclear, and the National Day is not in a good mood. He wants to squeeze the train with me, a gangster, and go to Shanghai to do a pregnancy test, and he may have an abortion. Can't help but hate him.Ouyang Hui is considered very educated, if it were Zeng Yuan, he would probably have hacked with a watermelon knife long ago. When the car arrived in Kunshan, many people came up again, all blocking me.I was pushed towards Ouyang Hui, and the tighter and tighter I was, I was worried that she would have a miscarriage, so I didn't have to go to Shanghai.I faced her, propped my hands against the wall of the carriage, and competed with the people behind me.Behind is a girl who just got on the bus from Kunshan and yelled at me: "Can you take off your damn schoolbag and put it on your feet? Leave me some space, are you tired from carrying you like this?" I turned around and said, "I'm not tired, but since you want me to take off my schoolbag, don't regret it." The girl was quite beautiful, wearing glasses, like a scholar, and she continued to yell at me: "Why are you poor?" Mouth? Hurry up and take off the schoolbag, I’m so hurt from being squeezed by you!” I took off the schoolbag forcefully, and showed her the hole in the back, no, let her stick it.The girl said: "Damn!" I felt her body being pushed by the person behind me, and she was softly attached to the bare skin on my back.Ouyang Hui was in front of me, and another girl was in the back, so glamorous that life would be worse than death. The girl said, "Why don't you even wear an undershirt?" After saying this, Ouyang Hui could be heard laughing slyly.I said with a sad face, "If I had known this, I would have worn armor." Ouyang Hui said to the girl, "Come next to me, I can still squeeze here." The girl thanked her and forced her way to her side, The two leaned against the wall of the carriage together, and an old country man was immediately stuck behind me.The old man is much harder than the girl, and a bit smelly. On the way, the girl chatted with Ouyang Hui. The girl is from Kunshan and went to see her boyfriend at Fudan University.She glanced at me and said to Ouyang Hui, "You two are a good match." Ouyang Hui was expressionless.I hurriedly explained that I didn't have that kind of relationship with her, we just went to Shanghai as a partner.The girl said: "Hee hee, why do I think you look at her wrongly?" I said, "I was born with this kind of eyes, and the old man also looks like this." The girl was chatting with Ouyang Hui, and the latter was perfunctory. After all, she was going to Shanghai to have an abortion, not a trip, so she probably wasn't in the mood.I don't know how long it took, the car arrived in Shanghai, and we got out of the car along with the crowd.The air outside is very fresh, and I can finally breathe a sigh of relief.The girl's boyfriend picked her up on the platform. They went to Fudan University, and we went to Zhongshan Park, in opposite directions.They drove us all the way to the bus station before waving goodbye. Ouyang Hui said: "You are quite popular with women." I said, "Don't talk nonsense, he has a boyfriend." Ouyang Hui said mockingly: "It's because of this that you are said to be amazing." I really want to answer, I am not as good as Yang Yi.I didn't dare to say it, for fear that she would turn against me.Although this girl is not bad-looking and looks very gentle, in fact she has a strong desire for revenge.I looked at the bus station, oh my god, there is a long queue, it is not worse than the train station, the only difference is that the train can climb in through the window, the car cannot, there are old men with red armbands to maintain order, and they speak Shanghainese , very arrogant.If caught by them, I will definitely be punished to death.The bus station in Shanghai is also interesting. There are two lines of people, one is called sitting line and the other is called standing line.At this time, the car came, and the people in the queue went up first and occupied the seats, and then it was the turn of the queue.I saw that the time was a little too late, so I said to Ouyang Hui, let's stand in line.Ouyang Hui nodded.I lifted my trouser belt, dragged her, and rushed towards the crowd of people again. Two hours later, I saw my cousin.My whole body was already drenched in sweat, and Ouyang Hui was also very embarrassed. My cousin is getting more and more beautiful. It's a waste for a doctor to be so beautiful.She has been like this since she was a child, and she has a sense of standing out from the crowd, and she is still in the crowd, and she has not found the crowd.This is also quite sad, but she doesn't care, she is still a crane, always a crane, and that's enough. My cousin is my idol, not because of her beauty, but because of her toughness.She was the first rebel in my matriarchal family. She fell in love with a Chinese teacher in high school. You must know that it was still in the 1980s. People are old. The cousin's cross-border love was passed down as a good story by the whole school. Everyone wanted to kill her This pair of incest mandarin ducks.At that time, my uncle was only in his forties, and he became a hypertensive patient because of her anger. He could only take Jiangya Ling every day. My aunt's menopause was advanced by ten years, and she never recovered.Because of this matter, my cousin changed schools and dropped out of school. She studied in high school for four years, and once ran away from home and lived in my house for more than half a month.She is very arrogant, and she scolded anyone who tried to persuade her. Back then, I was the only one who supported her, but it was a pity that my words were so light-hearted, it was useless, and I could only encourage her spiritually.My cousin made a fuss about this shit for more than two years, and then she was admitted to university, which is really tough.The family felt that she was an adult when she went to university, and the Chinese teacher was not too old, she was only thirty years old, and everyone gradually accepted this marriage. Who knew that my cousin had changed her mind, she didn't love that person anymore.As a result, the language teacher cut her pulse at the door of her house with a razor and was sent to a mental hospital.My cousin fell in love with a married man with hundreds of thousands of property and a company.Now my uncle was out of epilepsy, and my aunt was very happy. After all, there were very few wealthy people in the 1980s, and the wife could be ignored.The divorce battle was fought for two years and ended with my cousin's complete failure - the rich guy somehow went down the stairs and broke her neck and died.My cousin caught nothing.She was silent for two years, and then hired a calligrapher. I read his handwriting, shaking like Parkinson's disease. The inscription is "the year book of so-and-so's sixtieth year", and he is already sixty years old.The family is turned upside down again. If she messes around like this, no one can bear it.I wait for her to marry that old man, or that old man dies, but she doesn’t want to play anymore. As for the reason, I don’t know. I think the sixty-year-old calligrapher is shaking so badly, maybe he can’t be satisfied. my cousin.Anyway, broke up again.It was supposed to be celebrated, but my uncle was very scared. He knew that for my cousin, the end of one relationship meant the beginning of another, just like the flood of the Yellow River, followed by a more terrible plague. God knows she would delay. What weird things come back, the generation of Tianjiao, Tang Zong and Song Zu are not as romantic as her.After graduating, my cousin worked as a doctor in a general hospital. There are countless love stories about her, and there are many people chasing her. There is probably a strengthening company.Her love stimulates our nerves in a high-frequency and short way.Then our nerves went numb too.The news that came out recently is that she found an ordinary-looking man in the company under her command. The salary is not high, and the conversation is indecent. The only advantage is that he is loyal. If you ask him to jump the Huangpu River at any designated place, he will never jump into the Suzhou Creek.Such a well-behaved man is rare, but God knows that one day she will get tired of playing and don't want it anymore, she is very likely. My cousin and I have a very good relationship. When she ran away from home and came to Daicheng, I took out all the change in my piggy bank to let her relax and give her spiritual encouragement.She kept saying she wanted to repay me, and now she has her chance. My cousin lives in a new village. She borrowed a two-bedroom house.In the new village in Shanghai, the rooms are very small and the lighting is not good, similar to a dovecote.In the early 1990s, although Shanghainese were very arrogant, their living environment was ridiculed by the people of the whole country.Then things went wrong, real estate was privatized, and then prices went up, and people from all over the country rushed to Shanghai, renting dovecots and thinking that they had come to heaven, and at the same time cursed this paradise. I entered the door of my cousin's house. It was already afternoon, and she ran out wearing a teddy bear pajamas and opened the door.Shanghai women are so fucking tough, they dare to walk on the street in their pajamas, this unhealthy trend has also spread to Daicheng, and it has intensified, our women also walk on the street in their pajamas, but they often forget to wear a bra underneath , Two black spots appeared on his chest, causing the bus driver to kill someone. I haven't seen my cousin for several years. She was very affectionate and said that I had grown taller and had muscles. Egg, if you don’t learn well, how did something happen?” I struggled and said, "I didn't do it, it was Yang Yi." My cousin used to live in my house and knew Yang Yi, and the three of us went to the movies together.The cousin said: "Oh, that little bastard, he has been very cunning since he was a child. Which technical school does he go to now?" I said: "He is now a high-achieving student in a key middle school, and he will take the college entrance examination next year." The cousin said: "He is smarter than you You pig, you went to a chemical technical school, and you will be a worker for the rest of your life." I said, "The worker is also very good." My cousin said, "Well, you are so tall, you are deceiving yourself, pig. Do you have a girlfriend?" I said : "No." The cousin said: "This proves that you are a pig." I told my cousin to stop messing around, Ouyang Hui is still at the door.My cousin turned her head, and Ouyang Hui said generously, "Hello, my name is Ouyang Hui." She was so generous, I have never seen a abortionist so calm.My cousin is considered well-informed, so she couldn't help but look her up and down, and the two shook hands.The cousin said, "Hello, my name is Lin Jiayue." After entering the house, make tea and eat snacks as usual.My cousin took a men's shirt from the drawer, threw it to me, and said, "Change it, it's cheaper for you. This shirt costs three hundred yuan." I went in, was forked out by her, and said: "Go away, what are you meddling with girls' affairs?" I had to sit outside, run to the toilet to pee, run out to drink tea, turn on the TV, and look at me. Cousin's art portrait, I saw a half-naked photo with arms and legs exposed, which was very exciting.Cousin is an unrestrained woman.Later when they came out from the back room, the cousin still said to Ouyang Hui: "Not necessarily, we will only find out after the pregnancy test." Ouyang Hui said: "I'm sorry." The cousin said: "I'll sleep with you tonight, let Lu Xiaolu sleep in the living room." Ouyang Hui said: "I'm not used to sleeping with others, can I sleep alone?" The cousin smiled and said: "Then That’s okay, you sleep inside, I’ll sleep on the sofa, and Lu Xiaolu will use the floor.” Ouyang Hui looked at me and said, “I’m sorry.” I said, “It’s okay, I can sleep on the floor.” I was a little unhappy , I think this girl is hypocritical, she has already slept with Yang Yi and has a big belly, and she even said that she is not used to sleeping with people. My cousin told us that it was too late to go to the hospital today, so I had to leave early tomorrow morning. She is also on vacation these days, so she can stay with Ouyang Hui all the time, so I don't have to go.I said no, I must go, I worked hard to escort her from Daicheng to Shanghai, but I didn't see the result, so I was worried.The cousin said: "Don't be too wordy, you don't have to worry about women's affairs." In the evening, my cousin bought some cooked vegetables and cooked a pot of rice.She said that she still had an engagement, and she was going out for a while, so she changed into a beautiful dress, a royal blue skirt, a small patent leather bag, and walked away with high heels.Ouyang Hui said: "Your cousin is so handsome." I couldn't help telling her all the stories about my cousin.Ordinary girls would be surprised when they heard this kind of story, but Ouyang Hui was a little fascinated and asked, "Why did your cousin break up with the Chinese teacher?" "Just don't love him anymore. If you don't love him, you should break up. My cousin said." Ouyang Hui said thoughtfully: "Your cousin is so chic, she is right." We had dinner with the accompaniment of the news broadcast, when the phone rang in the middle, I picked it up and heard it was Yang Yi.As soon as Yang asked me a few words, he asked me to hand over the phone to Ouyang Hui.Ouyang Hui lowered her voice to talk to him. I thought it was boring, so I ran downstairs, found a public phone booth, and called Yu Xiaoqi. On the phone, I heard the aunt in the dormitory calling her name loudly. After waiting for a long time, Yu Xiaoqi answered the phone. I said I am in Shanghai. Yu Xiaoqi was very happy and said, "Hey, it's a good thing I didn't go back, otherwise we would have missed it." I said I was near Zhongshan Park, and she said it was a coincidence that her school was in this area.I said, "Can we meet tomorrow?" Yu Xiaoqi said: "I'm going to the Bund tomorrow, how about you go too?" "Okay." After making an appointment, I hung up the phone and ran back upstairs. Ouyang Hui was no longer in the living room, she went back to the back room, and the door was closed tightly.I don't know what Yang Yi said to her.I sat alone in the living room watching TV, dumbfounded and in no mood.Thinking of seeing Yu Xiaoqi tomorrow, I suddenly felt a little annoyed, why should I go to her. After watching TV for over an hour, Ouyang Hui remained silent, probably asleep.I was also drowsy, so I simply turned off the TV and took a nap on the sofa.I don't know how long it has passed, I feel sore in my neck, it's almost fucking broken, I opened my eyes and looked at the clock, it was ten o'clock, and my cousin hadn't come back yet.I stood up and rubbed my neck, and heard a small sound in the room, as if a saw blade was sawing something from time to time.I looked around the room and found that the sound was coming from the back room. At this moment, I realized that it was Ouyang Hui who was crying. I lit a cigarette and walked around the room again, the girl's cry was still piercing into my ears, although the voice was not high, but every time it plucked just right on my nerves.If every girl in the world cried like that, I'd have to go nuts.Later, I put my ear to the door and listened carefully. I couldn't bear it any longer. I knocked on the door and asked, "Are you okay?" The crying inside was originally very low, but after I asked, it suddenly became louder.I thought to myself, maybe my greetings just hit Ouyang Hui's nerves.Damn, my cousin is right. Women's affairs are very troublesome. I shouldn't have gone to greet her, but I can't let her cry, can I?I couldn't see her through the door, so I had to say: "Don't cry, nothing will happen after tomorrow. I know you are a high-achieving student in Daizhong, and you will definitely be admitted to university in the future. This kind of thing is nothing .My cousin fell in love with a Chinese teacher in her second year of high school and was almost beaten to death by her family. She survived and was admitted to university. No matter how bad things are, they will pass.” Ouyang Hui said inside: "You don't understand at all, so why come to persuade me?" I said: "Don't be so pessimistic. Even if there is no such unlucky thing, there will be other unlucky things, just like a boat sailing in the sea, always hitting a rock, either this one or that one." I waited for a while, but there was no movement inside, as if she had stopped crying.I said: "Actually, everyone hits a rock sometime. Like me, I fell in love with a girl, but she didn't like me, she came to Shanghai, I'm going to be a goddamn life in Matai Town Workers, this is unlucky enough. There are many unlucky things in the world, some of which are temporary, and some of which are lifetime." Ouyang Hui said in the room: "I heard from Yang Yi that the girl looks a bit like me." I said, "Hey, you know too? Yang Yi is willing to tell you everything." Ouyang Hui said: "You and Yang Yi are friends, right?" I said, "Iron buddy, it's been ten years." Ouyang Hui said, "Don't you think there is something wrong with his character?" 我说：“这我可不能评价，得你说了才算。”过了一会儿我又说：“其实这件事，他做得有点缺德，不过他也没办法，他要考清华大学，就必须去参加数理化竞赛，参加数理化竞赛就不能陪你来上海。这个事情很矛盾的。我觉得，他已经考虑得很周到了。” 欧阳慧说：“他周到个屁，他只会考虑他自己！” 我不防她会骂粗话，只好说：“他还给了我一千块钱……” 欧阳慧说：“你告诉杨一，让他去死吧。你也去死吧！”说完，房门上咚的一声，好像是把什么东西砸了过来。我心想，这妞今天装了一天的文静，其实我太清楚了，她没那么大的气量，到了晚上总算爆发出来了。这大概就是歇斯底里，和更年期综合症差不多的。又反过来想想，她也挺可怜的，打胎这么大的事情，居然跟着我这个陌生人跑到上海来，再痛苦也得自己扛着，还不能告诉爹妈。这么大的女孩儿，在家一定像宝贝一样供着，真要上了手术台那跟牲口也没什么差别。算了，我体谅她。 后来她没了动静，估计是睡了。我从衣柜里找出被褥枕头，铺在地上，关了灯躺下。我想，我认识的这些女孩儿都是怎么回事，都不大正常，都有着我无法理解的一面。我睡不着。外面的霓虹灯照在屋子里，紫红色的，在黑暗中可以看见表姐的照片挂在墙上，她美丽的面孔变成了一团黑黝黝的影子。 零点时，一阵轻微的动静，灯一亮，表姐回来了。她以为我睡着了，穿着裙子就从我头上跨了过去，不料我此时正好睁开眼睛，她那点春光被我看了个底朝天。太生猛了。表姐低头一看，吓了一跳，一脚踩在我脸上。还好她把高跟鞋脱了，就光着脚，不然老子的眼珠子都能被她踩出来。表姐恶狠狠地低声问我：“看什么看？”我低声说：“我什么都没看见！”表姐说：“你这个小流氓。” 后来表姐去洗澡，在卫生间里换了睡衣，把灯关了跳到沙发上。我闻到她身上淡淡的香气，似乎不是香水的味道。表姐太诱人了，我要是那群男人，我也情愿为她跳黄浦江。我们两个压低了声音说话。 表姐说：“那个小姑娘好镇定啊，我从来没见过这样的，一般都是哭哭啼啼的。” 我说：“刚才还哭过呢，关在屋子里闷头哭，还骂人，大概歇斯底里了。” 表姐说：“这种情况下，有点情绪很正常的，我还以为她天生神经麻木。” 我说：“她会写诗的，其实很脆弱的。” 表姐说：“杨一这个小赤佬不错嘛，女朋友会写诗，比你强。” 我说：“她跟杨一是同学，近水楼台先得月。” 表姐说：“你怎么不去找个女朋友？” 我说：“我最近在找，不过，我失恋了。” 表姐说：“嘻嘻，失恋的男人我见多了，没有你这样满不在乎的。” 我说：“我心里很难过，但我有情绪也不表露出来。” 表姐说：“你才是天生神经麻木呢。” 我争不过她，还是睡觉吧。临睡前，表姐说明天早上六点她们就要出门，让我在家多睡一会儿。表姐还让我放心，她会照顾好欧阳慧的。她说：“不是不让你去，你要是去了，看见这种场面很不好，对人家女孩儿也不好，你又不是杨一。还是我来应付吧。”表姐其实是个善良的女孩儿。我说：“有一千块钱在我裤兜里，杨一给我的，明天你拿着。”说完，我打了个哈欠，五秒钟之内睡死过去。 第二天早上我醒来，屋子里空荡荡的，表姐和欧阳慧都不在了。我确实睡得太沉了。一看钟，已经九点。我从地铺上爬起来把自己收拾了一下，打开冰箱一看，表姐没有为我准备任何能吃的东西。我索性抄着裤兜到街上找吃的，然后直接去和于小齐见面。 那天回来已经是夜里，我在新村楼下看见表姐家的灯亮着，赶紧冲了上去。表姐问我去哪里了，我说我出去逛逛。表姐说：“欧阳慧没事了。” “什么叫没事？” “就是说，她经过测孕证明，她没有怀孕。不过，因为孕周比较早，有可能没测出来，所以我建议她下个月再来测一次。” “他妈的，费了半天劲，原来是个空弹壳。”我说，“杨一这个傻逼。” “你好像唯恐天下不乱。” “不是不是，”我说，我当时的心情非常恶劣，只问我表姐，“欧阳慧呢？” “她回戴城了，说是不等你了，还让我谢谢你。”表姐说，“刚才杨一来过电话了，好像都乐屁了，比人家生了龙凤胎还高兴。” 我一屁股坐在沙发上，说：“我明天走，让我再住一天吧。” 表姐说：“你再多住几天也没关系，难得来次上海，去外滩什么的玩玩。” 我没告诉她，我已经去过外滩了。我只说：“我明天早上回去。” 后来表姐从屋子里拿出一本硬面抄，说：“欧阳慧把这本东西忘在我床头了，我刚才看了看，是本诗集，不知道是她抄的还是她自己写的。看写作风格挺整齐的，应该是她自己写的吧。还不错，你别忘了带给她。” 我翻开本子随便看了看，有几行诗句像水纹一样出现在纸面上。 我又翻过一页，上面写着： 诗都没有题目，句子散落在纸上，笔迹一如我所珍藏的那页纸。我觉得自己心脏部位被什么冰凉的东西摸了一下，不敢再看下去。 那天，表姐说，她特喜欢欧阳慧，有一种与众不同的地方，将来会是个很不平凡的姑娘。我说杨一挑的女孩儿当然不会有错。表姐摇摇头说：“欧阳慧对我说，她决定跟杨一分手了。” "why?" “她觉得她不爱他。” 中国话里面“他她”同音，我没听明白。表姐说：“欧阳慧认为，自己不爱杨一了。” 我还是没听明白，为什么忽然不爱了。都上过床了，还能不爱？这件事情要反悔起来，好像特别严重。当然我联想到表姐的恋爱生涯，她也是这么干的，说不爱就不爱，或者说爱就爱。表姐说：“我跟欧阳慧谈了很久，她很懂事的。” 我说：“姐姐，她还说你潇洒呢。” 表姐说：“那女孩儿啊，杨一有点配不上，杨一就是个小赤佬。我对欧阳慧说了，要分手就要决绝，没什么好废话的。” 我叫起来：“你也太过分了，怎么能撺掇人家分手？像你这种久经沙场的人，要撂倒一个杨一，那就跟玩似的。你他妈的这不是公平竞争。” “你嚷个鬼啊，这是欧阳慧自己的选择。”表姐忽然很严肃地说，“爱一个人，不爱一个人，都像一条很长的路，要走上很久才能明白。你明白吗？” 我叹了口气，等我走上很久，我就什么都明白了。 次日天亮我告别表姐，独自回戴城。我想，这下回去没法交待了，杨一完了。我这辈子可能再也见不到欧阳慧了，其实我错了，我后来还遇到过她。倒是表姐，那是我最后一次看见她。一年以后她死于一次凶杀事件，凶手是那个死忠的男人。他将她勒死在客厅里，就是我睡觉的位置上。他一边说爱她，一边缓慢地将她置于死地。他杀了她之后，没有去跳黄浦江，而是镇定地走到派出所投案自首。我看到过凶手的照片，一张平庸的脸，戴一副平光眼镜，鼻子很短，眼镜片子把鼻子压缩成一个很小的像面粉团一样的东西。爱是一条很长的路，与时间无关，我们都不能知道终点在哪里，即便是表姐这样强悍的人。 表姐就这么死了。
有关那本笔记本，我托杨一转交给欧阳慧。杨一接过笔记本，翻看了几页，随后将它合上，像老头那样叹气。我问他，是不是已经被欧阳慧蹬了。他反问我：“你怎么知道？” “她说要跟你分手，”我说，“不过没有对我说，她告诉我表姐了。” “她跟你表姐还挺投缘的。”杨一说，“听说你表姐还他妈的教了她分手技巧。” “真的分手了？” 杨一说，分手了，而且实打实被欧阳慧蹬了。这是他人生第一次失恋，非常惨痛。说实话，按照杨一的人品，在戴城这种地方本来是不应该失恋的，可谁让他非要找个女诗人做马子呢？我吃过欧阳慧的亏，只能说，这个妞外表柔弱，内心凶悍，比街上的小太妹不差劲。小太妹的内心没这么强大。 杨一说：“很多事情我都想不明白，不过我也没时间去考虑了。” 我点头说：“还是考大学要紧。” 杨一说：“对了，欧阳慧没怀孕，一回戴城，她就来例假了。我至少不用担心被学校开除了。” 我说：“他妈的，你真是得不偿失。” 这事就这么莫名其妙地结束了。 若干年以后，我和杨一在药店里看见一种测孕笔。我对杨一说，当年要是有这玩意，你跟欧阳慧可能就不会分手了。杨一把玩着这支笔，说：“他妈的，我怎么没想到呢，就是一张PH试纸嘛。”说完大笑起来。 他放下那支笔，对我说：“没缘份，早晚还是要分手的。”