Chapter 30 Section 29
My grandma is a devout Catholic.The biggest regret in her life is that no one in her family upholds her beliefs and becomes a believer.My mother believes in Buddhism, my father is a half-assed atheist, my uncle should believe in hippies or Ximen Qing, as for me, I only believe in Guan Gong.Before I was twenty, my grandma was still alive. She asked me if I was going to be baptized. I crossed my legs and said, I have a god on my head, and he will bless me. There is no need to find another master.My grandma said, your god has huge cracks.I didn't understand this sentence, my grandma went to heaven.Later, it really came true. All the protectors I believed in would doze off, be dazed, and jump wires at appropriate or inappropriate times. This is probably what my grandma said about the cracks.Only her Lord, appears to be omnipresent for eternity.
But I still like my god. When I sell pornography, I can feel that my god is seducing the buyer's god. When I enter the talent market, I can feel that he has become a dejected god.He is neither my father nor my son. He is unlucky with me. Sometimes he urges me to be brave, sometimes he is more timid than me. He dozes off but he will not betray me. It is not bad to lose a bet.
Of course, my grandma’s Lord is also very good, I think this way: One day, my God will close his cracks, and on that day I will leave him to God.
In 1998, when we learned that the orphanage had a price list, we couldn't help being shocked.Yang Chi said that the specific figures are not necessarily accurate, about 1,000 US dollars for healthy children and 800 US dollars for disabled children.This is a price tag only for foreigners, not for Chinese people.I said, fuck, they sell kids to foreigners?Yang Chi said, it's not for sale, it's for living expenses. The child belongs to you, and you have to pay the previous living expenses.This fact makes us a little embarrassed.I said that I would like to hang a $500 sign around my neck, but after thinking about it, this amount of money is not enough for my parents to provide for their retirement, at least $5,000.But this number is too high, I can't be worth more than Dai Dai. I said to Yang Chi, "If we can become children and leave our parents behind, we can probably go to America." Yang Chi said: "If you become a fertilized egg, you can put it in a bottle and go to the United States, and you don't need to pay for the air ticket." I spread out the world map again, across the palm-wide Pacific Ocean, I seemed to see my factory doctor sister there.From a rational point of view, I am happy for Dai Dai, but I also think that all the people who have gone to the United States will never come back, and they will become strangers when they come back, so I am a little sad. In the summer of that year, Xiao Su resigned and paid the pesticide factory 20,000 yuan in training fees (they can only return to freedom after working for five years).This compensation is not a hard and fast rule, and everything in the pesticide factory is decided by a certain person.The chairman announced long ago that if college graduates perform well in the factory, if they take the postgraduate entrance examination or resign, they can consider exempting the training fee.This makes people see it as an enlightened and humane leader, with laws like mountains and goodness like water, and that's how it is played.University graduates considered the 20,000 yuan, and those who wanted to leave or didn't want to leave all acted positively. The chairman was very happy with his management skills.Of course, there are not many people who can waive the training fee. The nephew of the chairman and the daughter-in-law of the deputy director are all at this level.Some people have no background and can only give gifts. Even if they give away 10,000 yuan within the 20,000 yuan limit, it is still equivalent to earning 10,000 yuan.The chairman just wants people to understand that gift giving is nice, but it's a gamble, no one wins every gamble, you still have to perform well. Xiao Su has worked in the pesticide factory for two years. He has not been late or left early in the past two years, and he has not made any mistakes in the laboratory tests. Of course, the newspaper office has not come to interview him. He is a very low-key and dedicated employee, unlike Yang Chi. Arrogant.Xiao Su submitted her resignation application, not expecting to be exempted from the training fee, but she still said some good things, showing that she was serious about her work and did not feel sorry for the pesticide factory.Unexpectedly, the sales of pesticides were bleak at that time, and people everywhere in the factory wanted to leave. The chairman was furious and regarded this pesticide factory as a land promised by God.The chairman slapped the table and said that none of them are allowed to be released, even if you pay, and the files are suppressed, especially this college student from other places, who is ungrateful.Xiao Su thought to herself, Your uncle, I have worked hard for two years without any rewards, and now I have become a pacesetter.At that time, Xiao Su had already received an employment notice from a foreign-funded company in Beijing and was anxious to leave.I advised him to miss work and be fired for a week, and he would become a free man.Xiao Su said that this is not good, expulsion is to be included in the file, his resume is too ugly, he has been excellent for half of his life, and since the first grade of elementary school, he has never had a score below 90 on his report card, so he cannot be humiliated by this.I had to entrust someone, give a gift, and show a copy of the marriage certificate to prove that the husband and wife are suffering from separation.Only then did the chairman appease his anger and ordered him to pay the money and leave.Xiao Su has been working for two years, and she only saved 20,000 yuan in savings, and it was all gone in a flash. When he left the factory, we all congratulated: Fuck, Xiao Su, the transfer fee is three thousand dollars, you are worth more than Dai Dai. Everyone who wants to leave has to pay, even Dai Dai.Americans come to China to adopt orphans with good intentions. The United States must be very happy. There are no orphans in the country, so they can only come to China to adopt.But whether the thousand dollars is too expensive or too cheap, only the bastard can tell.I have been brooding over this matter for many years, until middle age, when Lao Yang made a whole house of money, took his girlfriend to go hunting in Africa, knocked down a lion with an automatic rifle, and paid 50,000 U.S. dollars.Later, when he went to the refugee camp, a child followed him. He also wanted to bring a black child back to China, but the translator told him that you have to pay one thousand dollars.When Yang Chi heard this, he recalled the past, so he called me and said: This money is an international practice, WTO price, don't worry about it anymore.I said I knew it a long time ago. I had a friend who was infertile and went to the countryside of Sichuan to buy a child. The deal was 300 yuan, and he bought it from the child's mother. Later, he bought a tortoise for 2,000 yuan to accompany the three. Hundred bucks for kids to play. Xiao Su's resignation has been delayed for a while, and the company in Beijing can't go, waiting for another company's reply.We sat every day without doing anything. It was a rainy season, and every minute passed by. Xiaosu's house was full of mold.This is the characteristic of Daicheng. Mold is everywhere. No matter how you disinfect it, the fungus will always have a way to bring it back to life and occupy the house.At that time, the dog suffered from gastroenteritis and often had diarrhea. We suspected that it ate mushrooms growing in the yard, so we had to lock it in a cage. One day we cleaned up the house, and the weather was better. Xiao Su said that he missed Dai Dai a little, so he might as well go to the orphanage to pick her up.Once the employment notice from Beijing arrives here, or once the Americans come to Daicheng, they will never see them again.At this time Yang Chi said, "I'm going to Huashui County to collect debts soon."
When we came to the Daicheng Welfare Institute again, it started to rain again.Teacher Lin sent Dai Dai to the door and told us: "We have to send it back in two days." "The Americans are here in two days?" "In fact, they are already in Daicheng, but they still have to travel for a while, and they don't know when they will leave." Dai Dai said: "Father, I miss you." Xiao Su squatted down and hugged her affectionately. We took the child to Yang Chi's house, looked at Yang Chi's parents, and the old man hugged her affectionately.Throughout that day, in the building of Pongyao Xincun, everyone who knew the child came over and hugged her affectionately, and then said that it was not bad, it was better fucking to be taken away by the Americans than by the Chinese.Others say, not necessarily.This is where the fight started.Yang Chi's father came out and said, "Stop arguing, it's a very satisfactory thing. The United States is good, and this is Dai Dai's second reincarnation." After the party members said so, everyone shut up. We went back to Xiao Su's house, and like all the boring rainy seasons I experienced in my teenage years, we moved a stool and sat under the eaves to watch the sky.The child was also sitting with us, and the dog was seriously ill. We asked the veterinarian to dispense some medicine, and kept locked in the cage.The child saw the dog in the dark across the room, and suddenly asked, "Will it die?" "No." Xiao Su said. "It looked like it was dying." "It's just sick." The child was silent, and after a while said, "What if it dies?" Xiao Su had no choice but to say: "I dug a hole in the yard and buried it. Don't think about it anymore. Let's take a look at the map of the United States. You taught you to sing the American national anthem before, and you still know how to sing." sing?" "I forgot. I can recite Tang poems now." The child said, facing the gloomy sky, he recited a song "Li Li Yuan on the Grass, One Year Old and One Dry and Prosperous", and another "Bai Sun Yi Shan Ends, the Yellow River Into the sea" is quite common.After she went abroad, Tang poetry was no longer needed.After the child finished reciting Tang poems, we said that he recited them really well.The child recited it again.I suddenly discovered that if you recite Tang poetry over and over again, it will appear sad.Xiao Su said: "Dai Dai, the United States is a very beautiful country, and it will be beautiful even if you go there. There is also a place where the sun is at the end of the mountain, and the Mississippi River flows into the sea." "They're going to give her an American name?" I said. We thought for a while, according to the routine of Chinese people giving themselves English names in Chinese companies, would she be called Daisy? "Do you like the name Daisy?" Xiao Su asked Dai Dai. The child nodded, then shook his head after a while. In fact the child's name is not Daisy, she is Linda.It was the second half of the year, when Xiao Su received an email from Iowa, USA, written in English, which contained photos of her child and an introduction of her current situation.A girl named Linda was wearing a skirt and sitting on a chair with a smile. She had a dark complexion, and she did look like an Asian girl in a Hollywood movie.Xiao Su wrote back in English, wishing them happiness, but later his mailbox was hacked and he lost the news. The rain stopped, and we took our children to the children's theater in Daicheng.I have never been to that place. In my childhood, only top students could go in to watch the free performances, and Yang Chi and others were frequent visitors.Now I can finally go in with justification and justice, with our half-baked daughter.The stage play "New Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs" was performed that day, and we bought four tickets.When I walked into the theater, it was too dilapidated, the attendance rate was only one-third, and the lights were not on in many places.Yang Chi said: "It used to be beautiful here, but now it's like this." I said: "Hey, let's see if Snow White will have a psychological shadow on the child, what about the stepmother and queen." Xiao Su said: "It's said in the introduction, the new Snow White, another story." Chair cover, I thought, I don't know what to see.The lights dimmed, the curtain opened, and a middle-aged chubby actress played Snow White, who was going to fight the dragon with a sword in her hand.Xiao Su said: "Is this Snow White?" I pointed to the movie ticket and said, "New Snow White." Xiao Su said, okay, keep watching.After a while the dwarfs came out, we counted and found that something was wrong, there were only three dwarfs.At this time, Snow White also asked: "There are four more?" The three dwarfs said: "They have gone to mine." So in this stage play armed with Snow White, there are only three dwarfs. The dwarves, Snow White led them to slaughter six dragons, no queen, no hunter, no prince.Yang Chi shook his head and said, "I knew there weren't enough actors, so why didn't I act in 'Cinderella and Dragon Slayer'?" Xiao Su said, "My lord, the four of us can act." Dai Dai said, "Dogs can act." Dragon." I said: "It's all alive." The fat Snow White said: "The audience below please don't make any noise." After watching this play, we all thought that this was the worst and happiest performance by a grass-stage troupe we have ever seen in our life.We left with the kids, bought a red balloon at the entrance of the theater, and stood on the street waiting for a taxi.After a while, the child cried, let go, and the balloon flew away. "Just let the balloon fly away and buy it later." I said. "It was she who cried first and then the balloon flew away." Xiao Su said. The three of us squatted on the side of the street to comfort her, but she still cried and didn't want balloons anymore.This kind of situation has never happened before. The child has always been very well-behaved, which made us at a loss, as if we had really become three dwarfs.After a while, the taxi came, and we carried her into the car, but we still couldn't stop crying.We were on the verge of crying too.The car arrived in the downtown area and came down to look for food. Lao Yang asked the child what he wanted to eat. She wiped her tears and pointed to the signboard of the fried chicken shop.I thought to myself, this is not bad, I already know this, and you won't be hungry if you go to the United States. We didn't understand why she was crying, and after eating fried chicken, we forgot to ask her again.Until later, Yang Chi met Teacher Lin and talked about it.Teacher Lin pondered: "The police said that Dai Dai was picked up at the entrance of the children's theater." At that time, the child had already left. So I closed my eyes, and imagined a scene where the three of us stood at the entrance of the theater, with the poster of Snow White and the Three Dwarfs behind us, and there was a gloomy and silent entrance with steps going up one after another.The streets were deserted, and the traces of rainwater on the ground were half-dried by the short-lived sun.It was hot and humid, and we stood alone, unable to move.A man came by on a bicycle, and there was a girl on the front bumper. The man didn't seem to see us, so he left the girl on the side of the street and walked away. We took her and stood on the side of the street.We are like four orphans, we are always together and forever waiting to be separated.The red balloon flew into the sky.I've dreamed about this scene over and over again, only to wake up feeling disheartened. The child doesn't know, and Xiao Su and I don't know either. Lao Yang once went to the orphanage with a livid face.Teacher Lin said: The other party is an American couple in their fifties who teach at a university in Iowa. They are both well-known people. You don't have to worry about Dai Dai's future.Yang Chi said: "When we came to adopt her, you said that Dai Dai can't do it. You knew she would be taken away from then on, right?" Teacher Lin said: "Yes." Yang Chi said : "Then why do you want me to adopt her?" Teacher Lin said: "This is not my decision, Dean Yang has the final say. Can you take a cataract boy home? You can't." Yang Chi Leng He said coldly, "You don't have enough actors." Teacher Lin looked at him sadly, and Lao Yang came back without saying anything. The rainy season is too long.We sat for a long time, waiting for the Americans to take a tour of Daicheng and then take her away. On this day, Lao Yang rode his bicycle alone and sent Dai Dai back to the orphanage.The child sat on the front bumper, braving the summer wind, his hair brushing up again and again.Lao Yang was sweating profusely, and finally had to take off his undershirt and ride his bike shirtless. Yang Chi asked: "We are about to separate, will you miss me?" The child said, "Yes." Yang Chi said, "Actually, what I want to ask is, will you remember me?" The child said, "Yes. But where are you going?" Yang Chi said angrily: "I'm going to collect the debt. Someone owed me money and didn't pay it back. When I get the debt back, we can meet again."
That summer Yang Chi was sent to Huashui County to collect debts, and I wanted to go with him, but Lao Yang said no, this time I went with Zhu Kang, and I wouldn't let this bastard slip away again.Then he cursed, "Tang Seng only fetched the Buddhist scriptures once, what the hell, took the 100,000 yuan and ran eight times, what's the matter?"Xiao Su said, "What about Dai Dai?" Yang Chi said that it won't be too long this time, it will be done in two days, and if it doesn't work out, he will leave Huashui County in time.The flood peaks of rivers and rivers from all over the place came one after another, and the prime minister was on the embankment.Xiaosu's father is a water conservancy engineer. Xiaosu understands this better. She shook her head and said, "The prime minister has never stepped on the dam at such a time in history. In a catastrophic year, you should go back early." We watched the news on TV every day, the flood was imminent, and Yang Chi didn't come back.A few days later, Zhu Kang returned to Daicheng from Huaishui County, but he didn't get any money.Minister Bao asked, "Where's Yang Chi?" Zhu Kang said, "I don't know, I thought Yang Chi had already returned." Minister Bao didn't take it seriously.A few days later, Yang Chi was still nowhere to be seen, and there was no phone call.Lao Yang's father rushed to the sales department, grabbed Minister Bao, and asked him to hand over his son.Minister Bao shrugged and said, "I don't know where he went, did he find an orphan again?" Yang Chi's father called the police. The problem is, the police in Daicheng can't be sure that Yang Chi is dead regardless of the affairs of Huashui County. Lost locally.Thinking about going there again, I found that the road line was out of service. Lao Yang is gone. At that time, Teacher Lin called Yang Chi's house but no one answered, and finally called Xiao Su, the two of us were feeding the dog and taking medicine. "If you want to come and see her off, it's now." Teacher Lin said. Xiao Su said: "Yang Chi is on a business trip. Can I wait for him to come back?" Teacher Lin said: "It's impossible, the air ticket is booked. You and Lu Xiaolu will see her off?" Xiao Su looked at me, and I silently shook my head.Xiao Su hung up the phone.The two of us sat on the small bench, stroking the dog, thinking about Yang Chi and Dai Dai who didn't know when they would be back.Xiao Su suddenly said, "Do you feel heartbroken?" "Yes. Heartbroken," I said. I said to Xiao Su, Snow White and the three dwarves slaying the dragon, this is a farce. It might be arranged like this. We never saw Dai Dai again.I'm sorry, but I'm just saying this before my life is over.
I don't know why, but in the days when I can't get along, I always think of the factory doctor sister.When everyone is away from me, this most distant person seems to be with me all the time.Over time though, she has shrunk to a tiny point, kind of like a cosmic black hole, mass conglomeration, but it doesn't crush me, it just stops me for a moment, deflects, or loses my memory. She has become a foreigner.This fact belongs to another dimension, and for the first half of my life it had no outline, no meaning.Later, Dai Dai also went to the United States, and they suddenly became clear, illuminating each other and sending chills down my spine. The first foreigner I knew in the first half of my life was Bethune. He looked different from us, but he had the same ideas. He was an internationalist fighter, a Canadian, and a neighbor of the United States.The second is Marx, Lenin and others. Needless to say, I also forgot who came first.The third round is the turn of the Slavic national series seen in the movie, but they are actually actors.My mother once said proudly: In fact, the first foreigner you saw was Prince Sihanouk.He came to Daicheng in the 1970s. My mother hugged me to watch the excitement on the street and saw cars driving by.Later my grandma said that the first foreigner I saw in my life was not Prince Sihanouk, but a portrait of Jesus.But she also said that Jesus is not a foreigner, but the Lord.The Lord is above all borders. In the long years that followed, I would often think of the American uncle who took Dai Dai away. Like a radiant god, he rescued the child and came to the prosperous America.Later, Xiao Su said that Iowa is actually quite desolate, and the university may be more lively, and the life of Americans is poorer than that of Chinese, except New York. I picture this kid with a U.S. citizenship, speaking American English, watching Hollywood movies, and eating hamburgers.Telling this kind of thing to the children in the orphanage, they may not understand it, but if everyone has a patron saint above their heads, that god must be showing his power.But that god, as my grandma said, has huge cracks. I imagined that the American uncle and the American aunt walked into Daicheng, and they would definitely see a train station with white walls and blue tiles, covered with tiles, the upper part looks like a Chenghuang Temple, and the lower part looks like a public toilet.Foreigners don't understand Chinese art, otherwise, the calligraphy of "Mountain welcomes you" can also be entertaining for them.This is a city with a history of 2,500 years, which is 500 years older than Jesus. Of course, it is impossible to have relics of the Spring and Autumn Period here. At most, it is enough to look at the Ming and Qing Dynasties.When we talk about the United States, we say that they don't have much history, they are all history blind, 25-year-olds, and their brains are straight, as if their brains can bend because of the precipitation of history.As I said, the foreign tourists filmed on TV are all carrying cameras, taking pictures everywhere, love to eat all kinds of dim sum in Daicheng, can’t speak chicken feather Chinese, and know that Chinese people can’t understand chicken feather English, and they can only stand up in everything. Thumbs up, say good, or say, consumption! This kind of image is too damn deeply rooted in the hearts of the people. In the first half of my life and 25 years ago, I was so optimistic about Caucasians. When they appeared in Chinese advertisements, they would only give thumbs up, good or bad. In the poor eighties, this image could quickly make a soap or a snack a household name.You can even teach them how to speak cross talk and dance yangko.In my eyes, they are both gods and monkeys.But what a fucking pity, I haven't even dealt with a single foreigner.You know, people are sometimes very illusory, thinking that they understand, watching TV is enough, if you only live to be twenty-five years old and die, this kind of illusory is not bad, unfortunately you have to live.In this life, I want to know more things, gods and monkeys, one by one, separated into two compartments. I can imagine that the American uncle and the American aunt came to the Daicheng Welfare Institute, the small road with phoenix bamboo on both sides, walked into the door, and there was silence inside, walked along the clean cement road to the door of the classroom, saw the noon vegetable soup.Falk.This feeling is the same as ours, and people all over the world share this feeling, but even white men and women can't do anything about it, the only way is to take one away.This is similar to what Yang Chi did.I used to think they were gods, but gods are supposed to save everyone. In this sense, the orphanage is the god, and the American uncle is just a kind person.I imagined them walking into the classroom, and Teacher Lin said: You can choose one.No, Mr. Lin would not be so rude, he would quote according to the price list of the orphanage: for the healthy one, one thousand dollars for child support, and for the disabled, eight hundred dollars.Americans certainly don't come to buy discounted goods, they have enough for a thousand dollars, but they are only going to pay for one.In fact, Dean Yang still has a cheaper price in his hand, two hundred dollars, or even two hundred dollars upside down, but Dean Yang will not bring such a child out.The American uncle and aunt must have hesitated, just like when we first came here.Finally, Dean Yang walked to the last row of the classroom and pointed to Dai Dai.This one is healthy. She is five years old. She was picked up on the street and transferred to the orphanage through the police station. She is very quiet and has a bad memory. She has no idea how she lost it.She has a thousand dollars. Will American uncles and aunts go crazy?Whenever I think about it, my imagination goes in circles and I go crazy. The kid really doesn't know anything.Even what she told us was only on the surface of her memory. She didn't know whether her father was poor, hopeless, or simply crazy.She has limited abilities and lacks basis, and time will sink more unspoken memories into the deep sea with her mother country and homeland, leaving only a raft floating on the water.The child stood up as in the past, and looked blankly at the arrival of Uncle America, who decided to adopt her.The child goes to the Gold Coast on the raft of memory. The United States is not far away, but between us and you, in the first half of my life, there was indeed a gap in the God Realm, so that I couldn't look directly at it.The United States is the Gold Coast, and China is also the Gold Coast. In my opinion, the only thing that is not on the Gold Coast.
In fact, I guessed wrong. In the long time since then, that girl has been annihilated in memory.I only think of her very occasionally, and then keep forgetting.There are too many people I have forgotten in the first half of my life. One night many years later, I drank too much and sat in a daze on the street. Xiaosu called my cell phone from Switzerland.Xiao Su said: "I've been looking for Yang Chi for a long time, but I can't find it." I said that Lao Yang was out of town and invested in an IT company. As a result, the boss had a cerebral hemorrhage at the age of 25 and died from overwork. It's all in vain.Xiao Su said: "I forgot the mailbox of the professor in Iowa for a long time, but I still remember his last name." I said, so what.Xiao Su said: "I used Twitter to search for this girl named Linda, and I found it, 20 years old, Asian. Can you use Twitter now?" I said I could use a chicken feather, and I even took a taxi No, the driver doesn't want to pull a drunk guy who is sitting on the street to stop the car. What is that twenty-year-old Asian girl saying?Xiao Su said, it's all about travel, she's studying, it's nothing serious. I said, "That's good. Did you leave a message?" "I don't. We agreed back then that her past was wiped out, and we never existed." Xiao Su said, "But she has a bunch of signatures written in English, which is very interesting." "I can't understand English now, you can translate it." Xiao Su said: "The general idea is: I want to become a unicorn and knock over you assholes." So fast, so light, our half-baked daughter is old enough to call people stupid.When I was twenty-five years old, I didn’t understand anything, I could only call people stupid. I didn’t realize it until I was forty. Holding my phone, I suddenly felt dizzy, like an asshole, an asshole who woke up too late, with He was knocked over by the pure unicorn fifteen years ago, and lay on the street.
In 1998, when we learned that the orphanage had a price list, we couldn't help being shocked.Yang Chi said that the specific figures are not necessarily accurate, about 1,000 US dollars for healthy children and 800 US dollars for disabled children.This is a price tag only for foreigners, not for Chinese people.I said, fuck, they sell kids to foreigners?Yang Chi said, it's not for sale, it's for living expenses. The child belongs to you, and you have to pay the previous living expenses.This fact makes us a little embarrassed.I said that I would like to hang a $500 sign around my neck, but after thinking about it, this amount of money is not enough for my parents to provide for their retirement, at least $5,000.But this number is too high, I can't be worth more than Dai Dai. I said to Yang Chi, "If we can become children and leave our parents behind, we can probably go to America." Yang Chi said: "If you become a fertilized egg, you can put it in a bottle and go to the United States, and you don't need to pay for the air ticket." I spread out the world map again, across the palm-wide Pacific Ocean, I seemed to see my factory doctor sister there.From a rational point of view, I am happy for Dai Dai, but I also think that all the people who have gone to the United States will never come back, and they will become strangers when they come back, so I am a little sad. In the summer of that year, Xiao Su resigned and paid the pesticide factory 20,000 yuan in training fees (they can only return to freedom after working for five years).This compensation is not a hard and fast rule, and everything in the pesticide factory is decided by a certain person.The chairman announced long ago that if college graduates perform well in the factory, if they take the postgraduate entrance examination or resign, they can consider exempting the training fee.This makes people see it as an enlightened and humane leader, with laws like mountains and goodness like water, and that's how it is played.University graduates considered the 20,000 yuan, and those who wanted to leave or didn't want to leave all acted positively. The chairman was very happy with his management skills.Of course, there are not many people who can waive the training fee. The nephew of the chairman and the daughter-in-law of the deputy director are all at this level.Some people have no background and can only give gifts. Even if they give away 10,000 yuan within the 20,000 yuan limit, it is still equivalent to earning 10,000 yuan.The chairman just wants people to understand that gift giving is nice, but it's a gamble, no one wins every gamble, you still have to perform well. Xiao Su has worked in the pesticide factory for two years. He has not been late or left early in the past two years, and he has not made any mistakes in the laboratory tests. Of course, the newspaper office has not come to interview him. He is a very low-key and dedicated employee, unlike Yang Chi. Arrogant.Xiao Su submitted her resignation application, not expecting to be exempted from the training fee, but she still said some good things, showing that she was serious about her work and did not feel sorry for the pesticide factory.Unexpectedly, the sales of pesticides were bleak at that time, and people everywhere in the factory wanted to leave. The chairman was furious and regarded this pesticide factory as a land promised by God.The chairman slapped the table and said that none of them are allowed to be released, even if you pay, and the files are suppressed, especially this college student from other places, who is ungrateful.Xiao Su thought to herself, Your uncle, I have worked hard for two years without any rewards, and now I have become a pacesetter.At that time, Xiao Su had already received an employment notice from a foreign-funded company in Beijing and was anxious to leave.I advised him to miss work and be fired for a week, and he would become a free man.Xiao Su said that this is not good, expulsion is to be included in the file, his resume is too ugly, he has been excellent for half of his life, and since the first grade of elementary school, he has never had a score below 90 on his report card, so he cannot be humiliated by this.I had to entrust someone, give a gift, and show a copy of the marriage certificate to prove that the husband and wife are suffering from separation.Only then did the chairman appease his anger and ordered him to pay the money and leave.Xiao Su has been working for two years, and she only saved 20,000 yuan in savings, and it was all gone in a flash. When he left the factory, we all congratulated: Fuck, Xiao Su, the transfer fee is three thousand dollars, you are worth more than Dai Dai. Everyone who wants to leave has to pay, even Dai Dai.Americans come to China to adopt orphans with good intentions. The United States must be very happy. There are no orphans in the country, so they can only come to China to adopt.But whether the thousand dollars is too expensive or too cheap, only the bastard can tell.I have been brooding over this matter for many years, until middle age, when Lao Yang made a whole house of money, took his girlfriend to go hunting in Africa, knocked down a lion with an automatic rifle, and paid 50,000 U.S. dollars.Later, when he went to the refugee camp, a child followed him. He also wanted to bring a black child back to China, but the translator told him that you have to pay one thousand dollars.When Yang Chi heard this, he recalled the past, so he called me and said: This money is an international practice, WTO price, don't worry about it anymore.I said I knew it a long time ago. I had a friend who was infertile and went to the countryside of Sichuan to buy a child. The deal was 300 yuan, and he bought it from the child's mother. Later, he bought a tortoise for 2,000 yuan to accompany the three. Hundred bucks for kids to play. Xiao Su's resignation has been delayed for a while, and the company in Beijing can't go, waiting for another company's reply.We sat every day without doing anything. It was a rainy season, and every minute passed by. Xiaosu's house was full of mold.This is the characteristic of Daicheng. Mold is everywhere. No matter how you disinfect it, the fungus will always have a way to bring it back to life and occupy the house.At that time, the dog suffered from gastroenteritis and often had diarrhea. We suspected that it ate mushrooms growing in the yard, so we had to lock it in a cage. One day we cleaned up the house, and the weather was better. Xiao Su said that he missed Dai Dai a little, so he might as well go to the orphanage to pick her up.Once the employment notice from Beijing arrives here, or once the Americans come to Daicheng, they will never see them again.At this time Yang Chi said, "I'm going to Huashui County to collect debts soon."
When we came to the Daicheng Welfare Institute again, it started to rain again.Teacher Lin sent Dai Dai to the door and told us: "We have to send it back in two days." "The Americans are here in two days?" "In fact, they are already in Daicheng, but they still have to travel for a while, and they don't know when they will leave." Dai Dai said: "Father, I miss you." Xiao Su squatted down and hugged her affectionately. We took the child to Yang Chi's house, looked at Yang Chi's parents, and the old man hugged her affectionately.Throughout that day, in the building of Pongyao Xincun, everyone who knew the child came over and hugged her affectionately, and then said that it was not bad, it was better fucking to be taken away by the Americans than by the Chinese.Others say, not necessarily.This is where the fight started.Yang Chi's father came out and said, "Stop arguing, it's a very satisfactory thing. The United States is good, and this is Dai Dai's second reincarnation." After the party members said so, everyone shut up. We went back to Xiao Su's house, and like all the boring rainy seasons I experienced in my teenage years, we moved a stool and sat under the eaves to watch the sky.The child was also sitting with us, and the dog was seriously ill. We asked the veterinarian to dispense some medicine, and kept locked in the cage.The child saw the dog in the dark across the room, and suddenly asked, "Will it die?" "No." Xiao Su said. "It looked like it was dying." "It's just sick." The child was silent, and after a while said, "What if it dies?" Xiao Su had no choice but to say: "I dug a hole in the yard and buried it. Don't think about it anymore. Let's take a look at the map of the United States. You taught you to sing the American national anthem before, and you still know how to sing." sing?" "I forgot. I can recite Tang poems now." The child said, facing the gloomy sky, he recited a song "Li Li Yuan on the Grass, One Year Old and One Dry and Prosperous", and another "Bai Sun Yi Shan Ends, the Yellow River Into the sea" is quite common.After she went abroad, Tang poetry was no longer needed.After the child finished reciting Tang poems, we said that he recited them really well.The child recited it again.I suddenly discovered that if you recite Tang poetry over and over again, it will appear sad.Xiao Su said: "Dai Dai, the United States is a very beautiful country, and it will be beautiful even if you go there. There is also a place where the sun is at the end of the mountain, and the Mississippi River flows into the sea." "They're going to give her an American name?" I said. We thought for a while, according to the routine of Chinese people giving themselves English names in Chinese companies, would she be called Daisy? "Do you like the name Daisy?" Xiao Su asked Dai Dai. The child nodded, then shook his head after a while. In fact the child's name is not Daisy, she is Linda.It was the second half of the year, when Xiao Su received an email from Iowa, USA, written in English, which contained photos of her child and an introduction of her current situation.A girl named Linda was wearing a skirt and sitting on a chair with a smile. She had a dark complexion, and she did look like an Asian girl in a Hollywood movie.Xiao Su wrote back in English, wishing them happiness, but later his mailbox was hacked and he lost the news. The rain stopped, and we took our children to the children's theater in Daicheng.I have never been to that place. In my childhood, only top students could go in to watch the free performances, and Yang Chi and others were frequent visitors.Now I can finally go in with justification and justice, with our half-baked daughter.The stage play "New Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs" was performed that day, and we bought four tickets.When I walked into the theater, it was too dilapidated, the attendance rate was only one-third, and the lights were not on in many places.Yang Chi said: "It used to be beautiful here, but now it's like this." I said: "Hey, let's see if Snow White will have a psychological shadow on the child, what about the stepmother and queen." Xiao Su said: "It's said in the introduction, the new Snow White, another story." Chair cover, I thought, I don't know what to see.The lights dimmed, the curtain opened, and a middle-aged chubby actress played Snow White, who was going to fight the dragon with a sword in her hand.Xiao Su said: "Is this Snow White?" I pointed to the movie ticket and said, "New Snow White." Xiao Su said, okay, keep watching.After a while the dwarfs came out, we counted and found that something was wrong, there were only three dwarfs.At this time, Snow White also asked: "There are four more?" The three dwarfs said: "They have gone to mine." So in this stage play armed with Snow White, there are only three dwarfs. The dwarves, Snow White led them to slaughter six dragons, no queen, no hunter, no prince.Yang Chi shook his head and said, "I knew there weren't enough actors, so why didn't I act in 'Cinderella and Dragon Slayer'?" Xiao Su said, "My lord, the four of us can act." Dai Dai said, "Dogs can act." Dragon." I said: "It's all alive." The fat Snow White said: "The audience below please don't make any noise." After watching this play, we all thought that this was the worst and happiest performance by a grass-stage troupe we have ever seen in our life.We left with the kids, bought a red balloon at the entrance of the theater, and stood on the street waiting for a taxi.After a while, the child cried, let go, and the balloon flew away. "Just let the balloon fly away and buy it later." I said. "It was she who cried first and then the balloon flew away." Xiao Su said. The three of us squatted on the side of the street to comfort her, but she still cried and didn't want balloons anymore.This kind of situation has never happened before. The child has always been very well-behaved, which made us at a loss, as if we had really become three dwarfs.After a while, the taxi came, and we carried her into the car, but we still couldn't stop crying.We were on the verge of crying too.The car arrived in the downtown area and came down to look for food. Lao Yang asked the child what he wanted to eat. She wiped her tears and pointed to the signboard of the fried chicken shop.I thought to myself, this is not bad, I already know this, and you won't be hungry if you go to the United States. We didn't understand why she was crying, and after eating fried chicken, we forgot to ask her again.Until later, Yang Chi met Teacher Lin and talked about it.Teacher Lin pondered: "The police said that Dai Dai was picked up at the entrance of the children's theater." At that time, the child had already left. So I closed my eyes, and imagined a scene where the three of us stood at the entrance of the theater, with the poster of Snow White and the Three Dwarfs behind us, and there was a gloomy and silent entrance with steps going up one after another.The streets were deserted, and the traces of rainwater on the ground were half-dried by the short-lived sun.It was hot and humid, and we stood alone, unable to move.A man came by on a bicycle, and there was a girl on the front bumper. The man didn't seem to see us, so he left the girl on the side of the street and walked away. We took her and stood on the side of the street.We are like four orphans, we are always together and forever waiting to be separated.The red balloon flew into the sky.I've dreamed about this scene over and over again, only to wake up feeling disheartened. The child doesn't know, and Xiao Su and I don't know either. Lao Yang once went to the orphanage with a livid face.Teacher Lin said: The other party is an American couple in their fifties who teach at a university in Iowa. They are both well-known people. You don't have to worry about Dai Dai's future.Yang Chi said: "When we came to adopt her, you said that Dai Dai can't do it. You knew she would be taken away from then on, right?" Teacher Lin said: "Yes." Yang Chi said : "Then why do you want me to adopt her?" Teacher Lin said: "This is not my decision, Dean Yang has the final say. Can you take a cataract boy home? You can't." Yang Chi Leng He said coldly, "You don't have enough actors." Teacher Lin looked at him sadly, and Lao Yang came back without saying anything. The rainy season is too long.We sat for a long time, waiting for the Americans to take a tour of Daicheng and then take her away. On this day, Lao Yang rode his bicycle alone and sent Dai Dai back to the orphanage.The child sat on the front bumper, braving the summer wind, his hair brushing up again and again.Lao Yang was sweating profusely, and finally had to take off his undershirt and ride his bike shirtless. Yang Chi asked: "We are about to separate, will you miss me?" The child said, "Yes." Yang Chi said, "Actually, what I want to ask is, will you remember me?" The child said, "Yes. But where are you going?" Yang Chi said angrily: "I'm going to collect the debt. Someone owed me money and didn't pay it back. When I get the debt back, we can meet again."
That summer Yang Chi was sent to Huashui County to collect debts, and I wanted to go with him, but Lao Yang said no, this time I went with Zhu Kang, and I wouldn't let this bastard slip away again.Then he cursed, "Tang Seng only fetched the Buddhist scriptures once, what the hell, took the 100,000 yuan and ran eight times, what's the matter?"Xiao Su said, "What about Dai Dai?" Yang Chi said that it won't be too long this time, it will be done in two days, and if it doesn't work out, he will leave Huashui County in time.The flood peaks of rivers and rivers from all over the place came one after another, and the prime minister was on the embankment.Xiaosu's father is a water conservancy engineer. Xiaosu understands this better. She shook her head and said, "The prime minister has never stepped on the dam at such a time in history. In a catastrophic year, you should go back early." We watched the news on TV every day, the flood was imminent, and Yang Chi didn't come back.A few days later, Zhu Kang returned to Daicheng from Huaishui County, but he didn't get any money.Minister Bao asked, "Where's Yang Chi?" Zhu Kang said, "I don't know, I thought Yang Chi had already returned." Minister Bao didn't take it seriously.A few days later, Yang Chi was still nowhere to be seen, and there was no phone call.Lao Yang's father rushed to the sales department, grabbed Minister Bao, and asked him to hand over his son.Minister Bao shrugged and said, "I don't know where he went, did he find an orphan again?" Yang Chi's father called the police. The problem is, the police in Daicheng can't be sure that Yang Chi is dead regardless of the affairs of Huashui County. Lost locally.Thinking about going there again, I found that the road line was out of service. Lao Yang is gone. At that time, Teacher Lin called Yang Chi's house but no one answered, and finally called Xiao Su, the two of us were feeding the dog and taking medicine. "If you want to come and see her off, it's now." Teacher Lin said. Xiao Su said: "Yang Chi is on a business trip. Can I wait for him to come back?" Teacher Lin said: "It's impossible, the air ticket is booked. You and Lu Xiaolu will see her off?" Xiao Su looked at me, and I silently shook my head.Xiao Su hung up the phone.The two of us sat on the small bench, stroking the dog, thinking about Yang Chi and Dai Dai who didn't know when they would be back.Xiao Su suddenly said, "Do you feel heartbroken?" "Yes. Heartbroken," I said. I said to Xiao Su, Snow White and the three dwarves slaying the dragon, this is a farce. It might be arranged like this. We never saw Dai Dai again.I'm sorry, but I'm just saying this before my life is over.
I don't know why, but in the days when I can't get along, I always think of the factory doctor sister.When everyone is away from me, this most distant person seems to be with me all the time.Over time though, she has shrunk to a tiny point, kind of like a cosmic black hole, mass conglomeration, but it doesn't crush me, it just stops me for a moment, deflects, or loses my memory. She has become a foreigner.This fact belongs to another dimension, and for the first half of my life it had no outline, no meaning.Later, Dai Dai also went to the United States, and they suddenly became clear, illuminating each other and sending chills down my spine. The first foreigner I knew in the first half of my life was Bethune. He looked different from us, but he had the same ideas. He was an internationalist fighter, a Canadian, and a neighbor of the United States.The second is Marx, Lenin and others. Needless to say, I also forgot who came first.The third round is the turn of the Slavic national series seen in the movie, but they are actually actors.My mother once said proudly: In fact, the first foreigner you saw was Prince Sihanouk.He came to Daicheng in the 1970s. My mother hugged me to watch the excitement on the street and saw cars driving by.Later my grandma said that the first foreigner I saw in my life was not Prince Sihanouk, but a portrait of Jesus.But she also said that Jesus is not a foreigner, but the Lord.The Lord is above all borders. In the long years that followed, I would often think of the American uncle who took Dai Dai away. Like a radiant god, he rescued the child and came to the prosperous America.Later, Xiao Su said that Iowa is actually quite desolate, and the university may be more lively, and the life of Americans is poorer than that of Chinese, except New York. I picture this kid with a U.S. citizenship, speaking American English, watching Hollywood movies, and eating hamburgers.Telling this kind of thing to the children in the orphanage, they may not understand it, but if everyone has a patron saint above their heads, that god must be showing his power.But that god, as my grandma said, has huge cracks. I imagined that the American uncle and the American aunt walked into Daicheng, and they would definitely see a train station with white walls and blue tiles, covered with tiles, the upper part looks like a Chenghuang Temple, and the lower part looks like a public toilet.Foreigners don't understand Chinese art, otherwise, the calligraphy of "Mountain welcomes you" can also be entertaining for them.This is a city with a history of 2,500 years, which is 500 years older than Jesus. Of course, it is impossible to have relics of the Spring and Autumn Period here. At most, it is enough to look at the Ming and Qing Dynasties.When we talk about the United States, we say that they don't have much history, they are all history blind, 25-year-olds, and their brains are straight, as if their brains can bend because of the precipitation of history.As I said, the foreign tourists filmed on TV are all carrying cameras, taking pictures everywhere, love to eat all kinds of dim sum in Daicheng, can’t speak chicken feather Chinese, and know that Chinese people can’t understand chicken feather English, and they can only stand up in everything. Thumbs up, say good, or say, consumption! This kind of image is too damn deeply rooted in the hearts of the people. In the first half of my life and 25 years ago, I was so optimistic about Caucasians. When they appeared in Chinese advertisements, they would only give thumbs up, good or bad. In the poor eighties, this image could quickly make a soap or a snack a household name.You can even teach them how to speak cross talk and dance yangko.In my eyes, they are both gods and monkeys.But what a fucking pity, I haven't even dealt with a single foreigner.You know, people are sometimes very illusory, thinking that they understand, watching TV is enough, if you only live to be twenty-five years old and die, this kind of illusory is not bad, unfortunately you have to live.In this life, I want to know more things, gods and monkeys, one by one, separated into two compartments. I can imagine that the American uncle and the American aunt came to the Daicheng Welfare Institute, the small road with phoenix bamboo on both sides, walked into the door, and there was silence inside, walked along the clean cement road to the door of the classroom, saw the noon vegetable soup.Falk.This feeling is the same as ours, and people all over the world share this feeling, but even white men and women can't do anything about it, the only way is to take one away.This is similar to what Yang Chi did.I used to think they were gods, but gods are supposed to save everyone. In this sense, the orphanage is the god, and the American uncle is just a kind person.I imagined them walking into the classroom, and Teacher Lin said: You can choose one.No, Mr. Lin would not be so rude, he would quote according to the price list of the orphanage: for the healthy one, one thousand dollars for child support, and for the disabled, eight hundred dollars.Americans certainly don't come to buy discounted goods, they have enough for a thousand dollars, but they are only going to pay for one.In fact, Dean Yang still has a cheaper price in his hand, two hundred dollars, or even two hundred dollars upside down, but Dean Yang will not bring such a child out.The American uncle and aunt must have hesitated, just like when we first came here.Finally, Dean Yang walked to the last row of the classroom and pointed to Dai Dai.This one is healthy. She is five years old. She was picked up on the street and transferred to the orphanage through the police station. She is very quiet and has a bad memory. She has no idea how she lost it.She has a thousand dollars. Will American uncles and aunts go crazy?Whenever I think about it, my imagination goes in circles and I go crazy. The kid really doesn't know anything.Even what she told us was only on the surface of her memory. She didn't know whether her father was poor, hopeless, or simply crazy.She has limited abilities and lacks basis, and time will sink more unspoken memories into the deep sea with her mother country and homeland, leaving only a raft floating on the water.The child stood up as in the past, and looked blankly at the arrival of Uncle America, who decided to adopt her.The child goes to the Gold Coast on the raft of memory. The United States is not far away, but between us and you, in the first half of my life, there was indeed a gap in the God Realm, so that I couldn't look directly at it.The United States is the Gold Coast, and China is also the Gold Coast. In my opinion, the only thing that is not on the Gold Coast.
In fact, I guessed wrong. In the long time since then, that girl has been annihilated in memory.I only think of her very occasionally, and then keep forgetting.There are too many people I have forgotten in the first half of my life. One night many years later, I drank too much and sat in a daze on the street. Xiaosu called my cell phone from Switzerland.Xiao Su said: "I've been looking for Yang Chi for a long time, but I can't find it." I said that Lao Yang was out of town and invested in an IT company. As a result, the boss had a cerebral hemorrhage at the age of 25 and died from overwork. It's all in vain.Xiao Su said: "I forgot the mailbox of the professor in Iowa for a long time, but I still remember his last name." I said, so what.Xiao Su said: "I used Twitter to search for this girl named Linda, and I found it, 20 years old, Asian. Can you use Twitter now?" I said I could use a chicken feather, and I even took a taxi No, the driver doesn't want to pull a drunk guy who is sitting on the street to stop the car. What is that twenty-year-old Asian girl saying?Xiao Su said, it's all about travel, she's studying, it's nothing serious. I said, "That's good. Did you leave a message?" "I don't. We agreed back then that her past was wiped out, and we never existed." Xiao Su said, "But she has a bunch of signatures written in English, which is very interesting." "I can't understand English now, you can translate it." Xiao Su said: "The general idea is: I want to become a unicorn and knock over you assholes." So fast, so light, our half-baked daughter is old enough to call people stupid.When I was twenty-five years old, I didn’t understand anything, I could only call people stupid. I didn’t realize it until I was forty. Holding my phone, I suddenly felt dizzy, like an asshole, an asshole who woke up too late, with He was knocked over by the pure unicorn fifteen years ago, and lay on the street.